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InnerPeace - Tuesday Nov 14, 2017

Weight: 303.7

So I spent $90 getting my gray hair covered up and cut. However, this morning I can feel it changing back to gray. I will say this without feeling bad! I hate kids!

The YA is mad at us for making his little sister cry. Whatever! I emailed him and told him why she was crying. Not that I will miss him coming over, but I thought he should know it was nothing we did. Maybe he should be mad at his mom for helping her lie.

We had left over salisbury steak and cabbage for dinner. It was just ok.

B: english muffien, almond butter, iced vnailla latte (only 2 more left)

L: left over pot pie; yogurt, blackberries

S: balanced breaks

D: should be ham & cheese monte cristo again - depends on if DH got the ingredients.

Not a happy camper today about the kids. Will probably deal with that lt later today.

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/14/2017:
I gave up on covering the gray and decided to embrace it....it's easier that way for me. it stays gray even without kids...LOL


horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2017:
i agree with you fully about YA. YOU are 100% RIGHT. Don't even worry.



InnerPeace - Monday Nov 13, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Friday the girl text me at 6:30 telling me she wasn't going to school, because her mother had a mild heart attack and was getting a stent put in. Her grandma already called her off. I tell her I'm sorry to hear about your mom, however, if you still want to go to school, let me know and i will come and take you. She said NO. Of course she did.  So all day I'm asking myself what is she doing to help her mother? absolutely nothing! She missed school because her grandma didn't want to take her.

I went to get my gray covered up and get my hair cut and then DH and I went to do some Chrsimtas shopping. We ended up eating a late lunch at a pub. I had a pulled pork sandwich. We got the girl a sandwich for dinner. We ordered her a cookie bouquet for her birthday. We picked her up and went home. She ate and we just messed around the rest of the night.

Saturday when DH gets home, we go to a few craft shows and didn't really buy anything. At one craft show they gave us a raffle ticket and instead of looking at what was for sale I was more interested to see if my raffle ticket was at any of the vendor tables...it wasn't.

We get home and I make a chicken pot pie that turned out fabulously! I should have taken a picture of it...not sure why I stopped that, but I will start again. DH went to bed and the girl talked. I watched football and she played and talked. She complained about her phone for two days.

Sunday the girl and DH go grocery shopping, I do laundry. I even broke down and did the girls. I told her "thank you" goes a long way. DH and I decided to let her use his old Iphone 5 so she would stop complaining about her phone. I told her we are not paying for something that she would be restricted from using to talk to her dad by her mother and step-dad. she understands and said she would use it just on Wi-FI then. DH made salisbury steak, mashed potatoes and salad.

I didn't eat a lot over the weekend, but I did not eat the right foods either, so I ended up gaining 2.8 pounds. I will get this back off.

Work will be crazy the next week or so, we have a safety compliance audit and annual inventory that I will be deeply involved in, not to meniton my regular duties.

I will get back on track...

And as far as I'm concerned....Thanksgiving still comes, Kayla Birthday comes and then I'll worry about Christmas.

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
Ricky and I also bought raffle tickets - actually only he did - and we didn't win either. They were raffles at a Veteran's Day concert band performance that we attended on Sunday.

2.8lb gain may also be due to salt / water weight.

have a good eve and stay happy!


happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
It's probably 2.8 lbs of poop ;-)


bearcountrygg on 11/14/2017:
Yup...What Hap said!


horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2017:
Oh, i'm glad to know that you will try to lessen cheese...i also need to fix my diet actually.

I need more potassium.

I may also try to lessen my expensive habit of kombucha drinking...and use apple cider vinegar in seltzer again or actually learn to poop after work or something...!



InnerPeace - Thursday Nov 09, 2017

Weight: 303.7

DH made a fantastic apricot roasted chicken for dinner, even the girl ate it. Speaking of the girl. She was a bit standoffish, which I'm OK with. As I watched her squirm around and fume and sigh and mumble trying to do her homework, I offered to help and she kinda thawed out. We hung out with DH and then she and I left to go to a craft class at the library. She painted light switch plates for her room; I sent postcards. Her mother picked her up at the library.

I'm glad to be off work tomorrow; just feel really tired and run down. DH and I have planned some Christmas shopping tomorrow and then we have the girl this weekend. I also got tickets to see Radium Girls - a play about girls who painted watch dials to glow with radium and then got sick doing their job. Well if we don't like it, we can always leave early.

Saturday we are going to a craft show and that is about it. There is a hike on the calendar but BCGG's weather is supposed to move in sometime this weekend. I'm ready for it!

B: oatmeal scone; iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blueberries

L: sandwhich with baked chicken

S: balanced breaks

D: I'm not sure - I think I had chicken and dumplings but I think DH has been making whatever he wants.

So, I will try to take a few minutes to post over the weekend.

Have a great Thursday!

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/09/2017:
I saw the Balanced breaks the other day...I was surprised to see that they came in packs of 3...that makes the price a lot better...I had always thought they were $4.89 for one.



InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 08, 2017

Weight: 303.7

The first 82 days of my telemove session ended Monday. The 2nd one started yesterday. I lost about 18 pounds. My goal was to get to 299 so I can hopefully get that done in the next 82 days. I still feel I haven't given it my best effort. This I will have to work on.

Still feeling blue, not sure why, I can't change the how other people act, just my reactions to it...so I will work on this. My DH got p!ssy because I told him I didn't think he was telling me was funny and he was just laughing like no tomorrow - must be male humor or something.

Work is crazy with a tornado outbreak Sunday - people are still scrambling around.

B: oatmeal scone, vanilla iced latte

L: left over mac& cheese; yogurt

S: balanced breaks

D: not sure some kind of chicken

We have the girl tonight - we are going to the library for a craft thing, her mom is supposed to pick her up there.

Will continue to work on myself. Take care ladies. iP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/08/2017:
Congrats on the 18 pound loss...that is fantastic. Sounds like telemove is working really well for you!


happy-1 on 11/08/2017:
Nice!!!!!! Slow progress is still progress and easier to maintain!


horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2017:
Hi IP!

Good of you to get thru already 82 days. That is a lot, almost 3 months! Congrats on losing 18 pounds – that’s also a LOT! Great job.

I see you eat a lot of cheese – I think that if you can forgo cheese some days of the week, that you may have an easier time losing weight. Cheese packs in a TON of calories per ounce, so if you can do without it, you’ll save yourself a ton of calories. That’s particularly the reason that I don’t eat MOST types of cheese, although cream cheese is a staple and I do use it on wraps in the mornings sometimes. But the wrap is low cal and the smoked fish that I put on the wrap I also low cal, so the cheese is balanced out…anyways…moving on!...

You cannot be responsible for other’s bad actions…might as well turn your “frown upside down!”…I heard a teenage (cute funny boy) say that to one of his friends at McDonalds earlier this week and I thought it was pretty funny. I’ve heard it before and just thought of it now when you mention you are feeling blue. Listen, you may as well just smile…

I am so sorry to hear of the Tornado Outbreak and I hope everyone’s life gets back to normal REALLY SOON. That’s so frustrating, I can imagine…I am glad it doesn’t sound like it reached you.

innerpeace on 11/09/2017:
I know you have talked about cheese before. It is a habit...I love cheese. I will try to cut down on it.



InnerPeace - Monday Nov 06, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Saturday - I tried to get up but OMG i was just so tired. When DH got home we went on a few errands. We were going to a Holiday craft show but it was only on Friday. So we just drove around and ran into a local butcher block. They cook gourmet sausages from noon-4 with the hopes of getting people to buy there sausage. It works.

We sampled about six different sausages, four of them were just ok, very spicey. Two we bought - a maple bacon sausage and another type of sausage with herbs that tasted nice.

Then we DH finally realized where we were we stopped at a Spudnut Doughnut shop. They use a potatoe flour to make their doughnuts. They were delicious. We bought 1/2 dozen and took them home. Not that we needed them, but they were so good.

Once we got home, we mowed the front and back yard - hopefully for the last time. I have never had to mow grass in the month of November...ever!

DH went to bed and I settled in for FOOTBALL! Sooners had me on the edge of my seat, but they pulled out the victory.

Had almost 2375 calories - stupid doughnuts!

SUNDAY - again - tried to sleep with the time change - slept better but didn't seem to get enough. DH got home and we went shopping. I prefer to let him and the girl do it, but I decided to go a long. - walked a lot

B: English muffin

L: Slice of pizza

D: bacon, mac & cheese and cabbage

Laundry - without the girls - I seemed to finish 2 hours early, but maybe because I started sooner.

MONDAY - I was wide awake at 3:00, I finally got back to sleep and was up at 5:00. I opted not to exercise instead took an extra long shower and then I meditated. This was wonderful and may do this again.

Once I got to work DH texted me to tell me the YA did in fact trade the car off, so I called the insurance agent and canceled the insurance. I am not paying for a car he doesn't have any more. Saves me $125 a month. And that ungrateful thing can deal with his own insurance...and car payment. He still owes me $250 - I doubt I will ever see this. I was just going to give him the payment book for Christmas so I will just be out $100. He's a rat/snake/whatever!

Other than that - my office has been extremely busy, apparently there was bad weather I was not aware of....and they have been out doing storm surveys all day along with the media calls - the office as been quite more busy than usual.

B: english muffin w/almond butter; iced vanilla latte

L: left over mac n cheese

S: yogurt, blueberries morning - balanced breaks AM

D: I think London broil and roasted vegetables - depends on what time DH gets back from his doctor's appointment.

I can't wait until Friday - day off!

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
Hiiiii InnerPeace! I have never done that voting thing early. Good idea for busy people…

Saturday I was tired too….but HAD to get up for a class…and was promptly tired after it, but still did a few things….and then I seriously got up to do laundry Sunday after which I just plain fell back to sleep again, till 3pm! I guess we all need sleep sometimes! Haha. Of course we do!

The herbed sausage sounds really nice. Who doesn’t like a good sausage!? I sure do. I wish they weren’t all so fatty! But man, they are good. I do eat them every so often. A nice change of pace. And some are actually lighter varieties in the stores. I was buying chicken sausages quite a bit not too long ago – I think it was last year where I was eating them pretty often – bringing them as part of my lunch at work with veggies. And some kinda grain, prob chips lol, on the side.

That’s so funny with your potato flour donuts. In the Jewish religion, there’s a week or so in the Springtime called Passover holiday and we can only eat cakes and pastries and food made of potato flour! We cannot eat anything with yeast that makes dough rise…so when you are writing about potato flour, it only makes me think of that holiday right away…bc that’s how I think of potato flour! Lol….no offense just something funny that came to my mind! Oh, 2375 calories – don’t worry about it :--P…it’s good to have some ups and downs…you’ll be OK!

Oh man how nice…the bacon, mac and cheese and cabbage is a GREAT mix! I’d mix that all together…eating some of that bacon and mac and cheese with cabbage any day…very cool and tasty and a way for it all to be a bit more filling!

I hope you got all your laundry done!

But I am glad to hear he traded the car or whatever…it’s good to see he had carried thru with his plans. Having a car and bills is so expensive. It’s so hard for young people. I hope that one day he does get back on track in the best of ways. I do wish the best for all…I do. :---)

You know, my office seems busy all of a sudden also. … and busy for no good reason though. Everyone is here on Monday. That’s for sure..Even one of the girls I despise is back from maternity leave…I am sorry I have to see her face!

Ohhh, I love those roasted veggies. I need to start cooking them now that it’s getting cooler out! Tonight I will run, in the dark.


bearcountrygg on 11/06/2017:
Getting out of paying the car insurance is a great perk for you....my guess is that he didn;t thnk of that...YEAH YOU!!!!



InnerPeace - Friday Nov 03, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Nervous, anxiety, bufferflies I was so keyed up over seeing the girl again I made myself sick and gave myself a tension headache.

But the confrontation happened - I was calm, layed out the facts, reiterated the rules and applied the punishment. We even had role play in case similar situations arise. Either way, the lying and scheming to get her way will not be tolerated. I also told her I didn't appreciate the YA's GF texting me about the situation, especially when she didn't know the entire story. And she will tell her about it when/if the three of us are in the same room. I told her whether she chooses to lie or tell the truth, that my love for her doesn't change, just how we get along.

Afterwords, I couldn't eat dinner and just tried to relax. The girl went to take a shower. DH went to check on her and she was bawling. I'm glad. She said she lost her best friend and DH told her, you can't hurt people like you did. Anyway, I did feel better and took some Aleve and 1/2 a muscle relaxer. That was a big mistake.

I wouldn't let DH got to bed until she left, I am still not in a position to take care of her on my own for now - I'm just really disappointed and upset with her.

Dinner - I told DH to only use one can of canned tomatoes - well he should have used the two called for because it was thick and kinda nasty. I ate half a bowl.

I over slept big time this morning - didn't wake up until 6:15 ACK - can't be doing this! Well I won't be doing the muscle relaxer again...but I did sleep great.

Meeting at work today - who holds staff meetings on Friday? I want to get out of here. No big plans this weekend. DH and I may go to a Christmas craft show and the Big Lots has a grand opening so we may just shop around. I do want to see a movie and of course its the weekend and there is always FOOTBALL!

B: toast; iced vanilla latte

L: left over ravioli, yogurt, blueberries

S: balanced breaks

I still am on the TeleMove program and my care coordinator called me yesterday, just told him  I was having issues getting motivated with my activity, but other than that I am still within the 3-8 pounds per month so I'm good.

Have a great weekend. IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/03/2017:
It's good to hear that you had a talk with her....sounds like she got the message.


horn_of_plenty on 11/03/2017:
I am proud of you for how you approached the situation with the girl- I really agree with how you said you will always love her but the way you get along will change. Pretty perfect. I think she may get better and behave better. Her birth mother is a big schemer so you will really have to help her see it's not the way to do things.

We also have work meetings on fridays for the most important administration!


Donkey on 11/04/2017:
You did well...


Horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2017:
I agree with J-donk.

You are an awesome person, InnerP. Don't forget that!

and keep your healthy routine :)



InnerPeace - Thursday Nov 02, 2017

Weight: 303.7

DH misread the menu and made  black bean burgers for dinner  (that was lunch for today) instead of the rotisseri chicken. That's ok, the black bean burger was ok.

We walked the dog, I did jog a little and I didn't hurt anywhere, so I may get back into this - of course depends on the weather, always.

sick is the only way I can describe today.

B: english muffin; iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blueberries

L: ham and cheese panini - scalded my mouth on this wow who knew 45 seconds could get something so hot

S: balanced breaks

D: ravioli, spinach and cream cheese crock pot stew

Have a great night. IP

 

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/02/2017:
oh...sorry about the burn....but the panini sounds good though.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/03/2017:
yep, my outdoor exercise is weather depending as well...usually weather is OK and sometimes i have to schedule around it. but, for the most part, i think in NY we have more pleasant weather days than not!

you are sick? feel better?

that stew sounds unreal! sounds cool. if the ravioli has cheese and there's also added cream cheese in the stew, is there a way to lighten it so it's only ravioli with cheese or only the cream cheese and not the ravioli? i'm picky.

also, the stew might be good with a spaghetti squash?

have a wonderful night...always supporting and proud of you. you are a role model.

innerpeace on 11/03/2017:
No not sick per se. Just sick about what the evening will bring with the girl.



InnerPeace - Wednesday Nov 01, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I appreciate all your comments about my current situation - I'm just glad I can get this all off my chest here. I have made an appointment with a fmaily therapist as well. I have been reading a lot and learning a lot and talked and talked and cried lots of tears. I even told my DH that I felt so hurt that this is worse than my divorce. At least when my exhusband broke my heart I left and didn't have to still see him and deal with him ever again.

Things are tough for that girl - I know her mother and step-father have restrictions on what she can and can't do with her phone and facebook. They have even blocked DH from her phone and he cannot even text or talk to her with messenger or anything - I guess maybe we should have blocked her from talking to her mother but I'm just not like that...yet. I just still can't believe the mother condones this and actually helped her - if my kid even asked me to do something like this - I would have such a different approach - I would not help them deceive someone deliberately.

anyway - I walked my dog before trick or treaters and then couldn't bring myself to pass out candy. I don't even think there were a lot because Steve didn't bark too much at all. Both DH and I ate a few pieces but I brough the rest of the candy to work for these crazies to eat. I did make some scones for breakfast that turned out amazing.

B: oatmeal scone - iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blueberries

L: naan bread, left over steak

S: balanced breaks

D: scheduled is rotisserie chicken, but I can't say if DH thawed the chicken yet or not - this may change

I over slept big time this morning, I turned the 5:00 am alarm off and didn't wake back up until 6:37 - no shower this a.m. and I'm feeling it now. - just feel dirty, face feels greasy, hair is limp and yuck - I surely miss my morning shower.

Have been changing my files over at work for the new fiscal year and shredding old stuff so have been keeping pretty busy..

Still expecting a text from girl's mother saying she is sick or has something to do tomorrow. I will be very surprised if she faces the music tomorrow.

No plans tonight - may take a nap

Have a good night.

 

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/01/2017:
Getting it all off your chest is a good thing....we all need to vent now and then....and good for you not passing out treats last night if you didn't feel like it....


BearCountryGG on 11/01/2017:
Getting it all off your chest is a good thing....we all need to vent now and then....and good for you not passing out treats last night if you didn't feel like it....


Donkey on 11/02/2017:
(((hugs)))



InnerPeace - Tuesday Oct 31, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I get home and DH was very upset the whole day. I can't discribe how hurtful this is to us. We go out of our way to teach responsibility, respect and decency and to have all that thrown in our face is just so, so very sad to me. It is hard not to feel hurt.

If the girl does come over on Thursday we are going to have a long talk with her. I have even written notes because I want her to understand how her actions affect people...and for what...just for some candy! My first order of business is the definition of these words: LIE, SCHEME, BACKSTAB, TAKE ADVANTAGE, DECEPTION, USER, PLAYER, DISRESPECT - because apparently she does not know what they mean  she is going to learn.

I have also noticed a pattern of how she is. If she is telling a story it is always someone eles's fault. Her step-sister did it, her cousin did it, someone at school did it - she never does anything, she is little miss innoscent and never does anything - well she has no one to blame for this misgiving - unless she is going to blame her mother?

We will see

DH still had his PJs on when I got home, but he made us cranberry turkey burgers for dinner. They were pretty good, tasted like Thanksgiving in a burger.

We sat in silence for about two hours - finally I said - how are we going to handle this? We have talked about it and came up with a plan, so again, if she does come over on Thursday we are prepared.

We also broke open the bag of trick or treat candy. I wish a freaking blizzard would show up about 5:00 pm, but I doubt that would happen.

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: 1/2 ham sandwich, yogurt, blueberries

S: balanced breaks

D: supposed to be beef and noodles, but the girl was supposed to be over, so I'm not sure what DH is going to cook. We would try to normally have something the girl would eat, but why bother now?

So if you are trick or treating - stay safe out there!

IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/31/2017:
First of all your cranberry turkey burgers sound so good.....getting to be that time of year again. You are right....she needs to learn a few things and right there at the top is that it is your house and your house has rules. She is at what I consider the absolute worst age of childhood. I love babies, toddlers and grade schoolers...and I don't mind them again at 16 to 18....but that middle school age just makes my head hurt.......they are part kid and part grown up an all a pain in the you know what. Puberty has hit and she is playing all of you one against the other and it sounds like her mother has taught her that...Keep pushing the manners, the importance of responsibility and honesty and try not to let her ruin your relationship with your husband.


biscottibody59 on 10/31/2017:
Congrats on the loss--woo-hoo!

I had to voice my opinion. I think a lot of you and I hope you take it with a grain of salt where it doesn't apply.

You're swimming against the tide and going farther out to sea despite your best efforts. You have to make it clear to your husband that you're at your last straw. He should be the one disciplining this child and being the bad cop. It's not your job.

There's that. Then there's the toll it's taking on you. You should be first especially at menopause. You don't know what the future will bring for your health, but all this outside sh*t that isn't even your responsibility is not going to help.

Leave. That's what I vote for. Your very existence may be at stake. If you get a week of vacation accumulated, go and get out. Keep your job or not. Go back to OK or not. Come back from OK or not. It will send a signal to all that you're not going to be messed with anymore. They'll survive just fine.

I had a niece who this sort of reminds me of, except that her "home" life with mom/grandparents was so bad that she was a gem when living with my mother (her grandmother). She loved the structure.

This child is kind of "not with it" for her age. She may have some real social deficits unique to her or she may have a mental disorder or syndrome keeping her from "getting it."

It never ends for you and I read your EVERY post. I feel for you because it seems all you want is to have a relationship with hubby and now he's not capable of being the man you RIGHTLY need him to be.

It's not your fault!

I have a separate comment, but I'll leave that 'til tomorrow.

PLEASE please take good care of yourself. You have to! No one else is going to step up and do it unfortunately.

My happy niece eventually went home and went one year to HS. Downhill in so many ways. Got knocked up at 17 and the rest is a very sordid history. I can look up at least two mugshots on the internet. Not that even remotely that is what's going to happen with this kid. But you can't keep it or something similar from happening.

Sorry to get so personal with you, but I hate seeing you suffer. It's real and I hope you take my words as intended and not as criticism of any of the players. Life is messy for sure!

I'm glad you got a stash of your precious latte:-) Little things mean a lot!

innerpeace on 11/01/2017:
Thank you so much. I appreciate the time it took to write that. I have thought and rethought about everything you said a hundred times. It is just so hard to leave or go on vacation when money is tight.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/01/2017:
i agree with BB above that YOU matter and you have to take the stand for yourself.

i hope you never have to leave. i know hubby loves you.

i do believe you are better at parenting / brainstorming solutions than hubby - he needs your help i think. and yes he must give you his support :)

both of you should discipline her as you are....make her apologize an take responsibility for choosing to do what she did. she chose to hurt you and act that way. she chose to listen to YA and her mom. she chose those decisions and that makes her personally at fault.

always remember to not take things too seriously all the time - you will get thru.

disciplne her, but then hopefully move on to something light / happy activity together again :)

innerpeace on 11/01/2017:
Thanks.



InnerPeace - Monday Oct 30, 2017

Weight: 303.7

So the good news is....I lost weight. I'm pleased. but really can't enjoy it.

Friday

B: English mufifn, iced vanilla latte

L: Cheese sandwich; apple

D: chicken brocoli crescent ring

Saturday:

B: toast, peanute butter - iced vanilla latte

L: chicken quesadilla

D: turkey burger with sweet potato fries

S: banana, peanut butter smothie

Sunday:

B: English muffin; iced vanilla latte

L: Sam's hot dog

D: chicken, salad, rice...bile

However, I had the worst Sunday ever! I just need to vent. Drama overload - it has made me sick.

It is hard to describe people's actions. But for the last four years, I have experienced it. For instance the girl will be over and mention something. I let it go. This could be a new hoodie, a new toy, a new CD or something she wants. I never ask for more informaiton, I never dig to see what's she's after. It was deep down in my heart of hearts, I would hope her mother or step-dad would get it for her. Never happened.

Anway, in the beginning of October she has said she wanted to be a unicorn for Halloween. DH is kinda like, whatever, you need to wear the Cheshire Cat costume I bought you last year. She replies I don't want that. Anyway, another week goes by and she is still talking about being a unicorn. I ask is your mom buying the costume. Her reply. I don't know. Maybe I can do something around her for money. - yeah whatever. And all during this time the YA and GF are saying they are coming over to trick or treat with her. OK great - I hate trick or treating anyway.

Anyway, of course we break down and buy the unicorn costume, well because she is at our house for Halloween. Now whatever happened between Wednesday last week to Sunday at 5.00 I will never know. But I did what I do on Sunday, which is wash clothes. I asked her if she needed the clothes done before she left, her reply - yes they are school clothes. So I of course start laundry to get this girl her clothes. Anyway, she managed to p!ss me off during dinner. We were eating and the dryer timer goes off and I'm like OK OK i'll be down after dinner.

She made some kind of smart comment, like I would never fold clothes. I"m like what? you can fold you own clothes. She said I will hang them. I said, yeah well you can wash them too. She says, I don't know how to use the washer. I'm like, sure you do I've shown you two other times, you prefer not to remember. It's not EFFing calculus and you are not stupid, I'm sure you can figure it out. You just don't freaking want to remember, you can remember what I said about a swimming pool 2 freaking years ago, but you can't remember how to turn a knob on a washing machine  these something wrong with this picture. You just keep your nasty clothes at your mom's house - maybe she'll get to them when she feel like it.

So after dinner, she went upstairs and was texting her mom and believe it or not the nasty YA's GF and apparently they all decided Saturday that she was to stay at her mom's for Halloween. Now let me put this out here...I DO NOT AND DID NOT CARE ANYTHING ABOUT TRICK OR TREATING!! or where the h$ll this girl did it.

But it just so happend that I get a text from her mother, asking if she could stay over there because they get good candy and she wanted to learn the new neighborhood (they moved over the summer). I'm freakin' flabberghasted. My reply was I don't care where she trick or treats, because god knows she needs all the good candy she can get. Of course I'm being facetious, this girl weighs over 200 pounds and does not need cancy at ALL.

The mother says thanks!

So the girl comes down stairs and DH asked her, does she want to stay at her mom's for Halloween, she says, i don't know. AND THIS P!SSES ME OFF even more. I said your mom just texted and said that you wanted to stay over there, do you or don't you. And then she puts her head down and says, I don't know. WTF!! I just say, you know what, go get your Sh!t and just go.

So when DH goes to be he finds a note on the bed. The note with $10.00 and says here is the money (that she earned for her grades) and she don't deserve it. (OK this is an agreement she has between her and her dad - she gets $20 for every A - she had one A so DH gives her $10 and we deposit the other $10 in her savngs account) She says I feel I cause so much drama and if you don't want me over here, please just tell me)!!

Seriously so now this is my fault!!

SO after reading the note:  I send the girl an IM telling her, she started the drama, all she had to do is say, you know dad, I would like to trick or treat at mom's! That would have been it, it would have been over and done. But instead of doing that she wanted to lie and scheme and plan stuff and then act like a victim. I told her the money was her's that she had earned it, and that she was always, always welcome at our house.

That we always treated her good and I felt really hurt and lied to about the whole trick or treating thing. I told her to have fun and be safe.

 And then I get a text from the YA nasty GF telling me that she the girl didn't lie and I was really really rude.

I get the girls Ipad and she should have logged out of facebook, because the whole chat session is between the three of them. the GF and mother telling her how to go about it, she says she is scared to talk to her dad...again WTF!! so she asked her mom to text me, and ask me if she could stay home - and the mom says, OK but you have to say you want too. And all this started Saturday night.

Seriously!!!

I cannot tell you all the crap I've put up with that girl for the last four years!! I am so hurt and feel so played and used and OMG trying to be with my DH right now is just awful.

I couldn't sleep all night and OMG my back is killing me and I cannot tell you how much I hate, hate my life right now! It's like you try and try and whatever you do, is just never really good enough

You help and try to get them to do the right things but still all they want to do is cheat and lie and go the easy road and never try anything hard, or exert any effort into living.

I'm just so tired and fed up with everything. My DH is miserable because he don't want to lose his kids...because even the YA don't come around anymore because he doesn't want to hear about going back to school and or getting a job. He'd rather sit around and work 2 hours a day for the $30-40 he can make. He'd rather go to a food bank than actually work and make money to buy his own food. And his nasty GF too...now this little heifer is biting off something she don't even know the whole story about.

 

 

 

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

legcramps on 10/30/2017:
Yikes, that is certainly a drama-filled day. How old is the girl? It seems that there have been issues for a while now, and DH doesn't seem to think about it the same way you do? Is that right? That can sure be stressful, and I feel for you. Try to focus on the positives in your life; you lost some weight! Way to go :) Remember that you can't control how other people live their life, you can only control your own actions and responses. Lots of hugs your way :) :) :)

innerpeace on 10/31/2017:
she is 12 - will be 13 in December. We didn't have issues of late - that is why I am so upset. DH is upset as well - and disappointed. We try and try and do things to put her on the right path and teach her right from wrong, however, she seems to want to lie and do mean, hateful things - and her mother helps! That is why I am so upset - that her own mother helps her lie and deceive us.


BearCountryGG on 10/30/2017:
Yeah...teenagers are a lot of fun ( not always)...they do lie, and sneak around and make you want to tear your hair out...I think it's natures way of making it easy for parents to let go of them when they grow up. Time will pass and she will grow up....good for you teaching her to use the washer....keep at it....she needs to know how to use them.

innerpeace on 10/31/2017:
She can go tomorrow and I would not EVEN care. -

When my son was two days old, I knew being a mother was not for me, I'm surprised he got grown. However, he was only with me part-time. Being in the military, he would go with his dad a few years and come back to me a few years, so I didn't have the worst of it.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/30/2017:
don't take any of these people, any of them, seriously.

you are of higher standards and morals. don't feel played.

in the end, they are the liars and the cheats of the world. YOU AREN'T.

Try not to take them seriously...and keep your rules for your own house....

and rest a little, take some time to yourself.

and enjoy your hubby.

I do agree with Legs, let the act like idiots. You can't help them if they don't wanna work on themselves.

innerpeace on 10/31/2017:
Thanks! I thought that was what I was doing. The evil has found it's way into my house - it multiplies quickly.



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