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InnerPeace - Wednesday Jun 06, 2018

Weight: 315.0

PEOPLE!! Inspection is next Monday I will be glad when Monday gets here and goes away! The main people who should be working on the inspection are conveniently gone and I can not believe their supervisor let them go!

After this inspection I will have no other excuse not to do anything, so I must hold myself accountable to actually do something. We have the girl the week after so I will have to take a few days of vacation while DH goes to work.

I am in a rut and feel I need to do something different with my life. I even thought of starting graduate school, but I don't even know what the hell it is I want to do.

Sometimes, I just don't think life needs to be this hard for me.

Last night I made grilled chicken with brocolli and noodles with afredo sauce and that is what I am having for lunch as well.

DH said something about pork chops tonight, but it's his night to cook, so he can figure this out.

I will try to go and find myself! Have a great day IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/06/2018:
Hopefully after Monday you will ne happier.

horn_of_plenty on 06/07/2018:
Seems you are taking the inspection more seriously than them. just remember that it cannot all rest on your shoulders. i honestly feel good about this upcoming inspection hearing all you are doing to plan for it...seems although you want everything done and complete now, it does sound like things are moving forward :)

Donkey on 06/07/2018:
I get that "itch" to do something more with my life from time to time, too - that feeling of wanting a positive change, want to work on something, build something of one's own. It can be hard to figure it out. (This is how I arrived to owning 4 cats at one point in my adult life...)

Maybe find a new volunteering opportunity as a start?

happy-1 on 06/08/2018:
What about going for walks with the girl as an activity? Get both of you out and moving. Have you ever heard of geocacheing? You look for "treasure" other people have hidden and use an app to find it. You can also hide your own treasures. Turns a walk into a game.


Or sign up for Rover or Wag and get paid to go on a dog walk.

InnerPeace - Monday Jun 04, 2018

Weight: 315.0

Sunday - DH brought Jersey Mike subs home after getting the girl's eyebrows threaded. Wasn't expecting this for lunch and dinner. The YA and his GF came over, luckily DH bought extra so they could eat as well. I think they come over around meal time because they are hungry and/or need to eat. This is OK I don't mind feeding them, that's what parents are for.

The girl left at 6:00 and I came down with the worst case of heartburn and/or indigestion I've had in forever. I swigged on Pepto and ate Tums, it finally went away after awhile or so  I thought. I was back up at 3:30 and sat in the recliner until about 5:00, I was up at 5:45 so not much sleep last night.

Monday I was ok with toast for breakfast, however, I am not feeling well right this minute sitting at my desk. I had PB&J for lunch and a handful of sour cream and onion chips. Maybe from the soda, I don't know but I have the same issue as last night, very painful. I did take some Aleve, I'll see how long this sticks around. I usually don't suffer from this type of pain so I may worry it it happens again tomorrow.

Probably from all my work stress, hopefully it will be over this time next week when the inspection is over.

DH received a .50 cent raise from his job - he completed his 90 day probation and now is a bona fide employee. I'm so happy for him and he really seems to like his job, and right now the drive doesn't even seem to bother him. We will see after another month or so.

This is all in the life of JoAnn!

Have a great Monday. IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 06/04/2018:
Howdy JoAnn!

What’s Jersey Mike subs? A name of a local deli chain? Sorry about your heartburn! Was It cooked peppers and onions? I wouldn’t want subs for both meals either. Not filling enough..not enough veg! (for personal my own preference not critiquing you of course!)

I think maybe slight case of food poisoning. I’ve had food poisoning without throwing up…just horrible pain in stomach when I can hardly eat anything bc I have lost my appetite so badly due to pain and a bloated feeling in my stomach..high up I mean, not gas, just horrible stomach pain and nausea at times sometimes.

Congrats to your DH…that is plain wonderful !!!!!!!!! and feel better. I’m very happy for your hubby. Time flies.

bearcountrygg on 06/04/2018:
Watch out for ulcers....you have been under a lot of stress lately. When I get heart burn...I first drink a little water to wash the acid down...then I take 4 chewable tums...It usually settles it down...my Mom used to say to eat something sweet...or add sugar to water...to neutralize the acid....at any rate...hope you are feeling better now.

Donkey on 06/04/2018:
LOVE Jersey Mike's!!! It must be a midwestern thing. HORN -- it's a wonderful sandwich shop that makes a variety of subs, hoagies, deli sandwiches. YUM!!!

Sorry it gave you heartburn, IP - that's no fun :-(

bearcountrygg on 06/04/2018:
I don't know of jersey mikes in Michigan...we have subway and quiznos though.

InnerPeace - Sunday Jun 03, 2018

Weight: 315.0

Seriously did damage this weekend. Cookies, ice cream, hamburgers, bratwurst and chips. This is what happens when family and friends come over unannounced and stay for longer than welcomed. Don't want to sound ****y asking them to leave, so DH cooks and we all eat. And then right when I start actually doing something constructive, like laundry and cleaning, the YA and his stinky GF show up and we feed them too. I don't mind them coming over, but they bring their dogs too and so much for mopping my floors when the dogs run in and out. They say they bring the dogs for Steve to play with, but then they say the dogs can't stay alone because the big hound dog bellows and howls while they are gone and their neighbors complain. It stresses me out. Then the  girl had some of her friends over and they can't go home hungry. Well I at least hope we were good hosts.

Tomorrow I will do better.


Have a great Sunday! IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/03/2018:
It's hard when you have lots of guests.....forgive yourself...tomorrow is another day!

Donkey on 06/03/2018:
I agree with Bear...

Horn_of_plenty on 06/03/2018:
i agree with those above! and it's very hard to be the hosts! that takes very big efforts as i know bc i went to a bbq on Saturday and the hosts were constantly grilling and preparing food. they didn't sit down hardly at all! and the bbq was amazing, but they were workin!

also, i was so thankful for FRUIT and veggies at the bbq. it helped me get full after eating all the junk in somewhat conservative portions. pickles are a good choice too.

i know you tried your best and you know you tried your best. stress and being a host are responsibilities and i don't blame you for doing some damage. never blame yourself too much...there's always days for improvment!

keep on and nice job hosting.

also, you are allowed i believe to kick people out after a certain time...or tell the YA and GF to tell you when / if they want to invite friends over. i think it's weird for people to come over unannounced. personally, i'd be angry.

happy-1 on 06/03/2018:
Sounds like you have to enforce guest boundaries. If they bring their dogs, they need to clean up after. If they are coming, they need to call first. If they want friends over, they should ask first.

It sounds like they don't have enough structure for their dogs and let separation anxiety run rampant. Suggest that if they can't clean up after their dogs, they bring crates with them.


InnerPeace - Friday Jun 01, 2018

Weight: 315.0

So glad it is Friday, even with the day off on Monday this has been the longest week EVER!

Yesterday I put a crock pot with a pot roast in with carrots only. No potatoes.

I wasted time yesterday watching sports and coloring by number on my phone.

This weekend we have the girl. Tomorrow is lots of shopping, DH's truck is going in the shop for new brakes and the girl wanted her eyebrows threaded again. She is also supposed to have a friend over.

Received a message from my mom that she is once again postponing her trip because she does have the great grand kids and will be taking care of them for awhile. She didn't tell me how long.

The girl's last day of school is June 7th and she is already planning her weekly stays with us. It will be different this year as she is too old for camp and she isn't comfortable staying by herself yet.

Have a great weekend! GO CAVS!! GO TRIBE!


Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/01/2018:
I've made roast without potatoes myself...and was still good!! You will enjoy it.

happy-1 on 06/01/2018:
That sounds yum!

Donkey on 06/01/2018:
I'm glad your girl is staying with you. It's not good to be alone for so long/too long.

InnerPeace - Thursday May 31, 2018

Weight: 315.0

Good day!

The results of my time management class - I have about 4.5 hours of time per day to do things...besides look at my phone and watch TV. However, I got the impression this class wanted to account for every second of every day! It was like I have to schedule time to relax, or god forbid it wasn't allowed. Too rigid for me. If I want to sit on by @ss twenty minutes after mowing the grass, I should be able to! Just saying!

So yes on the days DH works, I do go home and sit on my @ss for two hours and then decide I may dedice to cook dinner. Last night  I found thawed ground beef in the sink (from DH who took it out before he left for work) I also saw a jar of marinara sauce on the counter, my gentle hint to make spaghetti. Uh...NO! I didn't feel like spaghetti so I made some meatballs in mushroom gravy and egg noddles. I also found some frozen zucchini, that I did not like.

The telehealth calls have ended or so I think. I did get a call from a telenurse asking me if my equipment was working. I don't have any equipment so I haven't called her back to ask what the h3ll she is talking about.

Alberto is supposed to effect our weather tonight and tomorrow, so hope it doesn't rain too much more, I have a lake in my backyard.

Work people who are working on the safety inspection are all gone today...figures! They keep saying, next week and then it will be too late. I just know I did my best.

New janitors start tomorrow, not a good thing for my office.

Anyway, finding things to do this weekend. Have a great day and continue to fight!



Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/31/2018:
OOps...sounds like telehealth is mixed up! You weren't enjoying that call too much were you....?

Horn_of_plenty on 06/01/2018:
Sounds like Telehealth calls to try to get back your business to them!

Nice creative dinner to cook instead of the spaghetti !!

very funny all the inspection work folks are off today from your job lol....too funny! well, maybe not funny for you, but certainly for me!!

InnerPeace - Wednesday May 30, 2018

Weight: 315.0

I have never been so incredibly irriatated at people than I am today. Bleepity, bleep, bleep, @sshats and idiots and every other name you can call stupid coworkers.

We have been knowing about this safety inspection for more than six months, guess what, OMG, it is in two weeks and now these idiots actually want to start doing something? We had an eyewash station that as been out of commisison for I don't know say, SIX MONTHS!! and the guy keeps saying, I'll do it, I'll do it!. So he starts doing it and then says...I can't do it. And then, and then another idiot says, we can just order another one!! OK, well, if they first guy knew he couldn't fix it, why didn't they order a new one SIX MONTHS ago? I mean just maybe, maybe someone may have needed it.

Needless to say, I will be more than happy when the stupid inspection is over!

Other than that, the girl was over last night, she asked to go back to counseling because she can't talk to her mother. DH made her an appointment.

DH made teriaki chicken and corn for dinner., that was relly, it was the Klondyke ice cream that ruined everything.

We are doing time management surveys! I will go an manage my time.

Have a great evening! IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/30/2018:
Breathe...don't take the coworkers behavior personally......maybe make a list of things people are responsible for and post it???? Or would that cause trouble? Maybe others will put pressure on them? Your dinner sounds delish...including the ice cream. And good for the girl knowing that she could use some help....she depends on you guys to be her normal.....at least she is lucky enough to have you.

happy-1 on 05/30/2018:
Hugs. Breathe. We can only control the things we can control.

horn_of_plenty on 05/31/2018:
at least you are doing what you can do for the safety inspection...it's notall on you, like the others said above. do what you can but the rest is out of your hands! so don't take others behavior personally as you seem to be more much more on the ball with prepping things.

next, girlie has a good relationship with you and DH in order to ask to go back to counseling and that is really a wonderful thing.

InnerPeace - Tuesday May 29, 2018

Weight: 315.0

I did make a post yesterday, not exactly sure what happened to it.

Sunday  I was up pretty early, but only accomplished getting the laundry washed. I did experiement with making chicken paprikash, it was different, because I didn't know how it was supposed to taste. DH said it was good though.

Monday - I was up pretty early and had iced vanilla latte and did the Sunday Crossword. About 8:30, DH and I went outside and planted some flowers. We then sanded some rust off the patio furniture and repainted with rustoleum, hopefully it will last a few years longer  DH then went to get the girl, it is his holiday. I can never keep it straight, when I think he should have her, he doesn't. I'm surprised her mother let her come over, since we had her for the play on Saturday.

Speaking of, here is the picture. The larger lady who took it, said it 'turned out super cute' however, it makes me want to cry!

I mowed the grass and made potato salad and DH cooked the burgers on the grill. It was a nice and relaxing day.

Happy Memorial Day!




Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/29/2018:
You sure got a lot done.....I'm thrilled you are back...we can do this....we just have to want it more than we want the unlimited food...….

bearcountrygg on 05/29/2018:
OHHH...and I LOVE the picture...and you know what...it will be a great BEFORE picture....and now that you are back in the groove.....it will look great next to your after pic!!! We can get healthy!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 05/29/2018:
I do think the photo is super cute too! Everyone looks great and happy...your hubby looks to have lost weight i think his face seems slimmer? and you look great and girlie for sure!

i'm glad the show was good! and moving the grass is a great workout for sure.

happy-1 on 05/30/2018:
Why does the photo make you want to cry? Your hair is good and the top is flattering.

InnerPeace - Sunday May 27, 2018

Weight: 315.0

Happy Sunday!

Yesterday DH had to take a half day of vacation and we were 'allowed' to get the girl to attend the Alladin play. I bought these tickets at Christmas and didn't know DH would have a different job and/or we wouldn't have the girl. It was a great show and we had a wonderful time, except for the picture. OMG the picture, I will share that later.

I was thinking I have had approximately 449 first day of the months in my life, (that I've actually cared about losing weight) and, five times that in Mondays to start again on some freakin plan to lose weight.

DH is working today and I have the laundry started, I may take Steve for a long walk before it gets too hot, because it went from spring to summer in one day...and I'm sick of the rain.

I'll be back regularly now....I missed you guys!

Have a great day! IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2018:
I'm so glad to hear you're back !!!

So you have me intrigued about the photo....

I hope the show was good, sounds like it was..Sometimes i'm nervous to go to shows around here that are family friendly bc it's all crying kids in the audience!

We got the rain here, too.

bearcountrygg on 05/27/2018:
So new starts on Mondays are not only me???? D would always tell me to just start in the middle of the day.….or in the middle of the week...or anytime...but NOPE...not me....I just needed a few more binges under my belt ( literally)….and I would wait for Monday...heck...I have been known to wait for the first day of a new year...that would give me lots and lots of binge days...and besides...I might as well get up to my highest weight ever...and then start....UGH...…...so I'm not alone!!! I'm happy you are back...we can do this!!!

Donkey on 05/27/2018:
I'm only too familiar with the "start on Monday" thing. Not any more. It starts NOW or it doesn't start. However, you gotta go with whatever works for you. It took me a while to get to NOW. My husband still waits for Mondays.

happy-1 on 05/28/2018:
Missed you too! Big hugs!

InnerPeace - Friday May 18, 2018

Weight: 315.0

I have just been so incredibly busy at work I haven't made time to journal. But this is a good thing as food has been the last thing on my mind! And then at work I have immersed myself into the yard and planting flowers, again not thinking about food.

I have had two interviews from the DHS people in Oklahoma about my mother and her 'fostering' the great grand kids...still a stupid stiuation and right now I am glad to be in Ohio.

The YA gave me a phone case for mother's day, was totally not expecting it. The girl gave me a clock and baloon, and my son called from Georgia, so I had a great day on mother's Day.

DH smoked some chicken.

I have been eating well and cut down a lot on cheese and sweets, so I am feeling better as well.

DH was switched at work so we have had the girl two weekends in a row, and I don't have anything planned for this week, so we are playing it by hear.

Have a great weekend and only 23 more day suntil the inspection and I should be back on her pretty regularly from the day as usual.  IP

Progress as of today: 6.6 lbs lost so far, only 105 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/18/2018:
Sounds like you have had a lot of good days there IP.....You threw me there when you said your DH smoked some chicken...LOL...for a minute there I thought he had a new smoking habit...LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 05/18/2018:
I am surprised they called you about your mother but i will say that many times that's how law enforcement goes with always reaching out to family even before friends i think..

I am glad you were celebrated on Mother's Day because you know how special you are...at least i always tell you that!

Nice to have an inspection countdown and realize that it will end :)

horn_of_plenty on 05/23/2018:
passing by to say hi and happy memorial day weekend to come!

InnerPeace - Thursday May 10, 2018

Weight: 316.0

Wednesday -

Breakfast: raisin bran, milk (out of bananas)

Lunch: left over turkey burger, egg noodles and mushroom gravy (all in all about 1/2 of serving of everything)

Dinner: smoked chicken breast with 1 Tbsp of home made ranch dressing (with low fat sour cream - no mayo)

Snack: baby carrots and home made ranch dressing - two crumpets with 2 Tbsp of peanut butter 

Total calories - 1319

Thursday morning - way overslept - DH was up and out of the house by 5:30 and I just turned off snooze and all and didn't wake up until 6:30 - ack! this was cutting it way too close and I didn't get to shower. I feel icky.

Breakfast: two crumpets with 2Tbsp of peanut butter and I had an iced coffee - I just couldn't get around to even function.

I made it to work exactly 8:00

Lunch: left over smoked chicken, tomatos orange

Dinner: I will have to figure out something. Supposed to be fish, but I don't think I bought enough.

I shreeded six bags of time cards from 1998 and have moved lots of stuff in my office. My office is safety inspection ready!

My leave day was approved for tomorrow so I will have a three day weekend. We were going on a scavenger hunt, but I waited to long to register us and it was filled out, now we are going on an AVA walk in nearby Kent and this depends on the weather.

We have a baseball game tomorrow night, again weather dependent.

Have a great weekend! IP


Progress as of today: 5.6 lbs lost so far, only 106 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/10/2018:
LOVE crumpets...don't see them much around here anymore.

horn_of_plenty on 05/10/2018:
nice to see you even making your own dressing!

always great to clean up and get rid of unnecessary papers at the office!

Horn_of_plenty on 05/14/2018:
How are you doing today, IP!? :-)

happy-1 on 05/14/2018:
We miss you!

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