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InnerPeace - Thursday Sep 25, 2014

Weight: 306.9

Got home from work and vacuumed out my son's car, it has been in the garage the last year, we took it out  once a month and drove it around for him. I got the oil changed and the front end aligned, I will be glad when it is out of my garage.

D:  breaded baked tilapia with steamed brocolli, it was suprisingly good

After dinner I had some yogurt covered raisins, those are so addicting.

Went to bed about 10:15 and starting getting texts about 10:45 from...my son. He was telling me he missed his flight from Korea! What the What??? He didn't arrive in the two hour window and the airlines forfeited his seats. The next flight is not until Tuesday. He is a worldly flyer, I'm surprised he messed this up! Oh well I will see him Tuesday, i've waited two years a few more days won't hurt.

B: toast

S: protein bar

L; tuna and cottage cheese, yogurt covered raisins.

D: grilled chicken, brocolli is planned.

We have to get the little girl after work today, Her mother already texted my DH asking if he could bring her back home, because her husband was in the hospital fighting not to lose his foot and the doctor can't see him until after 8:00 pm tonight! WHAT THE WHAT??? She should have just stopped at her hustband was in the hospital. I don't believe a doctor will tell you they can't be there until after 8:00...well maybe but I don't know, apparently it's not an emergency or else a different doctor would entertain the foot...I'm just saying. So, I guess that answers my question on whether or not the little girl will get to the follow-up appointment with the hair treatment guy tomorrow. Oh well.

Work blows today and I was so looking forward to not working tomorrow, but I changed my day off to spend with my son if he ever makes it home.

Have a great evening. IP

Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 16.9 lbs to go!

InnerPeace - Wednesday Sep 24, 2014

Weight: 306.9

So my eye feels better but apparently it doesn't look better to the doctor. So I have to go back yet again after changing drops to see if this will help. He gave me four weeks until the next appointment. I'm just thankful I'm not blind. I did manage to go to the beauty salon, I was going for a cut but she talked me into retouching my silver roots. I agreed. This appointment took over an hour and DH wasn't home yet with the little girl.

DH picked up Jimmy Johns onhis way home, so I had a turkey/swiss sandwich, the bread was the best I have ever tasted, though not good for me...well maybe multi grain bread. DH said the exwife is supposed to take the little girl back to the treatment center on Friday. I'll believe that if it happens.

DH also gave me three blueberry cobbler cookies from Pepperidge Farms. I do not even know how many calories those were.

B: toast

L: tuna with cottage cheese, yogurt covered raisons, apple - tuna juice leaked out of the container, lunch tote now smells like a dirty hooha! YUCK. I will have to seriously bleach it out today.

D: grilled tilapia and broccoli is what was talked about, will see if it is what we actually have.

I am supposed to take my son's car and get it cleaned out and washed. My baby comes home tomorrow night! So excited to see him.

Received the email that Steve's intermediate pubppy class could start next week. He really like his dog play dates, eventhough he was supposed to be learning.

Reached my 5,000 steps last night walking him.

Have a great evening!


Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 16.9 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/24/2014:
you know what's great!? the whipped cottage cheese! wow, spreadable and tastes good! I buy the 1% type...ate some just now like yogurt! yum!

InnerPeace - Tuesday Sep 23, 2014

Weight: 306.9

Oh what good is a calendar if you never refer back to it?

On my way home yesterday (I drove myself because DH had a dental appointment- we usually carpool) I received a text reminder that we had committed to volunteer at the local food bank. Damnit!! forgot all about it, but yep there it was on the calendar. So DH still being at the dentist I had to go myself. I usually like doing it, but last night I was between a gastapo lady who kept asking me if I was checking the dates...uh..YEAH I told her twice and then the lady beside me is grabbing it before I could check it and wipe it off. My shift was for 1.5 hours and I got home about 8:00, thinking I would have dinner. Wrong DH let me down. I had to microwave leftovers, which was OK, I was just hoping that it would have already been done, since DH bailed on the volunteer committment. I told him to look at the calendar before he makes his next appointment.

DH made an appointment for the little girl tonight to get her hair treated, it is a new heat treat process that was $85 with two follow-ups. I made a bet with DH that if the lice is back in two months I am taking $85 to the casino. He said OK. I just don't think the mother will do anything on her end to prevent the little buggers from reappearing. They are all nasty to me. I put the two kids on my insurance when we got married and she has yet to make the kids a dental appointment. WHY? because she is a lazy sow! And she doesn't work, which makes me even madder.

A lady pissed me off at work today too, Oh man I better not have to walk past a vending machine I can feel a cold one coming on...my DDP how I miss thee.

D: left over hoisen glazed moo shu pork with dried out rice...yuck

S: popcorn

This happy Tuesday morning I overslept and had to rush through a shower. My little Steve didn't even wake up during the night. I drove again by myself because I have a follow-up eye appointment, it is much better. I am thinking of getting my hair cut off after that, i will see and I guess I will be alone until DH gets back from the hair treatment.

L: tuna fish and cottage cheese, yogurt covered raisins

S: string cheese

I will leave this here!



Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 16.9 lbs to go!

glassgirl3 on 09/23/2014:
Great picture! hope you have a great day.

puddles on 09/23/2014:
Take time to smell the flowers today. Have a great day.

Destiny65 on 09/23/2014:
Nice picture. Love it!

InnerPeace - Monday Sep 22, 2014

Weight: 306.9

Busy weekend, I meant to log onto the laptop at home but it was drained, the desk top is in another room and I didn't bother to go in there.


B: DH brought me what was supposed to be a steak biscuit from McDonald's but the texture was so nasty and ropey I gave most of it to Steve so I ate the egg and biscuit.

L; tin roof sundae (a smaller version of my peanut buster parfait)

D: Market Fresh turkey

We were out and about all day Saturday. We had a reservation at Paint with a Twist for the little girl. I think I had more fun watching her paint than she actually did. I can never tell if she is enjoying herself or not, she is just so emotionless. And during this little outing DH informs me that the little girl has head lice again. I am livid. We fought those little buggers eight months last year!! I get pissed because she is only with us every other weekend and once or twice during the week. I hate her mother, who apparently does nothing on her end to prevent them...or keep them away.

 I loved the experience and am looking forward to reserving a couples date so DH and I can paint a two sided picture. After the little girl finished her picture we had another event in another town to get to. It was a Dogie Doo in Oblerin. A festival for your dog. Lots of pet vendors and other dogs, we had a great time and the weather was nice. Steve is such a little gentlmen in public.

We received lots of dog food samples, and though Steve acts well in public, being home is a different story. DH fed him a few bits of a new food and at the time Mr. Steve liked it. It wasn't yet dinner and it was way after lunch so we stopped at a road side ice cream store, they usually have dog ice cream but someone from the festival bought it all out. I ordered a small tin roof sundae, which was soft serve, chocolate syrup and some peanuts. I was happy with it. We ate the ice cream and finally headed back home.

Once home the DH and little girl go grocery shopping and Steve and I stayed home because my football team was on TV. So I watched football. DH loves shopping anyway so he goes every weekend. He is such a number cruncher. It's funny they go shopping for all the food, but bring home Arby's sandwiches...buy one get one free.

Several times in the week hours of Sunday morning someting wasn't fairing well with Mr. Steve and he had me up and down all night. Poor little guy, I think it was the new food DH was little him sample or he picked up something that wasn't good at the festival. He was better by morning though. Alas, so long good night sleep.


B: toast

L: we headed out to the Apple Festival in Elyria. Just a few vendors and lost of junkey food. We got the ahem little girl a Kid print ID. She weighs 130 pounds. I joined the Army in 1985 at 139 and was a foot taller and i was almost considered overweight!! Again, we do not eat the best and are trying to change our habits, but I don't see how it can help if her main home does not do the same. I had a bite of DH's gyro, 1/2 of a funnel cake (It was just oo greesy) DH ate the rest. The little girl had cheese covered greesy fries, which again DH had to finish. I have had this discussion before, he needs to let things go to waste...or else he will be seing a bigger waiste. Again the number cruncher arises and he cannot just throw $5.00 french fries away...I would!

We got home and I have to do the laundry and I just love it so much...NOT. both days I did reach my 5,000 step fit bit goal.

D: DH made a pork casserole that was pretty tasty however it was a bit spicy so I couldn't eat that much of it. It had pork, rice, cabbage, carrots, mushrooms and hoisin sauce in it. Again it was very tasty.

Steve was feeling better so as DH went to gas up my car, I took Steve for his nightly walk.

Hello Monday!

B: toast

S: Protein bar

L: tuna fish and cottage cheese,  1  serving of yogurt covered raisons, orange

S; string cheese

D: will probably be left overs from last night

Today the work challenge for walk across Cleveland begins with 5,000 steps a day. Go TEAM!

Autumn is certainly on the way, on the way home last night from our walk I saw this tree that just isn't waiting!

Have a great week!! IP





Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 16.9 lbs to go!

puddles on 09/22/2014:
Busy weekend - tired just reading it. You will need a week to get over all that. Have a great day.

InnerPeace - Friday Sep 19, 2014

Weight: 308.9

Today I am telling you the truth. DH brought me a peanut buster parfait, and I ate it, no I love it. I have such a sweet tooth. So how can one be good with they have temptations like this?

I came to work today only to be given donuts...not one but two. Yes I ate them. I could have said no thank you...but again this sugar is my weekness. I need to have a sign on my desk to read "don't offer food" "do not feed"!

I had a life coach who called once a week but I could tell her anything, yes I ate right, I exercised, sure I did all of that, when in actuality I did nothing. She wasn't in my face to see the real story. Needless to say I dropped out of that program. I need to quit lying to myself and others.

D: a small piece of chicken fried steak and one helping of mashed potatoes...looking back, sure I could have thrown in a vegetable...but didn't!

B; toast - oh and two donuts!

L: I am supposed to go out with the office people in celebration of the university's 50th anniversity with food trucks and tents and all kinds of bad stuff. I will try to find the lightest thing they are selling because other than that I don't have lunch today.

D: we were registered to go to a luau in celebration of "Talk like a pirate day" but I just received a call that it was cancelled, ergo, nothing was taken out for dinner.

We have the little girl this weekend, I can only hope I don't pull out my hair.

My son is scheduled to come in next Thursday on his way to Georgia. Can't wait to see him, it has been two years.

This is the truth! I have horrible eating habits!

But I still HOPE!


Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 18.9 lbs to go!

museumgirl on 09/19/2014:
Keep hoping and don't give up. Sugar is tough to beat and peanut buster parfaits are one of my favorite things in the world! I think at least two of my tummy rolls are made entirely of peanut buster parfaits! You can beat the sugar; facing your own denial is the first step! Is there a 12 step program for beating sugar? LOL. And you don't need to confess if you don't want to - you know the truth and you are the only one that matters. Have a happy day, matey! (I forgot it was talk like a pirate day!)

Destiny65 on 09/19/2014:
Enjoy your visit with your son. One day at a time with the sugar .... My nemesis (one of many) is the salt..... There should be a 12 step program for those too lol!

thinkpositive on 09/19/2014:
Have you asked your friends & family to help you out with your plan? There are foods that I can't turn away as well. It's hard!

puddles on 09/19/2014:
There is a 12 step program for our addiction - Overeaters Anonymous OA. It is a great program. Just hang in there girl. It take a lot of courage to come clean like you did today. You have completed your first step. Admitted you where powerless over food.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/20/2014:
That photo of the Brussel sprout dinner looks amazing!!!!

InnerPeace - Thursday Sep 18, 2014

Weight: 310.0

Couldn't get motivation to go to work day, so I called in. While at home I mowed the back yard and then vacuumed

D: grilled chicken and brussel sprouts

B: toast L: cottage cheese and 1/2 chicken breast

DH walked the dog today and I still made over 5000 steps on my fitbit thanks to mowing.


Progress as of today: 2.9 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

puddles on 09/19/2014:
Looks good have a great day.

museumgirl on 09/19/2014:
That looks yummy! I love brussels sprouts!

thinkpositive on 09/19/2014:
I'm having brussels sprouts tonight- good food.

InnerPeace - Wednesday Sep 17, 2014

Weight: 310.0

DH makes my lunch and cooks dinner. He is awesome. Though I can see myself taking over this task, as he is not as weight conscious as I am nor wants to be. He did make me a turkey and cheese sandwich on the pepperriidge thins, I had grapes and a cup of peaches.

Dinner: He grills pork chops and makes some instant stuffing that was all very salty. He does have an appointment with a nutrionalist in the next week or so, maybe he will just learn tons.

B: two pieces of toast

S: protein bar

L: turkey sanwich, grapes

D: TBD - husband is doing something with chicken

Tonight we had scheduled to go to a Family Boot camp, but alas, if we go to the early session DH won't have time to get the DSD dinner. If we go to the late session, we won't get home in time for the momto pick her up -trust me, these may sound like small fixable things but they are not. If we go early we would have to get fast food which is kinda unproductive. And the evil mom is just awful. She has called the police to our house a couple of times, and this must be avoided, so we must be home. There is a chance that DH could drop her off, but again it is a time thing...no cops please!

I will leave you with my dog....Steve!!


Progress as of today: 2.9 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

Destiny65 on 09/17/2014:
Steve's very handsome!

InnerPeace - Tuesday Sep 16, 2014

Weight: 310.0

I have been absent for a very long time. I thought I had a routine but no!

Picked up more poundage, not happy about.

Picked up a new husband that I'm very happy about, but adjusting to being married is crazy, eventho I lived with him for over a year.

Trying to adjust also to the part-time step parent is not my forte! Friend or Foe - If I'm a friend she doesn't mind, if I'm a foe the weekend is tortorous. I can see counseling in our future.

We are trying to be more active, but we are lazy and it is hard to do. I can't tell you how many roads to hell have been paved with these intentions.

Alas, I will start again!! Because this new scale I bought just is NOT showing me what I want to see.

I will be happy to be below 200 again.

I have not drank my beloved Diet Dr. Pepper in over a month.

Have been having eye issues and had to go to the doctor for treatment, dang rosacea flare ups!

I have joined a fitness work challenge and am wearing my fitbit again, I will see how this turns out for the next six weeks.

Tomorrow---I start!




Progress as of today: 2.9 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

museumgirl on 09/16/2014:
Congrats on the new husband. Good luck with the child...counseling is always a good idea when coping with "stuff" at least in my experience! I'm new here, glad to meet you. Good luck!

thinkpositive on 09/16/2014:
It's easy to get off track. Welcome back! Hard to concentrate on healthy eating when there is so much turmoil

OhioRaven on 09/16/2014:
Thunder !

puddles on 09/16/2014:
Welcome back and good luck.

Destiny65 on 09/17/2014:
Nice to meet you!

InnerPeace - Tuesday Feb 18, 2014
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 298.0

Thursday: We picked up the little girl and then went  to Applebee's for Valentine's Day. I had one of the 550 calorie meals, it was pretty tasty. And then caved and had a chocolate mousse shooter, that stupid thing was as many calories as the meal, stupid sweet tooth!!!

Friday, I thought we were going to the Monster Jam and then my whole day was crazy. I drove to work my myself so BF could get home earlier and tend to Steve, but when I get home I looked at the tickets and they were for Saturday instead. I had a salmon salad sandwich and some dip and crackers. We did go to Home Depot to look at screen doors, I can't believe the house we bought doesn't have a screen door. I cannot wait to have the door open and feel the breeze blow through the house in the spring.

Saturday. I had a bagel and iced coffee for breakfast and then I sat off on a crazy chore to get my son's car tagged in Ohio. I tried to get it tagged in Oklahoma but because he had Ohio insurance, the great state of Oklahoma wouldn't tag it. So after waiting two months for the power of attorney to arrive from Korea I go to the county clerks office to transfer the car from Oklahoma to Ohio. That was easy...but then I had to go to the BMV to get the actual tags and they want to give me a hard time. I had the letter from the county clerk's office, a POA and the BMV office wan'ts proof of his SSN!! really? HOW? 

BMV: we need his SSN card.

ME: he's in Korea

BMV: well because he doesn't have an Ohio driver license we can't verify his SSN, can you get proof he's in the military

ME: here's a POA with his unit, rank and it is notarized what kind of proof do you need?

BMV: a copy of his ID card

ME: well they don't even have SSN's on ID cards anymore

BMV: well we're going to need a fax copy of his SSN card

ME: well that's not going to happen, he's in Korea. Can he send a picture of it?

BMV: what? Like you mean taking a picture with your phone or something?

ME: uh, yea!

BMV: that might work.

So i go out to my car and FB my son and ask him to send a picture of his SSN card becasue they stupid Ohio BMV won't give me tags for his car. He says...right now? I say the sooner the better, so he does.

I go back into the BMV and take a number 68, they are on 51, so I have to sit there and wait another long time. Finally I get back up there and show the lady the picture and she has to take it and get the approval that this is ok and she comes back with....we'll accept it this time. WTH...trust me when I say, there will never be another time for this car!! OMG the drama...so much for supporting our troops!

So I get home and eat salmon again for lunch, BF got home and we took a nap. BF woke up and made a cheese board for us to eat before going to the Monster Jam (this was his birthday present). We had a great time, until his exwife started texting and causing turmoil, so much my BF couldn't enjoy the Monster Jam. It was very loud, BF brought earplugs and I still can't believe how much I enjoyed it. His exwife texted that 'he needs to quit lying, that 'sissy' (the little girl) said we didn't go out to eat (Thursday) and that we had a stripper pole in our bedroom. WTF!! Also that he does not get 'sissy' on Monday Presiden'ts Day. So when we get home, they are texting back and forth and calling each other names. I just don't understand this. He finally sends a picture of the divorce papers and he does get the little girl on President's Day...her reply...What a loser!!

Sunday, non eventful day. besides the fact it snowed all day. I finished laundry. BF went to the meat market and came back with a three bone prime rib. It was the first time we tried to cook the prime rib. It was ok. I don't think we cooked it long enough, it was quite rare.


B: bagel and iced coffee. Garage man came and adjusted the garage door opener, now hopefully it will stay warmer in the family room.

BF called and said the little girl wanted to stay with her mother. Whatever, they never do anything with her and she is over there every freaking day. I try very hard to stay out of this, but sometimes I wonder what the hell is going through that woman's mind.

L: roast beef sandwich

D: prime rib, salad and corn (we cooked the left overs longer and it did taste better). After diiner BF and I went to Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that came to almost $100 worth of nothing, but walking all over wal-mart I got my 5000 steps which always equals to additional calories using the Loseit app.

So Tuesday morning after have 12 more inches of snow fall, I drove in with BF driving his 4X4, hopefully snow is over for a few days, as I am sick of it.

B: yogurt and almonds

S: I hate from the vending machine, pretzels and a candy bar....NOT A GOOD way to start the week.

L: salad and roast beef, no bread!

D: some kind of chicken. We are going to Home Depot to order our screen door, very excited for spring!

Have a great week IP


Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

liza36 on 02/19/2014:
Wow, what an ordeal with the car. And the ex-wife. Hope you're having a good rest of the week.

InnerPeace - Thursday Feb 13, 2014
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 298.0

Tuesday night we had the turkey asiago sausage, it was pretty good. Little girl watched TV, she just talked about school. Wednesday, I didn't get up in the morning as planned, but I did walk at work through the interlink between the buildings, it was 1.78 miles. I will do that again at 3:00 today, schedule permitting. I had to change my challenges to 'track every day' and walk for at least 10-20 minutes. Walking 10-20 minutes is much easier than 10,000 steps at work.


B: yogurt & apple

S: yogurt & almonds

L: salad with roast beef strips, grapes, orage

S: light string cheese


So Wednesday we went to close out BF's checking account and buy some green onions to try the recipe I found for salmon. We have yet to get home on time this week. Steve has not been a happy puppy. He was exstatic when we got home, he misses us so much. I leave the TV on for him, but I don't think that is soothing at all.

D: baked salmon - turned out OK, but I thought my salmon had a burnt plastic flavor to it, BF said he couldn't taste anything and it tasted fine. Salad. I had to eat a few pretzels before dinner because I was so hungry.

We didn't do anything last night, except freeze. It was so cold. BF asked if I wanted a fire, but I said no and wrapped up in little girl's monster high blanket. I called a garage door man to come and adjust the garage door, so maybe the cold air won't blow under the connecting door into the family room. He is supposed to come on Monday....so much for my day off.

B: yogurt

S: yogurt & almonds

L: salad with roast beef strips, grapes, orange

S: TBD (orange or apple)

D: TDB we are supposed to get the little girl and BF said something about going to Applebees. He also texted that he had a headache and might not get the little girl, I guess time will tell how he feels. Son finally mailed the POA from Korea so I get to get his car registered in Ohio on Saturday. Oh the joy!!! I do miss that 'young adult' though.Can't wait for tomorrow to be over!! I love me a three day weekend.

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

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