- Thursday May 20, 2004
Hi all. Down another 2 pounds. I missed getting my next 5 pound gold star by .6 pounds. How lame is that. I know I will get it next week though. I have still been dealing with the person who stole my purse. She even used my SSN number to get a wireless phone. When I called the phone company, for the second time, they finally took my SSN out of their system, whatever that means. However, they ensured me it wouldn�t happen again. But the stupid customer service lady, gave me the address she used. Not a good thing to have, especially if I get totally pissed one day. I also wrote a letter to the DA, because I can�t believe they haven�t done anything yet. I have her picture and address, just go apprehend the hussy and put her in jail. But no, they would rather investigate stolen plastic lawn flamingos, damaged urinals at a gas station and vandalized trees. Yes, I would definitely say, they have their priorities straight. NOT.
I went to a play/act Tuesday night �Late Nite Catechism� it was pretty funny, I�m sure it would have been more funny if I was Catholic. The audience really made the show and the actress really interacted well. I didn�t exercise that night or last night. I was just so tired, I figure I would give my body a 2 day rest, but I will start again tonight. I actually felt bad for not exercising, but I feel much better today.
I hope yall have many great successes. Have a great day! �Go over, go under, go around or go through. But never, ever give up.� IP
- Monday May 17, 2004
Hi all. I had a great weekend. My supervisor volunteered me to play volleyball for the United Way. I went Saturday and played most of the day. Had a great time, but got to much sun. My face is so burned it will blister and peel and be all yuck. I ate two pieces of pepperoni pizza for lunch that was from Mazzio�s which was a total of 8 points but then I worked it off playing volley ball all day. After that some friends and I went to see Trace Adkins and Buddy Jewel in concert. I think Buddy Jewel stole the show, but Trace was still good AND he is a sight to look at. He can really dance and I love all his glorious hair. It was a very long day, and I can�t remember ever enjoying myself so much, in a long time. For once I wasn�t worried about my weight, I just went and played and didn�t worry what everyone thought, heck, they probably didn�t care less.
Sunday, I stayed home and did the domestic thing, wash clothes, vacuum and stuff like that. A few times I found myself just vegging on the couch. I didn�t move, I was still tired from volleyball. I did finally manage to get motivated at 7:30 and fold clothes, wash dishes and I did the WATP 3 mile tape. Tonight is another weigh in a WW, I am feeling good about it.
Yall have a great day! IP
- Thursday May 13, 2004
Hi all. Another pound gone. I have been having a hard time lately with issues in my life. My son went to Germany with his dad, I am so sad, he will be a grown man the next time I see him. I know he is old enough to make decisions for himself, but I still can�t help but to feel sad.
I have been divorced for almost ten years and there are no words to describe my feelings. I think lonely is only the tip of the entire iceberg. When my son was here last, he told me to �get over it, Mom�. Oh yea, that helped a lot. I wallow in the past. I know I cannot change things the whole �would�ve, could�ve, should�ve� is my motto. I just can�t seem to get passed things I did and things that happened in the past. I do talk with a therapist and tell him my thoughts and feelings but I haven�t seen any improvement.
So, I�m telling you all out there, from experience, and words from a Celine Dion song�. �when you find it, don�t let go� because you will miss it and then you wonder if you will ever lead a normal life. And then you get so depressed you can�t make yourself do anything, much less do some form of exercise and then you gain so much weight you just don�t feel like a normal person. You are on the outside looking in at people living a normal life and because you are so fat, a freak of society, you just dream of things you want and the things you once had. It is a vicious, ugly circle.
I haven�t been able to sleep well the passed few nights. I think I am emotionally traumatized from my purse being stolen. I wake up and think I hear people trying to get into my house or walking around in it. I lie there afraid to move, scared I will make noise and make them come in and attack me or something. The TV airs things that are irrelevant to me, like people getting arrested for stealing a $15 dollar pair of sunglasses or people that were caught on camera tearing a urinal off the wall. OK, well there are pictures on camera of a woman using my checkbook, spending thousands of dollars with bogus checks and they (the authorities, the police, whoever) aren�t doing a damn thing about it. Just know that the thousand dollar loss that Wal-Mart took, will probably be added to purchases that hardworking, money paying, honest people buy. I feel victimized twice.
But above all of this, I am still eating within my point range and have been exercising everyday, even when I haven�t wanted to. Maybe I�m forming a good habit, last night I thought I talked myself out of exercising, but then the longer I sat, the worse I felt, so I just got up and �did it�. I hope you all �do it� too.
Yall have a great day! IP
- Monday May 10, 2004
Happy belated Mothers� Day to all the mothers, hope you had a pleasant day. I took my mother out to eat, it was home style dining and it turned out to be pretty good. I only had a few bites of steak, limited mash potatoes and corn. I had a few tastes of corn soup, but I didn�t like that at all. Then I went with my mom to play bingo. She�s a fanatic, I don�t like to go, because I don�t like to lose my money and I never win. She had a fun time, that�s all that matters.
Saturday I mowed the law, which is a chore in itself because my backyard is not level, I have to push that mower up big hills and down in gulleys. Not really, but that�s what it seems like. I did WATP each day. I have another weigh in tonight, but for some reason I don�t think I lost. I�ll just have to wait and see, I refuse to get on the scale, it would depress me for sure.
I got a call from one of the credit reporting agencies, the person who stole my purse and ID applied for an account with Cingular, the stupids gave them a phone. I called them this morning and said, not me, not my responsibility. She activated on 4/27/04 just four days after she stole my purse. I hope for her sake I never see her alone or find out who she is. Anyway, maybe it will end soon.
Yall have a great day! IP
- Thursday May 06, 2004
Last night I went home and thought about mowing, but couldn�t convince myself to actually get up and do it. I�m not a garden/lawn person and I would rather burn my yard than mow it. In other words, I don�t take pride in flowers and all that stuff, if my lawn is neat and the neighbors don�t complain, I�m happy.
I started to do Richard Simmons� Groovin to the oldies but I don�t think I like it, It wasn�t structured enough for me. I did about 30 minutes of it and then I did WATP � 2 mile. This weekend on my todo list is to actually go and walk outside. That is scary for me.
Today is staff appreciation day at work, meaning free food I had a cinnamon nut bagel, and I�m convinced that carbs are the enemy. I have been eating yogurt every morning for breakfast since April 19 and I have been fine. Now that I have eaten that stupid bagel I�m starving and lunch is over an hour away. So no more bread for breakfast.
I hope you all have a great day and many continued success. IP
- Wednesday May 05, 2004
Yesterday I went through a bunch of crap trying to get information for the store that had my forged checks. That lady said I needed an affidavit of forgery, which I get from my bank. I went to my bank, but they wouldn�t give it to me because I didn�t have the police report. That�s OK, I just drove to the police station, which is about 15 miles away. I get to the police station and they couldn�t help me because I didn�t have my case # with me. I�m thinking�oh my gawd�don�t you have a search where you can look up my last name. But no, that is too easy. I drove all the way back home, another 15 miles, to get the case #. Drove back to the police station and then the lady tells me the report is not in the computer. I say, �it�s been over a week and it�s still not in the computer?� She gets huffy and sounds like she�s going out of her way to do something for me. I�m like isn�t that your job..attitude check I say, well I need it, so I will sit and wait, she says, it will be about 30 minutes. I say, I need it, I will be right out here. So after about 25 minutes, I head back to the bank.
I have to wait there forever as well. I�m thinking man don�t these people work? It was well after lunchtime and I thought it wouldn�t be as busy, how wrong I was. After waiting there forever, I finally get the affidavit and head back to the store. They were cordial there. They gave me copies of the forged checks and a video of the lady using my checks. She signed her name on my checks, how stupid can some people be?
Anyway, despite all the drama, waiting and driving I finally got home about 6:00 pm. I was so tired I only ate cheerios for dinner. I watched American Idol, which I didn�t like the format of, and I did the WATP 3-miles. I then took out the garbage and drove to the post office to buy some stamps, to mail the money orders because my checks were stolen. I managed to get to bed by 11:00 pm.
I guess I could have spilt hot coffee on me and had a better day, good thing I don�t drink coffee. I hope you all have a great day. IP
- Tuesday May 04, 2004
Great weigh in last night. I�m so excited I got my �I lost 5 pounds� book mark last night. This is the fourth time I joined WW and this is the first time I received that book mark. I�m so happy, I�m already on my way to getting my first gold star.
I do know that you have to be in the right frame of mind to lose weight. And just like last week, I didn�t crave anything and go into any withdrawal convulsions so I�m thinking I CAN DO THIS! I was so totally excited that I exercised (3 WATP) after Everwood and was in bed by 9:30. My body was screaming this morning because it thinks it needs at least one sleep in day. On drill weekends I don�t get to sleep in and I get so sleepy during the week.
While I was doing my WATP tape with the waist band, one of the arm bands snapped off, it stretched right in two. So I rigged one up using the bands from the Body 90 system. It looks funny but still serves its purpose. I was thinking of actually going outside to walk, I have a park less than a mile away, but I haven�t taken that plunge yet. Usually actually walking affects my lower back and it is truly uncomfortable.
I�m off to the bank now to do some forgery/fraud paperwork regarding my checkbook. I hope you all have a great day.
- Monday May 03, 2004
I had a long, long weekend making up drill and having drill weekend at the same time. I subjected myself to 4 days of torture willingly. However, my commander did not say a word to me the entire weekend, how�s that for sarcasm? I didn�t have any problems drinking my water and I kept busy so food wasn�t on my mind as much as usual.
Other than drill, my four day mission in hell was uneventful. I was sitting in a meeting and someone told me to smile, because I would ruin the commander�s day. I just commented that I wasn�t going to smile, because he ruined my day every time I saw him.
I did get notification that someone wrote checks on my account. One was written to the grocery store for $46 dollars. I have mixed emotions at first I think, man they must have really wanted something to eat and then I think, why didn�t they just go ahead and purchase hundreds of dollars worth of stuff? Then I also think they probably just bought beer and cigarettes and I get really steamed.
I kept my exercise up, except for Saturday, which is my day off, and I have my second weigh in today at WW. I hope everyone has a great day and many continued successes. IP
- Wednesday Apr 28, 2004
I did really well at the Mexican restaurant. I just took out a handful of chips and put them on that little plate they give you so I would know exactly how many I ate, and the salsa was great. I didn�t eat any queso or flour tortillas so I am very happy with myself. For lunch I had a grilled fajita chicken breast covered with cheese and grilled onions and green peppers, with a few beans and I had a sopapilla for dessert. I think the total was 9 points all together. So I learned today, you can go out and enjoy Mexican food and still stay within your points. Dinner was my fat free hot dogs and a salad. Right now I�m particularly happy that I don�t have to cook for anyone else but me, I�m not sure they would have been happy with just hotdogs.
I�m addicted to American Idol so I had to watch that and then I did the 3 mile WATP tape. I get tired of listening to Leslie Sansone talk so I just put in a CD and turn it up loud enough to cover her voice. I did purchase two Richard Simmons �Sweatin to the Oldies� tapes and look forward to getting them. I have drill this weekend and that will probably wreak havoc with my emotional state, with my battle with my weight. And I found out this morning, that the so called thieves who stole my purse also took my beret, two pairs of glasses (prescription sun glasses and another pair of regular glasses) and three prescriptions (antibiotic, muscle relaxer and pain killer)�son of a bleeps�they really make me hate the general population.
I hope you all have a great day and conquer your temptations. I still haven't thrown away the Junior Mints, but I haven't eat them either, most times I forget they are sitting on the kitchen table. I'll think about it tonight. IP
- Tuesday Apr 27, 2004
I weighed in last night at WW down 4 pounds. WOO HOO I�m all for that. And when I look back at the week, I don�t recall suffering or going through withdrawal symptoms of any type. So my obvious conclusion is, if I made it through the first week with no problem, then the following weeks shouldn�t be a problem at all.
Funny story though, my mother called and asked me to pick up some ice cream because it was on sale. She wanted two � gallons of ice cream, one vanilla and one butter pecan. This is not tempting to me, because I�m really not an ice cream fan due to sensitive teeth. Anyway, I had just finished with my WW meeting and I am buying these two � gallons of ice cream and when I get to the cashier, she is giving me the funniest look ever. You know the kind, like when your top is buttoned up wrong, or worse yet buttons have popped open. Anyway I pay for the ice cream and get in my car and notice I still had my WW name tag on. I laughed, I bet that cashier was thinking �Right, and weight watchers sure works for you?� I can imagine the sarcasm and what she was thinking.
My best friend, God bless her, made a Easter basket for me. (I know it is a bit late, but that is just how we work here, always in procrastination mode or we never get in a hurry.) She gave me an OU mug and stuffed animal and many, many plastic eggs filled with jelly beans and Cadbury cream eggs and a huge movie size box of Junior Mints (my all time favorite candy on earth). They sit on the kitchen table and I haven�t had any cravings whatsoever. My dilemma is should I get rid of them or just leave them? They haven�t been a problem so far, but there is always the moment of weakness.
Last night I had Oscar Mayer fat free hot dogs for dinner wrapped in a flour tortilla. They were good, but I do like those fat free hotdogs. I also had some grapes. I tried to drink all my water but it is very hard to do. I did the 3 mile WATP and went to bed.
Today will be a special challenge, one of the supervisors is leaving and they are taking her to Ted�s Mexican Escondito, one of the best Mexican restaurants around. I will probably have to dig into my flex points. I�ll let you all know how it goes.
Have a good day and great success.