- Monday Oct 03, 2005
Wow-- yellow huh? I mean REALLY yellow. Don't know if I can learn to like that...
Okay here's what happened: the chicken pox my 5 year-old son got cause my dorment varicella virus (from when I had c. pox as a kid) to wake up; it made me very sick with flu symptoms and started attacking my joints, so I have infectious arthritis. In some people they will get shingles, I didn't tho. This too is extremely painful. I can barely walk now. Have to go to the doctor tomorrow if he will fit me in.
I am one pissed off woman tho-- I have new running shoes and I was doing awesome before this happened.
- Tuesday Sep 27, 2005
Have the achy body flu. Had to get out there tho and do something, so I walked 2.50 miles. Knees are still aching, but dont think its the running or exercise anymore-- my 13 year old has the flu and same symptoms-- both of us can bearely stand it and keep taking tylenol for relief.
Thanks for the encouraging words, girls. I'll get back to posting and responding when I can. Right now I'm barely able to do this with my hectic life. Thanks for understanding! Jen
- Monday Sep 26, 2005
STILL RUNNING STRONG. 5 miles last time, but took 2 days off due to my aching knees. Will try maybe tonight.
- Thursday Sep 22, 2005
Didn't check my weight yet, but really didn't care that much this morning (amazing!)about it-- I feel great and my clothes fit like a comfy glove. That sure has been a long time coming!
Ran better half of 4 mile trek last night and was sore right after... did stretches again before coming in the house and felt much better. This morning I have no pain, and have not had leg cramps, so I'm doing something right. Oh, and I feel so confident. Last night Kyle brought along a jog discplayer and put on Eminem/Aerosmith's 'Dream On' and Oh My God! That song got me so pumped-- I ran right clear the whole song with no walks. I kept going and going-- woohooo!
- Wednesday Sep 21, 2005
Check it out gals!! I am RUNNING, YES RUNNING now with my 16 year old son. I did 3.7 miles the first day, alternating sprints and walking fast, 3.75 the second day and ran more than the first time, and yesterday was day 3-- we ran 4 miles alternating run and walk-- but did mostly run!!!
I can't believe it -- I can do this :O)!!! Jen
- Friday Sep 16, 2005
Friday--a bowl of cereal for breakfast, and taco salad for lunch (no tortillas, no cheese or sour cream)-- okay, so those were pretty good choices.
I also resisted the box of candy bars my 13 year-old has to sell. This year I will walk with him to sell them door to door as we have other years, but I ain't buying!!
Its pouring rain here-- a crazy deluge that has created a lake in my neighbor's yard. Hmmm. have to find an indoor workout to do. Pilates again? We shall see.
- Thursday Sep 15, 2005
Made some bad food choices and layed around for much of the day. I have Noah home with a cold and I feel one coming on too. BUT...
I am not down, so don't count me out. I haven't been pinned yet, both shoulders are off the mat. I will not be eating more, since I am sure the chocolate bar helped me reach my caloric intake for the day. Heh heh, I am CRAZY for chocolate right now-- damn hormones! I'll be going for a walk soon too. Just need the sun to set a bit, because when I walk with the sun shining on me I get overheated and feel icky. ______________________________________________________________________
Update: Opted instead for a 30 minute bike ride with my 13 year-old son Joshua. It was great! Even stopped off at the store for milk, and a composition notebook he needed. You should have seen me riding with a gallon of milk in one hand-- hilarious, particularly the time I almost wiped out. But I made it and can count this day as a success.
- Wednesday Sep 14, 2005
Okay, so here I am again, and that's good, right?? I'm about to go for a walk, which is also good. I missed Biggest Loser last night, BUT I did go to the website and get to know the contestants a little bit. Wow!! I give those people so much credit-- they are trying, and some of them WILL succeed. I'm pulling for all of them.
- Tuesday Sep 13, 2005
I'm back, I think. Today I am here at least. I don't know what is going on in my head, I guess. I'm feeling...overwhelmed. There is so much going on inside me, I cannot possibly begin to explain. I feel lost and empty. I feel alone. There are problems in my life that need to be sorted out. It's an ugly place to be (in my head) and I don't really want to delve too deeply. Sometimes the only tolerable coping mechanism is to simply not think too much, ya know?
I put a sunny smile on my tracker-- that is me. Always smiling, and everything is always perfect. Somehow, that's the way I SEEM to always be, but honestly that's NOT real. Inside I'm not really smiling and I'm not always happy. What on earth makes me think its okay for everyone else to be 'in a mood' but never me? Today I have decided to let it out. Here it is safe, or I feel that way at least today.
I'm going for a walk.
Okay I did 2 miles last night, and one mile this morning.
- Monday Sep 12, 2005
SAVE ME FROM MYSELF! I NEED HELP!
Okay Pat wrote me and I feel much stronger for the present. I took a 20 minute fast paced walk and feel empowered. Not snacking either. Thanks gals! Jen