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KathyBlue - Friday May 14, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

 Hey hey!

Quick entry... All is good around here... Gym is back and I'm doing it almost every single day.

Weather is so nice lately...

 

Jacky82020 on 05/14/2021:
Nice pics! Love the dog and Van Gogh inspired art.


bearcountrygg on 05/14/2021:
I LOVE your dog!


Donkey on 05/15/2021:
Beautiful photos - look at that blue sky! I'm glad to hear that you are making it back into the gym. Fun!

They are changing the mask requirements here in the States, but I still plan to wear my mask to the gym, at least until I'm 2 weeks' past my 2nd shot... and then maybe to continue.

There are other benefits to mask wearing: easier on the allergies, keeps the face warmer in the winter. I'm going to hold on to my cloth masks, for sure.


happy-1 on 05/16/2021:
Beautiful dog and what a great walk.


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KathyBlue - Friday Apr 23, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Hello Beautiful People!  

It's Friday, yayyy!!!

The weather has been weird around here. Last night I had a very bad quality sleep because something was intensely burning outside and the flat was filled with that smell... It was like having a campfire at my 3rd floor apartment, really. We live in a town which is in a valley and surrounded by a mountain area, the Monchique mountains. Don't imagine it like if it was the Alps, it's just an agglomeration of some modest heaps of rocks and a lot of greenies. And those greenies constist of trees and mainly eucalypts and they burn quick and easy and leave a devastating scenario behind ...

 Half of my day was trying to find an ophtalmologist for my 6 year old son in the area. I called like 4-5 hospitals / medical posts and only got an appointment for 16 June.. crazy.. The head teacher at pre-school warned me that my son was scratching his eyes all day long and also inclines on his works too much, as if he couldn't see the paper / workbook properly from a normal distance.. Well, I will keep trying for an earlier appointment, in the meantime I have booked that 16 June date... we'll see. I certainly didn't have this problem in the capital before, but that's the capital and "before covid" scenario. Who knows what changed there, too, in the meantime.

I hit the gym today (third day of the week) and I was enthusiastic about the new workout buddy but she didn't show up. This is the second person who approaches me in the gym asking if she could try out my workouts with me, just to not show up afterwards on the scheduled time... I don't know what's wrong with people. I try not to be overly enthusiastic about random persons who tell me they want to tag along, but I always end up in disappointment. Nobody really points a gun at them, right? It wasn't me who started the conversation with them. They took the initiative. So...? If my workouts are scary, which I know they are, then just keep watching, don't ask to be part of it if you are afraid of breaking some serious sweat. Haha!

I started the "not eating after 5 PM" thing today. Well, it's 6 PM now and I'm sipping a coffee with milk. But my coffee + milk are sacred and they don't fall under any laws or regulations. No diet or restriction can touch my coffees. Anyway I do them largely with a lot of water and just a very small amount of milk. And granulated coffee. 

Donkey on 04/24/2021:
These people who no-show --- do you ever see them again? Do they say, "Gee, sorry I missed our meeting?" Or are these psycho ships in the dark that pass without seeing them again? That is SO weird. I think if that were me, I'd be like, "This is when I workout. Come if you want, or don't. I'm here for me." Selfish-sounding? Perhaps, but you gotta find a way to protect yourself from the emotional disappointment in other people. Sheesh...

Are the current burns deliberate? We have springtime burns here, and sometimes it's quite difficult to breathe. And I know what an episode of "not-good-sleep" feels like. Thursday night, I got almost 9 hours of sleep, but Fitbit gave me only a C+ -- and I believed it because it was NOT a good sleep.

I like your "not eating after 5pm" idea, although I get home closer to 6pm, so I'd have to make an adjustment. I might try this for myself for May and see how it goes.


Maria7 on 04/24/2021:
So sorry your new friend didn't show up. I know you felt disappointed. Bless your heart. I hope you can get the earlier appointment for your Son. Take care and hope you are having a good day.


horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2021:
That’s a sweet photo below of the dog hanging onto your leg !

That’s sad about the trees and how they burn easily - a problem with climate change all around the world - forest fires in California and other places damage people’s health and the air quality


horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2021:
Good luck to your son on the eye dr appt - I hope it fixes everything

Some people don’t understand what a commitment truly means ! Ah well, at least you still got your workout in



KathyBlue - Thursday Apr 22, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Hello all :)

Super stressful work week. Good that tomorrow is Friday, phew!

I have given away my game account to another person. I feel a huge relief. After almost 3 years of playing, it's been hard to do so, but having got rid of the daily chore and the obligations towards the team... is priceless, to be honest. This way, I win time and they win a new team member who will be more enthusiastic than I was, for sure. I at least chose the new owner carefully. Some people just leave and never look back. I respect the team and the ones who still feel the zest to play.

So... I have to say I'm really hooked on oatmeal. This week, so far, I could count on one hand's fingers how many times I had a meal that was NOT oatmeal. I feel surprisingly well though. I want to see if I manage to weigh in tomorrow morning (I keep forgetting this...)...

Ufff, talking about mornings... I really do miss the calm and quiet mornings. Since we'd adopted the puppy, my mornings are stressful and hectic. I rarely wake up on my own like I used to, or even the alarm... We have the puppy now as alarm, he starts whining at 5 AM and it's really annoying. So, i wake up really bad mooded which is new to me because I consider myself a morning person and I used to wake up good mooded every single day... 

Then, I know I have to take him for a walk so he would stop the whining and let everyone else sleep, but it's NOT POSSIBLE to go out without eating something first. I need to have a quick breakfast and a coffee before I put my feet outdoors.... And with a whining and jumpy dog it's very stressful... So I'm not sure what to do. I don't want to repart breakfast and then risk overeating by having two breakfasts which I already do, because by the time I take my kid to pre-school, around 9 AM, I'm already hungry again... so I normally have a cup of coffee+milk and a malt bread at the coffee shop near his school...

Actually I'm thinking of trying to stop eating and just drink water after 5 PM everyday... Because I go to bed around 9 PM so it would be a good idea. I don't feel the need of food "right before" going to bed like some people do so it should work...?

Sorry I'm so boring today. Just to be easier to imagine, for whom had the patience to read til the end, here's a picture of when I prepare breakfast....:

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Oh, what a cutie! Know the breed/breeds? What’s the weight? How big will he get?

The husband has had oatmeal every morning for breakfast for like a 100 years.


bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
Well now that is pure love...LOL...and I think your idea of not eating after 5 sounds great........what ever works best for you is best!


Maria7 on 04/22/2021:
Pretty dog. Sounds like a very good plan to only have water after 5 pm. I am doing something similar.


Donkey on 04/23/2021:
I agree with your plan, if you feel that you need to eat before taking the puppy out. Could you take your coffee with you? I don't have to eat, but I have to have my coffee before (or while) I start the day.

That's why I don't go to the gym in the morning, because I need my coffee! So I ride my bike at home, while enjoying my first cup.


Maria7 on 04/23/2021:
Hope you are having a good day.



KathyBlue - Wednesday Apr 21, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Hey Everyone!

I feel so sooooore nowadays. I only did gym twice last week, and this week I did on Monday and today and also have one scheduled for Friday.

Soooo, another girl came to talk to me at the changing room, and asking about my training program. I told her I'm doing them in my head before training, lol... I do have a vast experience and some workout catalog in my own head, from the last years of gym sessions with certified trainers... 

She asked me if she could join me on Friday to do a training together... I said sure, but, I wonder! The last time someone asked me to do so, never happened. They normally chicken out because my trainings are hard and they prefer the machines and stuff. Which is still OK... but I wish they would not make me enthusiastic for nothing! Ha Ha!

Actually, I tried several exercises from this list: 

The 20 Best Arm Exercises For Women - Best Arm Workouts (womenshealthmag.com)

It is interesting! The one called "Around the World" is actually really demanding. It doesn't seem like so... but it is, made it right. I don't usually try out these things and I am positively surprised by some.

Next things to try will be some of these!:

19 Best Stability Ball Exercises For A Full-Body Workout (womenshealthmag.com)

Well, I feel better! I still eat more than I should (I think) and drink less than I should (I'm sure). Soooo... Improvements need to be done. Just... one day at a time...

Have a nice day, girls and boys!

 

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2021:
Sounds like you have a good plan!


Jacky82020 on 04/21/2021:
Oh, very interesting, didn’t know it was possible to insert links here. Good info. Hope your new buddy works out, if not, no biggie. I like going it alone, even walking. People slow me down.


Maria7 on 04/21/2021:
Hope it all works out well with your new friend.



KathyBlue - Saturday Apr 17, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

7 AM, heading for the gym.. Family is still sleeping, except for the dog who promptly woke me up way before 6 AM and I feel like a washed rug. I can just hope that the walk to the gym with some good vibe music would help to motivate myself for another gym session. 

Note to myself: need to create new playlists for gym / dog walking. I'm getting fed up with the existing ones...

So, I bought yet another app, lol... It's called Avocation and it's a habit tracker. Lifetime membership cost 16 euros so it's okay and it helps creating and tracking healthy habits with minimum effort.

It looks fairly simple and effective.

Avocation - Habit Tracker

Jacky82020 on 04/17/2021:
That seems similar to the Fitbit app. But I’m too lazy to use it. lol


Donkey on 04/17/2021:
Cute looking app! I hope it works for you!

Tracking really is everything. *sigh* I lost track of my water tracking for the past 2 days. I was trying to recall all the water that I consumed. I think I was able to get most of it right.

KathyBlue on 04/17/2021:
Yes, tracking is useful BUT a person like me who struggles with obsessions, has to be careful not to get overly frustrated on failures, let it be tracking or complying with the habit itself.


Donkey on 04/18/2021:
^^VERY TRUE. I don't have a good answer for that, only to say that in myself, I was able to overcome the obsessions, to some degree.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/18/2021:
very organized, easy to look at tracker photo.

nice you can walk to gym. i love to walk with music also!

good going get out to the gym early :) I am starting to do some exercise early too, i think, once in awhile at least, before the day gets too busy and i get too tired after work to do it anymore!


Maria7 on 04/20/2021:
Sounds like you are doing well, Kathy. Happy for you. Glad to see you back posting again. Have a happy, blessed day.



KathyBlue - Thursday Apr 15, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Another day of overeating on healthy food.

Another day of not having my s... together. Oh, well. I am exhausted. 

 I should try this... but... if I can't get my basics together, how do I force myself to do such thing, on top of the chaos I'm surrounded by...?

Jacky82020 on 04/15/2021:
You look like a very happy apple! Or is it a peach? LOL


Donkey on 04/16/2021:
Oh I can easily eat too much healthy food. That's one reason why vegetarianism never worked for me, unfortunately. (There are other reasons, too.)

I can so relate to this post... Keep on trying!


Horn_of_plenty on 04/18/2021:
i have overeaten on healthy food too....but at least it's more nutritious than junk food....you are doing good, like donkey says, just keep working on it!


Horn_of_plenty on 04/18/2021:
lol jacky...def an apple!



KathyBlue - Tuesday Apr 13, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Hey Everyone!

I hope everyone is having a great week so far.

I had my exercise at gym yesterday, I'm a bit sore today and I feel strangely tired (normally I would feel sore but energized!). I have to pull it together though and perform the minimum on all levels. Or the maximum. Depends on expectations, right. Sigh.

Maybe I was unclear with my previous post, not MY team or work team who called me fat, it was in a game, and in the overall chat, not in the team chat. Some just saw my picture and decided to call me fat. Unknown people, not my team members and it's a game, not work. Phew, who cares about them random people. It's "better" than all the other options. My team is awesome, hehe.

 I need to drink more water and I feel that I'm overeating again on healthy food. I rediscovered PB, and with that I think I'm having a tad bit too much of it on a daily basis. My new favourite thing is hot oatmeal with 2-3 tbps greek yogurt and 1-2 teaspoons of PB and some artificial sweetener (vanilla flavour). This is very fulfilling but it's becoming a comfort food and a meal replacement (whenever I don't have proper lunch I have this) and it shouldn't be... I feel I'm getting out of balance and frustrated again. I don't understand, honestly. Will I ever reach the point of "ok, this is the daily dose of this and it should be enough"... but no.. because the more I tell myself to restrict, the more I obsess about the topic and the more I crave the restricted stuff. I really really need some natural balance here....

How to tell the difference between mindful eating and dieting (meganhallier.com)

Donkey on 04/13/2021:
I guess I was one of those that misinterpreted the fat remark during your game. Still, I would ask myself, why spend time with folks who put me down?

Then again, I am not a gamer, I don't play computer games, and with a son, daughter, and husband who DO play computer games (along with all of their internet friends), I realize that I may be speaking about something I know nothing about.

KathyBlue on 04/13/2021:
Game communities can have big influence on one's life. This is why I don't agree with the concept of "IRL" (in real life) - because people tend to distort reality because they consider these communities are somewhat imaginary and fantastic. Well, they consist of real people and they can cause harm or happiness just like any others.


Donkey on 04/14/2021:
^I agree with your assessment of IRL 100%.


horn_of_plenty on 04/14/2021:
GREAT post, i will read it more in depth tonight, all the charts. just great.

also, regarding "In Real Life," I agree. I take it all as one. Internet friends are friends too and it's part of life if you make it so. so i have to agree with you & donk, of course!

doesn't matter who calls you fat, it's not appropriate either way tho. Especially in front of your face, even if on the game. I did get it when you wrote it before too, that it was in a game, but it still isn't right. None of us here would ever say things to you to make you feel unwelcome or hurt you.


bearcountrygg on 04/15/2021:
Love that mindful eating versus dieting sign....looks like a keeper!



KathyBlue - Sunday Apr 11, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Sunday. I should do so many things but I feel so sluggish (it's the period having this effect on me) and unmotivated to move...

I took the puppy for a walk early, he keeps waking us up around 5-6 AM every morning. It's not his fault, it's all about circumstances. He should have an extra walk at night but I am not able. I can take him out over the day 3-4 times, but I go to bed around 9-10 PM and that's it. I am not up to another walk with him after 10 PM, and he would need that in order to delay those morning walks with an hour or two. Oh well. I can't possibly batter myself with this on top of everything else (but I do anyway, right..). Again, feeling like a failure from dusk till dawn.

Here's the puppy, and some more text below the images, if you wanted to keep on reading.

I'm coming to the conclusion again that I should reorg my priorities. I spend too much time on a certain game. I should reduce game time to 20-30 minutes a day or quit the whole thing. I'm more inclined to do the latest. I don't feel the drive anymore and it's more of a burden than anything else, honestly. The team is really good and that's the only thing keeping me logging in daily.

Also, in the same game I was called fat many times recently. I changed my profile pic to one I took with SnapChat, a filter that turned me into Easter bunny. The ears and stuff. I guess it is a small image and my face indeed looks round as a proper bunny. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm also fat. But why do they have to call me fat? I haven't done anything against them, I wasn't even talking to them and two guys in one week called me fat just like that, in the common live chat area. A part of me wants to call them out on triggering me and making me feel uncomfortable. Another part of me, the stronger one, let it go. I just went silent. But it certainly doesn't help and I'm here talking about it so it obviously bothers me more than it should and more than I admit.

Will I heal for good. Will this ever get better. Will I ever be happy with my body and myself. I hope so.

A pic of this morning, castle in the fog:

 

Donkey on 04/11/2021:
What a cute puppy! I love starting my mornings early. My alarm is set for 5:15am on workdays and 5:30am on weekends. On work days, I get up around 5:30am; weekends, lately I've been sleeping in until 6a or 6:30a. I'd much prefer some motivation to get my butt out of bed earlier -- looks like your dog takes care of that for you! I guess I'm saying, maybe it's not a bad thing that your dog needs to go out early.

I'm sorry that someone on your team called you fat. WTH? IDK... you could have come back with a snappy comeback ("At least I'm not impotent"), but frankly, maybe it's a wake-up call to re-evaluate who you wish to spend your time with.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/11/2021:
lovely post on 4/10/21 below! it doesn't sound negative at all. it sounds like things are now improving for you; and i'm glad to hear that!


Horn_of_plenty on 04/11/2021:
OMG I LOVE YOUR PUPPY! so so so jealous! i want one! (i can't have one, too busy for it)

being called fat by team members is rude. I would leave that team, join a different one. i don't know. whoever called you that is extremely rude.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/12/2021:
i'd love to see that castle in person. great photo of the "old and the new"

KathyBlue on 04/13/2021:
Consider yourself invited! :)


horn_of_plenty on 04/13/2021:
awwwww THANK YOU xoxoxo. I'll remember this. I remember you invited me a long time ago, too. Thanks Kat.



KathyBlue - Saturday Apr 10, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

Hey Everyone!

Alert: negative stuff follows. Writing it out.

I've been absent, I know.. lot of work, and lacking motivation of everything. Honestly, I'm focusing on mental survival nowadays. It's getting better now that my son is back to pre-school and gym finally reopened this week. I had 4 sessions already, and my body & mind start to feel the improvement.

I really crave for balance in all aspects of life, and it's been so challenging. Maintaining work, sanity, family home, peace & integrity, while having ADHD and constantly feeling like a complete failure because I don't have my sh..t pulled together... It's just annoying and depressing most of the time.

I joined some Facebook groups about Mindfulness and Minimalist Life, it actually helps to read and practice small yet powerful actions and reflect upon short texts like these:

Donkey on 04/10/2021:
That's not too bad of a negative post. But I do understand that struggle for balance. When you said "mental survival" -- I felt like that summarized this past week for me perfectly. That's not to say that our struggles are the same, but the resulting emotions, I feel, are similar --- and I'm so sorry to hear that, for you, because I know how hard it can be.

I really like the shower meditation idea -- I shower at night, as it helps me sleep, and I have an urgent need to "wash away" the grime of the day (literally and figuratively). I'm going to try this visualization - to be very intentional about it - that you posted.



KathyBlue - Thursday Jan 28, 2021
(Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.)
Weight: 0.0

 Hello, Gals and Gents!

Do you believe me when I say, I wanted to come and add an entry every single day in the last few weeks. But I keep forgetting or something happens and I get distracted... Hey but... better later than never, I'm here now, right?!

So, lots of things going on... I mean... It's purely mental I guess, because physically speaking we are pretty much restricted to the limit. We can't go out much, stores are either closed or restricted to essencial goods... Online businesses are thriving now because any other way to buy clothes, toys, home stuff, is not possible. 

Policemen are encouraged by the government to identify people out on the streets, ask for proof of address as it's not allowed to go far to take the dog for a run or exercise outside. These are allowed activities, but only in the surroundings of home and for short periods of time.
So people are getting additional stress with this as many can't even show a proof of address because all the governmental offices are also closed so if they have to change address or anything on their ID cards they are screwed. Same goes for me, I am carrying a simple bank letter that came to my current address, because my official ID address is not this one. My son's ID card has been expired for months and they don't care.

Putting all this to context, I am confined in my home with a bored 5 year old (almost 6, yay) and a 3 months old puppy who wakes me up every single night and early morning. I am doing remote work, but it's constantly interrupted by them. So, my life resumed in one sentence: I'm on survival mode, mentally and physically speaking. 

Eating is still OK but I feel I eat too much, and gyms are closed of course. I am not able to go out to exercise because I am alone with the kid and going out with the kid is not the same. We can play around and walk but it's not the rigorous exercise I was used to and my body craves for as the most efficient form of stress relief.. If I tried to do my routine outdoors, it would end in a disaster because I would be interrupted and that's what I hate the most, due to my conditions (OCD and ADHD), so I would just become upset and frustrated, even more than I feel 24/7 because of this whole situation...

So, basically that's it. Oh, and remember about that romance with the American guy I wrote about. That's over. We haven't spoken since end of November and that's about right, given that I found out he had been wooing other(s) at the same time. Yet another deception to my romantic CV.

I hope everyone is doing okay. 

Cheers!

Kat

Here's a belated Christmas picture:

bearcountrygg on 01/28/2021:
Nice picture Kathy....and your little one is adorable! It sounds like Portugal has it even harder than the states....I'm sure it is hard staying in all day with a small child that needs to get out and play. Where I live we can still go out but with mask restrictions.....Glad to see you back.


grannyannie on 01/28/2021:
Cute pic, Kat.

Scotland is on total lockdown again until mid Feb (or longer). We haven't been encouraged to turn people in but it does happens - especially if people have parties. And you can pay a fine.


Jacky82020 on 01/28/2021:
Lovely photo!


legcramps on 01/28/2021:
Sorry to hear of your struggles. We too have restrictions on households and will be fined if we are found in the company of those who do not have the same home address. It's been a tough year, hasn't it? [hugs]


Donkey on 01/28/2021:
Cute picture!!!!

My state is starting to open up again, because the positivity rates are low enough to do so. I'm so surprised to hear this, because all I see are people doing foolish things. I am currently quarantined, because my daughter tested positive. On and off, I've been feeling kind of anxious. That was me Monday and today. But I am fortunate to know that I have a job and an end-date. So I will just push through these feelings. That HAS to be tough with a little one, though.


Maria7 on 01/28/2021:
Oh, what a sweet picture of you and your son, Kathy. You are both gorgeous! Thank you for what you wrote to my last post. I will comment to it after I finish this first. Our state, South Carolina, is not on lockdown but the nursing homes are, and I haven't been allowed to go inside my Mama's nursing home for 10 months now...can't give her a hug, nothing. I visit her at her window most days and she always asks me when am I coming inside? I always take her a bag of her favorite foods. This is tough on everybody. Hubby and I do not eat inside restaurants, nor do other things we used to do, to stay safer. Only the Lord knows when the pandemic will end. In the meanwhile, happy that you and your son are doing well. Take care.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/28/2021:
HELLO! thanks for sharing your photo...i never put your name together with your face...realizing now who you are from fb... :) or maybe i forgot bc it's been awhile since you posted here!

your son is a mini of you! you look so much alike!

i hear that in France, also, they are much stricter, like your country, than the United States. we are free to go out and do as we please, still. stay well and healthy!

KathyBlue on 01/31/2021:
hehehe :=)


Maria7 on 01/29/2021:
Hope you are having a good day.



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