So...

Day 1.

I talked to a nutricionist guy (!!!), and we agreed that I would follow a LCLF diet for now. But more restrictive on the Carbs... 

Breakfast:

300ml MF milk with brown rice protein (and some vanilla flavouring drops otherwise it's YUCKKK!!!)  - SO THIS WAS ONE OF THE NUTRICIONIST'S IDEA, because normally it's morning when I'm the hungriest. I managed to get like 3-4 breakfasts in between waking up and lunch, before...

MF milk with coffee (this is one of my major problems as I take like 2-3 or more per day... it's not like Starkbucks stuff, it's smaller and no sugar, but still...)

Lunch:

1 grilled chicken leg, 200gr French salad with mayo, Coca Cola Zero

4PM:

2 apples

 I'm back... I have to weigh myself... but I just put the weight I started when I was a regular user here. I am glad that I can see familiar names on the list, apart for the ones I got to know via FB :)

So - I'm back, it doesn't have anything to do with the NY resolution, etc. It's me, I'm so fed up with how I feel, sluggish, can't move properly, always tired... I really need to do something.

I will try to explain myself further, later.

xoxo,

Kathy (Katalin)

Hi, Girls!

I got two hours of walking in yesterday. A progress indeed but it also made me clear that I was very weak and the pains were really devastating. Today we're going to the local fish & vegetables market to look around and get some walk in again. Practice leads to perfection. Hopefully.

I had thousands of calories yesterday, as MIL brought me petit fours again, and I couldn't stop eating them ALL at once. What's wrong with me??? I have sugar craving all the time. I'm going to put an end to this, and I pulled out the doctor's original diet sheet and I'm following it. This sugar addiction will be hard to leave behind - AGAIN. But now I don't have anything sweet at home, only healthy food... and I really have to cut on bread. I'm struggling, this is so stupid.

I tried to find some comfort and solution from books but no luck so far. I also try to find things to do at home - beyond housework because in my condition I am pretty much limited to wash dishes... I tried to do some art work! While being in Lagos, I gathered some seashells and brought some sand home in water bottles. So, I got some special glue and did this pencil holder for the desk. I tried to give it a "wet sand" effect next to the seashells, so it would give it a natural look, "Just Washed Out by the Atlantic Ocean":

Today's menu:

08H00 - LF milk w/ coffee, 2 slices of toast, black german style bread (350 kcal)

12H30 - vegetable soup w/ corn bread, 2 figs and a nectarine, jelly (550 kcal)

16H00 -  apple and a LF yogurt (100 kcal)

19H30 - whole wheat pasta w/ nuts (400 kcal)

Grand total foreseen: 1400 kcal

Snacking: a pastel de nata my man brought from the mall (200), 4 nectarines (100 kcal), 3 plums (50 kcal), grapes (200 kcal), 3 slices of toast (corn bread - 350 kcal), LF milk w/ LF cocoa powder (100 kcal)

Grand total: 2400 kcal (BAD!!!)

Good morning, Girls!

I'm so dead - my tummy aches because of a turkey drumstick from the oven yesterday. I think I won't be able to get in solid food for the next few days, LOL...
From today on, I'm registering my foods here again. Thanks for the advice.

Yesterday was my last visit at the hospital's nursery: all the bandages have been removed. YAYYY!!! The wound is pretty (if this word can be used for a wound, lol).

Today I'm going to use the public transport! We go to town for a walk, so I can test my progress in walking and also travelling. I'm looking forward to do the challenge!

Today's menu:

07h00 - LF milk w/ chicory coffee

08h00 - tea w/ lemon juice

Boo Boo, Monday it is!

I had a good night, oh yeah! Today, early in afternoon, we'll go to the hospital, hopefully all the bandages will be removed.

I'm miserably failing my diet, girls. I swore, AGAIN, that from today on I'd be back on track... God, give me willpower.

xoxo, have a nice week!
Kat

Hello, girls!

Sunny Sunday it is. Apologies I didn't appear yesterday - but: I'd been out for a whole day! MIL's sister called us on Friday, asked if I were in conditions to spend a LUNCH at their house. We told them (confirmed that it would be only a LUNCH twice) yes - I'm unable to say "No" to grilled sardines and grilled green bell peppers anyway, hahah... So, we went there, arrived at noon punctual - we had lunch and then I was waiting for us to leave which took place around 9 PM..... Of course there was a dinner, too. Grrr.... Nevermind, I survived and there was a merry hour, while sitting at the table, when I completely forgot about my back's condition!!!! On the negative part, we ate a loooot again. LOL, I'm so afraid of the scale... but then again, as soon as my life gets back to normal, my behaviors will get back to normal, too. The problem with doses is still at large... I have to see if there's a book on the topic which could eventually help... The "The End of Overeating" doesn't really help! But, first of all I really have to find out where did my TOM go... There's no sign of it since February, as you know...

Funny moment: I ate some petit-fours yesterday, almond taste - reminded me of Hungary. We have a tradition of marzipan there. Then MIL told me she would buy me some of those for my birthday. I haven't received anything for my birthday, this was my first b-day like that. I don't mind anyway, but they now feel guilty, as I bought presents for SIL and for MIL, too... I like to give, and receiving is ... well, it's good but I can discard it without hard feelings. I'm a grown-up, ain't that true.

Decide that you are absolutely gorgeous as you are and support your decision with acts of self-care. If you’d prefer to exist on five hundred calories and perform five hundred crunches, that’s your clue that self-punishment is familiar and self-appreciation isn’t. Nevertheless, in the next seventy-two hours, do at least two of the following:
buy yourself something new to wear; clear out your lingerie drawer; straighten another drawer, cupboard, or file; get a massage or a salon service; give yourself flowers; or do something just for fun—a boat ride, a beach walk, a chick flick, whatever would make you happy.
Source: Fat, Broke & Lonely NO MORE! from Victoria Moran

Good morning, Girlies!

I haven't been so well since the day before yesterday. My body is in real pains now, as the black hole in the middle of my back is slowly disappearing (which is positive) I started to feel my back (and pains, which is negative at least for now). My nights are rough. And YES, I am taking the painkiller in every 12 hours. Does it help? I am not sure.

There was a major crap at workplace yesterday so I had to save their arses. They were prepared to work overnight, and I solved the situation in 2 hours. It didn't help my back, of course.

Today's SIL's birthday so we'll have to go to MIL's house around 7 PM. I'm not sure about survival. They say I can lay on the couch but I hate to do stuff like that in others' homes. I only feel comfortable enough to do so at my place and at my two best friends' places... I hate to show weakness. I'm an iron woman - Wolverina.

As for food, I had a great day yesterday. My plans were undermined, sort of, at dinner but no problem. I had catfish for the first time - and I wouldn't call myself a fan after all. I think it was a unique ocassion to eat it - if I can avoid such thing in the future, hehehe...

xoxo!!! LOVE YOU ALL!

Good morning, Girlies!

I officially restarted my diet today. A bad day to restart because August still has some anniversaries (SIL's on Friday, MIL's on the 25th) but I'm going to behave. Well, I changed the system, I write down the menu for a week, post it on the fridge and stick to it. This worked fine in the hospital and will work fine here at home, too. Discipline needed, nothing else. Then I have to apply this for the average workdays from the 29th on. And from October, the early birdie mode will be on, too - I'm going to go to the pool every morning. Tennis trainings were at 7 AM, now the pool activities start at 7h30 so there's not a big difference after all.

My body is a bit tired today. Yesterday we went out in the morning, around 11 AM, and got home 2 hours after. I thought I'd die on the streets. Man's fault - he wanted to visit a local store and we had to join the queue and wait. Then I wanted to go to the post office and send V's present for her birthday. There were no queues, LUCKY ME... Then we went to the supermarket. Well, the first supermarket visit since 2nd August. I was in Heaven. LOL... Did you know I was an addict? It's bad, but my family raised me like this. I love to go to the supermarkets, and if there's a new supermarket somewhere I just cannot pass by without visiting it. Addictions are bad. 

So, to continue, we got home at 1 PM, man cooked, we had lunch and then it was time (2 PM) to go to the hospital. The nurse removed my big bandage and let some parts of the wound catch air from now on! Now I have 3 smaller bandages on critical points, and hopefully all of them will be removed on Monday... After the hospital I asked FIL to drive me to workplace as I had to give them the sick leave's papers. I was questioned and observed of course, by all the colleagues there so it was pretty tiring... When I got out, we still went to the supermarket downstairs, because I promised MIL to do crépes for SIL's birthday celebration on Friday night and I still needed to buy some ingredients. BTW I'm going to use Xylitol and some % of whole grain flour, LF milk to do the crépes. I love to take risks. Though, I won't take it to the point of telling them about these facts. LOL...

Today I'm taking it easy. I want to go downstairs to the chinese store to buy a vase for the roses I received for my birthday (yes, they are fake but smell good and look good and I don't have to watch them die out slowly), and this pretty much covers my plans for today.

xoxo, have a nice day girlies!

Good morning, Girls!!!

V! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOVE!!!!

How are you? I'm sweating like a pig... it's hot here. I wanna go to the beach so bad... me, who never liked the beach! LOL... times are changing.

Talking about changing, I think I might have discovered a major improvement in my status. My back feels the same, I have my difficulties walking, sitting, etc. BUT ... my nights are constantly improving. This is a comfy feeling, huh?! For example, I have my DREAMS back! I don't remember them, and they are rather messy and fragmented but I have them again!!! Don't you agree, that this is definitely an improvement? Sleeping deeper means confidence, on the topmost level - the inconscious level!

I knew that I would miss my daily routines, sports, but I never thought I'd miss them this much....!!! I don't miss tennis itself (the day before yesterday an ignorant guy from the tournaments sent me a text message and proposed a game for today - gave me goosebumps, hahahah), just YET, but I miss MOVING, I miss the challenge, I miss the pool, I miss people in average... I am glad to have some of my sport mates on Facebook constantly asking how am I doing and giving me strength to carry on, just like you ladies. :-)

Ahh, thanks for the advices on which parts of the US to visit. Eventually I will!  One day this tall and slim girl will knock on your door and ask you to show around, hihi...

Your nice comments everyday keep the life in me, really! :-) You make me smile, you make me feel warmth in my heart which are all beneficial to my health and mind. I love you so much, girlzzz!!!! I just can't thank you enough that you exist for me out there!

Good morning, Girls!!! :-)

I have two more days on sick leave, then I officially enter into HOLIDAYS again, and I get back to work on the 29th August. The doctor gave me a paper from the 2nd to 31st but the state rules are so damn stupid! I have the right to be on a sick leave for 12 days only, then it can be extended but for that, I need to go to the local health center and request to be seen by a doctor. BAHHHHHHHH. And, imagine, for the hospital days, between the 2nd and 5th August, they don't give me a sick leave, it is required to show up in the local State Health Insurance company with the original papers. What a stupid requirement, indeed! I was in the damned hospital, there's no reason to deny/question that. Why should I join an enormous queue in my state of health just to show the paper? I don't know. And the queue is really huge there,the office opens at 9h00 AM and I used to pass by around 6 AM (when I had tennis in the mornings) and there were dozens of people there always, waiting in line, THREE HOURS before its open... I don't want to go there, I wouldn't be able to stand that, most probably. And I don't want man to go there either. So I was forced to request holidays, too.

I had 39 days of holidays this year. By law, I can only use 30 maximum over a year. So now, I took these days off, I have only 2 days of holidays left for this year... which means: No visiting Mom til next May. SNIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.....

Tomorrow is V's birthday!!!! I'm planning to go over, in mind, and have a huge party with her & co. I'd love to see Florida. BTW, man was telling me he'd like to go back to Egypt, and I told him that Egypt and other african/arabic countries are not in my wishlist to visit. He looked at me like if I were slime mold or something, LOL, but really, I'm not interested in ancient rocks,  unbearable heat and smelly, rude people. On the top of my wishlist comes the U.S, I 'd like to see New York, Las Vegas, Miami, New Jersey, Texas, Arizona states... but for that, I really need to get a job with a better wage, LOL! But come on, I can dream, can't I. He told me he didn't have US in his wishlist because of the foreign policies they apply at the airports, the way US treats "aliens", even if they are tourists they remain suspects. I don't know. I have friends who went there as tourists and they had lots of fun. And nobody tells me the Arabic countries don't treat tourists as suspects, pfff.... no, they treat tourists as money-bags, like if they were purses of Mary Poppins...

Well, I have to start the day. I really have to change my behaviors. It's so difficult to be at home and don't eat all the time. I constantly fail this, even if it's with healthy food... and then, not so healthy food: Yesterday I made 10 crépes out of pure boredom. Man was happy. I was happy but then came GUILT. Grrr...

OHHHHHHHHHHH I wanted to tell you a story if you have the time and patience to read more...:

The other day I found a show on MTV called "True Life", and they were showing an episode called "I hate my plastic surgery". Well, this thaught me a huge lesson, girls! Is that women won't ever be happy with their looks! I recognized myself in Nikki. Even after a 2nd, sucessful surgery, the mirror doesn't make her feel happy nor SAFE in herself. All phsycological!!!!
And Amanda is a little girl, full of power, she's a personal trainer and never content with her boobs. She reminded me of V. I hope you have time to watch this episode (the link below gives access to that):

What if you underwent surgery to fix a part of your body that you didn't like and woke up with even bigger problems? On this episode of True Life, you'll meet two young women suffering the consequences of plastic surgery gone awry.

 Nikki thought having a nose job would land her bigger jobs in her modeling career. But, when the surgery didn't turn out the way she wanted it to, Nikki had no where to turn than back to the drawing board -- another surgery.

 For the past year, Amanda has been seriously ill. What may be the cause of her illness? Amanda thinks it all boils down to her breast implants and she plans to have them removed. Will she return to her old self after the removal?

 Will Nikki and Amanda be able to feel secure, inside and out? Find out on True Life | I Hate My Plastic Surgery.

http://www.mtv.com/videos/true-life-i-hate-my-plastic-surgery/1638794/playlist.jhtml