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KayBee - Wednesday Nov 02, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

I'm feeling overall too low today. Personal issues. I'm feeling so ... stuck, paralised and doomed to stay where I am like some stone sculpture. I want to break free.

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 11/02/2011:
Sorry you're feeling so low. You're never stuck. If you need to break free, you can.

sweetpea1977 on 11/02/2011:
Hugs Kat. Keeping you in my thoughts. I hope you find a way to break through this funk. You deserve nothing but happiness in your life. Love you!

hollybelle on 11/02/2011:
What happened that triggered the downward feelings? (((((Hugs))))))

V on 11/02/2011:
:( I hope you feel better Kat!! Love YOU

legcramps on 11/03/2011:
Awe, feel better!

hollybelle on 11/04/2011:
Where are you? If you are taking a break, OK, but come back to us!

YellowDress on 11/04/2011:
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling bad...Hope you'll be ok soon!

liza36 on 11/07/2011:
Hope you are doing ok. Thinking of you!

Supercheese on 11/07/2011:
feel better!

KayBee - Monday Oct 31, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Good morning, Ladies!

New week, new oath. LOL... I swore not to make more home-made sweets this year. Most probably I'll end up doing something for Christmas, but... maybe not. Or it will be something healthier. This Halloween is being a disaster, I've made a pumpkin roll with fresh cheese filling, all "light" ingredients that's right but even then... QUANTITIES. We pigged out as family, and swept up a 10-dose roll in a blink of the eye... It's certainly a kind of good feeling for the cook (me), but the calories!!! LOL...

Then I made the witches' fingers. They look good, but I have a pain in the hips today (standing all afternoon + evening in the kitchen) and we had a small drama, too. WHO THE HECK INVENTED BLACK POTHOLDERS anyway??????? My oven is a gas oven and it's black inside, so the stupid potholder fell on the bottom and the next thing I noticed was FLAMES all over inside the oven... I entered in a trance, a panic got me frozen and man had the conscience to grab the thing burning with huge flames and throw it in the sink. GOSH... goosebumps.

Today I came in all pink!

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

getmebackto150 on 10/31/2011:
Yikes!!! I hate kitchen fires, glad man was thinking clearly, I too would have frozen... I'm in the same boat as you... new week, new oath! Mine is to eat natural foods in reasonable portion sizes!!! Have a great day!

Supercheese on 10/31/2011:
Aww I've done that too!! (the black potholder) Have a good halloween and remember its one day!!

V on 10/31/2011:
Oh my!! I am glad although you are a pinkish, you were unscathed..Have a good day Kat :)

grannyannie on 10/31/2011:
Yikes! Scary! Have a happy halloween!

liza36 on 10/31/2011:
Flames in the kitchen - very scarry!

I'm trying hard to stay away from halloween candy. It's hard when it's all around you. Have a greay day, pink lady!

legcramps on 11/01/2011:
Glad you're okay!

KayBee - Sunday Oct 30, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Goodie morning, everyone!

I didn't come online yesterday because I was very tired - I thought it would happen. After a gym+pool combo (I entered at 9 AM and left at midday, lol), we went to eat to a Chinese restaurant. An authentical Chinese buffet. I got so full on tofu and legumes that I haven't eaten anything else afterwards...

Great news is, although the PowerDeep classes didn't start this year on Saturdays at 11h30, now they decided to start a HidroPower+HidroCycle mix at the same schedule. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I had a great conversation with the new prof, and I promised her to participate on her classes starting next week. LOL, then my man remembered me we had a commitment for next Saturday. BAHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm going to try and go for both. Maybe I'll catch a cab from the pool to the train station. 

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 10/31/2011:
What class will you be participating in next week?

KayBee - Friday Oct 28, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Boo, stressful week. It's not because of work itself, it's because of ... the ... PEOPLE. Nobody's organized around here! Gosh, it's really difficult to launch a project nowadays. It's really difficult to work with Englishmen (sorry girlz... LOL) ... they change their minds last minute and never apologize. Patience.... where are you.

Today morning I had to skip my swimming class because of this caotic project launch programmed for today (yes, incredible, for a Friday indeed!). I'm going back to get my revenge on HidroPower & swimming later, at night. Well, I've already had my HidroCycle. And good news was given today by the prof.: the director of the sports complex is willing to expand the HidroCycle classes from 2x to 3x a week! So, Wednesdays would be included. ALLLLL RIIIIGHTYYYYY!!!! 

I'm going to the gym tomorrow, then HidroDeep, and then I have an invitation to lunch (by Man). Then I really have to do shopping for Halloween. I'm planning to do Witches' Fingers, two versions:

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/28/2011:
Those finger are killer! (haha) Good deal on your added classes too, have a great weekend!

V on 10/28/2011:
Yayyyy for more days to get your workout and those fingers are beyond cool :) Have a good one!!

~WI~ on 10/28/2011:
If all cookies looked like that, I could rid myself of the desire to eat them LOL have a great day!

Supercheese on 10/28/2011:
WOw!! look at those cookies!!! What kind of job do you do?

grannyannie on 10/28/2011:
LOL love the cookies! Good to hear your class will be expanded. Well done on your workouts.

sweetpea1977 on 10/28/2011:
Awesome witches fingers. One of these years, I wanna throw a Halloween party and do all sorts of creepy dishes and drinks!

So happy that your hydro class will be available three times per week! What great news!!

Hope you have a fun Halloween weekend!

hollybelle on 10/30/2011:
Great looking fingers! What is in them? Sweet or savory? Love this kind of thing.

KayBee - Thursday Oct 27, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Good (?) morning!

I had a great aqua-night yesterday (a HidroPower + Swimming level 1 classes combo), after work. It was refreshing and not crowded because ppl were not in the mood (horrible weather). Then, the night was terrible, wind was shaking the windows and doors, rain was falling like crazy and it was leaking again in our attic........ Man was in a terrible mood, he woke up at 4 AM, (me too) and went to see what to do. Well, there's not much to do, or at least, without money there's not much to do...

I slept like 6 hours, then woke up in the morning and found myself in a "to go or not go" mood. I almost gave in and stayed in bed but then I decided no rain- or windstorm would stop me having my workout done. So there I went to the gym, the storm stopped while I was on the bus (sigh! relief!) and I was all alone in the gym for an hour, LOL ... That's all about DETERMINATION, girls.

Then came a tennis friend of mine, who has been avoiding gym for years but we met yesterday night at the pool and I convinced her to come. She said I was her motivation... Then there was no hot water available in the showers. Bye-bye, motivation... LOL...

Today I'm heading home right after work, and want to get a longer sleep in, before HidroCycle tomorrow morning.

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/27/2011:
Good for you Kat, it sounds like you've found your mojo, woo hoo!

Supercheese on 10/27/2011:
Good job with the workout in the morning!! I didn't seem to have that much motivation this morning.....

grannyannie on 10/27/2011:
Well done on getting to the gym!

~WI~ on 10/27/2011:
Great job! And your pictures are cute!

V on 10/27/2011:
Yes you ARE an inspiration!! Woohoo!

KayBee - Wednesday Oct 26, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

áááááááá.............................. stressful day! Gonna get me a perfect workout night afterwards!!!!

Today I decided to wear pink/lilac to match my hair! :)

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

getmebackto150 on 10/26/2011:
Hope you day gets better!

biscottibody59 on 10/26/2011:
Have a good afternoon/evening!

Supercheese on 10/26/2011:
Cute outfit. You look great!!!

liza36 on 10/26/2011:
So pretty in pink! I love the necklace too, I absolutely love jewelry!

Runforfun on 10/26/2011:
I love your hair!:)

YellowDress on 11/04/2011:
It's a little bit late but i must say. I loved and loved your hir!!

KayBee - Tuesday Oct 25, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Hi, Girls!

Great accomplishment today! I have completed the 7th gym session of the 1st plan, meaning I've stepped in the 2nd half of this plan! There's some more and then ... new plan in mid-November! Wohoo, can't wait to have it. I love to receive new gym plans.

I would like to express my feelings, but it's difficult. I feel, overall, GREAT. I love to change visuals from time to time, really. It gives me a moral boost, and combine it with the feeling of accomplishment after traninings... --> WHAT A SUPERB FEELING!

People here at work think I'm weird because I prefer waking up early and go to exercise BEFORE work. Indeed - and I tell them everytime: "You think I'm weird until you try it yourself and feel what I feel." Then they ask: "What do you feel?" "The difference. I feel the difference (Note: nice advertisement, Nike or Adidas or who has this slogan.. LOL). The feeling of having done something for myself, for my overall well-being right BEFORE starting the day, is refreshing, wonderful and unique." Then they remain quite ... quiet!

I'd like to go to the pool today evening, I brought the swimming equipement but I'm not 100% sure yet. Sometimes I want to go home, sometimes not - depends. It's never certain with the afternoon/evening activities. Also depends on the day's mood outcome, if things are too stressful at work all day, all I want is peace and the couch with a good book and a warm cover or/and the cats all over... So, I decide later!


I'm curious about the following books, they suppose to lift up the spirit of women:

How To Be a Woman: http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/How-be-Woman-Caitlin-Moran/9780091940737

The Beauty Myth: http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Beauty-Myth-Naomi-Wolf/9780060512187  How Images of Beauty are used against women

The Feminine Mystique: http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Feminine-Mystique-Betty-Friedan/9780141192055

Secret Diary of a Call Girl: http://www.bookdepository.co.uk/Secret-Diary-Call-Girl-Belle-De-Jour/9780446540827



Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

liza36 on 10/25/2011:
It's so nice to hear you sounding and feeling so good.

grannyannie on 10/25/2011:
So good to hear you feeling so positive! I know several women who go to the gym before work. Gives them energy for the day and they start out feeling great.

getmebackto150 on 10/25/2011:
glad to hear you are feeling great too!! We will both have amazing healthy days!!

getmebackto150 on 10/25/2011:
I don't know about the book Secret Diary of a Call Girl, but they actually made the book into a TV series on Showtime here in the US and I LOVED it!! I would imagine the book is great too:) Its a little risque, but quite fun

grannyannie on 10/25/2011:
Portugal sounds nice, but Morocco will be 20-21C end of Feb! Much warmer than Scotland will be!

sweetpea1977 on 10/25/2011:
Man, If I could go back in time, I would have joined a gym and worked out before heading to work. I always loved the sense of accomplishment and the natural energy rush I get after completing a sweaty workout. I would also have loved going to the gym after work as a way to release tension from a stressful day.

I love your new hair!!!

V on 10/25/2011:
Nothing better than waking up and starting the day with a good workout!! Love it!! Have a good one :)

KayBee - Monday Oct 24, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Hello, Girlz!

I couldn't get to the pool today morning, sniff. Dang TOM. Now that it's back, causing me trouble!!! So unfair, hehe. Anyway, my knees were not good enough for gym in the morning so I decided to sleep in. Felt wonderful. Then, I arrived to work and booked the hairdresser's. I made a radical change! Curious?


Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

V on 10/24/2011:
Now I am curious to see the new "do" :) I'll be back to check it out :)

Umpqua on 10/24/2011:
Very cool! Do I see some purple highlights? Love it!!

liza36 on 10/24/2011:
I love the new hair do! You always look fantastic.

V on 10/24/2011:
LOVE IT :) You look marvelous my friend!

grannyannie on 10/24/2011:
Great cut and style! Nice!

glycrina on 10/24/2011:
awww, you are soo cute!!

hollybelle on 10/25/2011:
Great haircut - and do I see some "eggplant" color in there naturally I relate it to food LOL - seriously it is very nice. I like the color very mcuh.

KayBee - Sunday Oct 23, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Great day, we made 10 kilometers walking! :o) At a certain point it was a better idea keeping walking than stop because then my legs wouldn't start over, hahahahah.... I had a two-hour beauty sleep as soon as I got home, and I was super hungry after it. The sun sipped out my energies.

Tomorrow I'm ready for the pool anyway!!!! 

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 10/23/2011:
Great walk yesterday! I know what you mean about after a certain point just keep walking because if you quit you might now get home! I purposely walk and bike far away in opposite direction so that I will HAVE to walk more in order to get back home. Well, that our suffer embarassment of calling someone to come and get me! Loved your post from yesterday.....

grannyannie on 10/23/2011:
Well done on the walk!

KayBee - Saturday Oct 22, 2011
(Eating in moderation, Low-Fat, Non-Processed Food)
Weight: 203.0

Ohhh, yesterday night it came upon me and conquered. Both period and a binge episode. No remorse, no turning back (it's not possible anyway, hahaha) ...

I've been doing well for two weeks - almost, - so I'm not going to regret. I want to analyze it until it's fresh. So, what happened?

The period appeared. It hasn't been showing its ugly head since February, reasons are unknown and have never been thoroughly searched by my beloved doctors. A light treatment failed, and I had to start taking The Pill, the real deal, after the surgery. It apparently worked because yesterday morning I noticed its signs (see entry Eleven or just believe me this time) at the pool.

Good, so I had a light day, I was way ahead with work and I didn't want to rush things so I took it easy. No cookies, no biscuits. I went out to have lunch with a friend, and I had a half dose of veggies with small cooked squids and then a slice of carrot tart, without sugar.

Then, in the afternoon I noticed I was eating a bit more than usual. I didn't have a bad feeling about it, I felt good, I realized (for the 100th time) that I loved to eat. Hehehe, whatever! I had hunger, a slight craving for carbs so I went downstairs, looked at the biscuits AND DIDN'T FEEL THE FEELING this time. I wanted bread, so I chose 2 multi-cereal buns and ate them both.

Man invited me out. He suggested to suggest something to do in town, and I suggested dinner. I wasn't hungry. He suggested the gourmet hamburgers, I suggested the wok pasta stuff. That's cool because they are next to each other in the shopping mall, with a common eating area. But then when we got there, it was completely empty. Even the cooking equipments were off-line. He got annoyed - why? - and I told him we could make time and go to the sushi if he wanted. He wanted because he doesn't eat correctly all day, so he's awfully hungry by late evenings.

So, there we went, to the sushi. I limited myself perfectly, following one single rule: "Do not order the same twice or more." That's what always failed me before. I love the à la carte concept, and I love shrimps. I used to order lots of shrimps, and lots of sushis and stuff. Now I limited this, and I felt good. No remorse, no cravings, really. But then, by the time we got on the bus, I just KNEW IT AGAIN.

I knew that I would eat at home, and wasn't actually hungry. Why? I don't know for sure, I guess it's because we ALWAYS eat when we get home. It must be some kind of twisted psychology, the feeling of the comfort of home combined with some comfort food maybe.

So we got home and I forgot to sit down in front of the PC and write it out from the heart. Main mistake. I was completely accelerated. I had a full-blown, heavy period upon me (still have!). No psychic issue, I didn't feel upset, I shared sweet kisses with man, then he went upstairs and then the saga began. My last yogurt. Some bread with pineapple spread.  A palmier (man will kill me today morning when he finds this one out...). Some milk. Man's two last yogurts (will he ever notice). Two slices of bread with honey. Home-made pudding without sugar. Then it stopped. I stopped, but I didn't feel "blowing up" nor "bloated". Because man came downstairs and guided me to bed. I failed to tell him about this episode. I told him, in bed, in the darkness, that I hadn't been feeling guilty because of one day in two weeks. I still feel confident that this thing can be controlled and caught, and MAYBE it's normal. Maybe sometimes, from time to time, comfort foods are needed. There's only some work with the quantities, but I'm going to get there, I'm positive. I made my baby steps and looking back on them, they look dinosaur steps!

What do I do today? It's a fearsome weekend again! I wanted to go to the gym but I'm giving it a break because p. is really strong and my blood pressure hasn't been the same since surgery. I don't want to faint or something. Sigh. Instead, I'm planning on going to town with man and look around in the Chinese/Indian shopping area. I would like to get some presents bought for Christmas, for the kids of the family and friends. Numbers are growing, both quantity and age. It's cool, but the money-related numbers are definitely NOT growing so one has to be careful. Me, extra careful because I love to give. :-) Then, I want to go to the cinema! I am hesitating if I let Man choose the film or it has to be me again (biiig sacrifice, lolololol) ...

For Sunday I have a planned event, there'll be a major running contest along the river and I'm attending with my friend Elsa. 10 kilometers and we're WALKING of course.

So, have a good weekend everyone.

Progress as of today: -11 lbs lost so far, only 41 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/22/2011:
Sorry about that period garbage haha. So annoying indeed. The past couple years, my own period has been different - but i've come to realize that with age and time your period should not always be the exact same way each time you get it - recently i will have very little and even early for a day, then wait a week and the rest comes! too much info, i know! but thank you for your feedback on my diary, it helps to motivate me to do well! 10km is a nice walk! a little over 6 miles! yay.

hollybelle on 10/25/2011:
I read this yesterday and have been thinking about your comments. Is it that you are not "satisfied" by what you had outside the house or is it that there is something truly about "beinig at home" that induces hunger (emotional if not physical - even)? I wonder. I do this sometime, too - but I "think" it is usually because I haven't had what I "really" want at the meal out.....but I, too, am not sure! Anyway - no guilt - continue on - I will, too.

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