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Maria7 - Wednesday Sep 15, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.2

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Hope you're having a wonderful, beautiful morning!  As for me, I'm very sore from helping Hubby for hours yesterday, replacing the stove hood in the kitchen.  A lot of heavy lifting and holding the new one in place.  We called a friend and asked for his help to assist Hubby in installing the hood.  (Though not his line of work, he'd said he knew how to do it and made it sound very simple.)  But there was a price for his help.  Why is it that friends can't help one another for free???  We've helped them (he and his family) many times with different things for free and have never charged them (and wouldn't think of it) for our help and when we finally need help and ask for it, it's not going to be for free.  We could have paid for the help or even hired someone to do the work but we...no...'I' thought that friends were supposed to help one another for free (may I please make it clear that Hubby definitely does not share the same belief that it would actually happen when I called and asked for help,  though he believes it should be that way)...so...it ended up that I helped Hubby get it done...and today I have a very achey back from lifting and  holding up a heavy hood for a long, long time in exact place without it moving while Hubby was in and out the house working on installing it.  It took us about 4 hours.  UGH!  But now it is done and is SOOO nice, nicer than the old one....and I have a NEW STOVE that matches it coming Friday!      The old stove that I've been cooking on for over 12 years still works but has a short in it and I have to take a fork or something to mash one top element in place that keeps going off and on and then one or two don't light up all the way, etc....and this is even after replacing part of the old elements that had burned out.  Soooo....out with the old, in with the new! 


As for Mom, she got a very much needed medical test done yesterday but have to wait for days for the results to see if or what needs to be done for her treatment of a certain condition she may have that is causing her excruciating pain.  It appears that everything is done so SLOWLY there.  I think it is all about money.  Don't do much for the residents (ignore/neglect their needs) and nursing home owner(s) get to keep more money.  I have also complained that she has to sometimes wait over an hour when she needs to be taken to the bathroom for them to take her.  They are short on staff and need to hire more people and I have reported that also.  Thank you for your prayers for Mom and I ask you to PLEASE continue to pray for her. 




Fall is only 8 days away! 


Today's food:

Breakfast:  beef sausage (125),  cupful grits w 1 tsp margerine (250), fried egg (100)  and 1 coffee  with 1 tsp. creamer (10) and 1 packet splenda (0) 485

Lunch:  peppermint candy 20


Supper:  Buffet with Hubby (fish, salad, pecans, etc): 895

Total est cals today:  1400



Visited Mom again today...She was complaining of hurting and I went to her nurse for today's first shift and told her (so no one will think I'm trying to get Mom something for pain that may not be needed, she is having strong, painful symptoms of an infection).  Her nurse said she'd give her something "in a little while"...(she was giving meds out to other residents)...so I waited with Mom til the medicine for that particular kind of pain was given Mom, which was only about 10 mins or so.  I reminded Mom that she could get that medicine every 4 hours but she must remember to ask for her nurse to come so she could tell her nurse her symptoms and ask for that particular medicine.  Imagine...telling someone with dementia/parkinsons/alzheimers that they must remember to do things the way the nursing home is requiring in order for them to have pain relief from a highly probable infection!   So, tonite, I called her nurse for 2nd shift and she said no other of that medicine had been given Mom after what she got from my asking earlier today.  When I reminded her of Mom's conditions and Mom not having presence of mind to go through proper channels to get her nurse to come to her so she could ask (beg) for pain relief (and no it is not a controlled substance)...When I asked her to give it to Mom, her new nurse for this afternoon said she could give Mom tylenol unless Mom called for her and told her her exact symptoms and asked for the medicine.  (It was ordered by the doctor PRN, which means as needed, and of course as prescribed, but it must be asked for to Mom's nurse.)   Finally, I asked her to go to Mom and ask Mom if she was having any of the symptoms Mom's been complaining of and she (reluctant-sounding) agreed to do so.  I told her I've had nursing experience in the past and I know the importance of documenting what a patient says but that Mom cannot remember to do what is required.  I hope and pray Mom is not in that pain again tonite.   But I know that she probably is, especially without that medicine, and tylenol doesn't touch that kind of pain.


Serenity prayer...serenity prayer...serenity prayer....

Lord, please touch Mom and heal her.  Please let her not be in pain.  I ask in Jesus' Name, believing.  Amen.


Hope you're having a blessed day!

Love, Maria


Progress as of today: 58.8 lbs lost so far, only 6.2 lbs to go!

liza36 on 09/15/2010:
It is a shame that your friend wouldn't help out of the goodness of his heart. At least you got the job done, but I would feel disappointed in the friend too.

Have a great day - rest your back.

skinnygrlwithin on 09/15/2010:
I think that's kinda sad that your friend wouldn't help for free... that's ridiculous

selina on 09/15/2010:
Hi Maria! I bought an off-white paint - just very basic. I can't wait to get strated again with my other kind of watercolor painting... maybe later this week. I know that if I start now I will just neglect the rest of the house.... first things, first!

I totally agree with you that friends should help friends, especially if you have helped them before. There must be a reason for your friend to be charging you: he is out of job and needs the money, perhaps? Anyway, Im sorry that you were disappointed with the issue, I would, too.

I hope all goes well with your mom and her medical tests and I hope they find the source of her pain. Poor thing! Stay well!

selina on 09/15/2010:
Inky and Selina are very happy: they spent the whole week in the house and seemed to be happy about it... Except for last night, when they started running around the house and chasing one another, haha. I knew it was time for them to start exploring outside. So, I let them out in the back yard, which they checked out thoroughly. Somehow, when I wasn't looking, they climbed the tall fence and went to the woods in the park. I left the gate to the back yard ajar so they can come back in. Selina just came back but Inky is still out there, exploring! Fun!

Umpqua on 09/15/2010:
That's good news about the new stove and stove hood, but I honestly can't believe your friend wanted to charge you for helping - that's ridiculous. I hope you get some good news about your Mom today and they figure out what's causing her pain. I'll be thinking of you!

moogy on 09/15/2010:
I think that maybe that friend isn't a friend at all!!! I bet you can feel your shoulders and back today, that's hard work, holding something heavy above you and not moving. I am impressed. I am glad your mom is getting test, but sorry it takes so long to get results. I kept coming back to your dairy yesterday to see how you had got on with the nursing home people and was getting worried when I saw no update - and there you were working like construction worker. Have a wonderful day Maria.

V on 09/15/2010:
Thank you for the update about your mom! i am glad she is getting the medical attention she needs! Enjoy your evening, Love Ya!

V on 09/15/2010:
I posted another pic of me now the day before, did you see it? I don't think you have to be a member on fb, just copy the link and enter it should come up :) Thank you :)

breakaway on 09/15/2010:
I think that is awful when friends ask for money. It would be different if YOU offered him something after he did the job (dinner or whatnot) but to just come right out and say it?? WOW Some people are just so different then others. Sad, sorry you had to go through that :( And prayers being sent out to your mom...sure hope things turn out for the best for her and your family. Get some rest today! I bet your going to be sore tomorrow :( Try to have a good day!

moogy on 09/15/2010:
I could sit out on my balcony but it faces the road, so I wouldn't get any privacy, and when I relax that is an imperative.

moogy on 09/15/2010:
I am with you, the last thing you want when relaxing is to be in good clothes AND have to talk to passing neighbours. It's just not on.

nita51 on 09/16/2010:
So glad to hear from you. Yes, I got a lot taken care of today. I am happy about your new stove. Isn't it a good feeling to get new household items? I just got a nearly new beautiful black leather recliner sofa & love seat. It makes me so happy, and my place looks cozy & beautiful now. I am so sorry about your mother's pain. Thank God for a daughter like you, Bless you for your determination. I pray that the Lord will send her nurses that have lots of compassion and understanding. I touch and agree with you, that this will happen soon. Hugs,,,,, I'll be keeping in touch.

KathyBlue on 09/16/2010:
What a sad situation, Maria! These people, nurses and doctors, don't see patience as human beings, they couldn't care less about their mental situations and even when you sound completely reasonable and right in what you're saying (why should she REMEMBER asking for the medicine if she has a disease that prevents her to REMEMBER?!), they seem not to care at all and they only think you're annoying... You love your mom, she is everything for you and they make you sad, for them she is just "work", an other patient. Nowadays it's rare to find a caring nurse or doctor. They cry constantly because they are underpaid, etc. but the truth is, nowadays you go to a doctor, tell him that you have a big bruise on your leg, etc. but your in jeans so he cannot see a thing - he won't ask you to remove your pants, he won't touch you at all, he will give you a prescription and tell you to go back 2 weeks later, or earlier if necessary - just to harvest that amount/head the most...

just42day on 09/16/2010:
Hope your mom's test will produce results which identify proper treatment. You and your family continue to be in my prayers. I agree - friends shouldn't ask to be paid. That contradicts the word "friend". A few years ago, I was lucky enough to have friends really support me following surgery; they did my laundry, picked up my medications and did my grocery shopping. I could never thank them enough. I know they did because they wanted to. (I did treat them each w/nice restaurant gift cards but that's because I wanted to.) Still treat them to cookies (they love my baking) but I'd be doing that even if they hadn't been so kind. It's just what friends do. I really don't have a huge circle of friends but the ones I do have are keepers and ever so thoughtful. I am blessed to have them in my life. Your mother is definitely blessed to have you in hers. Hope today's a great day for both of you. :)

fatgirl101 on 09/16/2010:
oh my gosh, im in awe of you :) you've done such a wonderful job! i hope i could stay half as focused and determined as you!Stay strong xxx

Maria7 - Tuesday Sep 14, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.2

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Another beautiful, sunny COOL (60 fahrenheit) morning.  The birds outside were happily singing earlier.   I fixed some bacon, egg, coffee and instead of toast, I fixed grits for breakfast.  My little friend, the neighbor's cat saw me open the front door to see how cool it felt outside (didn't go out) and came hurrying over here.  (Hehehe!)   I gave him the leftovers of my bacon again, which he ate.

I'm down .6 in 3 days....

  Plan for today, Lord willing, is clean out the closets...I didn't get to them yesterday...had company and some extra things to do.  And I plan to go up to Mom's nursing home again and hopefully things will have improved greatly.  I believe the Lord told me this morning to not allow myself to get upset.  I was praying and the Words "Let not your heart be troubled..." came into my mind. 



Fall is only 9 days away!  I'm still decorating!


Today's food:

Breakfast:  beef bacon (100),  cupful grits w 1/2 tsp margerine (230), fried egg (100...first I've had in about a month!)  and 2 coffees  with 2 tsp. creamer (20) and 2 packets splenda (0)  450

 Snack:  1/2 cupful scuppernong grapes 50

Lunch:  tuna and 5 saltines 235

Subtotal:  735

Snack: cheese pizza (300) 1/2 ear corn on cob (100) 400

Snack: 8 little butterscotch candies 200

Supper:  lf bologna (2 pcs)  sw on 2 diet breads w 1 tbs low cal mayo and 1 tsp mustard (180), candied apples (800)  980 (Yikes, got carried away with the peanut-coated red cherry-flovored candied apples because was extra hungry after a lot of heavy lifting while helping Hubby replace the range hood which included holding the new one up in place a long time while he installed it.)

Total est cals today:  2315



Hope you're having a blessed day!

Love, Maria


Progress as of today: 58.8 lbs lost so far, only 6.2 lbs to go!

breakaway on 09/14/2010:
Congrats on the weight loss Maria! I just remember those who were down to their last 10 to lose and them saying it was the hardest of all the weight they had to lose and here your doing it! Good for you!

V on 09/14/2010:
Good luck with the talk today Maria!!!! I will be back later to post so I will be looking out for you :)

teensybikini on 09/14/2010:
Wow you really have come far! Thats so inspiring for me. Im just starting my journey (2 weeks in actually). Way to go!

skinnygrlwithin on 09/14/2010:
Look how great you've done!!!! I'm so proud of you!!! And I also share the same enthusiasm for Fall as you do... I wish the 60 degree weather lasted all year long!

just42day on 09/14/2010:
Hope your day is a great one! The fall season is so refreshing, isn't it? I'm sure the neighborhood kitty really appreciates you sharing your b'fast again. :)

tangalyn on 09/14/2010:
i love that u share with the neighbors cat :) hope u have a great day!

legcramps on 09/14/2010:
Love the cat story! I hope the situation with your Mother is resolved today. Communication between nurses, aides, and other workers is so rare! I truly feel your distress, as my grandfather went through many of the same difficulties even though he was not diagnosed with dementia.

hollybelle on 09/14/2010:
Good news, Maria! I think weight one recently gains can be lost faster than weight that's been on a while. You can do it. I want you to be happy with health and nutrition (and other things) so stick with it! RE: Flu shot - ??? - my first one. So far so good.

liza36 on 09/14/2010:
I hope you have a good visit with your mother today, and don't get too upset. I'm so happy for cooler sunny weather too, which we're having today in DC.

selina on 09/14/2010:
Hi Maria! Your house must be looking beautiful! Have a great day!

Umpqua on 09/14/2010:
Thanks for visiting my gardening blog. In case you didn't notice, I'm mildly obsessed with gardening and I've spent way too much time researching plant names and info on them. I guess it's a good hobby though, and I'm trying to grow things from seed to cut costs. I hope you have a nice visit with your Mom and that things are better with her today!

moogy on 09/14/2010:
I hope that you hold on to those words and the feeling you felt this morning. I will come back later and check up on how things went with your mom.

hopingforhealth on 09/14/2010:
Thanks for the welcome last Night Maria! All you girls on here are so inspiring. I will keep your mother in my thoughts.

Maria7 - Monday Sep 13, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.4

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Beautiful, sunny COOL (64 fahrenheit) morning here this morning.  The birds outside are singing away!   I was up early.  Fixed some bacon, coffee and toast and had some of that, then stepped out on the front porch BARE-FOOTED (throw caution to the wind!) to enjoy the cool, crisp, pre-autumny air!    My little friend, the neighbor's cat saw me and came meowing over "Where's my breakfast???!!!"  I gave him the leftovers of my bacon which he appeared content with as he ate it.

I have a headache this morning...remnant of the recent sinusitis...at least it's not as bad as it was...but I did take a little amount of medicine (tylenol) for it.  Don't want it to get worse today...

Plan for today, Lord willing, is clean out the closets and put away spring-summer clothing and put out fall-winter clothing, leaving a very few summery clothing items.  Also...wash clothes...clean the house extra nicely (dust, change bed-sheets, vacumn, etc.)


You should see our dining room and fireplace mantle...autumn, autumn, autumn!  On the dining room table is a large brown wooden vase of orange and yellow silk mums and underneath the large arrangement and taking up most of the table space are: a large ceramic rooster and hen, 2 large ceramic pumpkins, a standing friendly-looking scarecrow, 4 little ceramic pumpkins, 2 ceramic pilgrims (the man holding a turkey and the woman holding pumpkins and veggies), 2 small orange pumpkin-scented candles and 1 small maple-sugar-scented candle with lots of fall-colored orange, gold, burgundy, and yellow silk leaves going around the items.  Intermingled in all of this are 100 tiny orange bright lights, illuminating the whole display.   The fireplace mantle has a long silk holly display on it with small red wooden holly beads and holly-like silk leaves with a few tiny, clear, lights interspersed among it and 4 small pumpkins set out in front.  I want to get a couple of large candles to go one on each end, too.  Maybe orange pumpkin-scented.  The front door has a wreath of a friendly-looking crow and autumn flowers hanging on it.  (And I'm not done with the decorating, yet!) 


Today's food:  (yesterday has been updated and was about 1600 cals)

Breakfast:  beef bacon (140), plain diet toast (40), and coffee  with 1 tsp. creamer (10) and 1 packet splenda (0).  190


Lunch:  hamburger (300), ice cream (300), cupcake (200)  800

Supper:  hotdog, lettuce s/w on 2 diet breads w lowcal mayo, candied apple 725

Est cals today: 1715


Update:  Visited Mom about 2 hours this afternoon.  Extremely stressful and I talked with the nursing director concerning her nursing care, which I am worried about.  I could go into a long dialogue here, but I won't.  Suffice to say if there is no improvement by tomorrow when I go back up there to the nursing home, concerning a certain very important part of her care that I believe has been being neglected because of her dementia/parkinson's/alzheimers and inability to communicate the way a person without these conditions can communicate, I will be talking to the nursing home administrator and possibly filing a written report as well as yanking Mom out of there and taking her to the ER!  The nursing director assured me that all will be properly taken care of promptly.  I AM ANGRY!!!  When a person becomes unable to communicate well and is in a nursing home, they are at the MERCY of those who are supposed to be their caregivers.  If they have a physical problem that they confusedly tell someone about who is not their nurse...ie... the housekeeper or even a CNA and it is not relayed to their nurse, they are not going to get any proper treatment for it.  This is what I witnessed today with my Mom.  Did I say I am ANGRY????

Later, after he got home from work, Hubby and I visited one of our friends together.  She and her Hubby are really going through a lot.  Please remember them as well as Mom in your prayers.  (Thanks.)


Hope you're having a blessed day!

Love, Maria


Progress as of today: 58.6 lbs lost so far, only 6.4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/13/2010:
I'm glad to read you are feeling better and you did the right thing by staying away from your Mom while sick. I hope you have a wonderful week!

KathyBlue on 09/13/2010:
What a lovely description of the weather! I'm happy your day started well! :) You deserve the best, Maria, you're such a lovely person! :)

KathyBlue on 09/13/2010:
ahh, I have never been to the US... one day, maybe :)

sweetpea1977 on 09/13/2010:
Glad too see you posting again! Sorry to hear you've been sick though. I hope you are feeling 100% better soon!

Helen is a wonderful place. We go there every October for the German festival October fest. It actually started this weekend (which is when Germany starts its Octoberfest), but most tourists come in October for the good foods and music. We didnt participate in Octoberfest yesterday. We just spent most of our time roaming up and down the streets and visiting the little shops. I hope to make it back there later this year when the temperatures are cooler!

just42day on 09/13/2010:
Your day sounds like it's off to a great start! And I'm sure the neighborhood cat appreciated the treat! Glad you're feeling better. Enjoy the weather. Fall is my favorite season! :)

Umpqua on 09/13/2010:
Your autumn decorations sound awesome! My gardens aren't doing too much right now, I have mums, asters and sedum in bloom. My blog is pretty much up to date if you want to see pictures: http://umpqua42.blogspot.com/

moogy on 09/13/2010:
Well you have certainly thrown yourelf into the Autumn theme, it sounds like something I would see in an American movie!! I am sure it gives you a great deal of pleasure. I hope you have a wonderful day - I am so happy that you are posting again.

V on 09/13/2010:
i bet you deck it all the way out! I would love to see pics!!!! Have a great day Maria :)

Breakaway on 09/13/2010:
You always have such great entries and I have always loved your scriptures :D Hope your day was splendid today :D Great to see your post here today :D

V on 09/13/2010:
I sending one up to the big guy right now! I am sure you will articulate exactly what needs to be said and still keep your cool collected level head :) I wish you all the love and maybe you will be the person who opens the administrator's eyes to some of their employees, it is people like that who truly disgust me :(

moogy on 09/13/2010:
I am so sorry that your mother is not being cared for properly. I can understand how angry and desperate you are. It is so easy for them to neglect patients with your mom's illness. I hope that you can get some appropriate response from her carers. You have a right to be angry.

moogy on 09/13/2010:
My 'suit' (it is not tailored) is a black and white print, the material is linen like, but nowhere as crushable (or expensive). LOL The skirt I am working on at the moment is a lovely pale pastel green, and today a bought more fabric (the blue of the pacific ocean - it's the best I can do for an explanation) to make a pair of pants to go with a couple of the tops I purchased yesterday. I guess I will be set for summer in a couple of weeks. Love You.

moogy on 09/13/2010:
I think some people work in nursing homes because they are not good enough to work in a hospitals where standards are really high and everything is watched and written down. There are some really great people who really care and they are absolute gems, unfortunately they seem to be the minority. You have carried a load for a long time, I am so sorry that you lost your father at such an early age. I never really knew my father, he wasn't very interested in me, mom divorced and then moved from England to Australia. So I kind of know that emptiness. It also helps to explain your fierceness and dedication in caring for your mom.

moogy on 09/13/2010:
really didn't see much of him from about the age of eight and then we emigrated when I was eleven and I never saw him again, he died about 4 years ago, my mom died twenty years ago aged 59, only four year older than I am now!! I look forward to being reunited with them, they were both Christian's, each in their own way.

just42day on 09/14/2010:
Sorry your day was so stressful and that you have concerns about your mom's care. She's so lucky to have such a caring daughter. Last year I stayed in a nursing home to get some rehab following surgery. I raised such h*ll while I was there as I knew things weren't as they should be. The whole time I kept thinking about the elderly staying there who couldn't or were afraid to speak up for themselves. I know that staff was very relieved when I checked out after 1 week instead of the 2 weeks I was supposed to stay. Stick to your guns as I know you will. In the meantime, you and your family are in my prayers. :)

Maria7 - Sunday Sep 12, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.4

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello Friends!

 Hubby and I went to church, then out to eat at a buffet restaurant, and then we visited Mom at the nursing home.   Her CNA had Mom (who was asleep with her head hung down)  in her wheel chair sitting at a table in the dining room with one of her friends.  Upon waking up and  seeing me, Mom began insisting that I demand she be taken back to her bed immediately as she was not feeling well, she said.  I didn't do it.  I have done it before but I know it is not good for her to lay in her bed and be tended to day and nite, without getting up and moving around in her wheel chair and socializing with the other residents.  Mom has admitted in the past that she enjoys staying in her bed (and being tended to).  Hubby and I took her some candied yams, which she loves and she ate some of.  We only stayed a few minutes as I told her I've had a cold that I am getting over and didn't want her to get it.  Then we, which includes me, the Traitor, left after I hugged her and kissed her on her forehead and told her I love her and would see her again soon. 



Today's food: 

 Breakfast:  Coffee  w tsp low cal creamer (10) and 1 little pack of splenda (0),  1  peppermint (20) and half of a lite pimento cheese s/w on 1 diet bread (70)  100


'Don't forget to eat your veggies!'

 Lunch:  Veggies salad w ti dsg (75) , candied yams (75), 1/2 fried chicken wing (100), cornbread dressing (50), and pecans (200)  500   I stopped after the 'signal' that I was FULL.


Afternoon Snack:  chicken and rice (200), ice cream (200) 400

Subtotal est cals:  1000

Supper:  hamburger 300

Snack:  candied apple w peanuts on it (230), chicken and rice (70)

Today's total est. cals:  1600




  Hope you're having a blessed day!

 Love, Maria







Progress as of today: 58.6 lbs lost so far, only 6.4 lbs to go!

moogy on 09/12/2010:
Good to see you back Maria. I love your jumping salad, that's funny!! You can only do so much, especially when you have a cold and you don't want to give it to your mom. I hope you have a good rest of the day and enjoy time with your husband and rest up a bit. I am sending love to you.

hollybelle on 09/12/2010:
So sorry you have been ill, Maria. Good thing you took care of yourself. Smart move! Your 7 lbs may only be temporary. Get back in you healthiest pattern for a week and I'll bet you'll get back down fast. Stick to you plan! Hope you feel better real soon. I'll be glad when the weather gets cooler so I can make and eat vegetable soup! That is healthy and I don't get tired of it!! Do you all have any grapes left? I have kind of burned out on them for a couple of weeks, but want to go by the fruit/veg stand and see if they still have them one more time before Fall!

V on 09/12/2010:
I too love the salad being tossed :) Enjoy the rest of your evening Maria!!!!

just42day on 09/12/2010:
Good hearing from you! Sounds like you're on the mend but don't push yourself. Get to be 100%! I make mom chocolate cookies- a recipe from Paula Deen. They are the absolute best and make delicious ice cream sandwiches. Made a batch today of @ 12 dozen cookies (mom likes 'em small) and I didn't have a one! I've never really had a sweet tooth. I'm a carb gal. Hope you're feeling 100% real soon! :)

KathyBlue on 09/12/2010:
it's completely understandable that you didn't want to pass the cold to your Mom, Maria.. don't feel bad about it. She doesn't need a cold upon her for sure, and you're not a traitor but a savior! xoxo, Kathy

Maria7 - Saturday Sep 11, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.8

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Thanks to each of you who have left such kind messages while I've been away.  I have dropped by off and on over the past few days, reading your comments and your entries.  I've been very sick with sinusitis this week and haven't seen my Mother (at the nursing home) in 3 days...don't want her to catch it.  I am trusting the good Lord that she is okay.  I've called the nursing home and been told she was sleeping when I've called.  Maybe it's for the best...the sinusitis and my absence for a little while...a time to rest and a time to reflect.  Anyway, I'm much better today and a friend (who is also recovering from the same thing) and I went to Cracker Barrel (restaurant and store) this afternoon and we each had an ice cream sundae there (I had hot fudge and she had strawberry) and we did a little shopping as well, as they were having an outside 'porch sale' going on with items marked down 80%.  After we checked out that sale, it really cheered me up, going inside the Cracker Barrel store-part and seeing 3 Christmas trees lit up inside (I always get excited over anything 'Christmasy-looking' or to do with Christmas, my favorite holiday season).   


As for diet...well you can see....I've been a naughty girl...there I was a little below goal recently and now I'm almost 7 pounds over goal.  But I don't want to throw away all the hard work it took to get to goal and have to go through it all yet again (especially since I've done the same thing before...8 years ago...arrived at goal, got stressed out, regained up to 26 pounds over goal and had a long fight to get back to goal again recently)...so I'm back not only because I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! ...but because I need to be accountable to myself again and I NEED 'YOU GUYS' SUPPORT!!!


I may not be on here EVERY DAY....(in lieu of situation with Mom) but I will be on here as often as I can.  Take care! 



Love, Maria


Progress as of today: 58.2 lbs lost so far, only 6.8 lbs to go!

V on 09/11/2010:
I really missed your warm greetings and I hope to hear from you real soon :) My prayers are always with you and your family. You can count on me for support in losing those lbs!!!! Love ya girl! don't stay away too long

V on 09/11/2010:
I read your comment you left me today and i have to say that I am still a little numb about the fact that i am almost to my goal :) It seems like eternity to get there! Thank you :)

moogy on 09/11/2010:
It was so lovely to see your name on the diary list when I logged on. I am sorry you have been sick and have missed your entries and comments very much. I is really important that you find a way to manage this ongoing stress without turning to food, otherwise you will be back where you started and the situation could continue for years to come. So I am encouraging you to make a plan that works for you and do your best to stick with it. I am sending you lots of love and best wishes.

just42day on 09/12/2010:
So good to see an entry from you but sorry to hear that you haven't been feeling well. :( Glad you're on the mend. I'm sure your Cracker Barrel visit brightened your day as I know how much you love that place! Xmas is one of my favorite holidays as well. It'll be here before we know it! Hope you continue to feel better. I'm confident you'll get back on track w/your food as I know how important this is to you. Wishing you health and motivation. :)

biscottibody59 on 09/12/2010:
Hope you're getting to feeling better there--enjoy your Sunday!

Take good care of yourself!

Maria7 - Wednesday Sep 01, 2010

Weight: 0.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Above:  'Mom's Nursing Home'

Hello, Friends!

I haven't been on here in the past few days but I thank those of you who have left comments letting me know you were thinking about me.  Each day, I've been going back and forth to Mom's nursing home, spending time with her, translating her talk to her nurses who can't understand her, about where she says she's hurting.   When I try to take a day off from going up to the nursing home, I get a call from a nurse wanting me to go to the nursing home to have a talk with Mom about something or I get a call telling me something that means I have to go interpret Mom's speech to them of what she's trying to tell them that's ailing her that they don't understand.  (I can understand Mom real well 'cause I be around her a lot, whereas, Mom's current nurse may be her nurse one or 2 days or so and then it may be days or weeks before the same nurse is her nurse again, because the nurses there take turns rotating taking care of different residents there).  Mom's developed a new condition now.  It's her legs...extreme pain...her Doctor has ordered xray and arterial test.  I feel SO SAD for her hurting and not being understood when she tries to talk to them a lot of the time.

 I am fighting depression big time.  I don't even care here lately about how much I eat.  Anything for a temporary 'comfort fix'.   Yep, my weight's going back up (already was...we're talking 'MORE').  I am 'snugly' wearing size 8 now...instead of comfortably.  A few of my size 8's have become too snug to wear.   I haven't given up.  Mom says "You're gettin' too little!" at my size.  She wants me to put back on some weight...well...wa-la!  I sure have been doing that!  When you have a goal that you've met and then you gain some over that goal, you don't look little to yourself.   


 Estimated calories per day over the past few days since last did an entry:

1600 (Sat.), 2950 (Sun.), 1350 (Mon.), 2600 (Tues.), 1480 (today). 



I just can't key anymore in this journal right now because of all this stress with Mom (and other family members).  Please excuse me and understand if I'm not on here for a while.  Please keep our family (others besides Mom need prayer) in your prayers.  Thanks and take good care of yourselves and keep going forward to your goals.


Love, Maria



biscottibody59 on 09/01/2010:
Just want you to know that I hope you take care of yourself as best as possible, and I hope you can share some of your frustrations with your husband and/or good friend(s). Taking care of parents may not be on their radar screen, but it's worth a try to share your feelings with them.

Just know that this is one of the hardest times of life--caring for a parent. I've been where you are, so I can commiserate, which I don't know how much that helps--every situation is different. Every family is different. Let yourself off the hook if you can. There's only so much you can do and I think you're doing it with grace and caring and I know your mom appreciates it.

Meanwhile, I'm taking at least a month's break from posting. But I'll check in from time to time if you do post!

Take good care of yourself there--I'll be thinking of you!

moogy on 09/01/2010:
I was so glad to see you name on the posts list. I woke up this morning thinking about you. I am sorry that you and your mom are going through this painful and heartbreaking time. I am glad that your mom has someone who can understand her and at the same time wish that it didn't all fall onto you. I know you want to do everything you can for your mom and I understand completely that you have no choice in that. I also understand the comfort eating, the 20+ pounds I put on this year was due to my daughter's diagnosis of only 15 years to live. Sometimes, healthy eating is so far of the importance radar it doesn't rate. I send you love and strength.

just42day on 09/01/2010:
Good hearing from you but am I so sorry you're facing such stressful times. Your mother is very lucky to have such a devoted daughter but I fully recognize that it places a lot of stress on you. Be gentle with yourself - in whatever form that takes. Rest when you can. I'll be thinking of you and have you and your family in my prayers.

Umpqua on 09/01/2010:
I would throw my eating plan by the wayside too if I was in your situation. I completely understand. I'm an only child and when my parents are in this situation down the road I'm going to be the only one around to take care of them. Please take care of yourself and know that we are here for you if you need a support network during this difficult time. I send you love and strength as well, Maria!

V on 09/01/2010:
I am so sorry that you are under such duress. I will pray for you and your family as I always do...Please know that you have all the love and support you need here on DD. SO what if you over eat at a time like this, hey you know we all deal with stress in different ways so as hard as it is to deal with all of this please don't let a minor thing like food get you down! Love to you and your family :)

thinnside40 on 09/02/2010:
Take care Maria.... I was at the nursing home last night with g'ma for 4 hours and try to go to stay 2+ hours each time I do go, plus going to dad/mom's 2-3 times a week....Kids started school and me working more hours on top of it all.... I have felt the added "let down" of guard already myself..... Do the best we can and continue to hold fast to the Father in heaven....

hollybelle on 09/02/2010:
I haven't been commenting much on others lately Maria - I missed you and was going to post you to today no matter what. Wondered if Earl is missing South Carolina. It looks like it on the weather reports and I sure hope so. Praying for you and your Mom's situation (really). It's so hard for you, I know, and bless her heart! A hard time of life - for sure. Take a break, take care of YOU as best you can and come back to us when you can.

moogy on 09/05/2010:
Hi Maria, I just stopped by to let you know that I was thinking about you and your family. I hope you are finding time to look after yourself. Your DD family are here if you need us.

V on 09/06/2010:
I was thinking of you and I hope you are doing well :) as Moogy stated we are here, I just wanted to stop in and say hello if you are reading this :)

just42day on 09/07/2010:
Hi Maria - Just a quick note to say I'm thinking of you and hope the stress and depression are lessening with each day. :)

V on 09/08/2010:
I guess of of us girls are thinking alike because we miss you! Just wanted to stop by and stalk your page for a minute,LOL Take care :)

moogy on 09/09/2010:
OK, I am just back to let you know that I think about you and your family every day and hope that you are coping with whatever life has thrown at you. You are obviously much loved by your DD family, we miss you.:)

Maria7 - Tuesday Aug 31, 2010

Weight: 0.0

just42day on 09/01/2010:
Ditto as others have commented. I miss your posts and clever animations. I hope all is well. Thinking of you. :)

Maria7 - Sunday Aug 29, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 0.0

moogy on 08/30/2010:
Maria, I was looking for a post from you, you are such a regular at posting. I hope you are OK, I am a little worried about you.

Umpqua on 08/31/2010:
Just checking in Maria, I hope all is well with you!

Maria7 - Saturday Aug 28, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 0.0

Maria7 - Friday Aug 27, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 144.2

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Visited Mom at her nursing home again today.  She was in a lot of pain...she could not talk clearly enough for her nurse to understand what kind of pain Mom was telling her she had even though Mom repeated herself three times to her nurse while I was there with her so I  interpreted to the nurse what Mom was saying to her.  I hate to see Mom suffer.  Finally her nurse (for the day...they rotate)..brought her some medicine to help relieve her.  I'm trying not to worry about Mom and I am trusting in the Lord.  He is our Strength.


Well...I've been good with calories today...considering...I've had lots of temptation, too.  What is WEIRD is...I've developed new eating habits and it is now coming NATURALLY, the new lifestyle of eating a certain way.  A way that says automatically...'you don't eat this'...(even though it is brought to you on a plate at a restaurant)...and you are so in the habit of not eating it that you don't even want it...wow......the habit of eating a certain amount and when you get the 'signal' that you are full, you stop eating and you ask for a container to put your leftovers in and take that home to have for your supper or your lunch the next day....even though the person who you are eating with objects and acts like you should finish eating  your whole entire entree at the meal!


 Food today:

oatmeal pancake w lite syrup 300, beef link sausage 125, 2 coffees 20, 4 kk donut holes 200, cheese 300, lf bologna s/w on 2 diet breads w lowcal mayo and mustard 190, hershey's chocolate almond candy bar 210, veggie salad w chicken and t i dsg 500, lf popcorn 100, banana 100

Today's est. total cals:  2045  (too much, yep, could have been even more...)



Hope you're having a nice day!

Love, Maria




Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 4.2 lbs to go!

moogy on 08/27/2010:
It was a coincidence, but I had just stopped eating my lunch before I read your entry and I felt full before I had finished. I just put the bowl in the kitchen and was so pleased. I think it was the same with you - we are getting used to what our bodies and minds are saying, instead of overriding the feelings. I am so glad that even with the distress you are feeling you have had a good day with your eating. I hope you have a good weekend and that your mom gets nurses on roster that understand her needs. Love to you.

KathyBlue on 08/28/2010:
Sorry about the nurse and your mom's pains :(. My mother fell at home this week and I'm worried sick, too... she has only 1 leg because of diabetes and a bad surgeon.

Umpqua on 08/28/2010:
Just saw your entry. Kudos to you for following your natural instincts and the new and healthy eating habits you have developed in the face of so much stress and anxiety. You are to be commended! I am thinking about you and your Mom this weekend and hoping you can find some peace throughout this situation.

cleaneating on 08/29/2010:
I hope your weekend has been okay :)

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