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Maria7 - Monday Sep 13, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.4

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Beautiful, sunny COOL (64 fahrenheit) morning here this morning.  The birds outside are singing away!   I was up early.  Fixed some bacon, coffee and toast and had some of that, then stepped out on the front porch BARE-FOOTED (throw caution to the wind!) to enjoy the cool, crisp, pre-autumny air!    My little friend, the neighbor's cat saw me and came meowing over "Where's my breakfast???!!!"  I gave him the leftovers of my bacon which he appeared content with as he ate it.

I have a headache this morning...remnant of the recent sinusitis...at least it's not as bad as it was...but I did take a little amount of medicine (tylenol) for it.  Don't want it to get worse today...

Plan for today, Lord willing, is clean out the closets and put away spring-summer clothing and put out fall-winter clothing, leaving a very few summery clothing items.  Also...wash clothes...clean the house extra nicely (dust, change bed-sheets, vacumn, etc.)


You should see our dining room and fireplace mantle...autumn, autumn, autumn!  On the dining room table is a large brown wooden vase of orange and yellow silk mums and underneath the large arrangement and taking up most of the table space are: a large ceramic rooster and hen, 2 large ceramic pumpkins, a standing friendly-looking scarecrow, 4 little ceramic pumpkins, 2 ceramic pilgrims (the man holding a turkey and the woman holding pumpkins and veggies), 2 small orange pumpkin-scented candles and 1 small maple-sugar-scented candle with lots of fall-colored orange, gold, burgundy, and yellow silk leaves going around the items.  Intermingled in all of this are 100 tiny orange bright lights, illuminating the whole display.   The fireplace mantle has a long silk holly display on it with small red wooden holly beads and holly-like silk leaves with a few tiny, clear, lights interspersed among it and 4 small pumpkins set out in front.  I want to get a couple of large candles to go one on each end, too.  Maybe orange pumpkin-scented.  The front door has a wreath of a friendly-looking crow and autumn flowers hanging on it.  (And I'm not done with the decorating, yet!) 


Today's food:  (yesterday has been updated and was about 1600 cals)

Breakfast:  beef bacon (140), plain diet toast (40), and coffee  with 1 tsp. creamer (10) and 1 packet splenda (0).  190


Lunch:  hamburger (300), ice cream (300), cupcake (200)  800

Supper:  hotdog, lettuce s/w on 2 diet breads w lowcal mayo, candied apple 725

Est cals today: 1715


Update:  Visited Mom about 2 hours this afternoon.  Extremely stressful and I talked with the nursing director concerning her nursing care, which I am worried about.  I could go into a long dialogue here, but I won't.  Suffice to say if there is no improvement by tomorrow when I go back up there to the nursing home, concerning a certain very important part of her care that I believe has been being neglected because of her dementia/parkinson's/alzheimers and inability to communicate the way a person without these conditions can communicate, I will be talking to the nursing home administrator and possibly filing a written report as well as yanking Mom out of there and taking her to the ER!  The nursing director assured me that all will be properly taken care of promptly.  I AM ANGRY!!!  When a person becomes unable to communicate well and is in a nursing home, they are at the MERCY of those who are supposed to be their caregivers.  If they have a physical problem that they confusedly tell someone about who is not their nurse...ie... the housekeeper or even a CNA and it is not relayed to their nurse, they are not going to get any proper treatment for it.  This is what I witnessed today with my Mom.  Did I say I am ANGRY????

Later, after he got home from work, Hubby and I visited one of our friends together.  She and her Hubby are really going through a lot.  Please remember them as well as Mom in your prayers.  (Thanks.)


Hope you're having a blessed day!

Love, Maria


Progress as of today: 58.6 lbs lost so far, only 6.4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 09/13/2010:
I'm glad to read you are feeling better and you did the right thing by staying away from your Mom while sick. I hope you have a wonderful week!

KathyBlue on 09/13/2010:
What a lovely description of the weather! I'm happy your day started well! :) You deserve the best, Maria, you're such a lovely person! :)

KathyBlue on 09/13/2010:
ahh, I have never been to the US... one day, maybe :)

sweetpea1977 on 09/13/2010:
Glad too see you posting again! Sorry to hear you've been sick though. I hope you are feeling 100% better soon!

Helen is a wonderful place. We go there every October for the German festival October fest. It actually started this weekend (which is when Germany starts its Octoberfest), but most tourists come in October for the good foods and music. We didnt participate in Octoberfest yesterday. We just spent most of our time roaming up and down the streets and visiting the little shops. I hope to make it back there later this year when the temperatures are cooler!

just42day on 09/13/2010:
Your day sounds like it's off to a great start! And I'm sure the neighborhood cat appreciated the treat! Glad you're feeling better. Enjoy the weather. Fall is my favorite season! :)

Umpqua on 09/13/2010:
Your autumn decorations sound awesome! My gardens aren't doing too much right now, I have mums, asters and sedum in bloom. My blog is pretty much up to date if you want to see pictures: http://umpqua42.blogspot.com/

moogy on 09/13/2010:
Well you have certainly thrown yourelf into the Autumn theme, it sounds like something I would see in an American movie!! I am sure it gives you a great deal of pleasure. I hope you have a wonderful day - I am so happy that you are posting again.

V on 09/13/2010:
i bet you deck it all the way out! I would love to see pics!!!! Have a great day Maria :)

Breakaway on 09/13/2010:
You always have such great entries and I have always loved your scriptures :D Hope your day was splendid today :D Great to see your post here today :D

V on 09/13/2010:
I sending one up to the big guy right now! I am sure you will articulate exactly what needs to be said and still keep your cool collected level head :) I wish you all the love and maybe you will be the person who opens the administrator's eyes to some of their employees, it is people like that who truly disgust me :(

moogy on 09/13/2010:
I am so sorry that your mother is not being cared for properly. I can understand how angry and desperate you are. It is so easy for them to neglect patients with your mom's illness. I hope that you can get some appropriate response from her carers. You have a right to be angry.

moogy on 09/13/2010:
My 'suit' (it is not tailored) is a black and white print, the material is linen like, but nowhere as crushable (or expensive). LOL The skirt I am working on at the moment is a lovely pale pastel green, and today a bought more fabric (the blue of the pacific ocean - it's the best I can do for an explanation) to make a pair of pants to go with a couple of the tops I purchased yesterday. I guess I will be set for summer in a couple of weeks. Love You.

moogy on 09/13/2010:
I think some people work in nursing homes because they are not good enough to work in a hospitals where standards are really high and everything is watched and written down. There are some really great people who really care and they are absolute gems, unfortunately they seem to be the minority. You have carried a load for a long time, I am so sorry that you lost your father at such an early age. I never really knew my father, he wasn't very interested in me, mom divorced and then moved from England to Australia. So I kind of know that emptiness. It also helps to explain your fierceness and dedication in caring for your mom.

moogy on 09/13/2010:
really didn't see much of him from about the age of eight and then we emigrated when I was eleven and I never saw him again, he died about 4 years ago, my mom died twenty years ago aged 59, only four year older than I am now!! I look forward to being reunited with them, they were both Christian's, each in their own way.

just42day on 09/14/2010:
Sorry your day was so stressful and that you have concerns about your mom's care. She's so lucky to have such a caring daughter. Last year I stayed in a nursing home to get some rehab following surgery. I raised such h*ll while I was there as I knew things weren't as they should be. The whole time I kept thinking about the elderly staying there who couldn't or were afraid to speak up for themselves. I know that staff was very relieved when I checked out after 1 week instead of the 2 weeks I was supposed to stay. Stick to your guns as I know you will. In the meantime, you and your family are in my prayers. :)

Maria7 - Sunday Sep 12, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.4

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello Friends!

 Hubby and I went to church, then out to eat at a buffet restaurant, and then we visited Mom at the nursing home.   Her CNA had Mom (who was asleep with her head hung down)  in her wheel chair sitting at a table in the dining room with one of her friends.  Upon waking up and  seeing me, Mom began insisting that I demand she be taken back to her bed immediately as she was not feeling well, she said.  I didn't do it.  I have done it before but I know it is not good for her to lay in her bed and be tended to day and nite, without getting up and moving around in her wheel chair and socializing with the other residents.  Mom has admitted in the past that she enjoys staying in her bed (and being tended to).  Hubby and I took her some candied yams, which she loves and she ate some of.  We only stayed a few minutes as I told her I've had a cold that I am getting over and didn't want her to get it.  Then we, which includes me, the Traitor, left after I hugged her and kissed her on her forehead and told her I love her and would see her again soon. 



Today's food: 

 Breakfast:  Coffee  w tsp low cal creamer (10) and 1 little pack of splenda (0),  1  peppermint (20) and half of a lite pimento cheese s/w on 1 diet bread (70)  100


'Don't forget to eat your veggies!'

 Lunch:  Veggies salad w ti dsg (75) , candied yams (75), 1/2 fried chicken wing (100), cornbread dressing (50), and pecans (200)  500   I stopped after the 'signal' that I was FULL.


Afternoon Snack:  chicken and rice (200), ice cream (200) 400

Subtotal est cals:  1000

Supper:  hamburger 300

Snack:  candied apple w peanuts on it (230), chicken and rice (70)

Today's total est. cals:  1600




  Hope you're having a blessed day!

 Love, Maria







Progress as of today: 58.6 lbs lost so far, only 6.4 lbs to go!

moogy on 09/12/2010:
Good to see you back Maria. I love your jumping salad, that's funny!! You can only do so much, especially when you have a cold and you don't want to give it to your mom. I hope you have a good rest of the day and enjoy time with your husband and rest up a bit. I am sending love to you.

hollybelle on 09/12/2010:
So sorry you have been ill, Maria. Good thing you took care of yourself. Smart move! Your 7 lbs may only be temporary. Get back in you healthiest pattern for a week and I'll bet you'll get back down fast. Stick to you plan! Hope you feel better real soon. I'll be glad when the weather gets cooler so I can make and eat vegetable soup! That is healthy and I don't get tired of it!! Do you all have any grapes left? I have kind of burned out on them for a couple of weeks, but want to go by the fruit/veg stand and see if they still have them one more time before Fall!

V on 09/12/2010:
I too love the salad being tossed :) Enjoy the rest of your evening Maria!!!!

just42day on 09/12/2010:
Good hearing from you! Sounds like you're on the mend but don't push yourself. Get to be 100%! I make mom chocolate cookies- a recipe from Paula Deen. They are the absolute best and make delicious ice cream sandwiches. Made a batch today of @ 12 dozen cookies (mom likes 'em small) and I didn't have a one! I've never really had a sweet tooth. I'm a carb gal. Hope you're feeling 100% real soon! :)

KathyBlue on 09/12/2010:
it's completely understandable that you didn't want to pass the cold to your Mom, Maria.. don't feel bad about it. She doesn't need a cold upon her for sure, and you're not a traitor but a savior! xoxo, Kathy

Maria7 - Saturday Sep 11, 2010
(Trying to get back to goal...)
Weight: 146.8

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Thanks to each of you who have left such kind messages while I've been away.  I have dropped by off and on over the past few days, reading your comments and your entries.  I've been very sick with sinusitis this week and haven't seen my Mother (at the nursing home) in 3 days...don't want her to catch it.  I am trusting the good Lord that she is okay.  I've called the nursing home and been told she was sleeping when I've called.  Maybe it's for the best...the sinusitis and my absence for a little while...a time to rest and a time to reflect.  Anyway, I'm much better today and a friend (who is also recovering from the same thing) and I went to Cracker Barrel (restaurant and store) this afternoon and we each had an ice cream sundae there (I had hot fudge and she had strawberry) and we did a little shopping as well, as they were having an outside 'porch sale' going on with items marked down 80%.  After we checked out that sale, it really cheered me up, going inside the Cracker Barrel store-part and seeing 3 Christmas trees lit up inside (I always get excited over anything 'Christmasy-looking' or to do with Christmas, my favorite holiday season).   


As for diet...well you can see....I've been a naughty girl...there I was a little below goal recently and now I'm almost 7 pounds over goal.  But I don't want to throw away all the hard work it took to get to goal and have to go through it all yet again (especially since I've done the same thing before...8 years ago...arrived at goal, got stressed out, regained up to 26 pounds over goal and had a long fight to get back to goal again recently)...so I'm back not only because I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! ...but because I need to be accountable to myself again and I NEED 'YOU GUYS' SUPPORT!!!


I may not be on here EVERY DAY....(in lieu of situation with Mom) but I will be on here as often as I can.  Take care! 



Love, Maria


Progress as of today: 58.2 lbs lost so far, only 6.8 lbs to go!

V on 09/11/2010:
I really missed your warm greetings and I hope to hear from you real soon :) My prayers are always with you and your family. You can count on me for support in losing those lbs!!!! Love ya girl! don't stay away too long

V on 09/11/2010:
I read your comment you left me today and i have to say that I am still a little numb about the fact that i am almost to my goal :) It seems like eternity to get there! Thank you :)

moogy on 09/11/2010:
It was so lovely to see your name on the diary list when I logged on. I am sorry you have been sick and have missed your entries and comments very much. I is really important that you find a way to manage this ongoing stress without turning to food, otherwise you will be back where you started and the situation could continue for years to come. So I am encouraging you to make a plan that works for you and do your best to stick with it. I am sending you lots of love and best wishes.

just42day on 09/12/2010:
So good to see an entry from you but sorry to hear that you haven't been feeling well. :( Glad you're on the mend. I'm sure your Cracker Barrel visit brightened your day as I know how much you love that place! Xmas is one of my favorite holidays as well. It'll be here before we know it! Hope you continue to feel better. I'm confident you'll get back on track w/your food as I know how important this is to you. Wishing you health and motivation. :)

biscottibody59 on 09/12/2010:
Hope you're getting to feeling better there--enjoy your Sunday!

Take good care of yourself!

Maria7 - Wednesday Sep 01, 2010

Weight: 0.0

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Above:  'Mom's Nursing Home'

Hello, Friends!

I haven't been on here in the past few days but I thank those of you who have left comments letting me know you were thinking about me.  Each day, I've been going back and forth to Mom's nursing home, spending time with her, translating her talk to her nurses who can't understand her, about where she says she's hurting.   When I try to take a day off from going up to the nursing home, I get a call from a nurse wanting me to go to the nursing home to have a talk with Mom about something or I get a call telling me something that means I have to go interpret Mom's speech to them of what she's trying to tell them that's ailing her that they don't understand.  (I can understand Mom real well 'cause I be around her a lot, whereas, Mom's current nurse may be her nurse one or 2 days or so and then it may be days or weeks before the same nurse is her nurse again, because the nurses there take turns rotating taking care of different residents there).  Mom's developed a new condition now.  It's her legs...extreme pain...her Doctor has ordered xray and arterial test.  I feel SO SAD for her hurting and not being understood when she tries to talk to them a lot of the time.

 I am fighting depression big time.  I don't even care here lately about how much I eat.  Anything for a temporary 'comfort fix'.   Yep, my weight's going back up (already was...we're talking 'MORE').  I am 'snugly' wearing size 8 now...instead of comfortably.  A few of my size 8's have become too snug to wear.   I haven't given up.  Mom says "You're gettin' too little!" at my size.  She wants me to put back on some weight...well...wa-la!  I sure have been doing that!  When you have a goal that you've met and then you gain some over that goal, you don't look little to yourself.   


 Estimated calories per day over the past few days since last did an entry:

1600 (Sat.), 2950 (Sun.), 1350 (Mon.), 2600 (Tues.), 1480 (today). 



I just can't key anymore in this journal right now because of all this stress with Mom (and other family members).  Please excuse me and understand if I'm not on here for a while.  Please keep our family (others besides Mom need prayer) in your prayers.  Thanks and take good care of yourselves and keep going forward to your goals.


Love, Maria



biscottibody59 on 09/01/2010:
Just want you to know that I hope you take care of yourself as best as possible, and I hope you can share some of your frustrations with your husband and/or good friend(s). Taking care of parents may not be on their radar screen, but it's worth a try to share your feelings with them.

Just know that this is one of the hardest times of life--caring for a parent. I've been where you are, so I can commiserate, which I don't know how much that helps--every situation is different. Every family is different. Let yourself off the hook if you can. There's only so much you can do and I think you're doing it with grace and caring and I know your mom appreciates it.

Meanwhile, I'm taking at least a month's break from posting. But I'll check in from time to time if you do post!

Take good care of yourself there--I'll be thinking of you!

moogy on 09/01/2010:
I was so glad to see you name on the posts list. I woke up this morning thinking about you. I am sorry that you and your mom are going through this painful and heartbreaking time. I am glad that your mom has someone who can understand her and at the same time wish that it didn't all fall onto you. I know you want to do everything you can for your mom and I understand completely that you have no choice in that. I also understand the comfort eating, the 20+ pounds I put on this year was due to my daughter's diagnosis of only 15 years to live. Sometimes, healthy eating is so far of the importance radar it doesn't rate. I send you love and strength.

just42day on 09/01/2010:
Good hearing from you but am I so sorry you're facing such stressful times. Your mother is very lucky to have such a devoted daughter but I fully recognize that it places a lot of stress on you. Be gentle with yourself - in whatever form that takes. Rest when you can. I'll be thinking of you and have you and your family in my prayers.

Umpqua on 09/01/2010:
I would throw my eating plan by the wayside too if I was in your situation. I completely understand. I'm an only child and when my parents are in this situation down the road I'm going to be the only one around to take care of them. Please take care of yourself and know that we are here for you if you need a support network during this difficult time. I send you love and strength as well, Maria!

V on 09/01/2010:
I am so sorry that you are under such duress. I will pray for you and your family as I always do...Please know that you have all the love and support you need here on DD. SO what if you over eat at a time like this, hey you know we all deal with stress in different ways so as hard as it is to deal with all of this please don't let a minor thing like food get you down! Love to you and your family :)

thinnside40 on 09/02/2010:
Take care Maria.... I was at the nursing home last night with g'ma for 4 hours and try to go to stay 2+ hours each time I do go, plus going to dad/mom's 2-3 times a week....Kids started school and me working more hours on top of it all.... I have felt the added "let down" of guard already myself..... Do the best we can and continue to hold fast to the Father in heaven....

hollybelle on 09/02/2010:
I haven't been commenting much on others lately Maria - I missed you and was going to post you to today no matter what. Wondered if Earl is missing South Carolina. It looks like it on the weather reports and I sure hope so. Praying for you and your Mom's situation (really). It's so hard for you, I know, and bless her heart! A hard time of life - for sure. Take a break, take care of YOU as best you can and come back to us when you can.

moogy on 09/05/2010:
Hi Maria, I just stopped by to let you know that I was thinking about you and your family. I hope you are finding time to look after yourself. Your DD family are here if you need us.

V on 09/06/2010:
I was thinking of you and I hope you are doing well :) as Moogy stated we are here, I just wanted to stop in and say hello if you are reading this :)

just42day on 09/07/2010:
Hi Maria - Just a quick note to say I'm thinking of you and hope the stress and depression are lessening with each day. :)

V on 09/08/2010:
I guess of of us girls are thinking alike because we miss you! Just wanted to stop by and stalk your page for a minute,LOL Take care :)

moogy on 09/09/2010:
OK, I am just back to let you know that I think about you and your family every day and hope that you are coping with whatever life has thrown at you. You are obviously much loved by your DD family, we miss you.:)

Maria7 - Tuesday Aug 31, 2010

Weight: 0.0

just42day on 09/01/2010:
Ditto as others have commented. I miss your posts and clever animations. I hope all is well. Thinking of you. :)

Maria7 - Sunday Aug 29, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 0.0

moogy on 08/30/2010:
Maria, I was looking for a post from you, you are such a regular at posting. I hope you are OK, I am a little worried about you.

Umpqua on 08/31/2010:
Just checking in Maria, I hope all is well with you!

Maria7 - Saturday Aug 28, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 0.0

Maria7 - Friday Aug 27, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 144.2

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Visited Mom at her nursing home again today.  She was in a lot of pain...she could not talk clearly enough for her nurse to understand what kind of pain Mom was telling her she had even though Mom repeated herself three times to her nurse while I was there with her so I  interpreted to the nurse what Mom was saying to her.  I hate to see Mom suffer.  Finally her nurse (for the day...they rotate)..brought her some medicine to help relieve her.  I'm trying not to worry about Mom and I am trusting in the Lord.  He is our Strength.


Well...I've been good with calories today...considering...I've had lots of temptation, too.  What is WEIRD is...I've developed new eating habits and it is now coming NATURALLY, the new lifestyle of eating a certain way.  A way that says automatically...'you don't eat this'...(even though it is brought to you on a plate at a restaurant)...and you are so in the habit of not eating it that you don't even want it...wow......the habit of eating a certain amount and when you get the 'signal' that you are full, you stop eating and you ask for a container to put your leftovers in and take that home to have for your supper or your lunch the next day....even though the person who you are eating with objects and acts like you should finish eating  your whole entire entree at the meal!


 Food today:

oatmeal pancake w lite syrup 300, beef link sausage 125, 2 coffees 20, 4 kk donut holes 200, cheese 300, lf bologna s/w on 2 diet breads w lowcal mayo and mustard 190, hershey's chocolate almond candy bar 210, veggie salad w chicken and t i dsg 500, lf popcorn 100, banana 100

Today's est. total cals:  2045  (too much, yep, could have been even more...)



Hope you're having a nice day!

Love, Maria




Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 4.2 lbs to go!

moogy on 08/27/2010:
It was a coincidence, but I had just stopped eating my lunch before I read your entry and I felt full before I had finished. I just put the bowl in the kitchen and was so pleased. I think it was the same with you - we are getting used to what our bodies and minds are saying, instead of overriding the feelings. I am so glad that even with the distress you are feeling you have had a good day with your eating. I hope you have a good weekend and that your mom gets nurses on roster that understand her needs. Love to you.

KathyBlue on 08/28/2010:
Sorry about the nurse and your mom's pains :(. My mother fell at home this week and I'm worried sick, too... she has only 1 leg because of diabetes and a bad surgeon.

Umpqua on 08/28/2010:
Just saw your entry. Kudos to you for following your natural instincts and the new and healthy eating habits you have developed in the face of so much stress and anxiety. You are to be commended! I am thinking about you and your Mom this weekend and hoping you can find some peace throughout this situation.

cleaneating on 08/29/2010:
I hope your weekend has been okay :)

Maria7 - Thursday Aug 26, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 144.2

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Hello, Friends!

Mom and I attended a big careplanning meeting about her care at her nursing home  this morning with the ones in charge there.  It went well.  I spent hours sitting with her today.  Mom was diagnosed first with Dementia (about a couple of years ago), also Parkinson's, followed later with diagnosis of Alzheimer's.  My visit with her today was different than it has been being.  Sitting and talking with her, she listened but at times, didn't comprehend what I was saying or asking her and she realized it herself and told me she was sorry but she just couldn't think how to answer (very simple things).  She sat there in her wheelchair, humming softly to herself and would look at me and smile happily at me instead of answering when she didn't comprehend what I was saying to her.  I felt so sad for her!     Mom was in a lot of pain off and on and her nurse gave her some medicine which she took to help ease her.  


Well, the scale was UP this morning...no surprise after 3 - 100 cals bags lf popcorn last nite.  I had been craving it, so I just decided to have it and get it over with.  300 calories isn't a big deal.  The sodium gave a fake-gain on the scale this morning.  You should have seen that scale.  This is what it looked like:    I was looking down at it and it was looking up at me....Like it had a smirk on its face!  :-)  Up .8 for sodium gain. 


I went to the mall this afternoon and tried on clothes.  Still wearing size 8 jeans and size medium tops very comfortably.   (At one time I wore size 20-22.)  Didn't buy anything but was very tempted!!!  The summer clothing is up to 80% discounted.  The fall/winter clothing is out!  (A lot of it, that is.)  Got lots of walking done there.  Sometimes I like to go browse in the plus-size stores that use to be my size 20-22 mainstay that I shopped in years ago.  I just like to go look...and remember... I remember not being able to wear ANY regular sizes in the regular size stores, much less size 8 that I wear now!  I remember trying on the largest sizes in regular stores and their not fitting cause of being too tite.  Now I go into any regular size store, get a size 8 jeans and a medium top and wa-la... THEY FIT!  I sometimes look in the plus-size stores at the plus-sizes I once wore  (cause I certainly did NOT keep them!)  and I think to myself...wow...was I really THAT SIZE???  and the answer is YES!  I am so excited over you, who are reading this and working toward your goal.  I am excited about your progress.  I am excited for you because I know the feeling of struggling to get to a size you feel comfortable with and finally attaining it and keeping it.   I hope you are having a successful day today!


 Food today:

BK Whopper, Jr. burger (400), BK chocolate ice cream sundae (300), microwaved fresh apple pieces w sugar, cinnamon, and lowcal margerine (250), veggie/sunflower seeds/t i dsg salad (150), lite pimento cheese s/w on 2 toasted diet breads (150), a repeat of the cinnamon apples (250).

Today's est. total cals:  1500



Hope you're having a nice day!

Love, Maria




Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 4.2 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 08/26/2010:
Big hugs to you Maria about your Mom. I know this is a very difficult time for you. And thanks for sharing with us your excitement and encouragement over just how far you have come on this weight-loss journey. I think it is so important to give ourselves some positive reinforcement no matter what is going on in our lives or how dark our days may seem. Things WILL get better and we need to love ourselves and have faith in our abilities to achieve our goals. Your entry seems to me like a real lesson in how to handle our struggles in this journey and trying to balance those with all of life's other priorities. Thank you so much for sharing!

just42day on 08/26/2010:
I echo Umpqua's comments. Your weight journey is very inspirational! How fabulous. Even more fabulous is your non-stop support and caring for your mother. It's because of people like you that I know there are angels. :)

moogy on 08/26/2010:
Oh Maria, it is so difficult to watch people we love suffer, but I feel for you, your mom's diagnosis is as bad for those that love her as it for her. My heart goes out to you, I have seen the reality of this cruel illness and realise how fragile your mom is, enjoy her as much as you can - I know that you do, every visit is precious. On a different note, I was reading your late night frantic search for popcorn a couple of night's ago and hoped you had got to bed OK. Then when I read you had eaten some popcorn I wondered where on earth you had got it from - was it hiding somewhere. You made me laugh - us women are determined creatures aren't we?

moogy on 08/26/2010:
Thanks Maria, I found my comments - what a clever lady. Isn't it funny about goodies. It is sometimes just knowing they are there that comforts us - at the moment I am not risking it!!!! LOL

Breakaway on 08/26/2010:
Hi Maria! I'm SO sorry to hear about your mom. That is so very sad. I went through that same thing a few years back, my mom has passed now and I miss her very much but in the long run she wasn't there anymore so it was a relief for us to know she is in a better place now. Sending hugs your way! Hope your week is a good one.

moogy on 08/26/2010:
Thanks for being my wing woman Maria.

thinnside40 on 08/26/2010:
I feel your sadness.... My mom is 68 and from what it sounds your mom is better than mine..... Not saying you aren't effected greatly in your mom's health issues... It (dimentia/alzheimers) is just a hard disease to understand and cope with in it's ever changing behavior day to day and I know with my mom it can be hour to hour anymore.... Just know to cherish any and all time as a blessing in itself.....It has changed my thought process of how I want my kids to think of me when I get older and maybe turn out the same way...

V on 08/26/2010:
:( I too am very sorry for what you are going through, I pray for your family. Thank you for posting your mall experience! You have to feel great about not only shopping in the mall stores looking for a size 8!!! but not stressing about finding clothes that fit

biscottibody59 on 08/27/2010:
I hope you continue to take good care of yourself in light of the "stress reality" of your life as it is right now--have a great Friday!

cleaneating on 08/27/2010:
I can relate to how hard it to see a loved one not quite themselves so to speak and the stress it can put on everything. My mum had MSA,I am not sure if you have heard of it,but its a strain from Parkinson's. You sound like a wonderful daughter.

Maria7 - Wednesday Aug 25, 2010
(BACK to Goalweight Maintenance)
Weight: 143.4

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16





Good morning, Friends!

Sitting here drinking a cup of coffee  while writing this entry to you.  This morning I was invited out to lunch by my other close Friend to my favorite place to eat lunch...Cracker Barrel!  :-)  Her treat.  She is not driving currently, so I will be picking her up and we will be going to the next larger town over that has a beautiful Cracker Barrel restaurant there.  The 'happy store'!  I love browsing around in the store part of it. 

This morning I was very pleasantly surprised when I got on the scale and .....and....it actually smiled!    (/not!...just kidding!)  But it may as well have...I am down to 143.4!  Only 3.4 from goal...AGAIN...wow...maybe I won't let it get away again this time...ya think?????

If anyone read my late nite evening updated entry yesterday, then you know I was craving popcorn FIERCELY last nite.  I didn't allow myself to buy any popcorn yesterday when I was out and about, though I did think about it, and from the looks of this morning's weigh-in, I'll do well to STAY AWAY from it for a while til I'm a little below goal...What popcorn does for me is DISCOURAGE me beginning the day after I've eaten it by having the scale show a big FAKE-GAIN because of sodium...and I just don't enjoy popcorn without salt on it.  I can eat it without anything else on it, but for me to enjoy it, it HAS to have SALT on it.  So...I'm so glad with this morning's weigh-in that I didn't have any popcorn in the house last nite to eat.  Ha! Ha!  :-D



Food today:

Breakfast:  coffee w 1 tsp creamer (10) and 1/4 banana (25)  35

(Found a little piece of banana in the fridge.  Not much for breakfast but Friend and I plan to get to Cracker Barrel early for lunch.)

Snack:  1/2 cupful scuppernong grapes 50

Lunch at Cracker Barrel:  (saved part of meal and took home) part of grilled hamburger steak w ketchup (100) sweet baby carrots (200)  small tossed salad w t i dsg (100) part of cornbread muffin (100)  500

Snack:  1 cupful scuppernong grapes 100

Supper: lettuce/mayo s/w w 2 diet bread (80), 1 tbs lowcal mayo (45) and 1/2 cupful lettuce (25)  150

Subtotal:   835...too low...gonna have to eat what appeals to me (headache and nausea) though may not be ideal...

Snack:  Hershey's chocolate almond bar 210 (it was half-price at the grocery store!)

Subtotal:  1045

Snack:  2 little orange suckers 40

Snack:  Cracker Barrel leftovers 455

Today's est. total cals:  1540

Nitetime snack:  (Oooops!!!) 3 - 100 calories per bag lf popcorn 300

Today's est total cals:  1840


Afternoon update:  Friend and I had lunch at Cracker Barrel.  There are 2 Christmas trees up in the store part.  COOL!  We browsed in the store part after eating but didn't get anything.   Then we went to a thrift store where Friend got a few things and I was not feeling well..,.(headache, which had begun before leaving the house this morning and a little nausea)...so after leaving the thrift store, we stopped by a grocery store and then I took her home.  After this, I came home and cooked supper for Hubby (and walked on my treadmill a while) and a little later after he got home, I left and visited Mom at the nursing home, who was having extra pain but was up in her wheelchair in the dining room awaiting supper with some of the other residents there.  Her nurse gave her some medicine, which Mom took, to help her.  Mom has started back having physical therapy again, which is a good thing and I was told she had it yesterday and today (this has been part of what she's been objecting to).  Mom was happy, telling me that either she dreamed it or it really did happen last nite, that she got up and walked by herself.  I think she probably dreamed it since rails are up on both sides of her bed to prevent her from getting up unassisted and I reminded her she's not to walk unassisted or she may fall and get hurt.  She was so happy over her perceived newfound independance that she actually sang a song to me "Good morning, good morning!  Good morning...to YOU!!!!"  :-)


Hope you're having a nice day!

Love, Maria




Progress as of today: 61.6 lbs lost so far, only 3.4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 08/25/2010:
Yippee on your loss! I hope you have a great lunch at Cracker Barrel. I wish we had one closer, I bet my boys would love it.

just42day on 08/25/2010:
Congrats on the loss! I, too, love salt so I'm amazed I actually love kettlekorn which is sweet. Have you ever tried that? Enjoy the Craker Barrel! I know you love browsing there. Hope you find something you want! (and GET it)

hollybelle on 08/25/2010:
Well, you are just becoming one of the "ladies who lunch"! Just kidding - have a nice time with your friend. Good job yesterday keeping calories down and having burger and donut - inspiring! I have to eat things I enjoy or I will overdo it.

liza36 on 08/25/2010:
I know how fierce those cravings can be, and I am SO proud of you for not giving in. That takes a tremendous amount of willpower! Enjoy your lunch, sounds fun just being with a friend.

Weather this week in Northern VA is heavenly! Much cooler tempuratures, around 78-83, lower humidity, and the evenings are in the 60s. I much prefer cooler temps - acutally in the low 70s, so I'm loving it! We'd had the hottest summer in a long time, with over 50 consecutive days of high 90's-100 degree temps. I know where you are, you're probably used to that kind of thing. Have a great day!

Umpqua on 08/25/2010:
My veggies and herbs are all in containers on my back deck, so I don't have very many. Mainly tomatoes and peppers. I'd love to do a large veggie and fruit plot, and we actually have a fenced in area for one. I think when the boys are a bit older and can help out we will tackle this, right now I have enough trouble keeping up on my flower gardens!

V on 08/25/2010:
It seems as though everyone is having a really good day healthwise :) I knew you could do it

moogy on 08/25/2010:
I am glad you got to bed unscathed. I am really happy that scale moved for you, you are on your way down. I hope that gives you some encouragement and determination for the coming week. Have a great day Maria.

moogy on 08/25/2010:
Just read your update: I bet your mom singing to you bought a smile to your face - that's a lovely experience.

KathyBlue on 08/26/2010:
wow, the LOSS!!!! We're getting there together, girl!!!! :)

just42day on 08/26/2010:
Glad your mom's day was a brighter one. I'm sure seeing you added to that!

thinnside40 on 08/26/2010:
re: Aricept ~ Mom has went to sitting and sleeping ALL DAY, no urge to got into the bathroom on her own ( going through 5-6-7 Depends a day and sometimes showering 3-4 times a day to clean up)...Everything she does is prompted by dad or I.....She eats Cheerios for breakfast and that is ALL she wants to eat for the day.....Dad is so worn out by just keeping things clean and taking care of my grandma's place in the midst of hoping in that any short amount of time away from home mom doesn't have an accident (they aren't just something you can wait to take care of most of the time)... I studied up on the Aricept and there are other things besides these that map her out to a "T".... It isn't doing her any good with comprehension, etc and we already took her off the Namenda a couple months ago at the Dr. request....

Soup ~ Onions sauteed in Olive oil, brown lean hamburger after the onions are getting soft, add a package of Onion Soup mix, I add more water than that packate calls for to make a good size pot to add from the garden potatoes,carrots,lil cabbage,juicy tomatoes,lil green bell pepper,serrano pepper (to taste),stalk celery, shake of black pepper & salt if you want it ( I don't, but dad does)...Simmer til stuff is done...You can add okra or any other veggies you desire, just a as you go type harvesty soup....I sometimes just use ls beef or chicken broth when making it at home....

cleaneating on 08/26/2010:
Great stuff Maria,I am so pleased your efforts are being rewarded by the scale.You are so close to your goal now you must be able to smell it :)

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