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OArecovery - Monday Nov 11, 2019
Weight: 76.0

 Hi again, sorry for two posts in one day but I realised there is another battle I need to fight, and that is night time snacking.


Im a restless sleeper and up and down all night, I often snack when I wake up so thats adding a whole lot of unneeded calories. 


I still doing my best to stick to the banting but I'm pretty sure midnight snacking won't help my progress :/

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 11/11/2019:
I'm having a hard time sleeping and eating too much too. I hear you.

I'll do multiple posts in one day if I'm super stressed too.

questforthebest on 11/11/2019:
ya it is super tough, and a habit I need to curb but its not so easy...maybe for now I should try eating a fruit if I wake up.. don't know.

Ps. This ia OArecovery, I got locked out of my account <3

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2019:
I usually wake up in middle of night if dinner was too light or if I didn’t eat enough or snack a little before bed. I find tea / seltzer with a small granola bar for fast carbs to soothe and help me go back to bed easily if I get up and need to snack - it’s ok if you are hungry to have something !

OArecovery - Monday Nov 11, 2019
Weight: 76.0

 Does anyone else get an error page when they try comment?



Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/11/2019:
No error message now, so if the was a problem, it's fixed now.

Donkey on 11/11/2019:
Glitches like this do happen from time to time for me too.

happy-1 on 11/11/2019:
All good here. Hugs.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2019:
Sometimes the Site is being maintained or has glitches but usually it gets solved in a few hours :)

OArecovery - Monday Nov 11, 2019
Weight: 76.0

 Hi there, I'm struggling to reply directly to messages, it just takes me to a fault page and deletes everything :/

But thank you for the comments.  I know, I should really relax into and just enjoy the excitement and fun that the day will hold but it is the interpersonal dynamics that make me worried.  I'm scared of spending the day personality managing, but I do hope, as you say, that some people can swallow their pride and just be happy for us - only time will tell lol


In other news second day proper banting and it's going OK, just that i feel hungry all the time... Which goes gainst everything that it says online - just hoping I'm not doing anything wrong!


Food so far not exactly, or at all lol, like I planned yesterday but still fine

Had 2 boiled eggs and half an avo for brekkie

A banting wrap with goats cheese, walnuts and spinach for lunch

And planning a chicken mushroom skillet for dins. 

My fiance is so flipping skinny that I have to make a carb with every meal or she'll go skeletal so it's a bit of a challenge to not just have a 'greedy bit' of carbs while cooking dinner.

I have a lovely chilled week work wise this week so hopefully the freak out feeling of stress will lessen and that can only hope that will make the food side a bit easier. 

Have fabulous days and good luck everyone! 


Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/11/2019:
Ah, the infamous management of personalities - gotcha on the dilemma. Well... I'm afraid I don't have any suggestions on that. Coming from years of dysfunction, you can't fix other people's unhappiness.

Nice to hear that work isn't so stressful for you right now. What a blessing!

happy-1 on 11/11/2019:
My dad needs way more carbs than I do. I started sticking leftover beans, rice, pasta, etc in snack bags and then putting them in gallon bags in the freezer by category. I'm less tempted if there's only one serving heated up. I'm using the baking dishes with lids my mom had...


OArecovery - Sunday Nov 10, 2019
Weight: 76.0

 So I tried to change my bio name but couldn't - probably a sign thta I have to accept myself, my past and my cycles. Probably a good thing.

Im back because I've rocket up by 10kgs since the beginning of the year and have been extremely lazy on the exercise front an dgreedy on the food front siiigh

Doesn't help that I'm a stress/comfort eater so that just makes to all worse. In addition, I am a lazy af cook when I'm tired amd/or stressed and my partner doesn't cook... So it's been takeout and toasties for a while now.

The wedding is coming up in 6 weeks and I feel absolutely savage with all this extra weight. 

I know there is no hope in haedes that I'll lose the weight I want to in time for our wedding but I know myself that I feel instantly better about my body and myself if I'm eating well, sleeping well and exercising. It really puts me in a better mehlntal space and I find that I feel better in my body even if there is no visible change. 


Today meal plan:

Boiled egg, 1 slice bacon, 2 slice cheese, 1 banting wrap

Snack - flavored latte that my fiance got me, she doesn't really understand that I'm trying to cut down on milk, sugar and caffeine lol

Chicken, apple, Feta salad 

Snack, if needed, apple and sugar-free Peanut butter.

Dinner - cheese grillers with... Something, still trying to figure that out. Thinking Butternut mash and peas...


Wish me luck that the day goes well. 


Tomorrow I am very luckily off from work for the day but I do need to go in quick in the am. 

Aims for tomorrow (will defs update)

2 x boiled eggs, 2 x banting crackers and avo

Lunch - tuna salad, banting wrap

Dinner - chicken mushroom skillet.


Snacks if needed - banana or apple.


Hope everyone has a lovely day!! 

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 11/10/2019:
Hugs! Welcome back! What has you so stressed about the wedding? Are you worried about family misbehaving? Planning a wedding has to be on my top 10 list of things I never want to do... If I ever do find someone to marry, I’m not telling anyone and just inviting them to a BBQ and then surprise... it’s actually a wedding.

Donkey on 11/10/2019:
(You can't change your DD name. You would have to start a new diary with a new name. And then just let us know it's you.)

Try not to stress too much about the actual wedding. Everyone is there (or supposed to be there) to celebrate your happiness and enjoy!

happy-1 on 11/11/2019:
^^ What Donkey said

OArecovery - Saturday Aug 24, 2019

Weight: 0.0

 Hi everyone. I am fully depressed about my body. I refused to go out last night because I am so ashamed of how I look - I actually bailed on a friend's birthday because I can't stand to look at myself let alone have others look at me. The trigger for this downward spiral was that I put on an old pair of jeans, that used to be loose, and I couldn't even fit them on. I felt so ashamed. I feel like i am not deserving of going out and having fun when I am so disgusted with myself. I know this may seem like an overreaction but it was genuine. I just felt so upset and so disgusted.

I am getting married in December and I am so lucky to have a partner who still finds me sexy amidst all the flab but I don't want to be like this anymore. I need help and I don't know where to get it..

I have been struggling with depression for a few months and I find that I am getting comfort in food and I am just ballooning. It's terrible and I don't know what to do. I have all the knowledge I need to sort myself out but absolutely no drive to do so.

And I am so angry at myself for all of this. 

Anyone have wisdom to share on how to get started?


Ps. Meal plan for the day

Out for breakfast, looked at the menu and the healthiest thing they have on their is a hash brown with mixed veg so going that route. 

Dinner - going to make a lekker chicke, feta and chickpea salad.

Seeing as I'm eating brekkie late will probably not have lunch but if I need a snack, there are some strawberries in the fridge. 

BearCountryGG on 08/25/2019:
Stress appears to be my worst enemy as well.......I do find that listing my daily foods , somethings posting pictures, and figuring the calories does help me keep accountable. Welcome to the group......you will find lots of support and encouragement here....

Donkey on 08/25/2019:
Welcome back!

I think, with myself, my first step has always been to start drinking more water. It seems to me that when my water is out of whack (meaning, not enough), it's a slippery slope from there.

happy-1 on 08/25/2019:
Hugs. I have been there. Welcome back.

The best advice I got from this forum was to read the 4 Agreements by Don Ruiz. I really like the audio version on Audible. It is super soothing and great to fall asleep to. The one that is helpful for you is "Always Do Your Best". Today you did your best by reaching out and posting here. So gold star for today.

I think the best tip I ever got was that willpower and energy is strongest in the morning, and habit is stronger than willpower, so just focus on using your willpower on one daily habit at a time starting first thing in the morning, and then add the next habit after that when it becomes routine. Like the first thing I need to do every morning is take ADHD meds and use my inhaler. This week I am adding take my vitamins and drink 16oz water before I drink coffee. The next habit I have down already, which is take my coffee without dairy and use superfood creamer instead. Enough habits strung together over a long enough period of time, and I will be closer to the life I want to live and the body I want to live in.

Big hugs. You are awesome and doing great.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/25/2019:
Hello and welcome! for me, the way to go about it is to eat several times throughout the day to try to prevent myself from getting ravenous. and when i am ravenous, i find a little bit of carbs with seltzer helps...like a granola bar or some fruit and lots to drink to tame my appetite. welcome!

Maria7 on 08/28/2019:
Welcome back. You will make it. Just gotta replace using food to comfort to only using it for nutrition and find another comforting habit for stress. Do you like to draw or sew or have another thing you like to do that you could do instead of eating for comfort? Do you like visiting friends or walking? Small steps count a lot. You will get there. We will encourage you along the way.

OArecovery - Friday Dec 13, 2013

Weight: 0.0

 Hi everyone.  Been an age since I posted -  I lost faith a little and just stopped writing and communicating but I realise again that I can't do this alone.  This is where I went to yesterday - aside from meals I ate 2 large bars of chocolate, 2 chocolate cookies and a chocoalte stick.  Its crazy. Insane.  And my greatest goal of life right now is to get through just a couple of days with clean eating but it seems so impossible.


Anyways, plan today:


banana, banana chips, bran flakes and milk;

pita, soya strips, salad;





Maria7 on 12/14/2013:
You can do it. :-)

V on 12/16/2013:
Yes you CAN do this..Keep on posting my friend :)

thinkpositive on 12/17/2013:
I'm back today also . It's not easy at this time of year but it is doable! Good luck to you.

OArecovery - Wednesday Nov 20, 2013

Weight: 0.0

 Hi everyone,

Plan today-

fruit salad;

tuna salad with wholewheat pita;

`Apple and peanut butter;

salad, garlic bread and ostrich on the braai.


Thanks xx

hollybelle on 11/20/2013:
Hello OA -- stopping by and catching up - you are hanging in there - keep at it.

OArecovery on 11/21/2013:
Thanks hollybelle!! :)

skinnygrlwithin on 11/20/2013:
Looks like a good menu to me!

OArecovery - Sunday Nov 17, 2013

Weight: 0.0

 Hi everyone, hope you are all having great weekends!  I have been struggling with my food quite a bit but at least getting the exercise-  small things haha went for a beautiful run yesterday so even though the weight has been piling on at least I have a lovely experience like that.


Today's plan:

Apple, yogurt;

lunch with friends so I'm not sure and then out for dinner with my oartners family so its also up in the air- good planning huh haha

90 min yoga tonight and shes a very intensive teacher which is awesome.


enjoy your sundays!!

OArecovery - Thursday Nov 14, 2013

Weight: 0.0

Hi everyone,

Bit of a stresful day yesterday and really refelcted in my food sigh falling into the chocolate but that's OK, I'm allowed to trip up now and then right?  So anyway, disappointed in all the weight gain of late and the feeling of lack of control but glad to be back on here pheeeew!


boiled egg;

2 provita and mozzarella;

wholewheat provita, springbok carpaccio, mozz, salad;

Plan to come:


homemade pizzas tonight.

am going for a walk with a frend so will get a little exercis in! 

OhioRaven on 11/14/2013:
Mornin' AO. Have a good walk. Take Care.

OArecovery on 11/17/2013:
thanks ohio!

liza36 on 11/14/2013:
Glad you are back posting here. I am too. I think it really helps to be among friends who understand weight struggles and can support each other. I love this site! Enjoy your walk today.

OArecovery on 11/17/2013:
it really is a great place! Thanks for the message :)

Umpqua on 11/15/2013:
Wonderful foods! And you are right, posting here and getting feedback and support is so helpful. I hope you have a nice weekend!

OArecovery on 11/17/2013:
Thanks Umpqua!!

OArecovery - Tuesday Nov 12, 2013

Weight: 0.0

Hi everyone,  so I didn't make it to the gym yesterday- my partner was in crisis and needed me to stay home and talk her through it sigh excuses excuses I know.  On the bright side I admitted what is going on to a friend and told her that I have been bingeing big time and that I need help, on the down side I binged a second time yesterday :( but I am determinedly going to a meeting tonight.  It's happening.  Its called EDG- eating disorder group and is lead by a counsellor and is at an addictions treatment centre.  I am not managing so I have to do something.

Plan today:

banana, yogurt;

Steak, pita, salad; 


cottage pie, salad;

exercise- yoga

Thanks for all of you being here and keeping on posting.  Its so great to be able to come here.  I know yesterday was a bomb but today is a new day and I am feeling positive and stronger!

OhioRaven on 11/12/2013:
Yeah ! ! ! AO is back ! It's good to hear from you. I know the hardest part of a "Plan" is doing it. And the hardest fight we will have is usually "Between Our Ears". But keep pushing on, you can/will become who you want to be.

OArecovery on 11/14/2013:
Thanks Ohio :) You are on the money! Thanks for the faith.

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