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Runner - Wednesday Jul 26, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 124.0

Hello, friends!

I FINALLY found a computer...and I'm in a very public place right now, so I'm going to try to keep this short.

I haven't weighed myself since I left for America...and I've had some ups and downs with the eating, but at least I've tried to do better than last year.

There's much more to say, and I'll have computer access in 2 days, so I'll give an update then! I can't wait to catch up on your entries!!!

WorkingIt on 07/26/2006:
I read your bio, congrats on the loss and the work you are doing!

sweetpea1977 on 07/26/2006:
Welcome to America Runner! I hope you are having fun. Cant wait to hear about your adventures.

geevee on 07/26/2006:
I've really missed reading your entries, Runner. Can't wait til you bring us all up to date. And thanks for your nice comments. You know better than anyone how "iffy" one's weight can be, so I'm not at all confident altho having 8 days in the 120's is encouraging. Have fun!

inmorning on 07/27/2006:
Can't wait until you get back so I can read your update.

smiley2 on 07/27/2006:
Hi there Runner,

Great to hear from you! Miss reading your updates!! Hope you are having a ball!!!


Becca27 on 07/27/2006:
I hope you are having a terrific time! I'm glad to hear that you're doing well with your eating. Take care and be safe!

borntocry on 07/28/2006:
Oh, Runner, I've been missing you too! I hope you're having a great time in America! Enjoy yourself thoroughly - the airfare isn't cheap so you need to get your money's worth! Hope you treated yourself to a nice big sundae on your birthday!

Runner - Sunday Jul 16, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 124.0

HI, everyone! I had a great weekend, food-wise and exercise-wise, but the scale WON'T budge. I feel so gypped and frustrated that I am a full 10 pounds heavier than I was last year when I left for the U.S.

It's funny, because I remember being really upset that I was 114 last year...and now I'm 124.

I appreciate all your comments, and trust me, I've tried almost everything (except starving myself) to lose weight. I wouldn't have even minded maintaining about 122 for awhile, but I just can't seem to maintain that weight anymore! How can 1800 calories a day and a couple hours of exercise not be enough to help me maintain my weight? Why does it keep going UP?

I saw an interesting article on MSNBC today about "diet vs. exercise" for weight loss. I think some of the research may refer to my situation. For example, here's one of the conclusions of the article:

For women, although exercise alone was not a successful weight loss strategy, at each level of dietary fat reduction those who increased exercise  moderately or substantially  lost more weight than those who changed activity less.

You know, I may be eating the same amount of calories I ate a year ago when I was 114, but I think my food choices have been higher in fat than they were before. And I've noticed that even though I've gained muscle in the last year, I have also gained an incredibly noticable amount of fat on my stomach and butt. Of course, it doesn't help that my food is digested so slowly and that I walk around looking pregnant after a big meal, but the bottom line is that I've also gained FAT. For the first time in a long time, I feel heavy. Ten pounds is a lot, and I easily go up to 128 at night, so it's more like 15 pounds before bedtime.

I think I've been eating too much fat, and it's been converted into FAT onto my body. Peanuts, peanut butter, cheese, and desserts can all be squeezed into an 1800-calorie day, but are they the best choices for my body? You know how I lost 45 pounds to begin with? I went on a very low-fat diet. And even though I know the body NEEDS some good fat, I also think I've used that as an excuse to eat whatever I want, as long as I stay in my "calorie range." Well, I've stayed in the same calorie range for 7 years now, but I've never gained 10 pounds in 10 months like I have this past year! So something is wrong.

I leave for America tomorrow and it's one social gathering after another. My only hope is that my stomach problems will be relieved a bit when I'm in the U.S., and that I'll have some relief from the constant bloating. Usually when I travel, my symptoms mysteriously disappear. And I'll also be getting my thyroid tested again, so I can see if something is truly wrong...personally, I think it's off, but I can't prove it without the blood tests.

But you know what my biggest fear is? I'm afraid that people who saw me last summer will notice that I'm 10 pounds heavier...and maybe even say something about it! I know most of them probably won't notice...but I'm still nervous about it! Why do I care? I don't know...but I do, and at least I'm honest about it!

Well, I know that I'll get plenty of exercise in the U.S., so if I can just pick my foods wisely and concentrate on eating things I can't enjoy here, then maybe I'll be okay. I'm definitely not heading into this trip with a mindset of, "I can't wait to pig out!"

Here are my goals for the new challenge...

1. No bingeing. Ever.

2. 1600 calories or less.

3. Sit down when I eat. No mindless eating in front of the fridge.

4. One or two treats a day...up to 300 calories. (because I know I'll want some ice cream and other goodies!)

5. Moderate exercise. (this is hard for me...it really is!)

Well, here I go! If I come back heavier than 124, I'm going on a fast for two weeks. Seriously.

To read the article on MSNBC, go to:


bigbutt on 07/16/2006:
cool! can't wait to track your progress and maybe steal your calorie intake if you do well. Oh, and I thought I was the only one who fasted!!! Usually only 3 days water only.

inmorning on 07/16/2006:
Interesting article. I am thinking if you are exercising and gaining weight, maybe muscle? But then you say it is centered in your stomach. Odd, I think you are right to go to the doc.

smiley2 on 07/17/2006:
Hi there Runner!

Im so glad to see you have a positive mindset before your trip!! What the article says makes sense to me. I have also find with myself that even though i stick to an overall calories of eg 1400, its not enough, the important thing is what makes up that calories...Some people can eat 1400 cals of chocolate and still lose weight, but each of us is different...and your increase levels of fat consumption could be the reason why you found it difficult to lose what you wanted.

Well its vacation time now....and all you can do is the best you can! Its good that you have your goals ready to keep in the back of your mind when you are in the mood to attack that monster brownie or killer ice cream lol heheheheh! No seriously i hope you have a wonderful time! Enjoy every minute, relax and allow yourself treats now and then. A lot of times we lose weight on vacation because we stress less about dieting etc, so maybe you will come home with a few pounds lost!!

Oh and regarding the people, just ignore them, like somebody told me a few weeks ago when i stressed to see people i havent seen in a long time....people are too preoccupied with themselves to notice a few pounds gain on another person. I gained 15 pounds since my wedding and i got compliments at my recent family reunion that i have nice legs lol! Must be to the increased amount of exercise! So try to focus on your positive points and people may surprise you. Like Maria said to me...its all about confidence....how you carry yourself....yea and its pretty hard when you feel like breaking down inside, but nobody knows that but you right?! Where in the US are you going? Enjoy it! Maybe we bump in to each other :) We are going to LA/Vegas/Palm Springs. have a great time!


smiley2 on 07/17/2006:
PS I sometimes wished numerous times that i actually didnt have thick hair, cause it tangles so easily and its a real hastle to comb out! :)

borntocry on 07/17/2006:
If you come back heavier than 124 and have to go on a fast, I'll do it with you. I was thinking of going on a water or juice fast to give my bowel a rest but it's a bit intimidating. I did it once at university with a friend of mine who needed to lose a lot of weight, but I don't know if I have the willpower to do it alone.

biscottibody59 on 07/17/2006:
I can't refer you to the actual study--I just recently heard about it, but apparently there was a study done of marathon runners. It followed them for years. Maybe the result will give you some relief. The conclusion regarding their weight over the years was that they all gained weight over time simply because of the aging process.

I know you've mentioned that your mom is slim at her age, but is she a runner? Does she weight train? You probably are so lean, that you just don't have any more to lose despite the fact that you weighed, IIRC, 110 a couple years ago?

Keep up the good work--give yourself a break once in awhile, even if for a short time, YOU ARE WORTH IT!

Oh and have a great trip!

bigbutt on 07/17/2006:
It me again, yes this is my first 1/2 marathon BUT June 4th 2006 was my very first full marathon. The San Diego Rock and Roll Marathon finish 4:32. Not too bad being I've only run 5Ks before it. I am gonna steel your awesome 5 goals!!!

sweetpea1977 on 07/18/2006:
Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday dear Runner, Happy Biiiiirrthday tooooo Youuuuuuuuuuuuuu! :o)

Reading back on your previous entry, I definitely agree that a calorie is not a calorie is not a calorie. I mean, isnt eating 200 calories of vegetables much better than eating 200 calories of chocolate? There are a lot more nutrients in those veggies than there are in a piece of chocolate, so your body is going to find those veggies more useful than a worthless piece of chocolate. Not all calories are created equal!

So, you think you have been consuming more fat in the last year? Well, that might explain some of the weight gain. I think your thyroid may be up to something too, so hopefully that will be fixed too. Extra fat consumption and a misbehaving thyroid is not a good combination for weight management.

Do you have any record of the very low fat diet that helped you lose those 45 pounds? The earliest DD entry you have is for 2-11-03 at 119 pounds. It be nice for you to have something to refer back to if you do decide to implement a low fat diet once you get back to Taiwan.

Anyway, I sincerely hope you are enjoying your stay in the States. I look forward to hearing about your adventures!!

Love, Jenny

Umpqua on 07/19/2006:
I guess you've already left for the US so I hope you have a wonderful time and I can't wait to hear how the trip went. And Happy Birthday!!

Runner - Friday Jul 14, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 124.0

Hi, all! I finally had a stellar day, food-wise, but was only rewarded with a 1/2 pound gain. Of course, I didn't weigh myself the last two days, so maybe it wasn't a gain after all...I was probably 125 yesterday morning! I just don't get it---I am 4 pounds heavier than I was last Friday. How does that happen? Sure, I had some cake and candy this week, but I did my best salvaging each day by cutting back on other meals/ snacks. I tried to stay under 2000 calories, got plenty of exercise, etc. I used to be able to indulge once in awhile and not see such a significant "gain," but those days are OVER. My body is hanging onto every last calorie...especially the ones from sugar! Even if I only ate 1200 calories a day, if they were all sugar, I'd gain weight. A calorie is NOT a calorie is NOT a calorie on my body. Maybe it's due to my thyroid...I know that many women who have thyroid problems have to be very careful with simple carbs.

Anyway, if the challenge had ended last week, I would have said that I actually lost a few pounds, but the truth is, I'm right back where I started! And this is the WORST place for me to be before my trip to the U.S.! I'll be there 3 weeks, and you KNOW I'll be faced with all sorts of goodies!

I really want to enter the next challenge, but I need to think about what kind of goals are reasonable and attainable. I am weary of squeezing into my clothes, and I need to shed 5 pounds. Just 5 pounds will make me feel like a new woman!!

smiley2 on 07/14/2006:
Hi Runner,

I think its a good idea that you still enter the challenge even though you are going to be gone for 3 weeks. Im also going to the States for 3 weeks mid August and i think i need this challenge just to keep myself on the wagon otherwise i might just fall off it totally and break all my bones heheheheheh! Maybe you should try and avoid refined carbs as much as you can and see if that makes a difference, you are surely not overeating and you always exercise a lot, so your body is definately showing an intolerance to something....

Have a good weekend.


adailey19 on 07/14/2006:
I have to agree with the comment above with their last statement. But I also think when ever I seem to gain 2-3 pounds in a couple of days, I consider the fact that when I'm working out a lot, yes I am burning fat, but I'm also gaining muscle and that weighs more than fat or maybe it's just water retention. Don't be too hard on yourself! I'm pretty sure those 4 pounds will vanish before you know it.

borntocry on 07/14/2006:
Hi Runner,

If it's any consolation to you, I also did not lose any weight during the challenge. Not even half a pound. But then you and I didn't really give it our best effort. I think we need to review our goals - try to come up with a plan which will work for us. Maybe we should look over the last few weeks and see where we went wrong. Although I did not achieve anything during this challenge, it did help me identify some of my problems. For instance I noticed that I would have one good week, followed by a bad week. No wonder I never got anywhere! And I felt like I didn't really deserve any praise for a good week because I had inevitably spent the week before gorging myself, so it was easy for me to have a good week after that.

Aside from that, I read some interesting information on hypothyroidism yesterday which really reminded me of you. I know yours is supposedly under control, and yet I wonder if you aren't still showing some of the symptoms. Maybe if you have the time you might like to take one of these quizzes and see what you think:

http://thyroid.about.com/library/quiz2/blthyroidquiz.htm<br> http://thyroid.about.com/library/quiz5/blthyroidquizi.htm

geevee on 07/14/2006:
Runner, you have to join the new challenge to ensure that feeling of guilt when you're faced with tempting situations. Even if you do give in, at least you'll have that reminder of 'fessing' up on DD's.

Why don't you eliminate your gym work and restrict yourself to walking and running? Let some of that firm flesh soften up a bit and maybe release some of that unwanted weight. You KNOW you haven't gained four pounds this week!

becca27 on 07/14/2006:
Hi Runner,

I think that you should tailor your goals specifically to address the challenges you will face being on U.S. soil. Then, once you are back in S.E. Asia, you can modify them to fit in with life there. I am planning to have one set of goals specifically for my trip next week because it is unique. After I return home, my goals will be different because life will be "normal" again. Just something to think about....

kadiedid on 07/15/2006:
Hey Runner, I can't help feeling frustrated sensing your frustration!

Losing that last few pounds is always a nightmare, and the body hangs on so tightly when it thinks it's being starved.

I got turned on to a process called The Diet Cure that stresses the bodies need for amino acids, essential fatty acids, and major vitamins/minerals in order to lose fat. At some point during typical low cal/low fat weight loss the body stops running optimally. The organs, hormones and cells stop communicating and the weight not only stops coming off, but cravings and bloating become common and metabolism slows way down. Of course, having read all this stuff, it sounds about right based on my own experience, but I'm not an expert, just a disher of hopefully helpful info;)

Something you may want to try is switching up your food selection. Try salmon, eggs with high omega 3's, fresh berry's (excellent enzymes for digestion), and bacteria rich yogurt. Eaten in moderation everyday for a few days should ramp up your metabolism- works for me everytime. Also, I know you've gotten this advice before, but try avoiding processed carbs for a couple weeks and see what happens. Most of that stuff clogs up our intestines.

Let me know if any of this stuff works for you. I'm always curious about what cures a weight plateau.


Runner - Wednesday Jul 12, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 123.5

Points for July 11- 0

Points for July 12- 0

I haven't weighed myself in the mornings for 2 days because I've been so heavy at night...

I've had two very rough days with food temptations that I hadn't planned on. First, I received a care package in the mail with all my favorite candy, and then I was given a surprise birthday party, even though my birthday isn't until next week.

So today I'm back on track, and since work is cancelled due to a typhoon heading our way, I'm planning to just eat ONLY healthy food...mainly fruits and vegetables.

My heart has been making me nervous again, lately...it seems to be beating "heavier" than normal; I'm very aware of the palpitations... maybe it's the MVP (mitral valve prolapse) acting up, but maybe my overexercise has been making it worse. I'm kind of scared about it.

smiley2 on 07/13/2006:
Hi there Runner,

You are leaving for the States next week correct? Hope you enjoy it and have a wonderful Birthday! We are also going there for holiday, but only leaving on the 11th August. Where are you guys going and for how long?

Regarding your MVP, maybe you should try getting to a doctor again for a intense analysis of your heart. I think its dangerous to exercise etc when you really dont know what your limits are.


becca27 on 07/13/2006:
Hi Runner!!!

I know you don't starve yourself but I thought it was fascinating to think that our bodies' metabolisms will adjust to what their used to. SO, if my body is used to needing to metabolise 2500 calories per day it will but If I only eat 1300 calories per day, it will slow down to only burn that. It is interesting - but then how do people lose weight???? I just wish it wasn't all so confusing.

I live 1 hour east of Harrisburg and I frequent Lancaster county. If you can, and I KNOW how much you love buffets (ha!) visit THE SHADY MAPLE. It's a Smorgasbord in Lancaster county that is a favorite of locals and tourists. They also have a farmers market with great fresh veggies and fruit. We go there a few times a year as a very special (evil) treat.

Be safe in your travels. We leave on Saturday for San Francisco so if I don't get to catch you on your birthday, I hope that it is wonderful!!!!

borntocry on 07/13/2006:
Hi Runner,

You are scaring me! I'm sure it's probably just stress (that always makes my palpitations act up), but please cut down on your exercise just a teensy bit! How about cutting a few miles off your run and walking them instead? Or alternate slow and fast running instead of your usual speed?

sweetpea1977 on 07/13/2006:

I am really worried about you. I agree with Smiley - please make another trip to the heart doctor to get a thorough analysis of your heart. I dont want you having a heart complication during your normal exercise routine. It would ease my mind if you cut back on the intense exercise, but if you HAVE to do it, please follow BTC's advice and take a friend or a cell phone with you.

Runner - Monday Jul 10, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 123.5

Points for July 10- 4

Thanks for all your comments, friends!!!

It's true that my metabolism might already be screwed up, but days with 2-3 hours of exercise aren't rare for me, so I'm not sure why somtimes it seems to backfire and I actually GAIN weight from it!

I ate much healthier yesterday, except for a big handful of trail mix...the nuts aren't all that bad, but the M&M's weren't needed. I was really hoping to see a slight dip on the scale, but it's still holding steady to 123.5.

I guess that's good, as this new gain is discouraging enough for me to turn down a lunch out with friends at a Beijing duck restaurant today. I just can't handle a meal out right now. I have to be so disciplined...I leave for the U.S. a week from today!

The Beijing duck restaurant will still be here when I return.

smiley2 on 07/11/2006:
Hi there Runner,

I have 2 more POSSIBLE logical explanations for your. Maybe your body reacts different to large amounts of exercise you do and you actually build more muscle than in the past....It can also be that the 120's are your body's new weight at which it feels comfortable? I think someone mentioned it before that as we get older our weight seem to level off at heigher points than before and we cannot maintain the weight that we had a few years back. Well i dont know if this is true, but its a possibility. Or you have a spastic colon and you are dealing with major bloat. Could the MSG in the Asian food have something to do with it? My husband use to be so bloated from MSG laden food, so we usually order it MSG free and since then he's much better. Just a thought.


borntocry on 07/11/2006:
That is what I always tell myself about restaurants over here - they aren't going anywhere! Neither is cereal, or chocolate, for that matter...

sweetpea1977 on 07/11/2006:
Good job on the eating yesterday. GREAT JOB on turning down the lunch date at the duck restaurant! Im so proud of you!!

Wow, 1 week until you leave for the USA. I guess that means you will be celebrating your birthday with friends and family there. How exciting!!

geevee on 07/11/2006:
Turning down a restaurant invitation really shows determination! Like you thought, going would probably result in yet another unwanted pound.

Becca27 on 07/12/2006:
I read something rinteresting and i'm not sure if it is true, but it peaked my interest. IN a nutshell...." The reason you cannot lose weight using a low calorie diet is because your metabolism will detect any major drop in calories and it will then ADJUST ITSELF by burning fewer calories each day. For example: If you begin eating 2,500 calories per day then your metabolism will adjust itself so that your body begins burning 2,500 calories per day.

If you try to starve yourself by suddenly eating 1,000 calories per day then your metabolism will again ADJUST ITSELF so that your body begins to burn only 1,000 calories per day. Do you think that makes sense at all?? I just don't know!

Becca27 on 07/12/2006:
You said you're going to be in PA. Where will you be???? I live 1 hour west of Philadelphia.

Runner - Sunday Jul 09, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 123.5

July 7- 4

July 8- 2

July 9- 2

I just can't figure it out. How can I go from 120.5 to 123.5 in a matter of 3 days?

I worked SO HARD yesterday to combat the extra calories I'd consumed at a couple of meals. My diet was NOT terrible...even though I didn't have "gold star" days, I don't think I took in more than about 1800 calories, and my exercise was off-the-charts.

Maybe I'm doing something wrong...but I can't figure out why I am unable to maintain 120 or 121.

Yesterday's diet: (this is not what I typically eat, by the way)

-bowl of high-protein, high-fiber cereal

- 4 dumplings/ 2 pieces of cake/ small salad

- 16 oz. of cheese

- small piece of lasanga; a few ravioli squares

- veggies

- a good handful of trail mix

- a few BLT's (bites, licks, tastes) of my husband's ice cream and Pop-Tart

My exercise:

50 minutes of running (20 min. uphill)

1 hour of hiking

1 hour of cardio/ weights at the gym

45 minutes of biking

Now, tell me...do I deserve a 3-lb. gain?

Am I not allowed to eat like a normal human being once in awhile?

I just don't have the willpower (or desire) to live completely on veggies, fruit, and lean protein.

GG on 07/09/2006:
You re doing a really good job of excercising!!! Keep that up!! But your diet lacks...nutrients. Not enough vegetables to uh, keep you regular! haha! And the protien is lacking as well. I see a lot of carbohydrates and added sugar in your diet that you should def. look out for, such as cake...trail mix...and even ravioli! Will power really is the key to success! Its really hard to obtain but after refraining from carbs for at least 2 weeks, those cravings will dispurse. Take that junk out of your house and those cravings will fade even faster. Also tell your husband about your concerns....Personally i think your weight is at an awsome place, unless ur 4 ft 5 inches or something, but Idoubt it! haha!

Umpqua on 07/10/2006:
Runner I honestly don't think the menu for yesterday is bad. I know that isn't how you typically eat, and you're entitled to have a few goodies once in a while (or even once a week) without seeing a 3-pound gain on the scale. I've said it before and I'll say it again - I think it's the 3 1/2 hours of exercise that is messing with your metabolism. I think most people would be happy to get that much exercise in an entire week!

Becca27 on 07/10/2006:
Hey Runner! Thanks for your comments! I love my new goals, too and am excited to "challenge" myself a bit more this week. I suggest that you add a little more protein to your diet and be careful with bad carbs. I completely sympathize with your frustrations, though, and have shared experiences with phantom weight gain. It could be water retention - how "regular" are you? That could contribute. When I feel like I'm working like a dog and KNOW that the numbers don't add up to support any weight gain, I throw on a pair of jeans. Your clothes will tell the real truth. I think the scale is too unreliable. Hang in there! I love your suggestion of making some new goals. THink about recent weeks - what needs work? How can you boost your efforts? Also, do you write down everything that you eat??? Including those evil BLT's??? I'm always amazed by the difference in my food intake when I am committed to writing everything down (including the most seemingly insignificant little piece of gum). Too often, I just keep track in my head and tally it all up at the end of the day - I KNOW I miss a ton that way.

geevee on 07/10/2006:
Those carbs do it every time. By the way, was a decimal point missing or did you actually eat a pound of cheese? If so, how ever did you manage that?

sweetpea1977 on 07/10/2006:
I agree with Umpqua about exercising too much may be damaging your metabolism. Plus, some of that weight is food weight, since your digestive system is slow at processing foods. Your intake for the day isnt horrible, but it does sound like you had quite a few carbs, which can cause water rentention.

Runner - Thursday Jul 06, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 120.5

Points for July 6- 5!! YAY! Finally...a gold star day!

Hmmm...a spastic colon...maybe I do have something like that! It makes sense, that's for sure!

I ended up taking some drastic "colon cleansing" powder yesterday morning, and let me tell you, I've been cleaned out!!!

That could be the reason for the 2-lb. drop in weight...isn't it amazing that in 36 hours I can go from 128 at night to 120.5 in the morning? That's a serious fluctuation!

Anyway, I'm hesitant to even record this number, as it seems far too good to be true. But it gives me extra motivation to have another "STAR" day as I'm so close to being 120!!!

I ended up having a busy anniversary...my husband and I traveled 2 hours to the city where we met 7 years ago...so that was neat!

I pick up our little foster boy today! Yay! We'll have him until Sunday, so I know it will be a busy weekend. I'm having company over for dinner tomorrow night, but I'm going to try to serve foods I don't partcularly like so I can avoid pigging out.

smiley2 on 07/07/2006:
Hi there Runner!

You see, i really think your bloatedness could be caused by your colon playing some tricks on you some times! Congrats on seeing the 120's again! Its great! Keep this up and you could see 119 by Monday! Enjoy your foster boy and have fun this weekend!


borntocry on 07/07/2006:
Hi Runner,

Congratulations on your star! What a GREAT way to start a new week! It will be great if you can have a really good week right before your trip to America. That way you won't feel guilty about indulging in some of your favourite treats but at the same time you will have enough confidence in yourself not to overdo it.

Thanks for the comment you left me. I know how you felt suggesting that I might have had a miscarriage, as I made the same suggestion to Jenny a while ago and I was wracked with worry the whole day thinking about how it might upset her. And I have to admit, my heart did skip a beat when I read your comment, even though I knew it couldn't possibly be true!

Well, have fun with the baby! Hope you had fun on your anniversary too - that is so cute of you and your husband to take a trip back to the city where you first met! My husband and I still live just a ten minute walk from where we first met, so we don't have to go very far to recapture the moment!

jolt on 07/07/2006:
What is colon cleansing powder? sounds interesting to clean out your inside. What a great way to celebrate your anniversary! Have fun with your foster child :) and have an awesome weekend!



gg on 07/08/2006:
Wow when I was anorexic I used to drink a colon cleansing tea, dont get too addicted to it, it strips your body of the nutrients you ingest from the foods you eat and also tends to make you tired. Not to mention, your on the toilet for quiet some time. Well I hope you use this stuff sporatically and...bring a newspaper/magazine or crossword puzzle to the toilet with you! haha

Runner - Wednesday Jul 05, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 122.5

Points for July 5- 3

After my big lunch, I had a small snack later in the day and didn't eat again until before bed, which was just another small snack. I also got in a good 2 1/2 hours of exercise, so I was hoping that I undid the damage from all those BLT'S.

You can imagine my shock when I saw 128 before bed. My stomach was so incredibly distended...and I felt so uncomfortable! I must have eaten something that reacted terribly with my system...because I don't think I went over 1500 calories, and a 5 1/2 pound "gain" is a lot in one day.

Although you probably think I shouldn't weigh myself before bed, I'm glad I did, because it kept me from weighing myself this morning. I KNEW the number would be high, so I just avoided the scale completely. Plus, today is my wedding anniversary, and the last thing I wanted to do was ruin my mood by seeing 124 or 125 on the scale.

I just wish I felt better. I haven't been very "regular" lately, if you know what I mean, and I think all the food from the past 2 days is just sitting in my stomach. It's so crazy, because I eat plenty of foods high in fiber...and even had 2 bananas yesterday! Plus, I take digestive enzymes, so I should be more "regular." But I'm not! My digestive system is really wacky, but I'm weary of visiting doctors and getting no answers.

Sorry to bore you with these details. I just wish I could understand why I can't eat like a normal person! Everyone else at the party yesterday ate all the food I'd put out for them, and I doubt any of them woke up not being able to fit into their pants!

And I'm really getting tired of exercising but seeing no results...except that my muscles have become bigger.

Ah, well. I told my husband that I don't want to go out for a big dinner for our anniversary...he's really supportive, and truthfully, he could probably care less whether we dine out or dine in! To him, food is fuel...it's not something he obsesses about.

smiley2 on 07/06/2006:
Hi there Runner,

You may have a spastic colon, which is triggered by a variety of things, could be stress, could be spicy foods, could be certain foods etc. I have a spastic colon, not major spastic but still i have to take certain precautions, which i dont always do lol, but i get bloated, cramps etc on a constant basis. So maybe you should do more research on this and when you get back in the States see a doctor, maybe he could perscribe some medication you can also get when you get back. Just a thought. Are you getting your foster boy again this weekend? If you do...enjoy!!

borntocry on 07/06/2006:
Hi Runner,

I don't know if this is the same condition mentioned by Smiley, but I've read that sometimes part of your colon can get paralysed and that leads to delayed emptying of digested food, which can cause bloating and would obviously lead to temporary "weight gain" as your body fails to eliminate waste products. I don't know if increasing your fibre intake would help - you say you already eat a lot of fibre, but I don't think of bananas as being the best food to help you stay regular. Unpeeled fruits are better, like grapes (those always work like a charm for me). Or you could try prunes!

Thanks for the comment you left me. I think perhaps I may have been <i>too</i> delicate when describing my symptoms the other day. In other words, I wasn't bleeding from the right place for it to have been a miscarriage!

sweetpea1977 on 07/06/2006:
I think BTC and smiley might be right about you having a spastic colon. I definitely agree with BTC on eating grapes and prunes for fiber purposes. :o)

Anyway, I hope you had a happy anniversary!!

Runner - Tuesday Jul 04, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 122.5

Points for July 4- 4

I thought I did okay yesterday, but a good chunk of my daily calories was in the form of sugar, and that NEVER helps the weight loss process! Even if I only eat 1500 calories, I can't make a lot of them "empty" calories...because those just stick to my body like nothing else!

Today is my big lunch, so I'll probably update later. I want to be successful, and I want to focus on other people, not on the food!!


Well, my lunch was a big hit, and I did very well when my guests were there, but I had too many BLT's (bites, licks and tastes) as I was cleaning up the leftovers. Nonetheless, I think I did okay, and I'll really cut back the rest of the day. Veggies only from here on out! I'm too full to even think about food right now. This time, I'm really going to wait until I'm super-hungry before I eat again!

inmorning on 07/04/2006:
I have a hard time not eating too much @ social events too.

borntocry on 07/05/2006:
Hi Runner,

Well done with your lunch! A few BLT aren't so bad if you showed restraint at the actual lunch (and didn't decide to do something crazy like bake a batch of brownies afterwards)!

Tell your husband that he didn't miss much - the game between Italy and Germany was one of the most boring so far. Everyone I know who watched it thought so. My husband and I weren't even watching by the end of it (which is when Italy scored two goals in quick succession to win). Basically nothing happened in the entire game until then. Good thing your husband didn't stay up to watch it because it would have put him straight to sleep!

maria777 on 07/05/2006:
When it comes to social events, no matter what I plan, the plan goes out the window and I eat a lot, hehehe!

Runner - Monday Jul 03, 2006
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 122.5

Points for June 30- 3 (oops! forgot to record those)

Points for July 3- 3

Up a pound again. Sigh. It just isn't easy to actually lose a pound! Whenever I'm down, it's just a fluctuation.

Meanwhile, I'm busy putting together a big "Independence Day" lunch for about 20 people. Since the 4th of July isn't celebrated here, I'm trying to show my Chinese friends a typical American lunch. So I'm quite busy cooking and preparing food...and I find myself eating, even when I'm not hungry! I really need to break that habit. In fact, I haven't been truly hungry in awhile, so I think I should wait until my stomach is actually growling until I eat again.

pianist88 on 07/04/2006:
Waiting before you eat is a great idea. So you're in China then or something? That is fascinating! If only I had the resources to travel...sigh. But that is really neat. Good luck. Adieu, Jacqueline

borntocry on 07/04/2006:
Hi Runner,

I know how you feel - I think one of the reasons I am finding it so hard to get back on track is that for the longest time my weight has been going up and down between 117 and 119 lb and I don't see myself breaking out of that cycle! But we must be patient - that is the key. Look at how it has worked for geevee. I used to feel sorry for her and wonder how she could find the motivation to go on when she seemed stuck at 133 lb forever. But she persevered and now she has noticed an unmistakeable downward shift on the scale. The same thing happened with Becca - she despaired of seeing a change but after sticking to her guns she realised that she is in fact losing a pound a week. It's a slow process, and I think that the older we get, the slower it is, but we're lucky we only need to lose a few pounds anyway. You've been doing really well this week, so keep it up and I'm sure you will eventually see a change. There's no point putting in a few days of hard work and then blowing it all - that's what I do, and I'm sure if I had just stayed on track this whole time I'd be under 115 lb by now. Instead I'm back where I started!

I've also noticed a growing tendency to eat when I'm not hungry, and I hate it! Food tastes so much better when I'm hungry, and I never regret eating when I'm truly hungry because I know I needed it. It's crazy how we continue to feed ourselves when we're not hungry - I really want to put a stop to it! My new plan (as of yesterday) is that whenever I see something or think of something that I want to eat, I'm going to tell myself that I can have it in an hour or so when I'm hungry. Once I know that I'm allowed to have it, I don't mind waiting for it. In fact I know that the longer I wait for it, the better it will taste.

Anyway, thanks for your comments, and for your concern about my health! I especially appreciated your story of the race you had to miss. That made me feel a lot better about having done no exercise for the last ten days! Hopefully I will be able to get back on track soon.

As for the World Cup, I am so disgusted at the way that has turned out! You know, some people think that the games are all rigged, just like pro wrestling, and my husband and I are beginning to think so too! We could not believe how badly Brazil played against France. Your husband must have been pretty disappointed to see that, too! Of course, the whole city went crazy when they won. I could hear the cars honking and people screaming all night long! I hate to think of what will happen when they get to the final, as I'm sure they will!

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