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Runner - Thursday Jan 05, 2006
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 120.0

I have nothing left to say. After a week of eating out almost every night, I am right back where I started.

I KNOW that I dropped several pounds in Hong Kong, but I have gained it all back and I am so far from my goal of 115 now. Like Geevee said, 5 pounds may as well be 15 pounds...all I know is that I seem to have lost all my motivation.

I'm quite discouraged right now. I thought I was doing so well, but I've had far too many chances to overeat this week and I've done a pretty good job of taking in hundreds of extra calories.

I'm still exercising, of course, but that doesn't seem to help at all.

I so much want to follow the rules I set out for myself, but I feel like I'm always thrown a curve-ball and all my discipline flies out the window at the first glimpse of temptation.

I think I need to re-read my entries from 2 years ago. That's when I got really serious about my weight loss...in January, in fact. Maybe that will motivate me to actually work hard at losing these stubborn pounds!

borntocry on 01/06/2006:
Hi Runner,

I don't think you should expect exercise to help you lose weight. I hate to say this because I know it must sound like I'm always harping on about it, but I just want to tell you that my weight started going down dramatically once I stopped exercising every day. And looking back, I realised that it was when I started exercising every day that I gained all this weight to begin with. You can read my entries for the last three months and see for yourself - it was when I bought my exercise bike that I started exercising every day. That was also when I started running 6-7 miles at a stretch instead of 3.

Now I know this could all be coincidence (and that's probably all it is) but read Princess Teacup's last entries and you'll see that she also says that she noticed that she lost more weight through moderate exercise (3 mile runs) than she did with more intensive exercise. According to her, that just made her hungrier. Well, when I read that, I realised that this might be the reason I remember feeling constantly ravenous over the last few months, whereas now, I find it much easier to control my hunger. There could be something to this, couldn't there?

I know how reluctant you are to cut down on your exercise (although you did promise to do it after your race last month!), but why don't you just try to go one day without exercise? Just one day - how much harm could it do? Just see if it makes a difference. I know it probably won't, but then you can just go back to your usual routine instead!

Princess_Teacup on 01/06/2006:
YEAH! NO MORE EXERCISE! No, of course, I'm only kidding.

But seriously, for me personally, keeping it in the 300-500 calories-burned-per-day range is the most helpful with regards to weight loss. When I was running a lot and still living in the city and walking an extra 4-8 miles every day I couldn't lose an ounce and I was always so, so hungry and also so ready with an excuse: 'Well, I burned an extra 1200 calories today. So I'm going to just tuck into this 1,100-calorie burritio guilt free.' I think going from nothing to something is really helpful, but going from a lot to a lot more probably isn't going to make a difference.

But if only FRUSTRATION was aerobic...

Umpqua on 01/06/2006:
Hi Runner, I read the other comments and I think there may be something to that. I wonder - did you exercise as much when you were in Hong Kong? It could have been the break in your exercise routine that helped you lose those few pounds. I can only relate from my limited experience with walking, since my other exercise is but a pipedream at this point. But walking at least a couple of miles is something I do every day without fail. I used to do it "as exercise" when I commuted to work - 2-3 times a week, and I think it helped me lose weight. Now I think it does nothing at all for me except maybe keep my legs in OK shape. My body has gotten used to it and I think I need it just to maintain at this point. Just a thought...I hope you have a great weekend!

Runner - Wednesday Jan 04, 2006
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 118.5

Yup, I'm a solid 118.5

On the bright side, I'm 2 pounds less than I was last week.

BUT, I know that I would be about 117 right now if I had just followed my plan the last 2 days.

So...I have to say that I blew the first day of my "rules," and I'm off to a pathetic start! I did okay until last night, when I just lost it at a small social event that I hosted. Let's just say I ignored the "no second helpings" and "eat only when hungry" rules.

Maybe I shouldn't be so strict with myself, but I think I need discipline in these areas right now. Why am I five pounds heavier than I was last year? Because I've gotten lazy. And I am tired of always giving in to my food cravings. My goal is to get back to 115 by the end of January, and I CAN DO THIS. But it's not going to happen if I continually eat about 500 calories more than I need.

So here's to a better day. The food challenges continue, but I've been following my rules so far. If I can make it through tonight, I'll consider it a stellar day.

borntocry on 01/04/2006:
Hi Runner,

Any kind of social event is my downfall, too. I was looking back on my rules and I noticed that every time I broke them it was because of some social event. That's probably the only reason I've been doing so well lately - I haven't really been challenged. And it's kind of depressing because I know that as soon as I am, I'm just going to cave and undo all my good work - that's what always happens.

Wait, what am I doing? I should be trying to motivate you, and instead this has turned into such a downer!

Well, to change the subject, thanks for the comment you left me. I laughed out loud when I read about you yelling "mei-yo li mao" at people! That's a good idea, I should do something like that here too. I doubt I'd have the courage to actually say anything, though!

And as for my peanut butter and banana sandwich, I did use Better 'n Peanut Butter, but the problem wasn't so much the peanut butter itself as the combination of the two. Basically the banana got kind of mushy in the sandwich iron, so I think a crunchy peanut butter would have been better, to give a little contrast. Instead the two just kind of blended together and it was a little soupy. I do normally really like Better 'n Peanut Butter, though - in fact that's why I didn't have any of the regular stuff to use instead!

Runner - Monday Jan 02, 2006
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 118.5

I knew the journey to 117 would be short-lived. Losing 3 1/2 pounds in one weekend is nearly impossible...I should know that first-hand! But, I am glad that I'm not in the 120's right now, and I do hope to reach 115 by the end of January. I had forgotten that I said January 15, and that does seem like too short of time, so I'm going to change the date to January 31. I want to make sure that the weight I lose isn't just a fluctuation or water weight. In fact, it would be great if I were maintaining 115 by then.

I guess I had already started following my "rules" this weekend, as I was only eating when I was hungry and keeping my calories reasonable. I have no idea why my trip jump-started my diet, but it did. It's strange...but maybe just being out of my own kitchen is the best thing for me at times!

Anyway, I've had a good day so far, but the bloated feeling has been starting up again, so my weight will probably be up tomorrow morning. I can predict it quite well now. Why is it that I don't experience the bloating when I'm on vacation? It can't be stress...it's not like I had a super-relaxing vacation...we were busy the whole time. And I was still eating some fats and sugar every day, so I doubt it's totally related to food. Maybe it's the air I breathe in this polluted country. Maybe it's something I'm allergic to in my apartment. All I know is that I can't seem to control it at all!

borntocry on 01/03/2006:
Hi Runner,

You're right, it is odd that you only seem to experience the bloating when you're at home. I'd noticed that too. You always worry about your trips away, but when you get back you're usually in better shape than when you left! Is there anything you tend to eat at home which you don't eat on holiday? What about exercise - do you do as much when you're on holiday as you do at home? It could be that you're allergic to something, I guess. Perhaps you should try checking into a hotel for a few days and see if it goes away!

sweetpea1977 on 01/03/2006:
Hey Runner,

Im glad to see that you aren't in the 120's either. I think reaching 115 is possible to obtain by the end of the month. Dont give up!

You may be on to something about your bloat while at home. Perhaps you are experiencing a reaction to something in your apartment or the city's pollution. Maybe you should have the apt inspected for mold, air quality, and 4-8 legged pests!


geevee on 01/03/2006:
I'm glad you changed your target date to the end of January. That, is feasible for the loss you want.

You know your body very well and even predicted that your weight would be up today. Mine is seldom the same for more than two days in a row.

And so we plod on...

Runner - Thursday Dec 29, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 120.0

Well, I'm off to Hong Kong for a few days. I am looking forward to this trip, but I really don't want to come back any heavier. I'm a bit nervous about traveling with a friend who seems to analyze my eating habits more than the next person. I'm afraid she's going to be critical of me if I refuse to eat something or try to get a little extra exercise. One time she asked me if I was "struggling" with food...you know, like if I have an eating disorder or something. Of course, she did it in a way that made her appear like a caring friend, but I could see through it. She's been on a weight-loss crusade herself, and still is. And I know first-hand how competitive girls can get if they're both trying to lose weight. Anyway, maybe I'm reading too much into the situation, but I just hope this girl leaves me alone, even if my eating behaviors seem strange to her.

No, I don't have an eating disorder. But I have been eating TOO MUCH lately, and I can't wait until this weekend is over so I can start BTC'S CHALLENGE! I'm ready for a change.

Puffy cheeks, be gone! Bloated stomach, be gone! FIVE POUNDS---BE GONE!

borntocry on 12/29/2005:
Hi Runner,

I hope things go well with your friend. Sadly, I have also at times been guilty of watching some other girl eat like a bird and telling myself that it was probably a sign that she had an eating disorder. I remember I was often jealous of my cousin because she's always weighed around 10 lb. less than me, and I once accused her of being anorexic. Only now I think she really might be anorexic because she weighs 95 lb. and constantly talks about how fat all her friends are (and they're all about my size).

But I hope you have a great time in Hong Kong nonetheless! Enjoy yourself and get ready for the challenge!

geevee on 12/29/2005:
Traveling with a friend who is also watching her weight ought to make the weekend a breeze. Not having to watch someone gorge and order all the goodies you'd love to have makes it a lot easier. Maybe you'll pick up a few good ideas from her.

It amazes me what a big deal a measly 5lbs. turns out to be! To think that getting down to 120 seemed so feasible at one time until I couldn't even hold onto 125! And now 125 seems almost as difficult to reach.

Umpqua on 12/29/2005:
Runner, I am right with you. I've had enough of my own bad habits lately - I'm truly disgusted with myself and my eating and exercise habits! I'm joining you and BTC (although I'm giving myself until March 1 to get to 115 - I have a couple more pounds on you 2 though). I will be so happy if I can get back down there. It's nice to know we're all here for each other to share some encouragement through this tough time. Enjoy your weekend in Hong Kong!

borntocry on 12/31/2005:
Happy New Year!!

Runner - Wednesday Dec 28, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 119.5

I really like the fact that BTC has come up with some maintainable goals for herself, and I've decided to adopt her plan and make it my own as well. I'm ready to devote the month of January to trying a new approach and seeing what happens. I have allowed myself numerous indulgences in the last couple of months, and I'm actually ready to start saying "no" to certain foods and allowing myself to feel real hunger before I eat! I would also like to aim for 1500 calories a day, although there are days when I literally have no clue as to how many calories I've consumed.

Living in Asia makes it very hard for me to count my calories, even if I buy something from the store, since the food labels are often missing or incorrect. It's even worse if I eat out, because it is considered quite rude here to ask someone what ingredients are in the food they've prepared. Although I can usually make an educated guess, I still have no idea how many calories are in my favorite snacks---like taro bread, peanut-powder rice cakes, etc. Searching the Internet for the number of calories in "taro paste" is fruitless, anyway, and many of the Chinese ladies have their own special recipes, so how am I to know if it's highly caloric or not? And does the bread contain lard? I really don't know!

So, I guess I'll have to eliminate some of my favorite snacks for a month, or eat them once or twice at the most. Because I know they're not making me any thinner, and ignorance is NOT bliss in this case! I have to stick with the foods I know and not just blindly eat whatever if put in front of me. Obviously, if food is fried, it's going to be higher in calories, so I should just stay away from the fried food, period. There are plenty of other good foods I can enjoy.

So, here are my goals...similar to BTC's, but with different incentives:

1 week on the Second Helping Rule = 1 bakery treat (e.g. taro bread)

2 weeks on the Hunger Rule = 1 opportunity to bake a treat or dessert for my co-workers

3 weeks on the Overeating Rule = 1 visit to a favourite restaurant (a Japanese sushi bar?)

30 days (not necessarily in a row) at or under 1500 calories = a trip to the hair salon for a full wash and head massage

There you have it!

I plan to start on January 3. I'd start on January 1, but it will be nearly impossible to follow my rules as I'll be traveling. Although I don't plan to just pig out this weekend, I do plan to enjoy my time with friends and I don't want to come across as a crazy dieter with the group of people I'm traveling with. It's just easier if I start the diet when I get home.

borntocry on 12/28/2005:
Hi Runner,

Wow - you're following the exact same plan as me! We can do it together! I know you're starting a week later, but maybe that will motivate me to try extra hard this week so I can set you a good example! I think it's a good idea for you to wait until after your trip, by the way. You don't want to set yourself up for failure so early in the plan, because that will just demotivate you. You need to get a good start.

As for the duration of the challenge... to be honest I hadn't actually foreseen an end to it, hehe. Of course my goal is to get back to 115 lb but I don't want to think about how long that will take. I would love to get there in a month but I'm not going to get my hopes up... I just want to get there eventually. After that I'll just take things from there, I suppose.

And yes, I think that if we do manage to get there, a big reward in the form of an overseas trip is definitely in order! ;)

I know only too well the frustrations of living in a foreign country where nothing is labelled. Here the ingredients in packaged foods are generally listed, but nothing else, so I have to calculate the calories myself. And of course if I buy anything from a bakery or snack stand, there's no way of knowing, especially if it's something slightly out of the ordinary, like that Algerian semolina bread I've developed such a liking for. In fact, that was part of the reason I decided to stop counting calories altogether. But why take such an all-or-nothing attitude towards life? We don't need to know <i>exactly</i> how many calories are in everything we eat. If we try to stick to 1500 calories a day, and occasionally without realising it go up to 1600, is that really such a big deal? Weight loss isn't an exact science anyway - if only it were! We don't really know how many calories we burn in a day, and it probably varies from day to day anyway. So there's no point stressing over each and every one.

In my opinion, you can generally assume that plain bread won't have more than 100 calories an ounce. If it's very rich or fried, you can assume it's more like cake. With less familiar items I just try to come up with the closest equivalents I can and go with roughly the same number of calories. So for taro paste you could maybe base your estimate on jam or something like that. Most carbohydrates are pretty equivalent in calories anyway, whether in the form of sugar or beans or vegetables. Sometimes I try to look up recipes for certain things to help me calculate the calories but as you mentioned, there's so much variation between different recipes that I often just end up getting more confused!

Runner - Wednesday Dec 28, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 120.0

Well, I'm off to Hong Kong for a few days. I am looking forward to this trip, but I really don't want to come back any heavier. I'm a bit nervous about traveling with a friend who seems to analyze my eating habits more than the next person. I'm afraid she's going to be critical of me if I refuse to eat something or try to get a little extra exercise. One time she asked me if I was "struggling" with food...you know, like if I have an eating disorder or something. Of course, she did it in a way that made her appear like a caring friend, but I could see through it. She's been on a weight-loss crusade herself, and still is. And I know first-hand how competitive girls can get if they're both trying to lose weight. Anyway, maybe I'm reading too much into the situation, but I just hope this girl leaves me alone, even if my eating behaviors seem strange to her.

No, I don't have an eating disorder. But I have been eating TOO MUCH lately, and I can't wait until this weekend is over so I can start BTC'S CHALLENGE! I'm ready for a change.

Puffy cheeks, be gone! Bloated stomach, be gone! FIVE POUNDS---BE GONE!

Runner - Monday Dec 26, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 120.5

can it get any worse?

Honestly, can it get any worse?

I have no more ideas...and little motivation.

I was able to maintain 113-114 for over a year, so I know it's possible! But now that I've been steadily gaining weight, I feel like a real loser! Honestly, this is affecting the way I feel about myself! I've always been a very confident person, but all I see right now in the mirror is someone with a puffy face and bloated belly.

I'm tired of trying to give myself pep talks; I have just been too lazy with the food, and that's the bottom line.

I HAVE to count calories. I HAVE to quit baking treats and eating them. I HAVE to learn how to deprive myself from my favorite (fattening) foods. If I don't, then my weight will continue to go up. It doesn't matter how many miles I run each day; my exercise isn't seeming to help at all, although I do wonder what I would weight if I WEREN'T exercising 2-3 hours a day!

The bottom line is that I am among the many thousands of people who will resolve to lose weight in 2006. I only want to lose 5 pounds, and 2 years ago, I set out to do just that. I did lose the 5 pounds, but I had to write down everything I ate and was really strict about my diet. SO here I am again. I wanted to be 116 by Christmas, but now I'll have to say 116 by January 15. That's my new goal. I have three weeks to lose 5 pounds. I'm going to do it this time.

borntocry on 12/27/2005:
Hi Runner,

Yep, it can get worse. Just take a look at my latest entry and you'll see.

This has been affecting the way I feel about myself too. I look in the mirror and all I see is this weird chipmunk-faced girl whom I scarcely recognise. This morning I put on my largest pair of pants and they were tight - tight!!

I have set some new goals for myself too. 5 lb in three weeks seems very optimistic to me, but I hope you can do it because if you can, then there's hope for me!

I agree with you that exercise doesn't help at all. Personally I'm not going to factor it into my calorie deficit. Otherwise I'll feel like I can consume 2400 calories on the days I go running and I know I can't. I don't know whether this is because we're so used to exercise that it really doesn't burn any extra calories for us or that our daily calorie intake without exercise needs to be lower than we think, like 1500 calories instead of 1800. But either way exercise has become a hobby for us (especially for you) so it isn't really right for us to rely on it to lose weight. There may come a time when we won't be able to exercise, so we might as well learn a little discipline when it comes to our eating habits.

Well, here's to the start of a brand new challenge. I'll be thinking of you and wishing you luck. If we can't be strong for ourselves let's try to do it for each other - to set each other a good example and motivate each other!

geevee on 12/27/2005:
Yes, Runner. It CAN get worse! The same 5 pounds I've been fighting for months have increased to 8. My goal of 125 might as well be 100. You are so right about how determined and careful we were when we were losing and keeping careful tabs on everything we ate.

The simple fact is that we are eating more than we should if we want to maintain a certain weight. We can't do both.

I was thinking of the days when I always weighed 121-123. I seldom weighed and never thought about food. I was so busy working, in class, studying and esp. partying that I think the only time food entered my mind was when I was hungry. Oh, has the situation changed!

We have to stop this upward spiral and experience some deprivation and frankly tell ourselves that we CAN'T have our favorites. Period. There's no way around it.

Your goal of 5 lbs. in 3 weeks is admirable, but at almost 2lbs. a week, impractical. You know how difficult that is if not impossible. A permanent loss of half a pound to a pound a week is more plausible.

Let the starvation begin!

geevee on 12/27/2005:
I can't believe I forgot to thank you for that deadly Key Lime Bread recipe! Oh, my, does it sound wicked! TWO cups of sugar? FOUR eggs? Those slices at 115cal. must be paper thin. I can just imagine packing away an easy 600 calories!

I will definitely write it down and SAVE it for after I lose all of my excess baggage. I can't afford to have such a delectable treat in the house, esp.with all the other rich temptations I have at the moment.

I'm thinking that a good time to make it would be before my youngest son and his kiddies come over for dinner the next time. I KNOW all of them will go crazy over it because he is THE Key Lime expert in the family. That way I'll be able to have a "taste" and then insist that they take it home with them. The kiddies will have it as a treat at lunchtime.

He's become so expert at pie making that I had to ask him if he had actually made the pies he brought himself or if he had bought them. I think he felt so insulted, but his looked so professional, not like the messy ones I turn out!

We all love Key Lime and put it on everything, so a bread version is bound to be a huge success in my family. I'll let you know, and thank you again for sharing the recipe with me.

Runner - Monday Dec 26, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 120.0

Overall, I'm pleased with the way I handled myself this weekend. I had several Christmas parties that mostly revolved around food, and I tried to eat what I really wanted without overdoing it. Plus, I cut out snacks and went lighter on a couple of meals. So naturally, my weight is up.


Ah, well. I really do need to cut back on the sweets...I've had far too much sugar in the last few days and not enough vegetables!

So here's to a better week! Of course, I can't put the holiday-eating behind me yet. Here in Asia, we've only just begun...with Chinese New Year at the end of January, the banquets and feasts will start shortly. My only hope is that most of the food is NOT all that appealing to me! And instead of serving things like cheesecake, the Chinese will serve "delicacies" like chicken feet. At least I can gladly pass those up!

geevee on 12/26/2005:
You got a good laugh out of me with your comment on chicken feet! I just passed it on to Jim and we had yet another laugh when he said that even worse is when you scoop up what looks like a head with the eye staring at you from the soup bowl.

Runner - Thursday Dec 22, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 119.5

Somehow holding on to 119.5. I had great intentions yesterday, but ended up giving in to my cravings and indulging in all sorts of fattening snacks---from M&M's to peanut butter to pure chocolate. What gives? Why am I drawn like a magnet to these kinds of foods? It's no wonder I can't lose a pound!

And today is our huge staff Christmas party. We go to the same place every year, and it's the most incredible buffet ever. I usually stick to the sushi and veggies, but the desserts are always very tempting, and I have definitely gone overboard the last 2 years. However, I know what to expect now, and my life WILL GO ON if I don't pig out on the desserts. Why would I want to do that? So I can be miserable the rest of the day? I have a party tonight, too! I need discipline and a battle plan.

I'm off to a good start with a 220-calorie healthy breakfast (fruit and a high-protein tortilla), and my goal is to have several small slivers of the desserts...and NOT to go back for seconds! There is no need for that. BTC, I want to follow your rule today! I want to be victorious and walk away from that buffet without feeling guilty, stuffed, and depressed. It's only food, for crying out loud! Why does it have such power over me? I am tired of giving in to my cravings and pigging out just because everyone else is pigging out! They obviously don't seem to care about their weight, and I DO care...so I need to act like I care and avoid the foods that are "trigger foods" for me.

Just because it's Christmas does NOT mean that I have to overeat. More and more, I am becoming convinced that finding excuses to pig out is not the way to win this battle! I think depriving myself of some of my favorite treats is actually a good idea, as it's been far too long since I've said "NO" to something that appeals to me. I want to learn how to say "NO!" And when I do say, "YES," I want to learn how to eat a small bite of something and have that be enough.

Okay, I'm off to the party. Thanks for listening to me give myself a pep talk. I sure hope all my good intentions don't fly out the window!

borntocry on 12/23/2005:
Hi Runner,

I feel the same way - it's been too long since I've had that deprived feeling! At some point I decided that it was wrong to deprive myself all the time and somehow that turned into an excuse for me to indulge my every craving! You know how I realised that? I was trying to come up with ways to reward myself for keeping my rules, and I realised that while in the past I would have been able to come up with dozens of forbidden treats to use as rewards, now I can't come up with a single one! I have all of them all the time anyway!

This is exactly how I used to live my life before, and what I didn't like about it was that nothing was ever a treat. I used to have muffins and tarts and cookies every single day (a chocolate tart or a banana muffin after lunch and half a dozen chocolate cookies when I got home from work - EVERY DAY) and as a result, nothing was special and I didn't really enjoy anything. So, even though I still think that nothing should be completely off limits, that doesn't mean that we should eat whatever we like all the time! But I'm sure this will become easier for us after the holiday season. Maybe we'll be sick of chocolate by then!

Oh and speaking of chocolate, I read your comment to Umpqua and unless she knows how many calories there are in a truffle, I'd estimate it at around 70. Unless your truffles are really small, in which case you could probably halve that. Or, if you have the list of ingredients, the weight of the tin, and the number of truffles in it, I could calculate the calories for you! Trust me, I've become a real expert at this!

Well, good luck and merry Christmas!

geevee on 12/23/2005:
Your entry brought to mind the image of the U of Miami buffet where everyone at my table was too busy eating to engage in conversation, especially after the rich, mousse dessert was served. Every single plate was cleaned. At the time I thought about how I'm always saying I'd just like to eat like a normal person and not be so concerned with calories and what I eat. Why can't I just eat? There was my answer in front of me! Normal people indulge too and go overboard, and it sure is hard not to join in! You have a huge challenge getting through today.

Umpqua on 12/23/2005:
You have a really good point Runner. I've been making lots of excuses lately to eat whatever I want and that's just not right. I have not felt deprived in a long time - and it's good to feel that way once in a while. Thanks for the pep talk - I'm going to make a point to make sweets and eating rich meals out a special experience in the New Year - not a normal weekly occurrence. But those truffles will make it darn difficult!

BTC was pretty close in her calorie estimate. My truffles are from Harry & David and here is the horrific breakdown:

Milk chocolate: 105 calories per truffle (about 0.7 oz or 19 grams each). And 8 grams of fat each.

Dark chocolate: 100 calories per truffle, 8 grams of fat.

And I wonder why the scale isn't moving for me?

Runner - Tuesday Dec 20, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 119.5

A whole half pound loss. Whoo-hoo! I guess it's a start.

I had an almost perfect day yesterday...until about 10pm. Without going into details, I blew my 1600-calorie day and made it about 2300. That kind of behavior is completely unacceptable in my book, and I refuse to say that it is okay once in awhile. Within a half hour, I consumed upwards of 800 calories and even though I was hungry, I was not THAT hungry.

Since I have two Christmas parties on Friday, one on Saturday and one on Sunday, I am going to be as disciplined as possible the next two days because I have absolutely no wiggle room right now. I will have plenty of good foods all weekend, so why would I waste my calories on something like peanut butter or mediocre chocolate candy right now? I can have that kind of food all year long...and I don't need the extra calories right now.

I know my weaknesses, and eating at night is always a big temptation for me. I justify my behavior by saying that I'm "making something special" for my husband, but then I end up eating half of whatever I make, and his snacks are always highly caloric, as he has the fastest metabolism I've ever seen! (lucky guy)

Therefore, he has agreed to prepare his own snacks until I can get a grip on my nightly snacking. If I don't open the peanut butter jar or the candy jar, then I'm fine. But if I open them "for my husband," then I invariably give in to temptation. And like I said before, I don't want to go into this weekend at 120 pounds. I'm still hoping to see 118 by Saturday. It's probably wishful thinking, but if I could get a grip on my destructive snacking habits, then it may be possible!

geevee on 12/20/2005:
A half pound loss this week is A LOT! Good for you!

The description of your little snack which blossomed into 700 cal. is what happened to me tonight when the munchies attacked. All I could do was hold down the amount, but even so, it was more than I needed.I should go to sleep instead of watching Iron Chef and the cooking of salmon. It'll get me back prowling around the kitchen getting myself into trouble.

borntocry on 12/21/2005:
Hi Runner,

Isn't it funny that you had a bad day yesterday and yet your weight is down today? Unfortunately that wasn't the case for me, though!

I have the same problem with my husband. He also prefers highly caloric snacks and unlike <i>some</i> people's husbands (thinking of Mr. Sweetpea here) he isn't very amenable to low-fat alternatives. (He does like my low-fat ice-cream, though, after trying it once in a moment of desperation when he'd run out of Haagen-Dasz!) But of course, like your husband, he can afford to be that way thanks to his metabolism. I read somewhere that someone of his size and athletic lifestyle can burn 3600 calories in a day! Can you believe that?

And there I am, half his size and eating right along with him. It's ridiculous! And honestly, often enough I'm the one who suggests preparing something for him in the first place. It's just an excuse for me to have some myself! That's what happened on our anniversary a few days ago. I suggested making a chocolate cake for us. He agreed and had two large pieces of it. I had "a few" tiny slivers - basically the same amount as he did!

So anyway, I think it's a great idea for your husband to prepare his own evening snacks. In fact, maybe you could try taking a shower or doing something else in another room while your husband is enjoying his snacks, so that you don't feel tempted to join in? That's always been a problem for me.

Oh and thanks for your comment and that eggplant recipe. I had seen it before and it does look really good! It seems quite similar to a recipe I have for couscous, only it looks simpler. And I was actually thinking of making something like that this week, so maybe I'll try it tomorrow!

Umpqua on 12/21/2005:
Congratulations - all losses are to be commended at this time of year! You have a lot of holiday parties coming up, but I'm sure you'll do fine. You always seem to practice moderation at parties and when traveling, something I have a problem with. I'm lucky that my husband has very different snack preferences than I do, or I would have a tough time controlling myself. I prefer sweets and chocolate and he would much rather have nuts or cheese and crackers - or potato chips, which he can eat by the bag. If he was into sweets as much as me, I'd probably be having ice cream sundaes every evening!

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