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Runner - Thursday Jun 14, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

Oh, man...I got off to a terrible start!

Actually, I had a great breakfast and lunch yesterday and then it all went downhill...and I had that baby shower tonight and someone brought fried green onion pancakes! Now, I know that might sound weird to some of you, but these are authentic Chinese green onion pancakes...and they're sooo good. Of course, I had several. Bad, bad, bad.

And then my friend gave me several pieces of banana bread...and then I had two mini quiches.

All my discipline---out the window!

Okay, tomorrow I'm back on the wagon. I should have no temptations in my path....I have no meals out and no special occasions. In fact, I was supposed to attend a banquet tomorrow night, but I'm not going to go. I'm not going because I don't need another big banquet. The people involved won't miss me anyway. It's more of a "showy" thing...and I know I'll overeat if I go.

I've just got to keep taking this one day at a time...especially while my ankle is still on the mend.

sweetpea1977 on 06/14/2007:
Man, that baby shower was a killer. I'd probably give in to all those foods too, especially those amazing sounding green onion pancakes!!

Now that you have no more temptations in the way (good for you on skipping out on that banquet), you have no excuses getting off track. You can do it Runner!!

hollybelle on 06/15/2007:
Yes, those green onion pancakes sound delicious. I think I'll try to find a recipe. You're right, though - one day at a time.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/15/2007:
hey, at least the food was good. can't complain about that. actually, i know what you mean by the fried onion cakes....we have something like that as an asian dish around here! have a good day...keep your head up!

Runner - Tuesday Jun 12, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

My ankle is still hurting, but I swam for 30 minutes last night and took a walk earlier in the day. (I wrapped my ankle, which helped)

I kinda thought that maybe I haven't gained weight recently...(I haven't weighed myself in 3 months, so I don't really know), but then I was going through all my clothes to get rid of some of them, and I tried on the shorts I wore in Hawaii just a few months ago.

They're too small.

I can't fit into them.

I have gained even more weight!

I have had it. I am so sick of gaining weight, and it's partly my fault. Actually, it's mostly my fault. Sure, the hormone injections don't help any...but I eat the wrong foods and expect to lose weight! There's just no way I can eat like a normal person. If I want to lose weight, I need to take drastic measures. Very drastic measures! I've just been too lazy to do this, but no more. Honestly, I am so sick of not being able to lose ONE STINKIN' POUND that I am going to go at this weight loss thing with 150% effort.

Therefore, until I am running again and until I lose a solid 5 pounds, I am eliminating all "white" foods, and all unhealthy fat as much as possible. The only way I will eat them is if I am forced to do so...which will probably never happen.

I have GOT to lose 5 pounds! I hate my tummy! I am tired of covering it up and always thinking about wearing clothes that flatter my "new figure". It's not flattering to have skinny arms and legs but a huge butt and thighs! At least I don't like it! I don't care what other people think. It's not attractive to me, and I long for the days when I can wear whatever I want and feel good about myself.

I just don't want to gain more weight. I'm already spending all my free time trying to exercise and doing situps and pilates and swimming. But I just need to buckle down on my food choices. And I'm tempted to QUIT those stupid hormone shots, but I can't. They're supposedly "helping me." Well, they're helping give me big thighs! That's not what I want!

I know just a couple of weeks ago I seemed at peace with my weight, but after this morning, I'm not at peace. I'm mad. I'm mad that I still haven't lost any weight but have only GAINED more weight! I'm mad enough that I'm going to radically change my diet. I am going to eat as much "raw" food as possible...mostly fruits and vegetables. No more cereal. No more sugar. No more bad fat.

As for helping others, I'm going to do even more of that, because it helps me keep my mind off of food. Right now, I'm going through all my good clothes that don't fit me anymore and giving them to my sister, who had a baby but is still thin as a rail. i don't want to look at my skinny clothes. I've kept out a few things in case I ever get to 110...but I'm getting rid of the rest of them. And I'm donating a bunch of stuff to abused Vietnamese women who live in a shelter.

Also, I'm planning a baby shower for a friend tomorrow night, but I'm going to have to be very careful with the food I make...and not make something that will undo all my good efforts.

So...the bottom line is that I'm going to go at this diet thing with all I've got---and if i STILL can't lose weight, then I'll give up and wave the white flag. But first I'm going to do 3 solid weeks of dieting and see where it gets me. I'm going to keep a positive attitude and believe that I can do this! BTC is my inspiration! If she can do it, I can do it! I may have everything going against me right now, but I CAN control what I put in my mouth!

Here goes nothing! I'll update EVERY DAY, too. I need this site more than ever!

Umpqua on 06/13/2007:
I'm sorry you're frustrated and your ankle is bothering you, but I envy the fact that you can do a hardcore diet. I sometimes wish I could (I'm afraid my milk production would be affected) since I did that on and off to lose the bulk of my weight in the first place. I have made up my mind to cut out a lot of unnecessary carbs since those definitely get me in trouble. I'm glad you'll be updating more often too. I've kind of been avoiding this site but I know I need to come here regularly to stay accountable and support and be supported by others! Oh and btw, how are you finding time to exercise with your little boy around? You must have one of those that likes to nap sometimes ;)

sweetpea1977 on 06/13/2007:
Aww, Im so sorry to hear about your ankle. Are you taking any medications to help you with the pain? Before I got pregnant, I used to rely on Motrin IB whenever my ankle acted up (severely sprained it two years ago and it flames up every now and then). It seemed to make the pain and swelling disappear! Just be sure to listen to your ankle when you run. You dont want to risk further injury.

Anyway, your goals to remove white foods and unhealthy fats and concentrating on a raw diet sounds like an effective plan to me. The key is to have a backup plan just in case you have strong cravings for that junk food. Are there any satisfying healthy substitutes you can keep on hand?

Good luck Runner! I'll be cheering you on!!

Runner - Monday Jun 11, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

Man, I've been away for too long! Not sure if I can even remember the answers to all 3 questions for the past few days! On the plus side, I think I've kept my calories within range. On the negative side, I'm still not eating enough vegetables. I've been craving carbs, which just go straight to my hips!

Unfortunately, I'm having some ankle problems, so my exercise has been drastically cut back. I swam over the weekend, but the pool is closed today and tomorrow. There's no way I can run; I can only walk, and it's a slow walk! What a bummer! I HATE being injured! It's like I can just feel the weight creeping on...and I have to be even more diligent when I'm not getting a lot of exercise.

What to do? I'm tired of doing stomach crunches and lifting weights!

Donkey on 06/11/2007:
OK, don't hate me here for suggesting this. I got it off an exercising TV show. The point of cardio is to get your heart rate up, right? One thing you can do is march in place while sitting down. So you're sitting in a hard chair and then you do knee lifts up and down to a brisk pace.

Do you think you could do stationary bike riding? That might be something to invest in, if you can.

Other ideas are to do quad extensions while sitting on your hard chair (sit and lift a straightened leg to the level of your knee). You can also work on your inner/outer thighs on the floor (abductor/adductor leg lifts w/ a light ankle weight?)

Swimming is an excellent idea. Have you seen a doctor about your ankle?

Runner - Thursday Jun 07, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

1.Did I avoid sugar, fat, and any sort of bingeing behavior?

WED.- not too well

THURS.- yes, until about 9:30pm, when I had probably 600 calories of p.b. What was THAT all about? At least it's gone now. I'm not buying a new jar.

2. Did I stay under 1500 calories?

WED.- I think so

THURS.- No...there's no way.

3. Did I do something to help others?

Sent my mom a birthday card...um...that's about it. Does cleaning the house count? :) ha ha

Anyway, I need to do better on the food front. I'm slipping...and making some unwise choices. Today will be a better day!

MyJuneWedding on 06/08/2007:
I look forward to your journal entry each day. I have started on my first 'task' in my Martial Arts Class. Each promotional cycle from now until my Black Belt, I will be assigned a task book to complete and turn in to my Master by next promotion. My first task is 50 acts of kindness/compassion... I would definately include your Mom's b-day card (thanks for reminding me, I bought one for my Mom and need to send it to her!!) I had as my first task sending a card to my Gram just to say hello and let her know I was thinking about her!! To me, it is merely an extension from my Buddist reading, but I admit I enjoy reading about other people here embracing that philosophy of giving to others. Have a wonderful weekend! ~hugs~

sweetpea1977 on 06/08/2007:
Wow, you ARE a peanut butter fanatic! :o) I guess you ate it straight from the jar, huh? Thats the only way I could eat that much of it (verses 3 pb & j sandwiches). Part of me wonders if your body was craving protein or fat. Have you been eating enough lean proteins or healthy fats? Just curious!

Both your mom's b-day card and cleaning house are good deeds! A clean house helps keep a baby healthy (which helps your son a great deal). :o)

Donkey on 06/08/2007:
Hugs to you, Runner. I have done the peanut butter thing myself. I have eaten it like people eat ice cream (a big dish of peanut butter, we're talking like a cup's worth). I had problems with peanut butter especially when I was doing the South Beach Diet and trying to go vegetarian. I'm not sure why.

I think cleaning the house counts as doing something for others. A tidy house makes for a harmonious setting for your family. I find a lot of clutter or mess to be chaotic and stressful. You show that you are taking care of your family by cleaning the house.

Today will be a better day indeed. Try maybe drinking some ice water or making a cup of green tea before eating something you might regret. Contemplate your choice before you make your decision. Helpful?

halley on 06/08/2007:
My husband loves peanutbutter - I'm not a fan myself, but he will eat it straight from the jar - and love every bite.

Runner - Tuesday Jun 05, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

1.Did I avoid sugar, fat, and any sort of bingeing behavior?

Monday- YES, except for a small piece of dessert and a little p.b.

Tuesday- had a MARS bar in a moment of weakness. AAArgh!

2. Did I stay under 1500 calories?

Tried to. Hopefully!! But probably not.

3. Did I do something to help others?

Yes...I took treats to some high school students, called my parents, and am making a scrapbook for some friends who are moving back to America.

I have a friend right now who gave birth about 6 months ago and is so skinny she looks sick. She was incredibly thin throughout her pregnancy, and her baby was only 5 pounds because of it. She refuses to eat anything unhealthy...and somehow has managed to breastfeed her baby, although I don't know how she produces any milk! She was really particular about what she ate before she got pregnant, but is even worse now. I only see her eat fruits and vegetables. Of course, those are healthy foods, right? But she's obviously wasting away. I think it's sad. I don't know what to say to her, though...or even if I should say anything. She'll just tell me that she's trying to eat well for the baby. I understand that. But she's literally skin and bones! I'm worried about her.

Scruffy on 06/06/2007:
Scruff dropped by :)

Donkey on 06/06/2007:
Fruits and vegetables are healthy, but a body needs protein too. That's so sad about your friend. Please don't be jealous of her. That's not good.

Good for you for not bingeing!

sweetpea1977 on 06/07/2007:
Not too shabby on the foods! Keep it up!

What a delicate situation concerning your friend. If you dont say something, she may develop an eating disorder (though, to me it sounds like she alreadu has). However, if you do say something to her, you may piss her off. Are you friends with her significant other or other family member? If so, perhaps you should talk to them about it and see if they can help her see what she's doing to herself (and her baby!).

Runner - Monday Jun 04, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

Well, I made it through the weekend!

Here are my answers for my 3 questions:

1.Did I avoid sugar, fat, and any sort of bingeing behavior?


SATURDAY- I had the wedding banquet and ate foods I wouldn't normally eat, but did okay overall and didn't eat any cake!

SUNDAY- KIND-OF; could have done better

2. Did I stay under 1500 calories?


SAT.- I have no idea! Hopefully I didn't do too much damage, but it's really hard when I eat out

SUN.- I hope so. I ate at church, so it's always an estimate at best.

3. Did I do something to help others? Yes, I think I have done something every day. I visited a friend with cancer, made hundreds of cookies for my friend's wedding, and gave a gift to my friend for no reason at all.

I also e-mailed BTC because I miss her...and I'm not sure if that counts as "helping someone," but hopefully it will encourage her! This site is definitely not the same without her!

Today, I've been doing well so far. I've stuck with fruit and a little cereal and am trying to eat as low-fat as possible. I hope, hope, hope that my hard work will pay off!

MyJuneWedding on 06/04/2007:
I love reading your entries, they are so uplifting. Your acts of compassion remind me of a more spiritual time for me when that was a consistant goal, not just a daily one, but hourly...hundreds of cookies for your friends wedding, well Ihave this wedding i Jacksonville in 20 days.... :-) Just kidding. Great job for the weekend!

greengirl on 06/04/2007:
Well done on everything you have accomplished over the weekend. If you email BTC again tell her we all miss her a lot!!! This place is a lot duller now she's not here.

Runner - Thursday May 31, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

The last few days have been rough...I was taken to a vegetarian buffet yesterday and didn't do as well as I should have...and woke up this morning feeling so fat and a little depressed.

You know, I do exercise a lot, but I'm not losing weight because I just don't say "no" to bad foods. I used to be so disciplined, but now I don't weigh myself and I am just too careless.

So today is June 1, and I am really motivated to get back on track! It's a new month, and I would like to lose a solid 5 pounds before my 30th birthday. That gives me about 6 weeks, and I KNOW I can do this! I will NOT gain weight if I eat a low-calorie diet full of healthy foods.

I have just been way too lazy the last 2 years, resulting in a 15-lb. weight gain. Plus, I've spent too much time fiddling around in my kitchen, baking treats that I can't help but sample, and randomly opening my cupboard doors, looking for something to snack on.

If I'm going to be staying home more with my son (and I am), then I need even more discipline not to eat mindlessly. SO, I am going to try the BTC method of asking myself 3 questions every day in the hopes that I will answer these questions with a resounding YES at the end of each day. I am really motivated...and ready to do something GOOD for my body.

I am tempted to start on Monday, since I have a big wedding banquet tomorrow, but you know what? If I take a defeatist attitude toward the banquet and assume that I'm already going to blow it, then I WILL blow it. So I'm going to think positively and push myself NOT to overeat and NOT to walk away from the table stuffed! I'm going to start this diet TODAY and be successful TOMORROW at that banquet! I can do this! I want to do this...I want to cut out junk food and get back to the healthy diet I used to have.

So here are my 3 questions:

1. Did I avoid sugar, unhealthy fat, and binge-like behavior?

2. Did I stay under 1500 calories?

3. Did I do something for someone else?

My 3rd question is really important to me, because I don't want to be a selfish person who never reaches out to other people. If I spend all my time worried about my diet and my body, then I'm really wasting my time. Life is far too short...and I don't want to be known as a person who is only consumed with myself. I really enjoy helping people and encouraging them, and now that I have a son, I am even more determined to be a selfless mom. If I can stop wasting time creating tempting desserts in my kitchen and shift my energies to helping other people, I think I will be far more satisfied than the temporary "high" I get from eating junk food. I want to be consumed with being the best person I can be...a woman who loves God and loves others. I don't want to be consumed with my diet. So even though I'm hoping to lose 5 pounds, I want to do it in a way that is natural---eat less, eat healthier foods, cut out the junk. And in the process, I want to be the best mom, wife, and friend I can be to the people I come into contact with daily.

Lofty goals? Maybe. But I'm a pretty determined person when I put my mind to it.

maria777 on 05/31/2007:
I like your questions.

hollybelle on 06/01/2007:
Wonderful ideas! When I read this I picked up the phone and called a friend who is having a hard time right now. I had been procrastinating about calling and checking on her. Life IS too short!

Sweetpea1977 on 06/01/2007:
Hey Sweetie,

Thanks for the comment! Have you used the jog stroller yet? If so, does your little boy like it? Just curious!

Anyway, this is another fantastic entry. I especially love your three questions!! I hope answering them helps you achieve the results you want.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/01/2007:
i agree with sweetpea, great questions! congrats on all the exercise and finally getting back into that routine! a good idea might be to buy more healthy foods than usual and have them around at all times...so that its easy to make a good decision/choose something healthy. but, we are all allowed to indulge!

greengirl on 06/02/2007:
Good luck with your aims. I will be interested to see the answers to your questions. Its great that you want to help other people too. Take care :O)

Runner - Monday May 28, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

In about 48 hours, I've made about 12 dozen cookies. They've turned out great (thankfully), but I've made the mistake of trying a few...you know, the ones that don't look quite right or fall apart. Anyway, my husband has eaten more than I have, and I've kinda skipped dinner the last 2 nights because of the cookies. So I think I've kept my calories in check, but you know how it is...on my body, a calorie is NOT just a calorie. If I eat unhealthy calories, I still gain weight.

So I think I'm going to have to come up with another plan. I have some of those "whitening strips" for my teeth (that I never use), but if I put them on my teeth, then I can't eat for 30 minutes or so. Therefore, maybe I should whiten my teeth when I bake, and then I can't try any cookies! :)

This is my 4th Memorial Day in a foreign country. Three years ago, a very close friend of mine passed away on this weekend. Kinda puts things like my diet into perspective when I think about how she left behind 4 beautiful children and a husband. She was the picture of health; but brain aneurysms don't care if you're healthy or not. My stomach still gets all knotted up when I think about how suddenly she left this world.

Halley on 05/28/2007:
I totally belive in brushing you teeth to keep you from eating - so the whitening strips are just the next natural step!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/28/2007:
i agree with halley...good idea to whiten your teeth while you bake! haha

I hope you have a good Memorial Day spent with your family!

Umpqua on 05/28/2007:
I'm sorry you lost your friend, events like that really put everything into perspective and make you realize how important every minute really is. The whitening strips are a good idea! And you get the benefit of having sparkling teeth too. I hope all is well with you and your beautiful family :)

hollybelle on 05/30/2007:
I had fogotten that my friend uses tooth brushing to keep her from eating after dinner in the envening. Great idea with the whiteningstrips - not going back then, huh? I'm sure your friend would be gratified to know that you remember her with such awesome thoughts on the anniversary of her passing. It is a very sobering fact that we are not promised the next five minutes, let alone X number of years for our lifetimes. I vowed to live each day to the fullest" after the sudden death of a friend, and for a long time I thought that meant having a great day, everyday, but that's just not how it works. So I try to do the best that I can each day. Somedays that's better than others! LOL!

sweetpea1977 on 05/31/2007:
Thanks for sharing your story on your friend's passing. Im sure she's happy knowing that you still think of her with so much love and respect.

I reflect on mom's passing a lot and it always keeps things in perspective for me. Sometimes I get sad, especially when I realize that she wont be around for her first grandchild, but I know that deep down that she is with me in spirit.

Anyway, I LOVE the whitening strips idea. I think that would work well for you, especially if you started noticing the results on your teeth! :o)

Runner - Thursday May 24, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

My husband was away for 4 days this week, so I was doing the "single mom" thing...with a big of help from some friends. Let me just say, I don't know how single moms do it! Especially if they work! It's been a super-busy week, but it's almost the weekend, and hubby comes home tonight.

Food choices have been pretty good overall...one big hurdle I need to jump is that I have to make about 400 cookies in the next week for a wedding reception. It's a long story...but I got asked to make homemade cookies for a little reception that will take place before the big banquet at night. Anyway, I started making the cookies, but it takes a ton of discipline for me not to do a lot of taste testing along the way!!!

smiley2 on 05/25/2007:
Ask your DH to do some taste testing for you!! ;)

sweetpea1977 on 05/25/2007:
Yea, I dont know how single moms do it either! At least you had your friends around for support.

I totally agree with smiley, let your husband do the taste testing on those wedding cookies. That would be a fun way to spend some quality time with him after being away for so long. :o)

hollybelle on 05/25/2007:
At Christmas when I make cookies to give to neighbors, I eat a couple and tell myself that if I eat anymore I won't "have enough" to give away and then I box them up and put them in the basement where it is a real effort to go get them to eat anymore - having husband test them is good idea, too! Good luck. Sounds like some fun making cookies for a wedding, except for the temptations. Who knows - You may be the next "Mrs. Fields"!

Umpqua on 05/25/2007:
Have you ever thought about getting into catering? I'm sure you have lots of free time for that now LOL! But seriously, I'm always looking for ways to bring in money that enable me to stay home with the baby, and it sounds like you already have an impressive portfolio of cakes and cookies built up. Of course your hubby would have to be your official taste tester!

I think you're taking a very healthy approach to eating and exercise these days. I really believe we have to make some concessions in life to be truly happy, and when our priorities shift that sometimes reveals to us what is most important. At least that's the way I feel! Oh and sometimes the "largeness" of breastfeeding gets to me ;) But I'm happy to be able to do it. And I'm lucky that Jake has taken formula too from almost the beginning so hubby can help out every once in a while. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

greengirl on 05/25/2007:
I wish I had your willpower. I would never be able to resist tasting the cookies. Hope it all goes well for you. Have a great week :o)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 05/26/2007:
I bet its difficult doing it all without your husband! I can't even imagine now for myself to raise a family...work, school, and other activities take up far too much of my time!

Runner - Sunday May 20, 2007
(Under 1300 calories)
Weight: 118.5

It has been truly wonderful to have my parents here, even though I'm sure I've eaten hundreds more calories than I normally would have. (due to a lot of meals out)

But you know what? Sometimes I just don't care! I am maintaining my weight (I think), and just trying to make smart choices every day. I heard a story about a former model who said, "I can kill myself and wear a size 4 or I can be free to ENJOY LIFE and be a size 8." She went on to say that she felt FREEDOM as a size 8. And that's how I've been feeling lately...like I'm FREE from some of the things that used to control me regarding my weight.

I've gone from a size 1 to a size 4 (sometimes 6) in the last 2 years, and even though I have my moments when I really want to be a size 1 again, I can put things in better perspective now. It's not mentally healthy for me to be too thin...I just want to be thinner and thinner and I get obsessed about everything.

I don't have it all together, that's for sure. I still exercise too much, and I have trouble when I make desserts. Sometimes I really want to overeat when no one is looking. So I definitely have my own struggles. But I think I've just learned that there are so many more important things in life than my weight...and I can learn to love myself at 120 pounds, which is probably what I weigh right now. I don't know for sure because I haven't weighed myself since March.

It's going to continue to be an uphill struggle for me. I'm still taking 3 hormone shots a week to get my body back to normal, and that's not fun. The shots have contributed to the weight gain; I'm positive about that. But if I ever want to have biological children (and I do), this is what I need to do. I also want to get my body back to normal.

I'm not sure why I'm writing all this...except that it helps to write everything down sometimes. I hope I can comment on some of your entries later, but right now I need to go spend some time with my beautiful son! :)

smiley2 on 05/20/2007:
Hi there Runner, i think its great that you became so enlightened about the whole weight loss process. You are even inspiring me by your words! Its so true, there are so many things more important than weight loss. That model you referred to is Tyra Banks right? I love her show! Hope you are having a good week. Wx

borntocry on 05/21/2007:
Hi Runner! Your words were very inspiring to me too, especially your continuing struggle to conquer your fertility problems, as I am probably going to find myself in the same situation soon. I'm also intrigued by your plan to raise a family of both adopted and biological children - that's an interesting idea! Maybe I will do the same!

I know what you mean about the trade-off when it comes to losing weight. At some point, the reward just isn't worth the price we pay. Especially since, after all, we're NOT professional models or athletes so there's really no reason for us to dedicate every waking moment of our lives to our physical appearance. And you're right, it's a neverending struggle - there are always people thinner than us, milestones which we still haven't reached... that's why I've also decided to try to just maintain my weight for now (in the future if I stop running or start trying desperately to conceive, I suppose it may not be possible). I'm probably about the same size you are, being a bit shorter than you, but in my case, this is the best I've ever looked, so it's easier for me to be happy with it!

GG on 05/21/2007:
I agree, journaling helps so much when you have things on your mind and feel as if you do not have anyone around who will understand your problems, coming online and writing them down is a perfect way to vent! I have a written journal but these days, typing on line is so much easier (with less hand cramps! haha) Good luck with your "struggle". Seriously though, it is not realistic to be a size zero unless you are a really small build. Did you tell me a while back you were five two or taller? Good luck with trying to get pregnant too!!

halley on 05/22/2007:
You are right that we have to enjoy our lives and eating is a big part of that, there is no reason to focus on a specific weight - it's how healthy you are that counts. I think people get in trouble when they would rather eat something - anything, than be healthy. I know when I was journaling several years ago, I got to the point where I was so sick of thinking about it that I just quit. I had lost 80 pounds, and run a marathon, I thought I was ready to just go it alone, but I'm back 3 years later after having regained 15 pounds. I'm still a size 6, but I was a 4, and when I was smaller I ran better. It's hard to carry the extra 15 pounds everytime I run!

sweetpea1977 on 05/23/2007:
Wow, you rock Runner! Thanks for the inspiration. I love it!! :o)

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