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Runner - Sunday Apr 17, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 112.0

I'm still at 112, thankfully. I feel like I snacked all day yesterday, but I doubt I went over 1800 calories as I didn't really eat any big meals (except for breakfast, my favorite meal of the day!) But I did eat about 5 pieces of candy. They were these melt-in-your-mouth toffees...so much for my comment a few days ago about how I haven't been eating candy lately! I made up for it yesterday.

But I'm ready to get back on track today. Weekends are hard...so I prefer the structure of the work-week.

My challenge today: my small group is meeting tonight and I always serve snacks. Usually, it's something I sorta like but won't overeat...but tonight it's a no-bake cheesecake and some cookies that someone gave me that I love. Hopefully my guests eat all of the cookies and cheesecake so that I don't have leftovers. With three American guys coming, I'm sure they'll get rid of most of it!

Jennifer68 on 04/18/2005:
Seems a lot of us are getting back on track today! YAY US!! I like the structure of the weekdays, too. Seems easier by far. Guys are great food disposals. Eh? Lol Jen

Runner - Saturday Apr 16, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 112.0

Today was one of those days that I wish I could do over. I would have made much smarter decisions!

I only ate a little bit of lunch as I was anticipating light refreshments at the wedding. Well, I was quite hungry when it was finally time to eat, but quite disappointed that the majority of the food was unhealthy AND unappealing! I'm not big on mini sandwiches and dry cream puffs. So I ate a piece of chocolate and held off for cake...which turned out to be a big disappointment! It was so Chinese...whipped cream for frosting and dry cake. ugh! I had about 3 bites of it and I was done. So I ate the protein bar that I'd brought along "just in case" and ate an apple on the way home.

But I was still hungry. So I made some chocolate chip cookies for a "going away" party I'm going to tomorrow, and helped myself to one of them and some of the dough. A good 500 calories there, I'm sure.

Then it was dinner time, and I managed to keep it light, because I knew that my husband and I were going out for "bings" later on. A bing is shaved ice with all kinds of toppings, but once again, I was very disappointed in it. I ate most of it, but I didn't enjoy any of it. I shouldn't have eaten it, but I paid for it and I was hungry again. (Why am I so hungry today???) So I complained about how dull it was and started salivating over the thoughts of a hot fudge sundae.

Oh...if I were in America, I would have gone to the grocery store and picked up some Edy's fat free ice cream and some fat free fudge sauce and enjoyed a treat. But I'm not in America any more, so I came home and had some crackers and pudding with a bit of peanut butter in it. (I guess the peanut butter hasn't worked its way out of my system yet!)

And I'm still feeling hungry. It's GOT to be in my head, though. Because I've snacked like crazy since this afternoon. What is up with that? The 1/2 pound I "lost" will probably turn into a 1 pound "gain" tomorrow morning!

I've got to just go to bed!

borntocry on 04/16/2005:
Hi Runner,

Sorry to hear about that horrible wedding cake. Isn't wedding cake normally pretty horrible, though? I haven't been to many weddings, but it always looks so dry and gross. I guess you normally like the icing, though. Luckily I hate the icing - one of those few unhealthy things which I don't like, haha!

I also find that when I allow myself a rare treat and it doesn't quite live up to my expectations, I end up feeling hungry for the rest of the day and eating more than I should. It's almost as if my body was expecting a treat and won't be satisfied until I make up for the disappointment somehow!

Well, I really just wanted to share some good news with you - I weighed in at 115.2 lb!! I rounded it down to 115 in my entry, though. I know what you're thinking - that because I weighed myself in the middle of the day my actual weight is probably five pounds lower! But I'm sure my weight doesn't fluctuate as much as yours. You probably "gain" five pounds over the course of a day because of all the water you drink. Whereas I drink hardly any water (it's really bad, I know - it's my guilty secret).

Anyway, getting to 115 lb. is already beyond my wildest dreams so I'm completely over the moon! And I owe it all to you!! Thanks for all the support and encouragement you've given me over the past eleven months! I couldn't have done it without you!

geevee on 04/16/2005:
There are few things worse than Chinese cake. How were you able to get three tastes down? It sounds like you were having one of my "hungry" eating days like I had two days ago. Sometimes they occur right before I'm going to drop a little weight, but it didn't happen this time.

You are really prepared with your fruit and protein bar. That's the best way, for sure.

AussieGirl on 04/16/2005:
Hiya hun..

To answer your question to me.. Vegemite is a vegetable spread.. salty and brown.. doesn't look too nice but tastes gorgeous on hot toast! I think you have something like it in America.. Marmite?? But you have to be brought up with the stuff to like it.. it is definitely an acquired taste!!

Now hopefully I can answer your "hungry" question *smiles.. I think you are purely and simply HUNGRY!! Eat people EAT!!! The worst thing to do is be hungry... your body is telling you something.. it is asking for you to put some more fuel in it.. to keep going.. to keep your furness "metabolism" going!!!! So I recommend eating!!

It sounds like it is hard for you to find those low GI foods over there.. but there has to be something? Do they have oatmeal there? That is a perfect filler uperer (is there such a word?).. it clings to your stomach and is slowly released. Personally I hate it.. so I have shredded wheat or weetbix or some yogurt with some fruit!

I have been reading an interesting book called Syndrome X. It is about how we use insulin in our bodies.. very interesting.. I guess it is along the lines of SugarBusters. Anyhoooo... it says that these white carbs only give you an immediate "lift" anyway and are really easily stored as fat. The lady who wrote the book recommends that we eat some sort of low fat protein at any time we feel hungry. She also says there is a myth in regards to eggs. Boiled or poached eggs on wholegrain breads are a perfect snack. I tried it yesterday and yep.. kept me going until dinner time! Finally no jelly snake cravings *smiles*

Hope this might help Kim xxx

Runner - Friday Apr 15, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 112.5

I have been the same weight for four days in a row, which is unusual for me! I hope I see a slight drop tomorrow, as Saturdays are often my lowest weight of the week. If I can stay away from the candy and peanut butter, I'm fine. Actually, I've hardly eaten candy lately. It just doesn't tempt me as much as it used to. I even have open bags of candy in my cupboards that I haven't touched in weeks. Amazing! Of course, the peanut butter is a different story, but I think that's out of my system now. I go through phases...

Tomorrow I have a wedding to go to, so if I can stick to one piece of cake, I'll consider that success. If it's a Chinese cake, I can probably eat 1/2 a piece and that will be enough! Thankfully, finding American-style cakes here is very rare! So maybe it won't be much of a problem for me. When I attend weddings in the U.S., I always end up eating more than one piece of cake...and eating the frosting off my husband's cake! Poor guy. He never gets to eat the frosting!

Okay, enough talk about food. I'm not going to let food control me. Time to focus on more important things.

chickie_maui on 04/15/2005:
Hi, Thanks for your comments on my journal. So you weigh 112 pounds, how tall are you? Maybe I should aim to lose more weight.

Jennifer68 on 04/15/2005:
MMMmmm wedding cake frosting! Lol. I'll take mine with a side of peanutbutter, too. he he he You're doig great. I'll bet you'll see a drop on the scale come Saturday! Jen

borntocry on 04/15/2005:
Hi Runner,

I'm glad to see that the peanut butter phase is over. Only now you've put it in <i>my</i> head! I think I may just have to buy a jar of it this weekend. Hopefully I can restrict myself to peanut butter sandwiches at lunch, though!

It's strange, but I also find that I'm not really tempted by candy any more. Could it be that it's just so devoid of nutritional value that we simply can't justify eating it and so don't even feel like having it?

Well, good luck at the wedding tomorrow! And I hope you do see a drop in your weight on Saturday. I'm going to weigh myself this Saturday too, and I am so hoping for a loss!

Umpqua on 04/15/2005:
Good for you - I can't remember when I've been the same weight 4 days in a row! I've just accepted these fluctuations as I fact of life. And I feel like I need to get on the scale every day so I can see what the pattern is. When I haven't gotten on the scale regularly my weight always seems to creep up. I hope you have a great time at the wedding!

Soon2BThin on 04/15/2005:
Ah, that peanut butter thing! I love peanut butter too. Sometimes, when I'm not even thinking about it, I can smell peanut butter and I want to have some. What's up with that?! Insane, right? I hope it's out of your system now. I managed to resist it today. Have fun at the wedding!

Runner - Wednesday Apr 13, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 112.5

Thanks for the comments, friends! When I saw that someone read my Bio, I decided I should probably update it, as it's over 2 years old!!! It's funny, because 115 was my goal weight back then...so I guess I have made progress!

My new goal is 110. I would just love to see 110, even if I don't stay there for very long.

Last night, I was 117 even though I had a small (non-salty) dinner. I was very bloated for some odd reason. It's amazing how my weight fluctuates during the day!!!

I tried a little bit of the peanut butter from the freezer and was shocked that it didn't freeze completely. In fact, it tasted even better half-frozen! It was like candy. But I kept it under control and shoved the container back in the freezer before I lost it. I should just throw the rest of it out, but I'm having a hard time with this one! Sometimes I do that, but I always feel wasteful.

I managed to bake brownies last night for a party and only had a tiny piece. That's an accomplishment! One of you said the way you keep yourself from bingeing on baked goodies is to keep telling yourself, "this is for someone else." That helps me!

It also keeps me from cutting the brownies early (so I can try one or two or three...)

If I keep them in the pan, it looks bad if a big chunk is missing! So I've even started buying those "throw-away" pans so I don't have to feel bad if I leave the pan at the party.

geevee on 04/14/2005:
Hi Runner!

I surre am appreciative of all the time you took to write down the interesting recipe for me. I most assuredly am going to try it! It has ingredients in a soup you'd find at a very expensive restaurant, not the regular run of the mill stuff. I've seen fennel but have never tried it. I've come across a few recipes using it so I'll spend the $3 or $4 dollars to buy one. I might substitute portobellas for the ****ake. They're a bit high. I have plenty of asparagus and wil stock up on it because it's only 88� this week. I believe I've seen dandelion greens either at Wild Oats or the "rich ladies store" where I'm going tomorrow for my weekly loaf of the best bread in Miami and gorgeous leeks. I'll pick up some parsley and go to town! I'll have to try it out on Sat. because the kiddies are coming over tomorrow to help me make your curried carrot soup. My hope is that I'll have them savoring vegetables the way I do and then get to the point where they ask if we can make a soup. Wouldn't that be great?

You're doing so well on the weight front. You have it down to a science. EVery little technique helps.

I'm really looking forward to this new soup. Yum yum!

Runner - Wednesday Apr 13, 2005
(Under 1600 calories)
Weight: 112.5

I am more like 112.75 right now, as I saw 113 once this morning and 112.5 once. (My scale can't make up its mind!) So the elusive 111 has disappeared for now, I'm afraid!

Of course, I probably deserve it, as I've eaten a good 800-1000 calories of peanut butter in the last 3 days. It was so dumb of me to buy this certain brand...every time I buy it, I can't quit eating it! So last night I put the last remaining spoonfuls in a tupperware in the back of the freezer. Hopefully that will help me keep my paws off it!

I had 12 people over for dinner today---made them a nice, healthy meal that also included the "extras" I'm never tempted to eat---like potato chips. They ate and ate...and I stuck to smaller portions and avoided the stuff I knew I should avoid. Sometimes I get tired of always avoiding the fattening stuff, but I know what I used to weigh when I never avoided it, and I prefer to stay at 112.5 for as long as I can!

I think 1800 calories is too much for me right now, as I'm not losing any weight even though I am running 50 minutes every day and walking at least for an hour. So I'll try to stay under 1600 cals. Maybe that will help me at least get to 112.

Jennifer68 on 04/13/2005:
Wow! Talk about ambition and motivation! I just saw your bio, how much you have lost and did you know YOU are an inspiration??! WTG! Jen

cynthia on 04/13/2005:
Hey Runner ... you keep planning and acting out on your plans girl ... it will pay off .. literally!!! Your dedication is to be highly commended! Cheers, cynthia

Umpqua on 04/13/2005:
I love how you can make a large meal for company and avoid the unhealthy options for yourself. I have trouble with that! My husband and I used to do a lot of entertaining at our old house - cookouts and large dinner parties for friends and family. That's what got us into trouble with our weight in the first place! We've had a running excuse to not entertain as much here with our kitchen renovations, but that won't hold up for much longer...I hope when we do start having company again I can be as disciplined as you.

geevee on 04/13/2005:
Hi Runner,

You watch the scale the way I do. I can't imagine weighing only once a week or even less! How do people do it?

I've had a jar of Smucker's peanut butter in the pantry for ages. The only reason I haven't opened and devoured it is because of that half inch of oil that has separated and now needs to be mixed which is something I hate to do. I always make a mess of it and it never seems to be mixed very well, but that doesn't stop me.

The last time I bought potato chips was for Christmas Eve dinner when I took full advantage of the opportunity! I cannot restrain myself the way you do. I won't buy them again until next December.

I've been having around 1400-1500 cal a day which involves being VERY careful as you know. At this rate I can lose a pound every week or so.

Runner - Monday Apr 11, 2005
(Everything in moderation---under 1800 calories)
Weight: 112.5

Well, I gained back the 1.5 pounds I magically lost yesterday! Ah, it was nice while it lasted. Unfortunately, I ate at least 500 calories of "extra" food I didn't need or plan on eating. I think my euphoria at seeing "111" caused me to celebrate with extra snacks. Go figure! I usually stay more disciplined when I'm at my average weight. As soon as I drop a bit, I overcompensate with extra goodies.

Anyway, today is a new day! I can make smart choices and eat what is good for my body. My body needs fuel, so why would I want to give it anything but the best fuel? Why would I want to feed it white refined flour or white sugar or unhealthy fats? None of those foods have any real nutritional value. It's funny how I'll take care of the outside of my body but often neglect the inside of my body. Of course, I still eat very healthily, but there's always room for improvement! I'm just feeling the need for an extra dose of discipline today.

anappleaday on 04/12/2005:
Hello! I notices you've commented twice on my diary, so I thought I'd answer your questions. The day I came to college I weighed 105. After the first month I was about 101-102. Must have been stress and lack of access to food... which is definitely not the case anymore. My goal weight would be just to get back to 105, or at least as close as I can doing it in a way thats actually good for me (exercise, eating right). No, I have never tried the Kashi cereal you were talking about, but I've seen in it my grocery store. I think next time I go I'll pick up a box and see what it's all about! Thanks for the suggestion! Good luck with reaching 111 again! I can't wait until I see 111!

Runner - Sunday Apr 10, 2005

Weight: 111.0

Surprisingly, I was 111 this morning. I wasn't bloated at all (for once!), so maybe that gave me the 1.5 pound "loss" (more like fluctuation!) Anyway, I was glad to see the scale fluctuating in that direction, as opposed to the other direction!

My Japanese buffet dinner on Saturday went better than I'd hoped for. On the bad side, the food wasn't as good as I thought it would be, but that kept me from overeating! Plus, we only had an hour to eat, so I had to stop even though I probably could have kept going.

SO I made it through that! And yesterday was a very busy day, so I didn't have much time to think about food...I ate when I was hungry and didn't overdo it. (Although I did have some peanut butter...I haven't had it in awhile and I was craving it really badly...I just ate it out of the jar with a spoon! Gross, I know.)

Anyway, this week has its own challenges, as every week does! I have some baking to do, company coming over, a dinner out, etc. But I take it ONE DAY AT A TIME. Discipline WILL pay off...it WILL.

geevee on 04/10/2005:
Whatever do you mean when you say gross? I probably ate spoonfuls ( PLURAL) everyday of my childhood! I also did that with cream cheese!No, no. Don't feel guilty about that unique American pleasure.

Jennifer68 on 04/11/2005:
Peanut butter on a spoon??! That's one of the best treats I can think of! Jen

Umpqua on 04/11/2005:
Wow, 111! I can't even imagine it ;) Good for you, and I'm beginning to see the importance of keeping your goal weight as the "high end" of the fluctuation. I'd love to NEVER see the scale go over 115 - that is what I'm going to aim for. And you're giving me inspiration!

Runner - Thursday Apr 07, 2005

Weight: 112.5

Holding steady to 112.5, although I briefly saw the number 114 on the scale this morning before my run. I stepped on it three times, and it had three different weights. Go figure...dumb scale! But after my run, I was 112.5, so I was glad to see that number!

Yesterday was a good day, eating-wise. It's nice to have those days. I still had a good 1800 calories, but I walked all over the place...I walked to work, walked for 1/2 hour during lunch, walked home, walked to the gym...I've learned that the extra walking allows me to "cheat" a bit in my diet...so I can eat the things I enjoy in moderation. Plus, I just like being outside! Even if I stick out like a sore thumb here, it's still nice to be out and about.

The weekend is ahead of me, though, and I'll need to be careful. Tomorrow night my hubby and I are going out for a special meal to a Japanese buffet...all you can eat sushi! Yummy! Even though sushi is healthy, those buffets always have other tempting dishes, and I tend to eat until I'm STUFFED. (Gotta get my money's worth, right?) So my goal is to eat slowly and to eat the foods I really enjoy. And I need to remember that getting seconds doesn't make me happier. If I enjoy something once, then why do I need to enjoy it a second time or a third time? Why do I trick myself into believing that I won't be happy unless I enjoy more than one? No, I need to learn how to have ONE piece of something...and to savor it! (This pep talk is more for desserts...I want to learn how to have ONE cookie and be satisfied). So if there are things I really like at the buffet tomorrow, I want to enjoy them...but definitely in moderation!!!

borntocry on 04/08/2005:
Hi Runner,

Thanks for your comment. I also never used to count calories in fruits or vegetables. I always considered those "free" foods, because as you said, the nutritional value makes them worth it and also one isn't very likely to binge on them!

But now I've become a little stricter with my diet. If I want to lose weight, I have to make sure my calorie intake stays under 1800 and to do that I have to keep track of every single thing I eat. Of course, I try not to deny myself fruits and vegetables just to keep my calorie count down, because I don't want to sacrifice my health to lose weight.

I guess carrots don't really have that many calories (50 for a small carrot, 75 for a medium-sized one) but like you I have a tendency to think that anything that's good for you just shouldn't have any calories at all!

Well, good luck with the buffet. Stay focused and I'm sure you'll be fine!

sweetpea1977 on 04/08/2005:
Thanks for the comments and for taking the time to read my long entry. I've been harboring those thoughts and feelings for years now, so it feels good to finally have it out in the open.

Enjoy the Japanese buffet (in moderation, of course!!) Sounds yummy!! :o)

Have a good weekend! :o)

geevee on 04/09/2005:
Giving you the recipe for broccoli soup slipped my mind. Sorry. It's nothing special, just the basic veg. broth of 3-4C water w/carrots, celery and onions. Add the cut up broccoli, some spices of choice. That's it. Sometimes I put the broth in the blender first before adding the broccoli so that then I'll have the broccoli texture which is very inviting, though it's just as good when you blend the whole mixture. I always top the bowl with either a dollop of NF sour cream or NF yogurt. I just LOVE all vegetables!

Check out BTC's recipe site: epicurious to look for cauliflower soup. Everything is there and the reviews are very helpful. I'm using a recipe from there today for my moussaka. There are a lot of variations for broccoli soup too. What I do depends on what ingredients I have available. Like I couldn't find ground lamb so settled for ground lean pork for the moussaka which also would have been delicious as a vegetarian meal but I was in a "meat" mode.

Runner - Tuesday Apr 05, 2005

Weight: 112.5

I was 113.5 before my run and 112.5 after my run. Even though I know that the pound lost was water, I'm choosing to record the 112.5 as I like that number better! :)

I made it through the party yesterday by concentrating on salad with grilled chicken and fruit. I did have some apple and mango pie, but didn't overdo it. I actually ate worse after my guests left! Go figure. It wasn't a bad day overall, but I didn't make any more progress toward a calorie deficit, that's for sure!!!

I've been thinking lately about how upset I would be if someone I know personally was reading my daily entries. Someone like a family member or a best friend. Just like Geevee, I share things in this diary that I would never share with my family. Weight loss and maintenance is a personal thing, and I don't feel as comfortable talking about it with close friends. It seems like people close to me have their own opinions about my weight...usually they think I need to GAIN weight. So if they were reading my diary, they would think I need to see a psychologist or something...and would probably not understand why I feel compelled to share my struggles with people I don't even know.

Plus, some of my "best" friends are the ones who always act "concerned" if I lose 5 pounds. (Are you okay? Are you eating enough? Blah, blah, blah). I don't have an eating disorder, I don't starve myself, and I never have.

I DO exercise a lot, I AM conscientious about what I eat, and I DO hope to maintain my current weight for as long as I can.

But I just don't always feel like explaining that to my friends who are too lazy to get out there and exercise themselves. Losing weight is not a mystery...I know exactly what it takes to drop the pounds. But my obsession with it causes people to view my eating habits with suspicion.

I don't really know where I'm going with these thoughts, except to say that I've been quite honest and blunt with my diary entries in the last two years, and I would just feel quite embarrassed if someone close to me read through all of them.

Most people just assume that I have a fast metabolism or that I never eat...little do they know the daily discipline I have to maintain if I want to stay thin. And most people have NO IDEA that I have lost 50 pounds. It happened 7 years ago, so my friends now have only known me as a thin person.

I love the support here, and I consider you all my friends. Even though we'll probably never meet face to face, most of you know far more about my inner struggles than the people I come into contact with on a daily basis.

tabbylove74 on 04/06/2005:
I agree totally with you on this entry. My best friend knows i'm on a site with women who give support to each other, and she asked me what the web address was. I never gave it to her because i'd hate her to read what i wrote. She'd only go and tell everyone else..probably including my partner. I like to have this site for myself....it's almost like having an affair! lol

Umpqua on 04/06/2005:
I totally know what you mean. I do have one real life friend who posts here sporadically, but she has been with me through my weight loss journey and she's struggling herself, so we offer each other support. But there are others in my life who have almost tried to discourage me from losing - who predicted I wouldn't keep the weight off when I started this (3 1/2 years ago and 56 pounds heavier - crossing over into obesity territory!) Weight is such a personal thing, and those who don't really want to lose sure don't want to hear about your success and advice on healthy living. All we can do is support and understand each other - it doesn't matter what others think about us!

geevee on 04/06/2005:
Hi Runner,

I know exactly what you mean about recording the lower weight even though it was a water loss. I give myself til noon before registering my lowest weight.

Thanks for reminding me about how "hungry" days coincide with a weight loss. If I don't give in then I can expect a loss but that usually doesn't happen, like the chocolate chip binge the night before. I haven't weighed yet today and since I'm already working on a bottle of water probably won't until noon.

I'd like to read Fat Girl but I don't think I'll get around to it. When one reviewer likes a book, the Times has several others review it too, like it did with "French Women Don't Get Fat." There must have been four reviews so I usuallyget by with just reading the reviews.

Now that I have this "annoyance" as the opthamologist put it, I'm lucky to be able to get through the paper.There is so much adjustment to make and it's so tedious and tiresome to read, I doubt I'll read a book, period.

"Running For My Life" was some article!I thought of you and BTC while I was reading it. What a spirit she has!

Runner - Sunday Apr 03, 2005

Weight: 113.0

Yesterday I was 112. Today I am 113. It's only a pound, but I still think it's not fair, as I had a very good eating day yesterday. Ah, well. That's life! Fluctuations happen.

I'm having company over tomorrow, so I'm planning a meal where I can eat some healthy things and avoid the foods I don't like anyway. I used to serve all kinds of healthy low-fat foods when I'd have company over and I always made some sort of delicious dessert. But then I would overeat on all those "low-fat" foods, consuming far more calories than I needed! So I've learned my lesson. I now make 2-3 dishes that I can eat (usually salads or fruits or veggies) and a big casserole that everyone else will love but I am not even tempted to enjoy. Everyone will be watching the NCAA game on TV anyway, so no one will even notice what I eat.

It sounds easy, but even with a plan I often "goof up." In the heat of the moment, I may start popping M&M's into my mouth even though I don't really like M&M's. Why? Who knows? I know that BTC can relate, though, as she wrote about how she ate marzipan and doesn't even LIKE marzipan! I need to THINK before I eat things...and to think to myself, "Do I really WANT this?" If I think about it, I usually can reason with myself that I DON'T want it! Honestly, I do crave healthy food...but there's a part of me that just wants to eat unhealthy food, even if I don't like it!

borntocry on 04/04/2005:
Hi Runner,

Thanks for your comment. It was hilarious! I would love to read that article. How do people in Taiwan know to address you in English when they see you running? Do they just assume that you must be American because you're running? That's so funny!

I also have to dodge things like dogs, bicycles, and scooters - and that's just on the SIDEWALK! Paris is also a very heavily populated city, with lots of tourists too! I am actually tempted to start trying to get up early in the morning to go running, like you, but I'm afraid that might turn running into too much of an unpleasant experience for me. Also it would be pretty disruptive for my husband! But I've heard that my boss runs in one of the large parks on the outskirts of the city, so I might try that next time.

Well, good luck with the NCAA dinner! My husband is actually taking a day off tomorrow to watch the game!

geevee on 04/04/2005:
I'm so glad you were able to read that article on the web. To me it was like reading one of your entries. I can't imagine how devastating it must have been for her to find out why she had felt so sluggish! And what determination,walking her course in a hospital corridor. It brought me back to the dark days when my mother was in the hospital for months. She really has a "Runner" mentality!

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