- Saturday Mar 19, 2005
I have had a stomachache all day...it has pretty much taken away my normal appetite, yet I haven't let that keep me from indulging in two brownies and a big bowl of ice cream tonight. That was basically my dinner. Ugh! The only time I wasn't thinking about my stomach was when I was inhaling the goodies.
I think I have a bit of food poisoning, which wouldn't surprise me at all. The water here is quite a bit dirtier than the water in the U.S., and even though I wash all my fruits and veggies with soap, I'm sure I still can't get things as clean as they should be.
Anyway...we'll see if I'm still at 111.5 tomorrow! You'd think not having an appetite would keep me from eating. Yeah, I wish!
- Friday Mar 18, 2005
Well, for once my weight fluctuated in the way I always hope it will! I've been eating well lately and staying away from those "trigger foods." But I received some Easter candy in the mail yesterday, so that will have to be doled out in moderation! And I'll probably have "tastes" of some of it and then give the rest to my husband. Once he eats it, then it's gone, right? I can't buy that kind of candy here, so if it gets eaten, then it's gone forever!!!
I have been taking more progesterone pills, so sometimes that makes my weight drop. My estrogen levels are very low, so the doctors are still trying to figure me out.
This weekend will have the usual challenges---probably a meal out, more access to snacks, my tendency to have extra treats, etc. But I'm determined to hold to 112, and now I have a bit of wiggle room.
- Tuesday Mar 15, 2005
Back to 112.5! I hope I can stay there for awhile! Thanks to all those who encouraged me with your comments in yesterday's entry! While reading through other entries, I realized how important it is that we all continue to encourage each other. I often think of specific Diet Diary friends if I have a "dieter's dilemma," and sometimes that helps me make the right decision!
Speaking of Diet Diary friends, where is Becca27? Becca...I'm not going to give up on you! Even if you don't want to post daily entries, know that I'm thinking of you!! I hope things are going well for you.
Yesterday was a better day, although I did have some peanut butter. It's so strange...I go in phases with peanut butter. Sometimes I'll go weeks without having it, and then I'll find myself wanting to eat it straight out of the jar with a spoon! I'm the same way with peanuts.
You know, I went several years without eating peanuts, but now that I've allowed them back into my diet, I have a hard time eating them in moderation! It's like I want to make up for those years I never ate them!
Here's to a good day! I have a meal out tomorrow night, so constant vigilence is necessary!
- Monday Mar 14, 2005
Well, I stepped on the scale 3 times this morning and got 2 different readings---113 and 112.5. So I'm estimating that I'm around 112.75. Usually I don't worry about estimating to the hundredth digit, but I feel like I should take whatever I can get at the moment!
As for my goals yesterday, I stayed away from the peanut butter (although I was tempted), kept my meals to 400 calories or less, but didn't make it on the "snack" calories. Some peanuts and cake set me off twice during the day...so 600-800 calories later, I realized that the nuts and cake didn't really fill me up, even though they were highly caloric. It's funny how junk food really doesn't fill me up. Only the healthy stuff does. And yet I continue to eat the junk. Why, why, why?
I have to work out for 2 hours a day to maintain this weight, and it's just getting to be too much work! I need to learn to curb my sweet tooth. I am not snacking because I'm hungry. I eat healthy, filling meals...I know how to do the "volumetrics" thing, and I am very conscious about eating enough calories so I'm not starving in 2 hours. But I snack because I LIKE to snack. And I LIKE to eat sweets. It's very hard to just STOP completely, but I've got to learn how to listen to my stomach. If I'm not hungry, I shouldn't eat. Bottom line.
Anyway, today is a new day, and I'm off to a good start. I have to do some baking tonight for a party, though, so I'll be asking my hubby to stay close to the kitchen. I need to be monitored, although it makes me feel like a child! But I know from experience how dangerous it can be if I'm baking any sort of "trigger foods."
- Sunday Mar 13, 2005
I'm just not off to a good start today. Notice the new weight. I didn't post on Saturday or Sunday, when my weight was at its all-time low: 111.5. (both days!)
So how could it be up to 113.5 today? I know I had some extra snacks yesterday, but I don't think I went over my caloric limit for the day.
To make matters worse, my hardboiled eggs somehow froze in my fridge because it got too cold, so they were chewy this morning as I had to microwave them a bit to get the ice off of them! (They were already peeled).
And then I forgot to bring my cereal in to work! Oh, well. You know, I don't need the extra 350 calories. Thankfully, I brought my lunch with me today, so I just ate a very large guava instead of the cereal.
I'm having company again for dinner tonight and have a healthy meal planned, but I also have a yummy dessert made. So I have to be careful that I don't eat 4 or 5 pieces of it, as I can easily do that!
Goals today: stay away from the peanut butter
* keep snacks to 200 calories or less
* keep meals to 400 calories
* end the day at 1600-1800 calories
- Thursday Mar 10, 2005
Back to 112 today! Another fluctuation? Probably.
I did well on the snacking-front yesterday, which was good, although it's probably due to the fact that I had a filling dinner. I had company over and made fried chicken, cheddar cheese biscuits, salad, and cinnamon-applesauce jello. Then I baked a carrot cake for dessert.
Fellow dieters, let me tell you how I managed to avoid consuming hundreds of calories at this meal, which was made for men who don't count calories!
With the chicken, I fried all of it in oil except for one piece. That piece was mine, and I fried it in nonfat cooking spray.
With the biscuits, I used reduced-fat Bisquick and poured melted butter over all the biscuits except one. That one was mine. Nobody even noticed that my biscuit was butter-free.
With the salads, I made individual ones and added walnuts, full-fat dressing, and feta cheese to the men's salads. But I left the walnuts off my salad, just gave myself a taste of cheese, and used fat-free dressing.
With the jello, I used sugar-free/fat-free cherry jello and then added the cinnamon candies and applesauce. Saved myself a good 80 calories by simply using SF/FF jello.
SO, after my meal of chicken breast, one biscuit, a healthy salad and some jello, I was too full to eat much carrot cake! I served it to the men, and the only time I slipped up was when I was putting the leftovers in the freezer...I tried a few slivers as I was cutting it into pieces.
Anyway, I still thorougly enjoyed my meal, and I think I saved myself quite a few calories that I don't need! The good thing is that NO ONE noticed that my chicken wasn't deep fried or anything else...they were too busy eating what I served them!
Calories avoided---I'm estimating upwards of 800.
Now, if I can make it through tonight, I'll really feel good! I'm attending a "spring feast" with a Chinese friend. Who knows what the food will be like...but whenever I hear the word "feast," I get a little nervous!
Remember, friends, I used to be 152 pounds. I know all about pigging out on a buffet. I haven't lost my tendency to overeat. And if I get too confident, I can slip up just like anyone else.
Constant vigilence, daily discipline, and plenty of exercise keeps me at the weight I love!
- Wednesday Mar 09, 2005
Up to 113 today. Ugh! Hope I don't stay here for too long! I realized yesterday that I had at least 500 extra calories that I didn't need...for example, I ate one Reeses Cup, a chocolate-covered cherry, some more pudding, some fried peanuts, and a little peanut butter. Did I need all that junk? No. My regular meals were healthy and low-cal, but I found myself eating the candy and sweets that I wasn't even hungry for!
Really...I popped that Reeses Cup in my mouth simply because it was THERE. You can't find Reeses candy here, so the only way I have any is because it is sent to me or I bring it back from the States. Why do I even bother? I get plenty of good food...why do I need to eat the Reeses Cup just because it's taking up space in my cupboard?
I need to get a handle on my snacking. It's starting to get out of control again. My meals are fine, but snacking ruins my low-weight quicker than anything.
- Tuesday Mar 08, 2005
Back to 112.5 today. Had a lot of salt last night, so my situation may be similar to Geevee's. But it could be that I snacked a bit more than normal before bed. I had good intentions with my 1/2 cup serving of SF/FF pudding, but after giving my husband his large serving, which included peanut butter, an Oreo, some candy, and nuts mixed into it, I wanted some of the "extras" too.
So I had some peanut butter, a bit of chocolate, etc. Not enough to put 1/2 pound on me, but enough to make me regret my decision to "spice up" my hubby's pudding. You see, all along I knew that I wanted some peanut butter and chocolate. So adding those things to my husband's pudding was a way for me to find an excuse to taste them myself. So even though I think he just prefers plain chocolate pudding, I added all that junk to his serving and helped myself in the process.
It wouldn't have been a big deal if I hadn't had peanuts, pistachios, and some cheese earlier in the day. Those are all high-cal foods that I try to stay away from...and have a hard time eating in moderation. So overall, I feel like I overdid it yesterday.
The bad news is that I've already had some peanuts today. Those things are just so good...they're coated with some sort of wonderful flavor...and they're fried, I'm sure. I bought them off the street from a vendor. In America, I could read the nutrition label to know just how deadly they are...but here, I don't have a clue! I can estimate, though, and I know that they're highly caloric! It doesn't take a dummy to figure that one out!
Anyway...I have the rest of the day ahead of me to make smart choices. Here's to the rest of the day!
- Monday Mar 07, 2005
112.5 yesterday, back to 112 today. Phew! I made it through 4 nights of dinners that I had no control over. Thankfully, it was mediocre Chinese food that I didn't really like anyway. I still think my success in maintaining my weight is with the walking, though. I try to get in at least an hour of walking a day besides my run, and I really think that allows me some "wiggle room" with my diet.
Have any of you ever tried the Sans Sucre mousse products? They're fabulous and sugar-free! Only 60-80 calories per serving, depending on what kind of milk you use. I brought back about 10 boxes of all different kinds when I was in the States. You can order them online at www.edietshop.com
Anyway, I know some of you enjoy SF/FF pudding as much as I do, so here's a different option...with cool flavors like Key Lime pie and Mocha Cappuccino.
This morning, I was so jealous of my husband for a few minutes. We went running together, but my breakfast was the usual 2 egg whites and bowl of healthy cereal. He had a fried egg on toast with butter, orange juice, and a bowl of cereal twice the size of mine. My calorie count--350. His calorie count---700.
I just wanted to pig out and eat a huge bowl of cereal, but I can't do that. I have to remember that he weighs 160 pounds and is almost pure muscle...if I ate like him, I'd also weigh 160 pounds, but it would be pure fat!
Anyway...some men just have all the luck!
- Sunday Mar 06, 2005
Well, I feel quite encouraged now that I saw 112 on the scale again this morning! I have made smart food choices this weekend, so I'm pleased to see it reflected in the scale, even if it is temporary!
I had brought back a box of Russell Stover chocolates during my Sept. trip to America and just opened it last night. Even though the outside of the box was sealed, the chocolates had gone pretty stale. At first I was really bummed, as I tried one and found it rather "chalky." But now I can see an upside to this, as I'm not tempted to eat them all in one sitting. I stuck the box in the fridge and will have to microwave the candy for a few seconds if I want to eat it.
It's strange how I can keep certain foods around for a long time if they're wrapped up tightly, but as soon as I open them, I want to eat them. So I guess it's a good thing when the chocolates go stale on me...even if I feel like I wasted my money buying them, at least I won't be feeling guilty all night long for eating several at once!