- Tuesday Feb 15, 2005
Down a pound! Yea! I'll take it, even if it's only for one day. I think a big part in my weight maintenance is that I'm constantly moving...any chance I have to walk or exericse, I take it. I've been reading lately about how people who fidget a lot burn several hundred more calories a day. I don't fidget, but I rarely sit still. After running 8-10km every morning, I walk 20 minutes to work. And I usually walk a bit during my lunchtime as well. After work, I'll often go to the gym or walk home. I'll get some form of exercise, since I'm usually pretty lethargic during work hours.
So even though I enjoyed 1 1/2 Stroopwaffles last night (soooo good!), the scale is down. Yea! Of course, if I get carried away with the snacking, I immediately see the scale go up. So I have to be careful. But I've learned to do what Geevee does---fill up on high-volume food. I stick to the veggies, salads, soups, and fiber. I've learned how to eat when I'm hungry and not because it's "mealtime."
Anyway...I definitely don't have good days every day, but I'm thankful when I DO have a good day and it's reflected on the scale!
Becca---we miss you! How are you doing? Curlsncuffs---are you still out there? WE miss you, too!
- Sunday Feb 13, 2005
I'm back! And I'm relieved to be the exact same weight I was when I left! All that exercise, planning and extra dose of discipline paid off.
I'm not in the clear yet, though, because it's Valentine's Day...so that means a nice dinner, some chocolate, and other goodies. But if I can make it through today without too much chocolate, I'll consider it a success!
Time to get caught up on your entries! :)
(P.S.---I started writing for the Diet Diaries in February, 2003. So I've been here two years! Wow! It's been a great encouragement to me and I think I've come a long way)
- Thursday Feb 10, 2005
Well, I skipped the low-fat ice cream at Cold Stone Creamery and went for the full-fat instead. When I checked the website for nutritional information, the full-fat seemed to be almost equal in calories...so I splurged and had the real stuff. And I'm glad I did! It was a treat that I thoroughly enjoyed...I even had a brownie mixed in with it, which is my favorite. Thankfully, I made smart choices all day long, so I think the highly caloric ice cream treat didn't make too much of a dent in my daily total.
Now, if I can just make it through the next two and a half days, I'll be home free. Unfortunately, due to a long flight and layovers, I'll have about a 36-hour trip back home...and I know I'll be eating more meals than normal. I did order a low-fat meal on the long international flight, but those are usually a joke. I have yet to find an airline that takes low-fat or low-cal meals seriously. When I can see the grease in my airplane food, I know it's not low-fat. The airline's idea of low-fat is simply serving jello instead of a piece of dry cake.
So I just take my own snacks and try to pick out anything decent from my "healthy" special meal.
- Wednesday Feb 09, 2005
WEll, DD friends, I'm hanging in there! Yesterday was a pretty good day. For dinner, we visited some friends and the lady made chicken fajhitas. I managed to stick to the chicken, lettuce, and tomatoes and skip the chips and tortillas. I found out later that she used thigh meat, but oh, well. (I prefer breast meat, but I'm just a little particular about chicken).
Anyway, I think I did okay eating overall. Today I'm pretty much on my own for the first time! But tonight, my husband and I are going to treat ourselves to Cold Stone Creamery ice cream...I'll stick to the low-fat version since I know that stuff can be a caloric nightmare. But it's the one kind of ice cream that I want to splurge on before heading back to Asia.
I'm still overwhelmed by all the CHOICES Americans have for food. I don't know if I could live here again. Really, it is almost too much for me. It's no wonder so many people struggle with weight...there are just way too many good things to eat! (Even plenty of good "diet foods.") America---the land of abundance. I don't feel like I belong here anymore.
********************Borntocry---I tried leaving a comment on your entry, but it didn't work. So I left a comment for you in the comments section of my diary. :) Hope you get a chance to read it!
- Monday Feb 07, 2005
I know that my weight is up. I weighed myself this morning, and I was over 115. Maybe the scale was off, and I know I was bloated, but that was really discouraging to see.
So I went for a 55-minute run, ate a healthy breakfast and lunch, but was hungry in the afternoon. I snacked more than normal, but was doing okay until dinnertime. Our hosts took us out for wood-fired pizza, which is good but highly caloric. I had my own 10-inch pizza and ate all but one slice. Yikes! What was I thinking? I did skip some of the crust, but all those carbs make me feel bigger than normal. I usually never eat pizza, and especially not the crust.
I would have rather eaten a large ice cream cone.
I just wish I could come back to the States and have total freedom over what I eat. Every time I come, I'm staying with people who want to control my diet. (or at least plan my meals). So I don't really get to enjoy the types of food that I would like to enjoy...things like cottage cheese, yogurt, turkey lunchmeat, etc.
Sigh. I have another dinner out tomorrow night. I have a feeling it's going to take three weeks to get back to where I was before I came to the States.
- Sunday Feb 06, 2005
Hi, friends! I'm back in the good ol' USA...the land of PLENTY. Once again, I am facing reverse culture shock and am amazed at how I can blend in so easily and not be noticed. What a wonderful thing when you've been living in a city that averages 9,000 Chinese people per square kilometer!
The food thing has been rough so far...I was up for a full 48 hours without sleeping (except for a short doze on the plane), so I was eating about every 5 hours. Tonight, I attended a Super Bowl party and tried to be discipined, but couldn't resist some of the goodies I rarely get. I don't think I did too badly, but I wish I could have passed up the cheesecake. It wasn't worth all the calories.
The next five days will be hard, but I'm trying not to worry about it.
By the way...I went running in the San Francisco airport. Really! It was about 10:30pm, and I ran partly outside, partly in the car lot, and partly through the empty halls of the airport. I got in a good 30-minute workout! I didn't care if people were looking at me, and most of them weren't. I'm sure people in San Francisco have seen weirder things! Anyway...I felt much better afterwards, as I'd just been through a 12-hour plane ride.
I'm going to try to read some entries, and even though I may not comment, rest assured that I'm checking in with many of you! :)
- Thursday Feb 03, 2005
Well, friends, my day at 112 WAS short-lived. I know that Geevee will know exactly what I'm talking about, as she deals with fluctuations as often as I do! Unfortunately, I woke up to 113.5 today...and I'm not sure why, except that I did engage in a bit more snacking before bed than normal. Instead of stopping with a small bowl of cereal, I had some peanut butter, dried mangoes, and crackers. I was too overconfident from the low weight, and I overdid it.
But this is a good thing, in a way. It will help me to be more disciplined today and to remind myself that only a day or two of bad choices can wreck havoc on my progress. So as I board the plane tonight, I'm going to keep a few thoughts in mind:
1. I will enjoy foods that I normally do not enjoy 2. I will still continue to eat in moderation. (I don't need two pieces of cake...one will suffice) 3. I will exercise every day and walk as much as possible. (My back is feeling better today!!!) 4. I will try to avoid snacking unless I'm really hungry. 5. I will try to relax around food...and remember that life is too short to spend time worrying or stressing out about food.
I'll be in touch! America, here I come! (I'll definitely be loading up our extra suitcase with some diet-friendly products...)
- Wednesday Feb 02, 2005
I saw 112 this morning! Can you believe it? That was my GOAL before I left for the U.S., so that made me quite happy! I know that I was on the verge of being 112.5...probably my position on the scale made the 1/2 pound difference or something, but I'll take it, if only for one day!
As for DAY 4, I stayed within my calorie limit but had a couple of sugary snacks. Rats. I can never do the "cold-turkey" thing...I always give in eventually. On the bright side, I didn't overdo it. I had a couple treats in moderation.
My back is doing better today. I'm able to walk fine, so I've been walking everywhere. I think I should be able to jog tomorrow, although I won't tell the doctor that. I'm a downright stubborn girl, and I'm getting a run in before I board a plane for a 30-hour trip (including flight time and being stuck at the airports).
- Wednesday Feb 02, 2005
Day 3 was a tough one. I ended up having more of those "Chinese snacks" that I said weren't really "dessert." But they are, in a way. They're just not your typical American dessert. And I ate two pieces of free candy without thinking about it...honestly, the "no-sugar" challenge somehow flew out of my brain as I ate that candy! Thankfully, they were small and fat-free, but I was still disappointed in myself.
As for my back, it's about the same today. I went outside this morning for a walk, and tried to jog a bit, but it was too painful. I know, I know...I need to just RELAX. But, fellow DD's, running is as much a part of me as my daily shower. It's something I really and truly enjoy, and it was soooo hard not to be able to run this morning since my legs were literally ITCHING to do so.
Of course, now I'm even more aware of what I'm eating...since I'm not lifting weights, either. Sigh. I appreciate all the helpful advice and encouragement. I will make it through this...I just wish I didn't have to deal with the uncertainty of knowing how long it will be before I can really run again!
- Tuesday Feb 01, 2005
Well, the scale fluctuated in my favor this morning...and I actually saw 112.5! I made it through day 2 fine, and passed up some candy that I brought out to offer my company last night. I even resisted making dessert and served fruit and banana bread instead.
Today I did try a couple of small samples of Chinese sweet snacks, but since I don't really consider their snacks "real desserts," I'm not stressing out about it. They were more like a red-bean-filled pastry. (And I don't call that dessert!)
BUT, I have very depressing news. I woke up this morning with a terrible pain in the left side of my lower back. I went for a run, but I was in even more pain afterwards. In seven years of running, the only injuries I've had have been minor...like pulled muscles or something like that. But I'm afraid this one is more serious. It's a pain unlike anything I've had before.
I actually went to a Chinese doctor this morning, who used a mixture of Chinese medicine and Western chiropractic techniques and concluded that the problem is with my kidneys. Okay...so now what? I probably need to see a good physical therapist, but it may take some time to find one. Until then, the Chinese doctor said, "NO RUNNING, and NO LIFTING WEIGHTS."
Friends, this is very depressing news for me. You know me. I'm a runner. I rely on exercise to help me stay thin and fit. I already have to limit my calories...if I can't work out, I'll have to limit them more. To make matters worse, I'm supposed to take a 15-plus hour airplane ride on Friday back to America...where I'll finally get to indulge in some REAL treats for a week.
But if I can't exercise and am faced with lots of temptations, that is a bad, bad combination. I will easily gain 5 pounds in one week.
I'm getting depressed just writing about it...