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Runner - Monday Jan 31, 2005

Weight: 114.0


Well, I made it through DAY 1 of my "no sugar" challenge. I have to admit, I am not going cold turkey on the sugar. I still eat cereal that has small amounts of sugar, use condiments, etc. But I'm cutting out the "extras." Those empty calories that I don't need.

But after a very good first day (with probably 1600 calories maximum), I am up another 1/2 pound. Go figure. That's what I get for being disciplined, eh?

Of course, it's probably water retention, as I'm bloated again. How frustrating! I get weary of always being bloated. I have another doctor's appointment on Wednesday...hopefully the doctor will have looked at my blood work by then and figured something out.

Until then, I'm trying to stay optimistic that I'll see 112 by the end of the week...but I'm 1 pound farther away from that number than I was on Saturday.

borntocry on 01/31/2005:
Hi Runner! Good work with the "no sugar" challenge! I know it must be hard for you.

Thanks so much for your comment. I hope you're right about my calorie estimates. I have started over-estimating calories somewhat since last year, when I kept a running count of my calorie intake over a six-week period and only lost one pound by the end of it, instead of the four and a half pounds I should have lost according to my calculations. So now I've started putting my estimates a bit higher, and also assuming that I need only 1800 calories a day to maintain my weight, instead of the 2000 calories I assumed I needed before.

I agree with you about there being nothing nutritious in a candy bar, and my focus has always been on health and fitness first and weight second, but sometimes I can't help but feel bitter that these so-called healthy foods still have so many calories - sometimes even more than the junk food. It's not fair!

skinnyjill on 01/31/2005:
Way to go!

I tried the cold turkey no sugar. It just made me want it more.

I hope the doctor finds something out and has news for you!

Becca27 on 01/31/2005:
With the no sugar, watch out that you don't start adding other carbs to make up for it. Doesn't our body treat them the same (refined sugar and white flour)? Also, if you need some sweetener on your cereal, try Splenda.

Good luck on your challenge. I'm in there with you.

twheat on 01/31/2005:
Good Job Runner! Giving up all sugar is difficult and I think Becca was right, your body will most likely crave carbs to make up for the lack of sugar. That doesn't help. Keep up the good work!

Runner - Saturday Jan 29, 2005

Weight: 113.5

Up a half pound. It's probably due to the potluck food I ate last night at a Chinese New Year party. Everything was actually very good, and I enjoyed more than I normally would for dinner. But I went easy on the desserts. Actually, my dessert was a huge hit---the "dirt-n-worms" pudding. People loved it!

It's time for a change, though. I need a challenge. I have been inspired by Becca's "no-sugar" challenge, and I'm going to try that for five days. I did it once last year for three days and that seemed like a long time. But I've come a long way in one year, and I think I'm ready to try it again. Basically, it just means that I can't snack on candy (even if it's fat-free), protein bars (which are full of sugar), or desserts. THat means I need to stay out of the kitchen and avoid baking.

I can do this. I need to do this, as I am going back to the U.S. for a week on Friday and I know that I will be eating a lot of goodies while I'm there. Ideally, I'd love to be at 112 by Friday. Without my daily "excuses" for a little sugar, I think that would be mangagable!

So here goes nothing. The Runner with a huge sweet tooth is giving up her sweets for five days. If she does it, it will be a bigger accomplishment than most people will ever understand! (Because this Runner LOVES sweets).

geevee on 01/30/2005:
You've been doing great lingering around 113 lately. I sure wish I could say that about 125!

By the way, the author of "Cookwise" approaches the subject like a chemist. Son Jim said he'd hate to have to take a test about this info! He's having a ball experimenting with different flours and combos of ingredients. Each slight change in ingredient or amount will result in a change in texture from light and fluffy to dense and dry, and so on. She approaches other ingredients too, not only flours which reminded me of your substituting apple sauce for oil.

If you go to Border's,it's not found in the regular food book/recipe section. I can't remember what the sub-section is called but it's right next to cook books.

cowboy on 01/30/2005:
Hi Runner, I've been off sweets before and now and I will tell you that once you quit eating them for about 3 days the desire to have sweets leave. At least in my case.

Runner - Friday Jan 28, 2005

Weight: 113.0

What a relief to find that I was 113 this morning! After a big dim sum lunch yesterday, I thought it would be much worse. I guess I managed to eat less throughout the rest of the day which helped. Also, I got in a good run and worked out at the gym. But I'm glad to be back home, even though I find myself snacking more when I'm home than when I'm on the road.

Thanks for all your supportive comments, everyone. I tried not to let the cinnamon roll binge get to me too much. I have cinnamon rolls totally out of my system now, though. I can probably go another couple of years without eating one and be fine!

I have to do some baking tonight for a bake sale tomorrow. I'm making carrot cake, which shouldn't be a temptation, as I really can't stomach snacking on cake that's made with a full cup of oil. I'll also make some "dirt pudding" with Oreos and gummy worms, though, and that may be harder to resist...so I think I'll have to have my husband nearby in case I start getting a little crazy!

borntocry on 01/28/2005:
Hi Runner,

Thanks so much for your comment. Yes, we both have the same problem when it comes to cooking. I also frustrate my husband with my constant demands for reassurance whenever I feel that anything hasn't turned out just right. And I'm also always tempted to "dispose" of my failures myself so that no-one realises that I'm actually not such a great cook after all!

I don't know how you manage to make so many desserts though - it must be a real test of your self-restraint!

skinnyjill on 01/28/2005:
Ooooh... I love carrot cake. I have a mix in my cubbard... NOOO....

Good luck with baking. I like that you have a guard with you when you bake. I need a guard. My BF would just tempt me more.

Have a great weekend!

Becca27 on 01/28/2005:
Hi Runner

We love worms in dirt here. Every year, for my daughter's birthday I make them for her to take into her class - we've been doing it since K, and it's been a trad. for 4 years now.

I think a five day challenge is a great idea. With short-term challenges, it's reasonable to add white flour to it. I do think it makes a difference in mood, energy, etc... I broke my "oathe" but am trying to keep sugar out of my diet as a general rule - except on special occasions. These days, I don't even keep diet sugar snacks in the house - those energy bars (Balance Bars, Power Bars, etc..) are diet killers. They're loaded in sugar. My meals are staying with me longer, taking more time to digest, and I'm not experiencing those "dips" from coming down off a sugar high. You can definitely do it.

What do you teach? I think you're a teacher. I'm curious because I'm getting ready to (hopefully) go back into the classroom. A middle school English position has opened up in my old home town and I just applied for it. Anyway, I'm kind of a wreck thinking about the interviewing process. I've been "retired" for 10 years. Well, have a great weekend and I encourage you to go for the challenge!!

geevee on 01/28/2005:
Runner - I read a book review in the NYTimes about a "scientifically oriented" book about cooking. In no way is it an ordinary cookbook. It deals with particulars such as the different results you get when you use different types of flours: bread, cake, high gluten, etc. It was such a good review and SO interesting I actually got myself dressed and went right over to Borders and bought it for son Jim in Japan. I can't remember what it cost, something like $25 or $30, but it was worth every penny. This was right before he came home so I waited until he got here before giving it to him. He couldn't put the book down, and as much as he didn't want to take all those pounds back to Japan because he plans on returning in a couple of months, he just couldn't leave it here.

So, I thought of you and how you love to bake and that this might be a very helpful book for you. Since you're coming back next week, when you're here check it out at either Borders or Barnes and Noble. It's: Cookwise: The Hows and Whys of Successful Cooking by Shirley O. Corriher.

smookie74 on 01/29/2005:
Carrot cake is made with a full cup of oil? I had no idea, but am glad I know. It has always been one of my all time favs. Thanks for your comments. I am assuming you are a runner, hence your handle and the fact that you said you got in a good run in your last entry ( I catch on so quickly). I have been toying with the idea of running in my head, but keep in mind I am about 35 pounds over weight and totally out of shape, don't own a treadmill or a gym membership, and right now it is averaging about 18 degrees as a high where I live. Any suggestions?

breakaway on 01/29/2005:
WOW congrats on your weight loss. You seemed surprise. I think you have been doing wonderfully. Have a great day today.

Runner - Wednesday Jan 26, 2005

Weight: 114.0

I have no idea what my weight is...I've been gone for 3 days, and I was doing well until tonight.

I managed to consume two LARGE homemade cinnamon rolls (drenched in frosting of course), straight out of the oven. It's been ages since I've eaten a cinnamon roll, much less two! I can hardly believe I did it. But they were sooooo good. My hostess taught me how to make them, and I had only eaten 1/2 cup of cottage cheese for dinner, so that was basically my dinner.

One would have been enough. You know, I ate the second one really fast...as if I was afraid someone was going to take it away from me. I think I was trying to eat it as quickly as possible before I really thought about what I was doing. Strange, isn't it? So I didn't even really enjoy the second one. I ate it standing up. On the other hand, I ate the first one sitting down and savoring every bite.

I have no idea how many calories are in one of those things---400? 500? With the frosting, it may be even more.

Yes, it tasted great. But I didn't need two.

I have one more meal out tomorrow, and then I get to go home...

breakaway on 01/26/2005:
Hello, Well, the main thing is that your here and you told on yourself which means that you are accountable and I bet it won't happen again for a long long time ;) I wouldn't worry about it to much becuase like you said you didn't do taht for years and we all know that once in a while we screw up! AND we all know here by now how much our Runner loves her sweets! Your still doing a great job and you will bounce right back after this and keep on truckin. Your a great influence other then this of course;) Keep up the good work!

skinnyjill on 01/26/2005:
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Cinnamon rolls. I haven't had one in ages either. I don't need one. I'm sure they are a whole day's calorie intake. Maybe someday I'll treat myself to a bite.

It's good to savor your food. There's a French lady who wrote a book. SOmething along the lines of "French women don't get fat." Someone mentioned teh article on DD.

Europeans have completly different eating habits. Americans (I know I am guilty of it) try to pack in so much activity in one day that they don't sit down and enjoy their meal. I think that's a big reason why people don't feel satisfied. They don't take the time to TASTE the food.

I used to eat a GIANT bowl of ice cream and scarf it down. Now I eat 1/2 cup and savor every bite. I don't go back for more now.

Well I'm rambling. I'm jealous that I didn't have a cinnamon roll! Have a great day!

Becca27 on 01/26/2005:
Hi Runner,

Thanks for your comments. The support IS great here! I fell off the sugar wagon and was eating a Peppridge Farm Choc. Chunk cookie in the freezer in the dark - gobbled it so H wouldn't see and didn't enjoy it AT ALL. Don't think about how many calories were in those rolls. It can't be good.

geevee on 01/26/2005:
Runner, I thought of you yesterday when I was tempted by brownie samples at my health food market. I hadn't had a brownie in literally years, and that I was able to keep walking away from the FULL platter of huge samples does make me feel ever so slightly better. It was SO good! I saw it - I wanted it - and I ate it! No excuses. Your cinnamon roll incident is fully understandable. We do make amends for our failings, and as much as I craved my nightly chocolate I made do with the memory of that fudgy brownie. Ahhh. We ARE winning this battle, Runner or we wouldn't feel so guilty and make the adjustments we do. Enjoy the memory.

Runner - Sunday Jan 23, 2005

Weight: 114.0

Had a pretty good day yesterday, but I'm already paying for the extra goodies. Up to 114 this morning, and I'm off on a 4-day business trip, complete with at least 5 meals out! Yikes! HELP!!!

I CAN do this...I've done this before...and the fact that my weight is UP only makes me more determined to be GOOD.

I'll check in when I can.

borntocry on 01/26/2005:
Hi Runner! Thanks so much for your comment! It's so nice to know you're thinking of me!

Runner - Saturday Jan 22, 2005

Weight: 112.5

I was 112.5 this morning, but I'm sure it won't be that low tomorrow! I'm taking some serious doses of estrogen/ hormone pills to get my period to start, and I think it's throwing my sweet tooth into a frenzy. I actually consumed more sugar today than I have in a looong time. I'm ashamed to write down what I ate, but just to prove to you that "thin" people still struggle, I'll be completely honest and record the awful truth:

---1 cupcake

---several small pieces of fudge (and I licked the bowl, too)

---I split a double-scoop of ice cream in a waffle cone with my husband

----several Sugar Daddy candies

----a chocolate Dr. Soy protein bar

----some sugar-free chocolate pudding

Did I eat my vegetables today? Besides a couple of tomatoes, no.

Did I eat fruit? One guava, yes.

Did I make wise food decisions? No way.

It doesn't matter if I exercised. I overdid it, and I'll pay for it. Unfortunately, I don't feel so good right now, either.

So there's the naked truth. I hope you all make smarter choices than I did today!

biscottibody59 on 01/22/2005:
Sugar Daddys are one of my favorites. Actually it doesn't look that bad. It's not like you made/ate an entire batch of cookies (I've done that!) or something. Thanks for sharing--have a great weekend and keep up the good work!

Umpqua on 01/22/2005:
I can totally sympathize - I went through 3/4 of a pint of Ben & Jerry's last night. I would have kept going with the sweets too if I'd had more in the house. I'll be interested to see how you do with the estrogen pills. It will be great for you if you can start getting normal periods again, but I know hormones can have some weird side effects. I was on estrogen based pills and then progestin only for years and always felt that they caused hunger binges and mood swings. I've been off the pill for about 7 months now and feel good about it - but that's just me. I know how tough it is with the lack of birth control options available today.

Good luck to you!

Runner - Wednesday Jan 19, 2005

Weight: 113.0

I'm fluctuating between 112.5 and 114 this week. I'm okay with 113 right now, even though I still feel bloated! I'm going back to the doctor tomorrow. The progesterone shot didn't cause my period to start, so it's back to square one.

Being physically fit and at a low weight has probably hurt me more than I realize. It's really ironic that too much exercise can affect the pituitary gland and cause menstrual cycles to stop. I love to exercise, as you all know, and I'm not willing to give it up yet just to get my period to start. I feel so strong and full-of-energy after I run. I'm a competitive racer. I am maintaining a weight that I never though I'd achieve. So why should I have to give this up just to have a period?

Because if I ever want to have children, I'll have to. Sigh. I know I can't stay at this weight forever. Without regular periods, it's going to be hard to get pregnant. Even if I don't want kids right away, I need to get this problem dealt with. For 6 years, I've just ignored it, rationalized that I'm okay, and bounced from doctor to doctor...they all say the same thing. "You exercise too much. You don't weigh enough. Your thyroid could be the problem."

Anyway...I'm off on my medical "problems" again. The funny thing is that I feel as strong and healthy as I ever have. But not having a period on my own for 6 years is not healthy. I have to admit that to myself and get it dealt with.

borntocry on 01/20/2005:
If you don't want to have kids right now, then why does it matter that you aren't menstruating? I doubt it will affect your long-term fertility. You will probably have to cut down on your running once you want to get pregnant, but in my opinion, that's all the more reason to enjoy it now, while you still can. Just plan ahead and allow yourself about a year in which to try to conceive.

I have some worries regarding fertility as well because before I went on the Pill (about nine years ago) I had very irregular periods (and cystic acne - hence my doctor's recommendation that I go on the Pill). I have no idea how long it will take me to conceive, but I'm not worried about it right now because I'm not ready to have kids just yet. But because of my concerns, I'm going to try not to leave it until too late. (Who knows, maybe we'll both be trying at the same time?!)

biscottibody59 on 01/20/2005:
I think this is a watershed moment for you Runner. Change takes time, but sometimes circumstances force change. It's always better to have a "lightbulb moment" because we've arrived there through working through something ourselves rather than having someone beat us over the head with it.

I think you're one of the brightest people on here--take care and keep on keepin' on--you deserve to be the best for everyone around you!

Runner - Wednesday Jan 19, 2005

Weight: 112.5

Had a good day yesterday, and even baked a loaf of banana bread for some friends without sampling it. Loaves of bread are impossible to "taste," as one slice cut from the loaf sure makes it look less pretty! Who wants to give away a loaf that has already been cut?

I have to bake one more thing this afternoon, so I'll solicit my hubby to stay nearby.

I actually managed to read everyone's entries for January 18 and was encouraged by the progress many of you are making. I've said it many times, but I really believe that exercise is the KEY to weight loss. Nothing will speed up your metabolism like exercise. I'm living proof! Simply eating less will only work for so long. Your body NEEDS the jump-start that you get when you exercise.

I ran this morning before work, walked to work, and walked for 20 minutes during my lunch hour. Am I crazy? Maybe. But do I feel better? Definitely. Some of my co-workers spend their lunch hours sleeping. Of course, they look like they're trying to stay awake all day long as they sit at their desks. To be practically immobile for 8 hours will make anyone sleepy and lethargic!

Exercise takes discipline...it takes a willingness to sacrifice time doing other things. But it's worth it, I promise! Your heart, your body, your mind, and your emotions will thank you!

Okay, I'll climb off my soapbox now! :)

borntocry on 01/19/2005:
Hi Runner,

Good work with the banana bread. A funny thing - the last time I made banana bread, I also didn't taste any, even though it was just for my husband so I easily could have. But I think I've made it so often that I was quite confident it had turned out all right, and didn't need to keep trying some to reassure myself.

Sadly, that was not the case with the carrot cake I made yesterday. It was a little bit dry. My husband said it was all right though, so I hope he eats a lot of it. He has nothing to worry about as far as calories go - he has not an ounce of fat on his body! (I bet you're the same way, hehe...)

I agree with you about the importance of exercise. I think that's one reason why people tend to be thin in European cities. We have to walk around everywhere. The streets are too narrow and parking space is too scarce for driving. I see many more fat people when I go into the suburbs, where people drive more and walk less.

It's a good thing for me because I'm one of those people who find it difficult to make the time for exercise. So thanks for the encouragement!

becca27 on 01/19/2005:
Hi Runner,

The banana bread would have been safe from my lips - too healthy. Ha!

You're sooo right about exercise. We don't do it enough and it is critical to our overall health. I'm always amazed at how wonderful I feel after a good workout. I just love that feeling and it should encourage me to eat right (as not to counteract my efforts), but, instead, I fight the battle of "reward", which I know you relate to. Climb on your soapbox anytime! We all need to be reminded of the importance of fitness. :-) Have a great day

feeleebubs on 01/19/2005:
That is absolutely right about exercising. It actually gives me exercise. Sometimes I forget that and when I go back I wonder why it had taken me so long.

Umpqua on 01/19/2005:
You nailed it on the exercise. Back when I didn't care about my weight I also sat at a desk all day. I used to eat a bagel for breakfast every day and a sandwich or fast food for lunch. And like clockwork, within a couple of hours after lunch my eyes would be closing in front of my computer screen. I'd drink coffee and tea to combat it, and that just made me more tired and irritable. When I changed my diet and started going out walking at lunch every day that stopped completely, as did the afternoon caffeine. The difference in energy level is just amazing.

cowboy on 01/19/2005:
You are absolutely right about exercising. I've been working out for years. Exercise combined with proper diet is the key to everything. I'll be back in the gym tomorrow; sometimes you have to exercise smart. I'm big into stength-training, but I also do aerobic for at least an hour. It's strange, I've never thought of exercise as dicipline. It's just something I did; a good habit like brushing your teeth, combing your hair, etc. I don't even think about it. Sometimes when you get laid up from an injury you get depressed because you are not getting those feel good endorphins that you get while exercising. You know what I mean. Anyway, I love baking also, and I know what you mean about tasting. I love making pies and it's hard to not eat them, so I've been avoiding baking entirely.

skinnyjill on 01/19/2005:
Thanks for that encouragement about exerceise. I work so much, that when I get home, all I want to do is crash. I know that if I exercise, I'll have the energgy to make it through the day.

As a promise to you, I will exercise extra hard tonight!

Runner - Monday Jan 17, 2005

Weight: 113.5

The scale tipped...as I thought it might. I felt bloated this morning, probably due to a few too many carbs last night and some extra salt. I don't think I actually "gained" a pound...I know that fluctuations are very normal with my body. But I also know that I didn't behave as well as I should have when I was baking. Even though I didn't lose control completely, I slipped up.

I made some pumpkin muffins and enjoyed 1/2 of one, at the expense of at least 170 calories. (They were full of oil and sugar...a gift for someone, so I didn't skimp on the taste by trying to make them low-fat). Then I made some cake-mix cookies that tasted a lot better than I thought they would. I also enjoyed 1/2 of a cookie, but helped myself to a little dough as well. After that, I made brownies, and managed to only have one of those.

Altogether, I can estimate the caloric damage is around 600-800...because those "licks" and "tastes" can really add up! Even though I had 2 hours of exercise, I can't justify all those empty calories.

Unfortunately, I have some extra goodies just sitting there at home. I need to get rid of them ASAP.

BTC had a great idea---when I bake, I should make the exact amount of what I need, so I'm not tempted to sample any! I'll try that next time!

Back on track today.

cowboy on 01/18/2005:
Thank you runner for your encouragement. I don't think I could suceed without all the encouragement this site provides.

Runner - Monday Jan 17, 2005

Weight: 112.5

I'm somehow hanging on to 112.5 at the moment, although I know the scale will likely tip toward 113.5 quickly, as the weekend is over and I usually go back to my normal weight. I did a fairly good job of eating over the weekend, much to my surprise! With guests at my place and two meals out, I anticipated a harder struggle. But I was fine and got in a lot of walking as well as my usual workout.

I have to bake some cookies tonight, so I'm hoping I can stay OUT OF THEM and OUT OF THE COOKIE DOUGH. I'm going to have to ask my hubby to be around...I hate having to do that (I feel so weak!), but sometimes it's the only thing that keeps me from eating an extra 800 calories I don't want or need! Maybe I'll make some coconut cookies so I'm not tempted to eat them. I hate coconut.

borntocry on 01/17/2005:
Hi Runner,

Thanks for your comment, and for the story of how you got interested in running!

Good luck with the cookies... I don't know if this will help you, but one thing I tried when baking goodies to bring into work was making the exact amount I would need. That discouraged me from "tasting" any of the finished product, because then there wouldn't be enough for everyone else. I got this idea from one of my co-workers who brought meringues in one day and said that she didn't know how they'd turned out because she'd made exactly enough for everyone to have two each, so she couldn't try any of them at home.

Or you could just try making them with coconut... I hate coconut too. But it's quite popular in Chinese desserts, isn't it?

skinnyjill on 01/17/2005:
I hate coconut too! Good Plan! Just thinking of it makes me sick! :-)

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