- Monday Jan 31, 2005
Well, I made it through DAY 1 of my "no sugar" challenge. I have to admit, I am not going cold turkey on the sugar. I still eat cereal that has small amounts of sugar, use condiments, etc. But I'm cutting out the "extras." Those empty calories that I don't need.
But after a very good first day (with probably 1600 calories maximum), I am up another 1/2 pound. Go figure. That's what I get for being disciplined, eh?
Of course, it's probably water retention, as I'm bloated again. How frustrating! I get weary of always being bloated. I have another doctor's appointment on Wednesday...hopefully the doctor will have looked at my blood work by then and figured something out.
Until then, I'm trying to stay optimistic that I'll see 112 by the end of the week...but I'm 1 pound farther away from that number than I was on Saturday.
- Saturday Jan 29, 2005
Up a half pound. It's probably due to the potluck food I ate last night at a Chinese New Year party. Everything was actually very good, and I enjoyed more than I normally would for dinner. But I went easy on the desserts. Actually, my dessert was a huge hit---the "dirt-n-worms" pudding. People loved it!
It's time for a change, though. I need a challenge. I have been inspired by Becca's "no-sugar" challenge, and I'm going to try that for five days. I did it once last year for three days and that seemed like a long time. But I've come a long way in one year, and I think I'm ready to try it again. Basically, it just means that I can't snack on candy (even if it's fat-free), protein bars (which are full of sugar), or desserts. THat means I need to stay out of the kitchen and avoid baking.
I can do this. I need to do this, as I am going back to the U.S. for a week on Friday and I know that I will be eating a lot of goodies while I'm there. Ideally, I'd love to be at 112 by Friday. Without my daily "excuses" for a little sugar, I think that would be mangagable!
So here goes nothing. The Runner with a huge sweet tooth is giving up her sweets for five days. If she does it, it will be a bigger accomplishment than most people will ever understand! (Because this Runner LOVES sweets).
- Friday Jan 28, 2005
What a relief to find that I was 113 this morning! After a big dim sum lunch yesterday, I thought it would be much worse. I guess I managed to eat less throughout the rest of the day which helped. Also, I got in a good run and worked out at the gym. But I'm glad to be back home, even though I find myself snacking more when I'm home than when I'm on the road.
Thanks for all your supportive comments, everyone. I tried not to let the cinnamon roll binge get to me too much. I have cinnamon rolls totally out of my system now, though. I can probably go another couple of years without eating one and be fine!
I have to do some baking tonight for a bake sale tomorrow. I'm making carrot cake, which shouldn't be a temptation, as I really can't stomach snacking on cake that's made with a full cup of oil. I'll also make some "dirt pudding" with Oreos and gummy worms, though, and that may be harder to resist...so I think I'll have to have my husband nearby in case I start getting a little crazy!
- Wednesday Jan 26, 2005
I have no idea what my weight is...I've been gone for 3 days, and I was doing well until tonight.
I managed to consume two LARGE homemade cinnamon rolls (drenched in frosting of course), straight out of the oven. It's been ages since I've eaten a cinnamon roll, much less two! I can hardly believe I did it. But they were sooooo good. My hostess taught me how to make them, and I had only eaten 1/2 cup of cottage cheese for dinner, so that was basically my dinner.
One would have been enough. You know, I ate the second one really fast...as if I was afraid someone was going to take it away from me. I think I was trying to eat it as quickly as possible before I really thought about what I was doing. Strange, isn't it? So I didn't even really enjoy the second one. I ate it standing up. On the other hand, I ate the first one sitting down and savoring every bite.
I have no idea how many calories are in one of those things---400? 500? With the frosting, it may be even more.
Yes, it tasted great. But I didn't need two.
I have one more meal out tomorrow, and then I get to go home...
- Sunday Jan 23, 2005
Had a pretty good day yesterday, but I'm already paying for the extra goodies. Up to 114 this morning, and I'm off on a 4-day business trip, complete with at least 5 meals out! Yikes! HELP!!!
I CAN do this...I've done this before...and the fact that my weight is UP only makes me more determined to be GOOD.
I'll check in when I can.
- Saturday Jan 22, 2005
I was 112.5 this morning, but I'm sure it won't be that low tomorrow! I'm taking some serious doses of estrogen/ hormone pills to get my period to start, and I think it's throwing my sweet tooth into a frenzy. I actually consumed more sugar today than I have in a looong time. I'm ashamed to write down what I ate, but just to prove to you that "thin" people still struggle, I'll be completely honest and record the awful truth:
---several small pieces of fudge (and I licked the bowl, too)
---I split a double-scoop of ice cream in a waffle cone with my husband
----several Sugar Daddy candies
----a chocolate Dr. Soy protein bar
----some sugar-free chocolate pudding
Did I eat my vegetables today? Besides a couple of tomatoes, no.
Did I eat fruit? One guava, yes.
Did I make wise food decisions? No way.
It doesn't matter if I exercised. I overdid it, and I'll pay for it. Unfortunately, I don't feel so good right now, either.
So there's the naked truth. I hope you all make smarter choices than I did today!
- Wednesday Jan 19, 2005
I'm fluctuating between 112.5 and 114 this week. I'm okay with 113 right now, even though I still feel bloated! I'm going back to the doctor tomorrow. The progesterone shot didn't cause my period to start, so it's back to square one.
Being physically fit and at a low weight has probably hurt me more than I realize. It's really ironic that too much exercise can affect the pituitary gland and cause menstrual cycles to stop. I love to exercise, as you all know, and I'm not willing to give it up yet just to get my period to start. I feel so strong and full-of-energy after I run. I'm a competitive racer. I am maintaining a weight that I never though I'd achieve. So why should I have to give this up just to have a period?
Because if I ever want to have children, I'll have to. Sigh. I know I can't stay at this weight forever. Without regular periods, it's going to be hard to get pregnant. Even if I don't want kids right away, I need to get this problem dealt with. For 6 years, I've just ignored it, rationalized that I'm okay, and bounced from doctor to doctor...they all say the same thing. "You exercise too much. You don't weigh enough. Your thyroid could be the problem."
Anyway...I'm off on my medical "problems" again. The funny thing is that I feel as strong and healthy as I ever have. But not having a period on my own for 6 years is not healthy. I have to admit that to myself and get it dealt with.
- Wednesday Jan 19, 2005
Had a good day yesterday, and even baked a loaf of banana bread for some friends without sampling it. Loaves of bread are impossible to "taste," as one slice cut from the loaf sure makes it look less pretty! Who wants to give away a loaf that has already been cut?
I have to bake one more thing this afternoon, so I'll solicit my hubby to stay nearby.
I actually managed to read everyone's entries for January 18 and was encouraged by the progress many of you are making. I've said it many times, but I really believe that exercise is the KEY to weight loss. Nothing will speed up your metabolism like exercise. I'm living proof! Simply eating less will only work for so long. Your body NEEDS the jump-start that you get when you exercise.
I ran this morning before work, walked to work, and walked for 20 minutes during my lunch hour. Am I crazy? Maybe. But do I feel better? Definitely. Some of my co-workers spend their lunch hours sleeping. Of course, they look like they're trying to stay awake all day long as they sit at their desks. To be practically immobile for 8 hours will make anyone sleepy and lethargic!
Exercise takes discipline...it takes a willingness to sacrifice time doing other things. But it's worth it, I promise! Your heart, your body, your mind, and your emotions will thank you!
Okay, I'll climb off my soapbox now! :)
- Monday Jan 17, 2005
The scale tipped...as I thought it might. I felt bloated this morning, probably due to a few too many carbs last night and some extra salt. I don't think I actually "gained" a pound...I know that fluctuations are very normal with my body. But I also know that I didn't behave as well as I should have when I was baking. Even though I didn't lose control completely, I slipped up.
I made some pumpkin muffins and enjoyed 1/2 of one, at the expense of at least 170 calories. (They were full of oil and sugar...a gift for someone, so I didn't skimp on the taste by trying to make them low-fat). Then I made some cake-mix cookies that tasted a lot better than I thought they would. I also enjoyed 1/2 of a cookie, but helped myself to a little dough as well. After that, I made brownies, and managed to only have one of those.
Altogether, I can estimate the caloric damage is around 600-800...because those "licks" and "tastes" can really add up! Even though I had 2 hours of exercise, I can't justify all those empty calories.
Unfortunately, I have some extra goodies just sitting there at home. I need to get rid of them ASAP.
BTC had a great idea---when I bake, I should make the exact amount of what I need, so I'm not tempted to sample any! I'll try that next time!
Back on track today.
- Monday Jan 17, 2005
I'm somehow hanging on to 112.5 at the moment, although I know the scale will likely tip toward 113.5 quickly, as the weekend is over and I usually go back to my normal weight. I did a fairly good job of eating over the weekend, much to my surprise! With guests at my place and two meals out, I anticipated a harder struggle. But I was fine and got in a lot of walking as well as my usual workout.
I have to bake some cookies tonight, so I'm hoping I can stay OUT OF THEM and OUT OF THE COOKIE DOUGH. I'm going to have to ask my hubby to be around...I hate having to do that (I feel so weak!), but sometimes it's the only thing that keeps me from eating an extra 800 calories I don't want or need! Maybe I'll make some coconut cookies so I'm not tempted to eat them. I hate coconut.