- Monday Aug 30, 2004
I did fairly well yesterday and got plenty of exercise---a 50-minute run and a 90-minute hike. That should have made some sort of dent in the scale, right? Well, I was a full pound heavier. So I'm back to where I was before I left for China. Good thing I never changed the weight from 114. I'm trying not to get discouraged. It's just amazing at how hard it is to lose weight and how easy it is to gain it back!
I have a crazy goal to get down to 110. I know, I know...I don't NEED to lose any more weight. But now that I've seen the number "112" more than once, I want to get there and stay there. It's not as much about the number as it is the desire to LOSE something and to KEEP it off. Maintenance is so hard! And I can be so weak! I really admire gals like Geevee who pass up candy in the store, even when she is salivating. I've done that before, and I can do it again. For crying out loud, if I have the discipline to run a half marathon, I should have the discipline to say "no" to sweets!
But I don't deserve to be at 112 right now. I've indulged in desserts every day since I've been home...and I've definitely consumed extra calories! Unfortunately, I'm back at the office and sitting on my rear end most of the day, too...at least in China, I was walking everywhere!
- Saturday Aug 28, 2004
Well, I've already "gained" back one pound that I supposedly lost. Ah, well...that's what will happen when I allow my "nightly snacking" to get out of control. Last night, I had a big and healthy dinner, but gave in to the temptation to eat a brownie with peanut butter and some chocolate pudding before bedtime. Yikes! That's a good 700 calories minimum!
Time to get back on track. Time to eat like I did in China...I had to eat to live, not live to eat!
I started training for my next half-marathon. I ran over an hour this morning...mentally, it's tough, since I haven't run in a half-marathon race since last December. So even though I've continued to exercise, I haven't pushed myself to be competitive. The weather is so hot, though...I'll be glad when it starts to cool down! It's at least 80 degrees at 8:00am here!
UPDATE----It's now 8:00pm, and I just finished off three more brownies, some peanut butter, and more chocolate pudding. It really doesn't matter if everything was "low fat." It's all high in calories, and I'm disappointed in myself. I know better than to just slide down the slippery hill of binge eating...I know that it's destructive both mentally and physically. Thankfully, the brownies are all gone now. I should have never made them...they always get me into trouble!
- Thursday Aug 26, 2004
I'm back and a 3-lb. weight loss registered on my scale this morning! I'm always very hesitant to record any type of weight loss, because my weight fluctuates so much, but I know that I probably lost something during my two-week stay in China. Of course, my first temptation is to eat, eat, eat the food that I've missed. (like fresh veggies and fruits and homemade baked goods).
It's great to be back, though. And I went running in my neighborhood this morning and breathed cleaner air...ahhh...it was nice. Beijing is so polluted!
- Wednesday Aug 25, 2004
One more day in China, and then I get to go home! Wahoo! I've really enjoyed most of my trip here, but after another greasy lunch, I'm ready to start eating my own food again! The crazy thing about lunch was that the food was really, really good. So I had to be careful not to overeat. When we were finished eating, I looked at the plates, and the amount of oil that was still sitting there was unreal. It's crazy how when the food is brought out and hot, the oil doesn't look as bad. But after it sits there for awhile and most of the food is eaten, all that remains is the oil. Ugh! It would gross out the average American, that's for sure! I try to blot my food on my napkins to get some of the grease off of it, but I know that the Chinese look at me funny when I do that...and I end up going through a lot of napkins.
Anyway...I've managed to work out every single day I've been here. And I think I've done a fairly good job of not eating too much...although I did indulge in a little more ice cream last night. I crave ice cream when I eat so many salty foods. It just tastes so good!
But I haven't baked in two weeks, and that's been nice. Usually I lose control in my own kitchen after making a pan of brownies or something. So one good thing about traveling is not having access to an oven!
- Sunday Aug 22, 2004
I'm at a new hotel now. This scale in the gym says that my weight is up a pound. But I'm just taking it all with a grain of salt until I go home to the scale that I'm used to weighing myself on.
Last night I found a Western restaurant and had a fudge brownie sundae (that I split with my husband) and it was so good. But the rest of the day, I ate very healthy and didn't snack like I normally do. Plus, we walked for a good three hours around the city. So it's odd that my weight is "up." Who knows?
Anyway...I had to laugh at the comments on the chicken feet! It is SO gross to see women and young children knawing on a chicken foot...they are considered delicacies here! Why? I have NO IDEA! I also saw some grilled scorpions on a stick a few days ago. Yikes!
When Chinese women see me picking at the food, they always wonder why I'm not eating "like an American." (eating a lot) I usually point to the big puddle of oil in the dish and tell them that I never cook with oil myself. They are usually shocked. No wonder---oil is it's own category on their food pyramid.
Well, I don't want to cut on the Chinese all the time...it's just that their food is NOT DIET FRIENDLY. (unless you want to eat sticky white rice all day...isn't that just converted to sugar once it hits your bloodstream?)
Three more days until I'm back home! I've had a wonderful trip, but I'm ready to start cooking for myself again!
- Saturday Aug 21, 2004
Last night, I pigged out. For a whole week, I managed not to overeat on the greasy Chinese food (it wasn't hard, believe me!), but last night, we got to eat at the hotel...an all-you-can-eat buffet. And let me tell you, it was amazing! There were all sorts of foods, (including real cheese!!!) but the best part was the desserts. Yes, I had real chocolate...in the form of ice cream, fudgy brownie bites, and cake.
I probably screwed up the two pounds that I lost, but at the moment, I don't care. Honestly, food hasn't tasted that good in a looong time. And except for the desserts, I made wise choices---I stuck to the sushi, veggies, shrimp dishes, and chicken breast. (REAL chicken breast...I haven't had that in ages!!! Chinese only eat chicken feet and thighs and legs...ugh!)
So....that was a real treat.
I'm still managing to run here in Beijing, but Geevee is right. The air is dirty. So I've spent more time in the pool in my hotel.
I've gotten back on track today with the food thing. This next week, I'll have a bit more flexibility in my meals...so I'm hoping to keep it simple, low-fat, and healthy. NO MORE GREASY VEGGIES, please!
- Friday Aug 20, 2004
Well, according to the scale in my gym hotel, I've lost two pounds...but I'm taking it with a grain of salt! I only have one more week in Beijing, but I'm already sick of the same old food every day. Ah, well. I've learned how to avoid eating very much at meals and have gone back to my room to eat my healthy snacks instead. At least I have my own breakfast! Packing cereal and dry milk may be a hassle, but it sure is better than eating fried turnip cakes or kimchee at 7:00am!
- Tuesday Aug 17, 2004
I'm in China, and I got access to a computer! So, of course, I had to check in on my friends here! :) I'm actually doing okay, food-wise. I'm so sick of Chinese food already. We get to eat a Western-style breakfast, but every other meal is Chinese. Of course, all my Chinese friends think the taste is different at each restaurant, but I think it all tastes the same. So I'm not overeating, that's for sure! I'm very glad I brought along my snacks...they're coming in handy!
So far, I've gotten enough exercise, too, although my runs are a bit shorter because running in China is NOT all that easy. But the hotel has a weight room, so that's good. And I've used the pool a couple of times.
Anyway, you know how I thought I'd get away from the scale? Guess what I found in the bathroom of my hotel room? A really nice scale! I've NEVER had a personal scale in a hotel room before...can you believe it? So, of course, my curiosity got the better of me. According to the scale, I haven't GAINED weight...so that's good!
Anyway...Geevee, it's comforting to know that you've been here and experienced the GREASY food. Even in the fanciest of restaurants, it's all greasy. Ugh.
How I'm craving a simple chicken breast salad...
- Wednesday Aug 11, 2004
Why is my weight continuing to climb? I've "gained" a full 3 pounds since Saturday.
yesterday, I consumed about 1800 calories, I think. BUT, I ran for an hour, did speed-walking for a half hour, and lifted weights.
What gives? Shouldn't I be able to eat at least 1800 calories with a workout like that?
We're in the middle of a typhoon right now...but I'm so stubborn that I ran this morning through ankle-deep puddles and plenty of wind. Sure, people stared at me. I don't care. I was discouraged over the weight gain.
So I leave for China tomorrow...two weeks without my scale. In some ways, I'm looking forward to that...
- Tuesday Aug 10, 2004
Well, I thought I was going to finish my day yesterday well...after the brownie incident, I really did aim to get back on track. So I had a very low-cal snack, a healthy dinner, and then lost it again. I indulged in 1/2 cup of very good ice cream before bed...and then thought I needed some protein to balance out the carbs, so I had some jerkey. Of course, I saw some candy then, too, so I ate a piece of that. Finally, I brushed my teeth and went to bed!
Weight was a half pound up today. No surprise there!
I did run for an hour this morning. I'm starting to train for another half marathon. So maybe I'll burn off those sweets in the next few days!
I'm traveling to China for two weeks on Friday...business trip. The only thing I'm nervous about is the food. I both love and hate to travel...I love that I can be away from my kitchen for awhile, where I'm always tempted to bake and eat goodies. I hate it that I sometimes have absolutely no control over my meals. Exercise is always an issue, too. I've run in many different countries and States, but I don't think China is very runner-friendly. Where there's a will, there's a way, though! I'm a very determined athlete!
At least half of my luggage will probably be the snacks that I'm packing---protein bars, cereal, dried milk, beef jerkey, tuna packs, etc. Most of it is protein-related, since I can rarely find lean protein anywhere in Asia. It's all fatty and fried.
Traveling in America is SO much easier. Sure, there are a lot of tempting restaurants. But at least I know I can ALWAYS find a grocery store and buy healthy snacks. That convenience is NOT guaranteed in mainland China! In fact, buying healthy snacks is usually not an option!