- Sunday Dec 14, 2003
Weight is up again. I shouldn't be surprised. I went to a potluck Christmas dinner and somehow rationalized that I should be able to eat whatever I want since I've done so well lately. So I consumed a piece of pizza, pie, cake, chocolate covered strawberries, candy, etc. C'mon! I was pigging out! And even though I was careful the rest of the day, I still overdid it.
When I got home, I read CurlsnCuffs entry, and it made so much sense. She doesn't miss all the junk...she's had enough of it! I mean, am I going to die if I never eat cake again? No! Now, I'm not giving up cake, but I found myself eating it yesterday even though it didn't taste good! But I still ate it! And I ate my pie crust even though I never usually eat that part! But I ate it anyway, for some dumb reason. And why did I need 4 chocolate covered strawberries? I didn't! One would have been enough.
I have a cookie sitting on my desk right now that a co-worker gave me. Sure, it looks good. But I've had cookies before. For once, I want to say "no" and feel good about myself for resisting another 200 calories. So I'll give it to my husband. I don't need it. I had enough desserts yesterday to last me awhile!
- Thursday Dec 11, 2003
Scales are so weird. I wish they were consistent. Yesterday morning, I weighed myself at my hotel...they had an official scale that looked very accurate. According to the scale, I had lost several pounds. Then I got home last night and weighed myself on my home scale...I was three pounds heavier than the morning before.
Since it's literally impossible to gain three pounds overnight, one of the scales is "off."
So I tried another one here at work. It's a scale in the mail room, and it's digital...and I was the same weight I was when I left.
Ugh! Three different scales, three different weights.
Anyway....I made it through the Thai buffet today...I tried to stay away from the really bad fried stuff, but I did enjoy many of the dishes. I need to go really light for dinner tonight.
It's so good to be back...
- Monday Dec 08, 2003
Only a few more days and I'll be home again...I'm still feeling good about how I've done on this trip with my eating and exercise, but the next couple of days will really stretch my discipline.
I'm being taken to a very fancy hotel for lunch today...full buffet of everything, and mostly seafood. I loooove seafood, and most of it is good for me, but I just have to be careful not to overeat. And they'll probably have American-style desserts, so that will be a big temptation.
In two days, I'm going to an all-you-can-eat Thai buffet, too, so that will be even harder! Most Thai food is LOADED with calories! Anyway, I usually do fine until I hit a buffet. Then it is really hard to keep track of the food I eat...it just seems so easy to load up my plate more than once!
I'm ready to go home to my own low-fat cooking...
- Friday Dec 05, 2003
Well, I've survived 5 full days of my business trip...5 days left! Overall, I'm pleased with my eating habits. I haven't indulged in everything that I'm offered, yet I have been able to enjoy different treats every day. Of course, I've awakened at 5:15am every morning to get some exercise, so I think I deserve a treat once in awhile! :) Anyway, I AM getting a bit tired of all the Chinese food, but I've passed up the food when I really don't want it. And then I just eat my own snacks or get some yogurt. Thankfully, there hasn't been as much pressure to eat everything as I thought there would be!
I still am amazed at the Chinese women, though...honestly, they eat A LOT, and most of them are still really thin. And everything is saturated in oil. How do they do it? (And most of them have never lifted a weight in their lives...they are so frail!)
- Tuesday Dec 02, 2003
I haven't weighed myself since Sunday...that's because I'm on a 10-day business trip, and there isn't a scale around! When I travel, there are positives and negatives to the whole diet thing. Positives: I can't weigh myself every day. I can't bake, so I don't overeat in my own kitchen. Food isn't as much of a focus, usually. I don't snack as much.
Negatives: I'm often "not in control" of when and where I eat. There is sometimes pressure to try things, esp. in a foreign country. I have no idea how many calories I consume in a meal (well, I have a guess, but I could be way off). It's hard, hard, hard to find time to exercise when each day is jam-packed with stuff.
SO....I'll check in when I can! The first two days have been okay...I'm actually traveling with a group of people, so I'm not on my own or anything. And my husband is with me, so if I don't like the food, I just pass my plate to him! (As subtly as I can!)
AND, I always have my soy nuts and granola bars handy when I need them! So I think I'll survive...but I have eight days left!
- Friday Nov 28, 2003
It has only gotten worse! I thought I survived the Thanksgiving meal without blowing my caloric intake, but the scale put me two pounds heavier today! C'mon! Really! That is a bunch of baloney. I've gained a whopping 4 pounds in just over a week...how silly!
My rational brain is telling me that this is NOT possible. But another part of me says, "Well, if you hadn't eaten the pumpkin pie, maybe it wouldn't show a higher number!" I just don't understand how normal people eat. I watch my intake so closely...and yes, I do enjoy my desserts when I can, but I try to fit them into my caloric requirement for the day.
Yesterday, I resisted more of the traditional Thanksgiving foods that everyone else was enjoying---bread and butter, ice cream on my pie, fattening casseroles, gravy, etc. I basically ate my no-butter stuffing, a small bit of turkey, some fruit, and some corn! And two pieces of pumpkin pie without the crust!
AND, I ran 6 miles in the morning. Now, I KNOW that I didn't consume an extra 7,000 calories. And I KNOW that scales lie.
But just once, I'd like to be a little encouraged. I try to make the right choices, and I don't end up eating a lot of foods that I'd LIKE to eat. But it doesn't seem to make a difference.
Ah, well. At least I got all my frustration out...my poor keyboard must get tired with me pecking away on it! :)
- Wednesday Nov 26, 2003
Woah. Something happened between yesterday and today...funny, but I don't feel any heavier. Usually, I feel it! Really! Even if it's only a pound, I can just TELL that I've gained something. Let's see...I didn't have very salty foods, It's not "that time of the month," I haven't been retaining water...those are all my usual excuses!
I did treat myself to some gelato and two pieces of apple bread before bed, but honestly, that shouldn't spike my weight almost 2 pounds.
Ugh. It sure would be nice to see a half-pound loss sometime! Maybe even a full pound! It's so crazy that I run for 55 minutes a day (at a fast pace, too) and can't enjoy a little bit of extra food. All those calorie charts are really off. I may be very active, but I still can't consume more than 1800 calories a day.
- Monday Nov 24, 2003
It takes a 3,500-calorie deficit to lose one pound. That is a LOT of calories to me. I like to see instant results, so after eating well for one day, I like to see that register on the scale. But if I still have 3,000 calories to burn before I lose a pound, then that may take days.
I admire those of you who plug away at your weight loss day in and day out. Really, that is admirable. I can do well for one or two days and then just cancel out all my hard work by bingeing on 1/2 a pan of brownies.
You know, if I just made it a goal to consume 500 less calories a day (and I usually consume at least 500 "empty calories") every day, then I'd lost one pound. (Or at least that's what they say) Is it that simple? But that means that I need to be diligent every day, and I just find myself having those moments when I WANT to consume 500 calories in candy.
But then I'm right back where I started! It's NO WONDER I've lost and gained the same three pounds since last February! I'm just thankful I haven't gained more than that...
Anyway...those are just my thoughts for the day!
- Thursday Nov 20, 2003
I appreciate the encouraging comments so much! Thank you all for taking me seriously...and taking the time to leave me a comment when you can.
For some reason, my weight is up. I did some baking last night and treated myself to some of it, but I still kept my daily total calories in check...and I'm still running 6 miles a day.
All those "calorie charts" say that I need at least 2000 calories a day...usually the number is more like 2,400 since I exercise so much! But I seem to gain weight as soon as I start eating over 2000 calories. Now, I know I probably don't need 2000 calories, but I do get hungry because I run. And usually 1500 of those calories are good foods---but I usually have about 500 "free" calories every day where I eat junk.
Not good, I know. But I'm not losing weight. I'm still where I was 6 months ago. I don't want to lose more than about 2 pounds, but I would be happy maintaining my weight at 117. I just wish I could really figure out how many calories my body needs. I think I burn less calories when running than most people do since I do have less muscle mass, and I've been doing it so long that my body is really used to it. So I'm not always working out in my target heart rate, although I try to run stairs and hills, which gets my heart pumping!
Anyway...I seem to require less calories than the average person...most people eat more than I do and don't exercise...and they stay the same weight! Why does mine fluctuate so much? Or is a 2-lb. difference in 5 days normal???
- Wednesday Nov 19, 2003
Well, yesterday wasn't perfect, but it wasn't a total flop, either. I still wish I could eat sugar in moderation more...and that I didn't crave it! I eat so well during the rest of the day, but if I get on a sugar-kick, it's hard to stop me! Thanks for the book recommendation, Curvy Shar. I don't know if I can find that here, but I'll look! It's so hard to find books that aren't written in Chinese!
Meanwhile, my weight is staying pretty constant. It went down after the race, but it's back to normal now. I didn't think I was eating more, but I'll never figure out my body.