- Tuesday Mar 04, 2003
I'm so tired of eating dinner so late at night, but this is the week of the play, and I'm not getting home until after 7:00pm every night...and I do fine all day eating-wise, but after 11 hours of working, I'm ready to eat whatever looks good! Thankfully, my life will slow down quite a bit next week. I picked up a paczki this morning to celebrate Fat Tuesday and after a bite, I realized that I didn't really like it and didn't want it! What a revelation for a donut-lover!!! I ate the filling and threw the rest of it away. A small accomplishment for me! Those donuts aren't as good as the cake ones, so they're not very tempting.
- Monday Mar 03, 2003
Well, I had a great Saturday, but a bad Sunday. Yet I'm not going to live by those numbers on the scale...I know that I need to do what is right for my body and make good choices and not to worry if I'm "up one pound" and not to just relax if I'm "down one pound." What I DO need to work on is not eating too much when I'm stressed or out of boredom. Because that is NOT good for my body.
Last night, I ate too much before bedtime and literally felt sick for a couple of hours. Now that is an example of a misuse of food. I hated the feeling of being so full, and I want to have a good snack wihtout overdoing it.
I still have a week until my apt. with a nutritionist. I'm wondering if she'll be able to tell me what my metabolic rate is.
- Saturday Mar 01, 2003
Well, I'm at my usual Saturday weight...but it's still more than it was a month ago on Saturdays. (Why am I always lighter on this day??) Maybe I should only weigh myself on Saturdays!
We had a 4-hour rehearsal today for the play, and I should have passed up the licorice and goldfish crackers, but I didn't...and I probably consumed an extra 500 calories with all the snacks around. Now I'm feeling it in my bloated belly. Ugh.
Well, I'm ready for this play to be over with and the cold weather to break. I need a change.
- Friday Feb 28, 2003
I'm learning more and more how the numbers on the scale mean very little...somehow I'm down a pound and a half since yesterday, and I ate almost the same exact things all day long!! Strange. I just had a reduced-fat vanilla ice cream sundae for lunch, so I'm going to have to be careful the rest of the day...the ice cream wasn't the tempting part. It was all of the topping, especially marshmallow cream! I can eat that stuff by the spoonful! Has anyone ever heard of the Caveman diet? I was reading up on it, and wondering if it has any credibility...
- Thursday Feb 27, 2003
I had such a good day yesterday eating-wise. I didn't do the bingeing thing with any fattening foods, I watched my calories, and I enjoyed what I ate! So this morning at the gym, I wanted some encouragement and thought I'd weigh myself...I gained half a pound. I'm trying to figure out how that happened! If I cut my calories, why would I gain weight? Or is it too soon to tell? Could it be weight from salty foods? I had french-onion soup last night...I know there's a lot of sodium in that. I just ended up discouraged...I know I shouldn't have weighed myself, but I honestly don't know how my weight could be up when I've cut my calories by probably 500-600 since this weekend! I overdid it this weekend compared to now. Bummer.
- Wednesday Feb 26, 2003
I have an apt. with a nutritionist in a week and a half who specializes in "weight and eating disorders." I'm really looking forward to talking with someone about this!
- Wednesday Feb 26, 2003
I took Tigger's advice and didn't weigh myself this morning. I guess it's a baby step in the right direction. I'm going to try to weigh myself only once or twice a week so I don't continue to live by those numbers. I'm also trying to cut my calories every day by about 300-500 calories. I know that I eat an excess of calories when I start snacking, so I just need to keep my snacks to a minimum of about 200 calories and not exceed that limit. I'm going to call the nutritionist today. I really appreciate the encouragement of others...thanks to those who write in response to my diary.
- Tuesday Feb 25, 2003
I was actually at 118 1/2 both yesterday and today, but I'm just going to say 119 since I'm not sure how to write "1/2" on the chart. My pants feel tight again today. I guess my weekend of celebrating birthdays and other events was too much to keep me at 117 lbs, although I don't feel like I really overdid anything. I guess my body is just getting used to the extra weight or something...I seem to have reached a plateau. Does anyone know anything about stress fat? I've been reading about it lately and how people who are stressed collect fat around their stomachs...which is exactly where I gain weight! I don't usually feel to stressed, but I have a really busy schedule at the moment and I can get easily anxious around food. I guess anxiety can trigger it, too. I don't want to blame my weight gain on something like stress, because I know it has to do with excess calories, but I'm just wondering if there is any truth to what I've read.
- Saturday Feb 22, 2003
There's something about Saturdays...I'm usually two pounds lighter when I weight myself! Isn't that strange? I'm not complaining, though! It sure was nice to see a change on the scale. I need to be careful the rest of this weekend, because I know that I'm going to be doing some baking. My husband's birthday is this Tuesday, and I'm going to be making a cake and a fancy dinner. I'm going to call a nutritionist next week...just to help me understand how many calories my body needs. I tend to think it needs more than it really does. Sometimes I eat when I'm not even hungry. Hope I have more good news to report on Monday!
- Friday Feb 21, 2003
By the way...thanks for your comment, PastaGal! I found it encouraging. I'm glad you're doing well...and that you took the time to write a note to me.