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Soon2BThin - Tuesday Nov 21, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 0.0

Hey, Day 2, I made it to Day 2!! Well, at least I'm up already, got up at 6:55 and walked for 2 miles on the treadmill. I'm not saying Day 1 was perfect but I guess I'm just like a toddler learning to walk, I did a couple steps but haven't made it clear across the room yet. Had some stumbles. Did my shopping so at least I wasn't sitting on my butt all day. Had brekky at 9 yesterday with Regis and Kelley and left here at 11. By noon I was hungry, I mean real hunger. By the time I got home at 2, I was ready to eat my arm off. So you could say lunch was out of control, lol. Although I could have eaten more but I did stop myself before the nauseous stage so that's progress. I know I had more witty things to say that I thought of when I was walking, but just can't think of them now, dernit, senior moment!! Nothing, my mind is blank! Okay, you all have a great day. I really need to get in here and read entries, I'm missing out on all the fun, lol. Love you guys!

monet0239 on 11/21/2006:
hey sweetie.. just a suggestion here.. but on brekky.. have some kinda protein.. it stays with you longer?? hope that helps.. hugs

borntocry on 11/21/2006:
You always do this! You let yourself get way too hungry. Of course then you're "out of control". I do the same thing when I don't eat all day at work, then the evening is a food-fest. Protein bars work well for me as an on-the-go snack, but if you don't like those you can try something else instead. Preferably something which you don't like <i>too</i> much, because then you could find yourself eating it even when you're not hungry.

maria777 on 11/21/2006:
Good for you on the 2 mile walk! Keep up the good work! Did you do some Christmas shopping??? Have a wonderful day! Big Smile!

WorkingIt on 11/21/2006:
YAY! Congrats! Glad to see you are sticking to learning along the way =)

maria777 on 11/21/2006:
Have a wonderful evening! Big Smile!

Scruffy on 11/21/2006:
Alriiiiight Day 2 over and gone and was good!!!! Onto Day 3 :)


borntocry on 11/22/2006:
Hi Soonie!

Thanks for your comment! Do you think our constant hunger is because we don't eat enough protein? I also wonder if it could be because my iron levels are low... might start taking a supplement.

Oh and digestive crackers... they're the English version of graham crackers. They're round and slightly more crumbly, that's all. My husband likes them but can't get used to the bizarre name!

Soon2BThin - Monday Nov 20, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 0.0

Day One #2,713!! And I got up and walked 2 miles on my treadmill! Deja Vu!! Here we go again. I think I've learned some things since last week though, maybe. Hard to believe, after all these years, there are still things to learn about myself and this journey. Oh, and I did the 2 miles in 38:20, in case anyone's interested. No records broken there but I did it. Go, me. Thank you all for the comments from yesterday's entry, you too, Scruff, even though you are a man (just kidding) and I know you are all so right. In my head, I know that. Sometimes I just like to let things he says like that fester awhile. Then I get over it. I'll do like you say, BTC, and ask him that next time he's watching sports, lol. And thanks for saying that pic made me look hot, did you mean literally? Lol. You're so sweet for saying that. Okay, WorkingIt, one of those 2 muffins didn't make it to this morning, I ate it last night. It was talking to me all night too. One more to go. I think I will save it for a treat this afternoon and then, THAT'S IT, NO MORE. I've just got to get my groove back! Here's the plan for today---shower, brekky, go to the Goodwill store (you really should try it, I've found some really good things there and bargains) go to Super WalMart and then the grocery. I'm in charge of the mashed potatoes for Thursday and I'm buying the ready-made ones. We had them last year and everyone loved them and so easy to make, lol! Gotta love that! I'm planning on making sweet potatoes too, my DH loves them. With the little marshmallows. So it should be a busy day today. Go out and have a great Monday!

smiley2 on 11/20/2006:
Sweet potatoes with marshmallows, mmmmmmmh sounds so yummy!

WorkingIt on 11/20/2006:
LOL ok..no more muffins after today! Unless you are taking them to the goodwill store =)

monet0239 on 11/20/2006:
Just checkin in on ya sweetie.. :).. Im making the sweet taters for my family too :).. have a great one.. hugs

maria777 on 11/20/2006:
Hey, Soonie! You sound very 'UP' today! Thanks for your comments to me. I know how it is...you have your favorite goodies and don't want to 'waste' them...(yeah, we can wear them but not waste them, hehehe!!!)...I was brought up with the saying, 'waste not, want not'...but how about 'waste not, wear it'...or how about 'waste not, walk 10 x longer than it takes to enjoy eating it or wear it'...Hubby bought me some chocolate covered almonds while we were at the beach and I had some of them tonite, and not just a 'few'...I reverted back to 'old time stress eating'...I thought about getting rid of them, but I don't want to cause 'he' bought them for me...Now we're looking at Thanksgiving holidays coming up and I LOVE baked turkey....YUMMMMMMMM!!!!!...

Well, I've gone on and on now...anyway, hope you have a good nite...I guess we all say things that we don't think of how they sound when we say them sometimes, having read your yesterday's entry....

Your sweet potatoes with the little marshmellows sounds delicious!

Have a good nite and good for you on the walking! WTG!!! BIG SMILE!

And good for you on praying! BIG, BIG SMILE!!!!!

Scruffy on 11/20/2006:
Scruff was here :)

borntocry on 11/21/2006:
Of course I meant literally, what else could I have meant - figuratively? I was astonished when I saw those pictures... I guess I had been reading about how "fat" and "old" you are for so long that like your husband I had come to assume that there must be something to it!

Soon2BThin - Sunday Nov 19, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 0.0

Men! Don't get me started! Well, okay, the other day, I was watching the Dr. Phil that I'd taped the other day, you know, the one with the 2 anorexics. Talk about skinny! But I digress. DH was getting ready to go someplace (what's new, you can tell by my weight just how much he's been gone lately but I know, it's not his fault, it's mine, but I digress again) and as he went out the garage door from the kitchen to get something, I barely heard him say "Have you picked up any pointers?" I thought maybe I hadn't heard him correctly so gave him another chance and asked "What did you say" and the dumb#$* repeated it!! Well, I couldn't let him see how that affected me (problem here??) so I turned around and went back in the house. And thinking "I'll show him, I'll not eat anymore, I'll get so skinny he won't even be able to see me" you know, the usual things, lol! It's been on my mind ever since. Geez, could I really just eat 2 teaspoons of fiber cereal for brekky/lunch and whatever the small thing was she had for dinner (can't remember, see, I guess I forgot some of the "pointers", heh)? But seriously, I know I couldn't do that, heck, I'd get so hungry, I'd go off the deep end in a bag of chips and a bucket of ice cream for sure! (been there, done that!) The question is, could someone I love really hurt me this much? In the back of my mind, I know he didn't really mean anything (you laugh) but then I have gotten exceptionally rounder lately. You know, that thing Dr. Phil says keeps going through my head lately too "You teach people how to treat you" but after 38 years, how do you change that? Dr. Phiiiiil, where are you when I need you (whine)? Well, such is my life and now I've let you all have a small glimpse into it. Tune in for more tomorrow, lol. Hey, I don't want you to think my DH is a mean and cruel person, everyone loves him, he's a true saint, always helping other people. But he's like an old guy living in the '50's, you know, kinda like Archie Bunker. I think he missed the sexual revolution and women's lib, but that's another story for another day (don't worry, I won't go there??) Okay, that's enough rambling from the crazy lady, let's get down to business. I just ate my second muffin for the day!! I know, not doing so well. How did that 4 pack of muffins get in my cart this morning? And I made Cincinnati chili (Hi,BTC) this afternoon too, with spaghetti, grated cheese and those tiny little crackers too. And lots of leftovers. I know, put them in the freezer and I can't eat them hard (don't put it past me, heh) Okay, Maria, I'm going to try more prayer, I really need God's help in this. If this comes out sounding like I jest, be totally sure, I am deadly serious! I know prayer works (another story for another time)!! Okay, I'm trying not to get on the scale until I know for sure there is some drastic change. I'll let you know when that may happen. Nothing yet, lol. (big surprise) Man, I feel goofy today, sorry, must be the sugar high. Okay, I'll try to do better the rest of the day (it's 5pm) and tomorrow too. I really suck at this. I'm alone again too, DH went to BIL's to watch the Dallas game. I know, no excuse, I should have gotten on the treadmill. That's tomorrow morning's plan for sure. But what am I going to do with the other 2 muffins in my bedroom (don't look so shocked, I know you've all hidden food in your lifetime!)? I know, you're saying "put them in the trash" and I'll try but I'll have to hide them in the bottom somehow, so tedious, so much easier to eat them. Well, here I am again, letting too much of myself out there. Please be kind. I'm going now. Happy health to you all. One of these days I'll get here and do some checking up, I know that always helps me so I'll make a point of it. Ta-ta!

WorkingIt on 11/19/2006:
Sprinkle the muffins on the grass outside for the birds and squirrels. I've never hidden any food except from my oldest son so he wouldn't eat it all LOL. So I can't really relate to what you are going through.

As far as your husband, men communicate so oddly..they think they are being supportive when they aren't...My dad LOVES my mother to pieces but sometimes he seriously sticks his foot in his mouth and swallows LOL. I hear the way they rip on each other at work for being overweight. Men are not easy with each other so it only stands to reason that while they think they are cleaning it up some for us..they are really screwing up big time LOL.

I agree, prayer does work. My whole life is based on prayer and I wouldn't have the strength I do have if it weren't for my faith and prayer.

I think the only reason you suck at it is because you think you can't do it because of your recent experience with falling off the wagon. Look at how far you DID come, consider this a bump in the road and slowly work yourself back to that place where you feel better. And if you can't do the treadmill for 30 minutes or go very fast, just get on there and walk really slow even for a while. Just to remind your body and mind of how much you enjoy exercise.

Your prayers have already been answered in some respects as you are a diabetic who isn't suffering from something that cannot be reversed and are being given the opportunity to avoid many things. That means that someone up there thinks you are pretty special and has some special plans for you! **HUG**

Scruffy on 11/19/2006:
We can verbally butcher things and completely not mean to. We also are usually more logical and just see it this way or that.


borntocry on 11/20/2006:
Hi Soonie,

You sound like you're going crazy!! I know how it is - been there, done that (and going there, doing that again soon)!

Okay, first of all, I'm sorry that your husband made such a cruel remark to you. But as Scruffy explained, and as you yourself realise, he probably didn't really mean anything by it. In a way, I think it is partly a case of "you teach people how to treat you". Most men, even those living in the '50's, wouldn't consider you overweight - you know that, don't you?! But after years of dieting, counting points, exercising, etc. your husband has probably figured out that <i>you</i> consider <i>yourself</i> overweight! Perhaps he even thought that you might be interested in picking up some tips from a couple of anorexic girls! I know that my husband always helpfully tells me when there's a show about diet or weight loss on TV!

Really, if your husband actually wanted to hurt you, I'm sure he wouldn't be so subtle about it. He probably thought it was funny to suggest that you take some pointers from a couple of anorexic girls. Guys tend to view anorexia as something absurd and slightly grotesque, not even remotely desirable (as we girls sometimes do, despite our better judgement!). Maybe the next time there's some sporting event on TV you should ask your husband whether he's picked up any pointers from watching the athletes. Now <i>that</i> would be funny!

IF you can do it, open the package of muffins and empty them into the trash! It only takes a second - one second of determination could spare you five hours on the treadmill!!

But if you can't do it, how about going shopping again, and this time loading up on some of your favourite healthy foods? This is something which always works for me, especially once I start eating some of those healthy foods, as I don't want to "waste" them by spending the rest of the day stuffing my face.

Also, why don't you take a look at those pictures you posted for us that time, dressed up in your purple outfit, and remind yourself of how hot you can look? It's time for a little reality check!

smiley2 on 11/20/2006:
If my DH said something like that i would have freaked out!! Even if i knew he didnt mean it lol! I guess sometimes dont think before they speak and we should just take it with a pinch of salt lol! Weight loss is a sore point for us all, but dont let it get to you, you are stronger than that and you have the power over how you are going to react!

Soon2BThin - Saturday Nov 18, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 0.0

Hello, hello!! Thank you, thank you, thank you to hollybelle, mattscat, maria777, and especially you, Workingit!! I appreciate your time and consideration! But, hey, back the truck up, lol! I didn't mean that I was throwing everything out the window!! I just meant that I was tired of counting points, the regimin and obsession of it all! I'm trying to watch my diet and make good decisions. But, BUT, I am not on a "diet", as we all are fond of saying. I'm just going to live, well, "normally", whatever that may mean. For me, it means I'm going to relax, well, maybe that's not the word. I don't know, hard to express what I mean. I'm 57!! years old and I feel like I've been doing this all my freaking life and I'M TIRED OF IT!! It doesn't work for me! I know all about what is good for you to eat, what I shouldn't eat, how I should be exercising and all that! I just want to take it one minute at a time and do what I can. All the rest hasn't worked for me in the long term. Maybe this is just temporary, I don't know, I just feel like I need to change my life. 'bout time, huh? Oh, I need to add, it's funny? but that day I last wrote and bared all, that night I watched the new "Medium" (did any of you see that?) her boss had diabetes and didn't know it, hadn't seen a doctor, and he woke up blind!!! It was just temporary and his blood sugar levels were sky high so once he got them under control, his sight came back. Anyway, I took that show as a sort of wake-up call, as if I really needed one. I mean, I KNOW all this stuff. But I just felt like it was a little personal message from God? just to me and, believe me, it did make a difference in how I saw things! Sugar is my drug of choice and I need to get it right out of my life! Right now! I'm trying but you know, what Workingit said made sense to me. I am under the sugar's control right now, the more I eat it, the more I am not really myself. If I can just get through a few days without it, I know I will change how I feel. Right now, right now, today, this minute, I WILL do this, get it out of my life. That is my challenge, that is my goal. Seems so stupid, so easy, to just do this, right? But it feels so good knowing I have my friends here behind me, if no one else in my "real" life. Thank you! I hope this all makes some sense. I feel kind of erratic in my thinking. See ya tomorrow!

rjf on 11/18/2006:
*hugs* I'm so proud of you for continuing to try. I know it gets hard sometimes. We all have our battles to fight one day at a time. I know there are many times I just want to stop and say......Dammit, I'll just be this size the rest of my life.....but I know I can't.....I have to keep trying. I'm fighting another addiction as well and I know that I have to take it one day at a time....sometimes.....one minute at a time. I don't know much about diabetes, but I hope you can work out what you need to. Just know that we are here for you!!!! *smiles*

WorkingIt on 11/18/2006:
(((((((((HUG)))))))))))) It all makes perfect sense =) I wish you nothing but the best as it seems that the things we are told we cannot have, are the very things we want. I look forward to you feeling better and conquering your sugar!

mattscat3295 on 11/18/2006:
I am soooo proud of you for facing this and taking it in control your own way. I know you can do it, we are all hanging in here with you. Take care of yourself ********HUGS********

maria777 on 11/18/2006:
OHHH!!! So glad you are back, Soonie! Yes, I know, sugar can sure be addicting...you know I LOVE sweets!!!

Anyway, you sound so positive! With the Lord's help you CAN make it!!! He is our strength!

Have a good evening, Soonie!

Soon2BThin - Wednesday Nov 15, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 164.0

Weight unknown. Probably worse than yesterday. Eating not good. Mom still in hospital. Doing tests. She's not feeling too badly though now. Morphine, heh. They have her on a clear liquid diet. Hey, that's what I need! Lol Wish I could do that just one day, know I can't. I did a lot of thinking last night. DH was staying at Mom's house to take care of Sis and BIL's dog that Mom was taking care of while they are in N. Carolina, Duke University, for some surgery on BIL's skull for infection, but that's another story. Anyway, all alone, lots of thinking about me, type 2 diabetes, my eating, my aches and pains, what I'm doing to my body with eating wrong. Anyways....I'm going to do better, I swear. "I" have to do it, no one else can, I can't just put it out of my mind and expect to live a long, healthy life. I'm afraid I've already caused some damage from the diabetes and the sugar I've been eating, too many carbs, such as that (Hi, Geevee) So long story short, I've scared myself into doing better. But sometimes, in the light of day, things don't seem so bad and I fool myself into thinking I can get away with it. This has to end! But I'm going to try something new, staying off the scale, not counting points (been there, done that!) just trying to eat right, the things I know I should be eating, doing as much exercise as I can but not obsessing about it. What do you think? This morning I ate 2 eggs, scrambled, with 3 lf sausage links and green tea, no bread. (7 points, it's just such a habit now) I know I can't keep eating eggs every day and I'm not crazy about the egg substitutes so give me some suggestions for brekky, okay? What can I eat? Maybe the instant oatmeal only without the usual 2 slices of toast I usually have? Not putting the honey in my tea either anymore. Anyway that's just part of the thinking I was doing last night. I've never been able to understand people who have an addiction (go figure) cigarettes, drugs, way overeating, weighing hundreds of pounds. I never could understand how people could harm themselves this way so willingly. HUH?? Here I've been doing the same thing to myself, refusing to admit that I have a problem, I am diabetic (okay, type 2 diabetes, not the type 1, but still unhealthy and dangerous) I am just as bad? what would you call it? as they are!! Okay, I'm going to need lots of help--from my friends here, of course. I went to the library and checked out the Diabetes books again, going to read about what I SHOULD be doing, help with the diet, all that. Here goes. Let's hope Soonie has finally woken up and seen the light. Or she may not be around much longer or have to live her life blind, without her legs, as a stroke victim or heart disease. Diabetes can affect so many things with the body. If it's not kept under control. I'm sure when I go to the doc and have the tests done again, the numbers will be dangerously up. Must do that soon. She may even want to put me on insulin this time. Okay, hope I haven't bored you all too much today. Hope you all don't think I'm really soooo stupid, I know I have been! Thanks.

Progress as of today: -0.2 lbs lost so far, only 24 lbs to go!

WorkingIt on 11/15/2006:
My father has diabetes. It was diagnosed after an incident in which he sat in his favorite chair in his house with a shotgun under his chin telling my mother he wanted to die. Reason? His sugar was so out of kilter that he was mentally confused. I have diabetics that work for me, when they don't take care of themselves, they also spin out of control and cannot think straight. My grandmother was a diabetic and she died weighing well over 300 pounds. My father has had a triple bypass and his veins are so badly damaged from not taking care of his diabetes that they told him that the next time they will not be able to do bypass surgery. He has also had a toe amputated. My grandmother ended up with a colostemy bag, and was a mental mess most of the time. One of my former employees had his leg amputated just below the knee because gangrene set in.

I say this gently because I've seen it time and again in diabetics, and both types of diabetes are bad...all the people I mentioned have type 2. At any rate, it is my opinion that your blood sugar levels have been off for a while and this is why you are at the state you are in and feeling as if you can't get hold of the situation.

You should go to your doctor, explain that you haven't been eating properly (trust me, they are more than used to this confession) and that you would like to better understand what you need to do to get on track, lose the weight, and eat the best way for your condition. And, as far as you relaxing and not keeping track of what you eat..that will not work. As much as a pain that it is (which is the biggest reason diabetics don't take preventative care of themselves) it is the only way that a diabetic can manage the diabetes unless they want it to kill them. However, there is also something mentally soothing and calming about taking control of your condition. Think about it, while it may be a 'pain' to count calories, sugar grams, etc. think about how quickly you would be able to do it if you were laying in the hospital getting ready to go into open heart surgery and making your plans the night before with your children 'in case' you don't make it back out of that room. Or spending the night going down memory lane with your husband while he lays beside you in that hospital bed, holding you tight because he knows that there is a very real possibility that when they push your gurney through those doors that he may never see you alive again. You would be making all kinds of promises to your family, God and yourself that if you are allowed to live, that you will do right by your body. And then say this surgery is a success, your veins are still badly damaged, you still have plaque buildup, you are still not healthy because you've damaged yourself...and your husband and family are told by the heart surgeon that "you shouldn't think of quantity of life, consider the quality" and then being told "this surgery may last ten years, up to 15 if she takes care of herself." And you are only 50 when the doctor says this...and now you live your life on a timeline and you wish you could go back in time when it would have been so easy just to count the calories and the sugar and the fats and everything else. Much easier. Suddenly it would all look so simple and easy. Yeah, this is what happened to my dad. He is 60 years old now. It has been 10 years. His quality of life is diminishing and it breaks my heart to know that if he'd only taken care of himself when he was diagnozed at 36, he might not have to be in so much physical pain and poor health. And he knows it as well.

What are you willing to give up so that you can eat like it doesn't matter? Is your freedom to eat whatever, whenever, without 'worrying' about what it will cost you, more important than what it will cost you? If you are willing to die for FOOD, then so be it.

The one thing I will NEVER do is to sugar coat (no pun intended, trust me) the advice I give to diabetics because I have seen the hell it creates for the diabetic when it all catches up to them, and lived the hell it creates for those who love the diabetic.

Dieting is a pain if you think about it as deprivation. If you think of your diet as your way of LIFE so that you can continue LIVING your life and realize that this isn't something you are doing to drop a quick 20 pounds, this is something you are doing to save your sight, your legs, your colon, your heart, and to give you more time to spend with the people you love and not rob them of the time they have with you, just so you can eat a donut or sneak a candy bar or gorge yourself because you are sick of a disease controlling what you eat and you rebell at the cost of your own safety, then it might make more sense to you.

Your emotions are wound up because your sugar is out of line. Had I known you were diabetic before this, I would have been all over you earlier. There is no game to be played with diabetes, if you play a game with it, you lose.

The man who had his leg amputated, he blacked out one day while driving his children home from school. He plowed into the back of a bunch of parked cars in a lot just off the road. His kids were bumped and bruised but did not die. He did not die. There weren't any people in the parked cars. Does he take care of his sugar to this day? No he doesn't. He has decided that he is willing to pay the price to the grim reaper rather than 'give into' what the doctor is telling him..firmly believing that HE is in charge of the illness...and the illness doesn't give a good damn who he is or that he has children..it continues to kill him. He is 40 years old.

Get serious before you cause harm to yourself. Diabetes is a silent killer, quietly doing damage that you will never know about until it has destroyed whatever it is attacking at this very moment, and then you'll know.

Every day that you don't take care of yourself is 24 more hours that your illness has had free reign to ruin your body and get you that much closer to dying. If food is worth it, then I guess there is nothing anyone can say.

I am not trying to be evil to you, I am actually quite heavy-hearted about this. You WILL be ok. Get your sugar back under control and that will clear the fog and you will be ok. Don't give up on yourself and let it trap you. You are worth more than that! **HUGS**

WorkingIt on 11/15/2006:
By the way, I do not think you are stupid. Far from it. In fact, I've always thought you were very intelligent. Reading back on your entries I can see how progressively your sugar is getting to you. Go see your doctor. TRUST ME they are USED to this.

hollybelle on 11/15/2006:
You are NOT stupid, sweetie. WorkingIt said everything. She is right - you need to go to your doctor. You may need insulin now. Your thinking and your emotions are probably tilted right now because your sugar is off - and you have been under such stress lately (probably for a long time). The worst thing you can do is continue to ignore the fact that you have diabetes. I also know from experience in my family. My brother was Type 1 diabetic diagnosed around age 15. He passsed away last year at age 49. He had lost a leg to the disease and was about to lose the other. He was almost blind, and he used tdo morbidly joke that his heart was held together with scotch tape and staples (he had stints and other devices). All his life he chose to live like he didn't have diabetes. He thought he could get away with just ignoring the fact he was diabetic and could eat/live/be like everyone else. It's not true although there are many great inovations in the treatment of diabetes - everything from the new glucose monitors to the insulin pumps. If you don't have a good doctor - an endocrinologist who specializes in diabetic patients, get one. You can't sweep it under the carpet. You must face it head-on! HUGS and all things good........Holly

mattscat3295 on 11/16/2006:
YOU ARE NOT STUPID!!!!!! You are just asking for help and that is a good thing. I suggest going to your dr and asking him to set you up with a dietician that can help you with your diabetes(they did this for my father in-law). It really put things in perspective for him and helped him in the long run. Take care of yourself****HUGS**** and have a great day.

maria777 on 11/17/2006:
Miss you, Soon!

Soon2BThin - Tuesday Nov 14, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 164.0

Was woken up this morning at 6:15 by my Mom calling to ask me to take her to the ER. Got her there by 6:45, she was having terrible stomach pain all night and waited till then to call me. They're doing the usual tests and after an hour and a half, I left to go home at her insistence. Now it's 2pm and she still doesn't know what's going on. Of course, the morphine they gave her helped with the pain. So I'm just waiting to hear if I need to go get her or if they're going to keep her. Oops, phone just rang, they're going to keep her, although, I couldn't get details, the phone she was on had static, wouldn't you know. So she'll call me when she gets in a room. Whooee, what a day! I've just been waiting around, not really doing anything. Except I had McD's for brekky this morning!! After I left the hospital, it was just natural to stop for brekky, go figure! Comfort food! No excuses though, I'm baaaaad! So far this whole diet thing isn't going well at all. Sometimes I think I'm just supposed to stay this way and live a short life, although 57 and a half years isn't exactly short. Whatever! Well, just thought I'd check in, let you know what's going on. Love the comments, you're all so supportive, no matter how much I screw up! Name should be "Never2BThin", it's been such a loooong time here! Like I said, WHATEVER!! Later....

Progress as of today: -0.2 lbs lost so far, only 24 lbs to go!

greengirl on 11/14/2006:
Oh dear. I hope your mum is OK. She sounds like I was when I started with gallstones!!! I hope its not that!. I wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy. Hope shes feeling better soon. Comfort food is forgivable under such stress. Take care of yourself

hollybelle on 11/14/2006:
Sorry to hear about your mom's emergency. Keep us posted. Please do not refer to yourself or think of yourself as "baaaaaad". I assure you - you are not-at least not because you wanted and ate breakfast - ha/ha! Try to do what you can toward your goal while schedule is being interupted by Mom's hospitalization. Hang in there. Well check back with you tomorrow. HUGS Holly

maria777 on 11/14/2006:
Hope all's well with your Mom. Mine is in the hospital, too. I'll pray for you and your Mom.

WorkingIt on 11/15/2006:
Sorry to hear about your mom. As far as your age, you are still young. My parents are in their 60's and I think of them as very young still and they sure aren't ready to go! Me, I plan on living to be at least 100 so I have to roust my carcas now lol.

Maybe give yourself a week off, TRULY off, from thinking about 'dieting' and then search yourself and find out what is going to work best for you. It isn't unusual for folks to be one one kind of eating plan and then hit a plateau where it no longer holds their interest or isn't something they want to stick with. Nothing wrong with switching it up a bit. After all, we know it isn't a temporary solution, but a lifetime way of being. Personally, I think you should step back, get some rest and refresh your other senses for a while and then look at your eating plan with new eyes. Sometimes we can't see the forest for the trees. I know I get tunnel vision and have to step back and reconsider different things. You will be fine. I have faith =)

maria777 on 11/15/2006:
Hope your Mom's doing better today, Soonie!

Soon2BThin - Monday Nov 13, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 164.0

Well, the weight seems to be going the wrong way! Since it's Monday, I hereby proclaim it DAY 1---AGAIN!! I finally got up at a decent time and did half an hour on my treadmill. I don't think I've done that in at least a month! No speed records broken or anything and I didn't want to wear myself out the first day. So it's a beginning anyway. Now I'm tired. See ya tomorrow!

Progress as of today: -0.2 lbs lost so far, only 24 lbs to go!

WorkingIt on 11/13/2006:
Glad you got back on the treadmill! Sounds like you have to go back to basics and retrain yourself. At least this time the path is cleared, you just have to walk it a little while again. Have a great evening!!

Scruffy on 11/13/2006:
Da-- skippy!!! You do it! We are behind you all the way. I keep having Day 1's too. At least you haven't given up....WOOHOOO!!!!!


tourguidebarbie on 11/14/2006:
Day 1's are good. A fresh start! You'll do it!

Soon2BThin - Sunday Nov 12, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 163.2

Hi, gang! Was down to 162.6 yesterday, 163 the day before. Bouncing! Still not eating right. No exercise. I still feel tired, kinda like I'm getting over something, all worn out. At least the cruise gain is gone. I may just have to force myself to exercise tomorrow, get up early and stop sleeping half the day away. Didn't get out of bed until about 10:30 this morning. Going to bed at about 9pm. Too much sleep. Forgot to tell you, the day we left for the airport, we were almost there, the car loaded with Mom and I, Sis and BIL, DH driving. BIL says, hey, where's the backpack with the tickets? We all looked around, they had forgotten it, DH turned around, we thought we'd never be able to drive all the way back and still make it in time to catch the plane. Called the travel agent who was going on the cruise too to let her know what happened, they weren't at the airport yet either, DH drove 80mph all the way back to Sis and BIL's house and back again to the airport, record time, half an hour before the plane leaves, and the travel agent and her husband right behind us!! I think all the prayer helped. And DH's great driving skills, lol. Good thing we'd left plenty early the first trip. Okay, I'm tired. Just wanted to check in. I so want to get caught up with you all. I miss you. Finally caught up with all the TV shows I'd taped while gone. Couldn't stand to miss Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy, among others. Heroes, Lost, The Nine. Too many. I'm such a couch potato! Okay, here's to a better start tomorrow. Have a great Monday!

Progress as of today: 0.6 lbs lost so far, only 23.2 lbs to go!

borntocry on 11/12/2006:
Wow, what a story! You guys must have been on the edge of your seats all the way home and back! Reminds me of the first time my husband and I went to London together. He wasn't working in those days so he was supposed to meet me at the station with both of our bags. But when I got to the station after work I found that he had forgotten mine at home. He rushed back for it and apparently ran like a cheetah down the street from the station. Well, that's how he described it, and I have to say for him to make it back to the station before our train left he must have done something miraculous!

Soon2BThin - Thursday Nov 09, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 164.6

Woohoo! Can we say "water weight"?! And I didn't eat dinner yesterday. I thought I may have had the flu but feel okay today. I felt sick and had chills all evening yesterday, still not 100% today but better. Just the thing to get rid of some of that dreadful weight. I still don't feel hungry and just had a small bowl of oatmeal for brekky. It's just past noon now. I was so tired yesterday and slept most of this morning. Got up at 11:30 and had a nice shower. So here I am, still feeling queasy. So I will take it easy today. Didn't go bowling with the gang this morning so DH went without me. Well, that's it for me. Maybe I'll get back into the exercise tomorrow if I feel better. You all have a great Thursday!

Progress as of today: -0.8 lbs lost so far, only 24.6 lbs to go!

monet0239 on 11/09/2006:
Hope tomorrow finds you all better.. hugs

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/09/2006:
awww feel better. sleep and do whatever you need! I love when water weight is lost! haha, that's what happened to me this morning, 2 pounds down from yesterday morning, lol!

borntocry on 11/10/2006:
Hope you manage to fight it off, whatever it is. In the meantime make good use of the lack of appetite!

Moody on 11/10/2006:
WOOHOO!! That water is so good for us but it can sure throw us for a loop sometimes can't it?

Hope you get to feeling better...take care.

maria777 on 11/10/2006:
Hope you're feeling better, Soonie!

maria777 on 11/11/2006:
Have a good weekend, Soonie!

Soon2BThin - Wednesday Nov 08, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 167.8

Okay, this is not fun! Still gaining. It's so hard to get back on plan. This is my highest weight in about 8 years I think. I'm trying not to panic. I'll try to do better today. It's just that after all that free eating, I'm hungry all the time. And no exercise yet either. My right knee is giving me trouble too. Probably because of the extra weight it's not used to. I'm vowing to not reach the 170's. And I hate the 160's. So best I get going with this weightloss. I haven't had time yet to get caught up with you all. I still have taped TV shows to watch. I only taped the ones that are continued each week so I wouldn't miss out on what's happening. Didn't tape my soap though. I figure not much happens there in a week's time. Okay, you all have a great day and I can't wait to get caught up, maybe later this week. See ya tomorrow.

Progress as of today: -4 lbs lost so far, only 27.8 lbs to go!

monet0239 on 11/08/2006:
welcoem home sweetie.. 2.5 pounds isnt bad for a full week of free eating .. so no stressing the small stuff girly.. you'll get back to your good eating.. I have no doubt..;).. your a tough cookie.. :)..

hang in there.. hugsss

Moody on 11/08/2006:
It's so tough to get back in the routine of things after we have been off..you said it perfectly; "all that free eating"...it'll get us everytime. You just have to bite the bullet and jump back in! I believe in you 100%!

borntocry on 11/08/2006:
Come on, Soonie! We miss having you on board with us...

gte374f on 11/08/2006:
Good luck! I know it is hard..I am struggling right now..but I know you can get through this!

WorkingIt on 11/08/2006:
Welcome Back! Do you still go to Weight Watchers? Just think...after a couple of days of being back on track, you will find your way back to feeling good! You can do it!

Scruffy on 11/08/2006:
If knee is bugging you, try a stationary bike or water exercises. Start slow, wrap the knee, find a different thing....but move. The eating can change, you gotta move!

Scruff (on your side!)

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