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Soon2BThin - Thursday Feb 16, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 163.8

Made it to bowling this morning. Mom is doing somewhat better. Also did a weigh-in on my scale this morning. No surprises there. After bowling we ate at Applebee's. Mmmmm, the WW menu. I had the new Confetti Chicken. Very good. I don't know how they do it. Supposedly it was only 7 points, even had a little cheese with the rice, corn, black beans. Of course, it was smaller portions but really enough, not those over-sized portions you get of everything else on the menu. And a veggie medley of broccoli, carrots and, darned if I can think of that other veggie, but DH ate it, I don't like it. Funny, that's happening a lot lately, I sit and try to think of a word and sometimes it comes to me and sometimes it doesn't. Old age? My Dad had Alzeheimers and I worry about it all the time. Anyways....we enjoyed our time out, just the 2 of us.

Okay, just wanted to check in here. I know it's later than usual. Hope you're all doing well today. I just may get to the gym tomorrow, who knows? That's the plan, Stan. See ya.

Soon2BThin - Wednesday Feb 15, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

Still waiting for that little spark that makes me feel like doing something productive...I felt it last night for just a second, but I was at my Mom's house to stay the night with her so nothing to do but watch TV and go to bed. She just wanted someone there cause it's scary to be alone and be so sick although she was feeling slightly better. So I may stay again tonight, I don't know. She seemed lots better this morning and ate a banana and some Boost and went back to bed after an hour. She's scheduled for an upper endoscopy next Thursday so maybe they'll find something in that. She had one back in '04 and she had some inflamation in her stomach even then, probably got worse with the drinking. She says she hasn't had a drink in 3 weeks so that's a good thing. I hope she keeps it up. And she's lost over 15 pounds in just the last month!! Not a good way to do it though. I hope she will be able to keep it off. You know how it is, once you feel better, you start eating all the things you couldn't while you were sick. So if I stay with her tonight, I will miss bowling tomorrow, I guess. Waaah! Poor me, haha! My house is a mess and I really need to feel that spark. Came home from Mom's and colored my hair, it was so light from all the salt water and sun I guess, so at least I've done something. Too bad I think it's turned out too red again.

Well, that's my day. The weather is beautiful but windy today and I know I should be taking advantage of it and going for a good walk. Gosh, haven't done that in so long but I won't, I don't wanna. Bad Soonie! Will she ever change her ways? Tune in tomorrow and find out. Bwahahaha! See ya. Have a good one.

BethH on 02/15/2006:
I hope your mom is feeling better real soon. I know what you mean I have so much to do and so little time. Thank you for the comments you leave. It keeps me heading in the right direction. Well I hope you get that spark back and get some of the things you need to done. Have a great rest of the week. Hugs! Beth :)

Soon2BThin - Tuesday Feb 14, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

Ho hum. Another Tuesday. What can I say? It's early for me--7:40am. I got up early to shower and do my hair. Mom has a doctor's appointment at 11:15 this morning so I will be driving her again. I know, getting up at 7 really isn't that early but I've become so slack lately. I feel like every day is just the same as the one before and it's so boring. When will I ever get out of this? I know, I need to exercise but I'm so tired. I know the endorphins would do me good. The radio comes on at 7 and the first word out of my mouth is S@#$%, to no one, actually, no one is there. Sorry I'm so gloomy this morning. I know it will pass, it always does. I'm so behind on everything and that just makes it worse. There are some things I haven't mentioned here that are bothering me and it would take too long to explain. Having to do with #3 son living with us. I see no end in sight to that. Hey, it is cloudy this morning, maybe that's why my day is off to such a bad start. Not used to the clouds here. Going up to 79 today, they say.

Okay, enough gloom and doom from Soonie for one day. Thanks for the offer, BTC. But I said I'd never go back there, haha! I doubt I could get ready for a half-marathon anyway. It would be fun though. Are you really planning on doing it? I do feel very old right now, that's all. I'll get over it someday. Love you all, thanks for the comments. How ya doin', Maria?

Oops, I forgot, Happy Valentine's Day!! Hah, Valentine's Day. Whoopee!

Ice Princess on 02/14/2006:
First and foremost let me wish you a Happy Valentines Day! I hope you cheer up and good luck on your weight loss journey.

borntocry on 02/15/2006:
I feel for you, Soonie - I don't get up until 8:30 and that seems like the crack of dawn to me. I don't know how so many Americans seem to get up at 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning!

Thanks for your warning on sugar alcohol. I'm willing to risk the gastro-intestinal consequences, but I'm not so sure about that funny after-taste you mentioned. Oh well, I guess I should have known the idea of chocolate without sugar was too good to be true.

As for the Flying Pig half-marathon, I wasn't actually planning to go to Cincinnati until later this summer, but I think my husband wants to go earlier, so if you'd agree to do it with me, I could probably talk him into going in May! Both of us are really jonesing for Skyline, so I'm sure he'd be up for it! And you know, getting ready for a half-marathon would be a great way to ensure that every day isn't the same as the one before. Some days would definitely be MUCH worse than others! But seriously, maybe you could sign up for some sort of charity event in your area... that would be sure to change things up a bit. That's kind of why I decided to try to do this half-marathon, because I felt like I was always doing the same thing day after day after day. And it does get really boring after a while.

Soon2BThin - Monday Feb 13, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

Okaaaaay! Sorry about yesterday. Of course, it's okay for everyone to express their feelings here, I wasn't saying anything against that. I just knew I was stepping on shaky ground and I shouldn't have said anything. It's so hard to say things here in writing and have it come out right. I was only trying to get accross a little of my experience to everyone. I feel like I've spent my whole life not liking myself and now that I'm old, I feel like it was such a waste. You know the old saying, I wish I could go back and do it over, knowing what I know now. And I do understand that you can be dissatisfied with your body even if you weigh a lot less than I do. Did that come out right? Anyways....

A new day, a new week, and Soonie's starting over again, hah! Happy Monday, everyone! I hope you don't hate me.

vvvzena29 on 02/13/2006:
I think you made some good points in your journal yesterday. I remember 115. I still felt chunky. I felt sick all the time, no energy. When I got up to 125, I actually felt soooo much better! And you'd think that if I felt chunky at 115, I'd feel worse at 125. I actually didn't though. I think it was because I felt too good physically. I wish that everyone could just accept themselves at the weight they are right now, and love themselves for it. Even if we have some pounds to loose. It's so easy to say that though.... Anyway, I think you brought up some good points! I hope you can ease back into 'normal' life soon! :-) Renee

Maria7 on 02/13/2006:
Hey, Soonie! Glad you had a wonderful vacation! Good to see ya back!

Runner on 02/13/2006:
No need to apologize. No harm done! :) I appreciate your honesty, and you're probably exactly right---when I get old, I'll probably feel like I wasted a lot of time.

You gave me some "food for thought," and I always appreciate that!

borntocry on 02/14/2006:
Don't worry, Soonie, I still love you!

But what's with all this talk of being "old"? Anyone would think you were 80 years old from the way you're going on about it. My mother-in-law is older than you are and she acts like she's half my age. (It can be quite irritating at times, actually!) If you feel like you've wasted your whole life not liking yourself, then maybe you should stop now! The rest of your life is still to come - don't waste that too.

There's the Flying Pig half-marathon in Cincinnati on May 7. Would you like to enter it with me? You could walk it, you know! And it would be a great opportunity for you to get in some of that Skyline chili and Graeter's black raspberry chip!!

Soon2BThin - Sunday Feb 12, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

I think I can see a little light at the end of the tunnel. I'm still drowning in depression right now but I think things are making a turn for the better. I didn't want to get up this morning and seriously thought about staying in bed all day. Why not? What do I have to get up for? So finally about 10:00 I got up and did the usual morning things. And I did head out for McD's for breakfast. Hey, it gave me something to do. A sort of direction. A wrong one, I know, but that's what I did. Scale said 164 this morning. I am so floundering! My brain is still foggy from vacation let-down. That's the only explanation I have. Time to wake up and get with it, Soonie!! I can't keep going on like this. I'm sitting here, my jeans so tight around the middle I can barely breathe. I hate that feeling, who doesn't? At least I have my bottle of water here next to me to guzzle. I think that's all I will have for the rest of the day, water! No food even sounds good to me right now, ugh! Okay, this is it, no more fooling around. I'm pulling myself out of this right now. Here's to the new, improved Soonie!! Go, go, go....

*UPDATE* I just had to add this and I really don't know how to say it! I really don't want to offend anyone here. But....My heart aches for those of you who weigh in around 120 or even less. You all seem so unsatisfied and angry and not happy. Now I can understand that you want to weigh even less and you have to stay on top of things so they don't get out of control, but I remember when I weighed a lot less than I do now and I was not happy at all either. Thus I feel now that I wasted all that time being unhappy with myself and now look at me! I'm not saying that you'll end up like me but I wish you could just enjoy your low weight sometimes now. Things could be a lot worse. I love you guys and it makes me sad that you all work so hard and don't even enjoy the outcome. Please, please don't take offense with me. I guess I just want to slap you out of it, ya know? Haha! Life is good no matter what we weigh, right? I just read all the entries today and just had to put my 2 cents worth in. Take it from an old lady with experience.

snowqueen on 02/12/2006:
Half the battle is knowing you have it, Right??!! Maybe you just needed some extra rest and I think you are right about the vacation let down. Getting back into the routine is a pain in the tail.

I also completely agree with your UPDATE. Even though it has been a VERY long time since I've seen 120 pounds, I wasn't happy either. I thought I was tall, ugly and fat. So my perception became my realty. I literally ate myself into what I believed that I was (and what others told me... but let's not go there).

To all of you who read this, please listen to Soonie and me. Be the best HEALTHY you. Enjoy your life no matter what your weight is. - SnowQueen

borntocry on 02/12/2006:
Hi Soonie,

I know I'm one of the people your update is directed at (or against?), and I know you're right, because when I was sixteen and weighed 104 lb I didn't appreciate it and now obviously I can't even imagine being that size. But on the other hand, there are plenty of people out there who weigh 200+ lb or even 300+ lb and who would give anything to be <i>your</i> size, right? So you know, if I seem dissatisfied and unhappy some of the time, it's just because I'm a depressive person in general - kind of like you, I guess! Seriously, though, I'm not depressed all the time... I guess I just tend to write more when I am, as it helps me get it out of my system, not to mention all the sympathetic and encouraging comments I get afterwards!

How about this - I will try to work on maintaining a more positive outlook on life as long as you do too! Deal?

Runner on 02/13/2006:
I agree with BTC.

But I'll be honest---I felt a lot better about myself when I was 115. And I felt great at 110, too. I've been 150 and I've been 110, and I'll take 110 any day.

Generally, I'm a very happy girl...but often I am more displeased with my behaviors around food than the actual number on the scale. Because I know that if I could just learn how to eat normally, then I would not get so stressed out when my weight fluctuates.

I think we both struggle with the same problem...we're just at a different weight. Why should the number matter? My pants are also tight on me, and I hate the feeling, too. I appreciate your concern, but I need to know that it's okay for me to express my feelings here, no matter what I weigh.

Soon2BThin - Friday Feb 10, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

I don't know what's going on---I'm so tired and just don't feel like doing anything at all. Just not motivated. I have been helping out my Mom the last few days, we don't know what is causing her problem, severe nausea, but if I get her to take the pills, she does feel better. And she quit drinking! Maybe she's just going through some kind of withdrawal. Anyways, that's about all I've done lately. All I want to do is sleep. I guess I just have to fight that and make myself do something. I'm finally all caught up on my e-mail, I still have my soap to catch up on. I know I really need to just make myself get back into a routine of going to the gym too. Oh, well, I know it will all fall into place soon. I guess I'm just having after-vacation letdown. I sure miss that fresh pineapple, mmmmm! Okay, just wanted to check in here and let you know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. Soonie's just struggling. Have a great weekend.

borntocry on 02/11/2006:
Oh, you poor thing! I'm sure it's just a case of post-holiday blues - I always get them too. Hang in there, Soonie!

Soon2BThin - Wednesday Feb 08, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

Okay, time to regroup. This is the hard part---starting up again. All I want to do is relax and catch up on my soap that I recorded while I was gone. It's always so hard to get back in the diet and exercise thing again. Yesterday wasn't good. I ate what I wanted and did no exercise except for unpacking. Maybe I still have jet-lag?? At least I got up at a decent time this morning. It's now 8:25am. I so wanted to stay in bed. I guess I just have to ease myself into it again. Otherwise, nothing new here. Didn't get on the scale this morning, I know what it will say and it's not good. So I'll wait. Nothing planned today---I know, if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. Oh, well. Like I said---easing. So you all have a great day. Maybe I'll find time to get here and check up on how you're all doing. I'll see ya later.

liza36 on 02/08/2006:
I'm so glad you had a great time in Hawaii. Your attitude was phenominal and inspiring. It made me feel like I should live life to the fullest and not let my weight stop me from doing things (your reference to bathing suits, doing activities you wanted, etc).

Jet lag may take a few days to get rid of, but don't let that stop you from getting back to the business of eating right and exercising. I have made that mistake in the recent past, and I'm sure it will show in my weigh in today.

Have a great day!

borntocry on 02/08/2006:
My first day back from vacation is always a total loss too. It's like I don't want to admit that the holiday is really over! Depressing, isn't it? But it gets better! There are always other holidays to look forward to!

Soon2BThin - Tuesday Feb 07, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 162.4

I'm b-a-a-ack! Well, good news--I only gained 8 tenths of a pound! I'm happy with that. Not too bad! It must have been all the activity and I didn't get dinner last night. Did you know that they don't serve a meal on the planes now? Even on the long flights? At least not on United. Oh, you can buy a sort-of meal for 5 bucks, salad or a wrap, very small wrap (DH had it) but I wasn't falling for that. I made my meal from the little pack of crackers and DH's chips, that's all. Lunch we split a sandwich at the Maui airport before we left. So I really didn't have much to eat yesterday.

Well, what can I say?! The trip was a dream. Everything went perfectly and we had the best time. Our last day there, Sunday, we went down the road to Denny's and had dinner, split a sandwich, then went next door to the ice cream store, best ice cream in the world! I always end up getting the coconut, macadamia nut, fudge, mmmmmmm! Then we crossed the road to the beach and watched the sun set into the ocean. How great is that? And you know what I realized? I couldn't have had a better time even if I had been skinnier!! I was so busy having a good time, even in my bathing suit, that I just didn't think about being fat!! But it's really good to get back home. One week there was plenty enough for us. And I missed my computer, heh. And the DD. Oh, BTW, we were in Maui, gg. Second time for us. It's a beautiful island, that's for sure. And so small you have no trouble seeing the whole thing. And I SNORKELED!! Twice! I was nervous at first, getting into that salt water. I never had been before. And the water was only 73 degrees so it takes your breath away at first. But it was soooo fun! I loved it. And all the pretty fishies! Okay, I'll stop going on and on about it.

Soonie is back and ready to get started again. I feel great but a little tired. We got in this morning at 12:30, home and in bed at 2:00. But I had enough sleep (good to get back in my own bed, heh). Now I just have to unpack, hate that part. I'm looking forward to catching up with you all. So I'll see you bright and fresh tomorrow morning. Soonie, out!

borntocry on 02/07/2006:
Oh wow, that is so cool! I'm so glad you had such a great time!

rjf on 02/07/2006:
Nice to meet you. I'm new on here....fours days so far. It sounds like you had a great trip and not to gain much is a plus, too. Way to go!

Soon2BThin - Saturday Feb 04, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 161.6

Aloha! It's really windy here today. We don't have any idea of what to do today. Tomorrow is the second snorkel trip, looking forward to that. I hope it's not as windy as today. Diet-wise, I'm not really paying attention to what goes into my stomach, heh. But I don't think I'm doing too badly. Those chocolate-covered macadamia nuts keep jumping into my shopping bag. Oh, well, 2 more days and things will be sorta back to normal. I just dread that long plane ride back on Monday. At least we don't have a long layover in LA this time. Okay, I hope you're all well and staying strong. See ya later.

borntocry on 02/04/2006:
Hi Soonie,

Sounds like you're having a nice time. Love the sound of those pineapples and macadamia nuts! Not too bad as far as holiday indulgences go!

gg on 02/04/2006:
Where is Hawaii are you staying?? When I went I stayed ont he Kona coast and those macadamia nuts were EVERYWHERE although I never had one! Are they good?!?! Well have agreat rest of your tripp!!!!

Soon2BThin - Friday Feb 03, 2006
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 161.6

ALO-O-OHA!! Here I am again. We went snorkeling for my first time this morning. A huge pontoon boat took us out to this great, calm place and I was pretty nervous at first, but it was really fun. In fact, so much fun we've already booked to go back on Sunday morning. Hey, guess what. The pineapples here are incredibly tastier than on the mainland, heh. I've been eating them like crazy. Great snack! Okay, that's it for now. See ya soon.

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