Slept really well last night and got up wide awake........

Raining cats and dogs here...and I love it.

Started out by dumping both litter boxes...alwasys a dreaded job but it's done........

unloaded dish washer and reloaded and ran....found a baby spider in a drawer and that's it....drawer emptied and in the DW

Son B called and had a nice chat

took a bathand got dressed

loaded the washer....for the one daily load

checked on things to arrive...none today...so no need to keep clear of the driveway around back...( all delivery trucks circle around there because it's safer than backing out here ( hill).).......and I like to remind D to watch out on the back driveway...he is out there so much of the day....this sends them out our other driveway that is safer.

I found something in my photos on the computer today that I don't like at all..........there were random pictures of my youtube subscriptions in a folder in my photos........they were all just normal pics but the fact that they ended up in my photos is disturbing........I have been using microsoft edge lately...and alot of their blue E's are showing up in my file explorer............so today...after deleting all of the pics...I will also delete all of the blue e's...and go back to using firefox....I loved firefox....no shenanigans there......this is something that just cropped up over the last couple of days....and there is no reason for it that I can see...and I have no reason to want photos from their sites.....I watch them on youtube and other than that...no need.  Obviously things are changing and it is making using a computer more and more dangerous.

breakfast = coffee and beef and cheese on a whole grain roll

Lunch = baked cod, mashed potatoes, rice a roni, blueberries

Slept like a log last night and totally feel rested from 10:30 to 6.  Up and ready to get moving...1 load laundry done and other odds and ends. 

Breakfast was coffee, toast with peanut butter and honey and then yogurt.

Really do need to see if there are any more smaller clothes in the bins/cabinet.....that I would wear......could use some things that are a bit smaller....( I cannot stand baggy pants)....baggy tops...love them...but pants I can't deal with.   I wish there was a place open now around here to donate the things I will never wear again.  Did find some old work out clothes the other day made by GAIAM........NOPE...will never wear them again...LOL.......those days are over.......there are some things that I just draw the line at now...........I did find a bin the other day with short shorts and bell bottoms...LOL.......some things just need to either get burned or go in the garbage can.  I even had a pair of wide bells...in canary yellow no less...what was I thinking?  But then I look back at old photos and I dressed my poor boys in striped pants and turtle necks...............oldest son went off to kindergarden on the first day of school wearing white pants with the words Winnie the pooh all over them in navy blue.  Those were the days.......makes me want to get out the old photos again.......back when we thought we were cool........yet....so not cool.  I have a bad scar on the back of my thigh that happened when I was 1........so it's been there as long as I can remember...kind of like something that others may work to hide...but because it has been there basically my whole life...I never think about it...yet to my surprise...others do notice it and ask what happened.......I recall wearing short skirts/dresses with nylons back in the day..apparently so short that others would occassionally mention that I had a run in my nylons....NOPE...it was the scar.....now I look back and think....I cannot believe that I wore skirts so short that the scar showed...........

Some of these things should never be worn....then and now...LOL

Maybe for halloween costumes. 

morning snack was a quest bar and diet vernors

Lunch was baked cod, rice, tomatoes and peppers, toasted english muffin and mixed berries

 Dinner was a philly cheese steak sandwich and a mini pk of a quaker granola bite thing

Nice quiet day around here......so far I've stayed busy.......seems work is never done.  Weather is very comfy and just right.  Sleeping all night the last 2 nights...not even bathroom breaks so loving that. 

Breakfast was toast with peanut buter and honey along with coffee

Lunch was a philly cheese steak sandwich, peppers, tomatoes and rice

Dinner was yogurt, mixed berries and diet vernors

Evening Quest bar and quaker 100 cal pks (2)

D is watching his old westerns.....so I think I will sit down and watch a movie in the den.  Watched some youtube......now heading over to watch that movie.

 Up at 4:30.........and wide awake.....washer going, still dark out and coolish and in the mood for getting some things done today.

Schwans delivery today between 10 and 1 so I need to be at home because it's all freezer stuff.  

I'm feeling like we are in a postion to now deal with whatever life throws at us....of course I could be wrong.....but I feel like I've covered most of the bases anyway.  Prepping makes me feel secure and D is happy that I have taken that over...he has taken care of his part of this too so life goes on with preps at the ready.  

UPS brought a finger pulse oximeter yesterday that I didn't know I ever wanted.....being asthmatic has always made me wonder about my lungs...D has issues with that too.....so now we know where we stand with that and we are happy to know we are both still in the normal range for oxygen.....low normal...but normal...( or at least as normal as 2 old screwballs can be...LOL)

 Breakfast was unusual for most but quite typical for me.....leftover chili with 2 hot dogs cut up in it...coffee and diet vernors

snack was another diet vrnors and some sour gummies

Lunch was baked chicken wings, mashed potatoes and berries

busy phone today......

evening =  cookie, cranberry baar, animal crackers......drinking lots of water today.

 Woke up well rested......and full of energy.  

coffee

Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich

2 cans diet vernors ( will take me all day to drink these)

1 ounce brie

banana bread

chili dog

green bean and potato casserole

1 chicken wing

brownie

cucumber

100 cal pk popcorn

Headed out to the banks...proud of myself...stayed in the car and didn't go in any stores...

 Woke up with a lot of energy today...yesterday was a very sleepy day.....including 2 naps.....but I think I got that out of my system.

Slept well last night...Went to bed during a loud and heavy thunder storm...they clean the air and make my breathing so much better....so it is a nice morning here.

Didn't count cals yesterday but will today

coffee                       0 points                2 cals

skinny syrup             0 points                 0 cals

1/3 rd of a damaged plum  0 pts          10 cals

3 peaches ( from damaged 6) 0 pts     175 cals

3 baked chicken wings =         17 pts      648 cals

green bean casserole with potatoes added = 13 pts    and 417 cals

1 can diet vernors   0 pts                      0 cals

 2nd can of vernors  0 points and 0 cals

Tracking pkgs so UPS and FED EX due today........things are tricking in from some orders made days ago.....so many orders were broken down into many smaller ones

There is plenty to keep me busy here today so that is what I will get done...staying at home.

I think I mentioned on saturday that we won't be getting anymore of the Imperfect food boxes.....for several reasons......meat wasn't kept cold ( ice packs completely defrosted and dripping wet all over things)...........all fresh produce soaking wet,  so much of the produce was so badly damaged/bruised or rotten that it had to be thrown away, blood pooling in one package of meat that means it wasn't cool enough...others slightly cool to the touch........PLUS....while I am all for recycling...I found out that this company ( during times on NOT covid)....wants their boxes and wet bag ice packs back...so that they can be reused.......that means TO ME...that I could get my food delivered in a box with leaking ice packs that has been sitting in someone elses garage etc...with mice or worse climbing all over it ...none of the produce is protected from the box...it's all laying in there randomly.......with remnants of lettuce etc stuck to the box.........like I said...I'm fine with recycling...but when my food is touching something that unsanitary I would rather take my chances with the store...........( I've had gardens before...I know those foods are also in contact with wildlife)....but looking at the filthy and soaking wet boxes that arrived on saturday.............for me...that is going too far...and there was no cost savings....so we are done with that.

For $71 we got 4 small pkgs of room temp meat...a lot of totally bruised fruit, potatoes that were rotten and mushy, 3 tiny pks of cheese that were as much as $7.00 each, a damp pkg of dark chocolate, ......the cucumbers, zucchini, lettuce, radishes, 2 peppers and 3 of the apples were okay as were 2 baby avocados......I'm salvaging what I can and will use it over the next few days....but not worth the money...I will be better off shopping for produce at the store.

 So far spent the day doing paperwork and paying bills and doing laundry...dryer decided to stop with the haot air again....not a good time for this.   Made bed, cleared off the dining room table and put some more canne goods into storage for winter.

2 pks arrived...waiting for the next one...

 Beautiful day today....slept well......and eating carbs......just not interested in counting and I think it's a coping mechanism.  Not going to fight it...just going with it.  Things to do around here and I seem to have no interest in counting as long as I'm so busy.  maybe one thing at a time....not sure.  The mood, the tension of life right now is taking away my motivation.  

The Imperfect food box is due  to arrive today and I will believe it when I see it....I can';t imagine why they would deliver here and not in other more populated areas.  Like I said...I will believe it when I see it.  Hopefully it's a go on that....I need that in my life.

The intuitive eating continues......but I'm doubting right now if I'm eating out of physical need...I'm suspecting emotional need......I usually can tell the difference.....it's usually obvious......I am craving chicken salad and will have that for lunch..........maybe the bagels are needed...since carbs are happiness and energy......or are they just what I lean to when stress arrives.  I can say that chicken salad is a strong craving......maybe that's all my body needs....protein/fat/celery/bagel/PB/honey...........maybe it's genuine need there.....no idea really....just going with it.

Breakfast = bagel, butter, PB, honey and coffee.

Lunch was a chicken salad on a spinach wrap and veg beef soup with blueberries for dessert

Snacks were a clio yogurt bar and cereal and milk

The imperfect foods boxes arrived bt Fed Ex............I'm not exactly sure what to think......both ice packs were totally defrosted.......and there was 4 packages of meat in there...that were slightly cool......there was also very small pkgs of 3 cheeses that I have never tried.....but I don't mind them not staying cool.......the veggies were all wet from the defrosted freezer bags........so i cleaned things and refrigerated them...all meat went into the freezer.....didn't get pics..thought about it too late.   there were 2 of the tiniest avocados I have ever seen.....and some tiny apples...and several necrtarines that were so bafdly bruised all of the way around them that I'm not sure they will be salvageable.....will see this evening.........The breads look fine.......oddly enough there were tiny potatoes wrapped up in a plastic bag there were drenched...not sure how that happened......I can see that I will need to order things with tougher skins in the future...the cucumbers and zucchini were looking good......It was kind of weird to see a couple types of lettuce just laying around in a box with assorted produce all over it.....I will try it again next week......and not order meat, or cheese or produce that can be easily bruised.......the clam shell of tomatoes, mini bag of radishes, plums, green onions and 2 peppers were fine.......hopefully the meat didn't spoil...I wouldn't mind ordering meat in the winter....but not in the summer.....and the tiny cheeses were amazingly small for the prices.........probably won't get cheeses anymore either......but the breads...2 loaves, a pkg of bages and a pkg of naan and hot dog buns look fine.....there was also a very small pkg  of dark chocolate...expensive by my standards..that is also not worth the cost.....I figure that this order was a learning excperience.....I see now what to stick with in the future...and in the meantine we will enjoy what we can of this box.

 Tries the chocolate and the brie...and fontina cheeses........on second thought...we decided to cancel........we have concerns with the wet ice packs and the meat not being kept cold.  Had to throw out some rotton potatoes....and will probably lose peaches and some nectarines and an apple....so probably not worth it.

Well...we both got the 23 and me testing completed...so I take those to the post office today....and stop at the bank...and then back home........lots of boxes came in over the last 2 days...and they are begging to be unpacked......we are now set...no more room...and we now need to work off this stuff....( plus the impossible foods and schwans deliveries......I'm ready to stay home again.......I've had enough these last 2 days to hold me for awhile.......neighbors came over yesterday afternoon.....kids called.........that's enough for me.

I need to settle in again....and count...pants a bit snug today........but I haven't been overeating....no scale...didn't think about it today until now.......

There is a lot of shelf filling to do today.....

And this weekend i need to get back at organizing the basement...there are still bins I haven't looked in for 5 1/2 years......I'm noticing that some of the photo albums are falling apart...( the ones that has the "magnetic" pages...more like sticky pages that aren't sticky anymore....need to empty those.....but not today.

Waiting for hair to dry...then heading out.

Breakfast = Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich and coffee

Ran the bank and post office errands

2nd breakfast of toasted bagel w/pb and honey....not a good habit to start...need to go back to telling myself no.

Phone busy all at once.......why does that happen.

Some of my scenery on the trip

Amish sheep farm...almost got a pic of an amish farmer herding his cows...but I wasn't fast enough with the camera....had to settle for sheep...at least they were still.

Dinner was chicken, rice and mixed veggies with cake in a cup for dessert.

 Yesterdays walmart pick up lacked the few things that we had to have...and didn't substitute anything for them.......otherwise.....I brought stuff home from there....but.....I had to go out today to get the things they didn't have.......prices are upabout 1/3rd........on many things but not all......got to the post office, dollar general and grocery store...plus filled up the gas tank......will have to go back out eventually to the Post office again and the bank..........23 and me.......took hours yesterday for mine...and I even stopped answering question ( for research only).......towards the end.....I was getting survey fatigue.......today i will get D's registered.....( he doesn't want to answer a lot of questions so it will be shorter..................).......so...it's raining....and there were many amish buggies out today with ladies only...they must have had a gathering of some sort......all getting  wet in the rain.........so back inside and settling down.  Need to print out a Tigers baseball schedule...do some paperwork, on the second load of laundry and then I'm done for the day.  

Breakfast was a Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwich and coffee

 Well..........more deliveries today and a 2 hour plus round trip to walmart pickup............tomorrow errands in town ( BUT NO SHOPPING)......I'm ready to figure that we now have a good amount of supplies for the winter.......with imperfect foods delivery, schwans delivery .....we should be good for a long long time.........

...we are getting notices of area stores and infection warnings......so  I just want to stay at home.  

Todays trip will cut the day in half so I probably won't get much else done.....tomorrow...wrapping things up with the bank and post office.

We have had these 2 boxes of 23 and me genetic testing here for months and haven't done them because of the situation....but I think we will get those done today so I can take them to the post office tomorrow.........

Intuitive eating continues without problem....and I'm actually working on not judging it......and when i do look back at my day...over about 3 days......it all evens out nutrient wise......so I'm sticking with that....cals a generally between 1,200 and 1,300....most days.....figured usually at the end of the day.......less stress on me and just going back to my past roots...when there was no weight issue.....................I can definately remember the beginning of my weight problems......it was a stresful time......and it was also the beginning of McDonalds supersizing meals....when they made them so tempting in order to get your moneys worth...that I believe most people went for their value............and I know I totally lost track of what a serving was ( as compared to before)......restaurants started upping the quanities...stores got larger to accomodate the huge munbers of NEW foods...( convenience and boxed).......and I know I lost track of what was an appropriate amount of food and whart wasn't.

I asked D the other day what cookies he remembers from his childhood...and he only remembered ones that his mom baked...he had NO MEMORY of store bought cookies......I also remember  mainly cookies that the family baked also...but i remember animal crackers and the windmill cookies that we bought...( both still available)........but I don't remember any others...what changes have come to pass......and not necessarily in a good way........but JUST DIFFERENT!  

Son B has already called 2 times this moring.......bemoaning the fact that they don't know rather my daughter in law will have a job ( she works for the school system).............rather they should put $2,500 into her current car...or buy a new one........if she isn't going to be working...then repairs make more sense......if she will be working than a new car and payments make sense............I told him to just try to take everything day by day.....he is sounding overwhelmed.............but my gut feeling is to just keep putting one foot in front of the other...I don't think there is any way to have even the slightest way to know what is around the next corner anymore...what we thought we knew...we didn't know.  

I for one am just trying to do the best I can each day and keep an open mind....because I know one thing for sure.....i really seriously know nothing.