Rained all night so it will be an inside day...........time to gather the odds and ends together again and make use of them.......it is way too easy to shop...when I don't know what I already have on hand....so today....things will be gathered together ( of all kinds)...and set aside to use up.  Rainy days are great for this......I really want to paint the lawn furniture...but since it needs to be done outside...that is a no go.  I'm also ready to start some time management habits for myself..........I don't want schedules that make me antsy forcing me to do things when I'm not in the mood...but instead it will be a list of things to pick from...so I don't feel so ruled by rules.  Since I know that I do my best most productive work when I'm happy doing it......picking and choosing with spare time will keep the productive mode going....and keep me happy while accomplishing things at the same time.........Happiness is always my goal.  Getting necessities done is always an accomplishmnet which in turn also makes me happy.

Sorting through the fridge this morning I found a forgotten boiled egg and had to throw it away.......that is so wasteful and makes me sad....poor planning on my part wasted money and resourses.  But I did find some leftover potatoes that I turned into a tasty breakfast...kinda weird but tasty and full of potassium....for the win.  After parents who were from the great depression generation...and myself being part of the personal responsibility generation......hard work and waste not want not standards are apart of my DNA..........Can't shake those standards and really don't want to shake them....they have served me well in life.  On to the pantry to rotate the grocery stock...................always with food to last for 6 months at all times.........chatting with a co-worker once.....she kept no more than a couple of days worth of food in her house at any time...( and she had kids).......she made the statement that if a need or emergency ever existed...she would simply go take the food of those that were prepared for emegencies away...and feel no guilt about it at all......what  a sad commentary on society today......I look with respect at my ancestors.....they taught me well.....if the time ever comes I will happily give food to children....all else can go forrage for themselves. 

On another note.........my pants are too loose this morning to keep wearing them.....YEAH!!!!  Time to get the next size clothing bins out and find some replacements................................Thankfully I'm blessed with loads of energy today...there is a lot to do.  The backseat of my car will be full by the end of the day....so will likely head to donate tomorrow or even later today.

Up at 4 this morning and headed for the hospital early.......D had his colonoscopy and it went just great......no problems....but I didn't think there would be.............he was so funny.....when they brought him back after it..they sent me back to his room.....he was so out of it!!!!  Laying there with one eye open and one closed....LOL......I told him that it sure happened fast and he said......" did I get one?"...I said "one what?"......He said...an OSCOPY!!!!!!.....a few minutes later the dr comes in and tells us the results..."very good"....and asked him if he had any questions......well...after a moments thought...he did have a question for the doc...."Whats the price of GOLD?????  Well...the doctor looked stumped.....I have NO IDEA where that came from...LOL...well...we can laugh about it now!!  Next appt  thursday.....not holding my breath for that one either........the big appt will be at the end of JULY....UGH....it is where i think the answers lie.

So...stopped at Mickey D's and had an egg mcmuffin......came home and had 2 cups coffee with the new reeses peanut butter chocolate whipped topping.....( nice addition to coffee).....a tiny amt of pasta with cheese and some pork cubes...and some ginger ale....after 4 1/2 days of liquids...it all filled me up quickly..........I definately lost some wt with this fast.......feeling great and would like to get some things done...but instead...I'm keeping it quiet and slow around here to keep D in the relaxing mode.....for the rest of the day.....otherwise...I know him...he would be outside cutting down trees or something.........He did have a nice long phone chat with one son...about this mornings events......they laughed like a couple of hyenas.........so happy so see them laughing.....there just isn't enough of that in the world right now.

D is on clear liquids only today...and this no cooking for 2 days sure is making my life easier...LOL

Sticking to this liquids only again today....clothes are looser and I'm full of energy.......and I'm suspecting that food just bogs me down....reminds me of my very active years past...full of energy and a small appetite....personally...I think I run much much better on minimal food..........

Tomorrow bright and early we will head to the hospital 45 minutes away for his colonoscopy........he will be starving immediatly after...and will want an egg mcMuffin...LOL.........maybe I will break my liquid fast then too...will wait and see...............

so far today 2 cups coffee and 1 cup almond milk., pomegranate juice, ginger ale.

Finally a quiet day here today....D  is prepping this weekend for a colonoscopy on Monday...so since he is have a soup and cracker kind of day  ( tomorrow is totally clear liquid for him).....I thought it would be a good time for me to do a few days of a liquid diet...different for me than him......I'm on day 3...but where he will be clear liquids tomorrow...i've been on a liquid of any kind.......This is one of my go to ways to drop some weight...over a 3 or 4 day period of time.  I usually drop 3 to 5 pounds on this...and it always energizes me.......I can't say that I'm getting a lot of nutrition ( but I do take vitamins during it to cover that)...and basially I drink anything I want.......

Thursday...I had 2 cups coffee, a bottle of vanilla premier protein, 1 mini cup sf jello, Cookies and cream flavor Muscle milk, and a cup of chicken broth, a cup of hot tea, and a cup of hot chocolate......calories only came to 411

Friday = 1  cup coffee, 1 vanilla Muscle Milk, chicken broth, SF jello, regular bottle vernors ginger ale, 2 cups hot chocolate, chocolate Muscle Milk ...calories came to 491

Today so far ......2 cups coffee with 3/4ths cup milk and a pkt of truvia, Chocolate muscle milk, chicken broth and a cup of hot chocolate, snapple

It always concerns me about the low calorie intake but I feel GREAT....so since it is only a few days......I don't think it hurts anything....it definately does flatten the belly...and takes away any fluid retention.......Yesterday I did work to raise the cals a bit...and today hope to at least get those higher again.......along with this I'm also drinking lots of water.

Still waiting for answers on D........he does have another drs appt later this week....and at least one other in July....still hoping for answers....I'm sticking to my own diagnosis for him....I still think it's bladder/kidney stones.......but we shll see.

Today begins the next round of medical tests and drs visits..........and will cover the next 2 weeks pretty throughly......I feel bad for him but it's necessary to get answers....so it's worthwhile.  Our days will be pretty chopped up with appts...so will see how much computer time I will have.

While I'm doing WW with private coaches.......i can clearly see that ww ( formerly Weight Watchers)...is falling apart.....when Oprah bought out part of the company...she came in a ruined it.  I belong to several Face book groups that are all WW.  I along with all the others that subscribe to the WW magazine got a surprise a few days ago........WW magazine is no more...so now they are sending us Eating Well magazine...that truly has NOTHING to do with WW......( should have just refunded our $ instead)....but...they just decided that we would put up with it.  With the latest changes from meetings to Studio.......200 zero point foods....and a switch from weight loss to healthy eating...they are losing their standing with the public...........they should have stuck with the old program we all loved.........( there are ctually a lot of people who joined and gained weight now)...they messed up...they had a good thing going...and they let Oprah ruin it.  I will stick with the program since I am doing okay with it.....and I have a commitment into next fall....but it sure isn't what it used to be......seriously....there are untold numbers of people taking laxatives daily now with this new program...that are doing themselves serious harm ( not me).....but these groups are pointing out so many problems with this that make me suspect that WW or WeightnWatchers or whatever....is about to fold........

I will probably not be posting much for a few days...we will be very busy traveling to his appointments (  remote living problems..)........but still counting...not weighing...clothes getting looser.....and feeling okay myself.

Happy Fathers Day...a day to celebrate for sure. 

I asked D if he wanted to go out to dinner or if he wanted me to make him a T Bone steak.....he chose the steak....so that will make counting a lot easier for me today...I just know if we went to the restaurant I would not be as good points wise........Living away from the kids sure does change holidays......very different from when we all lived near to each other.  We have all spread out now and while we all live where we want....we have lost the closeness....always a phone call away...yet so far.  Asked D if he wanted me to make a dessert...and he said no...so that helps too.  

Breakfast =

Fage FF yogurt 0 points and 120 cals

Mrs Buttersworths lite syrup ( 1 T.) = 1 pt and 25 cals

orange = 0 points and 62 calories

2 cups coffee = 0 points and 16 cals

Won't bore everyone with anymore pics today...I'm making a nice Fathers day meal for D...but I'm eating leftovers because what he is having isn't really going to fit into my points........so......I plan to stay within points...and get a few more cals today though...yesterday was a bit short.

 Thankfully I've been able to stick with WW through all of the family ups and downs.........toyed with it a bit...and felt that maybe I should just play the game the way it is set up...........Toying with the process worked many years ago....but as the years go by ( mine)....and the ww program changes........I think this program works well without my own personal adjustments...........Personal coaching is nice....certainly much easier that dealing with meetings so far away.........all the coaches have been super so far......They all have gotten the fact that I know the program...and won't really have any questions....and that I am basically using them to keep me accountable.  I can use the same coach each week or try different ones...so far...I've chosen 3 different ones.....and was happy with all.  D's Drs appts and tests continue through this month....and still waiting for the ok for a specialist appt.  We will both be happy to have some answers and get this out of the way.  

Raining again today....so no outside things.........plenty to keep busy with inside....

So far over the last 16 days I've just counted ww points....but with so many zero point foods now ( 200 of them)....I think I would like to not only count points but calories at the same time.  I've gotten curious about how many calories I'm eating now.......zero point foods are all healthy...but they still have calories....and the old calories in/calories out is still the way it works.  

Clothes are still fitting loosely....and I can see that they will need to be donated in the near futrure....right now...I'm just enjoying the looser fit for summer.  Still putting off breakfast as long as possible...that just helps me soooo much.  Today I will be testing out the 2 cups of coffee in the morning again...lately I'm drinking the McDonalds pods for keurig...and likeing them so will see how this goes.   I miss my Fitday software.....disc broke and it's not replaceabble...so I'm just googling cals now..

Breakfast

2 cups coffee = 0 points and 16 cals

2 boiled eggs = 0 points and 154 cals

1 slice Aunt Millies 12 grain bread toasted = 3 points and 100 cals

20 sprays of I Can't believe it's not butter spray = 0 points and 0 cals

1 Heaping T. Walden Farms Grape Spread = 0 points and 0 cals

36 green grapes = 0 points and 72 cals

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Breakfast = 3 points and 342 cals

 Lunch

Banana = 0 points and 105 cals

Salad = 2 points and 88 cals

Turkey sausage and peppers and onions cooked with 1t olive oil = 3 points and 169 cals

Dinner

Flatout wrap with mustard, lettuce, tomato and 2 deli chicken breast slices = 2 points and 196 cals

2 lite mozarella sticks = 3 points and 100 cals

Built bar = 3 points and 110 cals

So far today 1,110 cals and 16 points..........Should add a few cals and a few points...will see how hungry I am later...may just leave it at this.  Almost 9 now...and not hungry...so this will be my day.....really could use some more points...but oh well...not going to eat when I'm not hungry....time to think beore I eat...LOL

Probably won't be posting for awhile........sister in law passed away yesterday, another just got out of the hospital...and D has end to end drs visits and test for the rest of the month...so our days will be quite diferent......keeping on with the WW.......

Testing....wrote a post and it wouldn't let me post it.

Ok...now all is well..........not going to rewrite it...but moved the bed room furniture around this morning...so deep cleaning going on in there...and lots of purging of storage areas.

My plan for the next 6 days is to seriously limit what I eat for the next 6 days.....I tried something yesterday that I used to do so many years ago.....and that was to use most of my weeklies up on day one of the new week ( Friday is day one on WW for me this time).....and eat dailies only for the rest of the time....( that would be Saturday-Thursday this week)....so I'm looking forward to seeing how the next few days go...used to work super well..........basically what it comes down to in the real world is that you have 1 day a week where you eat plenty of cals....and then restrict the cals for the next 6 days.........my body likes that...and responds well....so will see how it goes this time....I know it used to be really effective.

Breakfast = coffee and banana

Morning snack = Built bar and a mini bag of Off The Eaten Path veggie puffs....kind of made up for the skimpy breakfast

Lunch = yellow peppers, cherry tomatoes, olive oil, smoked sausage, 3 bean salad, strawberries

Dinner= salami and mustard on bread and Halo Top chocolate almond crunch

Evening = coffee