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bearcountrygg - Tuesday Oct 13, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

We were supposed to get snow overnight but instead had a downpour and that is just fine.

I need to correct my math for yesterday......The total amt of calories for October when I started yesterday should have been 32,000


This is my 3rd attempt at posting this morning.....and they kept jumping around..and then I lose the post.....so posting this now.  Lost 3 posts so far...will see how this goes now.

Slept all night so soundly that I'm up at 4:30 and ready to get a lot done today.

1.  Read 1 hr

2.  Exercise 30 min DONE ( working on arms with 2.5 pound weights)

3.  Homemaking dailies 1 hr. DONE

4.  Quality time with family DONE

5.  Organizing DONE

6.  Paperwork DONE but it took all morning

7.  Run the house like the business it is DONE

8.  Be Kind = So far!

9.  Prayer/worship DONE

10.  Keep my standards/don't react  =So far so good!

Starting today my total number of calories left for October is 30,793 calories for the rest of the month.


Graham crackers


2 whole wheat rolls



1 jif bar,

1fiber one bar


mini bag goldfish

1 cup goulash


2,672 calories so far...HUNGRY DAY...but yesterday was low cal...so possibly making up for that.....Paperwork kicked my behind this morning...( one thing after another)...and I ate out of frustration too.........but..it will work out.  Guess the old stress eating is still with me...and shows up in carb snacks....and life goes on!

 I haven't eaten like this in I don't know how long...and at the moment I don't care.....Paperwork this morning was a mess........and affected my mood......and I wanted food....and..oh well......I can only hold so much...LOL...just rolling with it...and hopefully it will be a long long time before it happens again.

One thing I notice is that I'm not hungry anymore and I also don't have any energy...I think I like energy better........



Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/13/2020:
Yes, I thought the number you had was a typo! You'd have starved.

I love your goals of quality time with family, and be kind. :)

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
I was a bit shocked this morning when I saw that I was missing a zero...LOL

grannyannie on 10/13/2020:
When I try to put bullet points for my goals and for my meals, the text disappears and won't let me do it.

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
It was jumping all over this morning...I lost 3 posts...so when it does that...i write a sentence and then quickly post it...somehow...it seems to help....It's happened quite a few times.....maybe it's my imagination but getting that first post up..seems to help....I've also wondered if it was my keyboard....

Jacky82020 on 10/13/2020:
Snow already? Will never forget the heavy snow we had the first year we moved to Pennsylvania on Halloween. Unusual. Snow on Easter is typical. Rainy and cooling down here, not too bad. Maybe 70 yesterday. The husband built an elaborate awning on the back deck to keep the spoiled baby boy dogletts dry when they go out to pee etc. it was a kit but required much modification and took him 3 days. If a tornado hits us, that awning will be the last thing standing.

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
We usually get snow mid October here.....but it never sticks and melts fast....but a friend downstate in Genesee county has already had a quick snow this year and that is really rare.....so we are ready around here for it at any time....and here..it will last sometimes right through april....I know when my husband had his knee replacement a couple of years ago I spent the night sleeping in a reclining chair at the hospital because there was an ice storm and didn't want to take the chance of driving 45 minutes home...

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
Should have said that it was April 17th...and still having ice storms.

Jacky82020 on 10/13/2020:
Wow! Wouldn’t take any chances driving in that weather either.

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
I'm a homebody so I kind of enjoy winter......and living here It just works best for me to stock up on what we need...then...when we do need to get out....we can wait for the best day road wise.

Donkey on 10/13/2020:
I'd take rain over snow too but it's getting to be that time of year.

Great goals list! I think I need to be more definitive in my goals.

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
The more specific I am the better......I get wishy washy sometimes.....

Horn_of_plenty on 10/13/2020:
i also can get stressed from paperwork / work...and eat more sometimes because of it. at least it's over and 2600 cals is by no means going to hurt you in the long run ;)

also, goulash sounds pleasant and comforting...i may try to make it in the future ;) did you make yours from scratch?

Horn_of_plenty on 10/13/2020:
we got the rain too - much needed as it's been relatively dry since September! :)

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
Raining here again right now.....and it's bringing down all of the leaves.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/13/2020:
ahh, love the fiber one bars...but i have some other things to keep me company for now ;)....i love those original fiber one granola choc chip type bars! yum!

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
I love any kind of bar...or chip...or cookie..especially in the little mini packages.....my kryptonite.

bearcountrygg - Monday Oct 12, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

I am working my way to monthly calories.....and could go from Oct 12th to Nov 12th.....but I think it will be a lot easier if I just go from Oct 12th through Oct 31st...then go month to month.........so....20 days left in October x1,600 calories is 3,200 calories for the remainder of October........

Shooting for completing the month with some leftover calories...which will be tossed out to start November..........( right now just concentrating on maintenance but will also accept some balance and let my body decide where it likes to be for health and not by a number on the scale)....... I will adjust calories for November as needed.


1.  Read for an hour a day ( work on books in the bookcase and put aside to donate when possible) Reading Sing You Home by Jodi Picoult DONE

2.  Exercise for 30 minutes ( list exercise by type daily) Hand weightsn( working on upper arms) DONE

3.  Homemaking dailies 1 hour a day  minimum ( plus laundry as needed but not counted) DONE

4.  Quality time with family DONE

5.  Daily organizing ( closets, drawers, file cabinets, rooms, basement etc) DONE

6.  Daily do paperwork, phone calls, transactions, orders, tracking, mailing DONE

7.  Run the household like a business DONE

8.  Be kind DONE

9.  prayer/worship DONE

10.  Work on using good judgement to achieve what I want/expect from myself.  I get out of life what I put into it.  I can control my own actions and I cannot control others actions....BUT......I can decide how I react to others.  Keep my standards. DONE

coffee = 2

yogurt = 140

1 chicken tender = 112

3 beef sticks = 330

2 corn muffins = 360

cauliflower = 15

celery - 10

olive oil = 45

red beans and rice = 150

quinoa and vegetables = 43






Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/12/2020:
Good approach to ease into the monthly calories.

I just noticed the hour you devote to housekeeping. That's a great idea that I might borrow, at least on weekends.

I would be interested in hearing about the types of exercise you select each day. :-)

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
Changing things up a bit..I often put off things like cleaning the range top...and scrubbing out the sinks daily......I need to get back to concentrating on those things......

innerpeace on 10/12/2020:
#10 TRUTH! Sometimes I forget this and it ruins my entire day.

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
Yup...tough one....I feel like I am trying to FIX people too much.......and I resent when they try to FIX me. I need to stay true to myself and let them be themselves...even if i don't like it.....I need to walk away and tend to myself in those times.

grannyannie on 10/12/2020:
Monthly calories will be challenging, but you'll be able to do it. Weekly is challenge enough for me.

If you are comfortable at the weight you are now, then that is what you should maintain. I don't know your heights but 126 would not be overweight unless you were well under 5'. When I get to maintenance (hoping January) I will still do several days a week with limited calories to keep things in check.

Good goals!

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
I used to be 5'4" but now I'm 5'2"...and the range is 115 to 130......I believe.....but I'm small boned so I'm okay...but I feel really good right here.

grannyannie on 10/12/2020:
You are a healthy weight and you feel good and that's all that counts. I used to be 5'5" and last time I checked I was 5'4".

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
I think I'm where I belong...at least for now.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/12/2020:
well, based on your last comment to me, i pretty much agree with you...when i snack more, it's generally more treats and less nutrients as well!

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
I know i pick the goodies...they are easy, convenient...I would never think of snacking on anything that I would consider a meal...LOL...BUT...sometimes it's just needed...you eat a lot of good things too.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/12/2020:
so it will rain tomorrow...skipping farm bc no need to get sick too!

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
Pouring rain here right now...we had heard that we were getting snow tonight....but so far...it's a downpour.

bearcountrygg on 10/13/2020:
My Above starting number should be 32,000 calories for October starting on the 12th

bearcountrygg - Sunday Oct 11, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Redoing a closet today...Like THINK POSITIVE...I've been putting it off...but my response to her made me realize that i just need to do that today!



rice milk

Chicken and cheese on whole wheat

black beans and rice

Vegetables and quinoa

small muffin

3 small beef sticks

graham crackers

I've been having 2 quite heavy meals per day lately ( Breakfast and noon)...and I'm usually satisfied until the next morning........so it makes about q 19 or 20 hour fast so maintaining here right now seems to be easy enough...and I like where I am....so as long as it's this easy i will stick with it...........Today is the last day of my weekly calories...( I thought yesterday wasnsunday...LOl)...luckily I had plenty left.......I think tomorrow I will do monthly calories.........and see hw that goes......will figure it out tonight.....

Doing a mountain of laundry today...dishes in the dishwasher...need to get started on the closet.

Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/11/2020:
I don't mind clothes closet cleanouts, but I've got a closet in the living room that has such a variety of stuff in it and I'm dreading cleaning it out. But it's getting impossible to find stuff in it, so I've gotta do it!

bearcountrygg on 10/11/2020:
My Mom had a closet that was put together like a puzzle and then wouldn't take anything out because she figured it would never go back together again.....I'm hoping to not do that...LOL

Jacky82020 on 10/11/2020:
LOL. I’ve known such closets

bearcountrygg on 10/11/2020:
After my Parents passed...I had to empty that closet...and I swear...it was a total waste of a floor to ceiling linen closet....it was actually full of folded up gift boxes, odd pieces of gift wrap and bows, some fake leather leftovers, a few things still in their boxes.....and not much else.....

Donkey on 10/11/2020:
Good luck with the closet. All of mine are terrifying.

bearcountrygg on 10/11/2020:
It doesn't take long for a closet to go bad around here...LOL

Maria7 on 10/11/2020:
Mine is waiting on me (2 closets)...

bearcountrygg on 10/11/2020:
I guess we all have them!!!

Maria7 on 10/11/2020:
I'm thinking about buying some tv dinners at the grocery store like Healthy Choice for when I don't cook. Have you tried these and if so, what is your take on them?

bearcountrygg on 10/11/2020:
I think we have some in the freezer...but haven't tried them yet.......years ago I had tried some various TV dinner types of things and I liked them...( I'm not a picky eater so most anything is okay with me.)...But they would come in handy for a quick meal....Right now...I'm keeping quite a few of the shelf stable Hormel meals on hand.....they aren't necessarily low cal...but they sure are handy for a quick meal.....

Horn_of_plenty on 10/11/2020:
i was beginning to also have "heavier" meals with less snacking in between...but i do not like waiting so long between meals...so i easily went back to more snacks and smaller meals...haha...i was with my parents (and my mom hates snacking) which is the biggest reason for the big meals and no snacks...

bearcountrygg on 10/12/2020:
It took me awhile to stop the continual eating......I don't know which is healthiest...but i've noticed that if i eat frequently I eat more junky food...If I have a heavy meal...there is a lot more nutrition in it in total...but what ever works for each person can be different....I guess it's just a matter of individuality....which is kind of neat.

bearcountrygg - Saturday Oct 10, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Slept so well last night....Maybe I'm getting over the desire to nap during the day.,.......I hope so.  Recently i have laterally been falling asleep as soon as I sit down.......I had also gotten in the habit of an afternoon nap........I would really rather just sleep well at night and wake up rested.......retraining myself again......LOL

Hopefully the wifi will be stable now.....I spent the weekend watching the router and looking for up times....LOL...jumping online like a ridiculous internet addict.....need some more retraining there too I guess.

 I'm still on the weekly calories and have more than enough for the day.........considering doing monthly calories now....to make it more of a challenge.......lots of calories left this week and I wouldn't be able to use them up if I tried........Tomorrow will decide to do another week...or move it to a month.  The less of a daily restriction for me takes the pressure off and I'm finding out more about myself.

This was my view of the back yard yesterday.........I think we are past our peak and it went too fast...the red/burgundy leaves are on the ground and the peach/yellow ones are on the trees now.

 Spent the entire morning trying to find the generator owners manual...then online...how frustrating...finally found a printable version and 45 pages and a entire black ink cartrage....he has his book........took me hours...and 35$ for the ink...and he is so proud....LOL

Breakfast was coffee, granola and rice milk

Lunch was chicken wings, quinoa and vegetables and an entire avocado...but it was small.

Not a hungry day........and reminding myself that I do not need to eat when i'm not actually hungry...........If I'm TRULY hungry...i will be willing to eat just about anything......but if I'm thinking about dessert..then I'm NOT HUNGRY........

Evening = beef sticks, crackers and protein bar




Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/10/2020:
Wow, what a gorgeous photo! Not see much color yet here in Pennsylvania. Soon.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
It will be your turn soon enough.

thinkpositive on 10/10/2020:
Understand about sleeping . I’d love to skip my afternoon nap and be able to get at least 7 hours of sleep at night.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
It's a hard habit to break.

grannyannie on 10/10/2020:
Nice colours. I took photos of our trees and they look too pale in the photo.

I can't do naps at all. I'm groggy all day.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
I wake up groggy and it takes a couple of hours for me to wake up too.

grannyannie on 10/10/2020:
Ohhh monthly calorie allowance. Hmm... very brave.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
I think it might be fun...I think that it would take that diet feel away...besides...I'm thinking of sticking here for awhile anyway....I'm kind of liking the weight I'm at right now.

Donkey on 10/10/2020:
I'm rather interested to see what happens to my sleeping patterns once I retire. I'm torn between wanting to do as much as possible during the day, and yet, loving the respite that comes with sleep. Right now, I do not take naps if I can avoid doing so.

I've noticed on my lunchtime walks how many of the trees are yellow. It's beautiful, but I'm not seeing as much red this year. There are still quite a few trees that are green so this may change.

That is a very interesting idea about a monthly calorie count. Actually, now that I think about it more, that could be a very effective way to establish maintenance habits. I love following you on your journey - you have really good ideas, and think of things that I would not have considered!

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
Thank you! One habit we could never break was getting up early...usually between 4:30 and 5:30...we did it for so many ears that we can't sleep in now......oh well...lets us sip coffee and take a while to get moving in the morning. I'm thinking that the weekly cals will make my hungry days...and not hungry days a lot more natural........and that is what i want to end up with...when I'm done with all of this.....breaking bad habits like eating when not hungry are my main aim right now.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/10/2020:
you are right those afternoon naps are addictive - had one today after a long walk with my folks....we all fell asleep!

bearcountrygg on 10/11/2020:
Well...Long walks can do that to a person...you earned it!

bearcountrygg - Friday Oct 09, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Kind of a mixed up day...spotty WiFi.....the modem is going crazy...but hopefully it will be totally fixed now...until the traffic messes it up again...we usually get several months of good WiFi when the redig and rebury it again....

Stayed busy around here all day...lots of computer stuff, laundry, cleaning the bedroom and time is flying.......

haven't counted the calories yet..... but




1 oreo

big green salad


pasta salad

protein bar

Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/09/2020:
i guess this spotty wifi is slightly due to your country living...though i hope it improves QUICKLY. how frustrating!

bearcountrygg on 10/09/2020:
It happens every few months...the wires go under our dirt road and the logging trucks and large construction vehicles damage them...and because it's mainly sand here....they can't keep it together....LOL

Donkey on 10/09/2020:
Glad you were able to log in today! That's quite interesting to learn why it's inconsistent when there's heavy - literally, heavy - traffic.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
The Sandy road makes it more difficult.....The really big trucks with logs on the truck as well as a huge trailer also full of logs travel down here so fast they even shake the house......We have a wood basement, if we had a block or cement basement it would be worse for the house.....we are wishing that we had been more aware of the traffic when we bought this property......BUT....we get by.

grannyannie on 10/10/2020:
We have trouble with our connection sometimes as well. Not rural but not in town or city either.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
I guess it's just a fact of life when living away from a large city.....

thinkpositive on 10/10/2020:
Technology is wonderful until it doesn’t work! Then so frustrating.

bearcountrygg on 10/10/2020:
YES it IS!!!

bearcountrygg - Thursday Oct 08, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Slept like a log......up 2 or 3 times during the night for bathroom trips ( makes sense...drank tea and water during the debate).......but fell back to sleep immediately and had a good night.....

Got notices last night that my credit card had been compromised to a tune of $800.00......Dominos pizza and Walmart.com.........My bank stopped them before any real damage was done..Thankful for a bank that notices things like that.  Spent the evening on the phone with a guy in India and a terrible phone connection........but still thankful for the bank being on point.......Watched the process online also and new card on the way...........( I wish my bank hired Americans to handle their late night calls but I guess I can't expect everything)......and glad they picked up on it......wish I knew where the card was used though. 

Coffee = 2

Apparently we will be without wifi during the day today....working on the connection....still have phone connections...but this site doesn't work well with my phone so will be back when I can.....( Big trucks disturb the under the road wires around here so we deal with this a lot......).......lots of large construction vehicles coming through here lately shakeing everything..........Middle of the forest problems...but worth the trouble.


Internet on but prob brief....

ate so far toast with pb and j


green salad

pasta salad


may have to do a bigger wifi dig across road....over the next 2 days...connection is still spotty...jumped on while I could,,,,ongoing prob...happens about yearly...



Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/08/2020:
Good for your bank picking that up!

I watched the replay of the debate this morning, but couldn't get through more than 45 minutes of it. The news shows the 'highlights' of it anyway.

bearcountrygg on 10/08/2020:
For an hour and a half show...I thought the time went by quickly......but i did down a lot of liquid during it...LOL Saw some replays again this morning too.....

Donkey on 10/08/2020:
Good sleep is everything!

What a hassle with your card. We've had to deal with things like that too. I feel that Oriole who do that are amongst the lowest of the low.

I've been thinking about your post yesterday. It's difficult, getting old. I'm seeing it in my boss, Male Co-Worker, husband, myself! My kids have noticed it with my mom.

I realized I couldn't really comment more. It's easy to say, focus on health, but when I hurt my back, who's the first to reach for the mint chocolate?

bearcountrygg on 10/08/2020:
If I'm seriously into something...I get a kind of laser focus... ( one son does that too and sometimes points that out to me...he gets it because he does it too).....right now.....I guess I'm focused on nutrition...but I know it will change again as soon as I relax a bit and I will also crave the chocolate/ chips/whatever...LOL And YES...old age stinks.....and there is absolutely noting that can fix it......we aren't at the stage yet where we don't

buy green bananas though...LOL

legcramps on 10/08/2020:
Oh thank goodness your bank noticed and stopped it before it got really bad! I tried to watch the debate but honestly it was like watching kids fight at the playground. Politics is just an avenue for us to be big kids LOL!

bearcountrygg on 10/08/2020:
I'm thankful the bank picked up on it...I wonder how they do that......

grannyannie on 10/08/2020:
I think the reason I don't mind aging and I'm not even dreading 70 in a little over a year, is because as I've aged my life has gotten better and better. I wish I'd made better choices when I was younger, but I didn't and can't change it.

bearcountrygg on 10/08/2020:
Nice that you are having more fun now....I don't blame you...enjoy it now while you can.

grannyannie on 10/08/2020:
One reason I find lockdown so difficult is I'm still healthy and fit and I know that won't last forever so I want to travel as much as I can. You never know when your body or mind will fail you.

bearcountrygg on 10/09/2020:
Very true.

Jacky82020 on 10/08/2020:
A few years back someone in another state used the husband’s info to try to buy a bunch of stuff at Home Depot. Because Of that attempted fraud the 3 big credit bureaus give him free monitoring, but he keeps them frozen and unlocks as needed

bearcountrygg on 10/09/2020:
I guess it's too easy for thieves...too bad they don't use their knowledge to do good.

horn_of_plenty on 10/09/2020:
I’m glad your bank caught the card theft before it increased anymore. I’ve dealt with that too.

I hope your internet comes back.

I also watched the debate - didn’t watch the other one (presidential) but glad I watched the VP one.

bearcountrygg on 10/09/2020:
I don't know how the band does it...but I'm sure glad they did,

Maria7 on 10/09/2020:
Terrible about the credit card but glad your bank was wise to it and getting it straightened out. You have been through this before, haven't you? I wonder how your information was compromised on you cc...I heard it can even be done through gas pumps. Take care.

bearcountrygg on 10/09/2020:
Yes...this isn't the first time.....it is a card that I use online all of the time...for gas and in person in stores....I use this one because it has a limit of $5,000.......but somehow the bank has always caught them quickly......but it is used multiple times a month.....the bank was on their toes and sent me a text...I'm so glad they did.

bearcountrygg - Wednesday Oct 07, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Had a stressfull day yesterday and have calmed down since.........I see that I need to eat at least 1,200 cals a day to cover the irritating things associated with lower days...........those too low cal days in the past have altered my metabolism in a way that I just need to live with......so be it...lesson learned.  Calories below 1,200 also destroy internal organs and I don't even want to think about that......a number on a scale...that was just arbitrarily picked without real knowledge of what is healthy...just isn't healthy.  I had been anemic in my youger years at 104 pounds......I see why.....I wasn't eating enough food per day to maintain health...not dieting...just disinterest in food in general......then as I went to 130.....I did overcome the anemia......and 130 was comfortable.........and I went from a skinny stick person to a more womanly figure........and I wonder now why I want to go back to that stick figure....and I can't come up with an answer other than.......I have arbitrarily picked a number on a scale......Iwill leave the goal at 115 for now......and if it naturally happens fine.....if not...then it isn't meant to be for the sake of my health.......I can easily see that continuing to couunt calories daily is fine......more to keep me eating enough...than to keep me  from overeating.  Since I have a lifelong history of just not being very hungry....I really need to concentrate on eating enough for health.

Probably now more than ever........I'm wanting to stay healthy.......I  have a strong desire to be here to take care of D..........he knows that dementia has started......( it's a strong family affliction)...I am committed to taking care of him and keeping his life and mine as normal as possible.......( his diabetes isn't helping at all)......so  since we have been very aware of this for several years......and knowing and seeing the progression in him.....I'm well aware that when things get stressful or vary is an uncomfortable way......his symptoms get worse........I'm committed to keeping things calmer here and doing everything I can to achieving that daily.  We are so fortunate to have kids that care and understand what is happening......they are supportive and know that we want to continue to live our own lives......so being organized and calm are the main focus here now.  Health is everything....and I'm not going toruin my health to meet a number on the scale........now I'm working on eating enough to at least cover the minumum 1,200 per day...and hopefully a little more.......Because I am once again...a caregiver......and I need to stay healthy.

1.  Eat for health DONE

2.  This week, pics of daily meals DONE

3.  TV off after morning news until evening DONE

4.  Household dailies DONE

5.  Read DONE

6.  Exercise DONE

7.  Use what is onhand DONE

8.  Organize DONE

9.  Vitaminsn DONE

10.  Quality time with family DONE

11.  Be positive and kind DONE

12.  Do things that make me happy DONE

13.  Run the household like the business that it is DONE

14.  Meditate DONE

15 pray  DONE


Coffee = 2

2 egg cheese omelette with salsa = 276

1 corn muffin = 180



Leftover chicken breast = 386 plus 34 for the nutritional yeast

cottage cheese 200

pineapple habenero sauce = 70

salad =25

ranch = 145

lentil and 7 grains = 100


1,418 for the day and I will probably have a cup or two of tea during the debate tonight

That was a huge meal and it covered all the food groups.......done eating for the day...( kept eating in a 4 hour window so there will be a 20 hour fast......




Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/07/2020:
A very thoughtful post. I think I may comment more tonight, when I have more time to write, and when I've thought more about what you said. I'm sorry to hear that you were stressed out about all of this, and I'm glad that you feel more calm.

In the meantime, I will enjoy your food pictures :-)

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
I know that you too are stressed with your husbands health.....I'm noticing that if i get stressed...it stresses D and his symptoms get worse...have you noticed that with your husband?

thinkpositive on 10/07/2020:
You seem to be a strong person. A difficult time for you. I understand some of it as my husband has a terminal disease and I am the caregiver.

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
((HUGS)).....It's hard to deal with...I cared for my parents for 7 1/2 years.....and it's so hard.......and now I see it advancing in my husband...I'm sorry that you are also living with this responsibility.....but we can do it.....we need to take care of our own needs as well...I'm convinced that it key.....when i put myself totally into my Moms care and ignored my own needs...i almost lost it....but realized and made some changes for myself and it got better......

grannyannie on 10/07/2020:
Yes, your health is number one. You don't need to be skinny. Just look after your husband and take care of yourself.

My dad had dementia, so I understand. My husband and I have talked about if one of us gets it.

The number on the scale has changed for me as I aged. Age 40 - 120, Age 50 - 130 and also at 60. Now I'll be very happy at 140-145.

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
Age surely changes things......I was skinny until about 30...then went up to a good healthy point for me from 30 to 40-45....then we had a foster child that was so stressful that I started stress eating....and things went out of control to a high of about 255.......Now have that under control again but the stress eating rears it's ugly head sometimes still......usually I'm just not hungry. But age is a big factor too now. There is zero dementia in my family...but my husbands family is almost 100%.....he knows it's started....and is progressing...( he is still able to live his life)...but now I find myself checking on him...( did he turn the stove off, lock the door, have I seen him in the yard in the last half hour..etc)...My job right now is to keep things calm around here...that seems to be the best thing.

Maria7 on 10/07/2020:
How tall are you? I am beginning to wonder if I have my goal weight set too low. I was very skinny when real young, too and sometimes anemic because of not eating enough (was not dieting). So much more important to be and feel healthy and energized than be a certain number on the scale, which I know that you know, too. Although I would like to get lower on scale, I am questioning myself if it is wise to do so, as like you, I, too am not as young as I once was and am retired.

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
I am now 5 foot 2 inches....but before I shrunk ( with age)...I was 5 foot 4 inches......I'm small boned according to doctors,....and at 5'2"...my weight range would be 115 to 130......and because I'm small boned...115 would be the aim.......but I'm not as interested in that anymore i guess...because i know that I was anemic in those days...Just not sure now that it's worth it as a goal....I also know that at that time i literally had no reserve if I got sick....

Jacky82020 on 10/07/2020:
You need to do what’s best for you. Bear. You are not heavy and I’m sure you have a normal BMI. No point stressing out about a lower weight if it makes you feel lousy. Who is D? Not sure if he’s your dad, husband or what. Sounds like you a terrific caregiver and all around good person.

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
D is my husband...D is his first initial...sons are T and B...( their first initials......)...Agreed...probably not worth it now......sometimes it's hard to get off the diet track when you've spent so many years on it.....

legcramps on 10/07/2020:
Well thought out post, and I happen to agree with it 100%. Please take good care of yourself and D.

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
Thanks legs!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/07/2020:
Those meals = heaven! good eats, healthy too!

As a youngster when i was up to 16 years old, i was not a big eater. Then certain stress responses developed into bad habits starting around 17 years old and it's been hard to regulate my food response to stresses ever since! but, like you, i have left it to calorie counting to ensure i eat some semblance of both nutrition and also knowing i'm getting in enough (but usually it's to make sure i don't take it too much since my days of eating little ended when i was around 16).

I'm SO glad D has someone like you to watch over him and care for him :) what a wonderful wife you are to him!

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
Thanks HOP! I think a lot of kids aren't too interested in food....you sound like me at that age too.

bearcountrygg - Tuesday Oct 06, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Woke up hungry...and waiting until 8 to eat....coffee until then

Working at eating a balanced diet does help me control eating.....vitamins may be helping too.......it does seem that the more junk I eat...the more I want...there may just be something to eating healthier foods and the body's desire to be content with that......( Doesn't mean that i will stop eating the junk...but possibly does mean that I will be more careful with it)

Long talk with son B yesterday about healthy eating and health in general.......he buys only organic and has a large garden.........he swears he is in better shape since leaving the other things behind.....he continually attempts to push us to organics......( we aren't there yet and may never get there)......

I'm reminded this morning of how lower calories affect my hair............The days of thick hair are over for me...dieting has made my hair a lot thinner......Getting fat ( I'll just call mine what it is/was)...and the skin that just appeared to keep it all covered ( maybe if my skin hadn't beed so eager to cover the fat....maybe things would be different).....I would also have less saggy baggy skin right now.........so it appears that I have traded my desire way back when for overeating.....that created the problem to begin with ...for the desire now...to be rid of ALL OF IT...has created a saggy baggy hair losing person who now Thinks about food 24/7............Why was it so easy to stay in shape and slim...for so many years...so effortlessly?

Believe me when I say...that if I had never found food to be a stress reliever....I would still be thin with thick hair and never giving a thought to what I ate because i just ate naturally and effortlessly.

Kind of disgusted with myself today that I let it all happen........Can't go back..........but will say that if I had known then what I know now..I would have stopped it back then....but....we didn't have this kind of info back then...no books on what happens when you become obese and then lose weight...no computers...no info in general........besides...the stores were small and choices were limited...so different from today.  No One talked about it......

I'm continuing on with this week as planned.......working on eating real food in appropriate quantities....counting cals ( no less than 1,200 cals a day)....just for the health of it.....I can't  afford to lose any more hair.....

1.  Eat to lose but with limits DONE

2.  Pics Just 1

3.  TV off DONE

4.  Household dailies DONE

5.  Read DONE

6 .  Exercise DONE

7.  Use what is on hand DONE

8.  Organize DONE

9.  Vitamins DONE

10.  Time with Fam DONE

11.  Positive attitude...Trying

12.  Be happy...Trying

13.  Run the house like a business DONE

14.  Medidtate DONE

15.  Read my bible and pray DONE


Coffee = 2

3/4ths cup life cerel = 120

1/2 cup milk = 60

1 speckled banana = 105




Just looked up rapid hair loss and found things related to Diet and Stress.....ok....have both of those..........recommendation is to do yoga, meditation, eat nourishing, healthy foods and stop dieting to lose weight......maybe I just need to accept that I will be 11 pounds over where I would like to be...( maybe it's a lot of excess skin wt too)......Will spend some time  contemplating what is stressing me so much............In the meantime......neighbor coming over for a visit..in a few minutes....so will do that thinking later when I have some down time.  Possibly it's just time to simplify like our kids have been encouraging us to do.......kind of tough to think that us 2 old birds need to relax more and make our lives simpler....while there is still a little life left in us.....it may just be that we need to pay a little more attention to growing old a bit more gracefully.....D has been falling and getting hurt more in the last few years......that worries the kids....dementia runs in his family..Diabetes is not helping...They like that I lost weight but do want me to stop focusing on it and Son B mentioned yesterday that he wants us to move in with them at some point...Son T keeps telling us that he will take care of us when the time comes.......and of course we don't want to hear that......D and I take care of each other.......and that is the way it will stay for now until something pushes us over the edge........maybe I just need to do a little more relaxing.......and stop worrying D and the kids.........

Didn't have lunch but did have dinner and didn't get a picture .....

Beef and bean burrito, cheese, corn, pistachios, potato = total for the day of 1,492


Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/06/2020:
Thinning hair happens commonly as we age. I see a lot of plumb ppl with thinning hair who don’t diet. We are all different I suppose.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
I lost hair previously in the past...and it was all related to dieting ( 2 times)....but it was on the back of my head left and right sides down at the lower skull area...LOL.....did't really show.......In the last 2 or 3 years losing the main weight...I lost some on the top of my head as well.......NOW...I'm losing a lot on top.....I'm not interested in wearing a wig and none grew back over the last few months so I suspect it's permanent this time ( I'm 71)....and I'm seeing way too much scalp on top this morning.......back a month or two ago I was having 700 and 800 calorie days often.....I'm suspecting that is why this is happening now....and age adding to that isn't helping either....but I'm not willing to go bald and that's where I'm heading now.......kinda bummed about it.

grannyannie on 10/06/2020:
I never associated dieting with thinner hair. I'm 68 and have yo yo dieted for nearly 30 years and mine is still thick.

I find that when I eat only healthy stuff that I feel better physically and mentally. However, the idea of never having some of my favourite junk is not a pleasant thought. I guess the key is make it a rarity. I find that if I go without sugar for a very long time and then have some that it tastes too sweet and I don't enjoy it.

As for it getting harder as we age - definitely true. I found it easier at 60 than now.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
I did lose hair at the base of my neck mainly in the past dieting but i had really thick hair then so it didn't concern me too much.......right now though...it's on the top of my head and I'm seeing way too much scalp now....It's become obvious.

Donkey on 10/06/2020:
I too have regrets on how I've treated my body, especially when it comes to have gained (and regained) weight, the damage that it's done.

I'm not sure I have I have words of wisdom about hair loss, since mine is thin. Started when I was in my 40s, possibly late 30s. Make sure you get enough protein. There are supplements too that are supposed to help, like collagen, but didn't help me. My mother has very thin, fine hair, so I think it's my destiny.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
I came from some hairy French and German stock...LOL......my hair has always been very thick...as well as my parents hair.......this is new and different for me today.....lots of scalp on top today...and D had mentioned it this morning...as well as the hair he is finding all over this place......in fact he got up close and looked at the top of my head because there is so much scalp showing there.....

grannyannie on 10/06/2020:
My sister is thinning at the top of her head as well. But she's never dieted as she's always been thin. My hair is very fine but have lots of it....so far anyway.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
That's good if it doesn't happen to you....

grannyannie on 10/06/2020:
I lost a LOT of hair in April and May from stress. Every morning I'd brush or comb my hair and it was flying off everywhere. Found it scary.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
I think stress is playing a part right now as well.......and also a lot of hair around here as well my brush is needed to be cleaned daily...I'm not willing to be bald.....way too much head showing on top...I think I need to make some life changes....D is showing a lot of stress as well...the kids are noticing it and I need to make some changes...he is having some dementia issues as well....and I don't want to contribute to that ....I need to stay healthy to take care of him..I see how dementia is running through his family and it is really harsh.....( the kids think it's too much for me to handle)and since we are in our 70's they are likely right about that....so I need to make some changes now i guess.....I'm feeling good and I want to keep it that way......I have been concerned about him lately ( he's concerned too)....so I need to take a step back and figure out what to do......I can see why you were stressed....very understandable. Is it growing back now?

grannyannie on 10/06/2020:
Not losing any hair now. Didn't notice that my hair had thinned when I was losing it, but then it's gotten really long.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
My hair is very long....2 ft approx......so when i lost it at the base of my neck in back I was the only one who knew......now...it it falling out on top of my head...it's very obvious....I've noticed a lot of hair all over everything...but this morning it was super obvious....worse than ever....maybe yours grew back.

grannyannie on 10/06/2020:
Mine is down to my shoulders - a wee bit below. Last time I got it cut was right before Thailand - end of Nov. And I had it cut up to my chin.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
Yours grows fast too!

Maria7 on 10/06/2020:
I have had my hair to thin some in the past if my calories were consistently a lot lower than what I had been used to having. That is nice that your Son has a big garden. Fresh veggies!

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
I think hair loss is typical for weight loss...just don't like losing it on the top of my head...that's a game changer.....Both sons have been quite the gardeners...when we lived downstate...we had a garden too.....but up here where we are now...it's all sand...not good for gardening...but next summer I do plan to do come container gardening...

Horn_of_plenty on 10/06/2020:
your whole first paragraph i can relate to...with more junk = more junk cravings.

i also have a hard time switching to organic bc i like deals..and organic isn't a deal...but the free food from the farm is all organic that i get to take home!

my breakfast included a banana too! i love to have them every couple weeks or so...like a few days of banana. i think they help us so much (potassium! & bowel issues)

as you get older, there is usually some hair thinning. my mom has a terrible case of it since menopause. very thin hair and yes you can see her scalp. she is a healthy eater, too. healthier than most women her age, i want to say.

but i do agree, some of hair thinning can also be due to diet.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
I think mine is a combo of all three...including stress too.....it stinks....

Horn_of_plenty on 10/06/2020:
also, that's wonderful you will (in the future) be able to live with your son and family <3 (in the future)

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
We really don't want to have to do that though......but they have both offered...we would have to be very desperate to agree to that.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/06/2020:
they even do some container gardening at the farm...dirt filled boxes where they grow a lot of herbs as well as strawberries and some beans. also, it's nice because you don't have to bend down to pick those items as they are in a box that is high off the earth floor! they are in these large planters up to your waist high.

bearcountrygg on 10/06/2020:
That would be nice...I plan to put ours on the back deck....haven't had vegetables growing for quite a few years...it does sound like fun again...ours won't be that high though it would be nice.

Maria7 on 10/07/2020:
Hubby built wooden garden boxes about waist high this year that we grew strawberries, tomatoes, onions, squash, and bell peppers in. Squash didn't fare too well...needed a lot more room...I'm a beginner gardener....Our soil is sandy, also, so these boxes work better.

bearcountrygg on 10/07/2020:
I'm glad to hear that these boxes work when the natural soil isn't appropriate...at least I can control the soil in the boxes...I'm glad to hear that you had success with those!

bearcountrygg - Monday Oct 05, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Wet and cold outside here again....fall is here and working on making the house cozy.

9,800 new calories today for the week......

New weekly goals...

1.  Eat to lose DONE

2.  Daily food pics  DONE

3.  TV A.M. news and then off until evening DONE

4.  Step up homemaking dailies DONE

5.  Read 1 hour a day DONE

6.  Exercise 30 minutes DONE

7.  Use what is on hand. no additional shopping DONE

8.  Organize all areas of house . Done

9.  Vitamins/supplements DONE

10.  Quality time with family DONE

11.  Be positive, be kind, be on point DONE

12.  Do something that makes me happy DONE

13.  Run household like a business DONE

14.  meditate DONE

15.  Bible reading and prayer morning and night/afternoon DONE


Really fast breakfast because I'm busy

coffee = 2

Del Monte oatmeal and apples = 180

Del Monte Grapefruit, oranges and pomegranate = 90


Baked chicken breast with nutritional yeast = 420

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 120

7 grain and lentil blend ( 365 brand from Whole Foods) = 100

corn muffin = 180

mixed lettuce = 20

cucumber = 14

2 T ranch = 145


1,271 cals for the day so far

Meals today were in a 4 1/2 hour window...and not eating anymore so hopefully I will make it a  23 1/2 hour or more fast for the day.....

EDIT....It would be a 19 1/2 hour fast......





Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/05/2020:
Love your list of plans for each day.

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
Thank you Annie! I'm ready for some new challenges!

Coffee&Calories on 10/05/2020:
I love Fall coziness! I'm sure your house feels positively warm :)

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
I hope so...we have long cold seasons here and we are inside or at least on the property for a long time.

Donkey on 10/05/2020:
Ah, your list reminded me that I forgot to take my Vitamin D! I'd better go get it. In the summer, I kind of let that go, because I get more sunlight, but starting in September, I start up again with the supplement.

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
Low vitamin D can be a problem with Covid 19....best to be taking that right now.

Maria7 on 10/05/2020:
I love this fall weather. Hope you have a good day today.

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
I love it too.....so cozy inside...

legcramps on 10/05/2020:
Love all the organizing that's happening! I hope to start this soon as well :)

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
It's a nice way to welcome the cooler weather!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/05/2020:
your dinner = satisfying!

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
It's sticking with me...that's for sure.

Jacky82020 on 10/05/2020:
Terrific menu!

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
Not all days are this healthy...LOL...I'm a junk food junky...

Jacky82020 on 10/05/2020:
Oh, no! I can relate

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:

bearcountrygg - Sunday Oct 04, 2020
(Counting calories by the week)
Weight: 126.8

Rain all night....sleeping really well.....looking forward to making some  changes tomorrow and for the next week.........Feeling great and getting physically stronger.....  and liking the all day activity.

Changes that I plan to put into affect tomorrow.

1.  Eat to lose

2.  Post pics of all food /drink

3.  TV = A.M. News and then TV off until evening

4.  Homemaking Dailies ( step these up)

5.  Read at least 1 hour a day ( list)

6.  Exercise at least 30 minutes per day ( list)

7.  Use whatever is on hand and  make do, use whatever is available without adding more to the   household where ever possible.  Batten down the hatches and prepare for winter.  Protect health

8.  Organize all areas of the house - (list)

9.  Vitamins/supplements

10.  Spend quality time with family daily...in person or by phone

11.  Be positive, be kind, be on point

12.  Do something daily that makes me happy

13.  Run the household like the business that it is....

14. Meditate

15.  Begin and end my day with bible passages and prayer

Spending today just prepping for next week.

Progress as of today: 129 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/04/2020:
Love your list! Mind if I ask how you lost 129 pds? Did you have some kind of bariatric surgery? I sure as hell would if I weighed enough to get it.

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
I was on WW part of the time and the also calorie counting, I believe in shaking up the daily calories so that I'm not using the same amount day after day. No bariatric surgery, and I don't think I would have it personally.....I fasted, did as many as 5 days on liquids alone, and just continually changed things and I do better when I continue to shake things up. At one point much later on..I did subscribe to NOOM...and didn't get any success from that....I found it hard to understand and follow......By the time I ended my subscription, 30 plus others had dropped down to 2 or 3 of us and we were all confused...LOL....so I'm once again relying on self discipline, calorie counting and staying on my feet all day.....it has the best overall effect for me.

grannyannie on 10/04/2020:
You're doing amazingly! And so active and constructive. Good job!

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
Working on being more active is one of the best measures of success for me......sitting too much for me leads to fat...LOL.......so maybe the best thing is to just stay busy all of the time....it makes me happier and in better shape.

coffee&calories on 10/04/2020:
I love sleeping when it's raining too! Your list sounds lovely.

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
Thank you...I also love sleeping when it rains!

grannyannie on 10/04/2020:
Being busy distracts you from eating and you only eating when you feel your stomach growling!

When I get ambitious and do deep cleaning and reorganising I forget to eat till my stomach gets angry.

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
Me too...and the good feeling that accomplishing other things makes it all so worth it...I KNOW that when I get lazy...i put on weight...i eat too much...burn too little..and just get careless all across the board.....

Jacky82020 on 10/04/2020:
You done good, Bear. How long did it take? Never heard of NOOM. Will google.

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
2 years plus....still working on it.

Jacky82020 on 10/04/2020:
Terrific progress!

Saw that NOOM. Went to their site. Very drawn out questionnaire. Finally at end asked me to select a payment plan, said most ppl pay $18.36, which is their cost, but you can select your own fee. Lol. What do they do.? Send motivational emails? Not for me.

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
It's an app.....you go there daily and read it....lots of silly names...they try to be funny and usually it falls flat. They call rREAL words new silly words and then ask a question using the real word later...soooo confusing.....basically you can read the same things in a magazine article and at least they don't get cheeky about it.

Donkey on 10/04/2020:
That is a great list! Of course, I especially like #2. :-)

We had sprinkles/rain last night, and this morning was gray, but now the sky is clear and the sun is out. Frost advisory tonight.

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
Still wet here...and dark....and frost warning also.....I thought you would like the pics...LOL

Maria7 on 10/04/2020:
LOVE your schedule!

bearcountrygg on 10/04/2020:
Thank you...it will keep me busy all day for sure.

Jacky82020 on 10/04/2020:
Saw the app at Apple. Will pass. Hate how Fitbit is forever after me to subscribe to their $10 a month personal coach. Wonder of it’s some bot

bearcountrygg on 10/05/2020:
That NOOM thing was more of an annoyance than anything....I read the post daily.....but never really internalized it....and since every day was something new with a minimum of explanation.....it just all ran together in my head...LOL

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