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bearcountrygg - Tuesday Apr 27, 2021
(Counting calories)
Weight: 130.0


Yesterday was fine...up until about 7 last night...when I basically panicked....and suddenly was obsessed with eating something......and it went downhill from there.......2 cookies, 2 mini pks gushers(gummies)...2 mini bags poppables and the leftover cheeseburger macaroni from lunch......and it added another 894 calories to my day............I remember looking at the clock and literally being afraid that if I didn't eat "stuff".......I would wake up in the middle of the night with reflux.  I have some coffee pods that with me...have a history of affecting my mind in a not so good way.........they make me anxious......depressed....just not happy mental effects.....back a few  months ago...I figured it was 1 specific flavor/roast.....and I picked those out and threw them away...and set all of the others aside and things went well....recently I brought out the remainder of those and all was fine at first.....and in the last 2 or 3 days...i've noticed those effects returning again.......( with the ones that I thought were okay...well they aren't)....today...I once again will discard these( or at least put them away again...I hate to throw them out too)...This is the only brand of coffee that has this effect on me..........I ordered them from Boxed.....and they are their "store brand".....They are Prince and Spring organic coffee pods variety pack........they were a good deal so I thought I would try them....but literally...I would rather give up coffee all together than feel like I feel when i have had a cup of this a day for a week or so......really...nothing is worth the mental effects this coffee has on me.

So on to a new day.....unfortunately I had a cup of this evil coffee this morning....but will put them away today now that I know it is these pods.........................................................funny how something so innocent can have such a effect on my mind. 

evil coffee = 0 pts and 2 cals

yogurt = 4 pts and 90 cals

dried banana chips = 7 pts and 140 cals

chicken and veg casserole - 6 pts and 463 cals

pasta salad = 16 pts and 540 cals

Lara bar = 8 pts and 210 cals

Protein bar = 6 pts and 160 cals





For Jacky!!!!!!!

This is my last order that is on it's way....notice the bottle...That is free Everything but the bagel seasoning...above that is a gray and white box...Those are free kleenex, and there is also 2 small pkts of Emergen-C in there also...watch for their free offers and every order can also pick  2 free things ,choose with a top button...I usually add them to my cart first so I don't forget them...I'm really shocked at the sie of that seasoning bottle...it's a lot bigger than I expected.





Progress as of today: 124.8 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 04/27/2021:
An extra ~900 calories is hardly insurmountable. You’re ok.

Weird about the coffee! I love coffee. The after Christmas Starbucks sale used to be the highlight of my year. Found another roaster that has the same quality beans as them, cheaper & better sales. Stock up on the beans when there’s a good sale. They sell pods & ground too, but I’ve always liked grinding my own everyday. Smells wonderful!

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
I like the smell of coffee too.......I guess what bums me out about last nights food fest was how it came on........I don't like that feeling at all....today...breakfast will be delayed so that I won't want that 4th meal...i really don't need that.....It is so much easier for me to hold breakfast off for several hours...than i can actually have my 3rd meal in the evening......lessons...UGH>

Donkey on 04/27/2021:
We seem to be on a similar wavelength. Oh and let me tell you how refreshing it is to hear from someone ELSE who does not think breakfast is the most important meal of the day. How I detest a big breakfast. YUCK.

I was feeling a certain food anxiety last night as well. I wonder if we're somehow psychically connected. I will keep that in mind tonight and try to remain calm about emotions and eating, hoping that you too are feeling the same ease. I have not had the wacky coffee to set me off though.

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
Last night was really weird!!! I will also try to send you some good vibes tonight...we can have only what is really appropriate tonight....maybe we can save a snack for then.....I was so oddly on edge...There was a full moon...LOL

Maria7 on 04/27/2021:
I know it is not a good feeling when you have a little 'food fit'...but we all do from time to time. Just have to make up for it the next day....

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
I totally agree......I'm going to tell myself no today!!!

coffee&calories on 04/27/2021:
Bear I had a food attack last night too. Really sucks. Funny about coffee, it’s been giving me a little bit of extra jitters or anxiety feeling, maybe races my heart a little, even after a few sips of my morning cup. I can’t and won’t give it up because I love it so much, and honestly need it with these young kids..but I can’t help but notice it’s been affecting me when it never did before.

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
I know it's been an issue for for a few days........I am switching brands to see if that gets better.....I'm guessing these stressful times aren't helping either...and add the full moon to that...OMG!

happy-1 on 04/27/2021:
Omg... cheeseburger macaroni sounds really good.

I fel like that sometimes... like I’m so hungry I will be up all night. How much water are you drinking?

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
I drink about 5 cups a day....

bearcountrygg - Monday Apr 26, 2021
(Counting calories)
Weight: 130.0

Need to stop the resting now...back and neck feeling a lot better....so time to start pushing myself again..........things were piling up around here....but the heating pad sure was cozy....but can't let it become a lifestyle...LOL

D was offered a pretty cute hound dog a few days ago....but it's young and would need more attention than he has to give right now...(busy with the 4 he already has...he can only work with just so many at a time)...so he found a friend that wanted it....and they will be nearby getting her today and will be coming over....outside visit only...which makes sense with the new dog anyway......looking forward to seeing some new faces...LOL...it's been a while.

Discovered tthis weekend that I had 2 Weight Watchers subscriptions running at the same time......UGH...successfully got one closed and will continue with the other....D has long declared that I always should have an account with them...but I don't think in this case more is better....UGH

Maybe I should use it !!!!!!  WW is flawed...probably more than ever before.......I sat down last night and watched few youtube WW videos..........There are some hacks to make the program safer for health.........and I will be doing some of those...along with counting calories at the same time........they have their faults.....but have always been my go to.........I have lost a lot of weight with them in the past........and should probably work a little harder now.....that my back has improved......a Lazy Boy and a heating pad don't do much for the scales.

Coffee = 2 cals and 0 points

Motts organic applesauce 0 points and 50 cals.....a very good deal

Cream of wheat hot cereal on the go...Cinna-apple-walnut..(their own container).10 points and 260 cals......not a good deal according to WW

3 ounces chicken breast = 2 points and 139 cals

1 cup shredded lettuce = 0 points and 8 cals

1T. Ranch = 2pts and 65 cals

1 1/2 small biscuits = 9 pts and 287 cals

1 t. butter = 2 pts and 34 cals

Cheeseburger maccaroni = 11pts and 372 cals

Swanson sipping chicken bone broth = 1 pt and 45 cals

2 clementines = 0 pts and 160 cals

Cals for the day are 1,422




Progress as of today: 124.8 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/26/2021:
I know that when my back hurts - strain, sciatica, misalignment - everything stops for me. Nothing ages me more than experiencing chronic pain. So I am glad that you are feeling better. Do whatever it takes to overcome pain.

No need to have 2 WW accounts, but have you considered that D is right, to stay with WW? Sometimes we can't always see ourselves clearly. I know you've tried to step away from WW a few times... but maybe this is something to reconsider.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
He is right....I have joined and quit them so many times...LOL....to the point I got confused and rejoined when I already had an account..>LOL...So many have left WW....their program has some bad flaws right now...but as long as I remember that and work around them...I do need to stay...I learn some things there too...

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Is it expensive to stay in WW? Never tried them, except used to buy their frozen meals at the grocery store. They were ok as I recall. Right now I like Healthy Choice the best. Pretty decent meals for ~250 calories

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
No...not expensive...online only and I'm paying $15....usually it's $19......in person and coaching are more.....I've used all of them at one time or another...and had the best result with in person classes...( now there are few of them because of covid)......there is something about that line waiting to weigh in...it is a mighty motivator.......but I have also lost with online in the last few years......obviously what I lost 20 years ago didn't stay off though and had to do it all over again.....so...I guess I should have just stayed with it back then. ...Online they have a great weight graph that I love......The points system can be frustrating but they do also give the calories and macros online....so that helps.....I'm not proud to say that I've also used "The Weight Loss Clinic at 400 cals a day....Nutrisystem with so much fiber that I lived in the bathroom and cramps were a daily occurrance, Jenny Craig which was funny....the first meal of theirs I ate came right back up ( and I have a cast iron stomach)...so I never touched another meal of theirs...( Gave them to D's aunt who loved them)....and Weight Watchers too many times to count......did the best there with a favorite leader who I just enjoyed listening too....and had a great personality. I had other leaders were so boring that I didn't want to go back...or I switched to another location...that was very easy to do when we lived downstate...here...nothing...There is a TOPS group in our town and I ordered their info......but I don't think that is for me..... The leader has been a leader for many years and is still very obese.....so I know that wouldn't work for me...on top of that she looks like she needs a good bath...UGH....so I just need to do what D suggests and that is to just keep the WW going and it will be there when I want to use it.

horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2021:
i like warm heat too. i don't have a heating pad, but i use the foot warmers that ddidn't work well in my shoes, i have them on my seat, just like a booty warmer.

glad that you got rid of the second subscription.

also, i wish i could have a dog - and one day, that goal will happen <3 i cannot even wait! but that is so far in the future, perhaps when i'm in mid 50s or 60...and who knows, maybe at that point i will not want a dog anymore! ha!

it's good to hear that you are doing well :)

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
Good use of those foot warmers!!!! Dogs are good walking companions...but are kind of tough in an apartment....cats work well in apartments...but they usually are not as loving....in fact their whole existence seems to be what they can make us do for them...LOL

Maria7 on 04/26/2021:
My Mama lost over a hundred pounds in one year, many years ago, doing Slimfast off and on. Sure worked for her. Everybody has their own plans that help them the most. If WW works for you, I'd want to keep it, too. Sounds like the 2 WW's are different from one another. Might consider keeping them both if both are helping you and affordable. Congrats on doing so well, btw.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
The 2 WW accounts were identical and I had forgotten about 1 of them and started a new one.....so closed 1 and kept the other....That is great that your Mom had such good results with slimfast.....I have some here right now myself.....the dairy in it is a problem for me so I rarely use it....but it works...your Mom is proof of that.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Is that $15 a month? Can you cancel at any time or is it a contract?

Wow! You’ve tried everything and I think have had remarkable results, the best I know of in this group. Takes tremendous will power no matter what system one tries. Hat’s off to Bear.

Think I mentioned I bought nutrisystem on eBay and didn’t care for the meals. Too much prep for some. Prefer frozen low cal meals. Was able to sell the food back on eBay, so no money lost.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
It is Per month......when you sign up you choose a time period...1 month or 3 months or 6 months...the longer the contract the lower the monthly charge usually....and if you cancel early there is a 40-45 dollar cancellation fee....I think there have been others here who lost more....I did a lot of what I call shaking things up...with a very low cal day or a higher cal day...sometimes all liquids for 5 days.....if I just followed a program all of the time I don't think I would have had the weeks where there was bigger losses....I still think shaking it up with fasting etc is the only way for me to go.....I need the change to keep interested.....also keep in mind that when you are obese...weight does come off fast.....when you don't have much to lose it is super slow.

horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2021:
maybe i'll end up skipping the dog and doing a cat...we shall see. it would have to be a tiny apt dog or cat...anyways, none of that at the moment.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
Yes...the piggies are plenty for now.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Yep, Bear, good to mix it up. I usually do so by default, unplanned. LOL

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
Shaking it up is the only way I can do this......I am not a creature of habit and get bored so easily.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Bear, I went to Boxed or whatever. They have a Protien Chip for $1 a bag in a lot of 20. Not as high protien as the others, but ok. I can get a one time 15% discount, but there’s a $50 minimum for free shipping. Not sure how to get it to $50. Guess I should explore the site.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
Don't forget to get your 2 free items too....you click on that near the top......I never pay shipping...and fill in with laundry soap or toilet paper or dishwasr soap so that I don't have to. Walmart Pick up is showing pirates booty in 6 ...1 ounce bags for $6.58......too.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Placed order and didn’t see 2 free products! Dang! Wish I’d waited to hear from you.

So I brought the order up to $50 for free shipping. Got some Quaker Rice cakes. They cost 7% more than Walmart’s. At Walmart I save an additional 5% by using the Capitol One credit card. However I had a 15% off first order promo code, which more than compensated for the 12% loss.

Wondering if I can create a different account and get 15% off the next order. I would use a different name, one linked to another email. I have several, most created to get discounts. I use the fake name and email and then give the correct info for shipping & payment.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
I see that boxed does have pirates booty too....35 mini bags for $12.00......but first ingredient is cornmeal. There is a spot at the top to add the free items....right now I'm getting the box of kleenex and 2 pack of emergen-C......A few years ago I did have 2 accounts and used both of them....but at some point I had to close one.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
You do get 2 free things everytime you order...and sometimes there is other free things...my current order will also have free everything but the bagel seasoning.....some previous orders had candles, hand soap, Lyte water...etc......I love the site and use it all of the time......

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Next time I’ll be on the lookout for the free items! The order I have will last a long time I wonder about their prices. The Quaker Rice cakes were 7% higher than Walmart’s. But ok if I create another account

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
I'm sure their prices can be higher...when I have checked them against amazon and walmart....there can be a difference.....but they are so handy for me that I don't worry about it too much.....Their packages are large...they do sell some kirkland things and I think that might be costco....for where we live it is a good deal......because we are really lacking in grocery stores. I do sometimes do the 2 day shipping from Walmart...and it's funny...things arrive in multiple small boxes....with boxed though they will all be together. When I had amazon Prime...i oedered from their prime pantry but they stopped that....and I miss it.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Yep, Kirkland is Costco. Loved them in California, but none around here. I still have Prime, mostly because the husband is forever ordering rare little nuts and bolts and tools etc. Also stream video. Amazon sometimes sends things in multiple boxes on different days too. LOL

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
Mine too...he has some grinder/sander thing arriving tomorrow...and the sanding belts for it will be coming separate too......it sure is handy...I watched some of the amazon prime programs....but that was all.......we rarely pay shipping anyway becuse we also pad the order so we don't...there is always something he needs...LOL..or at least he thinks so.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
I saw Pirates Booty. Too much fat and carbs. Looking for high protein puffs. Thanks for mentioning the Box.com. I have 40 bags of puffs coming in, plus the rice cakes.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
I think the pirates booty is aimed at kids...I don't see anything about protein being a strong point for it.

Jacky82020 on 04/26/2021:
Sometimes he orders things under $5 that have outrageous shipping fees outside of Amazon Prime. I mean really high!

Yeah, that booty seems like something for kids. Bet it tastes better than the high protein stuff I’m after. lol

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
Yup...it was good WW points back in the day but I think that was before the focus on protein....I think it was a Whole Foods Store thing because i remember having to get it only when I was at Whole Foods..........D sometimes wants things that small too...I usually order sometthing like laundry soap pods etc...just to get the free shipping...LOL....my son orders Tee shirts to get free shipping...LOL

happy-1 on 04/26/2021:
Send some of that snow my way!!! Already too hot in LA.

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2021:
Oh how I wish I could.

bearcountrygg - Sunday Apr 25, 2021
(Counting calories)
Weight: 0.0

For the last few days there have been a lot of old posts showing up on the top of the page.........wondering if DD is having some hiccups.........Hopefully not. 

Reading others recent posts is getting more difficult.  I love to respond to others but it's getting harder to do........especially when I already responded to them in the past on that post........Hopefully dailies become dailies again...........I will still scan for fresh posts though.......  I see Donkey has also mentioned this recently.  I know I would really miss DD if it disappeared.


Jacky82020 on 04/25/2021:
Didn’t really notice, but yesterday I inadvertently hit edit instead of the + for a new post, so an older post went up, but with additional content.

This explained why a few days earlier I noticed Maria had a post at the top which was also dated a few days earlier. Easy thing to do, similar to cutting and pasting in the same things everyday for weeks. Can make responding tedious, so I often don’t bother.

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2021:
Oh......I make new posts and then add as needed throughout the day.....I do notice the dates on all posts.....it's been a few days of a bunch of old posts.......I basically just passed over a few days for the most part.....and hoped there wasn't something wrong with the site.....

Jacky82020 on 04/25/2021:
Doubt it. Think Maria did the same thing as I, which was to tap on edit instead of the +

Really? I only these noticed 2 with old dates at the top. The others had the current date, but old content

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
There were several with March dates.

Maria7 on 04/25/2021:
Hope you are having a good day.

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2021:
So far so good!

horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2021:
I also feel horrible when I waste food - I try to eat mostly everything

That tick looks huge !

Weirdly enough, I haven’t noticed problems on DD with things out of order but then again I haven’t been very active except posting my diet and plans - hopefully it will organize - it may have been me causing the problems as I was deleting my work tasks from my diaries - maybe I caused DD to be out of order bc I was re-saving older entries on Thursday and Friday

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
I do know that when a change is made to an old post...it moves to the top....guess that is what happened

happy-1 on 04/25/2021:

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2021:
Hugs to you too....glad to see you back.

bearcountrygg - Thursday Apr 22, 2021

Weight: 0.0

I spent a lot of time yesterday sorting through the pantry. fridge and freezer looking for things that are expired, dented, small amounts left in packages etc...........D would never consider eating this stuff......I have no problem with it.......If it looks, smellls, appears , tastes fine....I will eat it with no problem.  Since I'm not one to waste resources........today I will again begin using these things up.......and counting calories to make sure I eat at least 1,200 calories a day.....and no more than 1,500.  I really dislike throwing out food and other items that we invested our cash into in the past. 

I'm also going to be working on using vitamins/supplements, toiletries etc.  I began sorting clothing, and linens recently also...........some things are worn out, some make great rags,.....some are just going in the trash.......because they are no longer usable.  Making use of the tiny washing machine that we have been storing for years really helped remind me that we need to use what we invest in 

At a time when we are working hard to stay out of the public for the betterment of our health.......we can do better at home and I'm enjoying it.  It's funny how many things we have actually stored away here that we really should be using...........We are finding things that will be finding new homes with family who is happy to have them........finding paperwork that can be shredded and discarded, forgotten clothing, partial bottles of lotions, shampoos, etc........these things need to be made use of.  So many things have already found other uses.......I found several soap dishes that helped remind me that not that many years ago...we actually used bar soap at sinks instead of liquid hand soaps,  There are so many ways to keep me from spending/shopping/adding to the clutter around us. 

Today will be the beginning around here of challenging myself to use what is on hand, and stop the unnecessary shopping.  I came from a family that lived through the depression......I watched them struggle through with very little resources.......in comparison I feel greedy and privileged and while that is comfortable......it also makes me well aware that it is unnecessary.  We really need very little to survive.....I've seen it in my own family.  

I had Grandmothers that raised families on rice, cornmeal, flour and sugar. and the occassional chicken........they survived and thrived.....they didn't know any different.  It can be done and done well. 

Today I'm on a mission to live more simply.

For jacky....My nasty little tick

His still itching bite years later.........on left shoulder......larger than a quarter.


1 Pkt of instant maple oatmeal...expired and still fine...160

coffee = 2

salt and vinegar chips = 200

Graham crackers = 260 ( expired and fine)

Chicken salad (dented can and fine), lite mayo, sweet relish = 410

Protein shake (expired and fine)= 160

mini bag Gardettos ( expired but fine) = 230

1,032.......not hungry...hopefully will be later....need to get another 200 or so in.

Ending the day with 1,262  calories









Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Awesome! I too like using what’s around. I give some leftover food to the dogs, but only appropriate stuff. No junk food for my boys!

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
I admit to being a human garbage can...LOL...born and bred...( watched my Dad stand at the fridge while drinking milk that was going to be thrown out.....( not on his watch...heredity or genetics?)I'm not sure...but I'm the same way......I eat something rather I want it or not just to keep from throwing it away......well....doing this does allow me to cover both the no waste, and the using what we have while watching weight issues.....and that fits perfectly into my agenda.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
WE do give some things to our dogs too occassionally....want to see something funny....give your dogs some rice krispies.....we gave ours some once and they all acted differently...the funniest was one who dove in...sniffing and snorting and having a wonderful time.....he made a game out of it...and gave a quite the show.

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Wow! You mean that red nasty tick bite looks like that after a full year? Or that it still itches?

I have removed a few ticks from me and a few from the dogs. Over the years, not often. Large disgusted blood engorged monsters. YUK! But no redness or itching.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
It still itches years later...but no longer looks like that.....This was miserable......D noticed something on my shoulder and asked how I got a blood blister there.....when i looked in the mirror....I noticed that it was raised and had him take a closer look.....it wasn't a blood blister it was a tick....and he was full of blood...luckily D was able to remove it with a tick key we keep here for that purpose...we have both found ticks on us in the past but never a full bite like that......it was pretty disgusting...and yup...it still itches in that spot.

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Never had a bite. That’s awful! Felt a few on my chest and was able to easily pull them off. Same for the dogs. Never saw any on the cats. Gross creatures! Rare I see any though.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
This one was full of blood...went to the health department and they gave me a kit to put the tick in and send to Lansing with a check.......they sent the check back...said they didn't test it because it's a deer/dog tick and as unlikely to cause lime disease......so i didn't go to the doctor...but i suspect that it left some sort of bacteria behind because of the irritation so many years later.

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Yeah I’ve read the ones that cause Lyme are not found in many areas, including ours. Bet they all have some nasty stuff inside though.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
I'm sure they have nasty stuff inside...I never felt it bite me.....it had been there for some time...( according to everything I read up to 4 days)....They inject something that numbs you so you don't feel it.....Iy was full of my blood according to the Lansing report......and when D removed it with the tick key....it took some of my skin right along with it....bleck!

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Yes! They inject something to numb you like the damn mosquitoes. I went to scratch my upper chest once & felt the huge ugly thing and was horrified to look at the mirror and see the tick. This only happened 2 or 3 times here on NWPA Never out west, but they must be there too. My lot here is heavily wooded.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
If you ever get one that has it's head buried you have to be really careful....That is where the tick key comes in handy...their heads will break off and stay imbedded....then you do have a problem. If they think you may have Lyme disease they treat it with antibiotics....I'm allergic to penicillen and all of it's relatives as well as the sulfa drugs....the only one I can take is cipro and it's quite mild....so because i do get pneumonia...I don't take antibiotics needlessly because i may need the cipro for pneumonia at some time.......i just took the chance....the pic of my back does look like a lot of the positive lyme pictures......life is a gamble I guess. A friend who has a daughter with lyme was a bit upset with me for not going to the doctor.....but with my allergic reactions to antibiotics...the cure can be deadlier...

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Yep, they give some strong antibiotic called doxycycline for Lyme, as I recall. But t thought they test your blood for the bacterium that cause it before giving the meds. I have a home pharmacy here with hundreds of antibiotics and all kinds of meds and rarely take any.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
There are also a few other diseases that ticks carry.....I take vitamins to counteract most things instead of pharmaceuticals.....1 son and 1 Grandson also have the antibiotic allergies...we are passing that thing down pretty strongly....Basically I take tylenol for what ails me...of course that has an effect on the liver....but had to pick my battles.

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
I too take as little medication as possible. But need 3 for a cardiac problem. SVT My alarm goes off at 10AM , noon & 4 PM

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
I also have a cardiac problem...Rate dependent left bundle branch block....caused by a heart attack at 30.......don't take meds for it though because they would make me sleep all of the time......so i just deal with it....I just have to make sure that no one ever tries to correct my heart beat.....so far....that's worked.......Life can go on with all kinds of healtth issues....just have to be tough and persistent!

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
All depends! They want to do a cardiac ablation for mine, but I refuse. The meds doing fine. Saves me ER trips to get heart rate back to normal. Bummer staying there all day on a IV drip. And expensive! They try to admit for “observation,” but I say NO!

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
Sometimes you just have to say no to some medical procedures.....I have also...In my case trying to alter mine would likely cause death...so I can't let that happen....but I rarely think about it.....it's life as I know it. If it saves you from going to the ER then i would choose that too....just a week ago we had a family member have her heart shocked in an attempt to get her out of bradycardia....it worked for 10 minutes and then it went right back to a bad .rhythm...she is now on meds that are working working....

Maria7 on 04/22/2021:
We have ticks here in South Carolina, too. Both Hubby and me found one on each of us over the past couple years. Hubby got it off each time. Didn't send it off. Little dear ticks, I think they were. Glad it was not more. My outside cat, Snowball gets them lots of times and Hubby gets them off of him. He loves the woods.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
They are probably more annoying than dangerous....but boy do we hate seeing them especially in the house. Our inside dog used to get them too.....because she loved to lay out in the sun.....but they didn't seem to bother us....now up north they do...glad you found them before they bit you.

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
They can use shocks for tachycardia, my condition, but it never got to that for me. Just an IV drip. Takes hours.

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:
I think I would go for the IV myself...even if it takes awhile. Take a book to read.....In the medical office where I worked...we had I.V. beds....most of the people just slept while in there.

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
Boring but no alternative. Costs me good money too. Big motivation to take my meds. LOL

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2021:

Jacky82020 on 04/22/2021:
We have high deductibles on the cars, the house and medical. Never ever had a auto or house claim, but some medical claims. No biggies.

Maria7 on 04/23/2021:
Hoping you are having a good morning.

KathyBlue on 04/23/2021:
oh I recently joined a group on Facebook about: "Decluttering and Minimalism Life". They do nice monthly challenges, I just haven't had the time to enroll in one yet... haha. If you want to know the link let me know in the DDs group, we both are there if I'm not mistaken! :)

Donkey on 04/24/2021:
I really love staying at home. This whole idea of needing to travel, needing to go out to eat regularly -- all of that seems quite odd to me. I've never quite appreciated the introvert in me, until the pandemic.

Maria7 on 04/24/2021:
Hoping you are doing well today and having a good day.

Maria7 on 04/24/2021:
Hoping you are doing well today and having a good day.

bearcountrygg - Wednesday Apr 21, 2021

Weight: 0.0

Hanging around waiting for a crushed stone delivery for the driveways..........and thinking about getting some seedlings started inside.....but we had snow flurries again this morning so not sure if it is too early. 

Noticing that I should probably be counting calories....not because I'm eating too much...more like I'm not eating enough.........what a bummer........But i really don't want to bring high calories things in because i'm short at the end of the day....I remember having to do that years ago.......on Weight Watchers......( filling in with a high calorie dessert just to make the day work)....That just doesn't seem right.    Will see tomorrow.


Jacky82020 on 04/21/2021:
Snowing here in Pennsylvania too!

Many a high calorie food that is forever banned from this house. But a few manage to find their way to the freezer.

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2021:
Having some specific things around are too tempting some days...D shouldn't be eating them and if they are here...he does......I have noticed that I don't feel good when eating sweets these days.......and being away from them for a few days does stop the desire for them........will see.....I always have hard candy around for low blood sugar though and that's okay.....living on lower cal stuff is hard for me to get at least 1,200 in though.....

Jacky82020 on 04/21/2021:
Do you like cheese? I love it! That would help you get 1200. I am into whipped cream cheese lately. And always sharp cheddar. Tried to make my own whipped and it’s like when I tried to make whipped yogurt. No can do even with my excellent mixer. Guess they have their additives or whatever.

Also been into hard candy lately, regular and sugar free. Ok. Can’t eat more than a few a day. Good after something with hot sauce.

Also get some peanut butter Cals often. Tried other nut butters but prefer PB

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2021:
I like cheese but the lactose can be an issue....if you get my drift....I can tolerate yogurt though. I love peanut butter...actually crave it...and I'm allergic to it...but it hasn't killed me yet....I like to live dangerously...LOL

Maria7 on 04/21/2021:
Hope you got your delivery today. And did you say you got some snow? Wow. Good idea on the plants. We have raised bed gardens with tomato plants and strawberry plants in them and also I planted some lettuce seeds that are now coming up in one of the raised bed boxes. Fun to watch them grow. Also in an area of our back yard, we have what I would call a 'mini-garden' where I planted squash, beans, lettuce, cantaloupe seeds and the squash plants are up good and also some of the beans and the lettuce is just now coming up some. Fun to have little gardens.

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2021:
You must be having some really nice weather...still quite chilly here and a little snow....We had gardens at past houses....here there is a lot of sand and it isn't good gardening soil...so I will be container gardening on the deck....The crushed rock did arrive so we will be spreading that soon.

bearcountrygg - Tuesday Apr 20, 2021

Weight: 0.0

Recent days have been a breath of fresh air..........minimal media equals peace of mind.

When I take the noise out of my life suddenly life becomes something else all together.

Mental health

Physical health


Personal responsibility

Hard work


There are so many things that deserve my time and attention and taking the time to experience them means so much more.......food looks and feels different when seen as something that isn't the enemy........

Like water seeks it's own level.........peace of mind and love of life will also seek it's own level......when allowed to do so.

When I stopped getting on the scale, stopped weighing and measuring food, stopped making judgements about any particular food at all....it naturally  fell into place very quickly.  It wasn't hard, it just happened naturally.......

If I ate something that was not really good for me...it didn't take time to let me know that.  Paying attention to that became simple.  It isn't all a mystery......it's simple when I paid attention to my body....not the books, not the media...not the words of others.  If I didn't feel well after eating that thing.....my own body told me......so simple. 

Finding myself has given me so much peace of mind in a noisy, violent, crazy world. 

I'm no longer dieting

I'm no longer living with the tension and stress that seems to be handed out in the eyes of the public, as things become out of hand in the public, I find more and more  peace within, doing the things that I find fun and relaxing.  Doing the things that I find that work for me. 

When I  listen to my own body for real.....not with pre-conceived notions.....the weight falls off....no stress...and so easily.

Today and possibly daily.....( whatever makes the most sense)....I've turned off the TV......I'm scanning Facebook only for info on family and friends and how they are doing..........all other things there will be ignored.

I've taken to a notebook for journaling my days.....................I may switch to journaling here along with it. 

There is too much noise....too much violence.....too much unhappiness out there.  Time for me to find happiness within myself and live accordingly.

I plan to journal here today...just because I feel like it and for no other reason.

 After a cup of coffee...I took a nice long soak in the tub.....more truths came to mind.....

What goes around, comes around

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction

It is my job to learn from my mistakes.

We are never given more than we can handle.....figure out how to handle it

I waited until I was hungry to eat today.......it took 5 hours to feel hungry so then I ate.

My dryer quit heating up many months ago.....but still dries with room temp air...but it takes hours.....then my washer stopped spin drying and left things very wet...add that to the weird dryer situataion.......( not getting repaired or replaced right now because of covid)........so after  a few days of this.....we pushed the washer aside and between the 2 of us.....got the little portable washer upstairs...( I used to use it in an apartment).....I loved it then and I totally adore it now...what a little gem!!!!   Is it wrong to say I love this little mini appliance....????   Right or wrong....I LOVE IT!  Its small loads spin well.....it's small loads work in the broken dryer well.......it is making my life so much easier.......looks silly...but it's a sweetie!

Bed is made, neatening things up.......planning a relaxing day.....laundry getting done and I know right now that I will be cooking lunch for D in a couple of hours but I will wait to eat until really hungry..........and that is just fine.




Donkey on 04/20/2021:
What a timely post - I had a bun with my (husband-made) hamburger last night, and this morning, I'm feeling the bloat and discomfort, pretty much sure it's from the bun, since I don't usually eat bread.

I feel like this is the first time I've actually realized that my body is trying to tell me something - probably for longer than just today - and I just didn't hear it until today.

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2021:
It is interesting that we often ignore what we really feel....maybe the fact that you don't usually eat bread happened naturally too. You just knew then.....and today was a reminder. One thing is for sure....the short time it takes to eat something sure doesn't seem worth the hours of regret.

Jacky82020 on 04/20/2021:
Terrific post, Bear! A timely reminder for us all, Thanks, my friend.

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2021:
It is an introspective time for me.....when life gets out of hand...I do go inward...it always helps.

Jacky82020 on 04/20/2021:
I need to borrow a page from your book. Like now.

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2021:
Sometimes it's just better to shut the door and regroup.

Jacky82020 on 04/20/2021:
You got that right, girl!

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2021:

Maria7 on 04/20/2021:
Sounds like you had a nice day. Happy for you over your washer. Our set is old but still going, thank the Lord.

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2021:
You are lucky...I think the newer they are the quicker they quit working.....

horn_of_plenty on 04/21/2021:
HELLO BANANAS (speaking of food looking GREAT when it's not the enemy...second one for today since i'm needing that type of potassium and regulation a bit more as i'm listening to my body)

glad to hear the smaller appliance is working well for laundry...whatever works!

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2021:
This tiny one does it all...except for the heavier bedspread....so will avoid using that one for awhile. I used to be allergic to bananas...and was super happy to see that end.

horn_of_plenty on 04/21/2021:
i'm no longer dieting, either (in terms of good foods / bad foods!)

good lifestyle choices all around in your post.

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2021:
I guess I'm not eating enough these days...who figured.....I think I will count for awhile to at least get a minimum of 1,200.........this is just like the old me of years ago......but I got anemic then...and don't want that again...

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