bearcountrygg - Monday Dec 30, 2019
We are having the funniest weather here...it rained all day yesterday...totally POURED rain all night and into this morning...and suddenly it all turned to snow and we are on our way to getting snowed in......The winds were so strong yesterday that it actually blew a closed garage door open...........blustery/soaking wet and then lots of the cold white stuff piling up.
A squirrel on the bird feeder...but squirrels have to eat too.
Have I mentioned that I love the sound of 2020???????
2020 is perfect vision..........it's the beginning of a new decade.......it's the beginning of a new year...a fresh start........and I fully intend to make it work for me.....I'm looking forward to posting my plans for 2020 tomorrow.......and when that clock strikes midnight.....it will signal so many new and exciting things to be accomplished.........and I fully intend to stay accountable daily, weekly, and monthly here.
bearcountrygg - Sunday Dec 29, 2019
Not a quiet weekend around here...lots of police presence and then ambulance activity.........and we have no idea what was happening. Just like being back in the city again. Roads are iced and rutted but when you get to the blacktop they are fine...........I'm staying home today anyway.......will have to make a trip out eventually in the next few days for perishables...but that can wait. New years eve always finds me waiting up to watch the ball drop in Times Square but D will have already been in bed for 2 or 3 hours by that time...LOL......
I'm so looking forward to making some serious changes........I've been setting things up and listing and planning and I'm excited to get started.
I plan to photograph every meal next year and I can guarantee that it won't be pretty....LOL.....freezers need to be emptied of leftovers....pantry needs to be emptied of expired things......and I am determined to reach a wt of somewhere between 115 and 130................until then....I will ignore the scales and judge by what size clothing I'm wearing......besides clearing out the freezers and pantry I fully expect to clear out a huge amount of clothes that don't fit once and for all..................I want these spaces back and 2020 will be the year that happens. I also plan to use all kinds of things up before replacing them....it will be a year of saving money by not shopping also.........buying things when we are not in need of them at that time will stop in 2020.
The fact is that the more stuff we have, the more stuff we have to take care of....and I'm getting tired of stuff......so I will enjoy using things up.....looks like a new sport for me.
I thrived on living on a schedule for years because of family, work and school........but got lax about it with retirement....to the point where I have been fighting any kind of plans or scheduled days........but with that.....I got lazy and things piled up and then took a lot of work to get causght up again...so i'm also going to be scheduling my days so that things don't get behind because i'm not enjoying that feeling.
I'm going to finally get all of the boxes and bins in the basement opened ( found some that were hiding the other day...I have no idea what is in them ( my parents or our things that moved with us)....but it will get done as long as I write it in the planner....for me....the difference in having a planner and not having one is important......because i DO NOT LIKE IGNORING MY PLANNER.....what it says goes...funny how I don't like to mark them up in a non productive way...I want those pages to be followed to a T. Sometimes I will have to go to plan B....but....I want that to be as seldom as possible....and if I'm rewarding myself with stickers...all the better...LOL.........Kind of funny how I will work my butt off for a sticker that is awarded to MYSELF FROM ME!!!!! Crazy but it works...and if it works then that is what I will do!!
bearcountrygg - Saturday Dec 28, 2019
The day started out well....realized last night that the sugar i have been inhaling the last few days was catching up with me...felt rather crummy and definately seemed to tie it to sugar.
I started setting up my new year planner this morning and tweeking my resolutions. Also set up a regular notebook for WW points, calories and food lists ffor each day.
I'm looking forward to getting started on that.
I will be concentrating on using up past dated foods here...they need to get used or tossed and I've decided to use them when possible. Dates don't scare me on canned and packaged foods. I want this stuff gone and won't be replacing that kind of thing...instead we have invested a little in things that are prepackaged for 25 years....( not a lot...just enough for a few days).......in case we get snowed in or something. ) Of course we always have food around anyway sowe will be fine with just that......I still believe in prepping...but will be doing it differently...no more stocking things with current dates.
I believe that 2020 has a really nice ring to it. I think it will be very productive and a really good time to tweek my organization and health things.
bearcountrygg - Friday Dec 27, 2019
Well this week is flying by..........
Keeping busy and trying to stay warm.
Big laundry day here so stuck at home. I can not believe how 2 people can make so much laundry....my parents wore clothes for more than 1 day...as well as towels stayed on the towel rack for days........we have gotten quite carefree when it comes to tossing things in the baskets..........and it looks like 10 people live here.........I'm wondering what other people do......how many days do they wear clothes before washing them?
bearcountrygg - Wednesday Dec 25, 2019
Merry Christmas!!!! It will be a quiet one for us.....talking to kids on the phone....gifts were mailed a few days ago and we are just enjoying the quiet day. With family hours away we don't get togerher for holidays anymore and instead visit throughout the year and ship gifts. The spirit of the day is with us andi we do a lot of talking on the phone.
D and I will have roast beef with roasted veggies and godiva lava cake.............
I'm excited for new years day actually...lots of new habits to make.........I've been doing some things to make more new habits easier.......and i haven't really used a planner since the early 80's when I was using a planner to set up my days hour to hour out of necessity.I was selling real estate at that time and had to keep track of clients and appointments.... Oddly enough I still have those 2 planners and they are quality...both leather...one beautiful red leather one but they aren't as large as i would like now...I could probably buy new pages for them ( they are notebook style)...and were handy at that time size wise.........but now i just need a desk size and don't plan on carrying it around....I love the new one I got from Michaels...spiral bound and large.
I'm committed to making 2020 the year of creating new habits.......
I'm committing to getting rid of these last few pounds......
I'm committed to recreating new routines that work and free up more time for things I enjoy......
bearcountrygg - Tuesday Dec 24, 2019
Up and ready to get started again today.........balance is off yet blood sugars are good....ears are both plugged so that is the cause......press on anyway....things to do and no reason to use this as an excuse to get lazy.
Coffee so far and not hungry. Working hard to break some very old bad habits......technically...habits are not really that hard to break....I just have to replace them with something else....something like actually DOING the thing I'm avoiding!!!!
bearcountrygg - Monday Dec 23, 2019
Sleep was spotty last night....got up at 5 and went back to bed an hour later.......sleepy again so an afternoon nap will happen too...otherwise...feeling great.....getting things done and staying busy....still coming up with ideas for 2020.....will probably be adding a gratitude journal and self care times.......I'm thinking that pics will probably happen on the daily rather I get tired of doing them or not....so quitting won't be an option. I also need to use up what we have around here and make it work.........probably won't be pretty pics...LOL....but I guess that isn't a prerequisite. I will definately be counting calories as well as points...and will keep a running notebook of those. I will also plan on a spending moratorium.......will buy food for D as well as perishables for both of us.....I plan to not buy any new clothes for myself....No need to buy something that I don't plan on wearing very long......I will use what is already on hand. Will still buy for D as he needs. I feel ready right now And I'm looking forward to January 1st.
bearcountrygg - Sunday Dec 22, 2019
Looks like it will be a quiet Sunday.........Getting out a notebook and making a list of potential plans that can be incorporated in the new year. I think I will possibly do things in stages....setsome goals...make a promise to myself that I do not have to enjoy it but I do need to do it anyway. Anything worth doing is worth doing well so i need to work my way in to doing things automatically and then they will become habit.
I have never really set specific things to do at specific times with specific goals.......I have a planner waiting for January first and i will use it as a guidline for the year........no excuses, no changing plans...just following what i set out to do.
bearcountrygg - Saturday Dec 21, 2019
Up early again...the older I get...the happier I am to get up at 4:00 A.M. because I rarely go back to sleep again at that time. We both had a cup of coffee and D had his breakfast and then we moved 4 pieces of furniture upstairs from the basement and I'm stoked. I have been wanting these up here for a long time. Luckily they all fit really well. In moving 1 piece i found a lot of tablecloths that had belonged to my parentss...had no idea they were in there and of course only a month after I ordered a new one because I don't ave any big enough to fit our ddining room table. Just another reason to begin focusing on the basement after the holidays. I also found a really old world war 1 photo of my Grandfathers....that needs to find a home on a wall up here too.
Not hungry yet but I think it will be some dinner lftovers....I never have a problem with eating dinner food for breakfast...in fact I think I just may like it better than breakfast foods that i find kind of bland.
Not counting now until Jan 1st..........and then thinking that I need to get a lot more serious about what I eat........I need to decide and just stick with it...like it or not..........
I had a couple of very long phone calls with family yesterday....youngest son hasn't been feeling well.....and trying to get him to go to the doctor is about as hard as getting myself to go.........and now we worry about him and his wife that is already fighting a form of muscular dystrophy. The other call was from one of D's sisters who is almost blind, an amputee and other serious health problems who is widowed and living alone and 2 years younger than me. We had a good heart to heart and both came away feeling like we had a very good meaningful conversation. But I came away with new worries that make me feel today like I need to keep busy and get things in order....which is what I do when i'm feeling helpless.....so be it.
I'm giving a lot of thought to what I want to achieve in 2020 and I noticed that my first thought was "can I do it?"....and then realized WHY I was questioning my abilities! By questioning myself before even starting...I was giving myself an out and why would I want to do that?
What if I set a program in place and then MADE myself do it???? Why is that such a difficult idea for me to process? What if I did it rather I wanted to or not? What if it became so routine that i did it without thinking and did not give myself any slack or even a choice for that matter.
My mindset makes me or breaks me........I need to make myself push on, when it's difficult, when I don't want to anymore......I need to look at it as something I have to do...like it or not.
I need to stay in my own lane and end up somewhere between 115 and 130 pounds by December 31, 2020
Edit...Happily surprised...Son called to say that he went to the walk in clinic this afternoon and they started him on antibiotics....so that makes us happy.......he missed a small Christmas party but didn't feel that he should expose anyone else to his germs either...so it worked out well....he just has had ear infections one after the other since birth and has been a tough bug to keep away for very long........we are happy he went...so sigh of relief here.
bearcountrygg - Friday Dec 20, 2019
Just feeling really good here lately......up at 4:00 A.M. and after my coffee got really productive and emptied a cabinet, washed down and replaced some of it...........I'm liking the way it's all turning out. Thankfully the 1 bedroom closet is picking up the slack...pretty unconventional to have a pantry in the bedroom...but I've gotta do what I gotta do. It works and that is all I care about right now.
The bedroom pantry will need an overhaul now...LOL
Eating just is so less important to me when I stay busy all day........I guess that is how I had so many slim years....
No need to count anything right now so not doing that....although i will probably start again after the holidays justt for the fun of it.....fun may not be the right word...LOL
I would really like to be between 115 and 130 in 2020......will see how that goes.