The yard is in full color this morning.......It poured rain all night...and the front porch flag is on the roof.....need to go out and fix that. It's a cold and wet 40 degrees.
I've been a WeightWatcher ,WWer off and on for many years...I've lost a lot of weight over the years....on it....it works when you work it...like any diet program....I can't say I really ever did it by the book...I don't think I ever followed their recommendations for servings etc ( protein, fruit, veg)...But I did count points...admitted...some weeks I used up all of my points in 5 days and then had to have 2 zero point days...LOL.....I tweeked the program when I thought I needed to....but never actually read and followed it...just figured and counted my points...stayed within those each week ( or most weeks)...and the scales were cooperative....it really isn't anything more than calories in and calories out.....tweeking it never stopped the losses and in fact enhanced them at times. The bottom line is some foods make you hungrier...some foods make you crave something...some foods keep you full longer, some foods are so low cal that you can litereally fill your stomach for few calories.....but there is no magic.........
I've been watching reports of people on keto, and people explaining the new MY WW program that will be coming out soon...and people that count calories....and I have to chuckle...so many of the daily posters of videos tthat have to report ( by their own choice) daily weigh ins...make so many excuses....one that "is so knowlegable" about progrms had to finally admit yesterday that she weighed EXACTLY the same as she did on that day last year........and is still more than 100 pounds over weight...a whole year of carefully counting calories showing her daily meals and admittedly the pictures and recipes were looking delicious...BUT..her servings were GIGANTIC!!!!! Proof ...that healthy food in huge quantities is not a weight loss diet....LOL...and I suspect that she was dipping into the dessert a bit that she wasn't bothering to show or tell about....yet she is revered as a diet guru..........Proof that you really can't believe everything you see on the internet....or at the very least....you can't make low cal recipes and then eat 8 portions for 1 meal.....LOL...which reminds me that my Mom at one time thought that if she ate a frozen diet meal...and then ate anything else she wanted for the rest of the day...meant that she would lose weight...as if there was some magic in that frozen meal....it was hard convincing her that it was just PART of a diet...and that the 1 meal did not equal weight loss on it's own. She stopped buying them in disgust.....angry that dieting was so hard...and I wonder why I am a diet rebel myself...LOL
Anyway......I'm watching the new MY WW plans with interest......you can choose between 3 plans...and switch anytime you feel like it between the plans....I have in all of these years NEVER actually looked at how many proteins,fruits, vegs that ww was advising us to eat...I did just wing it....and it worked anyway.........like I said above...I'm a diet rebel...as was my diet rebel Mom.......that switching it up continually yet actually following their total guidelines tweeks my interest........as well as I have never really put my TOPS subscription to use either >>>>>>>SUCH A REBEL>>>>>> with winter settling in I will be stuck inside here or more factually snowed in or worse yet iced in.........I will have more time to work on it...well...I'm gathering the info and making the plans and figuring it might just be fun...I can still eat my cravings...as I am...I can still pick my own mealtimes...and I can just tweek the suggested types of foods and add them on.......
Actually I would be just fine staying at my current clothes size....but losing a little more wouldn't hurt...and I sure don't want to regain any .....and eating a well balanced diet (nutrition wise)...would be a plus....right now i notice that I have cravings for a high protein day....or a high fruit day...and even a high carb day...then I crave veggies...but...balancing that daily would also be a good thing...it would all work into the program as I understand it......
All in all while I'm really happy doing what i'm doing...I can see it would also work with the new program ( MY WW).....so I will most likely go back to the points counting....I will definately have the time this winter.......I'm just hoping the rebel in me can keep that desire to change things around quiet...........I shall see!!!! If I could just keep out of my own way for awhile...LOL
Monday is calling me......will probably begin counting points than...it had always been my meetings day back in the day...and it has a soft spot in my heart...or is it just that everyone starts a new diet on Monday...LOL..whatever!
EDIT.....right now as I see the online WW...has NO guidelines for numbers of servings of protein, or fruit/veg a day.....very differnt fom the old days where they pushed LIVER weekly...........they are right at this moment saying it's different for everyone...and with adding the 3 new progrms...there will be something for everyone and it will add variety for those that get tired of a program quickly.
I've been reading daily....but not posting.....looks like everyone is doing really well.
When I stopped posting I took on a new attitude that stopped putting my emphasis on weight loss and put it on activity and I love it.
I'm still using craving and hunger led eating so I never have a menu and I do keep an array of things available so the cravings are met.....I do keep a menu for D and prepare his meals with his likes and dislikes in mind and we are both very happy with that set up.
I still have a WW subscription which I do use to make sure that I am getting enough calories per day and that helps remind me to eat more or slow down the eating.
I probably have never mentioned it here but I am also a member of TOPS....( you sign up by the year for online subscriptions.) TOPS means well and does have very basic info...they do not promote any weight loss diets over others...how you choose to diet is up to you. They do have online member chats 2 times a week that I can attend online but I find them quite dull and usually leave the chat early. They do have an interesting book that arrives when you join and I do read that occassionally but i don't think I will be renewing that subscription.
Weight Watchers or currently WW...will apparently be changing it's name yet again next month...looks like it will be known as MY WW........and will be offerering a choice between 3 plans...which you can choose from or switch around as you choose. There will be a quiz to help pick a plan. They usually make yearly changes.....or occasionally every 2 years.
Since taking my emphasis off weight loss ( actually I am accepting where i am right now although a loss would be fine...it is no longer my end goal)...........I have just naturally become more active...I have no idea why but it just happened that way.
Recently I have been filling my days with activity...all kinds, in our small home gym ( now I wish I had some of our old equipment back)......walking, deep house cleaning, and just generally less sitting and more action. I've taken to spending some frequent spa time.....epsom salt baths, facials etc. and just enjoying better self care. The more I do the less I think about food until the knawing hunger pains start and I take time to think about what i'm wanting to eat instead of just aimlessly eating.
Slept really well through the night and got up and had a cup of coffee while watching the news.. and drinking water. Today I go pick up a Walmart grocery order that is an hour away....so basically that will fill my morning. The grocery pick up simplifies shopping so much for me and stops impulse purchases. I may not even get out of the car for the entire trip and that is fine with me. The order contains mainly meat, poultry, fresh fruit and vegetables and wild bird seed for the coming winter. Since it is in the 40's around here now...winter doesn't seem too far away. No desire for breakfast so far and will be leaving here in an hour so will see about that. I'm super happy with my new change of attitude and not thinking about weight anymore is so freeing....
And.....wanted to add this little gem!! Life is good!
1. I'm refusing to drop calories below 1,200 a day because of the damage it does to the heart muscle.
2. Refuse to give up carbs because I love them and a life without them would not be worth it.
3. I refuse to diet for the rest of my life, that just sounds like drudgery.
4. The more I think about food, and write down what I eat, and focus on what I eat, the more I want to eat.
5. When I don't spend any time at all thinking about food and only eat when I'm hungry and only eat what sounds good at that moment, I'm satisfied, my hunger goes away totally until the next time I feel hunger, usually about 4 to 5 hours later. I think that is using food for fuel.
6. The scale just makes me sad and anxious, my clothes tell me all I need to know. My cravings tell me what to eat.
7. All of the above is how I lived my entire life literally from birth to in my 40's where and when I was always thin and active. When a major stress appeared in my mid 40's everything changed and I started eating my feelings........after that, food became a coping mechanism and then a very bad habit.....today....dieting is really my only stress.......and to eliminate that dieting stress, I need to stop dieting.
8. Today I am 100% accepting that dieting is not my friend, that eating only when hungry and eating only cravings will be a better path for me...a path that I know well and have had great success with. If I'm supposed to lose more it will happen naturally and if that does happen my clothes will let me know.
9. I probably won't post my own diaries because I want to take all pressure to diet off of myself ...but I will continue to read about all of your journeys and comment.......
10. It's been a long time coming and was my lifestyle for the first 46 or so years of my life and it worked. For the last 24 years...it's been a struggle ...scales going up...scales going down, yoyoing has been my life over that time period. If what I have been doing worked...it wouldn't have been such a struggle.....so going back to what worked is what appears to be my answer.
11. I'm not going anywhere, I will still be reading your posts and enjoying the comraderie around here...you guys are great.
Had trouble getting into DD this morning...I was getting a security warning,,,That along with the logging trucks that have once again appeared to basically cut down the state forrest around us...are affecting the under the road wires...so wifi is sketchy.
When I can...I have been watching a you tube channel called BE INSPIRED....it's powerful. Many videos by many different people that cut to the chase and bring everything in life down to just the basics.......it is so simple and makes so much sense.
After not feeling well for a couple of days and then having a carb filled day because I was craving them and realizing that I felt better that day carbs and all........spoke to me. Eating my cravings just works for me and it occurred to me that eating my cravings does not mean large quantities, it might just mean 1 or 2 bites.....or only until I'm satisfied or no longer look forward to the next bite.
Getting dressed this morning made me realize that I'm quite happy with my weight right now.....it's not perfect for my height....but it is not a bad place to be. I think I will just continue with cravings led eating and control the quantities ( food as fuel).
This morning we got a weather warning for the next few days.....snow...apparently lots of it.
With the internet issues I don't know when i will be able to get back online......when I get cut off I lose everything I'm typing here...and that is super frustrating. I can read on my phone using the verion internet but posting is rlly hard with that.
Anyway...this morning I was craving meat and cereal....weird combo but I'm satisfied and have no desire to eat anything else.....small servings of cravings are what I will be doing.
I'm hearing a loud truck coming...so better get off and post this before I lose it.
Back on track and feeling a lot better today........
Yesterday I didn't count calories or WW points.....but today I did count the points.....it was the obvious ( to me) old bad habit of having a free day/pity party/grain,fat,sugar day.....I was just going to ignore it and move on....but today...after counting up the WW points...it was ridiculous..I did not count calories but I'm sure they were HUGE!!! I also realized this morning that while I had intended to take vitamins daily...I have been forgetting.
Full confession of what yesterdays food looked like...and is so typical of what I fall back on if I am not staying on top of things........1 cup black coffee, 2 bottled coffee drinks one starbucks and one from the dollar store...LOL...1 pkg of 2 pop tarts, 2 slices of raisin bread toasted with butter, 2 slices of oatmeal honey bread toasted with butter and peanut butter, 1 cliff bar and 2 starburst candies, 2 tiny mini pks of red licorice and 1 tiny pk of sour patch kids, 1 tiny pkg of gummy bears, starbucks reg caramel in coffee.....WW points = 78
1 thomas light multigrain english muffin toasted , spray butter, walden farms grape spread, 2 clementines, Two Good vanilla yogurt,1 cup black coffee....= 250 cals and 5 WW points
Lunch was beef brisket, green beans and potatoes....14 WW points
meal 3 = protein bar, cheese/crackers, 2 whole wheat cookies
bearcountrygg - Wednesday Oct 02, 2019
Well....after a rainy night of muscle cramp agony......I just want to sleep and just exist. Rings went from tight to loose randomly all night. I was ready to start taking bets on rather the next cramp was going to be calf or thigh...right leg or left........got up to drink water and woke D and the cat up accidentally...both welcomed me and wanted to party!!!....NO...NO PARTY!!!...both were in pleasant moods and wanted to help....well at least D wanted to help...Sampson just wanted to snuggle...NO......The more I try to control the more things go wrong. Bladder infection is improving nicely....but I swear...apple cider vinegar hates me........ ears are itching...always an allergic reaction...I really don't know rather to itch my ears or work the muscle cramps out first........Today I just want to exist.....nothing more...nothing less. Today...no counting anything....and no apple cider vinegar....I never did like pickled things for a reason I guess.
bearcountrygg - Tuesday Oct 01, 2019
Full of energy today but I think I have a bladder infection.....so D suggested apple cider vinegar in water...and it sounds like it might work...since it has antibacterial properties......so drinking that.....although downside to that is lowering glucose....but...so far so good......Not hungry and holding off on meal #1 until necessary.
coffee and water with apple cider vinegar......0 points, 0 cals
Vinegar seems to be working........so to counteract the lower glucose from it...I went ahead and ate breakfast with some sugar in it....feeling good and will have to stay around the house today anyway because a ton of dog food will be delivered today by a freight company.....has to be picked up at the road with the tractor...so we are stuck here.
Meal #1 skyr icelandic strawberry yogurt and 2 cuties = 190 calories and 4 points
chili, strawberries, spindrift = 581 cals and 14 WW points
Calories so far = 771 WW points = 14
Definately need to get at least 1,200 cals today and between 7 and 10 more points.
Meal # 3....was using up some fridge things...starving for some reason and I didn't care what I ate...I was just going to eat....burned the toast, a whole lot of peas...a dab of mac and cheese and the 2 leftover little spare ribs
730 cals and 12 WW points
That may win the prize for an ugly dish club! The peas were taking over!
So no more eating for me tonight....just zero beverages,......still drinking the vinegar water and no low sugar affects from it possibly because I had fruit and the cinnamon raisin toast to add some sugars......
Calories for the day = 1,501 and WW points were 26
bearcountrygg - Monday Sep 30, 2019
Started this morning with a cup of coffee....and putting off breakfast as long as I can.
I spent yesterday planning a diet routine that I believe will work for me. I took a bit here and there from several diet plans and left out the parts that often throw me off track.
I know that the earlier I start eating each day...the hungrier I am all day and the more calories I take in, so to combat that I will eat breakfast later and only when I am very hungry.
I plan to photograph all foods I eat and the time of day I eat them. Coffee, tea and any zero cal beverages probably will not be photographed unless they are used as part of a meal. I will post pics here.
I know that I like to use up whatever is in the fridge or last bits of food in packages in cupboards, so instead of worrying about what is appropriate to eat at certain times or what makes a nice picture....I will just use this desire to use things up , photograph it and post it . Many meals will be odd and funny looking....so be it.
There is no bad food....any and all food, healthy or not can be eaten.
WW points and or calories will be used as a way to control intake. I usually eat between 1,200 and 1,500 on my own anyway....but I want to make sure I'm sticking to the lower end for weight loss. It appears that 1,500 calories actually cause a gain or at least maintenance. I want to make sure to get in at least 1,200 a day though.
There may be liquid fast days, intermittant fasting days, Intuitive eating days, as well as one meal a day type days.....but mainly it will be just random foods/meals using what is on hand. The days foods may not be well balanced as far as nutrition goes so the aim will be to balance things out nutrition wise over several days...which just seems to happen with me anyway since cravings happen regularly for me with intuitive eating. I will also be taking vitamins daily.
I will be exercising randomly....when I set a schedule I fight it...so I will just exercise when the mood strikes me...
I will be drinking a lot of water and zero calories beverages.
I will be reading daily from numerous books that will give me new ideas and motivation. Louise Hays book titled Heal Your Body will live on my desk permanently. It is a perfect reference book for me. It really hs nothing to do with weight loss but eveything to do with how we think and what affect it has on our health problems...and gives affirmations to repeat to ourselves to combat the affect.
I have rejoined WW because it has worked very well for me in the past...I have had times where I swore I would never join again....and times where it has had a huge influence on my weight losses......this time I am in the right frame of mind to use it to the max.....I need to be able to accept the fact that it is a lifestyle...not just a means to lose and then leave what I learned behind.
Today I start reading Mindful Eating by Jan Chozen Bays, MD
1st meal of day 11.50 A.M.
salami , cheese, horsersdish sauce on a whole wheat roll and 2 cuties = 680 cals and 23 Ww points
2nd meal of the day 4:30 P.M.
Quaker Instant pumpkin spice oatmeal, a banana , strawberries and spindrift
This morning I had last nights dinner and day befores dinner leftovers...and it reminded me how much I love dinner for breakfast...LOL...people talk about breakfast for dinner...but rarely the other way around. So todays breakfast was BBQ pulled pork, scalloped potatoes, rice a roni and corn..and coffee..I'm full and happy and didn't count anything.....tomorrow I plan to clean our the fridge....I know there are things hiding in there that need to go...so that is on the list for monday....other things going on today.
I cleared off my kitchen counters...clutter had taken over...small appliances were taking up space and gathering dust and worse..........this kitchen is small...and I have spent the last 4 yearss bemoaning that fact......I came from a place where the kitchen was enourmous and I loved it......here...I have been super guilty of whining...and complaining about this one.....and because of the lack of storage space.....just used the counter..to store things...which ultimately took up my working space......it played a mind game with me that just made me hate it more...........finally....I've cleared the counters of most of the clutter...and I'm am beginnng to enjoy this kitchen.......of course it is still small....but it is a lot more fun to work in now.............If I could just get out of my own way.....I swear......things could work better for me...........
I was never a rebel...I loved rules...they were my guidelines...and somewhere along the way I became a rebel.......I didn't want to follow rules ( of couse I follow LAWS..that is different) but I didn't want anyone or any diet program to tell me what to do..........those were optional.....I was a free spirit....i follow my own drummer......but what if I throw convention out the window...? What if I create my own plan...what if I build a program for myself that incorporates parts of other progrms, contains quirky things about myself that make it easier for me to follow......what if I make a diet program from all the components and take what I know what works for me...and discard what doesn't......? I've done this before but always fell back into feeling like I was messing with a national program (WW and FitDay)...and then rebelled against them and quit....( yet I had lost a lot of weight on them when I was following them)...classic case of cutting off my nose to spite my face!!!! UGH
I had kind of pushed all of my diet materials and books aside...but I think I will take today...to make up a custom weight loss program for myself with the materials I have here........my weight loss lately has stalled...and I want to kick start it again......I can see that some intense work needs to be done...so i will cherry pick a new multi faceted program for myself......today.....and get started on it tomorrow morning..........it will be different...it will suit my needs and will be personalized to keep my interest.......if it works....then all the better...if not...it can be changed a bit. So...devoting all day today to making up my new personalized program......need to dig out the books, videos, CD's and anything else I can find......
While digging out diet related books...I ran across my old copy of Louise L. Hay's book titled HEAL YOUR BODY....the book itself is amazing...basically has nothing or little to do with weight...but has everything to do with how we think and how our thoughts make us sick......I have always found it to be spot on for our family.....I see myself totally in every ailment i have ever had and my thought process that very well could have caused the ailment.....my book has been read so many times it's falling apart.....i will again leave it out......it names an illness, condition or ailment...gives the thought process that created the ailment...and then gives a sentence or two of an affirmation to change the way we think........life changing.
Dark and dreary ouside today.....D running hardware store and auto parts store errands......and I'm doing paperwork.......and laundry.
WE have decided to make more of an effort to budget better and cut expenses........and use what we have instead of being lazy and just ordering or picking up more instead of using what is already here....today he repairs the trucks tail light instead of taking it to the mechanic......and that's a good thing.....it will also make me a lot more aware of what i bring into the house....and it will cut the junk food for sure....we still have a lot of it here to use up...but that is already said and done.....when it's gone...we will not replace much of it or at least make better choices. Making up a budget is always fun for me...i love the challenge....but we have not been budgeting these last 4 years........not good.
Breakfast for me was a slice of leftover pizza and coffee
snack = 2 cookies and a can of spindrift.
The main meal was a bunch of leftovers......pork, rice a roni, corn, scalloped potatoes, roll and blueberries....working on using things up so I can really clean out the fridge in a couple of days.