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belly - Sunday Mar 29, 2015
(Low sugar, healthier carbs)
Weight: 170.0

 I can't wait to see the endocrinologist in a week!  Hoping to get some answers about my thyroid, it may be a piece of the puzzle!

I have a trip to Florida planned with our dearest friends, and I hope to lose 5 lbs in 5 weeks before we go (I can't fit ANY of my shorts!)  But just in case, I found some awesome capris at the thrift store for $2!  (I refuse to spend $ on a new pair at a larger size when I have scads of summer clothes that I just need to fit someday soon!)

Hoping for a great month!!

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 03/30/2015:
Good luck! I absolutely refuse to ever buy larger. Got rid of my bigger clothes about 3 years ago and if things I too tight I only have one option. Get smaller.

Umpqua on 03/30/2015:
I like your plan for clothes and I hope you get some good news from the specialist!

Maria7 on 03/30/2015:
I love to shop at thrift stores, don't you? You never do know what you might find. But I've noticed that their prices have really gone up from what they were a few years ago, so I've begun shopping at discount priced 'new' stores, too.

belly - Friday Mar 13, 2015
(Low sugar, healthier carbs)
Weight: 173.0

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 28 lbs to go!

SkinInTheGame on 03/16/2015:
Stay with you plan! You can do this!!

BellaK on 03/18/2015:
Woo-hoo! Congrats!

belly - Monday Mar 09, 2015
(Low sugar, healthier carbs)
Weight: 175.0

Not a bad day today!

Rice Krispies, almond milk


fiber 1 lemon bar

shrimp wonton soup

KD & beans (eh...)


coffee & tea

should have more water!  And no real exercise until I lose weight - foot issues acting up

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 30 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 03/10/2015:
It's good to see a post from you, I hope you will stay with us!

Maria7 on 03/10/2015:
Hope your foot gets better and well.

belly - Tuesday Jan 22, 2013
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 152.8

So much time has passed since I've last been on here.  I haven't been serious for ages, because it's just easier.  If I don't have any goals or aspirations, then you can't fail or "have a bad day".  I hit rock bottom a few nights ago.  I'm not talking about my weight, I've been heavier, but it was for better reasons than today.   I've been thinking about eating better, and wanting lose weight, how nice it would feel to be thinner, more toned, for a few weeks now.  And then, I turned into a spoiled brat again.  My "If I want to eat something, I will!  I can do whatever I want!" attitude.  It's so messed up it's embarrassing.

It was 10 pm, I should have just had a big glass of water and went to bed.  But instead, I started thinking about waffles.  Warm, buttered, waffles, dripping in syrup.  So I made 3, yes, 3, and ate them.  They were pretty good, and they made me happy at that moment, but then I felt stupid.  Not even guilty at this point, just stupid.  Am I such a child that denying myself anything is not an option, even if it means I will achieve a greater reward in the future?  Talk about food issues!  I will have to look back at these posts, I remember someone (bless their soul) recommending a food addiction book to read.  Better late than never!

So here's to Day 1 - no matter how many I've had in the past, this one matters most!

I had poached eggs and turkey bacon with tea, then homemade chili and a diet cherry pepsi, a bite of fruit muffin (whole muffin is 200 cal) then veggies and dip to snack off and on in the afternoon, then a big bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch for dinner (I don't bother cooking when it's just me and 1 kid home), then half a muffin that I shared with my daughter, and more veggies.  Now I'm having a cup of no-sugar added hot choc. to get my fix before bed.  I worked out by dancing around to music in my bedroom and did some sit ups and squats, about 30 minutes.  No, it's not a perfect day.  But I'm no longer going for perfect days.  I'm going for better choices, not even all the time.  I hardly ever have veggies, and I never work out.  So even if I had half a muffin and cereal, I normally would have eaten that whole muffin, not eaten a single veggie, and had waffles after dinner.  So for me, Day 1 was a good day.  And a good day is good enough, even if it's not perfect.

I usually go super hard on Day 1.  Nothing but "diet" food, then I'm starving after dinner, and then I binge by 7 pm and don't stop til 11 pm.  There is no Day 2.  This time I'm just going to ease into it.  Also going to get at least 7 and half hours of sleep.  I am terrible at getting enough sleep, and that's a factor in all this for sure.

*deep breath in.....and out*  okay, I can do this.  For me this time.





Progress as of today: 10.2 lbs lost so far, only 17.8 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 01/23/2013:
Welcome back, just logging on here regularly and being accountable for your eating and exercise is a major step!

legcramps on 01/23/2013:
Great first steps, and I agree - we need to ease into things slowly and form good habits otherwise we'll keep falling off! Good luck to you today :)

belly - Thursday Oct 13, 2011
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 148.6


Still binge eating.  I don't know how this happened.  I mean, I've always had moments when I ate seconds, or ordered dessert when I was no longer hungry, but this is getting out of hand.  Eating when I'm full, to the point where I feel sick, eating when I am not even enjoying the actual food itself, and just for the sake of eating.  This is new to me, and it's starting to get scary.  I'm not depressed, (I was a few years ago), I'm feeling pretty good about things, but I do feel overwhelmed almost every day.  Seems there is so much to get done, but I have no energy to do it all.  Food is a temporary distraction, and is a perfect way to procrastinate my errands and chores.  ("I'll do that after I eat this...have to eat, you know!")  To the point I am eating every hour on the hour.

I am going to start being more aware of my actions for a bit, see how I am feeling when I am mindlessly shoving food down.  I have to figure this out.  It's not who I am.  

Tomorrow is another day.



Progress as of today: 14.4 lbs lost so far, only 13.6 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/14/2011:
I have eaten when I wasn't hungry just because I wanted some energy. Didn't give me any. Food gives guaranteed pleasure so I guess we need to find additional sources of pleasure. Hang in there!

biscottibody59 on 10/15/2011:
Forgive me if I've suggested this before, but your entry screams to me, "Tell her about that book!"

Yep, "Overcoming Overeating" by Munter and Hirschmann. There are some excerpts in the forum if you're interested: http://www.dietdiaries.com/forum-readmessage.cfm?messageID=5050&categoryID=1

That has two clickable links to other forum entries.

I think this is a good book to possibly redirect all kinds of behavior toward food.

shams on 10/20/2011:
try a bag of soft boiled carrots from time to time. you feel good and feel sick to continue eating.

belly - Thursday Oct 06, 2011
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 148.6

 Totally was pretty good.  Went to TOPS meeting for the second time, and stayed the same since that weigh-in.

Did have some buttered popcorn with my daughter in the evening, but I had about half what I normally would have eaten.  I had my little indulgence, then moved on.  Went for a walk at lunch time for about 20 min.

There's an early Halloween social in 2 weeks I'd like to dress up for, so that's motivation #1, then 2 weeks after that is a Florida trip...bathing suit motivation #2.

Cheers and good luck to all!




Progress as of today: 14.4 lbs lost so far, only 13.6 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 10/06/2011:
I love popcorn, too...I like the 100 calories bags kind. :-)

~WI~ on 10/10/2011:
Welcome back!

belly - Wednesday Oct 05, 2011
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 149.0

 First day of eating well. Past few days was good until I got home after work, then the gloves came off, and I ate everything in site.  Not out of starvation, but out of contempt for myself.  If I believe I should eat whatever I want, I will.  But I also don't care about the consequenses at that time.  It's like my own little rebellion.  "I'll just eat what I want, thank you!  Who are they to tell me what I should eat or not eat?"  

Just acknowledging what a head game eating better and trying to lose weight, is a good thing.  It's craziness. 

My day:

raisin oatmeal packet w/ a bit of milk


lean cuisine for lunch



granola bar for my dark chocolate fix

green tea, little Splenda

fish, 1/2 a potato, green beans


small bowl of cereal for snack

Not bad, I usually have no veggies at all, and maybe 1 piece of fruit.  Feeling good about today. I usually polish off a whole box of crackers after work.  Tomorrow is a new day!  


Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 10/06/2011:
Yes - acknowledging what a head game eating can be is a good thing. Thanks for this insightful entry - I REALLY REALLY liked the comment you made about if I believe I can eat whatever, without acknowledging the consequences it's your own little rebellion. I so TOTALLY get that - that is EXACTLY what is in my mind when I overeat. I think that will help me. Gonna write it down and contemplate over it and let it help me do my best.

legcramps on 10/06/2011:
That happens to me, too. It's like I forget to care or something. Have a good day today!

belly - Sunday Oct 02, 2011
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 148.2

 Up 3 lbs, and been away a very loooong time.  I have been doing nothing but eating junk, no exercise, and feeling sorry for myself.  I can't seem to get out of this mindset.  So tired, too lazy to get off my butt, and do not want to deny myself any of the high sugar/fat/carb goodies that bring me temporary pleasure.  It's a miracle I haven't gained more, because I have been doing this for months now.

I guess this is step 1...again.  I know I'm not ready to get back on yet, but I'm at least acknowledgeing (sp?) that I have a problem with me right now.  I'm self-sabatoging myself and am putting temporary pleasures ahead of long term satisfaction.  I'm feeling pretty defeated right now.  I want to change, but at the same time, I don't want to do the work to get there.  Lazy!

Tomorrow is another day of contemplation.  And I know that it won't be a day of action.  Comtemplation is the best I can do right now.  But I'm here posting, and that is a start.

Progress as of today: 14.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

nomoreforme on 10/03/2011:
Here's a quote I like that seems quite appropriate: “If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.” Have a good week, hope you gain some motivation!

belly - Tuesday May 24, 2011
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 145.0

Wow, has it been almost 2 months since I was on here?  Well, I see I'm up 3 lbs, but pretty sure that wasn't a real loss...sick weight loss never stays off.  I can't wait til my Dr. appt. on Thursday, and find out what's going on.  Had bloodwork done, and my thyroid and cholesteral levels have been slowly creeping up for the past 2 years.  I got called back in, so maybe I finally crossed the line where I need to take meds for it.  I have a goiter as well, and it got bigger.  Would explain me being so cold all the time.  But I'm not gaining weight, so maybe I'm not there yet.  Guess I'll find out soon!

So close to being at my goal, it's driving me batty! 




Progress as of today: 18 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 05/24/2011:
Good to see your post. You are close - maybe once you get the thyroid issues settled it will help. Thyroid has a lot to do with metabolism.....

thinkpositive on 05/27/2011:
Hope you get the help you need from your Dr.It's tough to have a medical problem hanging over you. Good luck inching toward your goal.

belly - Thursday Mar 31, 2011
(Just trying to eat healthier/exercise)
Weight: 142.0

SICK AGAIN!  This is ridiculous!  On the plus side, lost 2 lbs without trying!  Now to keep it off is another thing.  It's going to be a very busy month.  Taxes, new job, and planning a baby shower soon.  Will try hard to fit in some strength training!  Need to tone badly!  Oh, and also need to paint the house, plan a garden...how come men's lives seem so much simpler? 

Progress as of today: 21 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 04/01/2011:
Hope you feel better very soon. Congrats on the 142.0. :-)

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