Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=26.5 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)
Drawing on my fine command of the English language, I said nothing. --Robert Benchley
For my activity: NordicTrack 14 min/1.4 mi
Day 343 was good. So much for 1900--still off by that 500.
The comments yesterday stated the obvious: I'm not as obsessive as some with calorie counting or the counts would be much lower, right? That's pretty much it with me. I rely on fitday to count calories, which is not what the average calorie-counter probably does. I find it unnecessary to memorize the calorie counts of anything. It would drive me up the wall to be quite honest. And to be fair, I have had days over the years that I have added my food to fitday as I went along, but then I would compensate/overcompensate food- and exercise-wise, as the case may be.
What's in this diary here is my sole attempt to ever try to lose weight through "dieting." Hardcore, it didn't last long, a few weeks/months or so on the original diet I went on. Long enough to lose a few pounds and see that I could actually bring about a change in myself. Calorie counting is more my style, though this is the first time ever for me to do that, as well.
I've lost weight in the past, through losing my appetite from relentless back pain and eating exactly the same basic healthy thing for lunch--because I had to eat something. And during that time walking 2-3 hours/day. I tend toward personal food fads anyway.
The better plan for me is to HAVE A PLAN for eating for the day that I MAY deviate from, depending on how the day goes. I think the more laid-back manner I adopted began after I read Overcoming Overeating by Jane R. Hirschmann and Carol H. Munter, which I would like to revisit again. In a nutshell, it's not a diet, but sort of a set of concepts/ideas/solutions. It's an immensely accessible book for most people. It may make you think differently about food, if not yourself.
I've never suffered from an eating disorder like anorexia or bulimia. If the way I ate in the mid- and late-90s--alot of eating fatty foods out of boredom and because it was there, gaining more than I ever had in my life, getting the least amount of physical exercise (but getting SOME exercise) and occasionally overeating (I've never really binged in my estimation) are symptoms of an eating disorder, then I'll own up to it for that time.
I've been a binge social drinker in my time--20 years ago on an occasional basis, so I think I know what bingeing is, per se, but eating just to eat . . . and eat . . . and eat, well on second thought there was a time when I had a partner in crime who, when the weekend hit, would join me in eating like there was no tomorrow, so I guess that's my only foray into binge eating.
I remember one time sitting in a taco place (not TacoBell) and we had each just had at least 3 items. Then we'd get the lone dessert item on the menu. Then one of us would ask the other if we wanted another item, usually a taco, then it would go on like that until we'd consumed another couple items apiece. Then we'd go to an ice cream place and have a big sundae or ice cream soda. Then it would have been a couple of hours since we'd eaten at the taco place and it was then time to go to the burger place. I was literally a bottomless pit. By the next day I would have been up for it again. Oh but classes stood in the way--damn! And I had access to an unlimited amount of food in the cafeteria, and some of what I consumed were actually fruits and vegetables!
Gee, it's a good thing it wasn't binge drinking, we probably would have been arrested for public intoxication at least once/week:-)
I was 18 years old. I walked or rode my bicycle everywhere, marched in band, and I was just getting into running with another friend. I might have weighed myself once a year, most certainly not monthly or weekly. I didn't know anyone who had bulimia--had never even heard of it at that time. If someone had suggested it to me after eating that horrendous amount of food, I'm sure I would have been appalled. "Eating disorders" just wasn't in my vocabulary or the vocabulary of the daily news at that time. Or maybe I just don't remember.
I think after a number of people died from using protein powder for dieting purposes--I think one of them was Shaklee--people began to talk about anorexia, then came the death of Karen Carpenter--people under 30 may have no clue who she was--hers was an awfully heartbreaking case. A very private person, despite her amazing voice, success, fans and celebrity status, who died so unneccessarily, from a disease that is still apparently really hard to treat, much less CURE! She died before anyone, much less her family, apparently knew what they were dealing with. Or perhaps denial was part of it. Her parents never came out publicly to talk about it.
It's interesting that Rock Hudson being one of the first celebrities to die of AIDS sort of broke the ice for AIDS. It seems that bulimia/anorexia among celebs is still very taboo. Maybe even more taboo than anything. Opinions anyone???
Anyway. By my definition, I haven't really binged on food in a very long time. Like with binge drinking, in my case, I need a partner to spur me on. I haven't binged on alcohol in many years either. I can't recall ever eating all of anything or several things when I was alone just to get rid of them when I was completely full already.
Eating in secret hasn't been a problem since about 4th grade, though the "problem" only consisted of one thing. And I was rarely left alone to prepare and eat my "treat." Essentially my mother wouldn't let me fix my treat the way I wanted it when she was around. I know you're dying with curiosity to know what it was--haha!
Here it is: I liked to take a cone with a scoop of chocolate ice cream and pour a little Hershey's syrup on and put crushed pecans on top of that. It took awhile, because I almost always had to chop the pecans--haha--in a chopper, but it still took time. I guess this was just a little too messy--she wanted me to put it in a bowl. So it wasn't that I couldn't eat the combination, just not "my way."
The closest I come to bingeing is with pizza--the classic trigger food for me. To my credit, I've resisted pizza over and over again lately. It's a huge trigger, if I've been plugging along eating moderately for days, to throw me into eating "off plan." Of course I haven't really been "on plan" for weeks now (to speak of). My exercise has been the difference. I can't go on like this much longer:-)
Plan for today: Circuit workout, jog/walk
Have a lovely day and take good care of yourselves!
2403 cal * 101g Fat * 25g Fiber * 84 oz Water
-46 cal Deficit * 15% Activities
Running Wkly Def: 57 (s/b +400 to +500)