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graindart - Monday Jan 21, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 172.2

Reigned myself back in yesterday.  Ate way too much for lunch / early afternoon.  Knew it was either going to turn into a full binge day or I had to just stop eating for the rest of the day.  Wavered back and forth a few times, but chose to stop eating instead of going fully off-plan.

Today is a day off for everyone in the family.  Nothing planned.  It's cold, snowy, icy and I just felt like hibernating.  Will probably watch some TV with the family again.  Might go out later to get some grocery shopping done.  Also need to look for a new large mirror replacement for the bathroom.

Haven't decided what to do about food right now.  With the slip-up yesterday, I'm reconsidering getting rid of the popcorn right now.  I was in a normal daily groove and knew that my popcorn was my go-to snack when I was feeling like I could be going out of control.  Without the popcorn, I just started eating various other stuff from the fridge.  Yogurt took about a minute to eat, then a pudding snack pack took another minute, then a couple sugar-free mini candy bar pieces, then a piece of cheese.  So the snack was 300 calories, not very satisfying, and gone in less than 5 minutes.  Where my old friend popcorn would've mostly satisfied my snack craving, cost 100 calories, and lasted around 5 minutes.  Or my other old friend grapefruit would've done a similar thing for 80 calories.

The wife isn't on a super strict low-carb plan, just a lower carb approach where she's cutting out her main go-tos like pasta, bread, and other highly processed / simple sugar carbs.  She doesn't care too much about popcorn and doesn't like grapefruit.  She also says she doesn't care if they're in the house since they don't really interest her all that much.  Originally I thought I'd get rid of them to switch to a much lower-carb approach for myself, but am now kind of second-thinking that.  I think right now I need simple control and predictability more than a super-low carb plan. 

I regret yesterday's eating because I overate during lunch / afternoon and didn't even get to eat anything I was craving.  I just overate stuff I really didn't want anyways, which was a dumb move.  So now I just had an overeating episode yesterday, but still have the same cravings I've been holding onto for the past week.....

Spend the last couple hours researching fiber......  

For the past quite awhile I've been winging my daily calorie intake.  I've been intermittent fasting most days and then eating until I run out of calories.  This has worked fine for losing weight, but now I'm considering making up a daily menu plan for at least a portion of my daily intake.  Maybe a nice balance would be 50% of calories planned and 50% winged.....  Just another random thought as I continue to throw stuff at the wall to see what sticks.....

Progress as of today: 110.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/21/2019:
I agree that if popcorn and grapefruit work as your "go to" foods, that you should have them in the house, low-carb or otherwise. Tools of the trade, so to speak.

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graindart - Sunday Jan 20, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 170.5

Enjoyed my popcorn bags 3x yesterday.  Only 1 pack left in the house now and my oldest daughter will probably beat me to it today.  So today will be a lower-carb day than the past quite awhile.

Two weeks until Super Bowl.  Would like to see the scale say 165 by then.  If it did, I might have a harder time going off-plan knowing that I was getting so close to my latest goal number.  If it's sitting 168-172, it'll be a pretty easy decision to take the day off.....

Not much planned for today. 

5pm edit:

Struggling with food here today.  Started eating around lunch time and kept eating.  Stopped recording what I ate, but know I've eaten my entire day's worth of calories by early afternoon while watching TV with the family.  It wasn't anything overly bad, because we don't have much junk food in the house.  Just large quantities of stuff that really doesn't taste all that great. 

Kind of sitting here now trying to figure out where today ends.......  Stop eating and mostly salvage the day....... or go buy some chocolate chip cookies that I've been craving and totally blow this day out.....

Weekends with the family are always so much more difficult than weekdays when I'm in a regular schedule mostly by myself.

Progress as of today: 112.5 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/20/2019:
I suspect when you stop the popcorn you will start losing again.......anything you eat day in and day out as far as I can see...becomes a loss stopper...For myself...i need to eat different things frequently...and nothing on a daily basis...( other than coffee...which I believe also helps loss)

graindart on 01/20/2019:
I'm pretty sure I'll see a drop over the next 2 or 3 days after running out of the popcorn. But I'll also see an uptick in the number whenever I go back to eating it again. It's something I enjoy and is low in calories, so will probably have several boxes back in the pantry whenever the wife decides she's done with the lower-carb menu.

The thing I hate about eating the same stuff day in and day out is.....boredom. But the thing that is most beneficial about it is that I have little desire to binge eat that same stuff either.....

BearCountryGG on 01/20/2019:
I do like a variety of food....and i don't like to eat the same thing day after day....I don't like boredon with dieting...it sends me straight to a binge...but if i keep eating different things...I'm more apt to not binge. My husband goes on food jags...right now his is popcorn, it had been life cereal, then dill pickles,I get frustrated because I stock up on his favorite of the moment...and then he changes it...and what i bought so he wouldn't run out...just sits there...and i end up having to eat it.....I think I am just going to let him run out the next time...and ask me to buy him more.......I just like a variety...except for peanut butter and butter on toast.....now that...I have an apparent addiction to so I have to stay away from it.......

graindart on 01/20/2019:
My snack of choice does change on occasion. And like your husband, when mine changes it's usually a sudden change.

Bread / toast, butter, peanut butter, and jelly are all huge problems for me. I can easily go through half a loaf of bread when I get started on that combination.....

Donkey on 01/20/2019:
I wanted to mention that your idea about pulling diet plans and/or exercise plans from a hat -- I had always presumed that would be a daily plan, and not a weekly thing. Just so you can learn from my stupidity - or enjoy the story at least - I was so disgusted with myself struggling not to eat that I decided, I want to eat donuts so badly, we're going to have a day where all I eat are donuts! >>> Stayed within calorie range, but by the end of the last donut at dinner, I was ready for a change.

I file this story under "Dumb Diets I've Done".

graindart on 01/20/2019:
I love donuts. But at 200 calories per donut, my daily calorie count would disappear with only 7-8 donuts. And it would probably only take me about 30 minutes to eat that many......

At least with my 100 cal bags of popcorn, I'd get to eat 14-15 bags during the day. Or I could eat 18 grapefruit during the day.

But what I've really been craving is chocolate chip cookies. I just looked up a package of Chips Ahoy. And the smaller 10oz pack size (not family or party size) still has more calories in it than my daily allowance.....

happy-1 on 01/20/2019:
Sounds like the last popcorn bag needs a "share me" postit

graindart on 01/20/2019:
I walked past the last pack a few times and finally decided it was mine..... Now the house is popcorn-free.

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graindart - Saturday Jan 19, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 170.5

Still mulling over options for the future concerning food / possible exercise.

Leaning towards having 2 random "hats".  Fill one with pieces of paper for various types of food plans.  Fill the other with pieces of paper with various exercise plans.  Randomly pick a piece of paper from each hat and work both randomly picked plans for a week.  Then switch up the next week with new random picks.  The idea of doing something new each week sounds semi-enticing, but I'm still not feeling overly motivated.

Right now the random food plans probably wouldn't be a good idea since the wife has decided to try a lower-carb way of eating right now.  So I'm kind of stuck on the lower-carb path too right now (other than I'm still finishing off the bags of popcorn).

So until I make a decision otherwise, just continuing on with counting calories and staying under a set number for the day.  Still planning on going off-plan at our Super Bowl party. 

Brainstorming lists of food plans / exercise plans:



steps per hour / day

body-weight exercises

intermittent fasting cardio
water fast or very low cal 1 mile per day
vegetarian / vegan heavy weight lifting
high-protein wear weighted vest
eat every hour stairs

fruit diet

walking daily 
liquid diet - juice / smoothies  
2000 calorie per day  

raw diet


one food diet
- popcorn
- grapefruit
- yogurt
- jello / pudding



Progress as of today: 112.5 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/19/2019:
I really like the hat plan........It sounds like a good way to keep boredom away.......the family going low carb will be a help too....it looks like you will have a lot of good options to work with.......need to keep it interesting.

Donkey on 01/19/2019:
I would encourage you, as a spouse, to stick with the low-carb thing for one more week, to support your wife. I'm sure she's her own person and able to attain her goals on her own, but speaking as a wife of 23 years, it's very nice when your spouse goes along with what you're doing.

(Personal observation: her cooking dinner last night probably saved you a lot of calories had you all gone out to eat.)

I too like the hat idea -- maybe more so for the exercise/activity part, but that may just be my personal bias (not sure). Two of the things I would eliminate from the food part is the "one food diet" and the "eat every hour" diet. The "one food" thing -- done that, it's not pretty. The "eat every hour" thing -- I can see that being a slippery slop to a binge-filled day. Just my 2 cents.

graindart on 01/19/2019:
Just brainstorming options. Also considering doing it on a daily basis instead of weekly. Lots of the options I feel are pretty stupid / counter-productive as extended plans, but might just alleviate some of the boredom if done for one day. While I couldn't see living on bananas for the rest of my life, just eating 20 bananas in a day would at least be a change of pace.

Completely agree with you about sticking low-carb for now in support of my wife's own trial period thing.

This brainstorming is just an attempt to find anything that might give me some type of motivation to continue forward right now. Just throwing things at the wall and seeing what sticks. I'm out of the danger zone and on-plan right now, so am not in a panic to make any decisions. Just wouldn't mind finding a less boring plan of attack.....

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graindart - Friday Jan 18, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 172.0

Still undecided about plans / direction.

Not much going through my mind right now, will update later......


5pm add:  

So feeling like going off-plan and taking the family out for dinner.  Feel like I've been back on-plan with this restrictive low calorie limit forever.  Of course I've only been back on-plan since last Thursday (8 days ago).  Don't know why a week off-plan flies by, but a week on-plan seems like "forever". 

Wife has started dinner prep, so I'll make it through another dinner with plan intact.  Have to watch tonight after dinner.  Getting closer to the 160's again and don't want another setback right now.

Progress as of today: 111 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/18/2019:
Just an observation, but maybe just stay with what you're doing now until you feel inspired to take the next step, whatever that may be. You yourself made a comment about this a couple of weeks ago, about just "magically" stepping into maintenance (calorie ranges - versus "weight loss" ranges).

There ought to be more promotion/research/guidance about how to slide gracefully into maintenance.

graindart on 01/18/2019:
I'm just tired with the current plan that I've essentially been following for the past 2 years, except for a brief off-plan Summer 2018. Essentially tracking daily food intake and staying under a calorie number since April 2017.....

I don't really want to do this for the rest of my life.......but just can't think of anything to get really excited about.

BearCountryGG on 01/18/2019:
I agree with Donkey.......If you aren't inspired then waiting to see what inspires you may be what is needed. You are right at the weight my husband was during his working years.....172 is where I would like him to get again.... although then he was muscular (from working construction) and now at 70 he has lost a lot of muscle and he complains about that...and he weighs around 200 now. He seems more concerned with his diabetes and his knees than doing any working out though I will say...while he had a set of weights and we had plenty of exercise equipment in those days..he rarely used it...I guess he didn't really need to....he could use it now though...and doesn't want to.....complains about his hands being stiff so I got him 2 different hand exercisers and he refuses to use them......While I do most of my exercising while he is out of the house...I'm thinking now that maybe if i used that stuff when he was home it might encourage him too.....I don't think for me that exercise burns many calories....it's more abot toning up a bit. But...most people have to actively work at maintenance...

graindart on 01/18/2019:
The thought of repetitive exercising just doesn't appeal to me. I just don't see the reward in it. It typically burns too little calories to matter much. It does make oneself look better, but do I really care all that much what others think of the shape of my body? (not really)

The main reason I'd consider exercise is to be able to eat more food (food is always a reward to me). And I'm always hearing that the more muscle you have, the more you can eat and still maintain. But what are the actual numbers? How many extra calories can I eat daily / weekly versus how many hours of extra work per week? If I could eat 500 calories extra per day for 30 minutes of work daily, the decision would be easy. But if I only get an extra 3 Oreos per day for 30 minutes of daily work, suddenly that's not worth it to me in the least.

I think my main problem is I want to be at a certain bodyfat percentage / weight range and I just see it as "work" to get there. Wish I could focus on activities / hobbies I wanted to do and just regulate the food intake in the background.

BearCountryGG on 01/18/2019:
Well.....what you describe about just wanting to lose so you can eat.....won't work.....I hate to say it...but that is what yoyo dieting is about. I've been there...and i couldn't wait to lose it so that I could start eating again....and I ended up at 255.......a friend who went to Ww at the same time ( we also had a yahoo email group together for dieters)...kept hers off...because she changed her eating habits.....and today...she is still enjoying that loss from back in about 1999. I wasted all of those years....gaining and gaining and having to fight through it all over again. It's a harsh reality...I know you don't want to hear...but it's the truth. As harsh as it sounds....food will have to take on a totally different meaning if you want to keep off what you worked so dilligently to lose. I agree...having to go through a weight loss diet seems like punishment....but the reward when you finally achieve that...cannot be food. Unless to are committed to eating very small portions of special foods...but never as a reward. It's important to many people to have non food rewards as they lose...and as they maintain.....for me just wearing a smaller size or being able to move easier is enough...but a lot of people need a hobby or a new interest to reward themselves with. You have achieved something that few people are able to do.......celebrate that....but not with food...with a new interest or hobby...

BearCountryGG on 01/18/2019:
I think another thing that takes place when a foodie realizes that they can no longer stay slim and still eat like they used to....is that we just get sad, depressed and unhappy at that realization....food was our friend who never said no. But the truth of the matter is that we break out in ugly unhealthy fat...so it really wasn't our friend........I think that if I ever get the bingeing weight gain problem again...I will just go seek a therapist that will help me through it....because if my issues get out of hand again it is a bigger problem than I can handle on my own......there is no shame in seeking help for a problem that I can't deal with...and I will do that instead of losing control with food again.........the food was a crutch....I can walk just fine without that now. And if I can't I will find a counselor who can get me back on track.

graindart on 01/18/2019:
I'm a man. I will weigh 400 lbs before I will "consider" going to a therapist. :)

I don't wander around sad / unhappy / depressed with my life. I know it might seem like it when reading some of my posts and the majority lately are of me feeling "frustrated". In reality, 90% of my life is great and the 10% that's not is basically my food struggles. I tend to keep most of my life from being posted online (no FB or other social networks). I use DD to help keep me accountable on the food side of things and occasionally post snippets of my non-food side of life. If I were posting a daily summary of my entire daily life here, it would be overwhelmingly positive the vast majority of the time. I have a wonderful marriage, wonderful girls, good close friends, good extended family, good income, flexible schedule, and very little drama.

And as a goal-oriented guy, I want all that.......AND a 6-pack abs......AND to binge eat 2 dozen chocolate chip cookies daily. My final goals obviously aren't both attainable at the same time, so I'm just trying to figure out which I want more...... And the fact that I can't figure out which is more important to me tends to lead to mild frustration.....

BearCountryGG on 01/18/2019:
I get it...my husband would never go to a counselor either.....I would...in a heartbeat.....but I don't think that I will need to now. This is a good place to get out the frustration......I agree. For me though...if I have to choose between 400 pounds 24 hours a day...every step...every movement or 2 dozen chocolate chip cookies that will be gone in minutes...of course i could always go out and buy 2 dozen more.....which would also be gone in minutes.......nah.......I'm too old to play that game...I've lost it for the last time......and I would rather just learn to eat 1 or 2 cookies. :) I will say one thing...losing it when you are young lets your skin snap back...losing it at 69 is a whole other thing.....If I want to get sad now...it's because I have skin enough for a whole other person...i'd better get working on that...i think thats my new passtime to take up that old eating time....

graindart on 01/18/2019:
I do have some mildly loose skin in areas, but nothing like I was fearing. Of course I still wonder about my tummy area if I ever do lose the last of the belly fat. I keep imagining using clothes-pins to gather and hold all my excess skin behind me so that the front looks good as I approach people at the pool this Summer. (just kidding)

BearCountryGG on 01/18/2019:
You are young enough....your skin will most likely snap back......it will take a little while...but when I was your age it didn't last too long.........now on the other hand for myself...I'm not too hopeful.....But I can live with it.

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graindart - Thursday Jan 17, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 172.6

Stupid scale.....  Had a bit lower calorie day yesterday and the number goes up?  

Other than that, things are like normal for today mostly.  

Tossing around a new strategy plan that I have personally titled "New Week, New Plan".  I'm good at committing to a goal and sticking with it.  I've done longer (100 days), but seem to be able to mostly commit to any type of change for a month / 30 days at a time.  However this does get a little boring, especially if I'm not seeing results in that month. 

So now I'm tossing around the idea of changing my plan up every single week.  This is somewhat based on reading Bear's posts.  It's also fits into my being able to usually commit to shorter goals pretty easily.  I also prefer new things rather than the same old same old when dealing with food / exercise.  The downside to switching things up on a weekly basis is that you never really have time to figure out if the results from one way of eating / exercising works best for you.  I also haven't figured out how to integrate special occasions / cheat days into this type of plan.

Think I'll just start making a list of different eating plans / exercise plans I could have and see how many weeks worth of stuff I come up with.  Haven't made up my mind to do this yet, but just in the planning stages right now.  (might totally change my mind by tomorrow)


Progress as of today: 110.4 lbs lost so far, only 13.6 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/17/2019:
Sometimes it takes as much as 4 days for changes to show up.....old Weight watcher rule.....keep working at it.

graindart on 01/18/2019:
Be good = scale "might" show a change in 4 days.

Be bad = scale up 5 lbs overnight.

Would be so much easier if it worked the opposite way around.

BearCountryGG on 01/17/2019:
Keep your metabolism guessing!!! That works!

horn_of_plenty on 01/17/2019:
Your weight is probably just leveling off based o. All the previous days ;)

Seems you are eager to change things up to find an improved system for yourself - yes think about it no rush :)

graindart on 01/18/2019:
I know the scale fluctuates, just would prefer to see it all in one direction at this point.

Still considering options to get to goal. Still considering plans once to goal. I work so much better when I have a clear plan of attack and a clear goal. But I'm back on-plan and just in the groove, so even if I don't figure out a new plan, I'll get there eventually.

Donkey on 01/18/2019:
My scale is evil like that too. Hate it.

Your new plan sounds interesting - would like to know more about it, once you get the details figured out. Maybe have a "pool" of weekly plans, and pick one at random - like tokens in a jar - to see which plan you'll be following that week, leaving it completely up to chance???

graindart on 01/18/2019:
I like the idea of the next week's plan being a random pick. That would add some type of "excitement" to it. Maybe have 2 separate pools. One a food plan and one an exercise plan. Pick one from each of the hats. Might end up with some good / bad combinations...... Would love the "eat 2000 calories per day" and "just relax" combination, but would hate the "eat 1500 calories per day" and "daily heavy aerobic exercise" combination.

Donkey on 01/18/2019:
PS Where you're at right now - low 170s - ain't bad!

graindart on 01/18/2019:
I totally agree. Just wish I could figure out what I really want...... Can't really figure out a plan if I don't know what my goal is. If my goal is to maintain around 169, the plan of attack is much different than if I choose a different number.......

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graindart - Wednesday Jan 16, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 171.1

Still just plugging along.

No big directional changes and no increase in motivation, but just kind of "in the groove" and moving slowly in the right direction.

Have no real desire to do my regular work today.  Been messing around on the internet quite a bit.......stalling.

Progress as of today: 111.9 lbs lost so far, only 12.1 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/16/2019:
Moving in the right direction is good!

happy-1 on 01/16/2019:
In the groove and moving slowly in the right direction is a good thing!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 01/17/2019:
In the groove = excellent !

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graindart - Tuesday Jan 15, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 171.7

Yesterday went ok.  No big swings either way.  

The family has used up the majority of the simple / refined carb stuff in the house and have switched to a lower carb approach now. 

Personally I've cut out the grapefruit about a week ago and just ate my last oatmeal packet yesterday.  Still have about 12 more packets of my microwave popcorn left.  The wife and girls occasionally eat it, so I'm guessing it will be gone by the end of the week.  Not enjoying the lower carb push right now, but will continue as long as the wife wants to experiment.  While I don't enjoy it as much, low-carb eating is usually pretty good at helping me lower the scale number.  It's not due to the "magic" of low-carb eating, but rather due to my losing interest in the foods I tend to eat while on that type of plan.  The only exception to that might be cheese.  I can over-eat cheese as long as there are some interesting choices in the house.  Because of that, haven't been buying the types of cheeses that I tend to enjoy the most (blue cheese, 18 month aged gouda).

So today is just more of the same.  

Wish I could get interested in weight lifting / muscle building again.  But "wishing" is as far as I'm motivated to go right now.  I'm watching my youngest daughter slowly get better at her walk-overs and walking on her hands.  She keeps practicing almost nightly and is seeing slow progress.  I'm reminded that if I would just start something small now, it would reap tangible benefits by summer-time.  But then I go back to deciding that it's just not something I feel like doing right now......


Progress as of today: 111.3 lbs lost so far, only 11.8 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/15/2019:
Having boring food around is definately one way to cut down the consumption....whatever works will be worth it in the long run.

Donkey on 01/15/2019:
I was worried about grapefruit not being approved by keto. Someone on a low-carb list that I belong to mentioned, "you didn't get fat on grapefruit" -- I was so grateful for her comment. Just sharing a story - I don't mean to imply any similarities here.

I had to laugh at work, when I read your entry -- you feel the same way about weight training that I feel about yoga. I mean, I really want to be into it, love it, dig it, do it --- sounds good as a goal, never goes anywhere - LOL!

graindart on 01/15/2019:
I agree about the grapefruit. I'm not cutting it out because I think it'll help with weightloss or because I have a problem with controlling portions of it. (It's probably my favorite 80 calories of the day.) Just trying to get rid of as many sugar options as possible from the house while the wife is interested in trying a low-carb approach. Highly doubt that it'll last more than a week or two from now. I can pretty much guarantee that we'll be stuffing our faces with candy / carbs during the Super Bowl party on Feb 3rd.

The first bit of advice I read most places for successful fat-loss is to build muscle (including from HOP). I've read it so many times, but still don't want to commit the time to it. I've seen it transform my best friend's whole body image, but still don't want to do it.

horn_of_plenty on 01/16/2019:
Nice job doing well getting back on track :-)

Also, being that it's winter when the weather improves I know you'll want to be outside again and moving around more.

Nice to hear your daughter is happy and practicing her moves at home :-)

graindart on 01/16/2019:
Will enjoy getting out on the dirtbike again this Spring, especially if the Winter remains as mild as it's been lately.

But even though I say that, there are a couple places I could go ride right now......and just don't feel like it.

horn_of_plenty on 01/16/2019:
You sure you don't wanna do minimal 15-20 minutes weights routine at home 3x per week ?! Lol at least you know it helps !!

graindart on 01/16/2019:
On paper I'd like to.....but that's as far as my motivation goes.

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graindart - Monday Jan 14, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 171.4

Tummy was uneasy all yesterday, so didn't eat a lot.  Also didn't drink as much as usual.  Couldn't decide if I was going to be sick or not.  Took a couple tylenol at bedtime and woke up today feeling marginally better.  Tummy appears to feel a bit better, but have a small headache.

So yesterday with an uneasy tummy.......  I didn't want to eat because I wasn't feeling well.  But I did want to eat because I like food.  But I didn't want to eat because I felt "full" or I guess bloated.  But I did want to eat because I felt weak.  So even when eating something probably isn't the best course of action, I still want to.....

Still haven't figured out a concrete plan of attack for the near future.  Right now I'm back on my <1500 daily calorie limit.  Figured I needed to just get back into control the past week and returning to something I was familiar with was the easiest way.  Leaning towards a <2000 daily limit as soon as I get into the 160's, with higher allowance on our weekly date night.


My goal number for the scale has changed several times over the past couple years.  When I weighed 283, I thought the magic number was 199.  Remembered being in the high 190's and thought it would be a good comfortable number.  Got there and was happy with the accomplishment, but realized that it was a little chunkier than I would prefer.  So thought dropping down to 189 would be the end number.  Did that and it put me in a place kind of in-between normal everyday shirt sizes, so I wasn't exactly happy there.  Didn't know if it was possible, but figured 179 would drop me into the size shirts I wanted and get rid of some of the still present chunk.  Spent several months in the 170's last Spring and it was a good weight for running around, but really didn't want to take my shirt off to go swimming due to some belly fat.  Finally dropped to 169 at the start of this month and looked down to see that my tummy pooch was still there.  So trying to figure out what magic number I will be happy with.  

Each time I dropped another 10 lbs, I thought that was going to be the end of my downward journey.  So when I saw my tummy was still there each time, I had mixed emotions each time.  Happy to meet another goal, but unhappy to realize that the goal number didn't bring me to a place that I totally liked what I saw in the mirror.

Since 169 didn't seem to drop my bodyfat % as much as I'd like, maybe 159 is the magic number?  I don't know.  I also don't know how committed I am to dropping more weight right now.  Just concentrating on getting back into the high 160's for right now.  Maybe get into the high 160's, have a major cheat day at the Super Bowl party, gain 5-7 lbs on the scale, and wake up the next day to start a new push to lower body fat % during the month of February?

Progress as of today: 111.6 lbs lost so far, only 11.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/14/2019:
Things for you are a lot better than they used to be.......so you know you can follow any plan you choose!

graindart on 01/14/2019:
I think the key for maintenance for me is going to be always having some type of plan for eating. Hopefully as time goes by, it'll transform into a relaxed once per week check just to make sure I'm not letting myself go. But for now, it obviously still needs to be a daily thing.

Donkey on 01/14/2019:
^What you just said above, in response to Bear = 100% yes.

horn_of_plenty on 01/14/2019:
I like the approach into <2000 limit ...

Maybe work on fitness which will reshape your tummy more - the weights will give you a different toned look.

After years of weights I love the changes ! I look NOTHING like I used to.

OhioRaven on 01/15/2019:
Just wanted to say, hey. I have to find some time to log in more often. Have a good ol' day.

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graindart - Sunday Jan 13, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 174.7

Bit of a roller-coaster to start out the new year.  Kind of the reverse of most years.  Typically I've been out of control during the holidays and buckle-down at the start of the new year.  This time I was fully on-plan during the holidays, made it to goal, and went mildly nuts as soon as I made it to goal.  

Had a few off-plan days, with Wednesday being the biggest departure.  Woke up Thursday morning and the scale said 183.  Decided to try to not freak out about it.  Took a few days to just kind of relax, while logging food again.  And just kind of got back into the lower calorie eating pattern again Thur, Fri, Sat.  Feeling mostly in control again and the scale number dropped quite a bit, back to a number I'm comfortable seeing.

Changing things up with the family's meals / menu.  The wife has been having migraines for quite awhile and has decided she wants to weed out the majority of sugars / carbs to see if that helps any.  Personally I think she has too much screen time (tv, ipad, phone), but maybe the diet also has something to do with it.  I've been on a much lower-carb diet for the past while (not overly strict).  Since carbs tend to lead to most of my off-plan days, I'm happy to get rid of the majority of the junk carbs from the house.  They've been eating down the supply of cereal, pasta, etc this past week and this coming week will be quite a bit lower in processed sugars / carbs for them.  With the lower carb push, I've decided to stop buying my popcorn, oatmeal, and grapefruit for now.  I still have a few packets of oatmeal left and enough popcorn to last another few days.  After that, I'm sure I'll initially regret the lower-carb approach for a bit while withdrawing from those daily staples.

Don't know how long the lower-carb approach will continue for the wife and girls, although I'd guess it'll be a quick week or two experiment.  Also not sure about my immediate and/or extended plans personally.  Just trying to relax somewhat and not be so fixated on weight / food.  Although that's a bit tough while continuing to log all of my food eaten.

Progress as of today: 108.3 lbs lost so far, only 14.8 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/13/2019:
It sounds like the new changes will make it easier for you too......

graindart on 01/13/2019:
Less temptations in the house is always a good thing for me. If a craving is only 20 feet away, it's a constant temptation. If the craving is 2 miles away at the store, I'm usually too lazy to go get it.

Donkey on 01/13/2019:
Glad to see you're posting again - or at least an update.I hope your wife has success with a lower carb approach to managing her migraines. I have a friend who did just that. She finally had to go gluten-free altogether to get to the point where she wasn't having migraines any more. Come to think of it, a high school acquaintance went gluten-free too, to handle her lupus symptoms.

Going gluten-free is probably something I would only do if my symptoms (if I had any) were otherwise unmanageable.

I wish I could get my husband to stay consistently low-carb or keto. I've heard that these diets do wonders for inflammation.

horn_of_plenty on 01/14/2019:
I gotta tell you popcorn oatmeal and grapefruits are so healthy though !!!

Yes I see donkey mentioned inflammation which can cause migraina - maybe eat a little avocado / olive oil / fish ?! Lol.

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graindart - Tuesday Jan 08, 2019
(Trying to figure it out.)
Weight: 176.8

Made it through the day and night - no binge.  

Day 1 yesterday - no food fast - felt decent, few cravings or hunger pangs - still felt full from previous days over-eating / binge

Stayed up a little bit later last night and fell asleep right after going to bed.

On to conquer day 2....

Progress as of today: 106.2 lbs lost so far, only 16.9 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/08/2019:
Yes to getting back on track

graindart on 01/08/2019:
Just one day in control and I'm feeling much more optimistic. Need to string a few of these together back-to-back to feel like I'm safely back out of the danger zone.

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2019:
Each time you do this process, the dieting, the learning, it IS DIFFERENT. you are learning and changing. learning from these experiences. becoming stronger, yes, you are.

You have to fail in order to learn and grow.

I have failed countless times, but the important part is how i chose to pick myself back up and try harder.

Love that you are coming on here and sharing the journey with us this time around!

Donkey on 01/08/2019:
I can attest to what Horn said: every time is a learning experience, even if it's the same 10 (20, 30... 50, 60) pounds.

I've been thinking about your situation. I do not have any solutions, but was thinking that maybe you came off plan too soon or too quickly?

What would be wrong with losing the same 10 pounds over and over as a way of maintenance?

Listen to me, like I know what I'm talkin' about, right? I'm still in your corner, cheering you on.

Donkey on 01/10/2019:
I hope you are doing OK... You are among friends here, so no shame, whether it be good, bad or ugly. It is what it is, and we all just strive to do a little better the next day, even if that takes a week or two to manage.

graindart on 01/10/2019:
Just taking a little step back. Will post something over the next 3 or 4 days. And will catch up with everyone's entries then too. Hope everyone is doing well.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/10/2019:
Donde estas!?

Where are you!?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/10/2019:
Donde estas!?

Where are you!?

graindart on 01/10/2019:
Just taking a short break. Will start posting again over the next 3 or 4 days. Will catch up with everyone's entries then too. Hope everyone is doing well.

horn_of_plenty on 01/10/2019:
Yeah !!!!

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