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graindart - Thursday Nov 15, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 182.2

Day 51 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.

Yesterday was shaping up to be a very low calorie day, all the way up to date night around 8:30pm.  Then I started eating and eating and eating.  I still stayed under my calorie allowance for the day. 

The thought of temporary discomfort vs longer term discomfort has been going through my mind lately.  If I stay on track like this, I might be down to goal by the turn of the new year.  If I just stopped eating, I'd be down to goal weight in approximately 2 weeks.  Just a thought.......

On to conquer day 52...

Progress as of today: 100.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

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graindart - Wednesday Nov 14, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 182.2

Day 50 completed successfully (corrected number today).  17 of 30 walks completed.

Yesterday I needed to shake things up.  I've been getting frustrated with the way the scale has been dropping too slowly.  Since I've been getting frustrated with the status quo, something needed to change.  Either jump off the wagon and have a cheat day or double-down on the weightloss direction by changing my food intake.  The 49-50 day in a row streak is helping keep me working towards the weightloss direction, so I decided to change-up the food intake somewhat.

Yesterday was a lower-carb and lower-sodium day.  No popcorn, less salt, less calories, and no grapefruit yesterday.  Saw the drop in the scale number this morning that I wanted.  Yes, I know it's not "real", but it is something to provide additional motivation to stay on-track.  And being at an area of frustration lately, I needed something to increase my motivation.  I'm now back at having lost 100 lbs since I started this weightloss April 2017.

On to conquer day 51....

Progress as of today: 100.8 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/14/2018:
Good for you!!!!! I can't say enough about shaking things up!! Congrats on the loss and the new milestone!!!!

Donkey on 11/14/2018:
What a milestone that is - congratulations!

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
i'm so glad that you have had such a continued success now. 100lbs is not just amazing, but remarkable. many people have trouble to keep it off, going back to their old ways, forgetting all the effort they put in, forgetting the journey will always be ongoing once the weight is gone. losing their focus, losing their desire to put in the effort...etc etc...

you have kept on. you have come up with a why you continue to strive for health. to strive for what is better. to be active. to learn more about your body and what it needs!

graindart on 11/14/2018:
I was already in the 170's for most of this Spring, but stopped caring after the cruise in June. Slipped back into the old ways of eating whatever whenever and gained back 40 lbs over Summer. Now still working on losing what I gained during the Summer. Every single time I make it to or near goal, I always irrationally think that I can go back to eating whatever whenever and it won't cause me to gain weight "this time". I know it's not logical, but that's how it always happens.

Not this time! I actually have a plan after making it to goal this time. This "losing" phase is way too tough. Once I make it to maintenance, I will learn to live within a more relaxed set of boundaries that balances food intake needs / wants.

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graindart - Tuesday Nov 13, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 185.2

Day 48 completed.  17 of 30 walks completed. 

Have some regular work today.  

Was going to complain more about my scale weight not dropping like I think it should, based on yesterday's weighin of 188.  In this round of cutting, I initially touched 188 back on October 24th, which was 3 weeks ago.  So for yesterday's weighin to see 188 again after being 100% on-track for 21 additional days was depressing.  This morning's weighin of 185 calmed some of that irritation.  It's times like yesterday that make you question whether it's worth it or not.  When you don't see any visible progress and yet you've put in the time / effort, it's just hard to justify continuing on the path.  Yet seeing today's number at 185 gives me some hope.  Three lbs in 3 weeks isn't what I'd ideally like, but is at least worth the effort in my mind.  

Yesterday I was thinking about shaking things up with a drastic move just to see the scale numbers move.  Today with the lower number, I'm feeling less inclined to change things up.  I know if I stayed away from salt / popcorn for a day or two, I'd probably see a drop in the number.  But of course the numbers would climb again when I ate popcorn / salt again.  And I love my popcorn with heavy salt / seasoning.

Maybe a few low-carb days just to mix things up?

On to conquer day 49....

Progress as of today: 97.8 lbs lost so far, only 16.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
Happy to see that your scales made you happier......It is tough when the scales are disappointing....but you prevailed. Some low carb days may be a big help....and some low salt days definately would help.........back in the old WW weigh in meetings...we all avoided highly salted foods for a couple of days before weigh in...of course that isn't fat...it's water...but the numbers make it easier to stay on program......Day 49...WOW

graindart on 11/13/2018:
Yeah, I'm torn on whether or not to shake things up. I know it would be an artificial drop, but part of me just really wants to see some decent change in the right direction.

I feel like I'm nearing a crossroads, where there's going to be a change one way or the other. I'm either going to jump off the wagon for a day and enjoy some food I've been craving OR I'm going to change my current diet foods to try to achieve a drop in the scale number.

If I jump off the wagon, the scale will instantly jump 5+ lbs and take a week to normalize. Of course with Thanksgiving next week, the scale number might make me depressed and cause me to fall off the wagon again around Thanksgiving.

So I'm leaning towards changing things up on my current diet just to hopefully see a drop in the scale number. If I'm bored and need to see a change, the artificial scale drop option seems like the lesser of the 2 evils.

BearCountryGG on 11/13/2018:
I'm all for the artificial drops....and sometimes they aren't artificial at all...they just help break a cycle that is going slowly or no where at all.....I believe in the tricks...and even if they are mind games...they keep us moving forward.......I am afraid to step off the wagon right now...with Thanksgiving coming up I'm afraid I would give myself a pass UNTIL THANKSGIVING.....and then there are leftovers...so I'm working at it hopefully right up until Thanksgiving ( which I can imagine will cause a setback).....tough time of year...but back in the old days...I would wait until New Years day to start...and pig out up until then.....NOT THIS YEAR!!!

graindart on 11/13/2018:
Not sure what I'm doing on Thanksgiving, but knowing it's next week is a little depressing right now. When I got back on-track back in August, I calculated that I should be to goal somewhere around Thanksgiving as long as I stayed committed. Now my projections are I might possibly be to goal by the new year...... And if the scale doesn't cooperate, that might not even happen.

Calmly vented to my wife tonight as we were walking through the grocery store. Kind of trying to figure out if I was "happier" day-to-day being fat and eating whatever / whenever. Just want to get to goal and give my maintenance plan a real solid try.

Donkey on 11/13/2018:
I'm with Bear in that I would be very careful about going off plan (even if for "just a day") at this time.

That happened to me... I remember this distinctly because what kicked it off was eating an entire 1lb bag of cashews. And even the bathroom side-effects the next day wasn't enough to stop me... ended up gaining it all back + 10 pounds.

graindart on 11/13/2018:
Concerning food and dieting, I'm kind of hating life right now. But know I'll be even more frustrated if I take a day off and gain 5+ lbs. Just need to keep plugging away at it and make it to maintenance-land......

So no falling or jumping off the wagon today. The streak will live on at least one more day.....

Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
yes in terms of salt and popcorn, if you don't have issues with salt, i don't see a reason to remove them just to see the scale drop and then rise. calories are calories and those are what makes the scale change. but eating too low is also bad as i'm sure you get that!

just keep on, the process and getting to know it is the hardest part, in my opinion. i would say i love maintenance - which is a totally fun journey in my opinion - you see what i'm eating.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
you wont believe this...i read something about feeling bloated and salt intake...believe it or not, the feeling of being bloated can hardly be blamed on salt consumption...unless it's really in excess!

because, what we take in is usually what we also eliminate...our body's design to work at balance of what goes in and goes out...i do not know the medical exact term. read it today.

horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2018:
or rather, as you said, the body will also correct the balance soon after :)

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graindart - Monday Nov 12, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 188.1

Day 47 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.

I headed to bed last night at 8pm.  Messed around on a tablet until going to sleep at 9pm.  Woke up at 2am.  Checked my phone / email.  Then decided to get up for the day.  Have got a lot accomplished with everything being quiet and no outside world interuptions.  I'm sure I'll be grumpy / tired by this afternoon.

Some regular work to accomplish this morning, then just working on the software transfer stuff to the new computer system.  Think I might actually be done with the majority of the computer transfer by the end of today.

On to conquer day 48...

Progress as of today: 94.9 lbs lost so far, only 19.1 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/12/2018:
Back in the day when I worked, went to school and had kids...I did my homework at 3:00 A.M......it was the only time I could actually work in peace......and essays got done much easier then.

graindart on 11/12/2018:
Actually worked out well today and wasn't tired or abnormally grumpy. Got my work done and some of my extra stuff I needed to get done.

Donkey on 11/12/2018:
Maybe you can get in a nap? Be sure not to confuse hunger with fatigue. Drink more water, perhaps...

graindart on 11/12/2018:
Hate the idea of naps. It just feels like I'm wasting time. Made it through ok and shouldn't have a problem falling asleep tonight.

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2018:
yes, maybe a nap in afternoon?

i am sure you feel great for getting so much done without interruptions! i'm catching up on cleaning today.

graindart on 11/12/2018:
I do feel a little more accomplished today. Wasn't overly motivated, but since I had the extra hours of being awake I was actually able to get a fair amount of stuff accomplished.

happy-1 on 11/12/2018:
That’s some streak!

graindart on 11/12/2018:
The streak is going well, but the weight isn't dropping like I think it should. Will write more about that in tomorrow's entry.

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graindart - Sunday Nov 11, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 184.9

Day 46 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.

Back from the out-of-town trip for the oldest daughter.  Everything went well.  Long, gruelling, boring, but safe.

Today is setting up computer stuff and other things inside. 

On to conquer day 47....

Progress as of today: 98.1 lbs lost so far, only 15.9 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/11/2018:
46 days......doing GREAT!!!

Donkey on 11/11/2018:
Whoa, way to drop some numbers there!

graindart on 11/11/2018:
Unfortunately probably just normal daily fluctuations. Can easily go up or down 3 lbs on any given day for almost no reason......

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graindart - Saturday Nov 10, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 187.7

Day 45 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.


Had to run out of town last minute yesterday, so will have a long drive back today after getting some stuff done.

Kind of boring 4 hour ride.  I'll be drinking diet drinks and muncjing on sunflower seeds for most of it.  Will eat dinner when I get home after dark.

On to conquer day 46.....

Progress as of today: 95.3 lbs lost so far, only 18.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/10/2018:
Snowing there?

graindart on 11/10/2018:
We're in between right now. Still some snow on the grass, but most of the roads are clear / mostly clear. Less than your photo showed, but we're scheduled for a other round over the next few days.

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graindart - Friday Nov 09, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 187.7

Day 45 completed successfully.  17 of 30 walks completed.

Missed putting in an entry yesterday.  Didn't fall off the wagon, was just busy and forgot.

Went for a walk with the dog yesterday while it was in the low 30 degrees.  Didn't enjoy it much due to the cold, but the dog loved it like always.  Completed some work this morning and don't have too much else planned for this afternoon.  Am going to the store to get a new TV / computer monitor for my new computer build.

While at the store yesterday, they had the exact bone-conductive headphones that I've been thinking about buying for awhile.  They even had a demo pair sitting there, so I was able to try them out.  That saved me $100+.  Didn't do anything radically different than the other headphones I've already got.

I don't enjoy walking around, but can't ride dirtbikes during the winter and know that I should stay active in some way.

On to conquer day 46....

Progress as of today: 95.3 lbs lost so far, only 18.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/09/2018:
Is the dog losing weight?

graindart on 11/09/2018:
Wouldn't be able to tell, but doubt it. He's not overweight, but is too big to get on a bathroom scale (around 100 lbs black lab).

horn_of_plenty on 11/09/2018:
perhaps buy clothing / headwear / gloves / shoes that will allow you to continue outdoor exercise if you like it...this is what i'm doing!

i'm gonna start wearing ear muffs next week / this weekend.

graindart on 11/09/2018:
I don't enjoy the walking anyway. No amount of clothing will help me enjoy it anymore. It's just a necessary evil right now, until I can go back to dirtbiking in the spring. I really should sit down and figure out some type of winter activity that I could do weekly. (Really don't enjoy skiing anymore.)

horn_of_plenty on 11/09/2018:
PLEASE figure out something to do in Winter, bc it's good for your heart, muscles, bones, joints, and burns calories.

if you don't exercise, you will have to eat even less....which sucks.

legcramps on 11/09/2018:
Hey graindart, I dislike winter also, so I feel for you. I also really need to be in the right mood in order to enjoy a long walk LOL, and in the winter months, I don't like to walk.

Last year, BF introduced me to snowboarding. I've downhill skied a few times, wasn't really my thing, but am loving snowboarding so far. I think it's the challenge i'm enjoying most, trying to figure out how it works.

Another sport I want to try maybe this winter is snowshoeing. It needs fresh, soft snow, but I did this a couple times as a kid and remember it being really difficult but fun.

How about weight training?

Donkey on 11/10/2018:
Some good ideas up above... I don't have anything to add. :)

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graindart - Wednesday Nov 07, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 186.7

Day 43 completed successfully.  15 of 30 walks completed.

Got my regular work done and decided to troubleshoot the heated seat installation.  Turned out to be installer error (me).  Had one thing plugged in the wrong way.  Flipped it around and now the new heated seats are working correctly.  Going to enjoy them today with a forecast high of 21 degrees F.

Kept calories low yesterday and went for a double walk (hands were freezing even though they were in gloves).  

Today is some regular work, church later, followed by date night with the wife.  Also messing with the new computer build - still waiting on a couple remaining pieces, but making progress with some minor software installations.

On to conquer day 44....

Progress as of today: 96.3 lbs lost so far, only 17.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/07/2018:
Glad that the problem was an easy fix........good job staying on track!

legcramps on 11/07/2018:
Way to get those heated seats working! I would be so pumped about that!

horn_of_plenty on 11/08/2018:
IF your hands are so cold even in gloves, maybe use those hand warmers in your gloves...same for feet, if necessary.

this winter, i have a GOOD plan of attack on these fronts...will be taking my hour walks after work on my commute coming home...and will stay warm because i'll make sure...i plan to use the hand/foot warmers if i have to (those pads that stay warm for like 4-8hrs or something?

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graindart - Tuesday Nov 06, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 185.2

Day 42 completed successfully.  13 of 30 walks completed.

Got the seats back in the truck and the wiring to the heated seats buttons is working correctly, however the seats aren't heating.  Have some other stuff I need to get done today and the high for today is 27 F, so may or may not get to troubleshooting the seats today.

Little lower calorie day yesterday.  Was quite low until 20 minutes before bed and I started snacking. 

On to conquer day 43...

Progress as of today: 97.8 lbs lost so far, only 16.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/06/2018:
That's frustrating...I know D runs into those kinds of truck troubles sometimes too.....the last time a neighbor wanted to help and he made it worse..

graindart on 11/06/2018:
You never know with parts / kits like this. Sometimes it's installer error and sometimes you received a bad part. Unfortunately it takes a lot of extra time to figure out which party to blame......

Donkey on 11/06/2018:
Snacking seems to be your Achilles' heel...

graindart on 11/06/2018:
That it does. As long as I'm not eating, I'm fine. As soon as I take a bite of food, I don't want to stop eating......

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2018:
whoa soooo cold by you...here it's still 50's around NYC...get those heated seats working!

graindart on 11/06/2018:
Forecast doesn't have us climbing out of the 30's for the foreseeable future.....

Enjoy your "warm" weather while you can.

legcramps on 11/06/2018:
I woke up to snow this morning and was wishing my car had heated seats LOL.

Do you think you're snacking a lot because you're trying to stay lower calorie?

graindart on 11/06/2018:
That's a big part of it and I know it. It's unfortunately the best plan of attack for right now. Keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. Keep telling myself if I just keep on track and deal with stuff now, I'll be in a place to move on to "maintenance" by the end of the year. Only 56 days until the new year. I can do it (but I'll quietly complain about it anyways).

Horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2018:
yes, i guess we are quite "warm" over here!

I love countdowns too. I think it's very accountable to keep track of your success, your walks!

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graindart - Monday Nov 05, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 185.7

Day 41 completed successfully.  13 of 30 walks completed.

Yesterday's intake was at the max of allowed calories again.  Seems to be a pattern lately.  I start the day off thinking that I might just skip a day of eating to jump start the weight loss / "shock" the system.  Then I start to get tummy rumblings around noon and decide to eat a 100 calorie bag of popcorn.  I get through the afternoon and head into dinner.  Eat a fair amount of food and am sitting around 1000 calories for the day after dinner.  I feel good about myself and decide to eat a snack.  Then another.  Then another.  Pretty soon I'm down to only the last 30 calories allowed for the day and I'm trying to figure out how many grams of whatever I can eat for those last remaining calories.  Then I stop eating, but am craving food because I know that I can't have it (technically I can, but you know what I mean). 

Things are progressing in the right direction, but always slower than I'd prefer.  Was mainly in the upper 170's / low 180's for much of this spring.  Weighed 174 before leaving on the cruise June 7th.  Fell off the wagon from that time until getting back in control on August 20th, weighing 218.  So it took me 2-1/2 months to gain approximately 43 lbs.  In my mind, that 43 lbs should also only take 2-1/2 months to drop.  Today is near that 2-1/2 month period of being back on-plan and I've dropped approximately 32 lbs of the 43 lb gain over the summer. 

Got off my butt yesterday and started installing heated seats in the front seats of my truck yesterday.  Got a good amount of work done and thought there was a possibility that if everything went right, I might be able to get it all completed.  Then came wiring issues.  The issues were mainly due to the product having really poor instructions (china product sold on Amazon, but with really bad translation).  I thought I had it wired correctly, but it wasn't turning on, so I quit for the night.  Thought I might've received a defective product.  Went down later and rechecked my wiring, only to find out that it was my fault and due to a poor electrical connection that I made.  Fixed the connection and the thing turned on.  It was dark and I again just quit for the night, so the front seats are still sitting in my garage.  Have to drive the wife and kids to school today so that I have a vehicle to run around in during the day.  Have some regular work to accomplish, need to finish up my computer build and start the software installations, and also need to get the seats back in the truck today.  Of course I don't feel motivated to do any of it and would rather sit here on the computer typing away and researching other stuff on the web......

On to conquer day 42....

Progress as of today: 97.3 lbs lost so far, only 16.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/05/2018:
I totally understand the eating pattern you described.....and I fought it for many years...good all day...and then nighttime snacking starts and the day is no different than any other. Posting pics here of everything I eat does create a reason NOT to snack at night..for me....#1...I don't want to have to post another pic...#2...I have stopped it for a few nights now and I don't want to start that again.......in the past...the food won.....now.....I am refusing to let the food win...getting a few days past that..made it so much easier now......I can't swear that I will never start doing that again...but I can swear that I will not let it happen today, because I am determined. You and I have a lot of similar habits...we both have let the food control us....for me....having 3 specific meals per day, covering all of the food groups per day...and no snacking allowed along with posting pics...has put my head in a better place...for the first time in a long time I feel like I am in control of the food...instead of the other way around. I know that when I snack ( anytime...but especially in the evening).....I gulp the snacks down, I barely taste them, I act like someone is going to take them away...I need to make them disappear. I'm disgusted with myself...and then it happens again the next day...searching until I found something that changed that pattern in MY HEAD....finally made it stop it seems....My mind set is different now...it just clicked....light turning a light switch off....I think you will find the answer by shaking things up a bit...and maybe by staying busy working on things will do that...I hope today goes well for you.

legcramps on 11/05/2018:
It can be a long, drawn-out process when trying to decide what lifestyle choice is right for you when it comes to eating and exercise. In the end it's about eating less calories than you burn, but that is obviously easier said than done. I know it's tough, believe me; but you are the only one that knows how much effort you're putting into it. You have some fantastic goals - don't sabotage yourself now! You got this!

Donkey on 11/06/2018:
Whoa, what Bear said - spot on.

Also, to add my 2 cents, having lost the same 50 lbs (give or take) at least 4 times, it seems harder to lose weight each subsequent time.

My husband and I had a discussion yesterday because he can't exercise due to his limitations. (That's not entirely accurate, but in his mind it is. Whatever. ) He said that I have it easier. Oh no, I told him. I have fought hard for every pound lost and kept off.

horn_of_plenty on 11/06/2018:
regarding your comment yesterday - trust me, everyone's positivity wanes...even the Pros!

this time of year, it's easy to eat towards the max. i was doing that a couple weeks, now i'm back to working towards maintainng cals that are a bit lower again, this shift to lower them is NEVER fun haha!

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