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graindart - Friday Jul 06, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 204.0

Started yesterday good.  Had tons of work to get done and decided to eat an apple part way through the day as a break.  Followed right away by popcorn.  Followed right away by hamburger and chicken breast.  Then I didn't stop until around 9pm.......  Had a lot of monotonous work and I used the food to just try to cope.

Only good thing from yesterday was that I didn't drink anything with calories or caffeine.

Today is starting off ok.  

Progress as of today: 79 lbs lost so far, only 29 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/06/2018:
Good start today!

happy-1 on 07/06/2018:
Good job!!!

Donkey on 07/07/2018:
Well, keep trying... At least you are being completely honest about using food as a coping mechanism, and I feel, at least in my journey, that this is an important step to take to true behavior modification. I've done it: I am feeling (whatever) and I am using food to help me get through this, and I'm OK with that because I do what I have to do to get through (whatever) until I can do better. Does that sound too corny? Probably, but it's helped me.

When I was at my heaviest at this job, I found myself using food to cope with stress. So at around 3pm when everyone is emailing and I'm pressing to get deadlines met, I'd head for the chips. (My male co-worker still does this on almost a daily basis.) I found that interrupting my work to get food - and then to eat the food - would slow down the work that I was needing to get done - so counterproductive!

Now I get up and take a walk - usually to get the mail, to go outside to get something out of the car (real or not), to go downstairs for ice cubes or raw vegetables that I keep in the downstairs fridge specifically so that I have to walk to get it... I also make sure I have water (flavored) and sugar free candies (mint seems to calm me down).

Now I'm just babbling about myself... I guess my question would be that if you're using food to break up the monotonous work, don't you too find this to slow you down? Or does eating make you more productive?

The real important question is: how do you eat at your desk without spilling something or getting messy fingers onto your keyboard???? This is totally my downfall ;-)

graindart on 07/07/2018:
Using food to cope while working is completely counter-productive and I know that even while I'm stuffing my face.

I think the reason I use the food sometimes is that it keeps me at my desk. So I might only be 75% as productive as usual, but at least I'm getting stuff done. I've found that when I run an errand to break up the monotony, I might waste an hour or more and then feel even less like getting my work done when I get back.

graindart - Monday Jul 02, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 197.1

Just a placeholder entry.

Decided to just stay off diet plan until after the 4th of July.  We're having a lot of friends / family over for the 4th and will have them take all of the leftover food with them as they leave.  The wife and kids are leaving early on the 5th to visit the in-laws for 10 days, so it'll just be me at home.  The house will be pretty devoid of food and I'll just go buy a very limited amount of stuff that I plan to eat.  Should be able to get back on track pretty easy without food temptations or special get-togethers planned while the family is gone.

So on the 5th I'll be back, on track, and catching up on everyone's entries.  Have a happy and safe 4th.

Progress as of today: 85.9 lbs lost so far, only 22.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
You get me time and a staycation!!! Good for you!

bearcountrygg on 07/02/2018:
Sounds like a plan

Horn_of_plenty on 07/03/2018:
Well, thank you for saving your spot :)

I hope you have a wonderful 4th of July too...today we are having bagels at work, i am not even in the mood, but figure i'll enjoy it. planning around having a bagel with cream cheese :) bagels tend to not fill me at all and i get hungry soon after, but i'm choosing to enjoy it...i think? after writing how i feel about bagels, i'm not even wanting it...

enjoy all your get togethers.

Donkey on 07/04/2018:
Hope you have a nice day with your family today. I'm glad you posted a placeholder entry. Sometimes, it helps just to acknowledge one's place - "this is where I'm at" - with no comment or criticism (from one's self).

graindart - Wednesday Jun 27, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 197.1

In response to Donkey's question:

How am I doing pertaining to life, family, wife, daughters, work, and everything else besides eating right?  Great!

How am I doing food-wise?  Terrible.  And all of my new clothes bought over the past few months are starting to feel snug. 

It's kind of a "perfect storm" type of time period right now.  Got back from the cruise and now don't have a specific goal in mind to work towards.  Without specific goals, I tend to get lazy and revert to old ways of eating.  So no current goal coupled with 3 or so weeks of bad eating have taken their toll.  Have restarted a plan a few times since getting back, but keep choosing to jump off the tracks.  Wasn't going to stay on plan for our 19th wedding anniversary.  Took the family camping in the woods and fully planned on eating plenty of hot dogs / marshmallows / smores / etc.  Just got back today and tonight's "date night", so don't want to be back on track today.  Then 4th of July is one week away and I know that's going to be off-plan.  Right now, planning on getting back on-plan tomorrow and attempting to make it up to the 4th of July.  Go off-plan on the 4th.  Then the wife and kids leave on the 5th to visit the in-laws for 10 days.  In theory, those 10 days should be easier to get back on track since I won't have any additional food distractions.

I really just need to figure out exactly what I'd like.  Right now, I think weighing in the 170's feels good and looks pretty good.  So I'm leaning towards getting back into the 170's and then just transitioning into "maintenance" mode for awhile.  My mind has been on "dieting" for the past 14-15 months and it's mentally exhausting to have dwelled on the same thing for such a long period of time.  I'd like to be able to relax somewhat, but without throwing all of my hard work away.

Ideally I'd like to figure out a change of career that would still bring in similar money, but allow me to be more active.  My current career pays well, but the busier I am with work, the more I just sit in front of a computer for hours upon hours.  Then I want to combat the boredom and monotony with food.  I need to find a way to get paid to ride my dirt bike in the woods on a daily basis........

Progress as of today: 85.9 lbs lost so far, only 22.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/27/2018:
Sounds like you need an annual guys weekend ritual of doing a tough mudder. Motivate you all to do well or at least as good as the other guy.

graindart on 06/27/2018:
Competition does drive us "men-folk". But I'm already winning at the man-race with all but one of my friends. And I'm not willing to put in the effort to catch up with him. He goes to the gym twice per day for a total of 4 or 5 hours per day, 6 days per week. While he physically is looking great and says he enjoys it, I just don't understand how someone can spend that many hours doing something so mind-numbingly boring.

But like you said, I probably do need some type of event goal to keep me working in the right direction.

horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
Hi Gains :-P I hope you still enjoy this nickname :-P I’m also happy that you are still logging into DD and we are lucky enough to receive a “Graindart Update!”

What happened to you after the cruise is a typical pattern with so many folks including myself. Like you, I have had instances, def more than 1, where I have reached a goal or reached a very happy place in terms of body look / diet / exercise only to reach it and have no new goal or motivation enough to keep on going.

But sometimes the issue is not just reaching a goal and having nowhere else to go. It’s also finding healthy habits that make it EASIER to remain at goal when motivation is lacking. This part of the process is the nutrition / calories / diet part and less the exercise part. I think this is the part that is frustrating you as you wrote above. Now that the trip is over, I recommend you try to eat in a way that you enjoy…and find ways to be able to enjoy life and not feel like diet is such a nasty task. Who would want to go thru life always on a diet, struggling. Yes, I too have my struggles…but what I’m saying is – especially bc you work from home – you have the opportunity to have the foods at your reach and have all kinds of good options. Eh. ..

What I’m saying is, instead of denying yourself like what you were in a habit of doing before the cruise, perhaps try to give your body more? Try to find what could work in the long term now. This is sorta what you had in mind coming back from the trip.

Who knows, perhaps you are a OMAD / IF person, just not everyday? The ball will always be in your court, it’s your life, it’s what you choose :-P Reminding you that it doesn’t all after to be only one way or the highway. Lifestyle and diet can be a mix of dietary options. For instance, I like to fill up and feel full. By doing this at times with vegetables, my diet can include lots of volume and I can fill my stomach but calories are not totally blown up out of proportion and weight gain is mostly prevented.

Same with that ice cream I like. I can eat my full share and not feel like I have to diet the next day. For me, it was finding some alternatives to be able to continue eating to feel full. I’m not saying my way is the only way though! I wish I always didn’t need so much volume or crave it. But, like I said, it works for me.

At times, I WISH I could be satisfied with a small sandwich or grilled cheese or something of that nature as it’s nice to be able to eat junk food and be thin, right? But I have a big appetite, so small amounts of junk food generally are not what I want.… But for some reason, I always crave VOLUME in my meals…but those other foods like grilled cheese (bad example bc I really don’t eat it bc it doesn’t fill me up) …but like the peanut butter – which I was in a previous habit of enjoying in a wrap for breakfast sometimes with my own sweetened with stevia cranberries..pb was not off limits…but when I crave to be full, I know what to do. For instance at work I generally have wraps for breakfast. They are small and I make them at home. I drink a full cup of coffee after to fill me up on top of the small wrap. Coffee is part of the plan…my volume plan…to filling my stomach.

So, in terms of diet, a lot of my habits that help me “stay sane” is making sure many of my meals have a moderate to high volume so I can feel full.

And like I was saying with all or nothing, perhaps if you have all these special occasions, it doesn’t have to be “all or nothing” days. Perhaps now while everything is volatile, try to have good days on the days that aren’t celebratory or have tons of food…and on the days where there is celebrations, perhaps allow yourself small / moderate tastes of the treats…and also try to plan to choose healthy things. Like can’t you fill up on a veggie tray / bring a veggie tray and bring seltzer / diet drinks. So eat the food, but then switch over to the healthier options. That’s how I have been successful more or less.

With maintenance, there are times that your weight will go up a little as it has now…and also you will be able to eat more with more muscle mass…so keep on with your exercise. Remember that even maintenance is hard work as you see with folks on here that maintain – like myself and donkey.

Can’t you just exercise more without changing careers? Are you sure you really want to change a career if you are already successful??? Or, perhaps you can have a dirt bike riding park for kids!

Donkey on 06/28/2018:
Like yourself and Horn, I've been in that tough spot where you've accomplished a goal and then you're left with, "Now what?" It took me a week or 2 to get back on track and find "the love" again, if you know what I mean. I also agree with you that timing is everything. So I've been in both spots before.

When it's right, it clicks. When it's wrong, it doesn't stick.

I thought of you this morning when they had on the news some guy setting the new plank record. He set it last night and then was trying again today to break his own record that he just set the day before. 8 hours. Of plank. Talk about boring! He starts each day with a 2 hour plank -- probably just falls back asleep in the plank position -- and 1000 push-ups a day.

I guess my point is that if that guy can find "the love" in doing an 8-hour plank, then I'm pretty confident you'll find your motivation again soon. Keep trying!

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
the guy friend that is in the gym for hours, is he single!? i doubt he can be married with kids and do that kind of time consuming isolated from family exercise??? does he work!? does he work from home??? how does he do it...timewise i couldn't.

i'm sure he is in great form!

graindart on 06/29/2018:
He's married, with 5 teenage kids. Him and his wife go to the gym for several hours each day together, 6 days per week. He's a realtor, so has a flexible schedule.

Both him and his wife are looking really fit. I just don't understand why people put that much effort into something so repetitive, with little payoff (other than looking good). It'd be different if they used their fitness and muscles to do something (sports, outdoor activities, paid to train others, etc). But they just basically live in the gym. They say they enjoy it, so good for them. (Personally I think it's a waste of time.)

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
maybe it helps them "play the realtor part" in selling homes by also looking good? i am sure all the compliments makes them want to keep going ...interesting.

5 kids!

interesting couple. def not the norm! i'm sure they are a bit inspirational, even if you don't want to be them!

graindart on 06/29/2018:
It's a combined family from previous marriages. Not much inspiration-wise, except for the fitness side of things. Hadn't really thought about it, but looking fit very well may contribute to making more money in the realtor game......

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
maybe it helps them "play the realtor part" in selling homes by also looking good? i am sure all the compliments makes them want to keep going ...interesting.

5 kids!

interesting couple. def not the norm! i'm sure they are a bit inspirational, even if you don't want to be them!

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:

graindart - Sunday Jun 24, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 191.1

Yesterday was back on track with OMAD and counting calories.  Still drinking a ton of zero calorie pop and zero calorie energy drinks.  Love the taste, but don't enjoy the way the large amounts of caffeine are making my head feel.  Have around a case of my favorite high-caffeine cans left.  Bought several 12-packs of zero calorie cans of caffeine free pop.  Going to try switching to the caffeine free stuff after I run out of the heavily caffeinated cans and see if I can deal.


Progress as of today: 91.9 lbs lost so far, only 32.1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/24/2018:
Maybe alternate between caffeine and non-caffeine drinks, to balance it out. I've had that weird feeling when I've had too much caffeine --- just have to ride it out, as I do not know of a way to counteract the effects. Caffeine helps me feel focused, "up" and alert -- but too much tends to make me feel jittery and unable to focus. Strange how that works... too much of a good thing.

Donkey on 06/24/2018:
And good for you for getting back on track as soon as possible. Keep trying with this.

bearcountrygg on 06/24/2018:
I love diet pop...but it makes my joints hurt for some reason...and it always has...even when I was young.

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
yeah...please switch to some caffeine free drinks...it will be better for you and less dehydrating...it will also make you less prone to binge as much as the caffeine wont get you jittery and such...

also make sure to include water too / seltzer....

my friend told me about alkaline water recently...cool stuff...it has a more basic PH more alkaline than regular water, it's very good for your body. I will start drinking it moderately in addition to regular water...disease and cancer and stuff comes when we are more acidic...so the alkaline water is so cool

i have 3 brands to choose from by me :) supposedly its VERY good for your body's PH levels.

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
i am with Donkey...i HATE how i feel when i have too much caffeine in me...

Donkey on 06/27/2018:
How are you doing?

graindart on 06/27/2018:
Thanks for the comment. It made me post a new entry.

graindart - Saturday Jun 23, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 199.4

So the cruise was enjoyable.  It was mostly relaxing and I didn't think about work much.  It was good to sit down with most of the family every night at the formal dining.  There were 16 of us (8 adults, 8 children), so we switched up where we sat each night.  The wife and daughters really enjoyed dressing up each night.  In the past I really haven't enjoyed wearing suits / tuxedos.  This time I was at a much lower weight, so the tuxedo and other dress clothes fit correctly and I actually didn't mind it.  Family time was the main reason for the cruise.  We did a lot of walking around, talking, and relaxing together.  Used the rock climbing wall on the ship several times and it was nice being able to do that successfully.  I definitely couldn't have done as well when I weighed 280 lbs.  Also did the Flowrider on the final day.  It was closed most of the cruise due to temperature, rain, wind, etc.  On the final day the daughters and myself went bright and early and we had it all to ourselves for the first 20 minutes.  And the next 20 minutes after that there were just a few others that showed up.  We have a Flowrider here locally, but they only allow using the body board / kneeboard.  The one on the ship also had small skim surfboards that you were allowed to stand up on. 

Bungee jump off the 150' bridge was insane!  I've posted a link at the bottom of this post to the youtube video I took of my 13 year old daughter doing it after I went.  I have video of my jump, but haven't taken the time to edit and upload it yet.  I did a quick edit of hers so that she could show to her friends. 

I've done several other things that have given me adrenaline rushes and mild amounts of fear.  There are times that my current dirt biking has some terrain that a mis-step could result in major bodily harm.  I was into racing cars for a few years.  I've gone parasailing, raced road motorcycles, jetskis, snowmobiles, etc.  Have ridden pretty much every type of rollercoaster and fair attraction.  Even got strapped into a bungee slingshot device that sent you around 100 feet in the air, but you were in a partially enclosed metal cage.  None of it even comes close to the fear that I encountered during my bungee jump last week.

For the bungee jump, I went first and then my daughter went.  The bungee jump was definitely the scariest thing I've ever done in my life by far.  I thought I was a "manly man" and didn't think I'd have any problem doing the jump.  I found out differently when I arrived on site.  In the past I've seen bungee jumping on TV, Youtube, etc.  I remember watching contestants on The Amazing Race get to bungee jump obstacles and break down in tears because they were just too scared to do it.  I always thought they were acting way too scared for something like that.  I now fully understand the fear.

The drive to the bungee jump bridge is one of the most beautiful drives I've ever taken.  The jump was near Whistler, British Columbia (Canada) and the drive was along the west coast with high rugged mountains, ocean, and lots of green.  I was suprised to see the amount of snow still on the tops of the mountains since it's right on the coast.  We had a couple hour drive from the hotel to the jump bridge.  It was a calm and relaxing drive and the girls were slipping in and out of sleep most of the way.  Got to the bridge around 9:15am for the 10am jump.  Arrived early so that I could setup video cameras on tripods at different vantage points.  Still calm.  Around 9:45am started the short trail walk up to the one end of the bridge.  Still calm.  Started crossing the bridge and around halfway across stopped to look over the side at the rushing river below.  Instant anxiety, definitely NOT calm.  I suddenly realized what a 150' drop really meant.  All types of thoughts started shooting through my head.  I started thinking that I really didn't need to do this anymore, that I'd be fine going the rest of my life without bungee jumping. 

Unlike my daughter, I hadn't told a ton of people that I was going to do this.  My daughter had told just about everyone she knew that she was going bungee jumping for her 13th birthday.  I encouraged her to do it, knowing that it would be harder for her to back out once she had told so many people.  Back to me thoughts.....  I knew if I chickened-out that my daughter wouldn't do it either.  Part of me thought that it would be a relief to her also.  While she has been nervously looking forward to the experience for the past month, seeing it in person was just terrifying.  I decided to go sign the final release forms and get the harness on.  Did it and was feeling calmer again.  Came to my turn in line and I was still pretty calm.  The guy that went before me was about 10 years older than me and it was his first jump too.  When he was getting unattached after his jump, he was smiling but also mentioned how he had almost blacked-out during the jump.  That gave me a little bit of anxiousness, but still relatively calm.  Walked through the barrier area to the actual jump platform area and was told to stick the toes of my shoes over the edge of the platform.  At this point any sense of calmness instantly left.  I stepped out onto the platform and looked down.  Huge amounts of fear like I've never experienced before! 

At this point my mind was having a major argument with itself.  The logical side of the brain kept arguing that it was "safe", that the harness and attachments were checked multiple times by at least 3 different people, and that they've never had a fatality or major injury before.  The other side of my brain was yelling ABORT, ABORT, THIS IS STUPID, YOU'RE ABOUT TO DIE, TURN AND RUN, GET OUT OF HERE, DON'T DO THIS, YOU'RE GOING TO BE THEIR FIRST FATALITY, THE HARNESS IS MADE FROM LITTLE BITS OF NYLON, ABORT, ABORT.  Standing on the edge of the platform with a death grip on the railing I realized that I could NOT jump off forwards.  I let the person know that I was turning around and was going to jump off backwards.  She said ok and I turned around, still with a death grip on the railings.  At that point I realized that I could NOT blindly fall backwards off this bridge towards the rushing river and jagged rocks below.  I told here I changed my mind and was going to turn around and go face first afterall.  She said ok and I turned around again, still having a death grip on the railings.  She asked if I was ready.  I wasn't, but said I was.  She said to let go of the railings and lift my arms up to the sides.  I did.  She started a quick countdown....5..4..3..2..1..  And I jumped off the platform!  Kept my eyes open the entire time and will always have the image of plummeting straight towards that rushing river burned into my memories.  About 3 seconds of utter terror as you free fall with no resistance.  Then the bungee kicks in and you start bouncing up and down a few times while the adrenaline rushes throughout your body and fills you with an extreme sense of euphoria. 

Then they pull you back up to the bridge.  When I got back to the bridge I was shaking from experience as the adrenaline was still coursing through my veins for the next couple minutes.  I had a huge smile and started encouraging my daughter for her jump.  I told her that it was going to be the scariest 3 seconds of her life, but it would quickly be followed by the most awesome feeling she had ever felt before.  As you can see in the Youtube video link below, she handled the initial jump much better than me.



Progress as of today: 83.6 lbs lost so far, only 40.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/23/2018:
This is an amazing post. Could easily be an article on Fatherly. So much here I have to process and respond more later. Good job!

bearcountrygg on 06/23/2018:
Wow......sounds exciting!!!

bearcountrygg on 06/23/2018:
Watched your daughters video...she is amazing!!!

Donkey on 06/23/2018:
OMGosh what a video!!!! Thank you for sharing!!! AND also, thank you for sharing the whole thought process that you went through. Not only was that very interesting, e.g. whether to jump forward or fall back, but also very much appreciated, personally.

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
Hi Gains!

Nice to see a couple entries from our Manof DD! Haha!! There’s always one…I miss the other guy from DD, OhioRaven!

Glad mealtime and sitting around your relatives was enjoyable!! I have ALWAYS enjoyed dressing up SO MUCH MORE when I have been a lower weight, like now, also. It’s always more comfortable to wear clothes when you know they fit well…I’m with you on that one oh yes! I remember at my heaviest and close to heaviest when i had a lot of extra fat (noooo extra muscle at all) and dresses looked horrible on me…I felt so insecure! Now, it’s better…as long as I don’t let myself go…as I’m getting really good at eating towards my higher calorie limit more and more…

…as I run more I hope for it to cancel out any weight gain. I meant to get more into running this month but decided to take a class on Wednesaday evenings and despite it being a really easy class and fun class that actually gets out early most of the time, I haven’t had the energy to fit in cardio more than 1x a week even though my original plan this month was to do it 2x per week – class ends this week – so next couple months will be far easier to do it 2x per week – my goal is to once again jog one mile without stopping and possibly get up to 1.5-2mi. After that, I’ll be working on speed…I don’t care about distance increasing, but speed. And for now, the goal is just to do a mile – I’m far from the goal right now.

Yes, rock climbing will not work if you aren’t fit! Too much weight for the upper body to have to lug up! So congrats to you !! I’m sure you were VERY happy about it. Never head of a flowrider…sounds fun like surfing! Good idea to get the videos of the bungee jumping! I went paragliding last fall I Colombia and wish I get either photos / video with it….would have been nice to look back on! When you come to NYC, you must go and ride the Cyclone rollercoaster located on Coney Island !!....LOL, you felt euphoria on the bungee jump! I’d have felt FEAR only! It sounds ilke an experience of a lifetime…I don’t think I have a desire to ever bungee jump…but ziplining, I’m up for that again!

i'll try and watch the video of your daughter later :)

graindart - Tuesday Jun 19, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 192.5

Yesterday went mostly successful at being back to normal eating levels.  Have to hit the road and get back to playing catchup with work.  Will recap vacation when I get caught back up.

Progress as of today: 90.5 lbs lost so far, only 33.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/19/2018:
Good luck with getting back on track -- you can do it!!!

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
i'm so happy to hear you have plans and several things scheduled...BEST way to come back from a vacation...to at least keep you on track :)

i'm proud of you, Gains!

bearcountrygg on 06/19/2018:
Great vacation...and now back to the healthy stuff.

happy-1 on 06/19/2018:
Welcome back! I missed your "momentum energy" on the board. Sounds like you are hitting the ground running like 007. Good job!

graindart - Monday Jun 18, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 195.7

Just updating my weight for now.

Cruise was fun.  Bungie jumping was the scariest thing I've ever done (almost chickened-out).  Enjoyed family.  Ate a ton and am ok with the resulting 20 lb gain on the scale. 

Have to get on a huge backlog of work, so will update in more detail over the next few days.  Eating and drinking are back under control starting today.

Progress as of today: 87.3 lbs lost so far, only 36.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 06/18/2018:
Welcome home, Gains! Sorry about the gain haha…but it seems it’s the direct result of what you knowingly did..now that your kids are out of school and activities hopefully have decreased, your stress will be less than it was at the end of the year when you had little time for anything and you were constantly driving from one activity to the next with your girls. Oh, and the bdays. Now, possibly there will be more time (just a little lol) to plan for better eating / or even buying and keeping some more veggies / fruits on hand at home. Just suggestions! I am also working to change some of my habits.

I’m working to switch from ice cream to greek yogurt – but not sure how I’ll fill up on it…maybe I’ll just keep the ice cream, lol…but def learned to stop so much of my diet jello (makes my face break out horribly for some reason, always, as I eat many at a time).

And also I have stopped my light whipped cream habit as it is bad fats in the whipped cream, completely not healthy to ingest a half a container at once – and it has the artificial sugars in the light/sugar free versions. Also for me, I’m back to refraining from sf energy drinks as they tend to drain me and also affect my skin possibly bc they are dehydrating. Just giving you some “fuel” to comment and write your opinions on when you come back again to join us in not too long from now hopefully ;) when you get caught up!

I would be SO SCARED to bungee jump. I don’t think I’ll ever want to try it in my lifetime. Did it hurt at all, the jolting up and down of your body attached to the cord?

I’m glad you look forward or at least have started to get back on track. Without another upcoming trip, I hope you will consider eating for life / eating in a way that’s something you can carry on for the long term. This is where I am at, still working to make better choices, for sure, but realizing that everyday is a chance to be a little better in the long term. I still struggle but like you know I find my ways. To me, it’s a lifestyle, for sure, not just another “diet.” So I don’t think of certain foods as being out or against the rules, it’s just about how I fit what I choose into the day. Many times, my choices are too processed or too much junk out of me opting to choose convenience /satisfaction/craving over health but it’s all a learning process !

Welcome home…I hope you get a chance to go out and pick up some healthy staples at the supermarket so you have options to reach for when you want to eat.

bearcountrygg on 06/18/2018:
Great to hear that the cruise was fun......welcome back!

legcramps on 06/18/2018:
wow, way to go on the bungee jumping! I will never do that.

Donkey on 06/18/2018:
Welcome back!!! So glad you had a good time! You were missed here, too!

graindart - Thursday Jun 07, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 174.8

Hitting the road in about an hour.  Driving to Seattle today, boarding the cruise ship to Alaska tomorrow.  We purchased the cruise tickets almost 1 year ago, so we've been anticipating this for quite some time.  Most of the family (my family, sister's family, grandparents) will be on the trip, approximately 16 of us.

Foodwise, not sure how today is going to go with it being on the road all day.  Ideally would like to stay away from overeating, but know that often falls by the wayside the second I feel like I'm on vacation. 

Progress as of today: 108.2 lbs lost so far, only 15.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/07/2018:
Bon voyage! I wish you a safe, happy, enjoyable vacation!

Maybe just be mindful as you approach a meal or a snack. It doesn't have to be black-and-white, on-diet/off-diet. Aim for the best nutritional options.

Easier said than done, I know it... Have a wonderful time anyway :-)

bearcountrygg on 06/07/2018:
Have a great trip.....and relax and enjoy yourself!

horn_of_plenty on 06/07/2018:
I commented below also...i would have to take advantage of some of the free GOOD food on a cruise...and even healthy which can be tasty options lol...

...anyways, like Donkey says, I wish you an awesome vacation! 16 family members is a big party and with that many you'll be able to choose who and when you are spending your time with :)

enjoy. try to enjoy the time with your wife and girls the most, over the food.

perhaps show us some cool sights when you get back from your trip...a photo of you standing on a glacier or something ? something we don't see everyday!

or if you order something really exotic, please share at least the name so i can google it :)

enjoy the cruise that you've waiting so long to go on.

i agree with donkey about the black and white...try your best to enjoy all the cruise has to offer. try not to reprimand or punish yourself...enjoy it.

happy-1 on 06/08/2018:
Bon Voyage! We want to hear all about it when you get back!

graindart on 06/08/2018:
Waiting in line to board right now.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/09/2018:
Someone is in Alaska right now!

graindart - Wednesday Jun 06, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 178.6

Got sidetracked for a week.  My mind and tummy wanted to start my cruise vacation a week early.  Intended to only go off-plan for Memorial Day, but that extended to including my daughter's birthday, then camping in the mountains, then daughter's birthday with friends, then daughter's birthday with family.  

Scale shot up to 190, but got back under control the past few days and the scale dropped back down.  Today is the last day in town.  Have to get some work finished up, errands run, lawn mowed, etc.  We leave for Seattle tomorrow morning after dropping the dog off at the pet boarding place.  Should be boarding the ship to Alaska on Friday around 10am-noon.  Ideally I'd like to stay in control of food intake today, tomorrow, and until dinner on Friday night.  Today shouldn't be a problem, but I don't know about tomorrow.  We'll be on the road for 10-12 hours and that's the time I usually stuff my face in an attempt to fight boredom.  There is also Boehm's Chocolote Factory in Issaquah, WA.  Since I was a little kid, we always stopped there and I've always got a freshly dipped ice cream on a stick with thick dark chocolate and fresh roasted nuts.  I've told my daughters about it several times and am pretty sure we will be stopping there.  I suppose that will be later in the day around dinner time.  I guess my plan for traveling Friday will be to pack a ton of zero-calorie drinks for the trip and not eat anything until we get to the chocolate factory.  Order ice cream things for the family and leave without getting talked into any other stuff (chocolates, fudge, nuts, etc).

Alaskan cruise starts Friday and goes for a week.  Ideally the plan is to skip breakfast / lunch and effectively stay OMAD.  I don't know how possible that will be.  It's my vacation.  Part of me says "screw it" and I shouldn't worry what or when I eat.  The other part of me reminds myself that I feel like crap the next day when I overeat and I really don't want to feel like crap for a week straight because I've overeatten for a week straight.  So the plan is OMAD, the reality will be ?????

Progress as of today: 104.4 lbs lost so far, only 19.6 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 06/06/2018:
OMG I'm so excited for you! I hope you enjoy your vacation without all the worries of forever dieting. You have worked very hard and enjoy a peaceful stress free vacation. I hope you see whales and all kinds of cool stuff!

bearcountrygg on 06/06/2018:
Have a great trip.

horn_of_plenty on 06/07/2018:
Hi Gains! ! ! So happy to see you drop by – it’s sad to lose DDers from our online community!

I can understand how you got sidetracked with being off your plan the whole week because of all the bdays and celebrations. And I’m sure you had to do a lot of the driving and planning which requires energy and for me sometimes I’d indulge just due to the mental aspect of all the events and obligations. Remember how to get back…how you can order healthier options (when you feel like being back to that). Last night I went with a friend out to eat locally to a pizza shop and they have awesome sautéed mushrooms in olive oil with shaved slices of garlic.

Amazing. Ate the whole thing of mushrooms atop a couple small slices Italian bread and a little bit of minestrone soup. My issue was just still craving my home treats of sf jello, whipped cream (half a small container! – I eat it like ice cream) and also some ice cream. My weakness is my own little treats but luckily at least they are low cal one that I crave. I do realize there’s no nutrition that I actually need from these things. I’m debating pulling myself off for a little bit from the whipped cream and ice cream that I love…

lol…my point was to you really here is that there’s ways to eat what you enjoy when you can find ways to work them into your diet so it’s a way of life. So far, I’m sure you can say you’ve learned a ton and experienced a lot and learned from what you’d like to continue and also the techniques that were worth trying but maybe not a long term method for you!

I think the less rules you give yourself the better…with all the buffets and free food, are you sure you do not want to allow yourself to take advantage? I know that buffets on the ships even include some tomatoes and other veggies at breakfast! Coffee is low cal! There’s so many options…do you like smoked lox (salmon) slices that are usually served on the ship buffet breakfast?....

graindart - Monday May 28, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 175.2

Past couple days have been on plan.

Went dirt biking for a good portion of Saturday.  

Having family over today for dinner.

Wiring an outlet for the RV today.  Going to take it out this next weekend for a couple days in the mountains to celebrate my youngest daughter's 13th birthday.  Taking the dog with us and should get some hiking in.

Not much else going on, although birthdays bring a lot extra stuff to the schedule.  Will take treats to her youth group Wednesday night.  Thursday will take treats, flowers, and balloon to school.  After school will take her and a couple of her friends bowling, followed by dinner.  Friday morning we'll leave to go camping.  Probably come back Saturday.  Sunday night the extended family is coming over for her family birthday dinner.

And she's nervously looking forward to her birthday present.  After the cruise we're heading up to Vancouver, BC for a mini family reunion (mom's family is Canadian).  I've been wanting to bungee jump for many years (never done it before).  Found a place in Whistler, British Columbia that offers bungee jumping 160' off a bridge over the Cheakamus River.  I'll attach a birdseye view photo from their website below.  I gave my daughter the option to do it as her birthday present and she decided she wanted to.  (Also gave my wife and older daughter the option, but neither were interested at all.)

10 DUC's

Progress as of today: 107.8 lbs lost so far, only 16.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/28/2018:
What a cool birthday gift! I'm not sure I'd have the courage to try this, but just to be there would be an incredible view!

Glad to hear you're staying on track.

bearcountrygg on 05/28/2018:

Horn_of_plenty on 05/28/2018:
What a cool bday gift indeed...not sure if i could bungee jump! actually, i know i could, but i also know i'd be terrified! :P

the view is soooo beautiful! sounds like your daughter is going to have a wonderful bday and family time!!

happy-1 on 05/28/2018:
Bungee jumping is super fun but even if there is no accident can result in whiplash and TBI.

innerpeace on 05/30/2018:
How exciting! My son bungee jumped, he loved it, but lost his wallet, so don't take that!!

I always wanted to hang glide, maybe if I ever lose enough weight I will do this!

horn_of_plenty on 05/30/2018:
Cruise Dad!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/01/2018:
...6 days :)

graindart on 06/01/2018:
Yeah, but my mouth & tummy started the vacation 5 days ago......

Horn_of_plenty on 06/01/2018:
ohhh you bad Gains! jk...it happens to us all!!!

you shall be ok and we want to hear about vacation when it happens like what activities you did on vaca!

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