Started yesterday good. Had tons of work to get done and decided to eat an apple part way through the day as a break. Followed right away by popcorn. Followed right away by hamburger and chicken breast. Then I didn't stop until around 9pm....... Had a lot of monotonous work and I used the food to just try to cope.
Only good thing from yesterday was that I didn't drink anything with calories or caffeine.
Today is starting off ok.
Progress as of today: 79 lbs lost so far, only 29 lbs to go!
Decided to just stay off diet plan until after the 4th of July. We're having a lot of friends / family over for the 4th and will have them take all of the leftover food with them as they leave. The wife and kids are leaving early on the 5th to visit the in-laws for 10 days, so it'll just be me at home. The house will be pretty devoid of food and I'll just go buy a very limited amount of stuff that I plan to eat. Should be able to get back on track pretty easy without food temptations or special get-togethers planned while the family is gone.
So on the 5th I'll be back, on track, and catching up on everyone's entries. Have a happy and safe 4th.
Progress as of today: 85.9 lbs lost so far, only 22.1 lbs to go!
How am I doing pertaining to life, family, wife, daughters, work, and everything else besides eating right? Great!
How am I doing food-wise? Terrible. And all of my new clothes bought over the past few months are starting to feel snug.
It's kind of a "perfect storm" type of time period right now. Got back from the cruise and now don't have a specific goal in mind to work towards. Without specific goals, I tend to get lazy and revert to old ways of eating. So no current goal coupled with 3 or so weeks of bad eating have taken their toll. Have restarted a plan a few times since getting back, but keep choosing to jump off the tracks. Wasn't going to stay on plan for our 19th wedding anniversary. Took the family camping in the woods and fully planned on eating plenty of hot dogs / marshmallows / smores / etc. Just got back today and tonight's "date night", so don't want to be back on track today. Then 4th of July is one week away and I know that's going to be off-plan. Right now, planning on getting back on-plan tomorrow and attempting to make it up to the 4th of July. Go off-plan on the 4th. Then the wife and kids leave on the 5th to visit the in-laws for 10 days. In theory, those 10 days should be easier to get back on track since I won't have any additional food distractions.
I really just need to figure out exactly what I'd like. Right now, I think weighing in the 170's feels good and looks pretty good. So I'm leaning towards getting back into the 170's and then just transitioning into "maintenance" mode for awhile. My mind has been on "dieting" for the past 14-15 months and it's mentally exhausting to have dwelled on the same thing for such a long period of time. I'd like to be able to relax somewhat, but without throwing all of my hard work away.
Ideally I'd like to figure out a change of career that would still bring in similar money, but allow me to be more active. My current career pays well, but the busier I am with work, the more I just sit in front of a computer for hours upon hours. Then I want to combat the boredom and monotony with food. I need to find a way to get paid to ride my dirt bike in the woods on a daily basis........
Progress as of today: 85.9 lbs lost so far, only 22.1 lbs to go!
Yesterday was back on track with OMAD and counting calories. Still drinking a ton of zero calorie pop and zero calorie energy drinks. Love the taste, but don't enjoy the way the large amounts of caffeine are making my head feel. Have around a case of my favorite high-caffeine cans left. Bought several 12-packs of zero calorie cans of caffeine free pop. Going to try switching to the caffeine free stuff after I run out of the heavily caffeinated cans and see if I can deal.
Progress as of today: 91.9 lbs lost so far, only 32.1 lbs to go!
So the cruise was enjoyable. It was mostly relaxing and I didn't think about work much. It was good to sit down with most of the family every night at the formal dining. There were 16 of us (8 adults, 8 children), so we switched up where we sat each night. The wife and daughters really enjoyed dressing up each night. In the past I really haven't enjoyed wearing suits / tuxedos. This time I was at a much lower weight, so the tuxedo and other dress clothes fit correctly and I actually didn't mind it. Family time was the main reason for the cruise. We did a lot of walking around, talking, and relaxing together. Used the rock climbing wall on the ship several times and it was nice being able to do that successfully. I definitely couldn't have done as well when I weighed 280 lbs. Also did the Flowrider on the final day. It was closed most of the cruise due to temperature, rain, wind, etc. On the final day the daughters and myself went bright and early and we had it all to ourselves for the first 20 minutes. And the next 20 minutes after that there were just a few others that showed up. We have a Flowrider here locally, but they only allow using the body board / kneeboard. The one on the ship also had small skim surfboards that you were allowed to stand up on.
Bungee jump off the 150' bridge was insane! I've posted a link at the bottom of this post to the youtube video I took of my 13 year old daughter doing it after I went. I have video of my jump, but haven't taken the time to edit and upload it yet. I did a quick edit of hers so that she could show to her friends.
I've done several other things that have given me adrenaline rushes and mild amounts of fear. There are times that my current dirt biking has some terrain that a mis-step could result in major bodily harm. I was into racing cars for a few years. I've gone parasailing, raced road motorcycles, jetskis, snowmobiles, etc. Have ridden pretty much every type of rollercoaster and fair attraction. Even got strapped into a bungee slingshot device that sent you around 100 feet in the air, but you were in a partially enclosed metal cage. None of it even comes close to the fear that I encountered during my bungee jump last week.
For the bungee jump, I went first and then my daughter went. The bungee jump was definitely the scariest thing I've ever done in my life by far. I thought I was a "manly man" and didn't think I'd have any problem doing the jump. I found out differently when I arrived on site. In the past I've seen bungee jumping on TV, Youtube, etc. I remember watching contestants on The Amazing Race get to bungee jump obstacles and break down in tears because they were just too scared to do it. I always thought they were acting way too scared for something like that. I now fully understand the fear.
The drive to the bungee jump bridge is one of the most beautiful drives I've ever taken. The jump was near Whistler, British Columbia (Canada) and the drive was along the west coast with high rugged mountains, ocean, and lots of green. I was suprised to see the amount of snow still on the tops of the mountains since it's right on the coast. We had a couple hour drive from the hotel to the jump bridge. It was a calm and relaxing drive and the girls were slipping in and out of sleep most of the way. Got to the bridge around 9:15am for the 10am jump. Arrived early so that I could setup video cameras on tripods at different vantage points. Still calm. Around 9:45am started the short trail walk up to the one end of the bridge. Still calm. Started crossing the bridge and around halfway across stopped to look over the side at the rushing river below. Instant anxiety, definitely NOT calm. I suddenly realized what a 150' drop really meant. All types of thoughts started shooting through my head. I started thinking that I really didn't need to do this anymore, that I'd be fine going the rest of my life without bungee jumping.
Unlike my daughter, I hadn't told a ton of people that I was going to do this. My daughter had told just about everyone she knew that she was going bungee jumping for her 13th birthday. I encouraged her to do it, knowing that it would be harder for her to back out once she had told so many people. Back to me thoughts..... I knew if I chickened-out that my daughter wouldn't do it either. Part of me thought that it would be a relief to her also. While she has been nervously looking forward to the experience for the past month, seeing it in person was just terrifying. I decided to go sign the final release forms and get the harness on. Did it and was feeling calmer again. Came to my turn in line and I was still pretty calm. The guy that went before me was about 10 years older than me and it was his first jump too. When he was getting unattached after his jump, he was smiling but also mentioned how he had almost blacked-out during the jump. That gave me a little bit of anxiousness, but still relatively calm. Walked through the barrier area to the actual jump platform area and was told to stick the toes of my shoes over the edge of the platform. At this point any sense of calmness instantly left. I stepped out onto the platform and looked down. Huge amounts of fear like I've never experienced before!
At this point my mind was having a major argument with itself. The logical side of the brain kept arguing that it was "safe", that the harness and attachments were checked multiple times by at least 3 different people, and that they've never had a fatality or major injury before. The other side of my brain was yelling ABORT, ABORT, THIS IS STUPID, YOU'RE ABOUT TO DIE, TURN AND RUN, GET OUT OF HERE, DON'T DO THIS, YOU'RE GOING TO BE THEIR FIRST FATALITY, THE HARNESS IS MADE FROM LITTLE BITS OF NYLON, ABORT, ABORT. Standing on the edge of the platform with a death grip on the railing I realized that I could NOT jump off forwards. I let the person know that I was turning around and was going to jump off backwards. She said ok and I turned around, still with a death grip on the railings. At that point I realized that I could NOT blindly fall backwards off this bridge towards the rushing river and jagged rocks below. I told here I changed my mind and was going to turn around and go face first afterall. She said ok and I turned around again, still having a death grip on the railings. She asked if I was ready. I wasn't, but said I was. She said to let go of the railings and lift my arms up to the sides. I did. She started a quick countdown....5..4..3..2..1.. And I jumped off the platform! Kept my eyes open the entire time and will always have the image of plummeting straight towards that rushing river burned into my memories. About 3 seconds of utter terror as you free fall with no resistance. Then the bungee kicks in and you start bouncing up and down a few times while the adrenaline rushes throughout your body and fills you with an extreme sense of euphoria.
Then they pull you back up to the bridge. When I got back to the bridge I was shaking from experience as the adrenaline was still coursing through my veins for the next couple minutes. I had a huge smile and started encouraging my daughter for her jump. I told her that it was going to be the scariest 3 seconds of her life, but it would quickly be followed by the most awesome feeling she had ever felt before. As you can see in the Youtube video link below, she handled the initial jump much better than me.
Progress as of today: 83.6 lbs lost so far, only 40.4 lbs to go!
Hitting the road in about an hour. Driving to Seattle today, boarding the cruise ship to Alaska tomorrow. We purchased the cruise tickets almost 1 year ago, so we've been anticipating this for quite some time. Most of the family (my family, sister's family, grandparents) will be on the trip, approximately 16 of us.
Foodwise, not sure how today is going to go with it being on the road all day. Ideally would like to stay away from overeating, but know that often falls by the wayside the second I feel like I'm on vacation.
Progress as of today: 108.2 lbs lost so far, only 15.8 lbs to go!
Got sidetracked for a week. My mind and tummy wanted to start my cruise vacation a week early. Intended to only go off-plan for Memorial Day, but that extended to including my daughter's birthday, then camping in the mountains, then daughter's birthday with friends, then daughter's birthday with family.
Scale shot up to 190, but got back under control the past few days and the scale dropped back down. Today is the last day in town. Have to get some work finished up, errands run, lawn mowed, etc. We leave for Seattle tomorrow morning after dropping the dog off at the pet boarding place. Should be boarding the ship to Alaska on Friday around 10am-noon. Ideally I'd like to stay in control of food intake today, tomorrow, and until dinner on Friday night. Today shouldn't be a problem, but I don't know about tomorrow. We'll be on the road for 10-12 hours and that's the time I usually stuff my face in an attempt to fight boredom. There is also Boehm's Chocolote Factory in Issaquah, WA. Since I was a little kid, we always stopped there and I've always got a freshly dipped ice cream on a stick with thick dark chocolate and fresh roasted nuts. I've told my daughters about it several times and am pretty sure we will be stopping there. I suppose that will be later in the day around dinner time. I guess my plan for traveling Friday will be to pack a ton of zero-calorie drinks for the trip and not eat anything until we get to the chocolate factory. Order ice cream things for the family and leave without getting talked into any other stuff (chocolates, fudge, nuts, etc).
Alaskan cruise starts Friday and goes for a week. Ideally the plan is to skip breakfast / lunch and effectively stay OMAD. I don't know how possible that will be. It's my vacation. Part of me says "screw it" and I shouldn't worry what or when I eat. The other part of me reminds myself that I feel like crap the next day when I overeat and I really don't want to feel like crap for a week straight because I've overeatten for a week straight. So the plan is OMAD, the reality will be ?????
Progress as of today: 104.4 lbs lost so far, only 19.6 lbs to go!
Wiring an outlet for the RV today. Going to take it out this next weekend for a couple days in the mountains to celebrate my youngest daughter's 13th birthday. Taking the dog with us and should get some hiking in.
Not much else going on, although birthdays bring a lot extra stuff to the schedule. Will take treats to her youth group Wednesday night. Thursday will take treats, flowers, and balloon to school. After school will take her and a couple of her friends bowling, followed by dinner. Friday morning we'll leave to go camping. Probably come back Saturday. Sunday night the extended family is coming over for her family birthday dinner.
And she's nervously looking forward to her birthday present. After the cruise we're heading up to Vancouver, BC for a mini family reunion (mom's family is Canadian). I've been wanting to bungee jump for many years (never done it before). Found a place in Whistler, British Columbia that offers bungee jumping 160' off a bridge over the Cheakamus River. I'll attach a birdseye view photo from their website below. I gave my daughter the option to do it as her birthday present and she decided she wanted to. (Also gave my wife and older daughter the option, but neither were interested at all.)
Progress as of today: 107.8 lbs lost so far, only 16.2 lbs to go!