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graindart - Monday Sep 10, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 202.5

Day 6 completed successfully.

It started off a little more difficult and I had a couple extra little snack things earlier in the day than usual, but I ended the day still in control.  Now that it's Monday again, should be easier for the next few days. 

Friday we leave for an out-of-town volleyball weekend.  If I go off-plan for the weekend, the scale will bump up approximately 10 lbs.  If I was at goal weight, that wouldn't bother me much since it's an artifical 10 lbs that usually drops back down within a week.  However now that I'm overweight again and trying to lose weight, it would be more discouraging.  I probably won't make any final decision until I'm actually on the road on Friday.  I'll pack a cooler with some zero calorie drinks and bring along my 100 calorie packets of popcorn and will see what happens...... 

On to conquer day 7...

Progress as of today: 80.5 lbs lost so far, only 27.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/10/2018:
Good perspective on what it means to be in the diet-mode versus maintenance. I'm still working on trying to relax more with food choices, if I'm truly done losing weight (insert wicked laugh here), but logically, I know this is what people with a normal perspective do.

BearCountryGG on 09/11/2018:
Doing well....!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2018:
GREAT job on day 6..i have had those days....my days also are based a lot on what happens thru the morning hours.

great plans and planning for Friday...have a wonderful trip! it's all in your hands...you are the decision maker for yourself, nobody else!

graindart - Sunday Sep 09, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 204.2

Day 5 completed successfully.

I don't like watching what I eat.  

I'd like to go eat an entire pizza, bag of chocolate chip cookies, some potato chips, big plate of spaghetti, and a freshly baked loaf of bread with butter.  I know it would make me feel like crap afterwards, but that's where my head is at. 

With that said, today's not going to be the day that I fall off the wagon.  The weekdays were easier this week since the girls / wife were at school.  However this weekend has me craving carbs / junk food.

Tuesday I'm running my youngest to an out-of-town volleyball game, but I should be able to handle my food intake alright.  Next weekend we have an out-of-town overnighter with multiple games.  That's usually when I go off-plan and stuff my face with every imaginable type of food.  If I were at goal weight and maintaining, that wouldn't be a problem.  However since I'm way above goal weight right now, that could be a setback that might not be wise.  In the past I've had such good intentions leading up to the out-of-town trips, only to get on the road and change my mind almost immediately. 

I really wish my mindset was different.  I really wish I could just see the trips as fun family bonding times and that the food doesn't matter.  But the food has been the center of my mindset for trips for as long as I can remember.  When planning any trip, my wife looks up stores to go shopping at, the kids are happy with a pool at the hotel, and I research and plan what new restaurants we can try. 

Not writing this in the hope of getting a suggestion that works.  I know that I could eat anywhere and try anything I wanted, as long as I did it in moderation.  That's my problem.  I have no desire for moderation and I don't see that changing anytime soon.  I'm a light switch when it comes to eating food.  I'm either off or I'm on.  I'm either eating a boring measured amount daily or I'm going 100% off plan and gobbling up massive amounts of junk.  

I'm also very goal oriented.  I don't mind working towards something if there's a fixed end point and preferrably a reward at the end.  Even though I technically have a goal weight number right now, I don't have any real reward at the end other than just looking better.  

I've never had a good plan to switch from dieting to maintaining.  What works for most people is moderation.  Maybe I just need to realize that moderation isn't something that I'll be able to fully embrace in the near future.  Maybe when I transition to maintaining, I can combine my "light switch" mentallity with my work/reward mentallity.  Keep a rigid calorie-count plan Monday - Friday no matter what.  Overeat whatever I want on Saturday / Sunday.  That would definitely play into me being a light switch and my overeating weekends would be a weekly reward for eating right 5 days in a row each week.

Just throwing thoughts around for myself right now.  I know I'll get back to my goal weight over the next bit, but just have to figure out a plan of attack for after that happens.

On to conquer day 6...

Progress as of today: 78.8 lbs lost so far, only 29.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/09/2018:
I think your after goal weight idea of dieting for weekdays and no diet weekends is a very good idea.....with the stipulation that if you ever go over a specific weight...you then lose your free weekends until you reach that number again....I have an old friend from childhood who never did get fat.....she had a goal weight...and she got on the scales daily...if she was over it...it was a diet day...if she was under on on that wt...she could eat anything she wanted...that day..in her entire adulthood....she only ever dieted 1 day at a time...she ha never had a weight problem and I totally admire her ability to do that.

graindart on 09/10/2018:
I've considered doing your old friend's way of life. It might be something that would work for me too and might actually encourage daily moderation.

happy-1 on 09/09/2018:
I am right there with you on the inability to enjoy weekends away without good food. It’s one of the reasons I like camping. I can pack all the meals ahead of time and stay on plan. What if you looked at your food budget for the weekend and gave the girls the option to only do one meal out, but do an extra fun thing on the way home if you guys all pack meals in the cooler ahead.

happy-1 on 09/09/2018:
Ooh like go get a mani pedi with them!!!! Guys get them too and you can just get oil and buff for a male manicure. You might even look hotter! They’d probably get a kick out of you going with them.

happy-1 on 09/09/2018:
The goal thing is why I think you guys need an annual race ritual... something to get ready for every year... like a zombie fun run... a tough mudder... etc. Does your church do one?

graindart on 09/10/2018:
Repeating goals don't seem to work for me. I will work like crazy to reach a goal once. After I've reached the goal, I just kind of quit and have no desire to reach that goal again. It's that way with my hobbies, fitness goals, weight, etc. Doing the same thing annually doesn't interest me much.

I'm sure I'll figure out some type of new goal to work towards in the near future. Until then, I'll just continue on with baby steps in the right direction.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2018:
i understand you completely...i also know you are relatively new to weightloss! so you do not need to moderate yet in terms of maintenance !

you are still doing weightloss and trying out what works for you...this is totally awesome!

i wish you a good day traveling.

if it makes you feel better, i think of food a lot too...and i will never change. i do what makes me happy...it's not moderate...i eat vastly larger quanitites than a lot of people. i do what works for me! :) so can you!

there are few if any rules you need to buckle down to do...it's your plan in the end....you don't have to listen to anyone but yourself. and then you must try to be happy with most, not all, of your decisions!

graindart - Saturday Sep 08, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 203.8

Day 4 completed successfully.

Yesterday was closer to my self-imposed calorie limit than previous days (still under).  I found myself wanting to snack more and the calories added up quicker. 

Now that I'm back on track again for a few days in a row, I woke up this morning thinking "I'm doing good, I should reward myself with food".  I also thought "It's the weekend, I should go off plan for a couple days.  A couple days don't matter in the grand scheme of things." 

If I was at goal weight and just maintaining, I think that a 5 on, 2 off schedule might work for me.  Stay on plan for 5 days per week and eat whatever for 2 days per week.  Something to think about as a possible sustainable plan when I get back down into the 170's again.

On to conquer day 5...

Progress as of today: 79.2 lbs lost so far, only 28.8 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/08/2018:
Good for you! I will strive to emulate your “staying on track”. If you fall off, are you starting your count over or just continuing?

graindart on 09/08/2018:
If I screw up, I start the count over.

happy-1 on 09/08/2018:
Ok. I did that too. I am on Day 2 again.

happy-1 on 09/08/2018:
And good comments today on Donkey’s post. You are good at focusing on goals.

graindart on 09/08/2018:
And I'm also really good at falling off the wagon. I'm like a light switch. I'm either on or off.

Donkey on 09/08/2018:
I'm confident that when you get to the point that you are maintaining and have been maintaining - consistently - for a while, that you will be able to explore having a day that is more "relaxed" with food. I'm not sure why it would need to be 2 days, though... Hmm, food for thought --- thinking more for myself than your situation, lol. Speaking of which...

BTW - thank you for the comments on my entry today. What you said to me today is kind of what I was trying to convey to you yesterday -- doing the "same old same-old"... I should take my own advice!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/09/2018:
i agree with your plans and eating tactics 100%...and i agree it'd be helpful until you get to goal to stay accountable more often than not! great job!

BearCountryGG on 09/09/2018:
The more days on track the better...as long as every day isn't off track...you will get there.

graindart - Friday Sep 07, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 205.3

Day 3 completed successfully.

Got caught up with work yesterday.  Have to go do some end of season yardwork and then watch some volleyball with my youngest daughter.

Oldest daughter had fun on the rafting / camping trip with the high school.  She came back really tired, but said everything went well.

Doing ok with my food intake, but really down on any motivation to "do" anything.  

On to conquer day 4...

Progress as of today: 77.7 lbs lost so far, only 30.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/08/2018:
I don't know that it's always necessary to "do" something. Most of losing weight is just "same old same-old"...

Horn_of_plenty on 09/09/2018:
that's so cool having a trip at the beginning of the year, i'd be beat too after it!

if you're motivation is too down, perhaps you aren't eating enough cals?

graindart - Thursday Sep 06, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 206.7

Day 2 completed successfully.

Have some work to get caught up on today.  Oldest daughter gets back from retreat today and youngest has volleyball practice tonight.  Pulling the youngest out of school tomorrow around lunchtime to go watch some varsity volleyball games together.  Then Saturday begins the normal volleyball game season for her on junior varsity.

Eating went decent yesterday and no real problem staying under my self imposed calorie count.  Day 2 or 3 is usually the make or break day for me, so as long as I make it through today I should be ok.

On to conquer day 3....

Progress as of today: 76.3 lbs lost so far, only 31.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 09/06/2018:
DOING AWESOME! time is flying i cannot believe your daughter is already returning from her retreat! so fast!

BearCountryGG on 09/06/2018:
Doing good!

graindart - Wednesday Sep 05, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 208.5

Day 1 completed successfully.

With the family off at school, I didn't have as many temptations / reminders to eat during the day.  Of course, it was the first day after an off-plan day which is usually fairly easy anyways.  It's day 2 (today) that is usually the tougher one to stay on track.

On to conquer day 2.....

Progress as of today: 74.5 lbs lost so far, only 33.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/05/2018:
Working on day 2 here myself.....

Horn_of_plenty on 09/05/2018:
you are doing great, sir.

me? well, i have distractions galore right now. it was supposed to be an easy week...and still gym keeps getting skipped. hilarious that i could be struggling so much...this is my planned month to improve. will be working on it starting tomorrow!

happy-1 on 09/05/2018:
Good job! I'm on Day 2 of my reset too.

graindart - Tuesday Sep 04, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 211.3

Wife and daughters headed off to first day of school today.  In theory, my weekday food temptations should be diminished now.


Progress as of today: 71.7 lbs lost so far, only 36.3 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2018:
for sure...so keep on....

BearCountryGG on 09/04/2018:
Will definitely be easier.

happy-1 on 09/04/2018:
aaaaw they grow up fast

Donkey on 09/05/2018:
Were the food temptations diminished?

graindart on 09/05/2018:
Yes, easier to not snack when I don't see others snacking throughout the day. The wife and daughters are all near their ideal weights and none of them seem to overeat.

They all snack lightly at different times throughout the day. So when I see my wife eating a snack, I want to snack. Then when I see a daughter snacking, I want to. Then when I see my other daughter snacking, I want to. So in a typical afternoon, they each only snack once, but not usually at the same time as each other. So I want to eat snacks with each one of them, which obviously works against my trying to eat less at present.

graindart - Monday Sep 03, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 209.1

Day 1 completed successfully.

Yesterday was back on plan and it went fairly smoothly.  It's usually the 2nd day (today) that I have more problems with.  We're getting together with my parents for dinner today and it's mostly just going to be meat / vegetable kebabs, so I should be fine in theory.

Should work on my race car project today, but haven't had much drive to do it lately.  Will probably spend a good portion of the day just chiling with the family.  Tomorrow is their first day back to school.  Although the oldest (10th grade) is having a fun first week back.  First day of school the high school is taking a rafting trip on the Missouri River.  As soon as they get back, the high school will head straight to a lodge in the mountains for a couple day retreat.  They'll be back Thursday afternoon and will actually set foot in the school on Friday.  But Friday has an early-out at 1pm to watch the boy's soccer game.  So my oldest will have a total of 5 hours inside the school classrooms in her first week back.

On to conquer day 2.....

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 34.1 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/03/2018:
No reason you cannot splurge on vegetable kabobs! yesterday, i totally splurged but also splurged on veggies which was a good thing..

Now, that sounds like a fun week back! NEVER ohhhh NEVER did my high school plan a trip on the first week back - that's awesome!

BearCountryGG on 09/03/2018:
I've never heard of a first week back to school like that...amazing! Kebabs are perfect.

Donkey on 09/03/2018:
That's quite a first week of school... Have fun today with the family :)

happy-1 on 09/05/2018:
That's amazing for a high school! Must be private!

graindart on 09/06/2018:
Yes, they go to a private school. Since the high school is only around 40-50 kids, they're sometimes able to do some additional outings together.

graindart - Sunday Sep 02, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 211.4

Back on plan today. Past 2 days have been tasty, but back to eating right again.

Progress as of today: 71.6 lbs lost so far, only 36.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/03/2018:
Well done!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/03/2018:
YES, excellent job GAINS! super duper !!!

BearCountryGG on 09/03/2018:

graindart - Saturday Sep 01, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 207.5

Yesterday wasn't on plan and today won't be either.  Tomorrow I'll be back on my regular plan.

Oldest daughter (15) easily passed her driving exam and now has her real driver's license.  So we went out to lunch to celebrate, then out for dessert.  Later in the evening we went to the car races and had some goodies.  I was trying to figure out what to do about lunch with friends today.  After going off-plan yesterday, I decided to stay off-plan today and eat whatever I want for lunch.

Tomorrow I'm right back on-plan.

Progress as of today: 75.5 lbs lost so far, only 32.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 09/01/2018:
Sounds like a plan.

Donkey on 09/01/2018:
Following your lead, I too have abandoned my plan for today. I had about 20 chocolate chips and now I'm baking a cake.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/01/2018:
now that's what i call an excellent bounce-back..rebound! that's how you do it, Gains! This is a great entry bc i'm in full support of how your making the lifestyle work for you...with some wiggle room! good for you...

and congrats to your daughter! i'm glad it was easy for her.

for me, i was REALLY poor at parallel parking, but they passed me by the skin of my teeth, thankfully!

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