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graindart - Wednesday Aug 29, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 203.5

Day 9 completed successfully.

Most of this post is just me rehashing the past couple years journey and reminding myself how important it is that I stay in control of my eating habits for the vast majority of the time.

It's scary how quickly my weight can rise when I stop caring. 

A recap of my weight over the past few years:  Was sitting in the 260-270 range for quite awhile.  Early 2017 I hadn't weighed myself in a long time and I was eating / drinking whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted.  Around April 2017 I stepped on the scale and was suprised to see the highest number I'd ever seen, 283.  I decided to use a smartphone app to track everything I ate and use it's builtin calorie limit thing in an attempt to lose 2 lbs per week.  My goal was to lose 100 lbs and I did by Christmas 2017.  From April to December I only went over my calorie limit on 1 day.  I had a clear goal and was 100% committed to accomplishing it.  Decided to "reward" myself by eating whatever I wanted on Christmas Day.  That turned into a week long binge and when I got back on plan Jan 1st of this year I had regained 15 lbs.  Thankfully that dropped off pretty quickly in January.  Working towards our family's cruise vacation in June, I was able to keep my weight mostly in the high 170's from the end of January until we left for the cruise in early June.  Left for the cruise vacation on June 7th, weighing 175.  Was back home on June 18th weighing 195.  Floundered back and forth and weighed 204 after the 4th of July.  Got back on plan and was back to 189 by the 14th of July.  Fell off the wagon again, attempted to climb back on a couple times, but shot up to 218 when I weighed myself last Monday (9 days ago).

To summarize:  
April 2017 - weighed 283
December 2017 - lost 100 lbs to weigh 183
Feb-June weighed 178 and was gaining muscle
June-Aug gained 40 lbs back as I returned to my past eating whatever and whenever I wanted
today - back on plan and feeling mostly in control again

Looking back, if I would've just got back on plan after returning from the cruise, I would've been back near goal quickly and able to just work on maintaining for July/August.  Instead I made stupid choices and am now paying for it by having to restrict my daily calorie intake by a greater amount.

With the added weight I've had to dig out a few of my larger shirts that I hadn't gotten rid of yet.  I did donate the vast majority of larger clothing earlier this year, but had a small container of ones that I kept to use when working on things like greasy automotive projects.  So I've been mainly wearing one pair of jeans, a couple pair of shorts, and a handfull of large / x-large shirts over the past month or two.  All of my newer purchased medium-sized shirts, smaller pants, and smaller shorts have just been hanging in my closet staring at me since I got back from the cruise in June.

On to conquer day 10......
 

Progress as of today: 79.5 lbs lost so far, only 28.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 08/29/2018:
You got this...

No use regretting your past decisions; move forward with positivity and the knowledge that you KNOW what you need to do!


Horn_of_plenty on 08/29/2018:
I agree with Legs, try not to regret your choices too much as we all make mistakes and poor choices. It's only important you learn from them!

you say you have to now "restrict your daily calorie intake by a greater amount"....but actually i'm tell you, Gains, that you don't have to do this.

restriction my GREATER amounts means also the body's feeling of deprivation by GREATER amounts. the less you force on your body, the better you will do.

the more you "work with your body," the more your "mind will work with you." ...

what i'm saying is, crash diets are stressful and cause rebounds.

as you learn towards what works and doesn't for YOU, you will be able to be MORE and MORE moderate. Every year i do this myself, and every day, i continue to be more and more moderate. Exercise helps me to also be more moderate bc i can intake a bit more calories than if i didn't exercise at all...more calories are burned in a day when you are active and thsi also means that those of us that like a treat can have one! ...

keep going. you WILL get back to you old clothes.

i liked reading your timeline and patterns.

To help you and your perspective, i'd like to insist that you realize that all this weightloss has happened only since April 2017. It's only been around 1.5 years in fluctuations. you are early in still....so do not get all angry at yourself for making some blunders as you are doing great again...you weight much less than you started with initially....and you are closer to the goal.

also, i recommened that you try to already maintain. even if you ate at a "maintenance" amount for, say, 190 lbs, you'd still lose weight...

you do not NEED to lose 2lbs a week. It would be EASIER on you to lose 1 pound. and less punishing.

just remember, you do not have to send your soul and mind and body to hell for making little mistakes :)


Donkey on 08/30/2018:
When I started this last weight loss, I clearly remember saying to myself, I can't believe I'm back here again. Not that I haven't told myself, "Never again" before, but there I was. Again.

I've been in maintenance for, what - a year? Two years? - and I just gave away the last of my fat pants to charity. I still have quite a few tops that are XL for summer. Maybe I'll give those away when I set up my closet for fall & winter.

I'm working on accepting that I will never be the type of body that can eat whatever she wants. I still get angry, sad, resentful that this can't be me, but that's the awful truth. I guess I'd rather live in truth than lie to myself or live in denial.


horn_of_plenty on 08/30/2018:
but as donkey says, she has also lost weight and kept it off substantially...she has chosen to accept the weight she has reached and continues to work at it...same as myself. however, i can basically eat till fullness and comfort all the time, as long as i proactively make good choices on WHAT i am eating. however, to the same effect as what Donkey says, our bodies seem to be comfortable with the number on the scale and it's not a total pain to have gotten there and keep it there.

you will also find that magical number on the scale that you want to stick around..



graindart - Tuesday Aug 28, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 205.8

Day 8 completed successfully.

When I get back down to goal, I'll have to remember how much work it takes to drop these pounds.

Last night I was sitting at dinner with the family, eating my lower calorie food. They were eating homemade chilli with cornbread topped with butter & honey. I knew that technically I could have some and it really wouldn't matter all that much, other than I'd go over my daily calorie count that I've imposed on myself. Decided that I've only been back on plan for a week and didn't need to take the chance on losing control at this point, so skipped eating any of it. Just have to remember when I switch to maintenance, I can eat these type of meals with the family as long as I don't follow it up with a few donuts and / or a bag of cookies.

On to conquer day 9....

Progress as of today: 77.2 lbs lost so far, only 30.8 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2018:
YEP! the struggle is so real to keep pounds off...and losing weight for me was even more annoying. I never hope to have to lose more than 5-10 lbs ever again if i can help it...because that struggle is real. that's why i have stayed at goal the second time around of my own weight loss (i gained twice, lost twice).

exactly - i find that i can eat a sweet thing with a coffee as a fun snack and be good...it's sorta when you plan the sweets and everything that makes it more important...like, when i need some carbs i need some carbs...i find that i prefer to eat sweets as a nice snack...like, i prefer to have a meal of something sweet rather than eat a meal and then also have a full dessert after...i'd rather split that up into two seperate times of eating...its when the meals become too high calorie at once is what doesn't work well for me, since i'm more of a grazer.


BearCountryGG on 08/28/2018:
For some reason I took a very cavalier attitude about putting it back on after losing it.....I didn't want to stop the food fest......then reality sets in.....maybe once we lose it we should make ourselves go back and read about our struggles....just as a reminder....because I know I never want to go through this again.



graindart - Monday Aug 27, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 204.7

Day 7 completed successfully.

Went to mudbog / tough truck race yesterday and didn't have a problem with food.  It was a fairly boring outing, but it was relaxing and the weather was nice.

Today it's shuttle the youngest to/from volleyball practice, while trying to get my work stuff done.

On to conquer day 8.....

 

Progress as of today: 78.3 lbs lost so far, only 29.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 08/27/2018:
boring outings...i don't do many like that, but i know what you mean....it's really nice when at least the weather is working in your favor so you can at least enjoy some free Vitamin D!

yesterday i got so tired on the outing i was on, and so annoyed with R my companion that i told him i was both sick of him and had enough of his complaining and emotional outbursts that he would have to take me home! ...i simply didn't have enough energy to entertain his need to be all cranky too. lol. rarely happens where i just give up on someone, but yesterday was that day.

good luck with the shuffle...it'll take your mind off food...i hope at least the weather is good!

graindart on 08/27/2018:
I try not to waste my time on boring things. We've been to this same event in other years and it's been entertaining. This year was just a let-down. Thankfully the company was good (couple friends went with us).


BearCountryGG on 08/27/2018:
Daytimes should be quieter though now.


Donkey on 08/28/2018:
Nice to see the numbers moving down..



graindart - Sunday Aug 26, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 205.4

Day 6 completed successfully.

Taking the family to a mudbog / tough truck race event today.  Should be a relatively low stress day and will just have to avoid the concession stands.

1000 calories.  That's the daily caloric deficit they say you need to run below your normal breakeven daily intake in order to lose 2 lbs per week.  It's also the number of calories that you need to eat additionally daily in order to gain 2 lbs per week.  When you take 1000 calories away from your breakeven daily amount, it's often times a huge struggle.  Inversely, adding 1000 calories per day is as easy as eating an appetizer at Applebees or a bag of chips and a couple Cokes.  

I haven't completely decided what I'm going to do in maintenance mode once I get back down into the 170's. But I think I'll stop logging my food and continue weighing myself daily.  If the number hits 180, I'll immediately start logging again until it drops into the 170's again.  Or maybe I'll choose another trigger number.  I don't know, but have awhile to figure it out before I'm back into the 170's anyway.

On to conquer day 7.....

Progress as of today: 77.6 lbs lost so far, only 30.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/26/2018:
Good Job!


happy-1 on 08/26/2018:
Good job! And the extra calories are sneaky!!!


jasmine on 08/26/2018:
Do what works for you.


horn_of_plenty on 08/27/2018:
Totally agree for me it's also easier to gain! and how fun it is to indulge greedily right!?

I think you ideas are totally great.

remember now, about that 1,000 calories...that's to lose / gain the ultimate MOST of what is recommended as healthy. 500 cals can also cause a nice loss or gain.

So, remember, you do not have to push the limits of all or nothing...



graindart - Saturday Aug 25, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 207.0

Day 5 completed successfully.

Today is a preseason volleyball tournament, but thankfully there aren't any concessions. Tomorrow we're going to a mud-bog and tough truck race with a couple friends. Will be a little more difficult food wise, but I'm starting to get in the groove again so not really concerned.

On to conquer day 6....

Progress as of today: 76 lbs lost so far, only 32 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/25/2018:
Building a successful momentum.....good for you!


jasmine on 08/25/2018:
You are doing well.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/25/2018:
So yesterday i went to the "pre-US Open" like there's still qualifiers going on and practice sessions and games for the "old legends" that still play....was so fun to watch :)

my point is most food wasn't even open yet, but they did have a main area of lots of food....i was SO THANKFUL. there was literally ONE place that served healthy options. everything else was fatty sandwiches and fast food....i actually got sushi grade not cooked that means tuna over a salad with only the lightest of dressing. it was literally a health-nut lover's dream - to be so healthy at a sports arena area. i am thankful it was there, nothing else would have compared calorie-wise to the 500 calories probably in a whole meal that was filling for me. everything else would have been much more calories, to feel as full as i did!

you can always bring some things to snack on....that'll help you and especialyl to snack before you go out ot dinner....if you go out on the way home, have a small snack beforehand to cut off the hunger a little bit....like an hour before you have dinner / as you get in your car to drive, have something small like a handful of peanuts and diet drink or something. or a fruit and diet drink. well, that's what helps me :)


Horn_of_plenty on 08/25/2018:
oh, and like the others said, WAY TO GO!



graindart - Friday Aug 24, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 208.0

Day 4 completed successfully.

Youngest had a pre-season volleyball tournament for junior varsity yesterday.  Thankfully there weren't any concession stands.  Had a bbq to go to right after the tournament, but since the tournament went long we arrived late.  That was good for me since a lot of the food was gone by the time we arrived and very few people were still eating.

On to conquer day 5....

Progress as of today: 75 lbs lost so far, only 33 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/24/2018:
That worked out well.......good job!


Horn_of_plenty on 08/24/2018:
Proud of you, Grains. You are the sole decider of how you want to eat and life :) it's you, not some superior being or decision maker other than you...one day i feel you will feel much more confident. right now though, you are making excellent progress. loving your entries. way to go.

graindart on 08/24/2018:
Thanks for the encouragement.

Definitely don't have a ton of confidence right now on the food side of things. It's an irritation since I like to think I'm confident and in control of most other areas of my life.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/24/2018:
you see, in my opinion, "confidence" is really just a mindset. you can actually make yourself confident. you can change how you want to think about this weight thing. and diet thing.

you are giving yourself NOT ENOUGH power to feel in control.

you have this within you... :) allow yourself the knowledge and feeling that you can be successful at this. this is why you are here! You are making changes!


Horn_of_plenty on 08/24/2018:
like, look what bcgg said to you, you did good! so don't slight yourself so much!


Donkey on 08/25/2018:
Not sure if you planned it that way or if it's just the way things worked out, but I think you handled the food situations very well this past week.

I'm not sure if you find weekends to be more challenging, so if you do, here's wishing you success!

graindart on 08/25/2018:
Any time with family & friends is more difficult for me to stay on track. Once the girls are back in school in a couple weeks, my weekdays should get easier.



graindart - Thursday Aug 23, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 208.4

Day 3 completed successfully.

Family made personal pizzas last night for dinner.  They looked and smelled delicious.  I considered eating one for a few moments, but knew that it would probably trigger me eating more "less healthy" stuff.  So I passed.  I know that for a normal healthy person, eating an occasional small pizza wouldn't matter one way or the other to their general health.  For me, it wasn't the calories as much as it was a potential "trigger" to start overeating. 

I think it really is like alcoholism in a way.  One occasional drink usually wouldn't matter to a healthy person (mentally / physically), but to an alcoholic that one drink can be a trigger that sends them into a downward spiral.  Where food addiction differs from alcoholism in one respect is in the fact that you can't just decide to give up food for the rest of your life.  (Technically you can give up food for the rest of your life, but the rest of your life would only be a month or two).

I'm bored with my food choices in the house, but am choosing not to go shopping for new options right now.  Eating the same basic things daily tends to help me stay on track.  When I've eaten the same thing several times in a row, there's little desire to fall off the wagon and overeat mass quantities of that same thing.  Unless they're cookies.  Cookies are my kryptonite.

On to conquer day 4.......

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 33.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/23/2018:
i can very much understand exactly where you are coming from in regards to staying away from the pizza bc it's a trigger. believe it or not, i can be triggered also by pizza. i do not love it as it doesn't fill me up. i much would prefer a massive amount of veggies with a side of a small mini pizza. i feel for you...it is very hard to get on the right path and i also try to avoid things that would totally derail my efforts. i would say you made a good choice.

there is def a thing as food addiction, i agree...

the only thing we can do is work with it...and learn how to get it more under control by in the end giving our bodies most of what it needs, but also what we like & enjoy....give and take....


Horn_of_plenty on 08/23/2018:
oh and i wanted to say, good job!


BearCountryGG on 08/23/2018:
Understanding it and acknowledging it is most of the battle.


Donkey on 08/24/2018:
I agree with the addiction aspect. 100%. Keep on working it. I'm proof it can be overcome.



graindart - Wednesday Aug 22, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 210.5

Day 2 completed successfully.

Short post today, have to get to working.....

This is only the 3rd day out of my 30 day plan and I'm already getting tired of the food options that I'm sticking with right now.  

On to day 3.....

Progress as of today: 72.5 lbs lost so far, only 35.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/22/2018:
Change it up....go to the meat and produce sections and pick up something different.......lots of great choices there right now.


horn_of_plenty on 08/22/2018:
i read your comments....one thing more i suggest to help you combat this unhealthy eating thing is to sorta do what BCGG says...why don't you take a trip alone or with Wife to the supermarket....and pull a few new veggies out or take a look at some healthy options. if you are utterly confused / headache over it, you can even google a "healthy" shopping list and at least buy some things off that if you don't already have them.

i know you don't love to cook, why not consider doing takeout from restaurants with more healthy options? like when you go out, order the grilled shrimp skewers...try to change your taste buds...a little bit...gear them toward liking the healthy stuff?

you are doing good....we are glad to have you here..just posting is making a forward approach to your journey. keep on...do it day by day as you said.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/22/2018:
Back when i weighted 15-20 lbs more i wrote this in 2009, just reviewing my entries today, thought i'd share - bc it echos you in your talking how you can only do ONE DAY AT A TIME...that's what i said then, too!

Weight: 133.0 EDIT: It's an interesting game I play with myself. Not sure why i continue to eat like an elephant. but i do. kinda a waste, when i try so hard physically to look a certain way. Yeah, it's starting to get REALLY old. I know i've said that before.

What I mean is that it's just old, looking large and flabby, almost 27 years old. What is the justification? I will certainly not attract the type of guy I want to be with acting so foolishly, so why not change?? And that is my goal. As thinn wrote, I must go back to thinking one day at a time. Because this month has been rather a waste in terms of weightloss and progress.



graindart - Tuesday Aug 21, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 213.9

Day 1 completed successfully.

It's amazing how quickly one's resolve / determination can fade.  Yesterday morning when I posted here, I was 100% ready to jump back into controlling my eating.  I was 100% ready to fully commit to a solid 30 days of conquering food.  I had made a conscious decision and it was going to be easy this time. 

Twelve hours later at 7pm last night, I was once again questioning whether it was worth it or not.  I was actually sitting there reasoning with myself that it would be ok to change my mind and put it off until after Labor Day.  Of course if I put it off until after Labor Day, then I'll convince myself to put it off until after my birthday.  Then I'll put it off until after my wife's birthday.  Then Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year.  Then I'll weigh 283 again and be so depressed that I'll just keep eating until I weigh 300 lbs.......

On to day 2.....

Progress as of today: 69.1 lbs lost so far, only 38.9 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/21/2018:
YES!


horn_of_plenty on 08/21/2018:
TAKE IT DAY BY DAY. LOWER your expectations. SLOW DOWN YOUR BRAIN and your thinking.

take some deep breaths. you are anxious about it.

the act of eating takes our minds out of commission...it's the same as smoking or drinking. we do it for the act of eating / chewing - when you keep overeating you are just doing the motions bc you said it can be any type food you just want to keep eating...its the repetitive motion, the habit that you crave...the full feeling and then the upset feelings that follow...same as drinking, drugs, alcohol...

The reason i said that, is because i have lived it and everyday i fight it! I fight it with planning and food choices that i've changed around - so i can enjoy my eating...so i can continue to feel full...so i can indulge but not suffer consequences (as much as i used to!).

i am giving you advice because i have been EXACTLY in your boat. I have been (slightly) overweight..and too fat for my own body...i have been so completely misproportioned that i hated how i felt in my clothes. fast fat i gained while i had some life changes going back to school ages 26-28, no paycheck/depleting my savings, living still with parents and lessening of my own olbigations falling back to acting and behaving like there were no consequences. I had given up my career completely and felt depleted. I allowed the food habits to once again take charge of my life. In order to study, i overate. I used food for comfort and to provide a mental relief to being in school and studying. Those two years were not spent right...but, in that last year, i began working again and i began exercising again.

...sometimes more life challenges and responsibilities can HELP with scheduling better eating. Though my life is more complex now and free time is limited, it's generally good for structured eating...as long as i am prepared usually and can being my lunch & snacks to work so that calories are pre-planned.

back to you, i am successful for the same reasons you say you become successful - with a plan. with some personal control.

also thru your past dieting and experiences, YOU ARE LEARNING what works and what doesn't.

you are already on the right road. but you cannot be 100% successful all the time....AND you cannot be successful WITHOUT FAILURE - YOU GROW AND LEARN AND ACCOMPLISH MORE based on what you LEARN FROM FAILURE.

how did i do it!? i learned from my failures. I learned what works and what doesn't.

it can take many falls to finally be more successful or for you to finally have better goals with better plans.

you are DOING GREAT.

REMEMBER - IT'S DOESN'T HAVE TO BE ALL OR NOTHING! Halloween and those holidays makes it hard for me, too. I struggle a TON personally with Thanksgiving.

On these days, you can eat to you are content...but having the veggies and stuff to fill you can help you...trust me!...but eat what you want.

beacuse like i said in your earlier entry yesterday....it's how fast you recover from a setback, not the setback itself that slows progress.

setbacks we learn from. how fast we recover and get back on the road to success is even more important.

you can fall often, but when you get back on the saddle is extremely important.

setbacks come, but it's your choice if you want to stay in that mindset or keep pushing toward success. success comes easier with experience and knowledge.

I've learned about myself thru dieting / lifestyle for appprox 15-16 years now. so, i don't think you've been at it that long.

only in the past several and really past 2.5 years have i been injury free and maintaining a weight i am quite pleased with.

graindart on 08/22/2018:
I am having to take it day by day right now, like you suggested. I'm not good at rebounding from food failure quickly right now, so I just have to concentrate on not screwing up until I can get back in the habit of eating better.

Looking back, when I'm in the habit of eating better daily, my screwups usually only last 1-3 days. This summer my daily habit has been overeating, with my healthier eating only lasting 1-3 days at a time. I just need to get back in the habit of eating healthier the vast majority of time, then the brief screwups don't have much of a lasting effect.

Thanks for suggestions.


Donkey on 08/22/2018:
I used to struggle with after-dinner eating. That's how I regained weight. That's when you must rely on your resolve and determination. Going to bed early helps too, lol...

The struggle is real.



graindart - Monday Aug 20, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 217.9

Moderation without a plan just doesn't work for me.  Maybe it will someday in the future, but right now it's not an option.  For now and the near future, I'm either on a plan or I'm just heading back to weighing 283 lbs again.  

It's been a fun Summer full of eating whatever I want, whenever I want. 

I like to stuff my face with food.  I don't care if the food tastes great.  I don't care if it makes me feel great.  I just like to continually eat.

I'm going back to a 30 day plan of my own making.  I do well with set goals that have set time periods.  I haven't decided the exact parameters for this first 30 day plan, but have been considering a couple different options that have worked well for me in the past.  I'll probably have a set plan in place by the end of today.

When I fall off the wagon, I have no desire to post entries here.  I don't like broadcasting my "failures".  Today is the first day of my new 30 day plan.  I will post here everyday during this 30 day plan, whether I'm successful or not.  I will weigh myself daily, whether I'm successful or not.

I have a certain bodyfat percentage that I feel comfortable at also look decent at.  I just need to make a daily conscious decision between which I want more.  Do I want to eat junk or do I want to feel / look better.  For the long term, I can't have it both ways.  I can't eat junk and expect to feel and look healthy.

I'm glad that moderation works well for some people.  It just doesn't work for me at this time.  Having a set plan for some people makes them feel overly restricted and makes them dwell on what they can't have.  For me, having a set plan takes the extra thought process out of the equation and actually allows me to not dwell on food thoughts as much.  Since I know what I'm going to do daily, I don't end up trying to justify indulgences daily.

Have secretly been telling myself that I can keep putting eating plans off until after Labor Day, when school starts.  But today I woke up and decided to quit putting things off anymore.  The calendar doesn't appear to have too many holidays or events during the next 30 days, so that's a plus.  Youngest daughter is playing volleyball.  There's a volleyball bbq this Thursday, followed by a tournament this Saturday.  Have Labor Day get-together and a family birthday party for a nephew in a couple weeks.  Probably not too many other events that will test my resolve.

On to conquer day 1, even though I haven't solidified the exact plan as of yet.......

Progress as of today: 65.1 lbs lost so far, only 42.9 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/20/2018:
The old saying..."Strike while the iron is hot"...makes all of the sense in the world. You have to do what works for you...when you are motivated to carry it out. I know what you are fighting...I went from 169 to over 250....and just refused to deal with it in any meaningful way.......now...I'm having to do it all over again.....no fun in that. It does seem that keeping tempting things out of the house is important for you...eating lots of veggies also seems to be your best bet for filling up......a low carb diet is probably your best bet.....we all fall down...regularly....I can guarantee you that you are safe here.....if it helps YOU to confess a slip up then do that...if not...then don't mention it if that works better for you. My husband keeps reminding me that the more I think about food...the more I eat...and he is right....so I feel the need to get a little bit quieter when that happens......but I miss the gang here...and get back into this again.

graindart on 08/20/2018:
I don't like admitting to slipping up or failing at something. When I screw up, my usual pattern is to just avoid this site. In deciding to post here daily for the next 30 days, it's just added incentive to not let myself go off the deep end.


BearCountryGG on 08/20/2018:
Agreed......if that works then do that.


Donkey on 08/21/2018:
If that means you'll be posting more often, yay!!!


horn_of_plenty on 08/21/2018:
I agree with donkey...woohooo to having you back at our community.!!

also, its good to hear you say that you don't want moderation now, but that's how you feel NOW and not forever. I think in terms of both my own dieting and lifestyle, i started off VERY structured and VERY rigid...and could only go towards my way now based on what i learned and gathered from the previous years of structure and rigidity.

I get you completely. it's good to hear you are on track and on board!


horn_of_plenty on 08/21/2018:
i was reading something by a favorite speaker of mine, James Clear.

The difference between the amateurs and the pros is how fast we recover or rebound from failures and hardships.

so keep on. and when you get off track, try to keep your rebound close by.



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