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graindart - Monday Jul 16, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 195.0

Foodwise, Saturday went well, Sunday didn't. Family is home safe and sound.

I have to drive a few hours for work again today, so will need to pack some zero calorie drinks.  I dropped the caffeinated drinks a week ago to see if that had any affect.  It didn't appear to.  So I'm now back to drinking zero calorie drinks that also contain caffeine if I want.

Daughter's school has a get-together at the local minor league baseball game tonight.  It'll be fun for them to see their friends again.  

Off to work for me....


Progress as of today: 88 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/16/2018:
Glad all the ladies made it home safe and sound...I'm sure you are happy for that. You had lots of good days on your program...so you took a day off for you.....life goes on...

horn_of_plenty on 07/16/2018:
you have a good schedule...it's ok to have a day where you slip, get back on the saddle when you can, hopefully quicker as you get use to getting back on the saddle. it's not about being perfect, but how to pick yourself up after a fall!

graindart - Saturday Jul 14, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 189.5

Day 6 completed successfully.

Just running errands and doing a little cleaning before picking the family up from the airport later tonight.  Making beef ribs with veggies for our dinner tonight. 

On to conquer day 7.....

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
Excellent meal plan and enjoy seeing your family tonight's !!! Keep on!

happy-1 on 07/14/2018:
Aaaaaw... someone's excited to see the fam if they made a fancy dinner!

graindart on 07/14/2018:
Always miss them when we're apart. Have fresh flower arrangements in each of their bedrooms also to welcome them back.

bearcountrygg on 07/14/2018:
Don't forget to clean the house!!!

graindart on 07/14/2018:
Waiting on the dishwasher and wiping a few counters down.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
sorry about typos...was at the beach on my phone!

Donkey on 07/15/2018:
Good man, there -- very impressed with the flowers idea.

Dinner sounds yummy. I hope it was a happy reunion with your family :-)

graindart - Friday Jul 13, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 190.4

Day 5 completed successfully.

Yesterday was supposed to be a fairly easy day working, but turned into a huge headache and several more hours than anticipated.

My take on low carb high fat is pretty boring and repetetive.  I know that I could spice things up by researching recipes, but have little desire to put in any effort when my portion sizes are smaller than I'd prefer.  The good thing about boring and repetitive is that it's pretty easy to stay on track. 

Today's my last full day of being a bachelor.  The wife and daughters return tomorrow evening.  Have some work to accomplish in the morning, then hope to get some cleaning / organizing accomplished.  Will start with my office and see what I can get accomplished.  There's a chance that additional work may come in, but usually Fridays are slower.

On to conquer day 6.

Progress as of today: 92.6 lbs lost so far, only 15.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/13/2018:
HELLO GAINS!! : -))))

Firstly, congrats to you on a Day 5 Success!! Good Good Job. I have gone thru stages in my own lifestyle changes where I did countdowns / counts. Those times helped me get to where I am at today. I don’t see myself stopping the calorie counting for a long time coming…for me, my days of countdowns involved once again calorie counting but I’d do averages for longer periods of time (even like a full month) and also I’d see how long I could “hold out” with a series of good days before I’d binge…now, my pace has changed a little from that approach…and I try to have in general good weeks, weekly averages. I know some days will be higher than others but that I can work it out throughout the week, trying to make everyday a moderate day.

I’ve gotten farther and farther away from binges. I did that by having less caffeine, getting more sleep, learning more about myself, and trying to get a good balance of fats/carbs/proteins to where I am not craving things to such a high degree. I’ve also gotten used to eating in a way that works for attaining the goals I want.

You’ve read what I eat…I’ve totally shaped my lifestyle and food choices for what works for me. Sometimes I yearn to be more natural in my food selection and less artificial, but for the time being I’ll say I’m pretty content with where I’m at now.

There are some groups I’m a member of that is specifically low carb high fat on facebook. LCHF is the acronym. You may want to google that. Maybe pinterest has photos/recipes. There are a lot of easy ones, you know, especially pertaining to desserts / heavy whipped cream / etc. I understand you not interested at the moment in recipes…I think the diet / lifestyle of low carb is still new to you – another reason you may not be interested yet in other recipes. And of course, you can cook veggies in similar ways you’d flavor all your favorite dishes, just without the grains, give them flavor.

One easy way for most veggies is roasting…just a little salt/pepper/oil and once in awhile even balsamic vinegar, roast in the oven. Tastes SO GOOD. Way better than steamed. If you want less oil, you can even roast partially without the oil, but remember your body needs the fat…I’ve done low fat at one point and my hair got sooooo dry and damaged, skin horrible, nails horrible. I wish I hadn’t done that – but I learned from it! I was so young. I think a senior in college. So bad…a learning experience. I have done a lot of tests on my own body throughout my lifestyle adventures..i still do.

With it being your last day alone, I suggest a good food shopping. Go get the things that’ll help you while they are back home. GET PREPARED. Being unprepared without the better options is going to make your life more of an annoying challenge and will make it too easy to get off track. I challenge you to find ways to make it easier to maintain your lower weight…for the long run. If you do it for the long run, you’ll have to find ways to eat and drink and a lifestyle that makes keeping the lower weight easy. For instance, without being able to indulge in cooked veggies often, I’d be having a MUCH harder time never being able to feel so full or I’d just get fat getting full on calorie dense options instead of veggies.

In order to maintain your weight / lose a little weight, you’ve got to have a system in place that you LIKE or even LOVE…that you know you can do for the long run…that actually becomes your lifestyle. I still struggle here and there because I’m always eating at the highest calorie range and have trouble eating on the lower end of what’s necessary to maintain, but I seem to be able to fix that when I really have to..

I did have to develop a system that works for me…and the system came into place slowly with many trials and errors. I have lots of memories from my past similar to what you are doing now. You are doing great, keep on, keep learning, keep challenging yourself, and keep your mind open to little changes that can help you.

My biggest change as of late is to remember not to push myself over my limits. That injuries aren’t worth it. To NOT work thru pain. To rest sometimes instead of work out….to listen to my body more. Past scenarios have practically forced me to use this sort of approach. But I also try to remember not to get to lax on my cardio…which is my hardest challenge always. As I’m looking to improve, so I still work to make it part of my schedule, but try to balance it still with rest and the rest of my life. It’s all a learning process, I think always, to find some balance with everything!

i had fun here, a break at work! just now :)

graindart on 07/13/2018:
Would like to develop a system of my own that I could live with on a daily basis, like you're able to. After I get back down into the 170's again, I'm planning on switching to maintenance mode for awhile. I'm good at gaining weight and pretty good at losing it, but just maintaining in one spot has never been my strength.

It would really be beneficial if I could get out of the habit of "all or nothing" and embrace moderate eating habits. An initial thought is trying to just maintain a weekly average weight in the 170's through the end of the year, instead of dealing with things on a daily basis. Of course, I need to get back into the 170's again before that can happen......

horn_of_plenty on 07/13/2018:

bearcountrygg on 07/13/2018:
YES....Get that house cleaned up!!!

Donkey on 07/14/2018:
Maintenance is an interesting journey. Like you, I too struggled with maintaining for years. (Hence, the reason I gained and lost the same 50-60 pounds over and over...) I look forward to "walking with you" when you get to that point. I know you'll get there :-)

graindart - Thursday Jul 12, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 190.2

Day 4 completed successfully.

Didn't get much accomplished yesterday, but it was partially relaxing.  Ended up doing a few hours of regular work and a few hours of other stuff I was wanting to work on.

Working most of today, although if I'd get a bit more drive I could probably be done mid-afternoon.  Feeling lazy and generally burnt out as far as work.  I tend to get this way most summers.  I think it has to do with seeing my wife and kids getting to take the summer off (wife works at school).  In my mind, I should be able to take the summer off too......

Off to conquer day 5.

Progress as of today: 92.8 lbs lost so far, only 15.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2018:
I tend to get that feeling in the summer, too. I used to teach for a few years and was a student even 2 years after i stopped teaching, until i was 28. So, from 28-35 years old is the only time i've had to work EVERY week of summer. while a teacher, i did teach summer school, but usually only 1 month or 6 weeks. still some time off. and never a long day like i do now. Everyone, in my opinion, should have more of a "teacher schedule." !!!

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
That must be difficult when everyone else is having fun.

graindart - Wednesday Jul 11, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 192.0

Day 3 completed successfully.

Yesterday was spent mostly just working / sitting in front of the computer screen. 

Ended the day with a softball game.  When I signed up to play this season, I thought it was going to be fun and something that I looked forward to.  Quite the opposite.  So far I really don't enjoy playing and it feels like just another committment on my calendar that I have to do.  I committed to it, so will continue through this season, but highly doubt I'll sign up again next year.

After a softball game a few weeks ago, the family was walking back to the parking lot.  I commented that I didn't really think that softball was "my game".  One of my daughters quickly piped up and said: "Yeah dad.  And by the way we beat you playing 'HORSE' the other day, I'd say basketball isn't 'your game' either."  (HORSE is a basketball shooting game.)  (She said it as a joke, not to be demeaning or disrespectful.)

Worked quite a bit yesterday so that I could kind of take a day off today.  Nothing fun planned, but am just getting some non-work tasks completed today.

On to conquer day 4.....

Progress as of today: 91 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 07/11/2018:
Have you liked playing in the past? I have troubles finding things I like to do as well. I just hope it doesn't turn tedious to you.

graindart on 07/11/2018:
Haven't really played softball / baseball since I was 10 years old (30+ years ago). Thought it would be fun to try again. Found out that I'd prefer not having the additional scheduled commitments, especially during the summer.

bearcountrygg on 07/11/2018:
Sounds like when kids join a team and then don't enjoy it….but we make them continue on anyway......at least you are setting a good example for the kids!! Hope the season goes by quickly!

happy-1 on 07/11/2018:
Ha ha ha ha ha... This is how I feel about almost everything. I don't enjoy it until I've adapted to it and then can think about things going on in it that are interesting.

Maybe tennis? The back and forth ponging of the ball is super satisfying/zen meditative and I can totally focus on it and enjoy it. Plus lessons with your girls would help them learn something new too.

I guess tennis is to me as laser pointers are to cats.

Donkey on 07/11/2018:
I loved baseball/softball as a kid. Now I just don't have the patience for it, even when my team is winning. Watching, participating - nope, the love is gone.

I've been thinking about your needing to find a goal (before you decided to do another OMAD), but I see you've already come to the conclusion that I had: sometimes, a goal can be a series of successful days. Heck, sometimes, getting through ONE day is goal enough!

I was also going to suggest maybe adding a mile a day on the treadmill -- what would that take you, maybe 15 minutes depending on if you ran or walked. But then I realized that exercise-oriented goals aren't really your thing. And that's fine. Bodies are built at the table, not at the gym.

horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2018:
Well, in order to get better at anything, you need practice. Perhaps that's what's going on with your game? also, maybe it's just a personality thing and those are players' personalities are not meshing with yours? then i could understand not wanting to play on the team again...

good job on Day 3.

graindart on 07/12/2018:
Not a personality thing, everyone's very friendly and supportive. Not really about the game itself or my skill level. I think I'd just rather not have the additional weekly commitment.

horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2018:
i understand exactly what you mean about a commitment that at first it seems fun until the actual commitment of it leaves you stressed...that is starting to be my problem this summer...fun commitments but not enough alone time and it's not meshing well for me or my stress levels.

graindart - Tuesday Jul 10, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 194.0

Day 2 successfully completed.

Yesterday had a 4 hour monotonous round trip drive for work.  Packed some drinks / snack and was able to stay on track.

Summer really kicked in and the highs have been 92-99 pretty much every day for the past week or so.  Saturday the high is supposed to be in the 70's, which will be a nice change.  Not looking forward to playing softball tonight in the mid-90's.

On to conquer day 3.....

Progress as of today: 89 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/10/2018:
Good day staying with your program!

happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
You're clearly built Ford tough!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/10/2018:
so proud of you! really loving your post today too!

good plans for the drive...good to be prepared. i had a lighter lunch, thank gosh!, today...because i planned it!

graindart - Monday Jul 09, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 194.0

Just a quick entry before jumping into work stuff.

Did a 4 week round of OMAD with LCHF a few months ago.  With my recent difficulty in getting back on track, I decided to give it another try.  So yesterday went successfully, although it's a good thing that I had limited quantity of food on hand at home.  While I had no desire to overeat the food I had on hand, I probably would've continued munching if there would've been a bag of pork rinds in the house.  On to conquer day 2.

Progress as of today: 89 lbs lost so far, only 19 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/09/2018:
Glad you have decided to work on that again.

horn_of_plenty on 07/09/2018:
Yes ! Loving your winning attitude ! Love this entry !

graindart - Sunday Jul 08, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 198.0

Yesterday started out good, but ended badly.  Was fully under control until 7pm.  Then decided to get a salad from McDonalds.  Once in the drive-thru, decided to add a McChicken sandwich.  Then it snowballed over the next couple hours with a couple more restaurant pop-ins.  Once I got home I wanted to continue eating, but I emptied the house of food a couple days ago, so I stopped.  Today is starting off good.  I won't be going to any restaurants tonight........ 

Was bored yesterday afternoon and went over to my sisters house to talk for an hour or so.  She's kind of in the same place mentally that I am.  She was eating better and exercising for several months leading up to the Alaskan cruise last month.  Now that it's over, neither of use have any real desire / motivation to eat right or exercise.

I feel like I'm now on the defensive, instead of offensive.  Before I was working towards a goal.  I had desire and motivation.  I wanted to accomplish the goal.

Now that the cruise is over, I'm just trying not to slip up and fall backwards too much.

I know I need to have a goal to work towards.  I'm just that type of person.  With that said, I can't think of a goal that I'm willing to set and commit to.  There are plenty of goals that I could arbitrarily set, but none that I can think of that have a payoff that I'm actually willing to work towards right now.

Oh well.  Even without a grand goal in place, I still need to finish today off successfully.

Progress as of today: 85 lbs lost so far, only 23 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/08/2018:
I get it all...I've been there too...if we were naturally thin we would be ready to kill for a carrot….but we aren't...….we have elevated food so high in our minds that it is like entertainment/reward/happiness and life...all rolled into one. That is exactly what the food industry wants us to feel......they make money...we make fat cells...they know our fat cells are hard to say no to...and they just keep convincing us to make more. We need to find something that is more important to us then food.....and maybe that something is life...….you have 2 young ladies there that will most likely one day be bringing home guys that they want you to meet....and it would be nice if those guys are good to your daughters and treat them as well as you treat your girls....you are their male roll model....you want to set a good example for them..to help them choose well.....and most likely there will also be little grandchildren...who you will want to spend active time with....a healthy Granpa will be a great gift to give them. I'm sure you will want to have many years with your wife after the girls are grown..and you 2 can travel or do things on the spur of the moment..because kids and their activities will be done. You can do this because you will be fit and healthy for your family ….and for all of the exciting new things that will come along with your childrens futures....get out and throw a ball around with the kids...they will love the time with you...and you will get the added benefits of spending time with them...and the calorie burning.

graindart on 07/08/2018:
Stop making sense. This is all about ME, what I want, and what makes ME feel good.

Of course my above statement is just joking around. I do understand and agree with what you wrote. Logically I know that eating right and in moderation is what's best for both myself and my family. However my sugar-obsessed brain just keeps yelling out that I'm depriving myself for no reason at all.....

I don't have a desire to overeat salad greens. I can overeat meat and cheese, but it's not usually an issue. Carbs.... once I start eating them, I have little desire to stop until they're all gone. I guess I need to go back and look at my entries when I went low-carb for 4 weeks and see how that went.

bearcountrygg on 07/08/2018:
Carbs are evil necessities....unfortunately we never learned to love things that didn't contain sugar.....we were raised to think that sugar was a reward..…..even babies prefer sugar to bitter, sour or bland…...and they have nothing to base that on other than what they perceive sugar to be...( delish). Really...the more we beat ourselves up...the more we want to sooth ourselves with carbs....fact is...carbs are brain food...they make us happy.....we just abuse them. We need to eat them...in moderation...we just need to learn to control the amount.....we all need to figure out HOW we will control it....maybe allow so many carbs per day...then the carb kitchen is closed...until the next day...in the meantime...the veggie kitchen is open if we need food. Or the pure protein kitchen is still open.....we don't have to starve...we just have to control the carb kitchen.

graindart - Saturday Jul 07, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 197.0

Yesterday I was completely back in control of food.  At the end of the day my mind did start reasoning with itself, saying "you've been good".  "You really should reward yourself with food for being so good."  I ignored myself.

Softball went better for me last night, even though as a team we had our first loss of the season.

The wife and kids flew off on the 5th to visit the in-laws for 10 days, so I'm home alone.  It's a weird feeling.  I both enjoy the "me-time" and also feel lonely at the same time. 

Without them here it should be easier to stay on track food-wise.  As long as I keep on-track, I should be around day 8 or 9 in a row by the time they get back next week.  It's always a struggle to get back on plan after going off-plan for a few days.  This time I effective jumped off the wagon for 1 full month.  It was only supposed to be around 10-12 days for the cruise and travel back/forth.  I don't regret the 10-12 days that I planned for, but do wish I could go back in time and have got back on-plan as soon as it was over.

One of the effects of stuffing my face for 1 month was that I went from averaging around 180lbs to seeing myself pop over 200lbs again.  I never intended to see my weight start with a "2" ever again.  It was totally avoidable, but I was stupid.  I kept stuffing my face daily and saw my weight stay in the mid to high 190's for most of the time.  Then one day it jumped from high 190's to low 200's and I realized that I had screwed up in a major way.  I finally realized that I was either going to get back in control of food or I was going to head straight back towards the 283 lbs I weighed last year.

With the 1 month weight gain, my clothes are fitting extra snug.  My belt loop is out 2 more notches.  All of my new size medium shirts now have to be pre-stretched if I want to fit in them somewhat comfortably.  Several of my new shorts / jeans are now too small to fit into comfortably.  I'm down to wearing a few size large shirts that I still had in the closet, along with 2 pairs of shorts and a couple of larger jeans that I hadn't gotten rid of yet.  I did think about running to the store to buy a few shorts / shirts in a size that would be comfortable right now, but decided against it.  I figure the limited wardrobe and tighter fitting clothing will be a constant reminder that I need to stay on track.  A week or two of being 100% on track should be all it takes for the clothes to start feeling decent again.

At the softball game last night I was talking with a friend who is about my age.  He asked how much I weighed and said I was looking really good.  I told him I wished he had asked a month ago, because I had just put on 25 lbs since then.  He mentioned that he has been trying to eat right, but has been stuck around 250 lbs for awhile now.  I told him what had worked for me when I initially lost 100 lbs.  Him mentioning my weightloss and looking good was extra motivation for me to stay on-plan yesterday.  Sometimes I forget that being more healthy isn't just for me and my family's benefit.  It's also motivation for others that know me and are overweight.  Once you see someone you know successfully make a positive change, it's motivating.  That's actually what got me started on my diet when I weighed 283 last year.  My best friend lost 40+ lbs and was starting to work out.  I knew he was on a diet at the time, but kept waiting for him to screw up and gain it all back.  In my mind, it was ok that I was fat as long as he failed and was still fat like me.  When I realized he was actually going to succeed, I decided I really didn't want to be known as "the fat friend".  It was the motivation I needed at the time. 

I'm guessing guys minds work differently than gals.  When the friend at softball asked how much I weighed, I wasn't offended at all and offered up the number even though it was more than I wanted to weigh at present.  In fact I've asked a couple other "fit" male friends over the past 6 months how much they weighed.  Generally for guys it's just trying to analyze things in order to set a goal.  Like everyone, the heavier we are, the less comfortable we are about sharing what we weigh.  While I didn't have a problem with the question, I'm guessing it probably would've been considered rude between females in general.  Or maybe I'm wrong......

I wanted to make sure to let you all know that I appreciate the responses to my entries, especially when I haven't posted for a few days.  Without accountability it's easy to go off-plan and stay off-plan.  When I get the email notification that I've got a reply, it's a reminder that I need to keep on-track (or get back on-track).

Progress as of today: 86 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/07/2018:
Congrats for ignoring the little voice that wanted you to reward yourself...…..that's what it is all about. I agree with getting by with the clothes you already have.....getting new bigger ones will be like giving yourself the ok to gain again. If you could deal with it...some people do well with 1 cheat day a week...a specific...firm day.....I don't think I would do well with that...but many do. Apparently they are able to wait for the day...

graindart on 07/07/2018:
I've tried one cheat day per week, but my 1 day usually turns into 3 or more days.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Ha, this is why I am tucking all my larger clothes in my mom's closet... If I can't get to larger clothes I'll feel the pinch as my jeans don't fit.

bearcountrygg on 07/07/2018:
I do get rid of clothes as hey get too big.....but I always keep a very few stretchy things to get by with if it all goes wrong.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
staying away from energy drinks and caffeine will help rid yourself of some food cravings...caffeine always gets me MORE ravenous (though i like it, so i am not interested right now in stopping all caffeine....). though lately i had some energy drinks which helped cause new face breakouts! ugh!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
the only way you could have possibly done better after coming home from your trip would be to have made sure right away to have a LOT of healthy food options back at home right away when you got back - by going out and getting them ASAP.

also, after many days of high calorie eating, the body DOES have trouble bouncing right back and i general i myself have some trouble and usually new a few days to inch myself back to lower cals, it may not happen in 24 hours..could take a few days to get all the way back and body feel used to the lower cals.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
i have a few friends who see me successful at taking off a lot of pounds too (around 20-30lbs overall from the highest points in my life) and when they see me continue to keep most off, they are inspired.

i also have friends that WISH they could do it, and a particular friend i'm thinking about now who when i see tries to get me to eat poorly and doesn't really understand what i takes to lose weight and keep it off because his schedule is so much more relaxed than mine...he doesn't understand my lifestyle and it's actually starting to bother me as he thinks i shouldn't be able to "love" the gym....oh, he'd never understand what it's like to work and have hobbies that you actually want to stick with...i'm sorry he thinks my life is so menial.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Speaking of motivation... how cool does this look???? You go for runs and virtually play zombie apocalypse. They've gotten to 2 seasons!!! https://zombiesrungame.com

graindart - Friday Jul 06, 2018
(OMAD, counting calories)
Weight: 204.0

Started yesterday good.  Had tons of work to get done and decided to eat an apple part way through the day as a break.  Followed right away by popcorn.  Followed right away by hamburger and chicken breast.  Then I didn't stop until around 9pm.......  Had a lot of monotonous work and I used the food to just try to cope.

Only good thing from yesterday was that I didn't drink anything with calories or caffeine.

Today is starting off ok.  

Progress as of today: 79 lbs lost so far, only 29 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/06/2018:
Good start today!

happy-1 on 07/06/2018:
Good job!!!

Donkey on 07/07/2018:
Well, keep trying... At least you are being completely honest about using food as a coping mechanism, and I feel, at least in my journey, that this is an important step to take to true behavior modification. I've done it: I am feeling (whatever) and I am using food to help me get through this, and I'm OK with that because I do what I have to do to get through (whatever) until I can do better. Does that sound too corny? Probably, but it's helped me.

When I was at my heaviest at this job, I found myself using food to cope with stress. So at around 3pm when everyone is emailing and I'm pressing to get deadlines met, I'd head for the chips. (My male co-worker still does this on almost a daily basis.) I found that interrupting my work to get food - and then to eat the food - would slow down the work that I was needing to get done - so counterproductive!

Now I get up and take a walk - usually to get the mail, to go outside to get something out of the car (real or not), to go downstairs for ice cubes or raw vegetables that I keep in the downstairs fridge specifically so that I have to walk to get it... I also make sure I have water (flavored) and sugar free candies (mint seems to calm me down).

Now I'm just babbling about myself... I guess my question would be that if you're using food to break up the monotonous work, don't you too find this to slow you down? Or does eating make you more productive?

The real important question is: how do you eat at your desk without spilling something or getting messy fingers onto your keyboard???? This is totally my downfall ;-)

graindart on 07/07/2018:
Using food to cope while working is completely counter-productive and I know that even while I'm stuffing my face.

I think the reason I use the food sometimes is that it keeps me at my desk. So I might only be 75% as productive as usual, but at least I'm getting stuff done. I've found that when I run an errand to break up the monotony, I might waste an hour or more and then feel even less like getting my work done when I get back.

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