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graindart - Monday Aug 13, 2018
(just getting back in control)
Weight: 202.7

Camping in the mountains was good and we had a couple friends swing by to eat dinner with us.  Dad's birthday party went ok.  Church block party went ok. 

This past week has been unbearably hot.  It hit 100 for two or three days in a row, with one of the days hitting 104.  Where I live we only usually have a 30% chance of hitting 100 in any given year, with most years topping off in the high 90's.  Thankfully today's high is only supposed to be 77.  After the past few days, 70's feels downright chilly.

Getting back into the groove with work and watching what I eat today.  I might be missing something, but don't think I have any parties, birthdays, picnics, or other special occasions for the next couple weeks.  Maybe I can actually just get back into a semi-normal routine.  The girls and wife head back to school after Labor Day, so know that I'll be able to get back into a regular routine at that time again.

Progress as of today: 80.3 lbs lost so far, only 27.7 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/14/2018:
I echo what Bear says; I thrive on routine... but you've had a wonderful summer with amazing memories.

horn_of_plenty on 08/16/2018:
Wow! That is hot!

We had hardly any 90 degree days this year in NYC..today will be around 90. Instead, it's rained a lot, which i guess is good for the plants !

I sooo do not look forward to our school season to begin, same time as yours, after Labor Day. There is so much street traffic and congestion, i'll have to leave around 15 minutes earlier in the mornings! at least.

graindart - Wednesday Aug 08, 2018
(just getting back in control)
Weight: 202.7

Dirtbike riding went well yesterday.  Have some regular work to get done today and tomorrow.  Heading to the mountains again on Friday for an overnight short camping trip.  Have to get back on Saturday for my dad's birthday party.  Sunday is a block party event after church.  Monday my youngest starts full day volleyball practice camp.

The lazy days of summer appear to be over.  Now it appears to be a quick dash until school starts for the girls, just after Labor Day. 

Progress as of today: 80.3 lbs lost so far, only 27.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/08/2018:
Good exercise and getting outdoors, enjoying being physical. The beach did that for me sat.

Donkey on 08/09/2018:
We start school here August 15th. My friends in Indiana already started this Monday!

This is the first year that I have no kids in school.

horn_of_plenty on 08/09/2018:
that's when our schools start too, day after Labor Day :)

how old is your dad on his bday? how exciting!

enjoy the block party :)

graindart on 08/09/2018:
He's hitting the big 70. The block party is geared more towards younger kids, so I'll just wander around talking to friends and probably be done after an hour or so. The wife and kids are working the bouncy-house and serving food for awhile.

horn_of_plenty on 08/09/2018:
are you looking forward to the block party?

wow, donkey's area starts school so early!

horn_of_plenty on 08/09/2018:
70 is soooo young still ... good for him!

graindart - Monday Aug 06, 2018
(just getting back in control)
Weight: 202.7

Random thoughts today.....

Going to try switching to a weekly weigh-in, instead of daily.

Planning on going camping in the mountains this Friday with the family. 

Youngest daughter starts volleyball practice again next week.

We had a brief dip in the daily high temperatures where the highs were in the high 70's / low 80's for a few days.  Hopefully this week's forecast is wrong, but right now it says it's supposed to hit 104 on Friday (will be cooler in the mountains).  It rarely hits 100 degrees here in any summer, so 104 would be quite the shock.

Back to work this morning.....

Progress as of today: 80.3 lbs lost so far, only 27.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/06/2018:
Lot's of positive mindset practices here for the new week. I love your posts.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/06/2018:
yes, i'd support your weekly weigh-in as daily fluctuations can be quite unnerving!

camping sounds fun! grilling veggies can be fun...grilled peppers are quite awesome...you can even grill pineapple. light balsamic dressing or other marinades are good on everything or just plain...you can look up fast recipes for marinades...but even plain peppers are GREAT!

wowwww that's hotter than here! we are having 90s and it feels it!

wishing you a FAST day of work!

Donkey on 08/08/2018:
Hey, I don't agree with weekly weigh-ins if it means less posting!

Lol, I just meant that I enjoy reading your entries. A weekly weigh-in might work better for you.

Have fun camping! That sounds lovely!

graindart - Friday Aug 03, 2018
(just getting back in control)
Weight: 202.7

Yesterday went ok.  Really wanted to keep snacking after dinner while watching a little tv.  Ended up eating 4 pieces of toast with butter, a couple small beef sticks, and a little bit of roasted pork loin.  Didn't have any real junk food in the house, so that was good.  It was also fortunate that there were only 4 pieces of bread left in the house, otherwise I can see myself having eaten the entire loaf......

Progress as of today: 80.3 lbs lost so far, only 27.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/05/2018:
You're having a total Wallace and Grommit moment with the buttered toast!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/05/2018:
so i'd say you did pretty well...remember sometimes what you are reaching for is for a reason. maybe you were eating very under calories or something or it's a big change from previous way of eating, your body is still adjusting and you should be at least happy that it wasn't an all-out binge-fest. good job getting back on track..

graindart - Thursday Aug 02, 2018
(just getting back in control)
Weight: 206.0

Yesterday wasn't perfect, but definitely more in control.

Due to the weight gain over the past couple months, I'm down to only a few shirts that I hadn't gotten rid of.  I've only got a couple pair of shorts and 1 pair of jeans that still fit.  I know if I just stay focused for a couple weeks, that I'll be able to start wearing my other clothes again.  Just need to stay on track and make it until after Labor Day.  After Labor Day, the kids and wife go back to school and I can settle into a normal schedule again where controlling my eating will become much easier.

Progress as of today: 77 lbs lost so far, only 31 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 08/02/2018:
You can do it!!!!! Does one of your tshirts say "No Hugging?"?

graindart on 08/02/2018:
The link I posted on yours was for a shirt that stated: "No Hugging. Please do not encircle me with your sweaty meat sticks."

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
usually it takes a few days to get really back...

remember, a lifestyle isn't only about "control." you should be HAPPY with your choices that you make with your own control, but shouldn't be controlled like in restrictive. that can be very much a struggle.

the past is done, if you were focussed on not doesn't matter. start here fresh and allow yourself some wiggle room and know you are HUMAN and prone to human error.

plan and food shop to do better. if you like takeout, get takeout but get veggies in that takeout. doesn't need to be steamed, you can have flavor. 1200 cals is too low for any man..so don't feel you have to be too restrictive. Even you can lose on 2000/day. take it easy, little by little.

graindart on 08/02/2018:
I do need to take some time and figure out a way of eating that I can live with for the next several years.

I'm very "happy" with the rest of my life (family is great, job has pluses/minuses, but overall works ok), but seems like I'm never happy with my food / health patterns.

I'm not happy with an overly restrictive food plan. I'm also not happy when I go nuts and eat several thousand calories in a day. I'm not happy with repetitive exercise (walking/running/weights/etc). I'm not happy when I have too many scheduled commitments for other types of exercise (softball).

For food / exercise I know what makes me "unhappy", but don't really know what makes me "happy". Would be nice to figure that out.....

Donkey on 08/03/2018:
Sometimes we have to forget about what makes us happy and just do it because it's the right thing to do.

Donkey on 08/03/2018:
I realize my comment above might not convey the support I was intending to express. My recommendation was to "fake it until you make it", by making choices that you logically know are "good for you" until you can find what really clicks for you. My "love" for this journey comes and goes but I stick to the routine through good and bad. Consistency above all is what I think has made this time around more successful than the other times I've lost this same weight.

I apologize if my previous comment offended you.

graindart on 08/03/2018:
It takes a lot to offend me, and that wasn't even close. You'll have to try harder next time...... :)

I enjoy reading different opinions and different plans for accomplishing the same goals. Like most people here, I'm just trying to find something that works for me and allows me to stay at a comfortable body size/shape/weight with the least amount of effort.

Donkey on 08/04/2018:
^ Thank you for your understanding. Actually, your response was a real eye-opener for me, as far as putting things in an appropriate perspective for me. Thank you - very helpful!

graindart - Wednesday Aug 01, 2018
(just getting back in control)
Weight: 211.7

August 1st......time to get back in control of my eating.  Most of this post is for my own records.  I'll sum it up so you don't have to read it all.  I've overeaten the past 2 months.  Today I get back on track.

For me, there always seems to be a reason or event to feel like celebrating by overeating.  The food rarely tastes good, but I still consume mass quantities of it.  June and July saw me take in boatloads of processed food that had little actual good flavor.  Over the past couple months I've eaten a ton of chocolate chip cookies and donuts.  The first usually tastes decent, but by the time I get to the 10th cookie in a row it really doesn't taste good at all.  Yet, I continue shoving them in my mouth until the package is empty.

Yesterday we took the girls to the state fair.  I knew it was my last day off-diet, so planned on eating every possible thing I could think of.  I succeeded in stuffing my face all day and am sitting at the computer with a very uncomfortable bloated belly this morning.  First thing I ate at the fair was a pulled pork bbq sandwich with mac-n-cheese.  It tasted good and would've been fine if I stopped afterward.  I walked up and down the food section and nothing else seemed overly enticing.  Went and watched the girls ride various fair rides.  Out of boredom I went back to the food area and settled on a corn dog.  Didn't taste impressive, but I finished it.  Ate some mediocre ice cream a little later before heading home.  I knew dinner was going to be my last pigout for awhile, so took the family to a buffet.  Ate a lot.  The steak was actually good, but most everything else was pretty bland.  After dinner, before bedtime, ended up eating cookies, chocolate covered pretzels, cupcakes, bananas, and some other stuff I don't even remember.  None of it sticks out as tasting good, just kept filling my face with sugar.

Like I said, I always find an event or reason to justify my desire to overeat.  And any time I overeat, it usually turns into a full day or two thing.  If it were confined to only an hour or two every once in awhile, it really wouldn't matter.  The past couple months have been filled with events that I've decided justified my overeating.  But now they've left me in a place where I'm physically feeling like crap......jiggly crap.  

Looking forward through August, there are a few events that are going to be tough to get through without overeating.  Probably taking the family camping a couple times (usually eat a ton of marshmallows, smores, hot dogs, chips, candy, etc).  My dad's birthday party for the whole family will have a lot of carbs available.  Church picnic coming up will have every imaginable type of dessert.  Near the end of the month, one of my daughters will have their first volleyball tournament which will have lots of concession food available. 

I've got a few days to figure out a plan to beat those temptations.  Right now I just need to concentrate on getting a string of successful days under my belt.  I just need to get back in the everyday routine of eating right.

On to day 1......

Progress as of today: 71.3 lbs lost so far, only 36.7 lbs to go!

legcramps on 08/01/2018:
I hear you about how hard it is to stop or gain control, I just recently went through this myself when I went to the ribfest and gorged on meat. I find it a lot harder in the summer too, when it's bbq season and ice cream is just so nice on a hot hot day!

You can do this. A lot of it is mind over matter.

graindart on 08/02/2018:
In years past, I found my appetite diminish during the Summer months due to the heat. But not this year. And it seems this year that I've got one or two events every week that want to derail my eating goals.

Donkey on 08/02/2018:
I think one of the hardest mindsets I've had to overcome and change is the idea that I have to finish what I started eating.

A few things that helped: Had someone recommend that I should throw out what I don't finish, with the thinking that if I eat the rest, I'm essentially eating garbage. True.

Referencing my latest comment to Maria, I often take one portion and divide it up so that I feel like I'm getting more than just one.

Eventually learning to relish having the control over my portions. Being proud of myself for saying "STOP. ENOUGH" -- stopping the self-abuse of binge eating and standing up for myself. Crazy?

innerpeace on 08/02/2018:
I know all about binging. Just stay active and maybe this will help. It is an ongoing struggle.

happy-1 on 08/02/2018:
Did you grow up with a lot of siblings? Competition for food?

graindart on 08/02/2018:
No, just two younger sisters. Just years and years of bad habits on my part.

horn_of_plenty on 08/02/2018:
I have also ran into these periods were i want to splurge. Only way i'm able to stay in control is my own volume eating. I eat things that literally expand my stomach and make me full. And i plan to eat these things. I plan to buy these things. My lifestyle has totally altered to help me maintain my weight as you see from my entries.

The longer i have maintained (basically with small ups and downs) my weight, the more i want to keep maintaining. The longer you keep a plan and lifestyle of eating, the easier it gets because you learn to eat in a way you enjoy and can keep for life.

Try to make a good plan of something you can StICK with. perhaps it's light eating for you all day...like grapefruit, etc. egg whites scrambled at breakfast...etc...and then bigger meal for dinner. ? find somethign you are HAPPY to stick with. If it's a hassle, it is not worth keeping a lifestyle that is a struggle. Mine is NOT a struggle. I honestly enjoy it. that's why i keep it up.

in the end, if you are happy with the lifestyle / diet choices, you'll keep it up. it does involve planning / buying / purchasing and doing things that make it EASIER and less of a struggle to keep up.

lots of takeout places make veggies. it has become easier for me to stick to my eating lifestyle and go out to eat. the veggies i order are mostly in sauces, not steamed anymore. it's very possible to enjoy flavor and not let it be a weight buster.

graindart - Wednesday Jul 18, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 191.4

Yesterday went decent, not great.  Started off great, but ended with some extra bran muffins with butter and a banana late at night that I really didn't need. 

Last regular season softball game was last night.  Tournament in 10 days and then it  will be done for the season.

Dirt biking was decent yesterday for the first few hours.  Then it started raining and got cold fast.  Totally drenched and almost shivering by the time we made it back to the trucks for the ride home.  Still much better than a day spent in the office.....

On to conquer today.....


Progress as of today: 91.6 lbs lost so far, only 16.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/18/2018:
even if yesterday wasn't perfect, you did better than usual and didn't go totally off the deep end...bran at least is very filling...and a banana is healthy for potassium. better than usual thank a total binge-fest.

i'd also agree you're having a good day...keep on! rememember, success doesn't have to be all or nothing...it can be in the middle. that's my success these days...could be better and could be worst but never the best and never the worst right now.

legcramps on 07/18/2018:
Dirt biking! Fun!

happy-1 on 07/19/2018:
Go you!

Donkey on 07/19/2018:
I hope your Wednesday was a good day. Regarding biking, yes, no matter how "miserable" the conditions, still better than the best day at the office, right?

Donkey on 07/22/2018:
Just checking in to see how you're doing.

happy-1 on 07/27/2018:
How are u doing? Don't forget about us!

graindart - Tuesday Jul 17, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 189.5

Back in control yesterday, for a new successful day 1.

Went to our school's sponsored night at the local minor league baseball team last night.  The girls had some fun, but I was bored out of my mind.  I have some friends that have season tickets and show up 2 or 3 times per week to watch.  I don't know how they do it.  I'd rather just go to bed and sleep....

Going dirt biking today and have packed several zero calorie drinks.  Have a softball game tonight after getting back from the mountains.

On to conquer day 2.....

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/17/2018:
2-3 times per week is toooooo big a commitment. sorry you were bored with even one night...i guess you didn't have close friends there, i'm sure your daughters were occupied with their own friends too...

Your plans for today sound great! enjoy your time outdoors. it's so healthy and wonderful..!

conquer your plans.

Donkey on 07/18/2018:
I just can't sit so long to watch baseball any more. If I were playing and getting actual exercise and benefit, then I'd be OK with it. If I'm sitting with the husband while he watches, I'm usually reading and knitting as well. Just sitting and watching--- no can do. Maybe this is a sign that I've said good-bye to a sedentary lifestyle.

graindart - Monday Jul 16, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 195.0

Foodwise, Saturday went well, Sunday didn't. Family is home safe and sound.

I have to drive a few hours for work again today, so will need to pack some zero calorie drinks.  I dropped the caffeinated drinks a week ago to see if that had any affect.  It didn't appear to.  So I'm now back to drinking zero calorie drinks that also contain caffeine if I want.

Daughter's school has a get-together at the local minor league baseball game tonight.  It'll be fun for them to see their friends again.  

Off to work for me....


Progress as of today: 88 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/16/2018:
you have a good schedule...it's ok to have a day where you slip, get back on the saddle when you can, hopefully quicker as you get use to getting back on the saddle. it's not about being perfect, but how to pick yourself up after a fall!

graindart - Saturday Jul 14, 2018
(OMAD, LCHF, counting calories)
Weight: 189.5

Day 6 completed successfully.

Just running errands and doing a little cleaning before picking the family up from the airport later tonight.  Making beef ribs with veggies for our dinner tonight. 

On to conquer day 7.....

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 14.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
Excellent meal plan and enjoy seeing your family tonight's !!! Keep on!

happy-1 on 07/14/2018:
Aaaaaw... someone's excited to see the fam if they made a fancy dinner!

graindart on 07/14/2018:
Always miss them when we're apart. Have fresh flower arrangements in each of their bedrooms also to welcome them back.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/14/2018:
sorry about typos...was at the beach on my phone!

Donkey on 07/15/2018:
Good man, there -- very impressed with the flowers idea.

Dinner sounds yummy. I hope it was a happy reunion with your family :-)

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