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graindart - Wednesday Dec 17, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 250.4

No pop, no snacks.  Breakfast was lemon yogurt with granola added.  I was on the road all day and it was real rushed with no real time in between appointments.  I did have time to grab something around 2:30pm if I wanted to eat something in the car, but decided I'd just wait until we were done with the last appointment around 5pm.  For supper I had water, a huge cheeseburger (probably 1/2 lb), and a large order of fries with ranch dip.  When I finally got home around 7pm I made the mistake of opening the fridge and then had to have 5 fresh cherries.  

I don't even know why I opened the fridge when I got home.  It must have been out of habit, as I wasn't hungry after eating plenty for dinner.  Cutting out the pop and snacks has gone fairly well, although I'm only on about day 17 or so this time around.  I'm still eating/overeating plenty at meal times (except for missing lunch today).  The only thing is that I feel "deprived" without sucking down gallons of Mtn Dew and eating chips/cookies/candy/etc.  I know that feeling "deprived" because of this is just plain stupid, but it's how I feel anyways.  In the greater outlook, there's probably whole families in other less fortunate countries/circumstances who would feel completely "blessed" to have the amount of food that I personally consume on a daily basis.

I was on the road today running between a few different cities several hours apart.  It's pretty much an every week or two trip and I've been doing it for the past 8 years.  It's long and boring.  This is the time that I usually eat so much junk and drink so much pop just to try to make it through the day and / or stay awake while driving.  During the drive I usually listen to talk radio and books on CD.  I usually see some deer and occasionaly see other animals, including bald eagles and a couple of times some moose.  Today I saw a large male bighorned sheep feeding right by the highway and later on saw a herd of 10 or so bighorned sheep again by the highway feeding on whatever grass they could get at under the snowpack.  I also saw several deer, thankfully none tried hopping out in front of me today.

As long as I don't screw up too much, I should see the 240's again sometime in the next week.  I was actually in the 240's before Halloween this year whileeating snacks and drinking pop.  Then came Halloween and we had a couple of huge bags of candy left over because of a less than stellar turnout of kids this year.  So I started eating probably about 15 of those snack size candy bars each day, along with other junk and that's how I gained about 15 more pounds in a little over a month.  The pounds can add on quickly at the weight I'm at, but thankfully the initial 20-30 pounds can come off pretty quickly too.  My weight easily fluctuates several pounds one way or the other just depending on what I'm doing.

Alright, now for my dreaming.......  With a little luck and not too many screwups, I'd like to see:

245lbs by Jan 1st
229lbs by Feb 1st
219lbs by March 1st
209lbs by April 1st
199lbs by May 1st

Anything after dipping into the 190's I'll have to play be ear.  The last time I was below 200 was in May of 2003.  Of course then I gained back to the 250's again.  Then lost down to 215 again in 2004.  Being below 200 felt really good in 2003.  I remember it well and sitting at 195 felt comfortable.  I have my "goal" listed as 175 on the tracking bar, but doubt that I'll actually be motivated enough to get down that low.  Being in the 190's felt good and looked good enough that I wasn't completely ashamed to go swimming without a shirt on.  I know that getting down below the 190's would take a lot of work and exercise that I doubt I'll be willing to put forth.

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 75.4 lbs to go!

skinnyjeans on 12/18/2008:
You are doing great! Keep it up!!

thinnside40 on 12/18/2008:
YOur just shy of being down by 4#'s......... That is wonderful!

graindart - Friday Dec 12, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 254.2

I've been doing good at cutting out the snacks and pop.  I've curtailed my eating to just meal times and we've been doing better about not going out to restaurants as much.  Now what I eat at meal times is still excessive, but at least it's restrained to only 3 times a day.

I haven't been able to get back on massive amounts of water, but have been drinking water with my meals.  I've stayed away from drinking other things even if they're no/low calorie, because I'm pretty much an all or nothing type person.  As soon as I start straying I usually just totally fall off the wagon.

Last night was a little bit of a test.  It was my daughter's school Christmas program.  My parents were able to make it to watch her also.  I was just planning on going home afterwards, but my parents brought up our family "tradition" of going to Dairy Queen after things like that.  I told them we were just going to go home, but then changed my mind a couple seconds later.  So they took our 2 daughters ahead to DQ and we took our time getting over there.  Once there, they were already partly done with the ice cream, so I only had to stare at ice cream for about 10 minutes.  To tell the truth it wasn't really a big deal, it really wasn't all that tempting.......maybe I was more tired than I thought.  Although now that I'm typing this, I'd pretty much kill for an M&M Blizzard.

Nothing for breakfast this morning.  PB&J sandwich for lunch.  Very large bacon cheeseburger and fries for dinner.

Progress as of today: 8.2 lbs lost so far, only 79.2 lbs to go!

graindart - Saturday Dec 06, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 256.4

I'm not having too much trouble staying off the pop, not because of will power, but due to laziness.  I've been wanting Diet Mtn Dew the past couple of nights.  I even asked my wife to run to the gas station to get me a freshly carbonated one.  She refused because she know's I'm trying to cut it out of my intake.  And I was too lazy to throw on some winter clothing, hop in a cold vehicle, and drive down to get it myself. 

Food intake at meals has still been quite high, but I've cut most of the snacking out these past few days. 

I have 2 little girls, 3 & 5 years old.  They know Saturday as "daddy takes care of us" day.  I try to spend time with them on other days also, but Saturday morning I get up and take care of them and let my wife sleep in or do whatever else she chooses by herself (sleep usually wins except for the occasional garage sale).  So this morning we ate omelettes and chocolate / strawberry milk.  We usually play some and then they get to watch an hour or two of television.  "Daddy takes care of us" day usually ends around 11am.  Then we usually eat lunch as a family or go out to do something somewhere.   Today I had to finish some car repairs so I was working on that when lunch time rolled around.  My wife was making us sandwiches and I was dirty, so I asked her to place them on paper plates and have the girls come eat with me in the garage.  I had a little table and chairs setup and we sat down, ate, and talked (which really means I listened to them tell me all about the couple of TV shows they just watched).  They finished and headed back inside for nap / quiet time.  Later my wife mentioned that my oldest had said that she liked the "picnic", but that it was kind of stinky.  I was covered in grease and grime, so I'm sure it was a little stinky.  Oh yeah, lunch was a pb&j sandwich and a 100 calorie pack of baked Cheetos.  That's the first time I tried the baked Cheetos and they're pretty lame.  I've tried the baked Lays also and thought they too were pretty much a waste of my time.

Dinner was spaghetti w/ red sauce and cheesy garlic bread.  I ate quite a bit of it.

Water intake has been practically non-existant lately.  I've been drinking it at meals, but not much other than that.

Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 81.4 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 12/06/2008:
Your Daddy Day sounds teriffic!.... Makes my heart jump when I hear a dad taking such time with his children.... My hubby is the same way......

Garage Sales !?!?!?!?!?!?! She's my kind of woman!

Have a terrific Sunday!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2008:
i know what you mean. giving into temptation...laziness causing a person to eat poorly. i know it all. been doing it all too well. but, we have more knowledge and ability to succeed than we give ourselves credit for. gosh, i'm looking at these videos and pics i have of myself in 2006 and it is SO SAD to see the poor changes i've made. we can go back. don't settle!

skinnyjeans on 12/07/2008:
I hope you had a great weekend and good luck getting all of your water in this week!

graindart - Thursday Dec 04, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 260.6

Doing alright the past couple of days.  No cookies / candy / chocolate / etc, but I haven't been getting my water intake either.  Today I had a 6" sub for a late breakfast.  Lunch was steak strips and some pasta.  Supper was pepperoni pizza and a banana. 

I haven't been feeling like doing much at all lately, which includes watching what I eat.  Tomorrow we're going to the Christmas Stroll downtown and we're meeting a couple of friends there, so that should be fun.  I'll probably have some skewered pork strips if the line's not too long.  We'll probably share a couple little bags of fresh mini donuts also.  Unfortunately the weather is supposed to be around freezing and windy.

Progress as of today: 1.8 lbs lost so far, only 85.6 lbs to go!

graindart - Wednesday Dec 03, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 260.6

Tuesday was an alright day.  Lunch was a corndog, 6" sub, and a little bit of soup.  Dinner was a couple turkey enchiladas and some fried potatoes.  Downed approximately 100oz of water.  

When I was doing the grocery shopping to make dinner I came across what I'd been craving for a couple weeks.....olives.  We have the regular black and green olives in the house, but I've been craving some different type olives.  So when I came across an olive bar setup at the store, I had to get a small container.  Last night I ate about 5 or 6 of them and they tasted good. 

Today I don't really have any plans.  I'm sitting at the computer and decided to have a Slim-fast shake thing in a can.  It doesn't taste too bad.  I'm not usually a breakfast eater, so at least the Slim-fast makes it easy to get something in. 

Progress as of today: 1.8 lbs lost so far, only 85.6 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 12/03/2008:
Have a great day!

graindart - Monday Dec 01, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 260.6

Breakfast was some instant oatmeal - cinnamon/apple. 

My wife and I had a funeral to go to today, so grandma took care of the kids.  The funeral was over about lunch time and grandma was taking the kids out for lunch, so my wife and I went out for lunch by ourselves.  Lunch was a side salad, mushroom swiss burger, and onion rings.  

I was working late and the wife couldn't figure anything out for dinner, so we ended up having frozen pizzas and egg salad sandwiches.

Water intake today wasn't too bad and I'm still working on it.  With a little luck I'll get the full 128oz in today.  As long as I don't screw up, I don't think I'll be eating anything for the rest of the night either.

No pop today at all.  About 2 years ago I replaced regular pop with diet pop and that alone helped me shed approximately 20 lbs.  I'm now back up to my full weight and I drink diet pop, so I must be really really overeating.  I've heard differing opinions on diet pop.  Some say that the sweetness may not actually add any calories, but that it does make you crave other sweet foods.  I've heard others say that sugar substitutes and sugar alcohols are processed differently by each person and sometimes the body does actually get calories from it.  Well, I'm not a doctor and don't have a clue about any of it.  I am however guessing that drinking water instead of diet pop must be better for me in the long run.  The only bad thing about drinking this much water is that I know I'll be waking up in the middle of the night at least once.

I wish I would've been a little more conscious of my dieting efforts today.  I forgot several times that I wanted to start watching what I was eating today.  I ate the oatmeal because I was just craving the apple/cinnamon stuff and then remembered about halfway through that I was on a diet......not that it's any worse than what I'd normally eat for breakfast.  At lunch time I was about to finish the meal with a nice slice of freshly made lemon meringue pie.  I was about to order a slice and thankfully remembered just in time.

I guess it'll take a few weeks to start to get into the swing of things again.  With the huge amount of crap I've been eating over the past few months, basically anything that I cut down will be better for me than before.

Progress as of today: 1.8 lbs lost so far, only 85.6 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 12/01/2008:
I know what it is like to "forget", but to make concious mental notes as the day goes is the most important..

As far as "diet" pop/soda.... I gave it up for about 18 weeks...I was a good 80-100 oz./day Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi drinker..... Now, I can hardly drink a whole can... I like WalMart's sparkling water to satisfy my occasional carbonation crave.... Added to pur cranberry or grape jjuice for a twist is refreshing too..... Crushed Ice is a must!

Probably the best "reminder" you may be able to give yourself is thinking of your children and how much better it will be for them to have you many more years most likely than they would if you continued the unhealthy choices...

Best of wishes to see you succeed at whatever it is you desire to!

graindart - Sunday Nov 30, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 262.4

Usually give it a try at the 1st of January, decided to start a month early this time.  I was waiting until they opened a new 24hour small gym nearby, but it looks like that's still another month or two out.  I'm going to use December to hopefully get back to drinking decent amounts of water.

Before pictures so that I have something to look back on.  The shirt is a size "medium" that I bought tonight.  It is the size shirt I'd like to fit into again next year.  Thankfully it's super stretchy, so I could at least get it on partially.  I'll try to get it back on for future pictures so as to see if it actually starts becoming less tight.  It was all I could do just to get it over my shoulders tonight .  It wasn't any fun trying to get it back off either.  My wife got a kick out of seeing me in it though, but then again she's used to me doing stupid things every once in awhile.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 87.4 lbs to go!

skinnyjeans on 12/01/2008:
Welcome and best of luck with your new weight loss goals! :)

selina on 12/01/2008:
welcome! And good luck with your journey! It's going to be SO COOL to see you wearing that medium size T-shirt the proper way, next year!

graindart - Thursday Aug 21, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 252.4

34 days til birthday

132 days til end of the year

For successful weightloss, it seems like I always need a time goal, a specific date to look forward to. My birthday will be a good short-term date and the end of the year will be a good longer-term date. Maybe seeing the days countdown will help me to get back on track.

I need to track down some water bottles I can stand to use and try to get back on the water drinking thing.

Lately I've been feeling worn out, my neck's been feeling fat, my tummy's huge, I've been having trouble sleeping, I haven't been wanting to work or do anything. I know I need to start watching what I eat, but I've just kept waiting to finally hit the wall and get some ambition to change. Unfortunately no ambition in sight......

Progress as of today: 10.6 lbs lost so far, only 77.4 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 08/21/2008:
I am always so pleased by the rise in energy when I eat low carb......not NO carb, but low carb. I'm trying to cut back gradually on starches and sugars and see if my energy will pick up like in the past. I don't really cut out any other carbs - just sugars and starches and that should do the trick. I love bread especially (and sweets) but when I reach for them I'm going to try to choose something else. My hope is that if I narrow down the field of what I am aiming for to something every defined and actually do-abale I'll have some success. We'll see. I like your idea of a specific time frame goal.....

graindart - Wednesday Aug 20, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 252.4

I've been really sick of my weight and eating habits, but can't seem to get started, just updating my stats.

hollybelle on 08/21/2008:
No time like the present. Get going, girlfriend. Let us hear from you!

graindart - Tuesday Jun 24, 2008
(128oz water,no snacks,no reg.pop,no food after 7pm)
Weight: 249.8

Just updating stats again. Yep, still fat. ;-)

Progress as of today: 13.2 lbs lost so far, only 49.8 lbs to go!

maria777 on 06/24/2008:
Hope you have a wonderful day!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/24/2008:
why do you say "yep, still fat!" personally, i don't wish that on anyone and i would have been delighted if you wrote the opposite. I will always continue to support DDers because we all have times that are tougher than others. Look back to what you were doing at 236 lbs. were you doing anything different? also, members here sometimes post what they eat (mine is not always the healthiest) but there are some good choices we all make. perhaps use our menus to your advantage and maybe try some things. I would also recommend the Sparkpeople website which is just excellent.

there is no reason at all why you cannot do this! :)

Beth201P on 06/24/2008:
Hang in there. It will come off. As my last boyfriend told me. Your not FAT your just fluffy. So we are not going to use the FAT Word we are going to start using the word FLUFFY!!! ((hugs)) Have a great evening.

selina on 06/24/2008:
How about if you incorporated exercise in your program? try walking... like a lot of us in DD

Jen40 on 06/25/2008:
From one fluffy gal to another *big hugs* We can do this. :O)

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