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graindart - Tuesday Oct 23, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 190.2

Day 28 completed successfully.

Kind of a low-key day today.  Not much regular work accomplished today.  Not hungry, but really wanting to eat stuff this morning.  Made it ok to dinner time.  Ate dinner stuff and am now sitting watching some tv.  Not "hungry", but still feel like I want to eat stuff.  Not too much food in the house right now, so not really craving anything, just feel like eating stuff.

Effectively a couple months into my pretty serious attempt to getting back down in weight.  That means I'm around half way there this time around.  Really tired of it.  Have been calorie restricting myself for approximately 15 out of the past 18 months.....and I'm tired of it.  The thought has crossed my mind to drop another 10 lbs into the 170's and transition to maintenance mode for the rest of the year.  Then drop the final 10 lbs starting January 1st.  On the one hand, it'd be nice to try "maintaining" during the holidays.  On the other hand, it would mean that I wouldn't make my final goal until the end of January / beginning of February.  While I'm tired of restricting calories, I don't know that I want to draw this out until February.

On to conquer day 29....

Progress as of today: 92.8 lbs lost so far, only 21.2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
yes, if you are sooo sick of the restriction, try to stay where you are at for now...it doesn't need to be only restriction for months at a time, let your body learn how to maintain for a little bit...like BCGG seems to be doing now.

you do not want the same thing as last time where restriction leads to overeating...so try to keep where you've gotten to now.

that's my advice ;) i can be sooo opinionated!

graindart on 10/24/2018:
Back to feeling a bit more motivated today. Felt like a lazy lump after reading your entry, so went for a walk last night. It wasn't hard, strenuous, or anything and probably only burnt 100 calories. But it was good to get out of the house and breathe the cool autumn air. Will continue with my regular plan for now and play it by ear as the holidays approach.

BearCountryGG on 10/24/2018:
I'm also having boredom problems with the word diet....dieting of any kind....following a plan..I'm over it....I want to eat like a person without restrictions...I definitely get it. That's when I start making changes in my program...…..learning to maintain is just as important as losing I believe......because we never want to go back up again......leaning to maintain in place still feels like progress to me. Because I truly believe that happiness is as important or even more important in our lives as losing weight...I think it is good for us to learn to maintain as well as lose. I also think that our bodies get too used to a set amount of calories day in and day out...and need to get a little shaking up now and then. Learning to eat portions will be a necessity when we reach goal anyway...….but if you think you wouldn't be able to restrict quantities...you probably should keep doing the program as is...…….My guess is that we gained it because we didn't follow serving sizes...I think we have to learn that...even if we want more.....we need to be able to put the brakes on when we feel that way.

graindart - Monday Oct 22, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 189.5

Day 27 completed successfully.

Last night family dinner turned out ok foodwise.  I stayed away from the kitchen for a bit and then went and ate 1 slice of pizza.  It tasted good and I wanted several more slices, but refrained.  Once I'm down to goal I can eat more of my favorites at times. 

Have to keep reminding myself that if I don't go crazy on overeating EVERYday, I can actually look fit AND enjoy food.  Just can't let myself go back to overeating daily and think that it won't cost me.  Because this endless calorie limiting stretch of months is the cost of daily overindulgence.  And months of calorie restriction at a time sucks!

So I've previously mentioned my plan of attack when I get to maintenance mode this time.  I'm just reposting it here because it's what I'm working towards and what is my main motivation right now.  Never had a structured plan for maintenance before and am looking forward to it.  Pick a magic number that I want to remain below.  Right now I'm thinking 170.  Continue weighing myself each and every morning.  If I weigh under 170, I can eat whatever I want during the day without recording anything.  If I weigh 170 or higher, I must record everything I eat and stay under a certain number of calories.  If I am consistent at weighing myself every day, it will work.  And on the days that I'm under the magic number, I should be motivated to eat sensibly because I don't want to overeat an entire day and pay for it by being back on-plan for the next week or so.  

Really don't enjoy the calorie restrictive plan I'm on right now because it's such a long drawn out process.  Depending on how the weight continues to drop over the next bit, I might be to maintenance mode by Christmas.  The holiday season is always a big problem for me to control eating, as I'm sure it is with most people.  We'll be driving a few states away to visit my wife's family for Christmas as we always do and will probably be gone for 7-10 days.  A lot can go wrong in 7-10 days.  Last year I went off-plan for 10 days between Christmas and New Years, over which I gained 17 lbs.  It wasn't a "real" 17 lbs and I dropped it pretty quickly, but my sanity can NOT handle a repeat of that much of a gain again this year.  In theory I may be able to get to maintenance mode prior to leaving for Christmas vacation.  I have been kind of dreading being without my trusty scale for that many days in a row, knowing that without a daily reminder I tend to think I still weigh whatever my last scale reading was.  So I decided if I'm to maintenance mode, I'll just pack the scale and bring it along with me on vacation.  It's a little weird and I feel kind of stupid for not thinking of it before.  It's not like it takes up any real space and we're driving anyway.

While I like my in-laws, I go mostly for my wife and daughters.  This year I've been looking for extra stuff to do on the way down and back.  Decided to go do "indoor skydiving" with the wife / kids on our way down.  It's the indoor thing where you're in a big wind tunnel with a giant fan pushing air through the floor.  I'm sure it won't be anywhere the adrenaline rush of bungee jumping this past summer, but should still be fun.

On to conquer day 28...

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 20.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/22/2018:
That's a good solid plan....and the indoor skydiving sounds like fun and a great activity to break up the car ride.

Donkey on 10/23/2018:
Good for you for starting to think ahead to the holidays. Me, I'm in complete denial, although I did buy my first Christmas gift 2 weeks ago.

I also like how you have planned for ACTIVITY for the holiday - keep moving! - in addition to some discussion regarding your food plan. Seriously, for holidays, planning ahead is really the key.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
who knows, once you are down to goal, one slice may end of being enough...if you have it more regularly (pizza)

oh i can't agree more that really low calorie restriction sucks...i used to do it quite well after a day of indulgence but it would backfire....very high days followed by really low days...oh how it sucked like you said...moderation is def a better feeling. the body once it gets more of what it really wants will begin to crave slightly more moderate amounts..

you have your experiences and knowledge from last year to help you change this year so it's not a repeat...i am sure you will do far better. keep reminding yourself what it is you want like you are doing here, it will work out. experience is what helps us do better each time!

graindart - Sunday Oct 21, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 189.8

Day 26 completed successfully.

Sorry I missed yesterday, nothing wrong, just was busy with other stuff and forgot.

Yesterday and today have been busy with little errand type stuff.  Nothing major completed and no major interuptions.  Weigh-in yesterday and today both peeked into the 180's again.  I was in the 170's for most of this Spring, up until the cruise in early June.  Since the beginning of June I've only dropped below 190 on a couple days in July, but quickly regressed and jumped back into the 190's and above.  I'm on a good string of successful days, but have been having thoughts of going off-plan recently.  It's that never-ending process of lose some weight and feel like rewarding my success.......by eating all of the junk I've been avoiding.  One day off plan usually adds 5 lbs to the scale and two days off plan can add up to 10 lbs on the scale. 

While I might like the momentary feeling of overeating for a day, I'm really not in the state of mind that would like to see the scale jump up 5-10 lbs.  Because of that, I'm planning on making it through tonight without going off plan.  We're having family over to celebrate my wife's birthday and I've decided not to cook tonight.  Going to order pizza and other stuff for the get-together instead.  Not the best thing for me, since I love pizza and have a hard time eating moderate portions of it, but I'll deal with it.

On to conquer day 27.....

Progress as of today: 93.2 lbs lost so far, only 20.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/21/2018:
I'm glad to hear that you're still on track. :)

Donkey on 10/21/2018:
Oh hey, congratulations on the new set of numbers!

happy-1 on 10/21/2018:
Ha! I did that for the potluck yesterday. Pizza is always popular! Good job!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
WHOA...how did i miss 3 of your entries in a row!?

i totally think the way you do (in your last paragraph)...sometimes that taste for a moment in my mouth of food that i want doesn't excite me when i know the damage calorie-wise it's doing to my daily calorie count...

i also avoid cheesy foods...pizza i do not eat much since i KNOW the calories are hard to estimate and are higher with the dough / cheese...and that it causes me to spike my sugar levels causing me to crave more...

yep....it's pick and choose in terms of diet...and life!

graindart - Friday Oct 19, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 191.0

Day 24 completed successfully.

Today is my wife's birthday.  Got up early and brought her home breakfast.  Used that as an excuse to pickup the flowers and treats that I next delivered to the school that she works at, along with a large helium balloon.  No one was in the school office when I dropped the stuff off, so I snapped a photo of the flowers / balloon and texted them to her when she was on the way to school, just in case no one knew who they were for.  Unfortunately I scheduled a work appointment for lunch time today, so won't be able to show up at her work to eat lunch with her, but I did pick up some of her favorites and packed her lunch for her last night.  Tonight were going out to one of her favorite restaurants (surprise). 

Since she's a girl, she gets more like a birth-week celebration.  Besides today, I surprised her be bringing balloon and treats to her church meeting thing on Wednesday.  On Sunday I've invited the family over to celebrate her birthday and will cook dinner for everyone.

As for her present, I've been working on installing the large heavy distressed mantle on the fireplace.  Bought a new larger smart tv and am installing it above the mantle to free up some space in the living room where we had the other tv sitting before.  Also reworked some wiring and fireplace controls to clean everything up and make it look better.  Am about 75% completed right now.  Will hopefully have everything done by 2pm, so I can spend the last hour cleaning everything up / vacuuming.

Even though I know it always happens, I'm still surprised at all of the little complications that have sprung up while completing this project.  In my mind I thought it would take 1 or 2 days.  It's now been closer to a week that I've had the living room torn apart, although a good portion of that has been having to order things and wait the couple days for delivery.

Will need to be very light on food during the day, so that I can eat something decent tonight at the restaurant and still not go over my calorie allotment.

On to conquer day 25....

Progress as of today: 92 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/19/2018:
This is a man who knows how to do a birthday right.

graindart on 10/21/2018:
Thanks, I try.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2018:
awww! Happy Bday to your wifey! and i sooo agree with Happy! She will be so happy (as i'm sure she always is having YOU as her hubby) but so happy surprised by what you did for her for her bday! so thoughtful!!

let me tell you, even myself as a single person...seems making plans is SO TIME CONSUMING!

but everything you did is so nice!!!!

graindart on 10/21/2018:
Planning stuff and running around to make everything happen does end up consuming a lot more time than I usually expect. Whenever it's a birthday (wife/daughters), anniversary, or Valentines Day, I usually end up having to take most of the day off to get everything accomplished. It's not a huge thing since I'm self employed, but it means catching up on work at other times.

graindart - Thursday Oct 18, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 191.9

Day 23 completed successfully.

Have some work to complete this morning, then taxi service for my daughters throughout the day.  In between things, working on installing a large mantle on the fireplace and mounting tv above it.

On to conquer day 24....

Progress as of today: 91.1 lbs lost so far, only 22.9 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 10/18/2018:
let us know how the mantle installation goes!

happy-1 on 10/18/2018:
Good job dadding today and staying on track!

graindart - Wednesday Oct 17, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 190.8

Day 22 completed successfully.

One of the parent drivers for my youngest daughter's field trip today to the corn maze.  I think we're scheduled to be at the maze for something like 4 hours.  I have no clue what is going to occupy that large of an amount of time.  I've been to the maze a couple times over the years and in my mind it's a 1 hour activity.  Maybe 2 when you figure in eating a leisurely sack lunch and talking with classmates.

On to conquer day 23....

Progress as of today: 92.2 lbs lost so far, only 21.8 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/17/2018:
I commented on the post you made to HOP about the pumpkin you made......also some dessert options that may satisfy a sweet tooth are there too. Can you walk through the maze with them? Could be a good way to get in exercise and spend some of that time.

graindart on 10/18/2018:
Walked around the maze and other activities, but it was pretty boring as an adult. The kids enjoyed it, but mainly just because they were playing around with friends and didn't have to sit in a classroom.

happy-1 on 10/17/2018:
OMG... there are actually still corn mazes in the US? How did I not know this?

graindart on 10/18/2018:
We've been to a couple over the past few years with the daughters. They're interesting if you get there right when they open for the season and go when it's dark with a flashlight. As the season wears on, the height of the corn drops quite a bit and the pathways get really well worn.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
I agree, 4 hours sounds long. Maybe lunch too...and also pumpkin picking etc....long day!

graindart on 10/18/2018:
I was bored after an hour. The kids were running strong throughout the entire time. Fueled by a combination of freedom, friends, and Mtn Dew.

happy-1 on 10/17/2018:
Spotted this... A non-candy advent calendar that teen girls will dig and thought of you.


graindart - Tuesday Oct 16, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 191.9

Day 21 completed successfully.

Trying to get my mind on work, so just a quick check-in here.  Daughters have a bunch of stuff going on this week, which means I'm doing a lot of driving around.  Just have to make it to Sunday and life will slow down quite a bit.

On to conquer day 22.....

Progress as of today: 91.1 lbs lost so far, only 22.9 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/16/2018:
Great focus and time management!

happy-1 on 10/16/2018:
If you are craving pumpkin pie, try mixing a can with vanilla protein powder, sweet potato mash, a little paleo pancake mix or oat flour (just stick some oatmeal in a blender) for texture, baking soda, pumpkin pie spice, and then monkfruit/stevia to taste. Bake and then top with cream cheese. Lots of fiber, protein, and hits the right spot. Freezes well. Variations can include chopped dates and pecans for a caramelized nutty flavor and extra texture/nutrients.

BearCountryGG on 10/16/2018:
There are a lot of ww canned pumpkin recipes that are crustless….and they are basically plain canned pumpkin, sugar substitute, pumpkin pie spices and possibly an egg....simple, you can just google pumpkin weight watcher recipes...there are tons of them and they are basically veg/fruit

Horn_of_plenty on 10/16/2018:
my really slow weekend has turned into considering driving to a wake of a family friend's sister....i don't think i can bring myself to go because: 1. i'm not close with that family anymore - my parents are 2. the person who died i don't even know her name 3. i couldn't bring a date to the wedding i had to go to for them in the summer and it was a sour experience 4. it's a slow weekend before the next couple really busy ones!

sorry so much driving...i understand what it's like to have to turn up for things that maybe you do not always want to do...like the long drives...although i KNOW you enjoy the reason why you do them! for your daughters !

Donkey on 10/17/2018:
It helps when there's an end in sight... unlike this weight loss thing :/ (LOL)

graindart - Monday Oct 15, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 191.1

Day 20 completed successfully.

Like usual I didn't have any real problem with not eating much during the day, but once I started eating around dinner time I really did not want to stop.

Tonight is the last home game for volleyball this season.  Have one more away game for the JV and then the season is done.

On to conquer day 21....

Progress as of today: 91.9 lbs lost so far, only 22.1 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/15/2018:
if you start to eat around dinner time, this is OK...just plan for a longer eating period with good eats during that time that work into your schedule...remember whatever you want to do you can do!! just plan it in!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/15/2018:
GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 10/15/2018:
Love your streak!!!!! How many days are you shooting for?

graindart on 10/16/2018:
As many as possible. Really tired of dieting and the see-saw action of the scale. Really want to get to goal and focus on maintaining. Dieting sucks and I'm tired of it occupying my brain all of the time.

graindart - Sunday Oct 14, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 191.4

Day 19 completed successfully.

Trip over, dog picked up, going to be an easier day today.

Scale was nice to me this morning.  Still had similar calorie counts over the past couple days, but didn't eat anywhere near as much popcorn as usual.  Thinking the popcorn and large amounts of salt have been keeping my scale numbers to drop.  Which probably means that now that I'm back home and will be eating more popcorn, the scale will probably go back up tomorrow.

On to conquer day 20...

Progress as of today: 91.6 lbs lost so far, only 22.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/14/2018:
Aw... the gang is all back together!

graindart - Saturday Oct 13, 2018
(30 days - weigh & post daily)
Weight: 194.4

Day 18 completed successfully.

It was under my calorie count, but wasn't what would normally be considered nutritional. Sunflower seeds, popcorn, and other little snacks here and there.

Heading back home after the vball weekend. 4 hour drive home and it's snowing. Packing snacks and drinks, so shouldn't have a problem staying on-plan on the way back, in theory again.

On to conquer day 19....

Progress as of today: 88.6 lbs lost so far, only 25.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/14/2018:
Sometimes the nutrition gets skewed when we're traveling. My vacation this week will be evidence of that, which reminds me, I need to buy protein bars for the trip.

Keep up the good work! You've got a good streak going!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/14/2018:
it's really good you pack snacks so you have a plan for success.

whenever i go too many hours without eating is when i have a hard time, so it's great you have those snacks.

even it's it's not the most nutritional day, at least you are planning for decent calories. this is a move in a positive direction.

keep on, loving this streak you have going on.

oh and i agree with donkey...since you are traveling and on the road, maybe change your expectations nutrition-wise :)

happy-1 on 10/14/2018:
Love your streak! Good focus!

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