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happy-1 - Sunday Sep 25, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

 Sun 9-25-22 7:15am:

Had a hard time getting to sleep last night. I lost my sleep headphones somewhere in the house a couple of days ago and sm waiting for a second pair to arrive today. Yesterday was tiring, I ate extra, and I got too run down by bedtime. More emotional. Everytime I closed my eyes I'd flash on hugging my mom or the nurse starting the morphine drip for my dad and sleep just wasn't happening without my Get Sleepy to distract me. I got up and had a turkey sandwich which was a mistake. Drove overnight sugars sky high and didn't charge my body battery. Supposed to go to park yoga again today (different park today). I have no energy.

I should get up and walk 10-20 min after each meal on top of the yoga starting today... but I don't feel so great about that... I turned Citizen app notifications back on on my phone after the shots fired outside my house a couple of weeks ago. I know my neighborhood isn't posh but it's not that bad... but I had no idea how many assaults there are daily. I carry pepper spray but I'm not feeling super hot. It's not as good but I think I will just ride my bike in my room after meals this week instead.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
Inch by inch…

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
Inch by inch…

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
7:30 ate an f75 meal. Then set up my bike to ride 20 min. Need to find my padded cycling shorts. I lasted 2.

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
12pm Home from park yoga. This time it was by the beach. I have showered and eaten. I should get up and do fitboard or bicycle for 10 minutes, but I need a little time, water, and pants. This park was full sun and I feel whooped. It needs to be an hour earlier… but I can live with this. I was a little stronger today than yesterday.

Thought more about yoga instruction… the problem is that if I wanted to do it for people at my fitness level I’d need to know all the modifications and adjustments… which would be super advanced. Which to get super advanced, you would need to do a lot of training.

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
Between 12 and 5pm I ate 4 servings of chocolate clusters 2(?) more cheese sticks, turkey, water with 2 true lemon flavor packets, 5 raw almonds, another Factor75 meal and an entire bag of Dang coconut chips. All low carb but I’m going to pay for it all anyway with high sugar. Also forgot to take glipizide before dinner.

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
6pm… ok, trend analysis is my crazy OCD habit (and also what I did for a living) but I think I cracked my blood sugar problem. On one 20mg Enalapril, no caffeine, full hydration in the 90% range, daily yoga, stable bedtime and consistent timing on meals…

Looking at my blood sugar rise after the Dang coconut chips and the factor 75 meals… all meals where there are no processed carbs (like keto bread, tortillas, crackers, spaghetti or tomato sauce) I will rise 5 points for every non-fiber carb eaten. By comparison I rise 10-15 points for every processed carb eaten, regardless of fiber content (shiritaki noodles, lupini bean pasta, monkfruit). Overlying it is a natural arc that is highest overnight and lowest at lunch…i think.

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
Oops both examples are processed carbs. Unprocessed carbs would be zucchini, almonds, cauliflower.

happy-1 on 09/26/2022:
10:15pm. In bed for an hour and change. Can’t sleep. Same problem as yesterday… too big a day. Worn out. Too tired to sleep. Trying not to snack but it is hard.


Jacky82020 on 09/25/2022:
A Turkey sandwich shouldn’t be so bad, guess it would all depend on the bread & whatever else. I’m going back out to Aldi’s soon to buy that keto bread Donkey mentioned.

What home A1C test do you use?

happy-1 on 09/26/2022:
CVS


Donkey on 09/25/2022:
I guess I'm lucky that my butt fits my bike seat alright. I have to have a throw-pillow behind me, though, to support my back. I catch myself slouching, where my hips start moving forward. Left unchecked, I suppose I would end up horizontal on the bike.

happy-1 on 09/25/2022:
I just haven’t done a bike ride in so long, I need to get used to it again. “Seasoning”


SomeFineDay on 09/25/2022:
Park yoga! That sounds like so much fun!

happy-1 on 09/26/2022:
It was! Especially because a friend came with.


SomeFineDayToo on 09/25/2022:
Do you have a treadmill? We bought one from some people who had to move. It was a good buy at a hundred. We have it by the livingroom big TV.

happy-1 on 09/26/2022:
I was thinking about one today. It might be worth a shot to get a used one when I move.


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happy-1 - Saturday Sep 24, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

Sat 9-24-22 6:30am

Had a dream where I got to hug my mom, with a strong sense of not enough time. Then my alarm went off. Have been crying a little.

9h of sleep, enough REM, and a 72 body battery to go do park yoga today.

Grrrr... Get after it. 

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
Inch by inch…

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
12pm home after gorgeous, sunny park yoga. Showered and back in my cave with Hulu and binge watching Big Sky. I suck 0.001% less as a human being.

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
And it was a little surreal…the instructor said I should become an instructor. Me? I’m half dead and can barely move.

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
I could call it “Mostly Dead is Still Alive Fitness”

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
Tagline “Have fun storming the castle!”

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
3:30 done porking out. Had f75 meal when I got home. Then threw in a PAf meal, cheese, turkey, pickles, 2 cheese sticks, 4 servings chocolate clusters, and a bunch of dang coconut chips. Oof.

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
On top pf the above, about 6:30pm I made myself a pepperoni pizza bowl with shiritaki noodles.

8pm - melatonin. Watching some lord of the rings thing.

A friend drove 2h to big bear to go to a yoga festival… and didn’t do any yoga!

https://www.bigbearyogafestival.com/schedule#saturday


Maisy! on 09/24/2022:
Hi, Happy! That’s sad about your mom. I’m sorry.


Jacky82020 on 09/24/2022:
72 sounds good! I didn’t realize you went to a park for yoga. Has it been really hot?


Rainbow! on 09/24/2022:
HUGS


horn_of_plenty on 09/24/2022:
How was yoga at the park!?

happy-1 on 09/24/2022:
Soooooo good. Going again soon!


Donkey on 09/25/2022:
I'm so jealous (not the right word) of your dream. I haven't been able to dream about Son much.

Yes, I could see you as a yoga teacher and finding it quite fulfilling.


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happy-1 - Friday Sep 23, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

 Fri 9-23-22 8am:

Sugar still too high. Not going down at all. 239. I don't know what to do. An adult fitness camp for diabetes might be the next step. 

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
8am. Let’s see what a low carb breakfast does. Factor75 meal. Spinach feta chicken.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
(Also, no stimulants or caffeine this morning.)

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
9 took IR med. sugar didn’t spike.

10 drank half gallon of alkaline water.

11:30 sugar dropped to 213. Holding out till 1pm to eat. Trying not to add any snacks or extras to meals today to see what happens with sugar.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
12.. remembered I’m shifting meals 1 h earlier to get a 4th meal in instead of snacks. Ate f75 meal. Sugar still dripping to 201

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
12:50 too hungry. Factor meal, 1 oz almonds

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
2pm still hungry, more almonds

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
(And at 172)

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
3pm, time for second glipizide before dinner. Sugar shot back up to 206 when I checked

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
4… tried 10 min of 60 min yoga. Sound bowl triggered migraine. Gave up… because that is just what I do now, I guess.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
4:50 back up to 232… aspirin. dinner. F75 meal. Almonds

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
5:30 2 keto pb cups. Last bite of cheesecake.


Jacky82020 on 09/23/2022:
Aren’t their diet books for diabetics that would have the best low card diets? Or tons of online info? Or some kind of medication if needed.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
I’ve tried a bunch of medications and have the rare side effects. Some make diabetes worse. Glipizide seems to be the only one I do ok on.

There are tons of books for diabetics. It all comes down to count carbs, exercise, drink water…. And take meds.

Not moving much July, August and 1 week in September really did me in… Now getting up and moving is harder. I’ve been trying to get to the chiro since tuesday.

My weight is the biggest issue. If I can drop weight I can control it better.

There are tons of online resources that will help me get to next level once I get basic habits back in place. My brain just isn’t absorbing anything new right now. By taking grocery shopping and cooking out of it I have more energy to do yoga, and I won’t accidentally mess up carb counts because I feel like poop.

I hope.


Jacky82020 on 09/23/2022:
*there. Damn autocorrect


Donkey on 09/23/2022:
Can caffeine spike sugar levels? Oh man, I'd be so sunk... I feel so frustrated for you. I'm sorry, I wish there was something I could think of that you haven't already. (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
Caffeine doesn’t spike them… that’s why diabetics think coffee is ok. It raises cortisol which raises blood sugar overall. It’s a higher baseline. The stimulant meds do the same thing, but without them I don’t function at all.

Tea has l-theanine which seems to have a neutralizing effect… for me anyway.


Jacky82020 on 09/23/2022:
It’s a constant struggle to be sure. I’d be wary of one of those camps. There was a magnificent building in San Diego overlooking the ocean. No identifying signage. I thought it was a drug rehab facility. Turns out it was an adult weight loss camp. Very pricey & sure people did lose weight there. Controlled tasty food, much comradery & a full schedule. But the results didn’t stick for the vast majority. So often the way with any diet plan.

You’re smart! You can make progress on your own or with the right group.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
I was thinking a week at a camp specifically for diabetes, in their structure, to learn to control sugars.


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happy-1 - Thursday Sep 22, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

Thurs 9-22-22:

y I did the last couple of days is working. My body battery is up to 75 and I got more REM sleep... still not enough but better. Not sure if I should still go to the chiro today, but doing it anyway. It will knock out yoga today, I think.

I think I will set paperwork back up in dad's room so I can sort itd by

Trying to cut out the snacking today. Breakfast was 1/8 cup coffee in almond milk, tofu scramble, soyrizo, cheese, avocado, zuchini. 

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
9am started a new sensor and ate a F75 meal. Wasn’t going to start a new sensor because of a potential beach day on Saturday or Sunday, but I don’t think I will even get there if I’m not monitoring. My sugar will be too high again and I’ll be too tired.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
9:30 about to leave for chiro when I got a high sugar alert at 239 when the new sensor activated. Fasting sugar was 185, so I just ate my healthy low carb tofu scramble because I was up so early (5:30) and then ate again at 9 before leaving for the chiro, figuring that two low carb meals back to back were fine but I guess not. Too high to drive. Asked if I could come in later. Augh.

I could take a Lyft but I have errands to do on the way back.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
10:19 It’s going down but not fast enough. Laying down and drinking water till yoga starts at 2:30. This sucks. This just sucks. I finally feel good enough to do stuff, got dressed did hair and makeup… can’t drive.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
Maybe it was the coffee this morning? Just a little bit to help me breathe.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
11, started coworking. Started with moving boxes of paper to the table to work on them and that’s as far as I got.

11:30 down to 217, stopping and drinking water.

It could also have been the IR meds in addition to the coffee.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
12:50 down to 177. Eating f75 meal over shiritaki noodles because I’m just too hungry to not get more fiber. Also, I need to eat to do yoga which will lower my trend over all

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
Also had a pb cup.

1:20 eating dropped me to 167. Weird.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
2pm had cheese, keto crackers, peanuts, dark chocolate cluster

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
3pm another serving of keto clusters. I know better, but I’m frustrated and hungry.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
3:30 pm did yoga nidra… a) not yoga. You just lie there and breathe. B) Body battery was not restored. I think I need the garmin upgrade for the algorithm breathwork.

5pm. Ate f75 meal. Followed it with 1 serving of chocolate clusters. Never buying these again.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
5:30… oh great. Blood sugar even higher than this morning… 255.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
8:15 checked sugar before bed… 290??? How???? The carbs don’t add up. Not supposed to but I took a glipizide because I don’t know what else to do about it. 2 oz almonds because you’re not supposed to take glipizide without eating.

happy-1 on 09/23/2022:
11 oops, right I forgot hig blood sugar and glipizide =s insomnia. F me.

I swear I can feel my arteries harden and fat cells expand as I lie here. Ugh.

I’m so fat.


Jacky82020 on 09/22/2022:
Healthy breakfast & overall improvement. Yay!

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
Ty!


Donkey on 09/23/2022:
What a frustrating day, I'm so sorry. (((hugs)))


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happy-1 - Wednesday Sep 21, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

Wed 9-21-22 10:40am

Slept 10.5 hours. REM and Body Battery came up a little. With the shorter day, I switched to IR adhd meds and they aren't enough... but I've eaten and now I am waiting for yoga at 12pm. It feels weird to skip paperwork to save energy for yoga, but I need to get my sugar down to be able to do anything. I don't know what else to do to break the cycle and get myself back up.

Maybe it's just the menu this week but Factor meals have changed. They are basically a hunk of meat, cauli rice, an uncomfortably large amount of cream cheese, more cheese on top and some flavoring. 

Also the cheesecake isn't good anymore.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 09/21/2022:
I read their food is loaded with sodium. Is that true?

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Yeah. I felt it when I tried to do yoga today.


happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
12 - got through 30 min of a 1 hour yoga class. I feel like I should have done the whole thing but the instructor was really hippie. A lot to take. I love yoga but I just can’t deal with the crazy cat lady stuff… even though she had a beautiful giant white dog in the background.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Lunch was a factor meal, followed by a peanut butter cup and probably too much cheesecake.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
3pm did another 30 min of a 60 min yoga class. I felt lame for bailing but at least I got a little stronger.

I seriously need some decent spotify playlists for the classes. Without mirror neurons firing from other people around me, I don’t have the inner strength to do it all the way through. I need a playlist to help me keep going.

Taking a break. I have a chiro appt but I can’t get it together to go.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Also the second instructor is big on breathwork and I wan’t feeling it. It’s just not something I can get into.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
I get so little done in a day, I feel like a jerk… but at least I am doing the food and the yoga and maybe next week will be better. I am tempted to buy fine point dry erase markers as a pick me up but it feels extravagant.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
4pm Bailing on chiro appt. Just no energy to get up and drive there. Asking for a morning appt tomorrow.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Dinner was the Factor75 salmon. 1830 calories for the meals plus however much cheesecake I ate. Not knowing the calories on the cheesecakes is probably a reason not to order them… plus they use granulated sweetner and it’s unpleasant.

Tackling dry erase calendar… I am as far as wiping it off

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
6pm. Had some peanuts. Still feeling snacky. Having some tofu scramble to eat a meal instead of snacking.


horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2022:
that stinks that the meals have changed. i do believe it!

they are constantly showing adds on my facebook.

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
They are still good, I just remember them being spicier. It might be this week’s menu. I don’t remember using so much tobasco and hot sauce on them before.

I didn’t wear myself out getting groceries and trying to cook… I’m able to use what little energy I have for yoga and the chiro today.


SomeFineDay on 09/21/2022:
Nice your catching up on your sleep!

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
I thought I was caught up buy I guess not!


horn_of_plenty on 09/21/2022:
it's true, cooking and getting groceries take a lot of time and energy...i'm glad you could use your energy on enjoyable activities today... :)

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Inch by inch… I will get stronger.


Donkey on 09/22/2022:
Some days just end up having less done than others. I think you prioritized well. Don't get down on yourself because you feel that you didn't get much done. Rest is so underrated.

I agree that it's too bad that the meals aren't what they used to be, but like you said, maybe it's just this week.

What does it feel like when your sugar levels are high? Physically, I mean.

happy-1 on 09/22/2022:
When I say crazy high, I mean 160-200. High enough not to be noticeable without testing, but high enough to mess with Body Battery endurance and sleep that night. It’s not enough to “feel” like anything except a little increased stress/anxiety, which is why I like the new Freestyle Libre 2 cgm, because it alerts at your custom threshold so you can link it more closely with what you just did wrong. The ones without the alerts meant I had to track all activities in 15 minute increments then go back like a detective and figure out what was driving it up. My alert is set at 180 right now… so if it goes off… was it because I ate while I was already too high? Was it physical movement? Was it supplements?

Getting on top of it.

With the meals… I think I am so exhausted that I don’t have the bandwidth to cook and do yoga… possibly also I am eating too many vegetables. I’m at the end of groceries and yesterday even if I’d had them delivered I would have ended up eating a pint of keto ice cream and a whole quest pizza because after putting them away I’d have been in comfort food mode.


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happy-1 - Tuesday Sep 20, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

Tues 9-20-22

Ate too many snacks yesterday because I was tired. Sugar is too high. I'm sure I gained weight. REM is also still too low... but better than yesterday. To my skipped 5pm yoga class last night I can add no showing for a 6:30am class this morning. Regrouping with a 30 min session at 9am. Even though I cleared the floor before bed last night, woke up at 5, and took meds on time, I couldn't get my head around vacuuming and setting up the mat first thing without tea and food first. So lesson here is go through the whole setup at night before bed for early AM yoga.

Reading on Reddit that soy everyday can mess with your hormones. Maybe my tofu scrables and veggie burgers are messing with my sleep quality?

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/20/2022:
Inch by inch…

happy-1 on 09/20/2022:
Meal prepped tofu scramble for the week

7:30 tofu, soyrizo, spinach, cheese, avocado, salsa, tea, almondmilk.

happy-1 on 09/20/2022:
Got a text from the caregiver ladies that they will be doing yoga with me on saturday and possibly sunday! Got off my butt and did 30 min yoga class. Got cramps at the end so skipped the next 30 min one.

happy-1 on 09/20/2022:
Claim to fame today was 1 yoga class, therapy, caregiver support group, being here for Factor75 delivery. Fridge is pretty empty so it is a good week for it. All I have left are 4 of my diy tofu meals. Easily worked in. So maybe end of next week I will have lower sugar. Had the first one today. Nothing I couldn’t do myself but I don’t have it in me to stand up long enough to make 18 meals for a week. 6 sure. 10 if I push it… but unrealistic for just me right now. I just don’t have the energy.

Moved chiro appointment to tomorrow because I’m just too PMS to move. Cat agreed that was a good idea.


Jacky82020 on 09/20/2022:
If soy messes with hormones than over half the world has problems. Main staple in many nations and has been for centuries. Most perfect food I know of. Short a few amino acids, easy to get elsewhere


horn_of_plenty on 09/20/2022:
i hope you get more rest; whenever i'm tired i also eat more.

happy-1 on 09/20/2022:
Hugs. Right? The body just wants double everything when it really needs a nap.


Donkey on 09/21/2022:
I've heard that about soy as well, but I feel that I don't eat it often enough to affect me like that. Jacky has a very good point about a lot of folks in the world using soy as a primary source of protein.

I loved reading that your caregroup ladies want to join you for yoga. Very hopeful!

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Yeah these ladies are pretty great… they wanted to do a meal train for me but that couldn’t possibly end well for me, and I mostly need to get moving so I asked for a yoga train instead.

And now, I will continue to show up for meetings to keep supporting others.


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happy-1 - Monday Sep 19, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

Mon 9-19-22 3:40am:

No log from yesterday. Everything was sore after yoga. Mostly across my shoulders and neck. I am really short on REM so I gave myself a day of bedrest and zoning out. I got a conversation with a wife of one of my dad's friends out of the way. It was more emotional than I was expecting. I'm a mess.

I then ate my emotions in the form of a cheeseownie. A block of cream cheese done up as cheesecake batter and dumped into a tray of brownie mix. No regrets.

Slept early but tons of nightmares in fragments. Mostly guilt at cremating my parents. Woke up at 2:30am unable to get back to sleep.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/19/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 09/19/2022:
4am - chai tea with monkfruit sweetner. I know better but it just sounded so good. I need to get a keto protein drink mix for it.

happy-1 on 09/19/2022:
10am Started clearing away papers on my desk. I don't feel great but I can do that. Reinforced how lonely I am and I started crying.

happy-1 on 09/19/2022:
4:30pm I renewed ompractice, but I couldn’t nap so no 5pm yoga class for me. The road to hell is paved with good intentions to do yoga.

Caught that Emergen-c has 8 carbs per packet in it’s 35 calories. My 2 packet a night habit could be driving up my sugar,


horn_of_plenty on 09/19/2022:
that looks good...this cheesecake brownie.

i'm so tired too...not enough REM.


Donkey on 09/19/2022:
Count me in with bad sleep too. Last night was a real pickle.

I think a cheeseownie is a great way to eat emotions. I mean, if we're going to go that route, at least make it yummy, right? It's been forever since I've had cheesecake.

I'm glad to hear that you gave yourself a day of rest & zoning out.


Jacky82020 on 09/19/2022:
That looks wonderful!


Donkey on 09/20/2022:
^ I like your comment above about good intentions to do yoga. *sigh* I really love yoga, so why don't I do more of it???

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
I think it’s body battery and mental energy.


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happy-1 - Saturday Sep 17, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

 Sat 9-17-22 7am:

Tweaked my neck last night with headphones in bed. I know better. Tossed and turned all night but I got sleep. I think a chiro package is in my future, multiple visits per week. Maybe it will fix my blood pressure, blood sugar, and REM. 

Today I heard my alarms. How did I not yesterday?

Yoga in the park today with the ladies from the support group. 2-3 years ago I made myself a yoga in the park kit with enough gear for 2 people and now I get to use it. Bringing the life boards may be overkill.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 09/17/2022:
A chiro package sounds like a lovely self-care thing to do.

Have fun at yoga in the park!!!


happy-1 on 09/17/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 09/17/2022:
I did yoga in the park. It was fun. The ladies were nice. I am glad I finally got to use the park yoga bag I packed a couple of years ago. I finally got my $30 worth for the extra tarps, blocks, mats, and bands I bought on clearance. I spilled my water bottle on mine so it is all hanging up in the shower to dry… another happy thing… I can use the gear drying rack my mom set up for me years ago. Love you mom!

I came home and ate my meal prep from yesterday, cauliflower and turkey sausage.

Was feeling pretty good until I had a talk with my aunt. No matter how much I am doing, she can come up with 20 more things I should be doing. Still, I am glad she still calls me even though dad has passed.

Tonight I will splurge and have a hamburger salad. Basically a salad with a burger in it.


horn_of_plenty on 09/17/2022:
My hair is nuts lately.ever since i accidentallly went about dying the whole thing, instead of just roots!

nice you got your hair done yesterday. I plan to dye mine today!

stay fierce!

happy-1 on 09/21/2022:
Sounds like a delightful treat!


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happy-1 - Friday Sep 16, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

 Fri 9-16-22 8:15 am

I'm trying so hard I swear... but I slept through all my alarms for a marathon 10 hours, had several good dreams, then woke up to not only not enough REM, but I slept through my fasting lab appointment. Ugh! Just UGH!!!! Vicious cycle I can't break.


 

At least I got a haircut yesterday. I finally cut out all the old bad dye. I just need to do a coconut oil mask and it will lif the colored conditioner... and I'll be blondish again. After a lot of sunlight.

Skipped blood pressure meds today. I need REM.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/16/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 09/16/2022:
8:40 - weighed in at 244.9, despite giant binge last night where I ate keto pizza, ice cream, coconut chips, and pumpkin seeds. I was just too tired after the haircut and overate because I didn’t have the energy to stop and make a salad before dinner last night. Also, I could really have used some protein first.

happy-1 on 09/16/2022:
Mostly sat on my butt all day because without blood pressure meds I can’t take ADHD meds. Ate planned breakfast then the other half of my keto pizza and ice cream from yesterday. Also way too many pumpkin seeds. I finished the bag. I should probably toss the bag of keto nacho chips before Factor order gets here.

1:40 Heard gunshots next door. Called it in. Nothing on Nextdoor.

Took a shower.

3pm - Finally feeling awake enough to do something and the day is almost over.

happy-1 on 09/16/2022:
8pm wind down time. Wide awake now. I think the blood pressure medication hit a half life end after 3 because I feel so much better.


Jacky82020 on 09/16/2022:
Reminds me! I need that annual blood draw. Made appointment for first time ever tomorrow at 9AM. Will walk out again if place is crowded

happy-1 on 09/16/2022:
Good job


SomeFineDay on 09/16/2022:
You need one of those old radios that wakes you up to awful music or a boring traffic report. LOL

happy-1 on 09/16/2022:
I have one! And my phone, cat, and alexa.


Donkey on 09/17/2022:
I feel the struggle. We know you are doing the best that you can. (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 09/19/2022:
Hugs


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happy-1 - Thursday Sep 15, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 243.4

 Thurs 9-15-22 7am

After yesterday's bed rest and nsp, plus sleep, I am in much better shape to take on the challenges in front of me. My body battery went from empty to almost full and it's a lot higher than it has been in a while.

 
 

With double portions at all meals I was able to avoid snacking last night and sugar was lower.

Not enough REM though... and what I did get was all nightmares. This one was of me taking my dad out with a caregiver, trying to drive with him in the car, he decided to drive instead, and we ended up getting carjacked. The last nightmare was that people had decided to move into the house and we couldn't get them to leave.

Still, I can do today.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 83.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 09/15/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 09/15/2022:
Breakfast was higher carb than yesterday (tofu, soy rio, mushrooms, onions, cheese) because I am out of avocados so I added a protein shake for more calories and my sugar shot up (8g carbs) so now I am tired, but at least I got up on time, ate, showered, and got ready for coworking.

Ate a snack 2 sting cheeses which will not help but I was hungry.

11 am coworking started.

happy-1 on 09/15/2022:
11:20 feeling really swimmy. Laid down for a break. Sugar is better today than yesterday but I am still struggling without my fill stimulant prescription.

happy-1 on 09/15/2022:
Tried binaural beats to lower heart rate and rest. Didn’t work without glycine first. Ordered more. I need to get on top of my supplement vost.

1. Ate a double lunch to avoid snacking. Rearranged my freezer and discovered the majority of it is stuff I can’t have because it will spike my sugar. Mostly ziploc bags of peas, carrots, rice, beans, etc. I do have 1 bag of spinach, salmon burgers, and a million bags of turkey pepperoni with 2 slices left, lol. If I had realized that, my grocery run would have been massive. I think I can get by till next week on what I did buy.


Rainbow! on 09/15/2022:
Wonderful you’re catching up on your sleep and recharging your battery!


Donkey on 09/16/2022:
I'm convinced that the key for me to recharge my body battery, according to Garmin, is to go to bed early. I'm not saying that would work for you, as I know that doing this approach doesn't work for Husband either. I should take a look at my scores over the weekend, and see if there is any difference in biofeedback, because I tend to stay up a little later. And sometimes I get up earlier to start my free day.

That's so funny about the turkey pepperoni bags -- sounds a LOT like my family.

happy-1 on 09/19/2022:
Yeah, not running it down past 12 seems to be the magic key for getting quality sleep and recharge. I should bite the bullet and upgrade to the Fenix 7 so I get all the bells and whistles you have.

I suspect if you look at your sleep window it moves around by more than half an hour a day which will also screw with your sleep quality. A consistent 2 hour wind down and bedtime is the most stabilizing thing you can do for sleep quality.

Too much turkey pepperoni is a good problem to have!!!


horn_of_plenty on 09/16/2022:
i've also been needed LOADS of rest this week to be able to face my days.



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