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happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 22, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

11 am -  I woke up late which screws with the adhd meds and had to sit around for an hour and a half waiting for them to kick in.

12 - Showered

1 - Despite having everything in place to simply slide out the door in the morning and be super productive, I did not leave house till 1. Grabbed cooler.

2 - Sat at coworking space trying to get my head around tasks for the day and intermittently eating out of the coler.

Have to get the unemployment form filled out, application for certification done, and fix my bills today, desperately, and all I can think about is the perfect camping menu. There is definitely an app in this. I don't see anything that really helps. Booo.

The problem is that when you prep fod for camping, you do it in stages:

A month ahead:

  • Menu planning
  • Print maps

A week ahead, shopping for:

  • Dry mix ingredients
  • Dry goods foods
  • Anything you are going to freeze to add cold to the cooler (meats, drinks)
  • Fuel for anything you are going to cook
  • Any produce or meat you will dehydrate
  • Anything you are canning/preserving yourself
  • Any preservation items you are taking for the trail to presere on the go.

A week ahead, prep steps:

  • Dry mixes (if you aren't using boxed stuff which is pricey and bad for you)
  • Dry goods packup
  • Fuel packup

2 days ahead, food shopping:

  • Produce 
  • Meat
  • Dairy
  • Firewood

2 days ahead prep: 

  • Freeze drinks for cooler
  • Pack dry box
  • Pack cookig equipment
  • Pack picnic supplies (I try for zero waste, but parchment paper really helps)
  • Charge devices

1 day ahead prep:

  • Pre-wash and chop veggies
  • Repack meats for the cooler
  • Repack condiments for the cooler
  • Meal prep "packed lunches"
  • Gas / Spare gas

Day of:

  • Pack coolers
  • Load car
  • Buy drinking ice

There's Plan to Eat, Moonlight, Trail Chef... but none of them let you add phases and assign a day or break up a shopping list by trip... or print separate prep steps by phase.

There's an app in this, I tell you.

6pm: Actually starting UI form. Applying to roles in Austin, TX a place I have always wanted to check out. A contract there would be fun. Was actually recruited for one a couple of weeks ago and botched it like an idiot because I wasn't emotionally ready. UDG has really helped me put my head back together and feel good. Scott not wanting a relationship with me really hurt. ****tard.


Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
Do you camp in a tent? Do you hike to the campsite?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Both. This time it is car camping. Still haven't left yet.

happy-1 - Monday Aug 21, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

High anxiety day. Massive PMS.

Application is due tomorrow for the class.

If I had a way, I would design a "Life Lessons" app. That way when someone asks me to dog sit and they don't have internet, and load their kitchen with pizza and junk food, it would pop up a reminder how much it sucks to be there.

It was a test of willpower but I did not eat anything.

I wish there were decent quality wide calf boots for women in size 12. These stop at size 11 :-(


Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/21/2017:
Good job with the willpower......I'm going to go look at those boots!

happy-1 on 08/21/2017:
Yeah... the problem with all plus size stuff is the quality is really bad. The shoes aren't made to last. It's like "well you're fat because you don't move so you won't wear anything out"

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/22/2017:
Good job not eating the junk food…did you bring your own food? That’s how I’d do it to get thru – I’d bring my own things to eat so that I wouldn’t be hungry..or I’d at least bring seltzer with stevia. !!!

Also, good luck with your application – you’ll pull thru. Lastly, when PMS is over, your anxiety will also lessen. I also get anxiety with PMS / period. Bye!

happy-1 - Saturday Aug 19, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

243... yikes. Still trucking on the challenge. I got behind logging my calories and I think that's how I gained. That, and all the fries and other cheats I ate.

Cancelled on a bunch of fun stuff this weekend because I am dog sitting again tomorrow. I forgot about how much work it is to go up there and how long a drive it is. I am working on my livingroom pile and making good progress. I have to go to the store tonight and get another duffle bag and repack my car... but after today I think it will be tamed. This is an awesome achievement because every day I have been waking up, looking at it and feeling defeated.

UDG hadn't done any of the tasks in the challenge so I was giving up on hik, which made him man up and start doing tasks. Yay! I do wonder what happens when I am not new and exciting anymore.

I think I deserve Yogurtland tonight.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/20/2017:
Yogurt is always good! One thing about guys....its better not to chase them...if they chase you..then they are already motivated. You deserve someone who loves you just for you...don't forget...you are worth it.

happy-1 on 08/21/2017:
Not chasing him. He's chasing me... but his health habits are terrible and he says he wants to lose weight... but not with his habits. He does have a gym membership but time management man... kills you every time. That's what the challenge is about so I invited him to the challenge. He joined but didn't do the tasks so I was going to give up on him but he started doing the tasks.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/21/2017:
I agree with BCGG.

There's a man i love so much, he doesn't chase me, so oh man it can't work! darn it!

Yep, fries will cause weight gain if eaten in abundance! haha.

I've never heard of Yogurtland, it must be frozen yogurt with all the toppings. yummy. Don't go too heavy on the toppings...! I usually just get a hair of coconut or chocolate shavings. but mostly eat the yogurt. and sometimes a little bit of fruit on it.

happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 16, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

#winning today. Got up on time, ate my meal prepped breakfast, skipped washing my hair, and made it to my appointment at the training center on time. Making progress on funding certification.  Next I picked up new friend K, a super cool market researcher, who lives 20 min south of me so we could work on our stuff at Panera and use my gift card for lunch. She's a sweetheart and kind of brilliant. I am working on my case study.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/16/2017:
GREAT STUFF....you sound productive and...HAPPY!

Take care for now and i hope you got some work done and had good eats at Panera! :-P

Donkey on 08/16/2017:
Thank you for the content on my diary! Means a lot to me ♡

happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 15, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Waiting for UGD to get off work... Actually sticking around till 11pm to catch him when he gets off. I made him a couple of days of meals to get him jumpstarted. I will probably never see my cooler, ice packs or tupperware again... but I'm just so happy someone finally wanted to do something with me it is worth it.

Really need to find a way to get my morning routine nailed down so I can just wake up in the morning and leave the house. My brain just kind of fritzes out and it takes me as much as 4 hours to get it together. Then I miss my workout opportunity. Partially it is that I get distracted by my dad's constant complaints and my dog doing stuff to get attention. It's also that I shower then I need to dry off a little and I get distracted. I can't function without a shower. I kind of think if my gym were closer it would be easier to get to and I could shower there after a workout.


Anyone do anything to streamline their morning routines?

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/16/2017:
Hello Happy Lady!

Lol UGD Must stand for Ugly Guy Dating, right!? Or something to that effect as you mentioned it last time. Haha…Wow you are actually sticking around till 11pm huh…impressive. He must be a worthwhile catch…or in your mind at least a worthwhile catch! Ahhh, I see why you find it worth it…yes, how nice to find someone to do something with you…how hard it is to find that in someone.

….Tell me about it! In total, I have found and met ONE MAN that has really, REALLY wanted to join me for so many things but I cannot keep up with him! I actually will have to limit what I suggest to this guy bc when I need a break last minute or I’m late, he gets angry and RIGHTFULLY so…he tempts me to want to do more, but I have to learn not to over plan when I’d rather just relax. He has more energy than me….and he’s already 57. I’m 34. A bit nutz if you ask me!

FOUR HOURS to get ready!? This only happens to me on the weekend as during the week I have my start time, 8am, which lately I need to leave my apt earlier for because I’m beginning to show up a couple minutes late which isn’t good…because no job (especially when I become NYPD!) is going to accept lateness. So I’ll be leaving earlier no matter how tired I feel and how slowly I choose to get ready…lately I think my hamster is slowing me down bc I choose to take him out in mornings as lately he’s still sleeping at night when I’m going to bed, LOL…so I’ll have to get up earlier as to not always be rushing last minute. I just have to plan better….so I guess I’m just as bad as you if I’m being slowed down by a freaking rodent! LOL.

YES! OMG! I can’t function without a shower either! This is my weekend problem. Until a shower, I have the excuse to not leave the house and be lazy. I think you helped me solve me problem, for sure! I will have to learn to get up and take a shower RIGHT AWAY and stop saving my shower till right before I leave on weekends. I’m seriously going to try this thing out…of showering right away even on weekend mornings. It’ll solve HALF my laziness problem bc then if my friend wants to hang out, I can, and I’ll NOT BE LATE bc it’s always my late shower that gets me late on the weekends! Yay, thanks for your help, HAPPY.

So, to streamline my weekend mornnigs (and I already do this on Weekday mornings), I shower FIRST before everything…before breakfast as well.

happy-1 on 08/17/2017:
It should probably be UDG - Ugly Dating Guy... Now that you point it out. It's not so much that he's a catch... I don't think a 50yo ptsd vet who is 160+ lbs overweight, in ****ty health, works part time, and lives with family (even if he's paying rent) is on anyone's list... But it's just so nice to get the attention and have someone to talk to. I'm not on anyone's catch list either and it's just nice to feel wanted and do something that I like to do for a change. I'm hoping some physical chemistry will happen as I get to know him. Who knows where it ends up? Just being open.

happy-1 - Monday Aug 14, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

242.2.... normal weight fluctuations. Hoping for more controlled weight loss this week. I don't want extra skin.

Shocker of shockers... uglydating dude signed up for my fitness challenge to be my goal buddy. Yay!

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/14/2017:
you will NOT get extra skin overnight...keep doing the good work...and you sound like you are active, so less extra skin....keep doing the good stuff lady.

happy-1 on 08/14/2017:
Yeah, remember that I have yo-yo'd a few times and already lost more than 67 lbs. i just stopped weighing myself at 308. I weighed a lot more than that... i don't want to lose weight but be uncomfortable in my body and still unhappy. Slow and steady!

happy-1 - Saturday Aug 12, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Down another .4 lbs!!!! Crazy. I can't believe how hard it is to eat enough calories on this challenge. Going to have to start adding more somehow. It is weird because I just don't really feel like eating.

Puttered around at the coworking space until my mom called at 11pm. I had my workout clothes on I just didn't have the energy to do anything else. I was cranky pants and upset/frustrated after the call... mostly that I have made my parents so uncowith my dog there that they have to call me to come feed and walk her when they used to help out. I want very badly to be a better person.

I turned my cranky energy into cleaning energy and made progress on the living room pile. I put all my dog travel and camping gear in the new duffle bad and made her a travel grooming kit. Then I went through my bucket of collected medical stuffand sorted them into platic bags for future processing into individual firstaid kits. This cleared up a big path and represents a big improvement.

I think I went to bed about 3am. I woke up at 11:30. I hate waking up late. It feels like a waste of my life and also puts me doing chores in the hottest part of the day.

I woke up, took my meds and peed, then discovered in the couple of minutes I was distracted, my poor old dog peed my bed. Definitely an accident, she's been apologizing all day. I walked her immediately, got out the brand new bottle of denaturizer I literally bought a couple of days ago just in case... and went to work. Made breakfast and sausages for the week, pulled laundry together, packed my changing tent for snorkeling together and was inspired to put together the sweet potato planter project I started in the beginning of the summer but abandoned like many other projects. I still need to put dirt and plants in it, but it is started and that's half the battle.

Got a little distracted in the middle texting the guy from ugly dating. We were talking about sleep and sleep apnea and habits... in the middle I realized I am doing the "I can't save my dad, but maybe I can save him" thing... so i sent a bunch of texts explaining my situation, why the 60 day fitness challenge is so important to me and sent it to him so he can see if he is interested in it.

Before I can leave to go to the hotel to go snorkeling tomorrow (2 hours south), I still need to clean up the back patio with the new bottle of concrete dog pee cleaner I just bought and move trash cans over her favorite spots.

I am staying in a hotel instead of staying with Scott since it seems a little weird to try to crash at his place if I am talking to the guy off ugly dating. Scott is all put out that I am not staying with him if I am in town. I dunno I'd want to even if I wasn't talking to that guy. Scott really hasn't made me feel welcome the last couple of times I was down and I swear he isn't paying attention to anything I say, just blows me off. If I had bailed on seeing my ex as soon as I felt ignored or unwelcome, I would be a much happier person today.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/14/2017:
Hello Happy!

Congrats on the loss…why do you want to eat more????? It sounds like you are HAPPY to lose weight, Ms. Happy!? So why eat more when you don’t even feel the need to!?...just keep on, lady!

Yeah, if it IS YOUR DOG, makes sense for you to do it….although I know dogs are A LOT of work and would be nice if they did want to help…this is why I only have a hamster…..and he has an eye infection! So terrible! I am currently doing some home treatments…crossing my fingers they work bc I am NOT going to a vet with a hamster…NO WAY. I have decided to leave the vet out of it!

Lately bc I have actually a real life on the weekends, I am wearing SO MUCH more clothes because I actually do things on the weekend….and man….i have already a full load to wash…good I have a pretty open schedule for this weekend. I should really use it to MOSTLY do my own thing :-P YESSSSS!

Wouldn’t you rather SAVE YOUR $$$ and stay with Scott? That’s what I would do…!

happy-1 on 08/14/2017:
Yeah, that's what I was hoping, but he asked me to come down Tuesday then blew me off Wednesday when I asked and then got mad at me for not staying with him friday when we were texting... so it kind of made me just one more notch towards "never touch me again".

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/14/2017:
yeah, not a nice feeling for men to get angry at us ladies. got you on that.

happy-1 - Friday Aug 11, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.6

Broke my plateau weight by a pound!!!! Yes!!!!

Joy is slightly marred by my dad trying to make breakfast and asking for bigger pans, different butter. Ugh.

Gotta get moving.

Progress as of today: 67.4 lbs lost so far, only 60.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/11/2017:
lol....tell your dad if he wants diff pans & butter to pay for them himself! hahaha.

why fix anything if they aint broken (butter and pans!)

congrats on your weight loss!

happy-1 on 08/11/2017:
Lol, thanks. He wanted to make me breakfast to celebrate and needed a bigger pan and got flustered. Still it is nice to have someone want to make me breakfast.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/11/2017:
yeah, for sure!!!!! as long as you like to eat that breakfast :)

happy-1 on 08/11/2017:
He made eggs topped with cheese. I added a sweet potato, sausage, and broccoli and gave my mom half. She was pretty happy with her sample bodybuilder breakfast.

Also weirdly, and it might be the supplements in the challenge... but the scary bulging veins on my legs that kept me from wearing shorts at the beginning of the summer are gone. So is a bunch of cellulite.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/11/2017:
oh that's great that you are improving your body with the diet and also exercise! good lady!

happy-1 on 08/11/2017:
yeah... I dunno how many days into the challenge I am, but I had terrible scary varicose veins and was thinking about getting laser treatment and they disappeared.

happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 08, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Having an anxiety and loneliness day. Not terribly useful emotions. To top it off I'm hitting an emergency preparedness meeting that will reinforce that in the zombie apocalypse, I will be the first one eaten.

Breakfast/lunch on plan, lack of snacks made me veer off course and devour a piece of pumpkin pie with whipped cream. It was perfection. I took the cornbread to go for my dad.

Oversleeping this morning, hanging at home to organize my dog go bag, the long drive to Santa Ana, stopping at big lots and target, and just spacing out at the restaurant meant that I did not get a workout in today. Bah. Not an area I want to go for a run in after the meeting either. Maybe I should have signed up for 24 hour fitness over planet fitness as it is closer to home. I could easily hop off the freeway and hit it tonight on my way home. Or even a treadmill. Unfortunately my parents neighborhood is scary at night and hot in the daytime.

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/09/2017:
do you experience loneliness often? lucky for me, it's an emotion that takes me a LONG time to feel thankfully. I am good doing things on my own...but lately i seem to prefer to do everything with my friend, Ricky. First time in my life that my closest friend is a male! and he's over 20 years older than me, too. He doesn't act it, though.

Lol, sounds like you are eating Thanksgiving food in summertime ! well, in fact you are! Where'd you get the pumpkin pie?

I hope you get a nice workout in soon :-P

happy-1 on 08/15/2017:
At Marie Callendars. Doing better with ignoring stuff not on my diet.

happy-1 - Monday Aug 07, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 241.6

Day x of x of putting fitness first. Today I did it by buying stuff on the diet and other things I need to be ready to go 5 days in a row.

Day 7 of 60 day fitness challenge

Forgot to weigh in. Today is usually my lowest day of the week. Dammit. Also, looking at the Garmin scale vs the Fitbit scale, the Garmin scale is way more advanced.


Woke up at 6:00AM on time!!! Walked my dog a decent walk!!!

B: sausage, 2 eggs, cheddar cheese, kale, sweet potato tots

8:30 AM Got to orientation early! YAY ME! Left important papers at home and had to go back and get them! DOH!!! Did a Marshalls run for workout towels and Trader Joes for sweet potatoes then headed to coworking space.

L: Trader Joe's Chicken Cobb salad, garbanzo beans, 1 diet gingerale

S: Water and a protein cookie.

Reorganized bag and listened to meditation tapes till I felt calm.

Debating a woven watchband for my fitbit charge 2. I kind of dig this one in green, but am not sure it is dressy enough. 


5pm S: Trader Joes Kale Chicken salad with garbanzo beans

---- Forecast:

8pm D: Sweet potato, 1/3 chicken breast, broccoli

9pm 35 min of cardio and whatever the challenge has on the floor mats. Shower at the gym.

10pm bedtime


Tried logging my calories on Fitbit today. Here's the readout:

Daily Totals




121.9 g


52.8 g


191.4 g


4998.2 mg


151.3 g

Progress as of today: 66.4 lbs lost so far, only 61.6 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/08/2017:
I just have a regular scale, digital, that does a great job. It's so accurate, i do love it :) I've had it for approx 1.5 years and it does the job!

Your meals are great...smart lady to add kale to breakfast. Dinner sounds very healthy and I like seeing that you are eating sweet potatoes - i should really still work on this end of my diet (less popcorn / chips / crackers - and more whole grains and/or potatoes.!

happy-1 on 08/08/2017:
I'm just shooting for a 500 calorie deficit to lose no more than 1 lb a week. I am deliberately going slow so I don't have extra skin.

horn_of_plenty on 08/08/2017:
I think your plan is perfect :-)

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