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happy-1 - Saturday Sep 16, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

My replacement Fitbit Charge 2 has arrived! Life can resume again. I have been floundering without it!

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/16/2017:
I have something like that but didn't use it much because I didn't really understand it...and now that I'm using Ethernet instead of wifi I was afraid I couldn't use it...do you know about Ethernet with fitbit?

happy-1 on 09/18/2017:
Fitbit connects to your laptop by the charging cable or to your phone via Bluetooth.

If I was going to buy a new one I might be tempted by a Garmin, but Fitbit is supposed to be better for people who want to be social with their fitness motivation. Like we could all add each other on Fitbit and there would be a leaderboard and ability to cheer each other on.

Except HoP is going to be a cop and lives in NY so she'll always be at the top of the leaderboard

Horn_of_plenty on 09/17/2017:
Lol too funny, you know you can live without your fitbit haha.

happy-1 on 09/18/2017:
But I am so much more motivated with it

bearcountrygg on 09/18/2017:
Ok...so then I might still be ale to use it without having a wifi router then...I need to dig it out I guess...and give it a try again.

happy-1 - Friday Sep 15, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Was 2 inches taller and 4lbs lighter at the doctors office today! Fingers crossed for good bloodwork too off the 60 day challenge!

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/16/2017:
You grew 2 inches? Yeah for the pound loss!

happy-1 on 09/16/2017:
I think the curvature of my spine and neck is better so I am my normal height again. At 5'10" I am still the shortest woman in my family. In all the family photos, I'm the midget. In all the achool class photos, I'm the tallest kid in my class.

bearcountrygg on 09/16/2017:
Well that can only be a good thing, I have to remind myself to look straight ahead sometimes...I have a tendency to watch where I'm walking instead...

happy-1 - Sunday Sep 10, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Sunday night and I am getting ready for a second round interview tomorrow. I had lovely references from past coworkers and managers. Hopefully I will kick ass and take names.

Trying to prepare for the interview, but all I can think about is emergency preparations. The 8.2 earthquake that hit Mexico usually travels north to us afterwards on that fault line... Also, Irma is about to take out my mom's condo. She's here with me so she's ok, but she left the family photos in the living room in front of the window... and they are about to be under 6 ft of water. She does not have insurance and the cleanup and repairs may be more than she can pull off. Very anxious.

Still chatting with UDG. A little conflicted because I like him a lot, but worry that if we take it to the next level, it'll give him a heart attack... And that's not sexy. He had a hard time just getting into his car the other night. It was a full on sweaty workout to get into the car seat and the seatbelt fastened. I want someone who will be around for the next 20 years and the way he's going... more than a couple of months would be a gift. Still I feel better whenever I talk to him and that is a quality I can't pass on.

I am still on the online dating sites... But not pulling in any winners. Did get some haterade for posting a current photo of myself rock climbing at REI ladies night. "What do you weigh? You must not go hiking very often judging by how fat you are!" I should have told him to go back to diddling himself in his mom's basement but I blocked him first and can't undo it to send a nastygram back.

Need to get it together and start hitting the gym every day. Read an article on http://fitwithvicki.com/ that suggested if you are over 200 lbs, you need to work on diet and small improvements first and don't worry about exercising every day. It sure feels like that's all I can manage.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/11/2017:
I'm glad to hear that your mom is safe...I know photos are important...hopefully they were spared. Sweaty guy sounds like he could use a diet buddy...do you think he would go for that? The other isn't worth your time or energy...at the rate he is going he will never find someone to put up with his mouth.....I agree hat cutting back on food should be done for people over 200...exercising is hard at this weight and toning up will be more important later...and it always amazes me how few calories are actually burned with exercise....taming the food monster makes the most sense. Of course we should be getting SOME exercise...jut not so that it is overwhelming. My husband and I both have some health issues right now that demand we lose weight...and I guess that scared us into getting really serious, yesterday he hit 200 and he hasn't been there in 20 years...he has cut back and he's eating lots of fresh raw vegetables and fruit. We are both so happy ....I just got serious a few days ago...and oddly..it is now easy...I guess the motivation is the mot important thing.

legcramps on 09/11/2017:
I think whatever changes you can make now are only going to help you later, so whatever you do - change up your diet or start an exercise routine - you rock it and you'll get to where you want to be!

happy-1 on 09/18/2017:
Hugs. Ty!

horn_of_plenty on 09/11/2017:
Hi Happy!

I am glad to hear that the 1st round went well – good luck today!

I def do NOT think you should take if too far with this guy. Sounds to me you need somebody a little more active, Happy!

I’m glad you were proud of yourself and don’t take the hater’s comments to heart. Anyone that can send hate and nasty comments on someone’s body obviously has a lot of self-esteem issues of their own going on!

Yes – in order to lose weight it’s more about diet and less about the exercise. You don’t wanna diet too strict, but you do need a calorie deficit which is easier to achieve thru diet than exercise. I know from experience and agree with all the literature!

Take care and stay Happy, HAPPY!

biscottibody59 on 09/12/2017:
Welcome (belatedly) to DDs!

Looks like you're in the game and that's the main thing. Keep up the good work!

Good luck with the interviewing!

happy-1 - Thursday Sep 07, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Back from Catalina. Oi... real life. Was up late last night doing laundry and putting the house back together.

Woke up: 9:45 B: 4 packs of trail mix, matcha L: greek frozen yogurt bar at 3pm. Super hungry but fridge isn't organized enough to find food. Spent morning cleaning... chicken/egg problem. Must clean fridge to find food. Must find food to have will to clean fridge. Only the strong will survive S: Cleaning out fridge and snacking my way through. 2 pieces of cheese, 2 hardboiled eggs, snap peas, matcha

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/07/2017:
Always nice to get back home from a trip....after the clean up that is.

happy-1 on 09/10/2017:
OMG 3 days of being a kid again. Can I go back????

horn_of_plenty on 09/08/2017:
Hello Happy!!!

I see you are STILL an addict of those trail mix packets….this is probably the particular reason I do not keep any at home….but if you want to try to have only one packet, the tip is to have your matcha ready so that by the time you are finished eating the 1st packet, the match is in your hand ready to deliver to your mouth! This is literally how I do things!!!!!!!!! To stop eating, I have the drink READY so that it’s not like I stopped with the food, still putting something in my mouth, just not any more calories….

I know what you mean by wanting to eat and then do the work….i am same! If I am hungry, that’s all I think about and really don’t like to do work until I’ve satisfied my hunger either lol…

Seems you have a good mix of snacking foods in your fridge….but yeah sounds like you are ready to go shopping soon for more ! LOL….happy FRIDAY!

happy-1 on 09/10/2017:
Hugs! Yes... I love trail mix but my bodyfat does not.

Donkey on 09/09/2017:
Welcome back!!!

happy-1 on 09/10/2017:
Hugs! Missed you guys!

happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 30, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Ugh, didn't even realize there was no evacuation order for Houston till I read this... http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2017/08/28/546721363/why-didn-t-officials-order-the-evacuation-of-houston

Interview today. I am a little worried because I don't really understand the company... it is a cashback rewards program that watches your credit card transactions, but if it is able to see all items purchased, that's a lot of data to give up about yourself. Scary.

Up:8:45 B: matcha, overnight oats

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/30/2017:
Wow..that is scary....be very careful about giving up your privacy rights...Did you google the company to see if it's legit?

innerpeace on 08/31/2017:
Yes this entire situation is devastating. I cannot believe they didn't learn more from Hurricane Katrina, as I was activated to help with this situation and after, sealed the deal for me to retire. It was the worst feeling ever and from there I lost all hope and faith in the human spirit and learned....

Evacuation order or not, couldn't one as a thinking for oneself human being take care of themselves and leave the area without being told by a city official?

I just read this morning a tropical storm could turn into a hurricane by the end of the week, headed for Florida. If I was in Florida, I would be making arrangements to leave now...and then again one could always choose not to live on a coast line.

I hope you did well on your interview...if you went. I hope they were able to explain the job and/or company to you.

horn_of_plenty on 09/01/2017:
Good luck on interview...but everywhere and anywhere we always give up data about ourselves - a famous person once said that he couldn't even write a formal business letter without revealing something about himself!

happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 29, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Turning in the training funding application today.. I am so nervous about it and had such a hard time putting it together. Part of me assumes I am going to get turned down and another part of me slaps that part and says don't be stupid. Being afraid you will get turned down doesn't mean not doing it at all so you aren't disappointed is the right thing either. Suck it up cupcake and just show up and see what happens.

So I am at the workforce center waiting for my appointment.

29 days into 60 day challenge. With this next half I want to build on my regular 7-8 hours of sleep and elimination of simple carbs.

Missed my workout today though. I really need to move to a closer gym.

Breakfast: matcha, overnight oats

Lunch: black beans, cheese, enchilada sauce, kale, sweet potato chips.

Snack: cheese stick, 2 hardboiled eggs, carrot sticks, hummus

Snack: paleo brownie, 4 tbsp frozen yogurt

Dinner: porkchop in mushroom gravy, mashed potatoes, kale

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
Yup...think positive you never know.

horn_of_plenty on 08/30/2017:
Yes, i agree that you should think positively about the application! Just like the lotto - "you gotta be in it to win it!"....

Wow so already you are halfway into the challenge! amazing!

Yes, i like to have a gym as close as humanly possible....that's def most convenient especially if it's bad weather, my gym i can only go via local roads which is good during storms not to have to be on a highway....

with gyms, they are best when they are able to add convenience into our lives rather than too many obstacles and/or frustrating challenges!

happy-1 - Monday Aug 28, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Still PMS. Still a little crazy/cranky. Worried I'll have it while I'm supposed to be snorkeling Catalina and a shark will eat me if I go in the water. Aaaaargh!

Ate two slices of pizza today, but tomorrow is another day and the giant living room pile is No More! It is conquered. Sorted! Boxed! Dejunked!

Next step is to figure out what to do with it all and clean the carpets. I should probably buy a carpet cleaner so I can do it in small patches, but balk at spending $200 when I am unemployed and it isn't something I should buy used.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
yeah...for conquering the pile of stuff!

happy-1 on 08/29/2017:
Yeah... still need to figure out what to do with it all. Not a normal looking living room dining area by any means, but one step at a time, one box at a time.

horn_of_plenty on 08/29/2017:
Lately no PMS but bad pimples. I think was was stressing when a friend came to NYC and i was planning with her and the pimples showed up directly when she went back home to France!

Lately instead of PMS, i'm just EXTREMELY TIRED and been craving sleep. So just taking it as easy as possible at work.

bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
Hysterectomy at 48...I had forgotten about PMS

happy-1 on 08/29/2017:
Hugs! Hope you feel better now.

bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
Oh yeah...I had fibroids and really bad endomettiosis and ovarian cysts..the hysterectomy solved all of that...instant menopause...LOL

happy-1 - Thursday Aug 24, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Didn't get everything done today but I didn't yesterday either so I might as well just call it a night and go to bed on time. I ate a lot of junk tonight in a hormonal meltdown... an ice cream sandwich, personal pepperoni pizza, and a chocolate chip cookie. Going to bed early is my best first step to getting back on track.

Heard from Scott today. He has new apple earphones and wanted to rub it in. I should have responded with the finger.

Sent me into a Tinder fidget widget storm. Realized it was unproductive and deleted my profile again.

Ugh. Where is the decent dude I can connect with?

Hugs kiddos. If you need to hug yourself, that's cool too.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/26/2017:
Hormones are truly a cross to bear. They make life difficult, but without them, life is difficult.

happy-1 on 08/28/2017:
Hugs, no kidding.

bearcountrygg on 08/26/2017:
UGH...He doesn't sound like he is good for you.

happy-1 on 08/28/2017:
Lol. I told him not to call me for a week today... that I am too PMS and he may lose a testicle.

horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2017:
I don't see a lot of decent dudes anywhere!

HUGS back to you!

happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 23, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Feeling a bit better this morning. Delayed my camping trip by a day. Decided to stick around at home and try to work here today so I don't have to reset and recover at the coworking space. Also put my membership on pause there. There is going to be a remodel and I don't want to be there while that's going on. I have bad asthma.

Breakfast: Mixed nuts, matcha

12: Sat down to work. Started with cleaning out inbox while the Design on a Dime episodes play in background for pleasant happy sounds.

1:20 - Hungry and parents finally left. Faced the enormity of trying to deal with the mess I created there. Washed down counters, swept floor, matched up tupperware for packing cooler, dug sweet potatoes that are cooked out of fridge, ordered replacement parts for slow cooker I destroyed, then ate some food... an hour later.

2:30 - Starting work again. Looking for jobs on angel list to apply to. Realized my linked in profile and resume still say I work at my last job presently... 3 months later. *facepalm*

Digging through the gigs... Super complicated stuff that makes me want to run to a dev bootcamp so I can have a job where I get to hide a lot. *sigh*

While I tried to find 12 jobs I am qualified to apply for... I did things like:

  • make dinner (chicken sausage and peppers in red sauce over shiritaki noodles) for my parents
  • dump out and sort the last remaing junk in the living room pile from hell...  into 1 bucket of toiletries, 2  buckets of hardware... for further sorting. So close to nailing it down and killing it forever I can taste it. 
  • get into a huge squabble with my mom. I destroyed her crockpot by melting the lid to my cooler dry boxes on it and killing it forever (aaack) so I called the manufacturer and ordered replacement parts. She got it on special for $15, the replacement parts with shipping were $25, a new one was $35 plus tax... I thought it was cheaper than ordering pizza and healthier so I did it. My mom flipped her lid when I said I paid $25 for the parts... Full on "What's wrong with your head? I'm worried about you! You're broke!" (I am not broke just being mindful of my budget and it looks like I am broke to her because I am not spending unlimited amounts on groceries or every little thing they want done). I eventually yelled back that she wasn't helping, and that if she really was worried about me she should stop interrupting me and let me go back to applying for jobs and stop wasting my time over a $15 crockpot. I cannot be without a working crockpot and mine is a piece of junk that I can't use a timer with
  • eat dinner
  • bring in stuff from the car and all the water bottles they bought, dropped all over the porch and left there
  • make a run to the store for water and ice for the camping trip
  • talk to UDG about tomorrow and discovered that he is behind on filing his taxes... and just pays whatever they are whenever he renews his license. I was horrified... felt blackness just coming in around the edges of my vision
  • somehow though that removed whatever my block was and I then filled out all my applications

1AM - Done with applying for 12 jobs and submitting my UI claim form like a responsible adult.

Did nighttime routine of washing dishes before bed and putting on a load of laundry. I must have used every dish in the house today making spaghetti sauce. Augh. Took 3rd shower.

2:43 am in bed w/ benadryl

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/23/2017:
Yeah, better off going to Starbucks for that time instead of coworking space for now...until the place is renovated! Good luck with your work and safe upcoming travels!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Corner Bakery has actual food and better ambiance.

bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
I have asthma too..it's miserable.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Hugs. I feel you. Have you tried Breatheasy tea from Sprouts? It helps me in the winter when there's lots of mold and pollen.

bearcountrygg on 08/24/2017:
Never heard of it...thanks for the heads up////I'll try it!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/24/2017:
No, never tried those chips in coconut oil...i think they might be a tad to "delicious" for me (meaning: not low cal at all!) but they sound natural and healthy! yes...

nice on the shirataki noodles! i didn't know you ate them! I used to, but, due to the fact that they are indigestible, i do not buy them anymore because they'd bloat me causing terrible gas and would take like 2 days for me to poop them out!

i love those shirataki noodles, but because i'm always working and at gym they caused to much problems. I may eat them a couple times in the late fall, maybe, if i get a day to myself!

i really MUST learn to use a crockpot. I'd have endless healthy dinners that are homemade. I'll learn to use one in late fall!!!!!!!! i'll be home more often on weekends and in December too.

Before NYPD academy i need to learn the crockpot so i can eat better AND MAKE food for the week each week while i study on the weekends at home! YES...i should use a crockpot on weekends in the winter so i can cook while i study!

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
I use it in the summer too for baking sweet potatoes, rotisserie chicken, ribs, pulled pork, corn on the cob. If you are going to do an investment, buy one with a stainless steel insert so you can brown on the stove and then slow cook.

innerpeace on 08/24/2017:
As always, I feel myself needing to almost hyperventilate after reading your entries.

I do not know how you handle everything, but kudos for doing it.

Have fun camping and stay safe.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Ooops. Sorry. Didn't mean to impact you that way. I struggle with time management which impacts my diet, exercise, and sleep. I try to track my time and stress and figure out my triggers for skipping basic stuff and not losing weight. I read your entries and feel like you have the harder time and always want to send hugs.

happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 23, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Went through the application work today and discovered that it is a lot more work than I thought. Very upsetting. It is also getting hard to find roles I qualify for. When did everything I do suddenly require an engineering degree or an MBA? I wish I had done something less technical as a career. Very dismal. Ate a slice of pizza and then a personal frozen pizza and some Taro chips.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/23/2017:
YOU WILL BE OK!!!!!!!!!!!

Love those taro chips!

LOL, what a weird mix of fresh pizza and then a frozen pizza....! i am SURE the fresh was better!?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
I finally finished the giant bag from Costco. Never eating them again. Have you tried Justin's sweet potato chips fried in coconut oil? I bought two bags for my camping trip and will tell you how they were.

bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
Maybe find an entry level position and work your way up?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
I wouldn't mind that if it was a digital agency and gave me that on my resume. The issue is that the senior people are all dudes in their 20s who don't want to train a 40yo fat chick with issues, lol.

bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
From my past experience, proving yourself to a company is of the most importance. Arriving on time, getting work done in a timely fashion, showing dedication to the company and it's smooth operation. Proving yourself to be valuable to them is what gets and keeps jobs. A degree may get a person in the door but a good work ethic keeps them there. Personally I have never been fired...but I have left jobs myself to move on to something else. I have had calls to please come back and work for companies I have worked for before even if on a limited basis. That means a lot to me and I have returned to help them out temporarily. Degrees are nice ( I only have an associates)...but my belief is that a good work ethic is even more important.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Yeah on the daily production side. On the project side it is different because all that lovely work effort puts you out of a job.

Apparently my work ethic is why I survived so many layoff rounds at my last job.

Hugs. You sound like a good soul.

bearcountrygg on 08/24/2017:
What type of work are you looking for?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Digital product management for Roku, web, and mobile apps. If I have to go back to school though I'm retraining for something where I get to stand and walk or talk to people.

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