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happy-1 - Saturday Nov 20, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Saturday 11-20-2021 2:53 pm:

Knee is finally "better".

Have been trying to get myself together to go for a run for the last 2 hours. It's not getting up and going for a run... it's that I am supposed to run on grass the first time I run again in the new shoes... and that means driving there. I didn't get quite enough REM sleep last night and I can't quite get all excited about driving and trying to enjoy a park with a bunch of people in it. It's just not gelling for me. Mostly the driving. If it wasn't Saturday, I'd walk to the store right now no problem. Better to go during the week with fewer people to sneeze on me.

To bolster my resolve, I put a pickup order for tomorrow at Sam's Club... I will run, then pickup my order and scoot home.

It's not like I have been a complete slug today... I got up early, made a food bank donation, ran book club, did some writing, washed dishes/cleaned the kitchen/fed dad... I ate on-plan meals... I just don't feel great enough to drive.

Where the F is my Cpap? Apparently a replacement will be here by wednesday. I put in an order for a hot thanksgiving meal at Sprouts. No sense in a bigger struggle from cooking or ignoring the holiday.

Really good article on how body battery works in general. Avoiding stevia yesterday might have gotten me up to 70 today. Hallelujah.

 https://rollingstrong.com/boost-your-energy-battery/ 

 

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 11/20/2021:
I should add that the cat is in favor of me staying home today. Everytime I think about leaving, she becomes a ridiculous purring lap cat. Who can resist that?

happy-1 on 11/21/2021:
10:15pm update… meant to fast at 6:30 pm, but instead I ate. Mostly because I am bummed about not having it together enough to run today. I should have ubered or something.

happy-1 on 11/21/2021:
10:41pm Cat is zooming around. She’s been hyper-playful all day. I just can’t hold the laser pointer anymore. I should have gotten an older cat. At least it perks me up a little. I’ve been a little down on myself. A friend’s dad is sick and she doesn’t return my calls.

happy-1 on 11/21/2021:
11:11 pm… still can’t sleep… got up and changed the cat box. A fresh start.


bearcountrygg on 11/20/2021:
Very interesting article.

happy-1 on 11/20/2021:
It’s really helping me narrow in on getting back on track.


Brett on 11/20/2021:
I need to motivate myself to run too. It’s easier to vege out and sleep.

happy-1 on 11/20/2021:
I’m looking forward to seeing what Garmin says my recovery time is tomorrow. It was 16 hours yesterday. It should be less tomorrow right?


coffee&calories on 11/21/2021:
Great article. I very much relate to always feeling drained. Don’t know if it’s physical because my blood work hasn’t been right for years, or more likely, just feeling like there’s never enough time in the day. Not helped by the perception that “she doesn’t work so she must have all the Time in the world to do anything she likes”. Wish that were true!

happy-1 on 11/21/2021:
I’m sorry to hear you always feel drained. I feel that way too. There’s something debilitating about not working. The body battery thing is definitely helping me recover time in my day, even if I don’t feel well enough to do anything about it.


Maria7 on 11/21/2021:
Wow, you had a very busy and productive day yesterday. I hope you have a good day today, too.


Donkey on 11/21/2021:
Whoa that article really spoke to me -- where I've been, but also where I'm at right now with work. Wow!


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happy-1 - Friday Nov 19, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Friday 11-19-21:

Long day today... but all in all a good one. I am getting incrementally closer to the day I need to have. Today I did paperwork, walked to the post office, ate healthy, started fasting at 6:10, and took a shower at 6:30. The cat is fed and on my lap(!). The lights are out. We will pass out soon.

Unfortunately seeing a friend got sacrificed. When the CPAP comes, maybe that will be different.

Fedex keeps texting me a lik to report that I found my package. It's not only spam, it's insulting.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
Actually, I should add that I made an effort to skip stevia today because the hdrop says it was wearing me out. I have 27 body battery points left at bedtime. I dunno if it is repeatable, but worth a shot.


Donkey on 11/20/2021:
Very interesting about the stevia. I don't use stevia (it has an aftertaste for me) but most of my co-workers do and like it. Hmm...

I hope you got a good sleep. WTF FedEx...


Maria7 on 11/20/2021:
I am highly allergic to stevia so I don't use it. Hope you CPAP arrives today. Take care.

happy-1 on 11/20/2021:
Yikes! Are you also allergic to monkfruit?


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happy-1 - Friday Nov 19, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

 Saw this meme. Resonated today. I keep trying.

 

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 11/19/2021:
Lol! Would love to put that in this one particular forum of mine

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
It's going on my motivation wall


Jacky82020 on 11/19/2021:
Sounds like an excellent plan!


horn_of_plenty on 11/19/2021:
Omg! Def good advice but so hard to follow it ALL!

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
Inch by inch


horn_of_plenty on 11/19/2021:
Omg! Def good advice but so hard to follow it ALL!


Donkey on 11/20/2021:
Amen to that!


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happy-1 - Thursday Nov 18, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Thursday 11-18-21 9 pm...

In bed...

Long day, I spent it resting my knee and recovering from disappointment. If Fedex doesn't deliver it by tomorrow, I call the company on Saturday for a replacement. So there's that... 

I was super sluggish and had a hard time focusing today even though my body battery was a lot higher than it has been in a while... 79... and my sugar was well controlled today. Checked hdrop and it says I was dehydrated... 81%. I had some mint tea with stevia... and some more... and felt worse. I checked again and found I was down to 54%... drank plain water and it came back up to 91%. 

Inch by inch I will figure this out.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/19/2021:
Water is a good choice for hydration........and hoping that whomever got your package returns it for delivery to you....if not......you will get another...Hang in there...it will happen. ((HUGS))

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
HUGS


Donkey on 11/19/2021:
Some days are just like that, and it's good that you took time to rest and recover/heal.

I would have thought that mint tea would be an acceptable substitute for water, but I guess nothing beats just plain ol' water, which for me, is easier in the warmer weather, than the colder weather.

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
Right??? Mint tea is on the list of things I'm SUPPOSED to drink. My friend says you have to drink a lot of tea for your body to get used to filtering for the water instead of getting dehydrated.


Maria7 on 11/19/2021:
Yes, it is easy to become dehydrated if we don't drink enough water. I hope you get your package today. I know you are tired of waiting for it to FINALLY arrive! Take care.

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
It's like I'm waiting for a magic potion that will make my brain work and keep me on pace... Magically pull off everything my Alexa alerts are telling me to do and when.


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happy-1 - Thursday Nov 18, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Thursday 11-18-21 11:52 am:

AAAAAAAAAAUGH. Fedex says my CPAP was delivered but it isn't here. They weren't anywhere near the house or it would have shown up on security. Company says give it 24 hours. Call on Saturday if it hasn't arrived.

I know this is a minor setback but hopes and dreams feel a little dented if not crushed.

Canceled team meetings for the challenge. It's not really gelling and I am not getting it off the ground right. Why stress myself out? I'll just keep working on it, launch it anyway. Regroup in January. Inch by inch.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 11/18/2021:
What a FUBAR! Never had that happen to me, but I had Amazon deliver a gift to a sick friend in NY and they delivered it to her butthole neighbors who denied it. Amazon often sends pics of the package on the recipients porch or whatever. So I had the pic where it was left & found it odd she didn’t immediately thank me. Touched bases with her later. Amazon made good & sent her the same gift basket & the rotten neighbors made out like bandits.

You know, it could show up any minute one way or another. Keep the faith!

happy-1 on 11/18/2021:
I bet it was labeled cpap and fell off the back of the tryuck due to global shortages


bearcountrygg on 11/18/2021:
It's happened here a few times but Amazon is good about it...although you were looking forward to giving it a test run I'm sure.....

happy-1 on 11/18/2021:
Fedex… and yeah… I am desperate for better sleep quality. I need to suck less as a human being and it’s not for lack of effort that I can’t seem to make everything work in concert.


Jacky82020 on 11/19/2021:
You may be onto something with the slip off the truck, sure hope not & fingers crossed it will arrive today

I have 3 friends on those, 2 say it’s great & 1 gave up on it. It was rented from a medical device store. Someone monitored the readings and she was told it would not be covered by the insurance unless used for X hours & X days per week. She never got used to it, so they reclaimed it, but she’s sleeping better now. Guess she went thru a bad bout that’s gone now.


Donkey on 11/19/2021:
Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear about the FedEx. I don't even know what to say. How disappointing!

happy-1 on 11/19/2021:
Hugs.



happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 17, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Wednesday 11-17-21:

Had a very good day oout with the Ex-ish. Man does enough REM sleep before I see him help. Actually had fun and a nice time. Gush. Gush. Gush. He took me to Disneyland post-birthday. We mutually freaked out when we saw it was too many people and got corn dogs. Deicious. He's damn fine company when he is in the mood to be.

Have hit the wall on running with Garmin Coach. Creepily it popped up a prompt to go get my shoes checked. Was it scheduled? Did it know I have terrible knee pain since my last run that makes it hard to get up and down from the floor? Not sharp pain, just sore... but the wrong spot to be sore in... Like if I kept going on it there would be a real issue. I stopped by a Surefoot running store on the way home to look at running shoes. They have a machine where they scan your feet and tell you what you need. The guy had me try on a pair in my brand with more stability, then added an insert to correct rotation. It was shocking. My knee instantly felt better. 

Here is a pic of what they do.

https://www.surefoot.com/Running-Insoles.php

My budget for this month (and next) for anything for me went to a new pair of shoes and some inserts. $30 more than online... but if they don't work out I can exchange them for another pair even if I run in them for a week, within 30 days. Wearing the shoes daily will help with knee issues during runs. I figure I am desperately fighting to get myself back on track, running is working for me right now, if I break the momentum I might never get back on it, and $30 to be able to exchange gear that might not work is a good idea. If it does work out, I can look online for the same pair cheaper, get a second set of inserts, and have backups.

I wear a men's size 12 to run... Super long toes. They don't look too guy-specific.
https://www.brooksrunning.com/en_us/adrenaline-gts-21-mens-running-shoes/110349.html

Home today and resting. Normally I would push myself to do chores and try to get things done, but instead I am taking it a little easy in the hopes I will get better sleep tonight.

CPAP comes tomorrow.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 11/17/2021:
Oh I heard a good mantra just now... Get better or get bitter.


Maria7 on 11/18/2021:
Glad you got your some new shoes. Hope you are having a blessed day. How tall are you? I'm tall, myself, at 5'8".

happy-1 on 11/18/2021:
5’10. Without the neck injury I was 5’11


Donkey on 11/18/2021:
Nice shoes! Which color did you get? I love a new pair of running shoes! The insoles are a great idea too. Are they going to be for your running shoes, or regular shoes, or both?

I'm glad to hear that you had a nice time with your man-friend.

Very excited to hear about your CPAP adventures! I really hope the machine helps you with sleeping better!!!

happy-1 on 11/18/2021:
Black with white foam bottoms. The ugly colors are cheaper so I will try them and then buy a second set to get dirty :)


bearcountrygg on 11/18/2021:
That is interesting that there is a machine that scans your feet........Back in the 50's we went to the Buster Brown shoe store for shoes when I was a kid....and they always x rayed my feet to determine what size I needed........years later people were horrified.

happy-1 on 11/18/2021:
Omg!!!! The radiation!



happy-1 - Monday Nov 15, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Monday 11-15-21, 8:51pm:

In bed since 8:14pm. Just too tired to even watch tv. Still hungry. Will drink tea. Which means getting up and out of bed. Ugh. Stopped eating at 6:30 pm. Trying to hold onto that. I really need all my energy for tomorrow.

So tired.

So.. If Garmin works the way I think it does from this video... https://youtu.be/lGPea64p4wY

I can manage fatigue by watching the recovery time... it says 33 hours right now. My goal would be to rest enough to get it down to 29 hours and keep optimizing from there. I'd have to spend a week in bed though... so maybe not.

 

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/16/2021:
I will watch the video tonight when I have more time. Thank you for sharing!

I hope that you are able to recover sufficiently to have more energy today (Tuesday). I'll be thinking of you today.

happy-1 on 11/17/2021:
More like active rest.


horn_of_plenty on 11/16/2021:
i KNOW what you mean...sometimes it's easier to stay in place then get up and do ANYTHING! sometimes this is what helps me not reach for more food at dinner....i'd rather stay in place on the couch!

i hope you get energized soon after your rest!

happy-1 on 11/17/2021:
My problem is that everything is such a mess and a wreck, I can't not keep getting up and do stuff... I'm trying to push myself NOT to get up and move this week.


Brett on 11/16/2021:
Garmins are know it alls. I want one.

happy-1 on 11/17/2021:
OMG... You should have seen the running store I went to today... they had a practical monument to Garmin... Like we should all go oooh aah like the vending machine martians from Toy Story.


Donkey on 11/17/2021:
I still have to watch the video, but I'm starting to think like Brett: I think I want a Garmin too.

happy-1 on 11/17/2021:
I love it deeply. My only regret is not buying the $945 Fenix 6 pro solar... but tight budget. Forerunner 245 at minimum. Should be good sales for the holidays.



happy-1 - Monday Nov 15, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

 11-15-21, 10:15 am:

2 earth shattering discoveries...

Ginseng tea (apparently it has to be the brands Prince of Peace or American Ginseng, 2 bags a day but no more) does actually help with fatigue.

This news article... Cats may actually have imagination and planning because they have spatial object permanence...  Cats May Have a More 'Profound Mind' Than We Thought http://newser.com/s313276

Mama Cat is definitely smart... She somehow knew I had fasting labs today and woke me up on time by scratching at my head. Gently.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 11/15/2021:
Stock up on that teas!

My dogs read the article & call BS LOL

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
These two cats were easier to train than my dog. The cat I got my mom learned leash walking in a week, and then when I had that bad flu and couldn't do anything, he learned to sit and shake in like 2 weeks. This cat pretty much trained herself to get treats whenever my Alexa alerts go off.


Jacky82020 on 11/15/2021:
Can’t open the link . Caught the dogs lying!


bearcountrygg on 11/15/2021:
Dogs are all like....HELLO>>WHAT CAN I DO FOR YOU? Cats are all like......HELLO WHAT CAN YOU DO FOR ME.....My cat gently wakes me up too with a gentle face pat...but he's looking for me to scratch his head...>LOL Are you sure your cat isn't a dog????

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
I've got the distinct feeling this cat is A LOT smarter than other cats I have met. I actually think she understands my phone conversations. I mean... why some days is she waking me up and not others?

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
I've got the distinct feeling this cat is A LOT smarter than other cats I have met. I actually think she understands my phone conversations. I mean... why some days is she waking me up and not others?


bearcountrygg on 11/15/2021:
I'm happy to hear that she has become quite the companion......

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
Every time I lie down, she demands a love session. Purr purr purr.


Jacky82020 on 11/15/2021:
I posted a carton for you!

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
I luv it!


Donkey on 11/16/2021:
Ginseng tea -- I will check this out! Thanks!



happy-1 - Sunday Nov 14, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

 Sunday 11-14-21 12:34pm:

oh windfall. Just had to post. Someone on Noom answered my question about recovery time and theyad a Garmin too. Apparently Garmin tells you how much recovery time you need, up to 4 days and I never saw it because it's on the watch not the app. 
 https://www8.garmin.com/manuals/webhelp/fenix66s6xpro/EN-US/GUID-DAC27D10-886A-4EA8-8339-674479E9574A.html 

 

off to face whatever Dad is mad about. I went grocery shopping without him before asthma this am.

Also, another 14 h fast nailed. Resting todaya my knee feels weird.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 11/14/2021:
Dang, your Garmin makes my Fitbit look like an imbecile. It’s a real cheapie. All I do is use it to count steps. A glorified pedometer.

happy-1 on 11/14/2021:
Pretty much... Sorry :-(


Jacky82020 on 11/15/2021:
This is truly a case of you get what you pay for! LOL How much did your Garmin cost? My latest Fitbit is the child’s model, Ace. Small band makes no difference because I wear it in an ankle strap, All of $39, on sale.

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
$200, on sale from $249. Forerunner 245. Prices drop everytime they release new.


Donkey on 11/15/2021:
Now THAT is a nice feature to have in a tracker. I had no idea that the Garmin could do that. That is really good to know. I'll mention this to Husband, although I'm not sure if it's applicable to him right now.

Oh watch that knee!

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
I can’t wait to see what it tells me :)


horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2021:
interesting about recovery time, that would just make me want to sleep, hearing "4 days!"

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
I think that’s for marathon runners

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
I think that’s for marathon runners



happy-1 - Saturday Nov 13, 2021
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Weight: 245.0

Sat 11-13-21: A little proud of today. I woke up at 6am with help from Mama Cat. I took meds and got up at 7 for coffee and to write book club notes. I finished early and kept it brief. Then I went for a run. I was shocked when I realized I ran a minute without stopping. At the end, Garmin gave me a "Fastest run yet" badge. I shaved a minute off my mile time. ThenI ran book club. The guy who flaked in the meeting this week was the only one who showed and we talked. Turns out he doesn't know anything about profit shares for founders. Silent eyeroll.

Spent the rest of the day in the most severe asthma attack of my life. Dad was determined to get me to take him to the grocery store. I couldn't talk without making it worse, but I did offer the museum. He said he needs a cart. I offered Home Depot. He insisted on the grocery store. I said no buckets of ice cream, he flipped out. I retreated to my room and let my aunt know that I had offered reasonable alternatives... she said I should take him and let him buy his stuff... except she then doesn't haveto take care of him or watch him struggle and refuse to go to the ER. I suggested we both find an online caregiver support group we can both join, or maybe she could come out here for a week and help him figure it out and give me a break. We'll see what she says.

In any case I did everything I possibly could today, every minute and that's what counts. Letting it all go. Cpap comes on wednesday.

Inch by inch. Pebble by pebble.

Progress as of today: 72 lbs lost so far, only 85 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 11/14/2021:
11:25. In bed since 9. Can’t sleep.


bearcountrygg on 11/14/2021:
If I had a vote ( which of course I don't)...I would vote that opinionated aunt come and help out with him...let her take him to where ever he wants to go....let him buy anything he wants to buy....and deal with his attitude...my guess is she will be gone quickly and will start keeping her opinions to herself...talk is cheap........You have to live with him.....But I would give her all of the free time with him that she thinks she wants!!! ((HUGS))

happy-1 on 11/14/2021:
I started the process by suggesting it. It takes 9-11 repeats of the same concept to communicate with her because we just march to different tunes.


Horn_of_plenty on 11/14/2021:
Such a productive Saturday morning, go you!!!!

oh, what a great idea to join a support group online sorta like this but centered on exactly the tips and support you are looking for with dad. nice job thinking about that. i have forgotten to also do the same. maybe i should look for one with people looking to change careers, etc. something to help me....i prob won't...but your idea for yourseelf is good bc your dad is a big part of your life.

happy-1 on 11/14/2021:
Hugs. Ty. I’ve looked for some but they are dumping out their emotions freely and not focused on resolutions


Donkey on 11/14/2021:
A support group for caregivers sounds like a wonderful idea.

Nothing personal to her, but your aunt has no idea. However, I do believe that she intends to be helpful with her comments and suggestions. She just has no clue. Not one Scooby Doo.

happy-1 on 11/14/2021:
She remembers him as a kid and doesn’t see him day to day. It’s not unreasonable for me to say I want behavioral health support around something that turns into a big public spectacle and wrecks me for 5 weeks.


bearcountrygg on 11/14/2021:
The aunt sounds like she has selective hearing....likes to give marching orders but has no intention of marching herself.......

happy-1 on 11/15/2021:
He’s different with her. The last time they were here, they took my dad grocery shopping and he was a good boy and was polite and made healthy choices. They didn’t go through the cycle of negotiating what we will buy, getting to the market, have him make a beeline for plastic buckets of ice cream and get into a screaming match in the middle of the store.


Donkey on 11/15/2021:
^Agree with Bear, 100%



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