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happy-1 - Sunday Jun 19, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Sun 6-19-22 7:50am

Dad drama before bed last night wrecked my sleep as predicted. Slept 9.5h without enough REM. I'd probably have had insomnia if I had had enough sleep the night before. Add another rest day to my queue. I was doing so great and one tough week just knocked me on my butt. At least I know how to get back on track though. 

BB70, REM 1:14, Welltory says to take it easy today and that brain fog is an issue. Sure matches how I feel. I probably need to cut out the 85% dark chocolate. It probably needs to be 95% to get the sugar down.

Even though I wasn't doing great, at least I continued taking measurements consistently in the morning. 

This week I need to maintain and improve the block above and focus on the next set.
The minimum criteria for myself for the day.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
Ugh definitely just spotted that when sleep quality dropped, PT on onestep fell off the plate.

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
10am back from10 minute walk, Walmart grocery pickup. Everything put away. Taking break.

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
10:30 finally have the budget to order the two powders recommended by the guy on reddit. According to the book, I need to eat a bunch of apple peels daily and start taking niacin and zinc at bedtime. So... I need to pack my supplements differently... UGH. Maybe that's my project for today since I need to pack meds anyway. The cat will not be happy.

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
6:45pm. No energy to pack meds. Maybe tomorrow. Instead I put my energy into writing the "How to pace for fatigue using Garmin" challenge. When I said I would put it together, I remembered the one I already wrote as being better. I wrote it before I actually improved my health, so I need to change a lot. Ugh. I am up to day 4. It takes about 6 weeks to do it.

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
9:30pm. Finally in bed for the night. Just keep popping up to do things I forgot… change cat water, set alarm, take melatonin.

I will get back up. I will I will I will.


bearcountrygg on 06/19/2022:
Knowing how to get back on track is golden!!!

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
One step at a time.


horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2022:
Sorry the drama interrupted your sleep xo

happy-1 on 06/19/2022:
Hugs.


Donkey on 06/20/2022:
Later day drama tends to affect my sleep as well. Hate it.

I do not care for dark chocolate that is more cacao than 90%. For me, the taste is too bitter, and thus, also for me, not worth the calories.

happy-1 on 06/20/2022:
At least it's not just me.

Chocolate is a big antioxidant, mood booster, and lowers insulin resistance. I feel you on the bitterness factor... sigh.


legcramps on 06/20/2022:
I've got some brain fog happening today too; mostly from not getting enough sleep. Early to bed tonight!



happy-1 - Saturday Jun 18, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

 Sat 6-18-22 8:45pm

Spent a whole beautiful summer saturday holed up watching tv and hiding behind my blackout curtains except for my help dad prompts. I wrecked myself yesterday and couldn't sleep till 4am. Just too hard a week. Slept 5h. Getting back on track. Power orr. Took my melatonin on time. Turned off electric. Grocery discussion took 2h with dad and spilled to 8:30 when I cut it off and went to bed. And he wants to know why I don't go over the order with him. Sigh.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/18/2022:
Inch by inch



happy-1 - Friday Jun 17, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

 Fri 6-17-22 9:45 am

Losing motivation. Feels like someone left the tap on and it all ran out in the bath. Sugar was too high this morning (200) but all my other stats were good. How does that even work? If sugar is high, everything else is supposed to be a mess. Took glipizide without other meds, drinking water, and eating eggs (plain) to get it down so I can drive today.

It's probably the 85% dark chocolate and the stress from the meighbor's dog cornering me when I took out the trash cans yesterday. Then I stayed up too late watching tv. Slept well though... BB 82, lots of REM. Welltory says I have energy. I don't know where it is. Maybe it will pop up after my tea.


 


 

-----12pm update.... 

Apparently I am doing exactly right. Not only did my blood sugar come down, but Welltory says I am ready to take on more stress.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
10:45 dad wants to go to lunch and check mail on his way to the doctor today. I’m trying to get my sugar down so I can drive. Had to say no. There is nothing about taking care of a parent that makes you like yourself.

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
Also, took NADH, B12, tyrosine, and IR meds about 1/2 hour ago and I think they just hit. At least I’m sitting up.

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
11:19 am sugar dropped to 165. Feeling better. Still working on it.

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
Aaaaaw more kitty trust. She came over for rubs, I gave her squishes and kisses. She didn’t take my face off… just flipped her tail at me and flopped over anyway.

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
12:30 Garmin updated stats and says rem was a little light. I must feel fine because of the cleared up brain fog.

Probably, all the kitchen chores and laundry I did yesterday before I got cornered by the neighbor’s dog didn’t help… but it had to be done for trash day.

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
Took dad to a doctor appointment. I am definitely feeling better. I was able to hold a conversation while driving and not get distracted. Even on the way home. That’s new since the Glutathione? I think???

4pm Welltory says it’s time to quit for the day. Ok.


bearcountrygg on 06/17/2022:
The cat makes everything worth it sometimes....doesn't it?

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
A warm furry bright spot that just improves my mood immeasurably.


Donkey on 06/18/2022:
All in all, it sounds like it was a decent day. What happens if you were to ignore Welltory when it says it's time to quit? I often feel "done" at around 4pm, but I have to keep going until at least 8pm.

happy-1 on 06/18/2022:
I’m better off quitting at 25% body battery, but Welltory tells me when I am struggling and still at a decent body battery. If I keep pushing I get brain fog the next day. I think. Ask me again in a couple of weeks. The NADH and glutathione is a winner



happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 15, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

 Wed 6-15-22 7:15pm

I have achieved a new level of cat trust today. Mama Cat allowed me to tuck her bum under my elbow, roll her onto her back, and rest my arm on her tummy while I scratched her chin for a solid 10 minutes. I was astonished. She doesn't let me anywhere near her tummy. I get scratched if I so much as brush it by accident. It was delightful. I love a challenge. Mom would have been over the moon.

It was a pick me up I desperately needed on a hard day. I had to let the nurse in while dad showered. I changed his sheets. It triggered a dad nuclear meltdown. I ended up having one of my mom's friends talk to him on the phone so I would be able to get into the kitchen to make up the chicken that expired a week ago into chili so that I get to eat the next couple of days. I cooked it in the instant pot in my bedroom.

Struggling today because I took a night off away on Monday. I gave myself a recovery day on Tuesday, but I ate some chicken with breading on it and it drove my sugar up way too high. So I am taking another day to rest. Very frustrating. I just had too much of it because I was too tired to resist. Ate most of the bag. I'm not proud.

At least I have managed to rest today.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/15/2022:
Inch by inch


Jacky82020 on 06/16/2022:
Congrats on the cat! Awesome! The beautiful stray marble tabby I took in 4 months ago shows no signs of warming up. She’s (?) with three males; fairly certain she’d be friendlier if the only child.


Donkey on 06/16/2022:
Oh that's so sweet about Mama Cat!!!

It sounds like it was a very difficult day. I'm very sorry. I guess on the bright side, you got through it. (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
Hugs. Ty.


horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2022:
i love breakthroughs with pet trust levels! my guinea pigs keep getting better and better too. especially my favorite (i have a favorite!) and the young one is slowly getting used to being held more and more :)

happy-1 on 06/17/2022:
Aaaaaaw. I picture them being little happy balls of love.



happy-1 - Monday Jun 13, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Mon 6-13-22 9:15am

Up and at 'em. Enough REM, normal blood pressure... All I need is to get my fasting sugar down 60 points. I can do that. Welltory indicated brain fog, but I didn't feel it till I got that reading. I'll take another one after tea and PT. Caffeine and movement to clear the cobwebs.

I found someone on Reddit who wants to do the Garmin Body Battery pacing challenge I put together... So that's exciting. I need to focus on getting things done to move myself forward before I do any of that.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/13/2022:
inch by inch


bearcountrygg on 06/13/2022:
At least it says that you can go for an easy workout.......That's something. You didn't notice brain fog until they told you...that you had it?

happy-1 on 06/14/2022:
I hadn’t really woken up yet… then I realized I’s been up for 4 hours and atill hadn’t really woken up yet.


Donkey on 06/14/2022:
I guess you had a little brain fog after all!


bearcountrygg on 06/14/2022:
Guess so....Well I guess it was good that you were made aware of it.


Jacky82020 on 06/14/2022:
The challenge sounds fun!


Maria7 on 06/14/2022:
Hope you are having a good day.


horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2022:
you CAN do it!



happy-1 - Sunday Jun 12, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Sun 6-12-22 10:15am

Woke up in better shape today. Welltory says even if I am feeling fine, I should take it easy. Ha ha ha yeah right. Maybe if I win the lotto.

Overall though, I am starting to gain traction. End of week 4 and I'm able to remember to go to bed on time and check my stats in the morning. Go NADH!!! I'll add glutathione this week, see if it starts helping as well. I can't even tell you how much blood sweat and tears went into turning all these bubbles into green or red yesterday, I was so tired.

Immunity book arrived from Amazon yesterday. I'll start reading it... The guy on Reddit steered me to this product that contains human milk. I balked for a week on ordering it until I realized today that it isn't actually human milk. Honestly, even if it did I'd be less freaked out about trying it than Rybelsus which comes with a thyroid cancer warning.

HOWEVER... They really shouldn't have a lady with a revealing dress on the landing page because you get the definite feeling that it is HER milk you will be drinking. Kind of like the cow on the box in the dairy section of the market.

 

Does this contain real human milk?
No. Our HMO is technically something referred to as HiMO, which stands for Human identical Milk Oligosaccharide. It is produced via a complex fermentation and precise purification process and results in a powder that is molecularly identical to the HMO that is in human milk. All the benefits without any human milk involved.

https://layerorigin.com/products/pure-hmo-human-milk-oligosaccharide-powder?variant=36943072460951

Today's focus is on getting dad the stuff he asked for, a 4th pt session for a streak, picking up the Walmart grocery order, and getting ready for the week (cat box, tidy car, laundry, kitchen, bathroom, meals). Let's see how long I last and how much of that I get through. 

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
11:40am. Dad task done. Moving on to pt.

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
12:30 finished pt. Getting stronger. Stood 1 min on the wobble board without the wall.

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
7pm finally stopping…. showered, electric off, dad fed, groceries put away, dishes washed, cat box changed. Have survived multiple dad drama sessions. I just walk away each time.

Holy ****, I did it all and my body battery is still at 28. Getting stronger.

I feel guilty about tucking it in for the night. I didn’t eat anywhere near enough today. Not much I can do about that now. He and I just fight so much I can’t get enough access to the kitchen. I have a week of food rotting in the fridge.

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
8:15 I definitely should have eaten something. In bed. Lights off. Still on phone which is a terrible habit.

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
9pm sleep cast started in on eating uiscuits on a train and I caved and ate cheese and crackers. Oh well.

happy-1 on 06/13/2022:
11 still up. Augh.

happy-1 on 06/13/2022:
11:15pm ratio bar and water. I think the new cutoff time for kitchen chores is 2pm… I don’t think I can pull off 6:30 pm yet. This means lunches not dinners. Nothing is worth the insomnia.


bearcountrygg on 06/12/2022:
Now I think I may have heard of everything!!! LOL


horn_of_plenty on 06/13/2022:
sounds like you have a good day in store :)


Donkey on 06/13/2022:
Oh my, that milk thing... I don't think I could go there.


legcramps on 06/13/2022:
Wow, nice numbers!



happy-1 - Saturday Jun 11, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

 Sat 6-11-22 9am

Insomnia till 2am last night. 68 body battery. How did I ever do anything when it was only charging to 25 or 45? Even 68 feels lousy. 6h of sleep. Not enough rem. Welltory says I am recovering from something and to take it easy. That something is probably interacting with my dad yesterday. He's super controlling. I'm not a puppet. Nobody wants to be micromanaged to the point of being told which hand to move or paper to go back to. Or all the guilt and recrumination for past mistakes. It's saturday. I should be out having fun. I feel better. Have to host coworking today. Why did I say I would do that?

Focus. Get your bed made, tea on, do PT. Shower. Do your hair. Get stuff done for dad. See if you can walk at the park after coworking.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
11:30 - Did whole pt assignment. Day 3 in a row. Getting stronger. Able to do this even though I got poor quality sleep. Didn’t walk first. Building the habit of getting pt done before anything else.

I don’t know why the first step in that was pulling out all of my drawers and dumping them on the bed.

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
Did some of the stuff I need to do for dad, but I’m just tired and not feeling great today. Slogged through it then got drawers back in order.

3:45 break

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
Telling dad I would have to give it to him tomorrow did not go well. Huge drama.

4 gave up for the day and got cleaned up. My clothes could get up and do chores by themselves. The hand shower in the second bathroom was the amartest thing I could have done.

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
9 went to bed 9:45 not tired enough to sleep


horn_of_plenty on 06/11/2022:
so sorry your sleep hasn't been good...i had sleep issues of not enough and/or waking up a long time ago...now it's most always a dead sleep!

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
I’m glad you are sleeping better!


bearcountrygg on 06/11/2022:
The emptying th drawers sounds like me today.......Bathroom linen closet was all of=ver our bed......but one thing about it...it does force you to finish the job...

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
Lol! Some energy in the air! I think I just couldn’t deal with drawers being slightly open and looking messy when I tried to get started this morning. I just can’t handle clutter. I pulled out anything I wouldn’t want to wear, but I don’t want to donate any of it because I might need it in an earthquake. Ugh… logic. But now I have a whole drawer for swimwear. Which I won’t wear because I look awful.



happy-1 - Friday Jun 10, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

 Fri 6-10-22 6:40 am

Fell asleep on time last night at 9pm. Woke up without alarm at 6am. Garmin and Welltory are both having issues so I don't know how effective my sleep was last night. I still have the same headache I went to sleep with last night. And dread. So... a cup of tea and then I will go face him after meds kick in.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/10/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 06/10/2022:
10am- starting work on the things he needs help with

happy-1 on 06/10/2022:
12:20 got it done and handed it over. Lots of drama and unnecessary fighting. Got the plan for the next thing to turn over tomorrow. Physically, emotionally and spiritually burned out. Took NADH and l tyrosine. Ate an omelette and avocado toast. Almonds and 2 squares 85% dark chocolate. Ratio bar.

1:20pm feeling better. Not sure if it was the supplements or the food. Probably the supplements with the food created dopamine. Debating what to do item will make me like myself better. Probably PT.

happy-1 on 06/10/2022:
Called mom’s friends, then finished pt at 4pm.

happy-1 on 06/10/2022:
5:20pm I’m wiped out. I had to tell dad it was soup again for dinner because I’m too wiped to cook and he has stuff he wants from me tomorrow morning. He got upset and started demanding things so I had to step away. 1mg glycine to offset cortisol

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
12:40am guess it didn’t work because now I have insomnia. Blech.


horn_of_plenty on 06/10/2022:
that amount of sleep sounds good but sorry about the headache. i'm really short on sleep this week and have felt very dazed for at least half the week. it will prob be another simple weekend to prep for the next week to come! :)maybe it was due to thinking of your mom, the headache, etc.

happy-1 on 06/11/2022:
Ty! Hugs. Feel better


bearcountrygg on 06/10/2022:
That is 9 hours...so good amt.

happy-1 on 06/12/2022:
I'm doing my part!



happy-1 - Thursday Jun 09, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Thurs 6-9-22 1:40

Well, I got through Mom's birthday yesterday without crying hysterically or adopting a cat, so even though we didn't get to a meal or family photos...  and I ate 1 day of things I shouldn't have (omellete, pint of keto ice cream, 2 bags of nuts, breaded shrimp, and a cheese quesedilla... Back on it today with 9h sleep and 3h of rem, no brain fog... just tired from high sugar... so far have done PT, laundry, and coworking. I repacked my overnight bag. I made another denver omelette. Eating healthy today. Dad wants me to go over bills with him, but I need to get paperwork in order first. I might pull it together faster with YNAB, but it is a paid subscription and Mint is free.

Welltory agrees... Reading this AM said I am recovering from something.  Yep. Took another one just now.

  

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
5:49 Ok… i finally got my sugar back down, the chiro adjustment relieved pain, and brain fog is cleared up. I cleaned my room, did laundry, pt, and made soup. Dad didn’t like his soup. Threw a fit. I had said I would go over bills with him after lunch at 2, but with the fit over the soup, I just slinked off. He wants me to go over bills, but it is after 3pm. I don’t do stress after 3pm. It is also time to go to bed. I took 3mg glycine and I am lying down again.

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
6… went out and faced the music. Told dad we would do it tomorrow morning when cortisol can be higher. It’s just too late in the day for me to handle stress. I finally got everything under control and he is not allowed to knock me back down for another 3-6 weeks.

happy-1 on 06/09/2022:
I cut the power to my bedroom, asked him to put the soup away when it cools, and closed my door to go to bed.


bearcountrygg on 06/09/2022:
Looks good today.


horn_of_plenty on 06/10/2022:
boy do i have brain fog today. totally overtired and strung out! will be sleeping well tonight!!!!!!

nice job on getting good sleep xo. glad to see you have made it past her bday anniversary xo.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 08, 2022
(Walk 15 min and do PT daily. Regular meal prep.)
Weight: 250.0

Wednesday 6-8-22 8:15am

Mom's birthday today. I really miss her. This house is too quiet.

Possibly this is another case of me feeling better in time to step up. I have the energy to get through photos with my dad.  

Woke up feeling really good. Energy didn't last. Welltory nailed it.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Figured out how I screwed up my blood sugar yesterday... Coconut cashews. Delicious but full of sugar. They didn't even taste sweet.

UGH.

I would really like someone to come and make my breakfast for me. A tofu scramble. Mom would make me food sometimes. Mama Cat says she would make me breakfast if she had thumbs. Would I like a nice dead pigeon? I said it was OK. She asked that if I am going to sit in my desk chair and work, I make her a space next to me, so I pulled over my other chair and she is sitting in that. She would rather be in contact with me, but this is good enough for today.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
10:30 finally pulling together breakfast. Avocado toast with everything seasoning and a Denver omelette. Maybe more tea after. It's a cheat meal because of the ham and the cholesterol, but I miss mom.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Looks like I stopped responding to comments after May 28. Maybe that's when my hip pain started??? Catching up. Might just be a day to be super gentle with myself and not expect too much.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
1 feeling low energy and struggled with tasks. Welltory says brain fog came back. Hmmm…


Jacky82020 on 06/08/2022:
Are you messing with the weight numbers or is it in error? I played with them once to see how the charts would look. LOL

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Ooops! typo. I fixed it.


bearcountrygg on 06/08/2022:
I miss my parents too.......I have to say....that no matter how old you get......you wtill miss them.

happy-1 on 06/08/2022:
Of course! They are special. And they miss us too.


Donkey on 06/09/2022:
(((hugs)))


legcramps on 06/09/2022:
"Take it easy cow[girl]"


horn_of_plenty on 06/09/2022:
thank you for sharing your mom's bday with us. Happy birthday to her in heaven!



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