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happy-1 - Saturday Jul 07, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Insane heat wave continues. I'm keeping things chill here with the dogs. My dog and I are chilling in the bathroom so the bulldog gets rest and doesn't get over-exerted. He wants something and keeps barking at me but I do not know what he wants. I went out early to get stuff to meal prep breakfast for the week but somehow it just seems too hot to do anything right now. Plus the bulldog gets too worked up over food. I guess that's the benefit of cooking for your dog over kibble/canned. Your dog doesn't really care what you are eating... it is the same thing they have. Meals in peace.

This is the most on track I have been food-wise while dog sitting. I have eaten larger portions than I should have but not to the point of being overboard. I'm watching "the big ward" and "from fat to finish line" on netflix and I recognize a lot of the same food issues I am having with my parents.

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Mystery solved. Huge rainstorm hit and broke the heatwave. He'd been barking and pawing at his ears so I gave him an ear cleaning and a bath... but it was the barometric pressure. Once the storm hit he raced around the house batking his head off. My dog is crazy like me so we enjoyed the rain on the patio.

Dogs.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/07/2018:
Good job staying on track!!!!!

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Ty!


Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
maybe i can find those videos from netflix on YouTube?

Proud of you for managing your eating while away and dog sitting much better this time around!

those were good ratings from the nutritionist - very good job Happy!

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Maybe! Everything is on youtube, lol.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
It's weird... they have a lady on episode six who is 132 kilos and that's 291 lbs... but she just doesn't look that heavy to me. I guess my perspective is distorted.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
yes, frozen meals are so small.



happy-1 - Friday Jul 06, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Up at dog sitting. It's over 100 up here and I don't do heat well so I am lying on the floor with my dog on my yoga mat watching netflix. The puppy never settles for more than a minute so my dog decided to head for the bathroom. She suddenly looks really old and her eye is tearing again. The bulldog can't go for walks because he has huge interdigital cysts that his mom says are a breed thing but I swear it looks like a fungal infection and the one time my dog started something similar it was daily vinegar soaks and washing the patio with simple green twice a week that got rid of it. I'm no vet though.

Super glad to have some quiet and down time. Just some alone time to introvert and destress, get eating back on track and decompress. There's been so much constant fighting at home over food changes... they don't have their drugs basically. My mom is trying to avoid insulin so my dad isn't getting as many opportunities for fast food so he's miserable even though I cook two meals a day.

Breathe, release, rejuvinate.

One foot in front of the other.

Ratings from nutritionist are educational and surprising. Like the breakfast I had because I cooked for my dad but burned his so I ate that one and then made anorher... eggs with cheese, white toast and margerine got a green because the fat proteins and carbs balanced. Skipping a meal got a green because it is ok to listen to my body. Protein cookies got yellows because eventhough they were healthy I was subbing them in for too many meals.

Alright. Keep on keeping on. Didn't pack food for this weekend because my fog got caught in a glue trap while hiding from fireworks and I'd already gone to bed with a sleeping pill. Disaster and trauma. Spent a shocking $76 at Trader Joes. I hope I just overbought and end up tsking stuff home. It is astounding to think of one person eating that much in one weekend. I got a couple of salads, frozen pizza, diet gingerale, a couple of frozen asian meals, apples, and oatmeal ingredients. My budget is more like that for 3 people and a dog for a week.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/06/2018:
Dogs and fireworks...I'm sad for them when they get so scared......hope she's over it now.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Yeah she perked up last night and is ready to be a pain in the butt because she's restless and it's too hot to go for walks. Looks a little funny though... she got a funny fur cut wherever there was a glue trap because I was running out of oil.


Donkey on 07/07/2018:
I hate fireworks. I mean, they're very pretty, but if I'm not watching them - which I don't because I don't like crowds - then the noise is very annoying, bothersome, distracting - YUCK. My cats go crazy, too, and I really don't like that.

That is very interesting from the nutritionist. I hope you are finding the evaluations to be helpful.

I'm sorry that home life is kind of chaotic right now. And very glad to hear that you have a place to retreat and regroup with dog-sitting. If it helps, my family is crazy about food too. Not in the same way, but it is insane.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Oh good heavens... so glad I don't have cats right now. I put out all the traps I had left hoping to catch anything spooked by fireworks that might still be hanging around. I can't even imagine trying to get them off cats.

I can see why people start lying about what they are eating... it was tempting to not list the frozen pizza I had last night... or the frozen pork dumplings. Or the extra yogurts and crackers. I just get so hungry dog sitting. The bulldog freaks out when I clean and I can't take them for walks so there's no way to move about and not feel hungry.

I like this bulldog... he's a sweetie pie... but I could never have a dog this delicate/heat intolerant. My dog is super weird and a loner but so durable and easy to take anywhere/do anything with.... like me? Lol. My furry soulmate.


graindart on 07/07/2018:
Our temps just jumped up to the high 90's. Sat in the mid 70's for a long time and just now decided it's summer..... Hit 99 yesterday and I spent most of the day inside with the AC. Wish it would just sit 75-80 degrees each day and cool off to around 60 nightly.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
trader joes / frozen meals can be expensive if not on sale!

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Yeah and not much in them, and not satisfying at all. Total disappointment. Not doing that again. I have been cooking so much to keep costs down I remembered them being better.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jul 04, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Started off track today, but as the saying goes "If you get ne flat tire, you don't have to pop the other 3". Sometimes Pinterest is a font of wisdom. Stayed up too late last night watching GLOW on Netflix and dealing with fireworks and my dog... Overslept by 5h and got up and made coffee... at the same time as my dad was doing his thing and he knocked it over and it went EVERYWHERE. This upset him and his reaction is to get angry and berate me. I cleaned it up and went to help my friend finish her floor. On the way home I did my planned store run and still bought him his "extras" like diet coke and white bread.

The aggravation is kind of throwing me off though... All my meals are off today... I've had coffee creamer with transfats and sugar, no veggies, and a hotdog in a bun.... instead of broccoli, oatmeal and coconut oil. SIGH. 

In the last 90 days or so I have lost 7.3 lbs and 1% bodyfat... A bunch of inches... and not from my boobs!  

Tonight I will get back on track and eat a bunch of broccoli. I'll take sleep meds super early and be up on time. 

One foot in front of the other.

Happy July 4!

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/05/2018:
Old people are hard to deal with...I live with one...LOL...and so does D. We are cranky, sore and stiff.….and unlike young and middle aged people...we can count our future lives by days...instead of decades.....old age is sobering..……...I took care of my 83 to 89 year old parents...….it was only after they had passed away...that I really came to understand how hard it is to be old....while I was caring for them...they were the older generation...now I am...and my kids are saying and doing things...that tell us they are now feeling like they need to take care of us......and while we are grateful that they show an interest in caring for us...it is also sad and disturbing. I have been in your shoes...and now I'm seeing from the other direction.....bottom line is old age stinks....and caring for us is very difficult.....But please...take care of yourself at the same time...no matter how hard it is......


Donkey on 07/05/2018:
^^^ What Bear says. That must be so difficult. Spilled coffee - awful on many levels. (No sarcasm!)

I hope you have a pleasant day today.


horn_of_plenty on 07/05/2018:
hey it's July 4th..i wouldn't worry in the scheme of things about being slightly off track!



happy-1 - Tuesday Jul 03, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

One foot in front of the other. Have a ton of recruiter emails but they are all indian recruiters. Unlikely job placement or decent rates. 

Spent morning on OT time tracking.  I'm probably spending too much time on it, but I need to budget my time also... so as I am entering what I do all day, I am also revising my plan for the week as I do it... This means a lot of time tweaking a spreadsheet.  Sigh.  But basically I have the day represented as hours starting at 5:30 AM, then I have the plan for each time slot, like a calendar. Then if I did it, I mark it green. If I didn't and I did something else, I mark it red and put in what I did instead. This way at least, I am tracking why I wasn't on task and what I did instead (which I can't do in a calendar).

Who knows if this will make me more productive. So far I figured out that

  • I am not taking my meds on time if I didn't have them next to my bed in the right amounts ahead of time... which throws off how my body reacts...
  • I need interim alarms prompting me to start and end things on schedule.. like making food and clearing dishes, not just sitting down to eat.
  • Trying to do a yoga class at 10am is really awkward and if I am late and miss it, it messes up my whole day because I feel like I failed. I'd do better to do one first thing in the AM then walk my dog... or last thing before bed at night.

Discovered last night that the poor dog that keeps whining is a small white fancy ****zu that our neighbors mom dumped on them. they are tying it up outside with no shade or water.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/03/2018:
Do you have one of those Meds containers that you throw your pills in for the week? They have a compartment for the 7 days of the week...a great way to organize pills/vitmains. I use one to make sure i take things everyday. Maybe keep it filled and next to your bed.

It must be scorching hot for the poor doggie!


bearcountrygg on 07/03/2018:
Timers....I think timers are the answer

happy-1 on 07/03/2018:
Yeah, but I forget what they are for. Or to use them. I'll see if the prompts to move to the next activity help. The thing is sense of time passing... I never realize how much time i spend cleaning and the place never gets cleaner, lol.

happy-1 on 07/03/2018:
And also to try to take advantage of natural drift towards diff tasks. And take real breaks.


Donkey on 07/04/2018:
^ Forgetting is my problem. Even the best intentions are no good if one forgets. *sigh*


bearcountrygg on 07/04/2018:
Post it notes, a daily reminder covering all hours and half hours.....My youngest son had a closed head injury from a motorcycle accident.....and he has short term memory loss....he uses all of the tricks....it all helps.

happy-1 on 07/06/2018:
He sounds like he got more than one page out of your book! How resilient! Adhd just means you're not nuerotypical and I'm in a situation that makes everything harder so I am down for all the tricks.



happy-1 - Monday Jul 02, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

224.9... no weight loss for me this week. Glad I have my new baking scale. I can start recording calories by weight as I consume them.

Breakfast this morning was a delicious protein chocolate chip cookie and iced coffee with 2% instead of half n half. Sure tastes like a real one to me!

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
me, you and donkey all have food scales. i haven't really used it as planned bc i guess i am able to eyeball calories a lot...but i think my scale could be useful perhaps to make baked goods products and things i cannot eyeball.

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Yeah, you are in maintenance so I bet you are good at that now... but I am having a hard time getting the scale to budge. Tracking calories is helping but not sure what I am actually eating, lol.


horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
food scale should be GREAT for you - yes - to even measure a portion of rice! or oatmeal! OR ANYTHING. very good with the meats too.

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
And cheeses / butters!


horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
EXCELLENT TO MEASURE CHEESE! I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT...! I COULD USE IT FOR INDIAN PANEER


bearcountrygg on 07/02/2018:
I use my food scale occasionally.....it does come in handy.

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
I measured my dark chocolate peanuts and then ate 4 servings. So now I know how many grams I had... almost a day of calories. I threw the rest out and feel guilty but it had to be done.

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
I measured my dark chocolate peanuts and then ate 4 servings. So now I know how many grams I had... almost a day of calories. I threw the rest out and feel guilty but it had to be done.

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
I measured my dark chocolate peanuts and then ate 4 servings. So now I know how many grams I had... almost a day of calories. I threw the rest out and feel guilty but it had to be done.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
i find that 2% tastes pretty darn good in coffee...and i use stevia. (or equal if i'm buying it out and they don't have stevia). so good !


bearcountrygg on 07/03/2018:
It is kind of shocking sometimes...to see what we take for granted and find that it is outrageously fattening.



happy-1 - Sunday Jul 01, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Went to Shakespeare By the Sea last night with a camping friend who lives near me. I had so much fun! I spurged on tasty treats at Trader Joe's and wore a pretty dress and we had lots of fun and laughed so much!

Today I gave myself off completely from tracking or doing anything or going anywhere. I made 3 meals for my parents... breakfast which was egg omlettes with cheese, dinner which was breaded porkchops, and dessert which was chocolate chip cookies... except my dad didn't like them and it caused a big fight and a lot of ill feeling all around. I made them with vanilla protein powder, almond flour, irish butter, coconut oil, eggs, water, cinnamon, baking soda, oats, walnuts, and dark chocolate chips. I thought they were really good... but just didn't understand why he wouldn't accept anything close to something he liked. They weren't sweet enough, he doesn't like oatmeal, and he hated the coconut flavor. So frustrating. My mom got really mad at him though.

Sigh.

I'll go back to looking at picnic baskets on pinterest

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/02/2018:
Sounds like your outing was a lot of fun!! It's too bad your Dad didn't like your dessert....change is hard for so many people......but...he has choices...he can choose not to eat them...the interesting thing will be to see if he decides to eat any more of them...that will tell you a lot.....and could be quite interesting..

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Yeah he took a bite of one and then wrapped it and his other one up in a napkin... hiding his terrible cookie that wouldn't screw with his diabetes...


horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
haha...we have Shakespeare in the Park!

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Do you go? It was fun! I am totally obsessed with putting together a picnic basket, lol. I don't see anything online I like. All the baskets have handle attachments at the top and no support on the bottom. The backpack cooler sets have hard plastic and melamine plates so you can't put them on a grill to keep warm... And they don't have any outside webbing so you can't attach chairs or a table to have it all in 1. I'll have to diy to be happy with it.



happy-1 - Friday Jun 29, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

One foot in front of the other. Breathe in, breathe out.

  • Overwhelmed because I overslept and got up at 7 instead of 5:30. Because I stayed up late working on the OT worksheet and doing dishes and failing to do homework. 
  • Stressed because I got zero of anything I really needed to do done this week... and using the OT tracking sheet I can see how far off I was and feel "dumb".
  • Sad because I am still down a friend. Responded to her screwy email today in a calmer. less emotional state. Was careful to use "I feel" statements... over her liberal abusive ones.
  • Lonely because I'd like to have a closer relationship with my extended family.
  • Aggravated because I did too much emotional and tired eating yesterday and had trail mix, a dark chocolate bar, and 1/3 of a frozen pizza... not enough broccoli or veg.
  • Frustrated because Rise is having a service issue and I can't use it... and it isn't cheap.

To regroup... 

  • I walked my dog for a shorter walk than planned, but I still went for the walk.
  • I will eat breakfast now, because it is 9:10AM and I want to get back to eating on time.
  • I will still go to yoga, because it will release my stress and I need the physical activity to stay healthy.
  • I will look for a coffee spot near the studio to do homework.
  • I will be on time for class tonight.
  • I will go to bed as soon as I get home tonight and get up as close to on time as I can tomorrow.

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Got an email back from my friend who sent the screwy email(s) (including **** yous and vicious statements). Apparently I'm totally right, she wants to be friends, and she added me back to her camping trip... Bat **** crazy... 

At least the tension in my neck released and unpinched a nerve. I didn't even realize I was in pain until my bones slid back into place with a pop after I got her email. The human body is terrifying.

Now doing homework. Better than not at al.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/30/2018:
I'm so glad that your day got better - at least it seems that way. I'm glad that your camping friend came to her senses (sort of?).

I'm glad you're working on homework. Every little bit helps! Keep trying! (It's been a rough week, hasn't it?)

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Yeah, but more rough because I am time tracking for the OT and it is depressing because I see how far off plan I am. Incremental progress is key to achieving the changes I need to make. At least that stupid class is over and I just have to close out with the school tomorrow.


bearcountrygg on 06/30/2018:
Boy...it sounds like that gals emails get get of hand very easily…….she must not thinks things through before writing them.....

happy-1 on 06/30/2018:
She's gotta be 80. Goes with the territory.



happy-1 - Thursday Jun 28, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

225.7

Went to hot yoga last night. OMG. How is that fun? Half dead today. 

Got a screwy email from my friend which I am ignoring. Life goes on.

One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. Tracking time for OT shows that I am getting nothing done because I am cleaning up the hoard every day. 

I just keep trying.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
I did bikram hot yoga for around a year. i was working as a teacher and could fit it in my schedule. that no longer is the case. the class was 1.5hours and it took a half hour to prep / bike ride over to it...and another half hour to get home. it was so time consuming...but good if your schedule is more free.

i used to love it - especially in the freezing Winter...it was so cool to go in there and get all warm and toasty.

what about the screwy email?

stay positive...you are doing well...hitting new lows in your weight and all! stay focussed!



happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 27, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Really glad to have DD this morning. Logging in to read other people's struggles makes me feel less blue. Today I need to crack on homework but I just want to stay in bed with my best friend my dog. Between my camping friend and not saying the right thing to a dude off okcupid... UGH. 1 step forward (weight loss and OT), 10 steps back. I just want to stay in bed all day.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/27/2018:
I'm so sorry (((hugs))). Try to get up and do something for yourself.... and a little homework.

I didn't comment yesterday, but congratulations on your new shoes! Nothing like the joy of a new pair of shoes :-D


horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
we all have some struggles yes!!!!!!! i doubt you are truly so set back...keep your head up!


innerpeace on 06/29/2018:
Is this homework for a class you are taking or for real home work like house work - cleaning - and stuff?

I hope everything gets better for you.



happy-1 - Tuesday Jun 26, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

New camp shoes came today!  They fit perfectly and are super flattering. I am pleased that they are dusty pink not baby pink... I think they will wear better. I was so inspired, I posted my first dog-friendly brewery meetup for the dog meetup that made me an organizer. I did a recurring brewery meetup for the last thursday of the month starting in July and a camping trip for the first weekend of October. Let's see how it goes, right?

OT yesterday was interesting. We're going to start with time management. I'm supposed to start with tracking my time... where it goes. They gave me a worksheet with the times of day down the left and the days across the top. Not sure what that is supposed to do for me... but sure. Why not.

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Pissed off a camping friend and she has decided to kick me out of the group because the trip was to a campground she also organizes trips to. I also used a liability statement that was public domain that she also uses. I took it down as soon as she said something... If I had thought she would be infringed upon I wouldn't have done it in the first place. I replied that it seemed like an extreme reaction to a mistake I corrected and aplogized for, I wouldn't have done it if I thought I was doing something wrong, and it was a mistake... I thought we had talked it through... and I hoped we could talk about it. I think she may have forgotten we talked about it because she is at least 70.

I'll be sad to not talk to her anymore. I feel very tired.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/26/2018:
Hugs...

happy-1 on 06/27/2018:
Ty. Feels bad to screw things up day after day.


horn_of_plenty on 06/27/2018:
try to just make up with her...communicate with her and move forward. sounds like you'd miss her as a friend :) i try now to move past fights with people i have some cares about!

happy-1 on 06/27/2018:
Yeah. She sent me a pretty abusive email. I tried calling but she didn't pick up. She did this to another friend in December. She doesn't unring that "you are dead to me" bell. I figured he had actually done something but maybe not.



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