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happy-1 - Monday May 31, 2021
(10m cr,30m pln, 14fst, 7w,2500cal, 10Kstps, 9bed)
Weight: 216.0

Another 9 pm bedtime. Freedom.to turned off Netflix. I packed stuff away, put on my pjs and flipped off the light... Mama cat made an inquisitive scratch at the pool noodles and a small mew to indicate that she would prefer not to sleep in the bathroom. She would much prefer to sleep with me. I closed the bathroom door. Oh no... we are definitely not starting that habit.

My victory today was at least getting all the stuff scattered on postit notes into my to do list and putting the post its in the shred bucket. I also went to the grocery store, and made a very convincing Del Taco copycat salad. With turkey and less sodium. Dad liked it and ate 4 helpings... sigh.

Fingertips finally stoped wrinkling up like prunes post-Moderna.

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  • 10m cr, no... ate late last night. To make the fast happen, I put off breakfast and was too spacey to do the core workout
  • 30m pln, yes
  • 14fst, yes
  • 7w, no... 4?
  • 2500cal, no idea. Ate 2 bags of keto cookies ($$), so probably not.
  • 10Kstps, no 4471. Just tired. Too many bbqs and crazy drivers to be going for walks in this neighborhood. People text as they pull out of driveways
  • 9bed, yes!!!!

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 06/01/2021:
How many cats do you have? I have 3. A rescue from 12 years ago, a stray from 3 years ago and the once feral who hung around for 2 years and very slowly tamed down. All neutered males. Get along ok, no aggression. The little feral guy seems to be bonding with my fat 5 yr old. Very similar in appearance, black with small white patches on their chests.

happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
Aaaaaaaw. I like big, solid, tom cats too. Just the one. If she hadn’t walked up to me on the street and begged to be my cat I would have put it off a couple more years. I was always more of a dog person but now I guess I am a cat person too.


Donkey on 06/01/2021:
I sleep much better when Old Kitty sleeps with the Daughter. Boy Kitty sleeps in his bed or on the couch (that also has a cat bed on it). Baby Kitty sleeps in her bed or in the arm chair (with a blanket and soft cushion.

I think that Freedom.to app (?) is a great thing for you, to get you off the electronics and into bed. I too get sucked in far too easily. Videos on Facebook - rescue animals, nail manicures, and make-up tutorials are my recent weakness.

I'm kind of like your dad: find a healthy alternative, eat way too much of it.

happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
To be fair, it was unbelievably good. I had a second helping of the taco meat myself.

happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
I can’t believe how much sleeping on a board has improved my sleep and back. It is narrow, I don’t need a cat pushing me out of position or fighting me for space on it… plus cats like to sleep on pillows. Yuck!!!!! And all the fur.


Jacky82020 on 06/01/2021:
I’ve always had 2-4 dogs and 2-4 cats! Right now I have a 3 yr old French Bulldog and a 2 yr old Pug/Frenchie mix. Two boys that kiss each like a pair of cats grooming one another. Never had dogs like this before. Very cute.

happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
Aaaaaaaaaaw!



happy-1 - Sunday May 30, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

Shelving idea totally worked out well. Mama cat is back to being friendly and purring, rubbing up against my ankles. She polished off two little cans of cat food and an impressive amount of kibble. Doesn't mind the equine pine pellets instead of litter at all. She decided that she likes me so much in fact that when it was time to go to sleep, she started scratching at the gate to get out and come join me... so someone is feeling better and getting assertive... There's no dogs or other cats that she can smell or hear through the gate... The human feeds her and stuff... She is ready and willing to get this "house cat" thing going. She's heard all about it and remembers being a kitten... Let's go. Giardia result first, kitty. Luckily, the bathroom door still shuts tight with the wire shelving screen. I just have it tied in place with some twine on the door hinges and a bottle of cleaner as a counterweight... it will not contain a determined cat. I think an enhancement is in order tomorrow since I plan on keeping her in there at night and whenever I go out... That bathroom gets way too hot and cold with the door closed.. Cats and quality sleep do not mix. I am a little surprised she hasn't tried to scratch me at all. Her claws are daggers.

The main driver behind getting a cat was to break the cycle where I stay up late watching tv and don't go to bed... worked last night and tonight anyway. As soon as Freedom.to blocked my streaming sites, I turned off my tv and went to bed. Ok, yeah... I am posting here... but... it's my wind down.

Tried all day to get my to do list in order but I was just too achey, tired, and foggy. My brain just wouldn't come together. Tomorrow I will just go take a break and get some daylight. Feed some squirrels.

  • 10m core, no. Bedroom is too cluttered from all the stuff I took out of the bathroom. 
  • 30m pln, no. Spent all day trying
  • 14fst, yes this am but blew it tonight for tomorrow. Just have to get back on schedule.
  • 2500cal, no... sugar was actually in range and I blew it with almond flour cookies while I was waiting for dinner to bake. Then I blew it after dinner with some frozen eggrolls which was total emotional eating from struggling all day with my to do list and feeling like $&@€... neck hurts, back hurts, headaches, aswollen ankles, dehydration... yuck.
  • 10Kstps, no. Tried to get out for a walk twice. Just went back inside each time.
  • 9pmbed, yes

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/31/2021:
A 9pm bedtime is an excellent way to start your next day.

happy-1 on 06/01/2021:
Grrrr… get after it


Horn_of_plenty on 05/31/2021:
is it possible to trim her claws or is that not allowed? also, will you get her something for scratching? a post? i'm so glad the cat thing is working out for you so well! i guess your experience with other cats has paid off greatly! and what you have done for this particular cat! how old is she approx?

sounds like you are on your way toward a greater order of things! :) xo

and donkey's comment :) always! i shall be up too late tonight..

happy-1 on 05/31/2021:
1 or 2 years? Vet said I can expect 15 together (gulp).

I dunno if I will bother with trimming her claws until I tell my dad I got a cat and presumably he will want to interact with her. I am not telling him until she is all settled in so she doesn’t get stressed and poop and pee everywhere like the last cat.



happy-1 - Sunday May 30, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

Having a cat so far feels a bit Silence of the Lambs. She is stuck in my bathroom till Tuesday when the Giardia sample comes back. She's hissed at me 2x today... Probably the dewormer making her cranky. I figure being stuck in a dark windowless bathroom in a strange human's home has to suck... so I made a Home Depot run for wire shelving. The door is blocked off but she can get some fresh air and hear what all is going on.


Also did a couple of hard conversations with Dad today about budgets. It's all ok, just time to review. Super cloudy today anyway... but I got zero on my list done. 

  • 10m core, no... went to home depot, vet
  • 30m pln, no... did talks with dad
  • 14fst, no... broke it to drive this am
  • 2500cal, no... only 2 mini meals, then got too hungry and ate nuts
  • 10Kstps, no... sat working on computer all day
  • 9pmbed, no... stayed up watching tv till 10:20. Hard time falling asleep

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/30/2021:
That shelving idea is GENIUS. I think it will make her quarantine easier, and if she is able to be in the house with you, having the light and exposure will help make the adjustment smoother. My tortie is quite fickle with her affections towards me. :-)

I see that although you did not meet your goals, that you had quite a productive day. Your 30 minutes of planning --- I kind of see that as accomplished, if you had a conference with Dad about the budget. It's just a different sort of "planning" period.


Horn_of_plenty on 05/30/2021:
she's such a beautiful kitten!!!! her coloring is nice almost like a baby leopard or other larger cat!

that/s really creative and i'm glad there's no door. i'm sure she's eager to move around!


bearcountrygg on 05/30/2021:
Good idea so that you can see each other....also gives her some fresh air.


Maria7 on 05/30/2021:
So happy your sweet kitty got a good home and a loving Mama. So sweet of you to take her in. Take care. Hugs.



happy-1 - Saturday May 29, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

 

 

  • 10m core, no
  • 30m pln, no
  • 14fst, no
  • 2500cal, no
  • 10Kstps, yes
  • 9pmbed, yes

 Mama cat is tucked into my bathroom and away from memorial weekend fireworks. I've never seen an animal so happy to get a pillow and a blanket on a bathroom floor. I should have taken a video. Made all the bad parts of my day melt away.

Here is earlier at the *cough* $300 vet visit. She was super chill. Just sat there looking around, didn't try to make a run for it. 
 

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/29/2021:
She is beautiful!!! I'm happy to hear that she is happy...☺. You did really well with your steps and getting to bed early!!!

happy-1 on 05/29/2021:
LoL… for a moth-eaten stray with a docked ear and a shaved tummy. Good personality though. Freaks me out with all the long, unblinking eye contact.

happy-1 on 05/29/2021:
I’m looking forward to seeing what she looks like with some regular meals and a bath.


Donkey on 05/29/2021:
Oh my goodness, she's so beautiful! I love tortie cats! My Baby Kitty is a tortie - the first one we've had. They say that tortie cats have a lot of attitude. I call it "personality". She's a doll!

Can you please remind me what your "30 min pln" is? Also, just curious - when you did not meet your calorie goal, was it over or under? Just curious....

happy-1 on 05/29/2021:
I had a tortie as a kid. That cat became mine because out of the litter, it was the one that walked up to me and yowled while the others hid behind the fridge. I guess I pick pets the same way as an adult. “Ok, if you picked me, let’s do this.” The resemblance may have been why she was able to pick me… I looked at her just a minute longer… She saw me looking, ran over and yowled at me every time I passed till I fed her. There’s tons of loose cats in this neighborhood. I can’t say I pay any attention to them.

30 minutes of planning a day… that’s maintaining my calendar, writing my agenda, to do list, etc. I tend to only do it sporadically right now… mostly due to exhaustion… so it takes me forever and I lose the day to it. Then it all falls out of whack so life things derail and then fitness stuff on that list derails.

The plan field has a very short character limit, but it is easy to copy and paste here everyday… so I just abbreviate.


bearcountrygg on 05/29/2021:
I had a stare down contest with Sampson once....and I figured he would win....but nope...eventually blinked......makes me wonder if they can see into our soul.....cats are something else.



happy-1 - Friday May 28, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

Stuffed her unceremoniously into the carrier this morning. She put up less of a fight so I am less worn out... At the vet, wish us luck (luck=nothing toxic and communicable to people).

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/28/2021:
Hopefully she is healthy and pest free....if she does have fleas or ticks you can treat that easily enough.

happy-1 on 05/29/2021:
They gave her a flea treatment at the spay and neuter and the vet gave her Revolution. I’ll let that sink in, wait for the poop sample result and the deworming to do it’s thing, and give her a proper bath after.


horn_of_plenty on 05/28/2021:
awwww, please share a photo if you can....or give a description of her. welcome home, fingers crossed for her. <3

happy-1 on 05/29/2021:
Photo up!!! Vet says she has an excellent temperament to be a house cat and we should have a good 15 years together (aaack).



happy-1 - Thursday May 27, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

Not a day I am proud of... couldn't pull it together to get mama cat to the vet this am... burned all my energy getting her into the carrier. I cleaned everything up, put her back in the crate, and sat working on bookkeeping stuff. Another night on the patio... poor kitty. 

I think if my blood sugar doesn't lower by tomorrow I give up and try the new med... even though I am finally getting things done. Honestly I am a little scared to try it.

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  • 10m core, no
  • 30m pln, no
  • 14fst, yes
  • 2500cal, No
  • 10Kstps, yes
  • 9pmbed, yes

 

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 05/28/2021:
If you need the meds then you need the meds. They are there for you when it's too hard without them. Take some deep breaths and try to be less hard on yourself......stress makes everything worse....do something that involves self care for yourself....pamper yourself a little.....meditate.....you are worth it!!!!


Donkey on 05/28/2021:
^ I think Bear makes a good point. And it's OK to be scared too. You may be a little harsh in your wording - it's not "giving up" but rather, trying a new path.

(((hugs)))


horn_of_plenty on 05/28/2021:
it is ok to take meds if your body does better with them. i support that. they are meant to help us live our best lives :)

you are doing good xo

i agree with the above !!



happy-1 - Thursday May 27, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

Got weird pushback this AM from the Ex-ish when I said I was doing a 14 hour fast. For some reason he is really against it. I don't understand why... It's just 6pm to 8am everyday. I have a cup of coffee in the morning and some water, do chores, then I eat. Not a big deal... except he is really against it.

I don't understand. It would make sense if I was being extreme in limiting my calories or doing extreme exercise, etc. Or doing a daily 23 hour fast. But a daily 14 hour fast??? I don't get it.

Why does that make me feel kind of down?

Dumping it out here, shaking it off. Getting started with my day.

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 05/27/2021:
Nothing wrong with that 14 hr fast. I’d do it if I could, but the best I can do is 11PM (bedtime) to 4 PM. Not sure if sleeping counts as fasting.

Most ppl are bummed out by unsupportive comments. But up his! Do what you want.


Donkey on 05/27/2021:
I think when someone says 14-hour (or whatever) fast, it sounds more severe than fasting overnight and putting off your first meal. It's still a very valid fat - don't get me wrong, I'm not saying anything to diminish your fasting at all.

I'm sure you know that people who do IF often follow a 16:8 schedule, with 16 hours of fasting (!), and an 8-hour window to eat. So that's like an early lunch and then dinner, and that's it.

(When life was a little easier/better, I could do a 14:10 schedule. Can't do 16:8 with my job. )

Stick to what works for you.



happy-1 - Wednesday May 26, 2021
(10m core, 30m pln, 14fst, 2500cal, 10Kstps, 9pmbed)
Weight: 216.0

 Inch by inch.

  • 10m core, yes
  • 30m pln, no
  • 14fst, no
  • 2500cal, don't know
  • 10Kstps, yes
  • 9pmbed, yes

Aaaaaaaaaugh... What I did get done I fought tooth and nail to to do... And still forgot an AM doc appt. Moderna is the bus that hit me.

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Actually had dreams last night. Mostly about having spiders in my bed. At the end I saw my mom and gave her a hug. Then I woke up.

Momma cat is in a crate on the patio. We couldn't get her into the carrier and we missed her vet appointment. Can't bring her inside until she's screened for parasites. She's not so sure about me.

Oh the seratonin rush of petting a kitty cat when you haven't felt good in a very long time...

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/27/2021:
Some days are "tooth and nail" -- and you got a lot checked off your list.

Love your dream... Sometimes I dream about my stepfather or my grandpa. I feel like they're checking in with me. We're always at a holiday party, with stepfather or grandpa off to the side. I ask them, "Are you OK?" and they let me know that they are fine. It's been a while since I've had one of these dreams.

I hope it works out with kitty. If it turns out that you cannot have her in the house, I would encourage you to find a new home for her. Life in a crate or outdoors is not good.

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
Yeah... I'm not really sure what to do... She didn't use her litterbox at all last night, slept in it, and is soaked... I need to go in and ask the vet if they will see her without a bath. Neighbors who trapped her said she mostly used her box, but not always.

This is feeling like I bit off more than I can chew.

I live in LA... It rarely even rains... She could totally be a patio cat. I have 8' fences on all sides and I can just set her up with a place to hide and a litterbox that isn't in my planters.

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
I hardly ever dream, or remember it. It must be great to have those dreams regularly and feel good and secure about your family and that you will see them on the other side.


horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2021:
Congrats on your weigh-in for yesterday!

i once bought a pulse oximeter, i do not use it though...yet...it was supposed to be for exercising, but i do not do the type of exercise anymore that i bought it for.

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
What exercise?

I have one on my Garmin but I have to remember to check it. The readings where I am fatigued or anxious and come back 84% make it a lot more relevant all of a sudden.


horn_of_plenty on 05/27/2021:
i also get great feels from petting docs and cats, yes!

also, nice job getting a lot done.

i had some ultra weird dreams last weekend. i forgot now, but they were so real life like.

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
And guinea piggies! All that fur!!!! And wiggle!



happy-1 - Tuesday May 25, 2021
(14h fast, 2500cal 4:45, 10Ksteps, 9pmbed, 30m plan)
Weight: 216.0

Weighed in at 216.0 this AM and am super happy about that so I figured I just neeeded to post really quick and tell everyone!!!

Inch by inch.

I forgot to bring my Avocado Oil back into my bedroom last night and went out to get it this AM... Dad asked for the grocery flyers. This created a ball of anxiety for me,... he's going to buy stuff that puts his eye surgery at risk... My heart just started pounding, I got anxious and didn't want to do it. I just did it anyway and went back to my room. Breathed deep and it released. Very different from anxiety on Metformin, which doesnt release, just latches onto the next thing. GP wants me to check my pulse oximeter reading when that happens, but I was so spacey... I forgot. 

Since checking my O2 level is supposed to help me narrow down the causes of fatigue and get back to work... But if I am possibly having low O2 I don't have the presence of mind to check my O2... I splurged on a Circuul ring. Hammacher Schlemmer had it for $200 less than other sites but without the brand name on it. I called and they confirmed it was the Circul ring.

https://www.hammacher.com/product/home-oximetry-wellness-tracker?promo=search

There was also a promo code that took 10% off, and that was about the cost of the shipping.

There is another ring that will vibrate when your O2 level is dropping... but it is $70 more and bigger and bulkier. A wearable ony helps if you wear it.

https://getwellue.com/pages/o2ring-oxygen-monitor?gclid=Cj0KCQjwwLKFBhDPARIsAPzPi-JvRDGeAF2DZwQxfAgcKsW8Zkyci7aAffJKw0g-QBKnyRBWioS6riEaAqeLEALw_wcB

Plus the each only carry so much charge... If the cheaper, smaller Circuul ring shows that I am not getting enough oxygen and that's why I have sudden fatigue while just hanging laundry and washing dishes... then that warrants buying the Wellue O2 ring... Wear the Circuul ring at night while I am sleeping and the Wellue ring during the day and while driving.

OK. Recentering today. Dad wants me to come back out and talk to him, but I really don't want to. I want to run away and hide from whatever nightmare conversation is going to stress me out and drain my energy. Maybe I start with moving my car out of the driveway and going for a walk to shake off the stress.

Yes. A walk. That's a good way to start.

 

Progress as of today: 101 lbs lost so far, only 56 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/26/2021:
I love that you post links, so that I can check out what you've been checking out! We received a Sharper Image catalog at the office yesterday, and I saw a few gadgets that made me think of you! I think one of them was an oximetry tracker. One that caught MY eye is a wrist band gadget that measures your caloric intake based off of readings from your skin. I don't remember it quite clearly but I guess it measures calories/glucose based off of sweat and... something else? That would solve my calorie counting -- but probably doesn't track macros.

Congratulations on your weight loss!!!!

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
Interesting!!!! I will have to research it more!

https://www.sharperimage.com/view/product/Smart+Calorie+Tracking+Band/207574



happy-1 - Monday May 24, 2021
(14h fast, 2500cal 4:45, 10Ksteps, 9pmbed, 30m plan)
Weight: 217.7

 New baseline... Day 1. No metformin or anything but Concerta.

Taking a 2 week break from diabetes meds to control for side effects on the new prescription. I can't lose another 4 years of my life. Today I woke up at 6, did a therapy session, an errand, 1 personal task, cooked 2 meals and packed the leftovers into meal prep trays, walked to the post office, and got 10,000 steps. I turned off the tv at 9pm and went to bed like an adult. 

Debating buying an $80 board for my bed and a $50 foam pad so I have more space to sleep. Right now I have my portable yoga board, a yoga mat and a twin size mattress pad on top of my foam mattress. I have tried a bunch of mattresses... the only thing that works is a board and 1" of foam. Anything else is too soft. I've been holding out till the sleep study and whatever they tell me, but I've got a million pillows on here with me and it is starting to get hot out. Decisions, decisions.

Inch by inch.

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  • 14h fast, no
  • 2500cal 4:45, no... overestimated dinner, and was way short when I checked at 7 after I showered. So I ate a pint of keto ice cream. Sigh.
  • 10Ksteps, yes!!!!
  • 9pmbed, yes!!!
  • 30m plan, no

 

Progress as of today: 99.3 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 05/25/2021:
nice job reducing meds especially obviously if you feel better that way.

nice job on getting up early, doing a therapy session too, along with cooking and tasks = very productive!

and 10k steps, wow.

well, i assume if the keto ice cream fits into your calories, that it's ok...hope you enjoyed it! :)

enjoy your day & hang tough!

keep us updated on the cat situation.

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
I kind of need to be on the metformin, but the only way to know if it is a catch-22... that the metformin makes it harder to do the things I need to do to be healthier overall and if it is about the same whether or not I take it is to give it several days off of it and see what happens.


Donkey on 05/25/2021:
Quite a productive day! I too went to bed early, like a grown up, and I think it served me well. I hope you have a really good day!

(I'd be interested in any updates, when available, about the cat, too.)

happy-1 on 05/27/2021:
Kitty is on my patio right now and had a nice big chicken breakfast. She ignored her box and slept in her poop and pee... so no vet trip this AM until I find out if she needs a bath first. She may be a patio cat.



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