One foot in front of the other. Breathe in, breathe out.
To regroup...
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Got an email back from my friend who sent the screwy email(s) (including **** yous and vicious statements). Apparently I'm totally right, she wants to be friends, and she added me back to her camping trip... Bat **** crazy...
At least the tension in my neck released and unpinched a nerve. I didn't even realize I was in pain until my bones slid back into place with a pop after I got her email. The human body is terrifying.
Now doing homework. Better than not at al.
Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!
225.7
Went to hot yoga last night. OMG. How is that fun? Half dead today.
Got a screwy email from my friend which I am ignoring. Life goes on.
One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. Tracking time for OT shows that I am getting nothing done because I am cleaning up the hoard every day.
I just keep trying.
Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!
i used to love it - especially in the freezing Winter...it was so cool to go in there and get all warm and toasty.
what about the screwy email?
stay positive...you are doing well...hitting new lows in your weight and all! stay focussed!
Really glad to have DD this morning. Logging in to read other people's struggles makes me feel less blue. Today I need to crack on homework but I just want to stay in bed with my best friend my dog. Between my camping friend and not saying the right thing to a dude off okcupid... UGH. 1 step forward (weight loss and OT), 10 steps back. I just want to stay in bed all day.
Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!
I didn't comment yesterday, but congratulations on your new shoes! Nothing like the joy of a new pair of shoes :-D
I hope everything gets better for you.
New camp shoes came today! They fit perfectly and are super flattering. I am pleased that they are dusty pink not baby pink... I think they will wear better. I was so inspired, I posted my first dog-friendly brewery meetup for the dog meetup that made me an organizer. I did a recurring brewery meetup for the last thursday of the month starting in July and a camping trip for the first weekend of October. Let's see how it goes, right?
OT yesterday was interesting. We're going to start with time management. I'm supposed to start with tracking my time... where it goes. They gave me a worksheet with the times of day down the left and the days across the top. Not sure what that is supposed to do for me... but sure. Why not.
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Pissed off a camping friend and she has decided to kick me out of the group because the trip was to a campground she also organizes trips to. I also used a liability statement that was public domain that she also uses. I took it down as soon as she said something... If I had thought she would be infringed upon I wouldn't have done it in the first place. I replied that it seemed like an extreme reaction to a mistake I corrected and aplogized for, I wouldn't have done it if I thought I was doing something wrong, and it was a mistake... I thought we had talked it through... and I hoped we could talk about it. I think she may have forgotten we talked about it because she is at least 70.
I'll be sad to not talk to her anymore. I feel very tired.
Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!
BREAKING NEWS!!! I BROKE MY PLATEAU! 223.5
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Had a busy day yesterday and got home late and to bed late but still managed to get up at 6:30. Everything hurts though especially my neck. Maybe the Occupational Therapist appointment will help with that. I am kind of dreading it. What if they tell me I'm having such a hard time because I am permanently retarded? But a therapist, shrink, and meds have been helpful but not enough to pull myself together. I have to get 23 wheels to spin at once to get back on track and I can only make 1 or 2 spin at a time. The nutritionist's diet changes are helping me get to bed on time and up on time and eating better... but it isn't really enough.
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Yesterday was a good rare social day though. Got up at 5:30, walked my dog to the park and drank coffee, then I rode my bike to church for a beautiful service. Went home, cleaned up and then went to brunch to see camping friends. On my way home I stopped off at a friends to help with her flooring project. I need to go back next weekend with my jigsaw and dremmel to help her finish.
Yesterday at brunch one of my camping friends told me I look good... really good... multiple times. He's in his 70's and married but still really hot like Robert Redford... so I'll take the compliment in the highest regard... and run around in my yoga pants and top more often?????
Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!
you'be been waking up nicely the past few days.
that's a nice compliment, i guess he notices your overall weightloss.
It's a miracle. Up at 5:30 am again. Yay me! Walking my dog to the park, coffee in habd.
225.1... my scale is laughing at me.
Was at costco yesterday and theyhad porkchops for $1.89, so I picked up 2 flats and broke them down into meal sized packs with my vacum sealer. The ones from costco, breaded are my dad's absolute favorite and friday night with the turkey in red sauce with spaghetti squash was such a debacle... I just felt terrible. He really enjoyed his porkchop though. It's super hot here so I did them up in the convection toaster and they turned out amazing! Crisp breading and juicy inside.
Progress as of today: 92.7 lbs lost so far, only 18.3 lbs to go!
It’s not a miracle that you are up! You did this on your own haha it’s not a superhuman doing it for you!! The scale won today!?
$1.89 is def a cheap price for any meat (pork lol). Such a good plan with the vacuum sealer…I am so glad I bought hamburger meat this weekend…it tastes so good!
My mom used to make – I always forget – breaded either lamb or pork chops…they were always chewy and TERRIBLE. Both my sister and I despised that meal whenever she made it and we were in Elementary school. I am QUITE positive yours was wayyy better ;)
My sister and I always had trouble chewing the meat and ..oh it could have been VEAL chops that were chewy…we always had trouble chewing meats my mom cooked. They were prob always very well done.
Up on time at 6 after going to bed at midnight thanks to help from my dad. I am showered, haired and makeuped and at school to do homework in the hall before class. I have a packed cooler and caught myself veering away from getting here early to get take out breakfast as a form of procrastination.
Bracing for myself for the nightmare that is this school and the people running it.
Progress as of today: 92.7 lbs lost so far, only 18.3 lbs to go!
Like Gains, I too find myself lacking attention, which is why movies don't do much for me any more. I have a hard enough time getting through a Reader's Digest. I am seldom able to finish books (non-fiction; although I admit that could be due to the subject matter I've chosen). Still, I think it would be wonderful to take a algebra class or something and start building up my math skills again - just for the heck of it!
Trying to get homework done and I need to get this off my chest so I can focus... and stop eating corn tortillas with cheese. I've had 6 tortillas and 3/4 cups of cheese. My dog had 2 tortillas and 1/4 cup of cheese.
So at the lunch with my parents and my dad's old friends... after he hobbled his enormous bulk to the bathroom they asked... isn't there anything that can be done for him? My dad looks terrible. Both my parents do. And my heart just aches to think about it... Because you really never could do anything for my dad. He was determined to sleep in the chair and never go to bed on time. He hated vegetables and salads and refused to eat anything remotely healthy. He stayed away from therapists and lifestyle coaches like the plague. He hated to sweat or be uncomfortable in any way. Growing up his mom ruled all his habits with an iron fist and he hated to be controlled in any way. He just wanted to sit in front of the tv and the computer and not be bothered and eat whatever he wanted... and not have any consequences... except that it doesn't work that way.
And I think ADHD is a component. Hereditary. I couldn't get my personal habits under control until I started medication. All the millions of habits that go into getting to bed on time and stocking healthy food and structuring my day.
My mom talked about how they had gone on a medical weight loss program and he lost 60lbs and she lost 30 and then they gained it back. I said fudamentally you have to want to be healthy and feel better to sacrifice the treats and go for a walk. He doesn't want to.
Isn't it horrible to think that your father or your brother or your kid doesn't want to be healthy? It's like watching a car accident slowly happening everyday and you can't turn it around. Suicide by fork.
Progress as of today: 92.7 lbs lost so far, only 18.3 lbs to go!
And I can also imagine that this must have been (and might continue to be) a very frustrating time for you. It's so hard to watch "death by fork"... I agree with Bear that it REALLY has to come from the person himself, though. And I don't know how one achieves that. For my husband, he needed/wanted hip replacement surgery, and the doctor said he wouldn't do it unless he lost 70 pounds.
Since surgery, though, my husband has not been able to lose any more and has actually gained back maybe 10 of those pounds. If he could just lose 25 more pounds... And sometimes he hops back on the diet-wagon, but it's not consistent.
I find though that if it doesn't come from within the person, then success is either limited, temporary, or elusive. Even from my own experience!
Crunched my calories and discovered that cronometer has been padding my calories burned from Fitbit by about 300 calories... so I have been looking at Cronometer thinking I am at a deficit and should burn a pound this week and break my plateau... and UGH! I'm not. Because I have been eating almost exactly or a little more than what Fitbit says and weigh about what I should weigh based on the calories I ate. If anything it's a miracle I don't weigh MORE than I do right now. UGH. All this struggle and nutritionist assistance and I'm sabotaged by the tool I paid money for. Sent an email to their tech support but BUMMER.
Progress as of today: 92.7 lbs lost so far, only 18.3 lbs to go!
How do you know that Fitbit isn't wrong? Mine is not the most accurate when it comes to a lot of measures, but I still love it because it does tell me, relative to others and to other days, how I'm doing.
Hugs to all.
Up early, day 4. Alarm was set for 5 but I was up at 6, Fitbit says I took a long time to fall asleep last night and was up for a bit... But I got 7 hours and was up on time so Yay me. Plan is to do chores and dog walk till Costco opens at 10 then be first through the doors to get my prescription. I'm planning on checking out a Boba place by there to do homework... ALL DAY.
Except what I really want is a nap. Everything hurts. All I did was drive 3 hours yesterday. Neck is killing me. Maybe I'll use a hotwater bottle for a bit before I get started. I thought about it last night but was too tired to get out of bed.
It was nice to eat the costco rotisserie chickens at the table last night as a meal instead of picking at it until everyone had eaten and putting it away at midnight. Much more human and my portion control was better.
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Chores ran over to 11AM. At least I made progress on sorting things out. Oi. Time management.
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Progress as of today: 92.7 lbs lost so far, only 18.3 lbs to go!
Totally not a fan of long drives either!
The costco chickens are great!!!!!!!! My sister buys organic chickens (not even cooked!) for $20!!!!!!!!!!
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I'm so glad that your day got better - at least it seems that way. I'm glad that your camping friend came to her senses (sort of?).
I'm glad you're working on homework. Every little bit helps! Keep trying! (It's been a rough week, hasn't it?)
Yeah, but more rough because I am time tracking for the OT and it is depressing because I see how far off plan I am. Incremental progress is key to achieving the changes I need to make. At least that stupid class is over and I just have to close out with the school tomorrow.
bearcountrygg on 06/30/2018:
Boy...it sounds like that gals emails get get of hand very easily…….she must not thinks things through before writing them.....
She's gotta be 80. Goes with the territory.