Sunday jan 30, 2022 2:04pm
Omg… to have one bad night of sleep and it’s not a crisis… to look forward to and enjoy a walk… to be hungry, eat your planned meal, and be full…
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Sat 1/29/22 7:40 am:
Another great night of sleep. Almost so predictable it's boring. Except it's wonderful. A miracle. So much better.
Took the xr stimulants today so I can pack the IR stimulants for the month and get some stuff done. I realized late last night that I have been spacing out on taking them the rest of the day... it's 4x a day... so this limpness and exhaustion might be uneven spacing in a 12 hour period.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
have a nice night!
Fri Jan 28, 2022 9am:
Another solid night of sleep. I held off checking stats to see if I could guess if I got enough REM before I looked at them... and I guessed right. I feel so much better, I don't know what to do with myself. What do I do first? There's so much I can do now. Paperwork? Chores? Errands? Groceries? A day at the beach (cold but still a nice view)? No running till I hear about my knee x-ray yesterday.
Avoiding my dad for as long as possible this AM so I can see how long this lasts. Not as a general practice, just to measure when I get too tired and start to lose control of habits. I started yesterday feeling great... BUT... Yesterday's trying to take him out in the AM for lunch gave me insomnia the night before, wore me out so fast I went back to bed for a while, made me struggle to get to the x-ray, set me up for a fender bender in the parking lot after, the longest drive home ever, being too cold and shakey to get 2 more walks in, making the wrong things for dinner and eating too much cheese/crackers/fruit, screwing up my blood sugar/cholesterol, and setting me up for a harder day today... HOWEVER... I still got great sleep and woke up clear again today.
So... critical things list made. I picked one thing for the coworking session and left 3 slots open. I have my list of errands for the afternoon. I made the mistake of saying I was going grocery shopping. Dad asked if he can come with. I waked away. I can't deal.
Resting my brain for 20 minutes before coaching session start.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Ordered Instacart again. I cringe on the cost, but I am trying to stand back up and I need the rest, plus I wasn’t driving so great. I didn’t offer dad an outing today… Just needed a break from the fighting... Got 2 walks in. Washed dishes. Pulled in trash cans.
4:15 taking a break. I’m ready to go to bed, but I need to stick it out 4 more hours. I know better than to be lying in bed right now, but it’s better than last week.
Picked up all the trash out front while I waited for Instacart. Put away groceries. Made dad a burger. Cleaned the cat box. Took a hot shower. Got a love session from the cat. She says I’m the best human on the planet and she loves me so much. She’s settled into my chair on my robe for the night.
I can’t believe this mild mannered, ideal, perfectly social and sweet house cat used to take chunks out of me at random. Hardly seems like the same cat.
I don’t pay much attention to the order of chores, or even if they get done at all on a given day, unless it’s important, like changing fish tank water. Looked at some activity trackers at Walmart when Matt had to excuse himself to take a dump. The most expensive at close to $400 was a Samsung Galaxy. I bought a Samsung Galaxy tablet not too long ago and couldn’t get used to it after so many iPad years. But Matt runs some automotive tests on it for his project car, so useful.
They had a Garmin forerunner 45 for $150 & a lower end Apple Watch, I think under a $200. Also a Fitbit Charge 5, mine is a 4. Noticed the 4 has a Pay Bills feature & I was like WTF, who pays bills on their activity tracker, but now thinking maybe it’s for if you’re out walking/jogging & need Starbucks or whatever.
Thurs Jan 27,2022 8:42 am:
Another successful night of sleep. I had insomnia last night. Did it to myself... Dad was his usual toxic self at bedtime. I skipped my hot shower to avoid him. I should have gone to bed and put on a meditation tape. Instead, I put on pjs and sat in my chair watching netflix. Set alarm an hour later than normal... 6:30... and somehow, miraculously got REM sleep. Dad is still being awful... I reminded him that we are supposed to go to Subway today and get him a sandwich. He wants to go to the grocery store which I still can't pull off yet. I said the park is available, a furniture store is available... He told me to get my elder abusing ass out of his house. I'll try again in an hour when I check he's taken his medication. Enough REM and not being tired yet is such a difference. Water off a ducks back. Resting from my walk while I wait for chia seeds to swell up and then I'll have the hot keto breakfast that keeps me going strong all day. One of the benefits of my gp appt yesterday was that I have an xray to schedule for my knee. With some answers about what's wrong with it, I'll know if I can go back to running. I really want to right now. Everything is just so much better. Even walking around my neighborhood feels like a treat.
Next step is to figure out why Garmin says I am suddenly detraining with the IR switch. I think I need to call them today.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
2:30 - home resting. Not looking forward to dad encounters. Can I go to bed yet?
I saw the Garmins you like online. Interestingly enough, Amazon had refurbished ones. I’m guessing that mostly means they installed new batteries. Years ago, I thought I was getting great used Fitbit buys on eBay, but none held a charge longer than a few hours. Seems battery is first to go on the Fitbits.
Wed Jan 26, 2022 6:46 am
YES YES YES I DID IT AGAIN!!! I SLEPT IN MY WINDOW AND I GOT REM!!!!
Surprising because I had a chiro adjustment so I expected it might be low due to trauma effect after so much pain... and I hit my bed like a ton of bricks and passed out before I could get the mask on, woke up and put it on about 12:30 am.
So now focus is on getting sugar down overnight so my body battery charges to 100 everyday
Super hard day… amazing I still have anything left. I slugged it out and prepped for my GP appt, got all my meds, referrals, and questions answered.
Got my 4 walks in.
Tried to get dad through medications and a walk. Made him a burger. He’s determined to be an ass to me and make me change my schedule to his whims. It’s time to go to bed. Nothing else. He’s a 2 year old. I said let’s try a subway run tomorrow. This triggered a huge fight. I said goodnight. Venting by posting here.
Not ruining all my good sleep with his bad habits.
great goals ahead.
Tues Jan 25,2022 6:24 am:
Tried my best yesterday. I did my walks after 2 meals, but ran out of gas on the 3rd and 4th. I gave dad a haircut and just wore myself out. I was supposed to take him to Subway, but my car battery was dead. Luckily I still have some warranty left on my 5 year warranty and was able to get an appointment for today. I did two medication reminders at 8am and 8 pm, which needs to be a new habit. Also made dad a burger... and he still managed to find something to complain about... I ordered Instacart to resupply him on milk, eggs, etc and they had the rolls he really likes... used that for the bun and he didn't want a fancy roll he wanted a hamburger roll. I just walked away. It had taken me 30 minutes to wake him up to take his meds and I just had nothing left for complaints about bread he shouldn't be eating anyway. $120 on processed foods and overpriced non-organic groceries from Ralphs that are basically poison.
Inch by inch.
On the other hand, I posted another challenge article, gave moral support to an old friend who I reached out to on Sunday who had a job interview. I tidied up some more. I did two walks at least. I recovered from a sore neck... and most importantly, I went to bed on time and made more progress on getting REM and consolidating my sleep cycle. Really, really proud of this...
Apparently I should have done cardio yesterday.... and need to today.
I think it would have burned off the glucose and raised my body battery today.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Did you see my comment re Garmin suggestion for my sisters?
Monday 1/24/21 6am -
Listened to a bunch of meditation things last night to fall asleep, but I did it. Woke up on time, no alarm with in range sugar. I salvaged yesterday as best I could... gave dad a bunch of hugs, made him a burger for game day.
Today begins the great "does switching to IR stimulants improve recovery time and allow me to raise my vo2 max" experiment. Have to do something. I'm weak as a kitten.
Waiting for Garmin to post sleep stats. It's definitely got me on a hook.
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6:30am... very promising. Maybe I really am starting to turn it all around.
Also very promising... rate of recharge...
7:15 am... I used to backpack and surf... how are 4 15 minute walks just right?
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Sun 1/23/22 12:24pm:
Not posting sleep stats today because I feel better than they say I should. Garmin says I slept from 9pm to 5am but no REM was recorded. I feel like I got 1:15... so possibly the watch was askew or dirty or something.
Feeling pretty good. I am moving slow, but moving. I walked to pick up a prescription and manage blood sugar after breakfast. Dad got out of joint about this because I wouldn't stay and wait for him to get out of the bathroom to talk... Except he can be in there for 30-1 hour and my sugar was rising from breakfast... it's only a 15 minute walk... Which if I don't do can delay me feeling well enough to actually get HIM out for a walk. He was grouchy when I got back so I made phone calls to people I haven't talked to for a while. One of which included my aunt who is harping on me to get him out for walks. I felt guilty and offered him a trip to Subway while I am still feeling OK... He declined and said he wants to watch the game. I sent her a photo of my habit tracker for him with the record of outings offered and declined.
It's lunchtime and while I did a great job today of making sure he has meals he likes, I haven't set myself up with much... Making up the chicken breasts so if nothing else I can eat those with cabbage this week. Make him some meatloaf again tonight. He actually liked that.
And posting here to regroup and fend off despair before I try to tackle lunch and another walk. I read a book by Thomas Brown called "Smart but Stuck" which is really freaking depressing. 15 stories about people with ADHD and everyone is miserable.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Lord, make me stronger, help me sleep better so I can do better for him?
4pm, back, set a 30 min timer for rest, then I will make him a burger.
Sat 1/22/22 2:40pm
Resting after raising the head of my bed 3 more inches to improve respiration during sleep and sleep quality. This required 2 separate sets of risers and pulling everything apart. My "to do box" now fits under my bed neatly. Side benefit.
I also did dishes.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Friday January 21, 2022 7:10am
Very promising sleep cycle consolidation and REM rebound. Looking forward to having the day and 7 day average match up again. That felt amazing.
A little split on what I should do with all this REM. Definitely not run errands. That would be a waste. Probably continue to focus on my to do list. I have the ADHD coaching call today. That may wipe me out.
Part of me wants to ditch everything and take my dad for a haircut and give him a good day out... but I dunno if that is the right move... would I wear myself out and impact REM tonight? Delay getting back to that awesome same day-7day matchup where I can think clearly and focus?
Should I run and do yoga? Or just keep to the 4 15 min walks that controlled my sugar better and resulted in REM sleep?
I don't know. First step is just getting one walk in.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Really love your colorful Garmin graphics. Fitbit is all green and grey and crappy looking, much of same info, but not all on my Charge 4. They make really expensive models that look like Apple watches. Wonder if they have better graphics.
Also, I wanted to let you know that I did find a doctor who has a holistic health practice, but her office is quite a drive. So now I know I will have options. Thank you for your recommendation.
I’ve purchased several activity trackers over the years and Garmin was the only one I hated & returned. Not positive, I buy so many things online, but believe I got it directly from them, not Amazon and had to pay for return shipping.
I had to hold my arm in the iPad’s face to get data! Weird as hell! Fitbit App picks up stuff from all over the house, even the cheapie kiddie one on sale for $30.
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Onwards and upwards
4pm. Got some walks and made my dad kugel. Having pms cravings and had some dark chocolate. Couldn’t finish the bar… omg what a difference.
Horn_of_plenty on 01/30/2022:
ty for letting me know about how sleep drs / doctors in general who study sleep were saying that it's a calculation over time and they do make adjustments for those nights were sleep is more interrupted...that it's figured into the calculation. interesting. and makes sense as we are all human - not always perfect, even at sleep!
ahhh, so with better sleep is better eating i see :) yes, i think you'll notice a big difference over time with the eating.
Maria7 on 01/31/2022:
Hope you have a good day today.
Donkey on 01/31/2022:
That's wonderful to hear - not that you didn't have a good night's sleep, but that it's not the downfall that it has been in the past. I know I don't have great sleep every night, and yep, you feel it the next day, but then the next good sleep comes around. I hope that's how it will work for you, too.
Like a normal human being. Ty
legcramps on 01/31/2022:
Fantastic!