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happy-1 - Monday Feb 14, 2022
Weight: 241.0

Mon 2/14/21 9am

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

I will be celebrating quietly at home today because I am really fing wiped. Why? 7 day training load. Feeling better, did some walks, a few extra chores... and killed my REM.


But hey, it makes a perfect graphic for challenge content and explaining why 7 day training load is the mystery factor in sleep quality for ADHD and sparing others my multi year nightmare. Yay me! Valentine's day gift from God. A sign from the universe I am on the right track.

 Plus I lost weight. Back down to Jan 18 weight of 241. Loss is next corner.


Progress as of today: 76 lbs lost so far, only 81 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/14/2022:
Inch by inch

bearcountrygg on 02/14/2022:
Yeah...Lost weight!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/14/2022:
Losing weight is always a plus; maybe from both better sleep and more fitness! it's good you are getting used to and seeing how you can adapt your lifestyle with better sleep...i'm sure it's going to take some experimenting on your part. nice you track it all.

Donkey on 02/15/2022:
This is a wonderful post!!!

Jacky82020 on 02/15/2022:
I see a lot of blue! Looks good.

happy-1 - Sunday Feb 13, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Sunday 2/13/22 2:28am:

Had a successful Day 3 of feeling better yesterday. I actually got out and had a haircut and washed my car. Did chores and made dad dinner... his favorite fried chicken. Garmin told me to stop moving at 5:30... recovery time delayed... But I took out trash and kept moving till 7... exactly what I am supposed to do per OT... so why did I fall asleep at 8 and wake up 3h later? Why can't I get back to sleep? 



Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/13/2022:
So tired

happy-1 on 02/13/2022:
9:23 am... eating breakfast and trying to figure out how to adjust my day. I actually feel pretty good, just super tired from not enough sleep. I'm so tired that even trying to write challenge content is too much to think about. Mostly what I want to do is clean up the back patio, but that might not be such a great idea if I want better sleep tonight.

I got back to sleep at about 3am... but Garmin didn't record it. I tried editing the chart times and accidentally completely messed it up.

bearcountrygg on 02/13/2022:
But you did get a lot done....so that was good.....look at your successes...

happy-1 on 02/14/2022:
Inch by inch. Ty for your support!

Donkey on 02/13/2022:
Bear is right! You did get quite a bit done - YAY you!!!

My Garmin doesn't tell me to stop moving, that I'm aware of. In fact, I get a lot of notifications to get up and move and stretch, even if my body battery is low. That's weird.

happy-1 on 02/13/2022:
Because the one you have doesn't have the same features I do. For you to get the recovery alerts, you would have to have the Forerunner 245 or Fenix 6... The recovery time alerts and 7 day training load are what I am currently utilizing to identify the last mystery on my shifting sleep patterns.

Donkey on 02/13/2022:
When I go to bed too early (which for me is 9pm or before), I usually wake up around 1:30am ready to go! Not just awake but really awake and ready to take on the day!!! And it's the devil of a time to get back to sleep when that happens.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/13/2022:
I like what Donkey had to say right above. Everyday with sleep isn't always predictable. I'm just glad you got used to your cpap and that your sleep is better...but perhaps you still need time to work it out even more...

you sound like you did good. nice job continuing to be active and taking out trash despite Garmin telling you otherwise. I am sure it is ok, your extra movement :) xoxo

happy-1 - Friday Feb 11, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Friday 2/11/22 1:56pm

2nd day of feeling better. Had enough energy to get up and go to the post office today. Still really tired so that was it. Was going to do Instacart but the app isn't working right at all. It's actually easier to just rest one more day, then go to the store tomorrow on my way home from my haircut.

Every inch of me is tired. I barely did anything. I did at least get out of bed and move to the camp cot. I'm not even interested in junk food. I just want a full body massage and a day at a Korean spa... 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/11/2022:
I think we all have tired days....

happy-1 on 02/11/2022:
Yeah... I think it might be freeze response though... Normally I get a good 3-4 hours in before I wake up my dad. Right now I am off schedule... something about sleeping more threw off my body clock, then it got thrown off again when I had to push dad for medication reminders at night. Tomorrow will hopefully be my first day back on a 5am wakeup schedule.

happy-1 on 02/11/2022:
I think it might be freeze response because I wake up ok, help him, and then I just freeze in place. I'm not doing much of anything... I just need to rest. I don't feel like that if I wake up before him and get my morning to myself.

Bright outlook though. 2.5 years in he's finally willing to move to a 7am/7pm med schedule so I can poke him and push him at 6 and get him to take them by 7, the start of my stimulant meds wearing off, wind down time, and too close to my 8:30 in bed time.

Jacky82020 on 02/11/2022:
Bear’s right about that. Glad you had 2 good days & many more to come.

I never understood Instacart. Do you order items from a specific store & someone shops & delivers? How much does that cost? Don’t think Walmart participates because they do their own home delivery in certain areas. They are forever after me to subscribe, but I like doing the pickup & stepping inside sometimes. But Instacart sounds very convenient.

happy-1 on 02/11/2022:
Convenient but expensive. Yes you order stuff from a store via the app and someone shops and delivers. They mark up the price of the groceries, the sales aren't the same, and there are tips and surcharges.

I've been doing more and wearing myself out since I have been getting more sleep but not enough energy to turn around and do PT so I can go back to running (I guess this is why CPAP takes 6 months for benefits) it seemed like of all the options for assistance the easiest thing to farm out... A housekeeper to deep clean would be $200... An extra $20 on dad's groceries seems cheaper and at least I get some movement in. I still go to the grocery store for myself, but my dad really goes through the junk food so the only way to limit it is to only buy it on a 1x a week schedule. It sticks me going to a large, crowded store... more COVID exposure... so I'm getting his junk food delivered from Ralphs and then still going 2x a month for myself and the household stuff during senior high/risk shopping hours at the Mexican market where stuff is cheaper and I can walk there and back.

Jacky82020 on 02/11/2022:
That sucks, them adding surcharges!

I didn’t know CPAP took 6 months. I thought the point was to get better sleep & seems the benefit would be immediate. All I’ve heard is many people are unable to adjust and give up. At least you’re following through, so that’s huge.

I don’t mind entering a store once a week or so. I’m double vaxxed and boosted and wear N95 masks, sometimes two. Very difficult to breathe with 2, but don’t wear them long. Probably I should use a cheap paper mask on top of the N95 instead of another N95.

Hear you’ve been having some very warm weather, if I remember correctly. You’re in LA, right? They’re predicting the hottest Super Bowl on record.

Donkey on 02/12/2022:
That's true about the 6-month period for the CPAP benefits to really show through.

I see that you need your YOU time before you start dealing with dad. I think that's what I've been doing with my early morning exercising. Hmmm...

Horn_of_plenty on 02/12/2022:
i totally hear you on feeling tired. sometimes rest is just what the dr ordered! :)

happy-1 - Thursday Feb 10, 2022
Weight: 243.1

 Thursday 2/10/22 10am

Ok, I feel better. Maybe it wasn't depression? Just total exhaustion?Body Battery is still crazy low.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/10/2022:
Inch by inch

legcramps on 02/10/2022:
Glad you are feeling better

bearcountrygg on 02/11/2022:
Good you are feeling better now.

Donkey on 02/11/2022:
Lately my body battery has been registering quite low as well. I mean like 20/100 at around 4pm. What's up with that???

I am glad you are feeling better. Seize the day!

happy-1 on 02/11/2022:
Sounds like stressful days?

Maria7 on 02/11/2022:
Yayyy! Happy that you are feeling better. How is Dad today?

happy-1 on 02/11/2022:
He feels great! He wants me to do a ton of stuff. I want to rest.

happy-1 - Wednesday Feb 09, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Wed Feb 9, 2022 6:31pm

Super tired and down today. Depression cycle is not an option. Yesterday I did yoga. Today... Kicked myself in the butt and cleaned the main bathroom. Also did one walk. Tomorrow I will walk and then clean dad's room.

I really thought that getting real sleep was going to fix everything... but I think it just made me aware of how tired I really am. Everytime I stand up and do something I need to rest. Man I hope this is emotional not physical.

I keep thinking about a full body exfoliating scrub at a Korean spa. Dental cleaning. Mani pedi. Haircut. Facial.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/10/2022:
Have you had your thyroid checked recently? Hashimotos makes you very tired.

Donkey on 02/10/2022:
Good point above. Parathyroid issues (which is apparently what I am experiencing) also list depression as a symptom. When I read that, though, I was like, How is that different from any other day? (if you know what I mean...)

I was JUST thinking about your spa days! Remember when you used to check into a hotel for a night and get all the spa treatments and stuff? It's been a REALLY LONG time since you've mentioned taking one of those. Maybe it's time...

And I'm quite impressed that you were able to accomplish what you did, through the depression. It's HARD. REALLY HARD -- and you did it!

Maria7 on 02/10/2022:
Hope you're feeling better today.

happy-1 - Wednesday Feb 09, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Tues Feb 9, 2022 11:56 pm

augh. insomnia.

Today's win was that I did a yoga class. I also pitched the caregiver group on doing coworking fridays and everyone said they were in. 

I think I have a bald spot.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 02/09/2022:
Insomnia sucks!

Great pitch. Sounds like a marvelous idea

bearcountrygg on 02/09/2022:
Sounds like you got some things going your way!!! Bald spot....Been there....when I lose weight too fast the hair at the base of my neck disappears on both sides.

Donkey on 02/09/2022:
What's going on with the insomnia? :-( I'm so sorry.

Gotta grab those victories where and when you can.

When I restrict calories too much, for too long, I start losing hair on the sides of my head by my ears.

Maria7 on 02/09/2022:
Sounds like you enjoyed the yoga class. Smiles.

happy-1 - Monday Feb 07, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Mon Feb 7,2022 3:45pm

One bad night of sleep staying up to write copy for the second challenge cycle and I'm exhausted again. How did I ever survive a long term sleep quality deficiency? How did I never notice when it started???? Except that everything was THAT awful.

Waiting for a call for my dad and then going for a walk. 

If nothing else I will get an hour of walking in today.

How did I ever go camping and do fun stuff? How do I get to do it again?

How do I get back to doing it again?

At least I changed the cat box.


Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/07/2022:
Inch by inch. Where is the swat team to come in and fix my life?

happy-1 on 02/07/2022:
And… Bizarre. My dad got taken off palliative care. He is doing way better.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/07/2022:
you know, i used to never sleep enough...like ever. for a long period of time from 29-low 30's...like 5 years.

after that, and up till now; i also find it so hard to believe how i used to function on so much less!!!!

you'll get there. the pandemic also has gotten us out of the cycle of being outside the house...doing more things- at least that is the story for me, personally, if not you.

bearcountrygg on 02/07/2022:
I'm sure the cat is happy about that.

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
Changing out a cat box is an accomplishment unto itself.

I had forgotten that you liked to camp and stuff like that! Wow, that seems long ago, but I think it was probably just within the year, no?

And that's good news about dad's care.

Donkey on 02/08/2022:
PS I did not sleep well last night either. I was OK until I woke up at around 1:30am when Husband came to bed. Downhill from there.

happy-1 on 02/09/2022:
Omg… I’d sleep in a separate room. Beats a murder charge!

Maria7 on 02/08/2022:
Walking always helps.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/08/2022:
i used your quote today on fb...i said something like pebble by pebble, inch by inch, step by step!

happy-1 - Sunday Feb 06, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Sun feb 6, 2022 10:25am

About to log on to church services. There's a lot of singing. Augh. 

Reworking my daily time plan to incorporate the real process of dad med reminders so I can avoid my crash hour. He's supposed to take meds 12 h apart but he can take them an hour early if he needs to.

Augh!!! Where is the swat team that comes in to fix my life?

ADHD coach has not yielded anything yet. I'll give it time.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/06/2022:
Inch by inch

bearcountrygg on 02/06/2022:

Horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2022:
you do not like church hymns?

you are doing great; keep on xoxo

happy-1 on 02/07/2022:
Not with synth rock / muzak!!!


Donkey on 02/07/2022:
I attended a church service (Christian, Bible church) where there was SO much music at the beginning, that it became painful. I like hymns, I'm OK with contemporary church music, but enough is enough.

happy-1 on 02/07/2022:
Right????? Get me in and out. At least online I can mute it.

happy-1 on 02/07/2022:
OR… keep playing after service and let us all mingle if you are going to do an hour of it

legcramps on 02/07/2022:
inch by inch!

happy-1 - Saturday Feb 05, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Sat Feb 5,2022 7:50am:

Sleep continues to be stable. Crossed the 21 days of stable sleep and called the caregiver service for a weekly caregiver for dad. Have them take him out.

Doing am/pm medication reminders with my dad is a nightmare. It sucks up my entire day, keeps me up late, steals my workout time in the morning. 

Trying to pull paperwork together so I can stop being so stressed out over every little thing... but I'm exhausted. 

Where is the swat team to come in and fix my life?

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/05/2022:
Inch by inch

bearcountrygg on 02/05/2022:
At least you are sleeping well......glad to see you are getting help with your dad.

Donkey on 02/05/2022:
I agree with Bear - at the very least, you're sleeping better, and that's a huge victory.

The medication reminders are not working for you. Is there an alternative? Maybe not. I thought you were talking about setting an alarm (like on Alexa) but now I think maybe you mean that you are actually reminding your Dad (repeatedly) that it's time to take his meds and he fights you on it.

I honestly think that the weekly caregiver is necessary. You need a break, and it may improve his lifestyle as well, e.g. to get out once a week.

Maria7 on 02/05/2022:
One day at a time....

Horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2022:
i can't believe it's already been 3 weeks of more stable sleep! cheers to you.

happy-1 - Thursday Feb 03, 2022
Weight: 243.1

Thursday Jan 3, 2022 7:28am: 

Is it really Thursday already? Augh. I need more rest and recreation than this.

Sleep quality is back up. Packages arrive today so it's not a beach day. Will try to do photos with dad in case this infection goes the wrong way. 

Everyone should have a kitty kat to come wake them up in the morning and encourage them to face the day. How was she shoved out onto the street as a stray for multiple years? She's the ideal cat.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 02/03/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 02/04/2022:
10 pm. In bed, watching netflix. Not ready to sleep.Did my best. Dad’s foot doesn’t look better at all.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/03/2022:
i'm also sorry yesterday didn't go as well as you would have liked :( I have been in freeze mode also; it's when i'm on the couch and decide to do NOTHING; just rest; maybe half listen to the tv; half use the laptop, or even close my eyes and zone out!

if you have time, set aside half a day to do something you like; do you can finally have some nice recreation and/or rest. you can always plan to take a nap if you've been tired; then have a small coffee and go out for recreation?

Donkey on 02/04/2022:
You did your best and that's all you can do. Yikes, I'm sorry to hear about dad's foot, and I understand your concern. Those can be very difficult to manage.

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