Mon 2/14/21 9am
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
I will be celebrating quietly at home today because I am really fing wiped. Why? 7 day training load. Feeling better, did some walks, a few extra chores... and killed my REM.
But hey, it makes a perfect graphic for challenge content and explaining why 7 day training load is the mystery factor in sleep quality for ADHD and sparing others my multi year nightmare. Yay me! Valentine's day gift from God. A sign from the universe I am on the right track.
Plus I lost weight. Back down to Jan 18 weight of 241. Loss is next corner.
Progress as of today: 76 lbs lost so far, only 81 lbs to go!
Sunday 2/13/22 2:28am:
Had a successful Day 3 of feeling better yesterday. I actually got out and had a haircut and washed my car. Did chores and made dad dinner... his favorite fried chicken. Garmin told me to stop moving at 5:30... recovery time delayed... But I took out trash and kept moving till 7... exactly what I am supposed to do per OT... so why did I fall asleep at 8 and wake up 3h later? Why can't I get back to sleep?
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
I got back to sleep at about 3am... but Garmin didn't record it. I tried editing the chart times and accidentally completely messed it up.
My Garmin doesn't tell me to stop moving, that I'm aware of. In fact, I get a lot of notifications to get up and move and stretch, even if my body battery is low. That's weird.
you sound like you did good. nice job continuing to be active and taking out trash despite Garmin telling you otherwise. I am sure it is ok, your extra movement :) xoxo
Friday 2/11/22 1:56pm
2nd day of feeling better. Had enough energy to get up and go to the post office today. Still really tired so that was it. Was going to do Instacart but the app isn't working right at all. It's actually easier to just rest one more day, then go to the store tomorrow on my way home from my haircut.
Every inch of me is tired. I barely did anything. I did at least get out of bed and move to the camp cot. I'm not even interested in junk food. I just want a full body massage and a day at a Korean spa...
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Bright outlook though. 2.5 years in he's finally willing to move to a 7am/7pm med schedule so I can poke him and push him at 6 and get him to take them by 7, the start of my stimulant meds wearing off, wind down time, and too close to my 8:30 in bed time.
I never understood Instacart. Do you order items from a specific store & someone shops & delivers? How much does that cost? Don’t think Walmart participates because they do their own home delivery in certain areas. They are forever after me to subscribe, but I like doing the pickup & stepping inside sometimes. But Instacart sounds very convenient.
I've been doing more and wearing myself out since I have been getting more sleep but not enough energy to turn around and do PT so I can go back to running (I guess this is why CPAP takes 6 months for benefits) it seemed like of all the options for assistance the easiest thing to farm out... A housekeeper to deep clean would be $200... An extra $20 on dad's groceries seems cheaper and at least I get some movement in. I still go to the grocery store for myself, but my dad really goes through the junk food so the only way to limit it is to only buy it on a 1x a week schedule. It sticks me going to a large, crowded store... more COVID exposure... so I'm getting his junk food delivered from Ralphs and then still going 2x a month for myself and the household stuff during senior high/risk shopping hours at the Mexican market where stuff is cheaper and I can walk there and back.
I didn’t know CPAP took 6 months. I thought the point was to get better sleep & seems the benefit would be immediate. All I’ve heard is many people are unable to adjust and give up. At least you’re following through, so that’s huge.
I don’t mind entering a store once a week or so. I’m double vaxxed and boosted and wear N95 masks, sometimes two. Very difficult to breathe with 2, but don’t wear them long. Probably I should use a cheap paper mask on top of the N95 instead of another N95.
Hear you’ve been having some very warm weather, if I remember correctly. You’re in LA, right? They’re predicting the hottest Super Bowl on record.
I see that you need your YOU time before you start dealing with dad. I think that's what I've been doing with my early morning exercising. Hmmm...
Thursday 2/10/22 10am
Ok, I feel better. Maybe it wasn't depression? Just total exhaustion?Body Battery is still crazy low.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
I am glad you are feeling better. Seize the day!
Wed Feb 9, 2022 6:31pm
Super tired and down today. Depression cycle is not an option. Yesterday I did yoga. Today... Kicked myself in the butt and cleaned the main bathroom. Also did one walk. Tomorrow I will walk and then clean dad's room.
I really thought that getting real sleep was going to fix everything... but I think it just made me aware of how tired I really am. Everytime I stand up and do something I need to rest. Man I hope this is emotional not physical.
I keep thinking about a full body exfoliating scrub at a Korean spa. Dental cleaning. Mani pedi. Haircut. Facial.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
I was JUST thinking about your spa days! Remember when you used to check into a hotel for a night and get all the spa treatments and stuff? It's been a REALLY LONG time since you've mentioned taking one of those. Maybe it's time...
And I'm quite impressed that you were able to accomplish what you did, through the depression. It's HARD. REALLY HARD -- and you did it!
Tues Feb 9, 2022 11:56 pm
augh. insomnia.
Today's win was that I did a yoga class. I also pitched the caregiver group on doing coworking fridays and everyone said they were in.
I think I have a bald spot.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
Great pitch. Sounds like a marvelous idea
Gotta grab those victories where and when you can.
When I restrict calories too much, for too long, I start losing hair on the sides of my head by my ears.
Mon Feb 7,2022 3:45pm
One bad night of sleep staying up to write copy for the second challenge cycle and I'm exhausted again. How did I ever survive a long term sleep quality deficiency? How did I never notice when it started???? Except that everything was THAT awful.
Waiting for a call for my dad and then going for a walk.
If nothing else I will get an hour of walking in today.
How did I ever go camping and do fun stuff? How do I get to do it again?
How do I get back to doing it again?
At least I changed the cat box.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
after that, and up till now; i also find it so hard to believe how i used to function on so much less!!!!
you'll get there. the pandemic also has gotten us out of the cycle of being outside the house...doing more things- at least that is the story for me, personally, if not you.
I had forgotten that you liked to camp and stuff like that! Wow, that seems long ago, but I think it was probably just within the year, no?
And that's good news about dad's care.
Sun feb 6, 2022 10:25am
About to log on to church services. There's a lot of singing. Augh.
Reworking my daily time plan to incorporate the real process of dad med reminders so I can avoid my crash hour. He's supposed to take meds 12 h apart but he can take them an hour early if he needs to.
Augh!!! Where is the swat team that comes in to fix my life?
ADHD coach has not yielded anything yet. I'll give it time.
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
you are doing great; keep on xoxo
Sat Feb 5,2022 7:50am:
Sleep continues to be stable. Crossed the 21 days of stable sleep and called the caregiver service for a weekly caregiver for dad. Have them take him out.
Doing am/pm medication reminders with my dad is a nightmare. It sucks up my entire day, keeps me up late, steals my workout time in the morning.
Trying to pull paperwork together so I can stop being so stressed out over every little thing... but I'm exhausted.
Where is the swat team to come in and fix my life?
Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!
The medication reminders are not working for you. Is there an alternative? Maybe not. I thought you were talking about setting an alarm (like on Alexa) but now I think maybe you mean that you are actually reminding your Dad (repeatedly) that it's time to take his meds and he fights you on it.
I honestly think that the weekly caregiver is necessary. You need a break, and it may improve his lifestyle as well, e.g. to get out once a week.
Thursday Jan 3, 2022 7:28am:
Is it really Thursday already? Augh. I need more rest and recreation than this.
Sleep quality is back up. Packages arrive today so it's not a beach day. Will try to do photos with dad in case this infection goes the wrong way.
Everyone should have a kitty kat to come wake them up in the morning and encourage them to face the day. How was she shoved out onto the street as a stray for multiple years? She's the ideal cat.
if you have time, set aside half a day to do something you like; do you can finally have some nice recreation and/or rest. you can always plan to take a nap if you've been tired; then have a small coffee and go out for recreation?
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bearcountrygg on 02/14/2022:
Yeah...Lost weight!!!
Horn_of_plenty on 02/14/2022:
Losing weight is always a plus; maybe from both better sleep and more fitness! it's good you are getting used to and seeing how you can adapt your lifestyle with better sleep...i'm sure it's going to take some experimenting on your part. nice you track it all.
Donkey on 02/15/2022:
This is a wonderful post!!!
Jacky82020 on 02/15/2022:
I see a lot of blue! Looks good.