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happy-1 - Sunday Jan 10, 2021
(Neck hygiene. 14h fasts between 5PM and 7AM)
Weight: 218.5

Semi-back amongst the living. Tomorrow is last day of antibiotics. Today was second day of chiropractor adjustments. I feel another tiny bit better. Yesterday was adjustment 1. I was able to setup clean bedding, cleanup after my dog, and take out trash. Today I was able to not take a muscle relaxer to get out of bed, drive there and back, clean up a little. Huge compared to where I started on saturday.

Progress as of today: 98.5 lbs lost so far, only 58.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/10/2021:
Hope you continue to feel better!

bearcountrygg on 01/10/2021:
Good for you Hap......sounds like you are doing a lot better.

Donkey on 01/10/2021:
Isn't that a wonderful feeling? I'm glad you are feeling better, and I hope you continue to heal.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/10/2021:
I speak for the whole DD community here and say that we are all very glad to hear from you, hear you are recovering, and read your entries. Sending you hugs, like you always send to us.

Jacky82020 on 01/10/2021:
Glad you’re doing well! Them thar antibiotics can kick in fast. Yay!

Maria7 on 01/10/2021:
Glad you are feeling better.

Donkey on 01/11/2021:
Horn is 110% correct! :-)

legcramps on 01/11/2021:
Have a great week :)

happy-1 - Thursday Jan 07, 2021
(14h fasts between 5PM and 7AM)
Weight: 218.5

Crashed and burned this first week of January due to a staff infection and muscle cramping. Bound my shoulder with a heat wrap so I can clean today. Chiro tomorrow.  

Progress as of today: 98.5 lbs lost so far, only 58.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/07/2021:
Hope you get better very soon. Prayers for you. Take care.

Jacky82020 on 01/07/2021:
Oh, no. Hope they can wipe out that infection fast. Muscle cramps are the worse. Poor kid.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/07/2021:
omg! a staff infection? terrible to get...hard to heal i believe?

i hope you feel better.

muscle cramps suck too...ugh!

what happened!?

grannyannie on 01/08/2021:
Oh no! Hope your shoulder and infection are better soon.

Donkey on 01/08/2021:
Ugh, that's not good! I hope you feel better soon!!!!!!!

innerpeace on 01/09/2021:
"This too shall pass" - "You are never given more than you can handle" and all those inspiring versus! I hope you beat your infection. Drink water, drink pedialite, eat bananas - I heard all this helps cramps.

happy-1 - Saturday Jan 02, 2021
(14h fasts between 5PM and 7AM)
Weight: 218.5

Happy New Year!!!!

I hope everyone is doing well! I look forward to catching up on everyone's logs.

I am doing a lot better. Lunesta is still working it's way out of my system, but my REM sleep is finally starting to come back together.

My plan for the new year:

  1. Continue to work on getting enough sleep to get back to functional.
  2. Get more rigorous about meal planning and prepping.
  3. Build 14h fasts, 3h meal intevals, and 10 minute neck hygeine videos into a daily habit.
  4. Take advantage of my botannical gardens groupon.
  5. Finish the garage by end of February.
  6. Iterate from there.

Where I am at right now...

  1. Down a few pounds. Once sleep started pulling together I dropped 11 lbs like I sneezed and it fell off. I bounced back up to 218.5 with PMS. Waiting to see if it drops back off again.
  2. Enough total and deep sleep, a little short on the REM sleep.
  3. I keep derailing every couple of weeks by watching Netflix till 4AM for no apparent reason. It seems to happen any day I am really active... Maybe the Lunesta is still in my fat cells?
  4. Still doing Nutrisense.
  5. The 14h fast/3h meals really helps glucose values, but I get derailed by not having meals ready to go at the meal time intervals and before the fasts start.
  6. The neck hygeine thing I'm not doing because I'm just generally still spaced out.
  7. ADHD support group is really good.
  8. Still seeing my great guy. He gave me an awesome cheesy tshirt for Christmas that I adore.
  9. Still chilling with my beloved puppy dog. Figured out a much more brilliant puppy hospice setup with a cot mattress, tarp, silicone tape, and super cheap puppy pads from Amazon prime that will cut my laundry and overhead... Stuff arrives for it on Sunday.
  10. Have spent the last week or so bouncing back from exhaustion. I'm not sick, but all my lymph nodes are swollen up and my joints are killing me. Sucking down the Emergen-C.

NYE I saw my guy. NYD, I gave myself the day to rest and drink Emergen-C and watch Netflix.

Tonight I stayed up till 2:30AM because our neighbors were blasting mariachi music. I finally went out there and asked them to turn it off. I was wearing ear plugs and noise cancelling headphones to stick it out till 1 am... it's New Years Day. No reason to be uptight... plus I felt too crap to go to bed till I was "done" anyway... but at 2:30am I was just over it. I'm the new year's party pooper.

Tomorrow when I wake up, I will make keto blueberry pancakes and maybe some keto brownies. I will do my 10 min neck stretch video. I might even break out that Groupon. I will rise and conquer.

Hugs all. 


Progress as of today: 98.5 lbs lost so far, only 58.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 01/02/2021:
Sounds like your 2021 is off to a great start! Well done on losing 11 lbs!

happy-1 on 01/02/2021:
TY!!! Eat, sleep, work, repeat.

bearcountrygg on 01/02/2021:
Welcome back...I've been thinking about you and wondering how you were doing.

happy-1 on 01/02/2021:
Big hugs. I am honored that you thought about me!!! Thank you! We’re ok. Jus ty gotta keep on keeping on.

happy-1 on 01/02/2021:
Augh, typos.

Donkey on 01/02/2021:
I'm so glad to hear from you! Oh and how nice that you had a very nice holiday! (holidays) I've been thinking about you, wondering how you've been doing. Looks like you are in a very good place to start a new year. (((hugs)))

Jacky82020 on 01/02/2021:
Did the lunesta work for you? I took zolpidem for 10 years. Less and less effect with time. Worse part was it kicked in feeding binges. Awful. Quit, cold turkey. No problems, maybe one sleepless night. Then some weird dreams.

Maria7 on 01/02/2021:
Our neighbors had a good time with loud fireworks on New Year's Eve, too...then electric power in the whole neighborhood went out right before 12am! (Came back on couple hours later.) Congrats on your progress!

innerpeace on 01/02/2021:
Glad to see you back!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/02/2021:
lots of goals and plans! welcome back!

I love your sleep goal. honestly, after not working for 9 months and sleeping so much, i do realize how important sleep is. i may also try to get more of it, but, i realize that living in NYC or any city...and commuting...is going to prob take a couple hours out of the time i'd rather be sleeping! ah well!!

i assume the weather in Cali is nice year-round for you to enjoy the beauties of a botanical garden year round? our gardens are open year-round...but nothing is growing for half the year when it's cold!! great place for you to live near to? i am also blessed with LOTS of parks within driving distance, thankfully!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/02/2021:
what are you prepping your garage to do?

happy-1 - Thursday Nov 12, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 223.2

Had a migraine day before and yesterday. Slept pretty much all yesterday. Still had it when I woke up. It's day 3... so I took benadryl. Surprisingly it helped. No adhd meds today though... can't take it with the benadryl.

Weight dropped to 222 a couple of days ago. I am sure that was wiped out by eating an entire keto cheesecake in 2 days. It was the only thing I could get down with a sore head.

Source of migraine was, of course, my dad. I was a little bit back up, so he pulled the rug out from under me. Everytime. This time it was a radical change to the caregiver hours. I am using them 6h a week to clean out the financial papers in the garage so I can do other things.. He decided to cancel them and moved it to two 3 hour shifts so he can go grocery shopping. Why? Because I have had him on a lower carb diet so his bedsores will heal and he wants ice cream, potato salad, and rolls. It'll be back to moaning, groaning and running around the house without pants in a couple of days.

Out. I need out.

One step at a time. Goal for this week is to just get out for a walk every day and stick to low carb diet.

Progress as of today: 93.8 lbs lost so far, only 63.2 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 11/12/2020:
Sounds like your father can be difficult. Same for my MIL, but she didn’t live with us, so that made a world of difference. Sorry. Sorry. Hope it goes better soon. Those migraines are the worse. Didn’t know Benadryl helped.

Donkey on 11/12/2020:
(((hugs))) Perhaps it's time to get more help with dad? Is there someone you can talk to about this, to objectively evaluate his home care situation? Will you know it when he becomes too much to handle and needs more care?

legcramps on 11/12/2020:
Glad your headache is better. Walking outside is a great way to de-stress! Enjoy!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/12/2020:
sorry about your headaches! OUCH!

on another note, you are doing REALLY well and getting very close to the 100's!!!!!!!!! wooohoooo! "ONEDERLAND"

Maria7 on 11/13/2020:
Hope you are feeling better.

happy-1 - Monday Nov 09, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 223.2

Haven't logged in a couple of weeks. Detoxing off the Lunesta got hairy and I had terrible migraines with blurred vision. No reading or typing for me.

Still detoxing off the Lunesta. Today is day 38. Sleep is more effective. A higher proportion of my sleep is REM, but still too short overall. The lack of yoga has really screwed me up and I am waking up with circulation cut off to my fingers. It hurts like hell. I get about 5.40 min of sleep total. I need to do the yoga to get my neck in shape and get more sleep. the major barrier to yoga is my poor old dog in her hospice fort directly over my yoga space. I can't bring myself to put her outside. It is too cold. I did book a euthanasia appointment for Monday the 23rd, but mostly so that if she suddenly gets really bad, she doesn't have to wait till after Thanksgiving weekend. If she looks alright I'll move it to before Christmas. Tonight I will set up a yoga space in the dining room and work on figuring out why our thermostat isn't working.

Keto meals on Factor75 broke my sugar/hunger cycle. I am no longer a bottomless pit of hunger, ravenously going from snack to snack. I am only hungry at meal times. I have to push myself to eat enough overall.

Nutrisense paid off big time. I dropped 5.6 lbs and got my blood sugar to dip into the green zone. 

Actually getting to see the Exish. It turns out when I have had enough sleep, he isn't impossible and aggravating at all.

Progress as of today: 93.8 lbs lost so far, only 63.2 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 11/09/2020:
Isn’t Lunesta a sleeping pill? Never took that one, but took Ambien for 10 years. Simply didn’t work anymore and often caused nocturnal eating binges. Quit cold turkey, some bad symptoms Probably should have tapered.

happy-1 on 11/12/2020:
Pretty much. Lunesta is a hypnotic so it causes sleep phase suppression. Looked like I was sleeping but not good quality.

Donkey on 11/10/2020:
So, your sleep med was causing your sleep problems?

I'm so happy to hear that you found success with your food approach. THAT is really good to hear.

I haven't been doing any yoga since the studio closed. This must change. I feel your pain.

happy-1 on 11/12/2020:
Ompractice is awesome!!! I will be back at that soon!

horn_of_plenty on 11/11/2020:
You have been missed here in DD LAND !!!!!!

So sorry that your dog is sick too and must go under :(

Congrats on your weight loss you keep getting better and better at this !!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 11/12/2020:
Hugs! Ty. Trying to make her last couple of weeks count.

happy-1 - Tuesday Oct 27, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 223.2

 59 min REM, and I feel it. Masive migraine. PMS. Sticking to low carb anyway. Keto cheesecake has the most bizarre effect of turning off hunger in my brain.

Living room is still a mess. Friend from church is coming over. Hopefully I can pick up the cake and clean before then.

Learned from Nutrisense coach that Vitamin C and melatonin disrupt blood sugar. 

Worth it. 

Tomorrrow I will rise and be a better, stronger faster, fitter version of myself.

Progress as of today: 93.8 lbs lost so far, only 63.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
Could the low carb be contributing to the migraine? My keto groups recommend drinking pickle juice.

Donkey on 10/27/2020:
Have you found a way to actively influence the amount of REM you're getting?

Horn_of_plenty on 10/27/2020:
ahhhh, keto cheesecake i need this now!

i am sooo craving keto cheesecake. the fat, i'm sure, is very satisfying and is what helps to curb your hunger.

do you eat the cheesecake with a coffee?

Horn_of_plenty on 11/01/2020:
hope you are well! i've been craving cheesecake for a long time, started by reading your entries!

Maria7 on 11/02/2020:
Hope you are doing well and having a good day.

happy-1 - Saturday Oct 24, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 223.2

REM sleep: 42


Progress as of today: 93.8 lbs lost so far, only 63.2 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/25/2020:
A major reason why I gave up on the sleep trackers on my various Fitbits is I feel I have no control over my sleep patterns. I have chronic insomnia & get all the sleep I can. I certainly felt the same on low REM and Derp Sleep numbers as I did on upper levels. Actually bought the device to track sleep, nothing else. Fun for a while, but useless for me,

I want to begin monitoring my glucose levels. What would be the best way?

Horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2020:
is dad taking medicine for his blood sugar????

Donkey on 10/25/2020:
Jacky makes an excellent point. Don't get me wrong - I think it's good that you are tracking your REM. And I do think that there are things that we can do to try to get the best sleep possible. But even if my Fitbit were spot on, or I was hooked up to a sleep study machine every night, I can't consciously control the quality of sleep I do get.

Have you taken a sleep study? I'm wondering if you might have sleep apnea.

thinkpositive on 10/25/2020:
I wear a Fitbit & track my sleep but I sometimes wonder what difference my REM and Deep sleep have on the quality of my day. Do you see a difference?

legcramps on 10/26/2020:
How are you doing?

Maria7 on 10/26/2020:
Hope you are having a good day.

happy-1 - Saturday Oct 24, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 225.7

 52 min REM

Broke my weight plateau of 225.9 to 225.7. May not be much but it's that first crack in the wall.

Major claim to fame: grocery run. I actually left the house.

Major frustration was dad getting a visit from the case manager from home health. I got lectured again about his blood sugar. Yes it is terrifying. Yes, I know all about diet and blood sugar. Here, let me show you my Nutrisense app. It's new. It shows me Garmin, ketomojo, and libre in one and a nutritionist reviews it. I take my health seriously. I can't do anything about it. He has to be willing to give up bread and cupcakes. Yes I know all his health issues and ailments are part of atrocious sugar. Yes I take it seriously. He agreed to log what he eats for 3 days so we can send it to a nutritionist. Then he didn't do it. When he asked me tonight about doing something for my actual birthday, I said look... I really miss mom. Last year the fight we had set us up to fight each other tooth and nail all year. I just want to keep my head down and put one foot in front of the other. I can't even think what that would even look like. But if you want to do something for my birthday, write down what you eat for 3 days so that when we do the follow up call on Thursday, You at least have something to show the doctor. I hate all the Kaiser professionals taking me to task because you won't give up Lean Cuisines and cupcakes. So do that for my birthday. I'd rather move forward and not dread anything than get an iPad or eat cake.

Then I ate 3 servings of keto pumpkin cheesecake and set up the carpets for deep scrubbing tomorrow. Wash away the aggravation. 

I have done the best that I can for today. I did not sit or slack. I will give it up to God and hope he helps me weather the storm and come out the other side.

One foot in front of the other.


Progress as of today: 91.3 lbs lost so far, only 65.7 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 10/24/2020:
Hoping Dad comes through with the birthday gift. Very kind and generous of you to want a gift that’s for him as well. Indeed, one step at a time. Stay the course.

Donkey on 10/24/2020:
I think Jacky's comment says it best.

And your 2nd to last sentence says it best too. Your best is enough. Dad's blood sugar is something that may very well have to be given up to God. You can't do this FOR dad.

grannyannie on 10/24/2020:
You will survive!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2020:
ohhh you make me want keto cheesecake BAD!

does dad take medicine for his blood sugar?

happy-1 - Wednesday Oct 21, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 225.4

1:25 of REM. Probably REM rebound from all the rotten nights of sleep I have had the past two weeks.

Nutrisense sensor arrived today. I needed it to use the 14 day trial of the app. After my first scan I was able to use the feature that hooked me... a chart where if you scroll to the right or the left you can see at a specific time what your glucose is, so you can actually measure the impact of your hot mess and drama. This is a feature that is missing from Libre... and apparently you have to use the European Libre sensors and pay Nutrisense for it. Highway robbery.



What does appear to be worth paying for is the ability to isolate events in relationship to your glucose. It isn't as all the way there yet as the tutorial articles make it look. You can't track activities or notes.


However, I think if you also look at your calendar, Garmin charts and Cronometer at the same time, you can see what actually is messing with all your internal cycles. I'll dive into this this week. Might be interesting in terms of biohacking cortisol. 


There is an awful lot in the help tutorials that isn't in the app... I'm kind of confused about how they are managing the app feature developments... Like they added walkthroughs, A BIG effort... but the experiments don't incude activities and the meal logging is super weird... I can't figure out how to log nutritional information and the database that gets searched isn't anything I recognize.


Did have tremendous success with the virtual coworking session. I got through all my mail and one fat task I have been procrastinating on for a year.






Progress as of today: 91.6 lbs lost so far, only 65.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/22/2020:
Very interesting! When I'm on my laptop, I'll have to check out the links. Bio- monitoring is so cool.

Glad you caught up on the REM!

happy-1 on 10/23/2020:
TY. I'm just so frustrated with trying to make my blood sugar ok. I tackled the REM as much as I could with getting off the Lunesta. It's the next thing to get back up in the long list of things to get back to work.

legcramps on 10/22/2020:
That does sound interesting; I will have to check out those links on the weekend when I have some down time. You do like your stats don't you? So do I :)

happy-1 on 10/23/2020:
I need the stats to change behavior. I don't want to go down the same path my dad did. I was drooling over Levels, but they don't publish their support articles or release notes and it is a hefty price tag. $400 a month is a car payment and insurance. It's just too big a price tag for something I can't tell how much is hype and marketing. Nutrisense felt worth rolling the dice on because I could kind of kick the tires. There also seemed to be less ego.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2020:
yes, very interesting app and gadget. I do not have the motivation to evalauate myself to that degree, but i know that you are very into the dynamics of things like this - and that you like details very much...

happy-1 on 10/24/2020:
And also I can’t get my sugar under control.

happy-1 - Wednesday Oct 21, 2020
(Get some damn sleep)
Weight: 225.4

 Garmin only tracked 3h of sleep and 1 min of REM, but I know I got at least 6. Time to clean the sensor.


H&M night bras came and they are perfect. A little weird at first because they are from the "Divided" line for teenagers... the way they are cut is just a little more modern than what I am used to... but they are perfect and WAY BETTER to sleep in than stretched out sports bras.

Back on my feet yesterday. Second day up today. Whatever the cat and I caught it was awful. Spent today with the caregiver deep-cleaning rooms dad is in so he doesn't catch whatever this is.  Ended up in the ER Saturday getting checked for meningitis because I told the doctor on follow up that I had a "cement in my brain" feeling for a couple of weeks and the antibiotics hadn't helped. Turned out I had had a non-stop migraine (that's what a migraine is???). The compazine and benadryl were a revelation. I had no idea it was migraines until, well, it magically went away. This is going to be $$$,$$$,$$$ when I see the bill.

Beats dying of meningitis.

Midnight. Checked calories and even though I ate about 2500 calories, I am still 2600 calories short because I burned 5600 cleaning today and I only want to be -500.

So what do I eat? I could seriously eat a whole moose right now, antlers to hooves. Possibly also a squirrel.

Any other Rocky and Bulwinkle fans?

Progress as of today: 91.6 lbs lost so far, only 65.4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
No way I'd ever wear a bra to bed! I hate them. I don't wear a bra when I'm at home.

I've heard about migraines from people who get them frequently. They sound like torture. My husband never gets headaches but when we were in Uganda he felt ill and had blinding headaches. Another volunteer who is a doctor worried that he might have meningitis - so we drove him to his house and he checked him out. Decided it wasn't meningitis and wasn't sure what it was. He got better after a couple of days.

grannyannie on 10/21/2020:
I use a Samsung 'fitbit' and I know the readings are a big off for my sleep.

Donkey on 10/21/2020:
My fitbit missed 4 hours of my sleep, again, on Monday night. As I mentioned before, it does this from time to time.

Very interesting on the sleep bras. I agree with Annie, but I'm very flat. However, my daughter might benefit from this.

Donkey on 10/21/2020:
When I had my one and only migraine, I would not have described it as cement in the brain, but it was quite unbearable.

Jacky82020 on 10/21/2020:
You burned 5600 Cals cleaning? How many hours did that take?

Horn_of_plenty on 10/21/2020:
oh gosh! so sorry that you were in the hospital...those bills are messy but i'm glad you are OK!

innerpeace on 10/21/2020:
I get migraines...so bad sometimes I have to get a toradol shot. I haven't had a bad one in quite some time after taking aimivig for awhile. Aura, nausea, photophobia, it's all horrible.

legcramps on 10/21/2020:
Oh, you've had a time, haven't you? Sorry to hear all that's been happening. Glad you are feeling better though, and you're right - it beats dying of meningitis! Yikes!

I've never had a migraine like that, I feel for you.

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