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happy-1 - Monday Apr 30, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

Stayed up till 4am last night but finished going through my first aid supplies, figuring out what I need to add, and repacking. I still need to work on it now, but at least I have a small base camp first aid hit I can grab and go with. Still need to add some stuff and Staggered out of bed at 7:30 but at least I got up on time to start reworking back to my schedule. Grrr! Get after it!

Today I should... grab my laptop and go to starbucks. I got nothing done most of last week or this past weekend. Super behind.

Dog is acting normal, just super tired. I think. She ate, she poops... no vet needed yet I think.

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Someone needs to explain dogs for me. She wouldn't eat her glucosamine treats so I popped them down her little throat... she gets all stiff when she skips them... and now she's my best friend again and ate the chicken and sweet potato dinner I made that she's been turning down for days. Dogs. So weird.

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/30/2018:
glad your dog is okay too! :)

you are always so organized with the first aid supplies!

happy-1 on 04/30/2018:
Ty! I am not actually, but I am trying


bearcountrygg on 04/30/2018:
Dog sounds fine and just happy to be home...

happy-1 on 04/30/2018:
Pretty much. Little does she know she has to go back!


bearcountrygg on 04/30/2018:
Don't tell her......shhhhh



happy-1 - Sunday Apr 29, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

My dog had what I can only describe as a nervous breakdown last night... I had taken a sleeping pill and was out cold at 1am when she started sitting on my head... all 50lbs of her. I thought she had to pee so I took her out back... but no... still freaked out. Thing was she wanted to dig into their couch to find a place to hide and I didn't want her to wreck their couch so I stuck her in her crate. At that point my super calm (practically a walking stuffed animal) dog just flipped out and started shredding her crate pad and blanket to smithereens.It was like being away from home with a 62lb bulldog puppy (think hyperactive cannonball with a woodchipper attachment for teeth and claws that nail you in punches with big fat feet) and being put in the bathroom for isolation and to be fed, and NOT being allowed under the house where there might be critters to chomp... was all too much for her. I was like maybe there's someone here... so I went and got a kitchen knife and bear spray and turned on all the lights. Then I realized I was under too much of a sedative to do much about anything and went back to sleep on the couch. I think I heard gravel disturbed while I was laying there. I have no idea how long my dog was flipping out for in her crate but at some point I went and got her leftover tramadol from her dental work and shoved one in her and she chilled out. Decided to put off camping a couple of days and take her home for observation and have easy access to a vet if she needs it. Setting up a tent I'd have to tear down fast and repack into my car to then rush my old dog to a vet sounded like too much work.

So I am home, channeling my frustration into repacking my toiletry kit, personal first aid kit, and base camp first aid kit, all of which are in sorry shape after being used and abused this year... Plus apparently some pills should have been packed into nalgalene bottles because they crumble. I was on the last of almost everything, since I didn't check it. I haven't needed my personal first aid kit as much now that my diet is cleaner... I have all these pepcid acs, tums, pepto, cold meds, anti-itch/rash, allergy,  pain/inflamation meds that I haven't had to use in forever. I am nearly out of arnica, neosporin, and band aids though! All this exercise and I'm taking a beating hard. Time to stock up next costco trip I suppose! Expensive.

Asked UDG what I should pack and he sent me to skinnymedic.com. I'm not sure what I am supposed to do with that... It all looks like stuff you need medical training for. I wouldn't mind taking an EMT class, but omg that's a lot to buy. Poking around on the web I'm finding some good ideas though... like a thermometer strip that probably survives in a backpack. But like I'm looking for a checklist of what I should have that is slightly more than I would take backpacking... And it's frustrating because the online articles list things like "tylenol, ibuprophen, etc" but don't get into how much you should have and if they list a Diva Cup, they never include things like vinegar or non-scented soap. OR they list a tourniquet in the same section as deodorant???? And no airborne, zicam or nyquil?

UGH! NOBODY PACKS THAT WAY

Would love to now what you guys put in your first aid kits!

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/30/2018:
We don't have a first aid kit......we have the usual anti itch, Benadryl, antacid, Tylenol in 3 dose sizes, Imodium, ace bandages, antibiotic cream, bandaids, paper tape ( d allergic to others)...but it's all in a closet...we don't carry that stuff anywhere. When D was on a construction site he kept gauze, tape, bandaids, alcohol pads and antibiotic ointment...in a metal first aid case...but that was it. Poor dog.....

happy-1 on 04/30/2018:
She's perfectly satisfied on my bed. She pitched a fit and got her way. We are home with the pack instead of out camping and being bait.


bearcountrygg on 04/30/2018:
Sounds like she missed her usual routine.....can't teach an old dog new tricks....

happy-1 on 04/30/2018:
Oh no... you totally can. She's putting up with being carried in an ikea bag like a purse puppy really well. Now I just need to turn it into a backpack.


bearcountrygg on 04/30/2018:
OH WOW...how do you carry a 50 pound dog????

happy-1 on 04/30/2018:
Very slowly. I usually just toss her over my shoulder like a sack of potatoes and she hangs out like a backwards parrot, but I think she prefers the ikea bag. I'd love to get this Julius K9 harness so I can take her on longer walk/hikes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWJkLV5Rd_Q



happy-1 - Saturday Apr 28, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

Good to be back on schedule. Went to bed about 10 ish and woke up about 6ish. Yay!!!!!

Dogs are up to their usual. The bulldog puppy wants to get close to my dog and she lets him know that that's not ok with a flash of her big white teeth... so I shut her in the bathroom tillI I am showered and fully awake.

Their microwave is weird and I can't get it to cook my oats without curdling the protein powder... so I'm a little out of sorts. They have SO MUCH junk food. How do they have perfect, hard, sculpted bodies at 50 and 57? It's all packaged food with bad stuff in it and then workout shakes and supplements. Glad I meal prepped and packed healthy meals.

Class today. Have to drive all the way back home to pick up my projector and drop my dog, drive to class, then drive back up again. Then drive home in the morning.

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/28/2018:
Are you giving the class?

happy-1 on 04/28/2018:
No... the instructor is making me show my work so the other guys can follow along. I have "dope mad skillz" for software... what can I say?


horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2018:
Chores are chores and necessary - sometimes they bog me too but lately I try to limit them during times that I want to be more social or have more free time :)


horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2018:
It's better to eat healthy real food than the packaged food and some of those supplements may even be low dose testosterone or something if their bodies are that good ?

Keep on .

At age 50/57 they have been working out a lot and learned a lot about eating and what to do to maintain their physique....

happy-1 on 04/29/2018:
She was like... eat anything that's here... and I was like... we must have seriously different genetics because my body will hate me and do bad pre-diabetic things and you guys look like poster ads for a fab after 50 fitness magazine. I did help myself to their dollar gallon bottles of water, salt, olive oil... and I may have strayed into the tortillas, corn chips, and milk chocolate. I'm going to have to stop at Sprouts this week and get some paleo tortillas and dark chocolate so I don't go over to the dark side. I managed to stay out of other things like high-sugar peanut butter, cookies, canned soup, licorice, beer, bread, etc.

happy-1 on 04/30/2018:
Although I didn't SAY that!


horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2018:
But you also never know what their bodies look like on the inside - keep doing your thing and trying to eat gealthey ! You are doing great Happy!



happy-1 - Friday Apr 27, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

Day 2 of dog sitting. The dogs have gotten used to each other and are just chilling near each other. My dog actually even ate today. Normally she won't eat until we get home. I stayed up all night wed so I could leave to drive up at 4 am to be here by 6:30 and get the key so I wouldn't bother the neighbors. Then just crashed when I got here. Ended up sleeping most of the day yesterday and woke up at 6 on my own today. And fully functional! Nothing hurts, my brain works, and I might even manage to get a workout in this afternoon.

---- - 1/2 a bottle of coffee w added sugar. - Power oatmeal, water - Pedialyte (dehydrated) - 1/3 of a porkchop, 1/2 cup sweet potato, 4 cups spinach, butter, 1 cup lentil soup extra salt - breakfast for dinner- paleo pancakes, 2 eggs, 2 sausages. Maple syrup. Stevia orange punch. - 1/3 of a dark chocolate bar - yogurt, granola, berries

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/27/2018:
good job so far, you always manage to get a lot done many days! i feel like i'm just always sitting at work :( like now.

happy-1 on 04/27/2018:
Ha. I feel like I do tons of chores and very little that moves me forward.


bearcountrygg on 04/27/2018:
Your dog likes the new company...have fun!

happy-1 on 04/27/2018:
Yeah... well she's 19, and cranky. He's like 9 months, super strong, and in active chewing mode. Kind of like a walking wood chipper. It's interesting but it keeps her on her toes and it's something for her to do. She's sooo bored lately because I haven't been feeling well.


Donkey on 04/27/2018:
How long are you dog-sitting? A week? Two?

happy-1 on 04/27/2018:
Till Sunday, then I go camping for a few days and then I come back again till the 13. Might go home for a couple of days before I go camping. I have this weird compulsion to do yard work. I need to pull some weeds and scrub the concrete. Plus I left some stuff out and should put it in order to come back to an organized place



happy-1 - Wednesday Apr 25, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

Despite all oversleeping/lack of sleeping past few days, I was up on time and out this morning with my dog to see if I could get her a new harness. While I was switching them out, she decided that she had had enough and decided to head on out back to the car. I've never seen her move so easily and efficiently on linoleum before. Aged like 10 years. Whoever came up with the idea of automatic doors for a pet store was an idiot. Augh.

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Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2018:
Oh wow...I feel your pain....a dog got away from me twice the other day...scary!

happy-1 on 04/26/2018:
Oh geez... where did you lose yours?


horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2018:
i agree, makes no sense to have automatic doors at a pet store...they probably think how customers' hands are always full holding onto pets...lol...so they can't open the door...who knows!


bearcountrygg on 04/26/2018:
Luckily mine stayed in the yard....and came running back to me on his own when he realized I was going to feed him...LOL...but it really scared me...I would never want to have to go looking for one of these hounds and have to put them in the car...they would jump allover the place...including on me...and they are BIG!!!

happy-1 on 04/29/2018:
Yeah, I dunno what I did to stop my dog from jumping... She was an adult with bad habits when I adopted her and jumping was an issue... I think I just turned and said NO and ignored her until she was calm and steady.


Maria7 on 04/26/2018:
Glad you caught your dog.


Donkey on 04/26/2018:
Hope your first day of dog sitting went well!



happy-1 - Wednesday Apr 25, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

Omg. Piercing your own ears really hurts and I don't recommend it.

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2018:
I'm afraid I would only end up with one pierced.......50 years ago the lines were very long....at a nearby mall...and I got out of line a couple of times...and finally got it done...but it was no fun!

happy-1 on 04/25/2018:
Yeah... i did it as a teen at the mall but am not that into jewelry so I haven't bothered with it and they closed up... i was at the mall the other day and all the earrings that you could get them to do it for you with were ugly so I bought some studs I liked and diy-d it.... ow!!!!!!


horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2018:
ouch did they close up or something! piercing doesn't cost that much, HAPPY!

happy-1 on 04/25/2018:
But the earrings were so ugly... i wanted cute studs so I wouldn't take them out.

happy-1 on 04/25/2018:
I bought funky little silver triangles... love them.


graindart on 04/25/2018:
My best friend showed up at my work a long time ago when I was 18. He brought with him a big diaper pin and some ice. Showed me his newly pierced ear and said I should do it. Was bored, so said sure. Used the ice to numb the ear and then he tried shoving the needle through the earlobe. For whatever reason it took a lot of effort to get the giant pin through my ear. Felt fine for about a minute, but then the pain came when the numbness wore off. Memories.....

happy-1 on 04/25/2018:
I 100% can picture you doing that. I can also 100% picture you stitching yourself up after a mountain bike accident and telling your girls how important it is to have first aid skills as they watch.


bearcountrygg on 04/25/2018:
Mine were done back in the days of earrings with points to push through....sounds like what you have...but today they do it with a gun...faster for sure.

happy-1 on 04/25/2018:
I used a sewing needle from my mom's sewing box and a lighter. The diaper pin would have been a better choice. Ice would have been smarter. I'm flashing back to a chick I went to high school with who bred snakes and did fancy vampire makeup. She wasn't at the reunion. I might have to track her down. I bet she has kids and runs the pta now



happy-1 - Tuesday Apr 24, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

Up at 9:30. Forgot to weigh in. Was up till 2 am with homework and packing. I felt pretty awful yesterday but feel almost human today. I leave for dog sitting early Thursday AM. The new dog sounds like a handful... separation anxiety, barking, chewing, dominance... asked them to leave his leash so I can walk them on quieter streets. The only thing to do with that much energy is to give the dog a job... like a pack where they carry water or make a delivery... and walk them till they wear out. A tired dog is a good dog. Hopefully he has an easy walk harness... but upgrading my dog's harness and repairing her old one just became a priority. I think I will bring her pack and her tactical vest (annual Halloween costume, she's a cop and I'm an inmate, but the vest really does carry weight. I just got the size wrong and couldn't return it so it is relegated to Halloween). I bet it will fit a great big horny teenage bulldog just fine though.

And I think it's time to use up the pepperoni, cheese, wheat flour, rice flour and peanut butter in the freezer that isn't on my diet and make some tasty dog treats. A dog who has to work for treats is a much better listener. I think I am going to burn a lot of calories the next two weeks. I really wish I had bought that dog ramp for my car. Bulldogs are heavy and have short legs. 

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Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/24/2018:
Sounds like you have some excitement coming up.....I'm working right now with some very strong dogs too.....they can pull that lead right out of you hands very easily....hope it goes well...

happy-1 on 04/24/2018:
Yeah, that's why I like the easy walk ones... They just pivot/fall and can't pull... there's no cruelty.


Donkey on 04/24/2018:
Glad you are feeling a little better today. Wow, what a challenge with the new dog. Cats are more my thing, so I feel I'm out of my league if I comment other than to say Good Luck! :-)

happy-1 on 04/25/2018:
100% expected the cougar mom to have cats.



happy-1 - Monday Apr 23, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

227.2... feel like I have a fever and my whole body hurts. And it is a super hot day. And I need to not move my car so I have a parking spot for when they pour the concrete tomorrow... augh. My body is a cranky toddler that wants a snack and a nap and I must be it's master... but everything hurts... Waiting for the sun to go down a little bit so I can walk my dog to the park. I feel like poop. I really do. Maybe it's my coffee... it's pinon nuts and I depend on my morning cup to open up my lungs for air. All I want is some Starbucks and a brownie.

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9am - oatmeal w coconut oil, coffee, 3 creamers

11am  - 2 eggs, 1 sausage link, 1/2 a sweet potato

1pm - milk chocolate candy bar

5pm - greek yogurt, blueberries

9pm - 2 cheese sticks and some 3 seed sweet potato crackers

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/23/2018:
Hope tomorrow brings better feelings.

happy-1 on 04/23/2018:
Thanks! I'll feel better if I can get some real coffee tomorrow I think. Started feeling better about 5pm.

happy-1 on 04/23/2018:
Thanks! I'll feel better if I can get some real coffee tomorrow I think. Started feeling better about 5pm.


Donkey on 04/23/2018:
Super hot? In April? Oh my... Well, come to think of it, it was a little over-warm in the office today.

Some days are best left behind us. I hope you feel better tomorrow.

happy-1 on 04/23/2018:
Found my Bluetooth speaker at least!!!


horn_of_plenty on 04/24/2018:
Super hot sounds GOOD to me...lol we all are jealous of the warmth...

feel better, HAPPY!



happy-1 - Saturday Apr 21, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

226.9 progress in the right direction. I missed my workout yesterday and had half a box of mac n cheese at 10pm to encourage carb coma. Dog had the other half. I'll try oatmeal tonight to see if it does the same thing but with fiber, complex carbs, and less junk. Plus I try to save stuff that has a good shelf life for the zombie apocalypse and my dog has started refusing dinner to hold out for delicious mac n cheese and she shouldn't be eating that crap either.

Feeling more human today. Woke up at 7:30, but vyvanse knocked me out again. I had coffee ready but fell asleep next to it as soon as it hit my bloodstream. I was like ah! There's my brain! Zonk! Snore.

Class orientation today at 2. I think they sent me the wrong version of the textbook because it doesn't match the syllabus.

Parents went grocery shopping. I can't go shopping till they go and I see how much room is left in the freezer. Plus I leave wed to go dog sit and anything I have in the fridge freezer needs to go into my cooler. Leaving them with an empty fridge and then trying to use less space in it when I get back. Make them happy.

I'm hoping my friend's freezer will be empty and I can freeze gallon jugs of water for my cooler. Seriously tempted by the huge 7-day bear-resistant coolers I saw at walmart in tan for $139... my cooler is 5 day and not at all bear-resistant. I just pack extra food in my bear barrels in case I get raided. I guess I need to get on track with my diet and fitness and be 100% this week and next so I "earn" a $200 splurge on a cooler, camp pillows and a gerber folding shovel/pick.

Went back on JustOKcupid. Too lonely. I think the very thought of hanging out with my ex subconsciously made me too tired to do anything because I don't really want to hang out with him but I don't want to say that because I don't have enough friends to hang out with. And also because I actually don't feel so awesome but not as bad as my brain is telling me I feel... I think that since everytme I have seen him the follow up has been off... he tells me he doesn't want a relationship or he didn't send me a Valentine's Day card till March 7... and each time it gave me a "churn period" where I had to psych myself back to being happy and productive again... my lizard brain equates that to a dinosaur that wants to eat me and triggers the fight/flight response. So it's like when something really terrible happens and you have stress/adrenal fatigue. Like tomorrow he goes back to work and can't drive up to see me so I feel "safe" and can come out of hibernation... so I feel better but it's like I've been through a mugging, house fire, etc. and am really tired.

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/21/2018:
I hope your orientation went well today. I'm very excited for you!

Some relationships can just be too draining. I had an ex-boyfriend that didn't work out because the relationship had too much drama. Couldn't even be "just friends". The problem was that we needed different things from each other, and neither one could deliver. Had to say good-bye to a nice, funny, brilliant man :-(

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
Aw, right? Like two puzzle pieces that are both sky but don't fit

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
And yeah, the orientation was ok. The instructor was really making a big deal out of my experience... I said after... look... I've been doing elder care for 3 years. I'm not the hot shot I used to be. I just need employment. Any employment.


bearcountrygg on 04/21/2018:
Sometimes the text books are just a formality...I once had a college class where we never een opened the book...big ol waste of money that was....but it was a good class in the end because it was ALL question and answer.

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
It is a bunch of posts from around the web in a word doc. It's a bunch of tech guys who have incomprehensible documentation for their projects and have tried to make courseware out of it. I've got it as a word doc and am just going to rework it as I go to make sense out of it. The important thing is that the concepts are on the right track and they do job plalacement.


Maria7 on 04/22/2018:
Thank you for what you wrote to my entry, and I hope you have a good day.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/22/2018:
job placement is the best thing...it really helps what i am worst at which is finding / getting a job on my own...still working on that / working out is what i'm doing now!



happy-1 - Friday Apr 20, 2018
(Complete 80% or better of 16 health acts a day)
Weight: 225.5

228.2... Holding steady depite missed workouts, not enough sleep, feeling awful, and a couple of boxes of mac n cheese to get me to sleep for "carb coma". I'll count that as a win.

Got my haircut today!!! Hurray! I can see through my bangs. I did a bit of a walk around the mall but the only things I bought were a pair of stud earrings (so I can re-pierce my ears at home) and a set of lidded trays to organize my am/pm routines. Together, that was my $30 I have "earned" in splurges on my challenge over the last 2 weeks. I am particularly excited about the trays because it takes me forever to do every little thing and maybe this way I will do all the little health habits I am trying to build. Just work my way from left to right.

Came home feeling like I ran a marathon and everything hurts. Parents were out at hometown buffet and I had some delicious quiet for a couple of hours. Mom wanted to watch tv with me but I have 3 chapters to read tonight for class tomorrow at 2... I asked if I could have the space for a little bit since I don't feel well enough to go out to Starbucks right now. She graciously agreed.

Progress as of today: 91.5 lbs lost so far, only 45.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2018:
You are learning a lot about yourself and your parents...WONDERFUL!!!!!

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
Trying. My outlook on life is so much better with better hair, that's for sure.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/21/2018:
good for you on being back at school :) i applaud you on that!!!!

keep up the good work, happy!

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
One day at a time



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