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happy-1 - Friday Jan 28, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Fri Jan 28, 2022 9am:

Another solid night of sleep. I held off checking stats to see if I could guess if I got enough REM before I looked at them... and I guessed right. I feel so much better, I don't know what to do with myself. What do I do first? There's so much I can do now. Paperwork? Chores? Errands? Groceries? A day at the beach (cold but still a nice view)? No running till I hear about my knee x-ray yesterday.

Avoiding my dad for as long as possible this AM so I can see how long this lasts. Not as a general practice, just to measure when I get too tired and start to lose control of habits. I started yesterday feeling great... BUT... Yesterday's trying to take him out in the AM for lunch gave me insomnia the night before, wore me out so fast I went back to bed for a while, made me struggle to get to the x-ray, set me up for a fender bender in the parking lot after, the longest drive home ever, being too cold and shakey to get 2 more walks in, making the wrong things for dinner and eating too much cheese/crackers/fruit, screwing up my blood sugar/cholesterol, and setting me up for a harder day today... HOWEVER... I still got great sleep and woke up clear again today.

So... critical things list made. I picked one thing for the coworking session and left 3 slots open. I have my list of errands for the afternoon. I made the mistake of saying I was going grocery shopping. Dad asked if he can come with. I waked away. I can't deal.

Resting my brain for 20 minutes before coaching session start.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
2pm - 3 hours from adhd coaching call to feeling “better”… I didn’t even think the call was all that stressful… but still got tired and cold like I’m catching the flu.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
Managed to get started on one critical task but it was too complicated. Has to wait till first thing in the morning for me to review before I send it in... Today’s whole list moves to tomorrow. Fine. It is what it is. I’m not crashing as bad as I did last week.

Ordered Instacart again. I cringe on the cost, but I am trying to stand back up and I need the rest, plus I wasn’t driving so great. I didn’t offer dad an outing today… Just needed a break from the fighting... Got 2 walks in. Washed dishes. Pulled in trash cans.

4:15 taking a break. I’m ready to go to bed, but I need to stick it out 4 more hours. I know better than to be lying in bed right now, but it’s better than last week.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
Nurse ended up coming today instead of tomorrow, so it was good that he wasn’t out earlier. Lucked out that I couldn’t keep going the same day as home health!!!!! I’m 0.0001% less of a jerk.

Picked up all the trash out front while I waited for Instacart. Put away groceries. Made dad a burger. Cleaned the cat box. Took a hot shower. Got a love session from the cat. She says I’m the best human on the planet and she loves me so much. She’s settled into my chair on my robe for the night.

I can’t believe this mild mannered, ideal, perfectly social and sweet house cat used to take chunks out of me at random. Hardly seems like the same cat.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
7:50 in bed. So tired I forgot to check dad’s meds before collapsing. I can do this.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
I want to eat an entire Costco pizza and sheet cake right now. And pretzels.


jacky82020 on 01/28/2022:
Glad you are getting better sleep.

I don’t pay much attention to the order of chores, or even if they get done at all on a given day, unless it’s important, like changing fish tank water. Looked at some activity trackers at Walmart when Matt had to excuse himself to take a dump. The most expensive at close to $400 was a Samsung Galaxy. I bought a Samsung Galaxy tablet not too long ago and couldn’t get used to it after so many iPad years. But Matt runs some automotive tests on it for his project car, so useful.

They had a Garmin forerunner 45 for $150 & a lower end Apple Watch, I think under a $200. Also a Fitbit Charge 5, mine is a 4. Noticed the 4 has a Pay Bills feature & I was like WTF, who pays bills on their activity tracker, but now thinking maybe it’s for if you’re out walking/jogging & need Starbucks or whatever.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
Forerunner 245 or Venu 2 are the bare minimum for decent metrics

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
It’s really more that I want to do a day’s worth of work now that I’m sleeping. These IR stimulants aren’t as good as the XRs but I have to hump it out on them to see if my cardiovascular fitness recovers.


Maria7 on 01/28/2022:
Glad you were able to sleep well last night.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
Ty!!!


Donkey on 01/29/2022:
I love how in the middle of everything - good or bad - your kitty loves you.

happy-1 on 01/29/2022:
Omg… its so centering. She’s kind of like a dog that way. Just hangs out and adores me, man’s best friend. Puts the fight back in me after it gets drained out.



happy-1 - Thursday Jan 27, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Thurs Jan 27,2022 8:42 am:

Another successful night of sleep. I had insomnia last night. Did it to myself... Dad was his usual toxic self at bedtime. I skipped my hot shower to avoid him. I should have gone to bed and put on a meditation tape. Instead, I put on pjs and sat in my chair watching netflix. Set alarm an hour later than normal... 6:30... and somehow, miraculously got REM sleep. Dad is still being awful... I reminded him that we are supposed to go to Subway today and get him a sandwich. He wants to go to the grocery store which I still can't pull off yet. I said the park is available, a furniture store is available... He told me to get my elder abusing ass out of his house.  I'll try again in an hour when I check he's taken his medication. Enough REM and not being tired yet is such a difference. Water off a ducks back. Resting from my walk while I wait for chia seeds to swell up and then I'll have the hot keto breakfast that keeps me going strong all day. One of the benefits of my gp appt yesterday was that I have an xray to schedule for my knee. With some answers about what's wrong with it, I'll know if I can go back to running. I really want to right now. Everything is just so much better. Even walking around my neighborhood feels like a treat.



Next step is to figure out why Garmin says I am suddenly detraining with the IR switch. I think I need to call them today.

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
Called and got my answer… training load only works if you use the watch to record activities… not manually input them after. So ok… easy fix!!!

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
10:44… tried again earlier about taking dad out and got the same miserable reaction. A little tired from my walk even though my body battery is still up… there’s a big drop after each interaction… rate of change?

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
11:15 - 3rd try with dad. If it’s not smart and final he doesn’t want to go. He’s angry. How can his own flesh and blood be doing this to him. I reminded him that he has other options. I will go anywhere but there, and an outing will do him good.

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
11:35 - had logged into coworking about 15 min late when aunt called. I updated her on my attempts to get him out to subway and that I will try again tomorrow. She said unless I offer him the chance to go to the grocery store he probably won’t go and she doesn’t understand why I won’t take him. I said we fundamentally have to be on the same page that I have a right not to take him to the grocery store or this isn’t going to work. All he has to do is call a caregiver and they will take him. It doesn’t have to be me. I said I don’t know that there is any point in me calling and giving her updates and subjecting her and my uncle to the drama and stress of my phone calls if we aren’t working towards the same goal. I am doing the best I can. Subway is 3x in and out of the car with a place to sit and rest, food, water, and a public bathroom only a few feet inside the door. The grocery store is a marathon that after they got home, my mom would sit in the driveway and cry. The caregivers look like they have been hit by a tornado. It’s more than I can do. She was going to keep pushing, but I said we don’t need to decide about it today… just think about it. I need to get ready for my call.

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
Rested until it was time to leave. Got my knee x rayed. Answers coming. It’s not that bad but I don’t need to run on it without answers. Had a fender bender in parking lot, so there’s that.

2:30 - home resting. Not looking forward to dad encounters. Can I go to bed yet?


Jacky82020 on 01/27/2022:
My Fitbit used to say I was in “light sleep” when I was watching TV in bed. Guess low HR coupled with inactivity. Does yours ever do that? Fitbit full of crap. Said I had 8 or nine hours combined REM, deep & light sleep when I only ever get 4-6 total.

I saw the Garmins you like online. Interestingly enough, Amazon had refurbished ones. I’m guessing that mostly means they installed new batteries. Years ago, I thought I was getting great used Fitbit buys on eBay, but none held a charge longer than a few hours. Seems battery is first to go on the Fitbits.

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
Fitbit did that. Garmin doesn’t. One of the reasons Fitbit is useless.

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
I’m mixed on the refurbished ones. I wouldn’t want one that might be a little damaged. It’s just too useful to me right now… but that is a good idea and I need to think about that.

happy-1 on 01/27/2022:
Thank you!!!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/27/2022:
I'm sorry you had insomnia. it is hard to perfect sleep. i also have some days better than others; and also get insomnia if i do not let myself wind down before bed...like what happenend to you.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
When occupational therapists talk about perfecting sleep, they actually have a range of tolerance for bad nights of sleep and how long it should take you to get good sleep again to maintain a steady average. So it's very likely that you do get the standard for sleep if you only sleep badly 1x a week.


Donkey on 01/28/2022:
I don't see the calls to your aunt to be very productive or helpful. Does she talk to your dad directly? I definitely see the grocery store as something that should be done with a caregiver or third-party, so that you have your energy for everything else.

happy-1 on 01/28/2022:
Yes she talks to my dad directly. She's the biggest other influence factor. She agrees on the caregiver. Dad is still in one piece enough to make the call himself, he just won't because mom spoiled him. I am not calling caregivers again yet because if he doesn't feel well enough to go, I have to drop everything and work with them on stuff and that saps my energy and adds to my 7 day load... I don't need any more crash days than I already get. I need to be in better physical shape and have critical things on the list done before I open that can of worms again. I can take him out for lunch right now. I can't pull off the grocery store.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 26, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Wed Jan 26, 2022 6:46 am

YES YES YES I DID IT AGAIN!!! I SLEPT IN MY WINDOW AND I GOT REM!!!! 

Surprising because I had a chiro adjustment so I expected it might be low due to trauma effect after so much pain... and I hit my bed like a ton of bricks and passed out before I could get the mask on, woke up and put it on about 12:30 am.

So now focus is on getting sugar down overnight so my body battery charges to 100 everyday
 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/26/2022:
And omg, I feel so much better after chiro

happy-1 on 01/26/2022:
9:15 am: I have no idea what to do with myself… a clear day and no anxiety that it’s going to be my only one this month… I ate breakfast and it was delicious. I took a hot shower and it felt amazing. I’m so distracted, I’m resting and about to start a meditation tape.

happy-1 on 01/26/2022:
7:26 pm… in my chair and pjs with my cat on my lap. When did this cranky stray turn into a love puddle? Apparently I am the best person in the world. I myself was surprised to find this out.

Super hard day… amazing I still have anything left. I slugged it out and prepped for my GP appt, got all my meds, referrals, and questions answered.

Got my 4 walks in.

Tried to get dad through medications and a walk. Made him a burger. He’s determined to be an ass to me and make me change my schedule to his whims. It’s time to go to bed. Nothing else. He’s a 2 year old. I said let’s try a subway run tomorrow. This triggered a huge fight. I said goodnight. Venting by posting here.

Not ruining all my good sleep with his bad habits.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2022:
Congrats....so glad you are having a good day. Hopefully that continues.


Maria7 on 01/26/2022:
Glad you got some good rest. Yayyyy!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2022:
i'm really happy to hear your sleep is better! and it should be! you did a lot of work to get the cpap to make it happen! nice job helping yourself!

great goals ahead.


Donkey on 01/27/2022:
It was a hard day and you got through it! VICTORY!!!



happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 25, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Tues Jan 25,2022 6:24 am:

Tried my best yesterday. I did my walks after 2 meals, but ran out of gas on the 3rd and 4th. I gave dad a haircut and just wore myself out. I was supposed to take him to Subway, but my car battery was dead. Luckily I still have some warranty left on my 5 year warranty and was able to get an appointment for today. I did two medication reminders at 8am and 8 pm, which needs to be a new habit. Also made dad a burger... and he still managed to find something to complain about... I ordered Instacart to resupply him on milk, eggs, etc and they had the rolls he really likes... used that for the bun and he didn't want a fancy roll he wanted a hamburger roll. I just walked away. It had taken me 30 minutes to wake him up to take his meds and I just had nothing left for complaints about bread he shouldn't be eating anyway. $120 on processed foods and overpriced non-organic groceries from Ralphs that are basically poison. 

Inch by inch. 

On the other hand, I posted another challenge article, gave moral support to an old friend who I reached out to on Sunday who had a job interview. I tidied up some more. I did two walks at least. I recovered from a sore neck... and most importantly, I went to bed on time and made more progress on getting REM and consolidating my sleep cycle. Really, really proud of this...



Apparently I should have done cardio yesterday.... and need to today.

 
I think it would have burned off the glucose and raised my body battery today.


 

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/25/2022:
7am… just realized I forgot to add stuff for me to the instacart order. Protein bars for breakfast for me.

happy-1 on 01/25/2022:
Augh worst headache all day and my car won’t jump start to go to the battery appt. Waiting for a tow. Should have started at 1 but it was too bright out. Missing car appt and chiro.

happy-1 on 01/25/2022:
Omg. The difference in sleep is everything. I soldiered on, got my battery replaced, went to the chiro, came home, made dad a burger, and talked to a friend


Maria7 on 01/25/2022:
I know your Dad is happy with his haircut. He sure does have a wonderful Daughter!


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2022:
What is a challenge article?

Did you see my comment re Garmin suggestion for my sisters?


bearcountrygg on 01/25/2022:
Looks like you got plenty done.


legcramps on 01/25/2022:
Sorry to hear about your car! It never gets easier, does it?!


Donkey on 01/26/2022:
Sounds like a really challenging day - but you got through it, and with a couple of positives to add, as well.



happy-1 - Monday Jan 24, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Monday 1/24/21 6am - 

Listened to a bunch of meditation things last night to fall asleep, but I did it. Woke up on time,  no alarm with in range sugar. I salvaged yesterday as best I could... gave dad a bunch of hugs, made him a burger for game day.

Today begins the great "does switching to IR stimulants improve recovery time and allow me to raise my vo2 max" experiment. Have to do something. I'm weak as a kitten.

Waiting for Garmin to post sleep stats. It's definitely got me on a hook. 
---

6:30am... very promising. Maybe I really am starting to turn it all around.


Also very promising... rate of recharge...


 

7:15 am... I used to backpack and surf... how are 4 15 minute walks just right?

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/24/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 01/24/2022:
11am- neck is definitely not happy. Chiro isn’t in until tomorrow

happy-1 on 01/24/2022:
Just gave up on coworking today. Took alleve and asprin and I am lying in bed with heating pad. Placed another instacart order for Ralphs for my dad. I’m wiped. Definitely messed up my neck on saturday


Maria7 on 01/24/2022:
Hope you and your Dad have a good day.


bearcountrygg on 01/24/2022:
Sounds like it was a good day for both of you yesterday.....hoping that today goes as well.


Jacky82020 on 01/24/2022:
Dang, that Body Battery sounds like the daily horoscope! Love the graphics.

happy-1 on 01/24/2022:
More like a hearing aid.


Jacky82020 on 01/24/2022:
Great analogy. Love it!


Horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2022:
very great work today!!


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2022:
My sisters want to get Garmins & are overwhelmed by the choices. What do you have? Is it the same you’d buy today if you got a new one?

happy-1 on 01/25/2022:
I have a forerunner 245 for advanced sleep, recovery, and cardiovascular fitness 7 day training load. If I had the money to do it again right now I’d buy the Fenix 6 pro solar for the advanced sleep insights and all the features that Donkey gets on her Venu. I’d also buy the Core body temp add on. It would give me the temp data the Oura ring gets but more accurately because it wouldn’t be distorted by room temp. In conjunction with my hdrop, it would tell me if stress while sitting is cortisol or dehydration.


Donkey on 01/25/2022:
I hope you can get your neck worked on. That's a game-stopper right there, for sure.


Jacky82020 on 01/25/2022:
Dang, that sounds so complicated, Happy! Does the device come will all that or are they subscription add ons?

happy-1 on 02/02/2022:
They are devices.



happy-1 - Sunday Jan 23, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Sun 1/23/22 12:24pm:

Not posting sleep stats today because I feel better than they say I should. Garmin says I slept from 9pm to 5am but no REM was recorded. I feel like I got 1:15... so possibly the watch was askew or dirty or something.

Feeling pretty good. I am moving slow, but moving. I walked to pick up a prescription and manage blood sugar after breakfast. Dad got out of joint about this because I wouldn't stay and wait for him to get out of the bathroom to talk... Except he can be in there for 30-1 hour and my sugar was rising from breakfast... it's only a 15 minute walk... Which if I don't do can delay me feeling well enough to actually get HIM out for a walk. He was grouchy when I got back so I made phone calls to people I haven't talked to for a while. One of which included my aunt who is harping on me to get him out for walks. I felt guilty and offered him a trip to Subway while I am still feeling OK... He declined and said he wants to watch the game. I sent her a photo of my habit tracker for him with the record of outings offered and declined. 

It's lunchtime and while I did a great job today of making sure he has meals he likes, I haven't set myself up with much... Making up the chicken breasts so if nothing else I can eat those with cabbage this week. Make him some meatloaf again tonight. He actually liked that.

And posting here to regroup and fend off despair before I try to tackle lunch and another walk. I read a book by Thomas Brown called "Smart but Stuck" which is really freaking depressing. 15 stories about people with ADHD and everyone is miserable.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
1pm. Gave dad a hug.

Lord, make me stronger, help me sleep better so I can do better for him?

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Also I took Metformin for blood sugar… shooting to just start with one a day in the AM… see if I can manage my sugar better and improve sleep and habits. That might be making me down

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
2:47… my salad for lunch spiked my sugar even though I cut the dressing and crunchies in half, walked after and took metformin. Depressing.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
I miss camping and having friends and a life… whatever it was.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Where is the SWAT team that comes and does all the paperwork, cleans out the house, and makes dinner?

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Sugar wasn’t coming down so I took glipizide, ate a strawberry, setup coleslaw for dad’s dinner, and ate 2 strawberries and walked. Pricey CGM popped off when I brushed the door. Aaargh

4pm, back, set a 30 min timer for rest, then I will make him a burger.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Popped on a new sensor… oh! I’m PMS! No wonder I’m miserable

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
5… made dad a burger for game day.


bearcountrygg on 01/23/2022:
Oh my......You are doing just fine for your Dad. Don't ever think you aren't. The people that have criticism should just go over there and help you out instead of finding fault....Don't let them get to you. I think it is sweet that you gave your Dad a hug!!!!

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
I just keep trying and he is so unhappy.


bearcountrygg on 01/23/2022:
D is on metformin and takes it daily....I didn't know that you could take it once in awhile. In fact he takes it twice a day.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
You can’t… it builds up over a week. I stopped because it was causing anxiety and panic attacks, but I feel better off the Losartan so I’m seeing if I can tolerate the Metformin on the enalapril. My other option is the Rybelsus which doesn’t have enough usage yet for there to be enough edge case side effects on the Internet… plus it causes thyroid cancer.


Jacky82020 on 01/23/2022:
Is Metformin the one linked to weight loss? I see from ads some diabetes type 2 meds are.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
No, but Glipizide is linked to weight gain, so I need to cut back on that to lose weight to get better sleep… Except I need more REM sleep to do away with the diabetes meds. Chicken and the egg problem. No clear solution.


Jacky82020 on 01/23/2022:
Very difficult situation. I’m so sorry.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
I think you’d make mincemeat of it with your flawless logic!


Jacky82020 on 01/23/2022:
Naw, even me gets struck on complexities


Donkey on 01/24/2022:
I agree with BEAR - you are doing fine by your Dad. You can't make someone be happy. But you are doing very well to take care of him nonetheless. (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 01/24/2022:
Hugs, ty. But I do need to get him out.



happy-1 - Saturday Jan 22, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

 Sat 1/22/22 2:40pm

Resting after raising the head of my bed 3 more inches to improve respiration during sleep and sleep quality. This required 2 separate sets of risers and pulling everything apart. My "to do box" now fits under my bed neatly. Side benefit.

I also did dishes.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/22/2022:
Inch by inch


jacky82020 on 01/22/2022:
That’s a clever idea!


innerpeace on 01/22/2022:
I think sleeping in a raised position helps my DH as well.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Very likely will help you too! These are the bed risers... https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0086S76U0/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o01_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1


bearcountrygg on 01/22/2022:
I knpow raising my head on several pillows really helps me too.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Yeah! I need a straight spine though, so head of the bed it is


Horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2022:
good idea to raise up the head of your bead!

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Inch by inch


Donkey on 01/23/2022:
That helped my Husband a LOT - raising his head - to sleep (and stop the snoring!). However, because his spine is fused, it wasn't a long-term solution and ultimately did need the CPAP machine. Perhaps if/when he loses more weight, things may improve for him.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
How long has he had his cpap?



happy-1 - Friday Jan 21, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Friday January 21, 2022 7:10am

Very promising sleep cycle consolidation and  REM rebound. Looking forward to having the day and 7 day average match up again. That felt amazing.

A little split on what I should do with all this REM. Definitely not run errands. That would be a waste. Probably continue to focus on my to do list. I have the ADHD coaching call today. That may wipe me out.

Part of me wants to ditch everything and take my dad for a haircut and give him a good day out... but I dunno if that is the right move... would I wear myself out and impact REM tonight? Delay getting back to that awesome same day-7day matchup where I can think clearly and focus?

Should I run and do yoga? Or just keep to the 4 15 min walks that controlled my sugar better and resulted in REM sleep?

I don't know. First step is just getting one walk in.

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/21/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 01/21/2022:
Adhd coach call at 10 shouldn’t have wiped me out, but it did. Crawled into bed after. Not supposed to be in bed during the day, so I got up and ate, then walked, then crashed again. My limit for how much this is supposed to displace my schedule is 4 hours. At the 3 hour mark

happy-1 on 01/21/2022:
I am really ready to start feeling better now please. A 1 hour video call isn’t supposed to wreck me.

happy-1 on 01/21/2022:
Glad I don’t have any goodies. I would eat them all.


Maria7 on 01/21/2022:
I vote for your Dad's day out! Smile!

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Me too! Wish I had made it happen


jacky82020 on 01/21/2022:
I’m with Maria!

Really love your colorful Garmin graphics. Fitbit is all green and grey and crappy looking, much of same info, but not all on my Charge 4. They make really expensive models that look like Apple watches. Wonder if they have better graphics.

happy-1 on 01/22/2022:
But the data will still be much less accurate and likely meaningless


Horn_of_plenty on 01/22/2022:
it's def helpful to see an average of how we do across a longer period of time, just like you say! :)


Donkey on 01/22/2022:
Did something specifically set you off with your meeting with your ADHD coach? I'm sorry this sent your day into a tailspin.

Also, I wanted to let you know that I did find a doctor who has a holistic health practice, but her office is quite a drive. So now I know I will have options. Thank you for your recommendation.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
It wasn’t a tailspin, it was complete and utter exhaustion. Like the first 2 times I did the caregiver group. Maybe the drain of talking to someone new and being asked difficult questions? I expected to be tired, but not THAT tired.


jacky82020 on 01/22/2022:
Girl, you need to get yourself a job as the Garmin Poster Child.

I’ve purchased several activity trackers over the years and Garmin was the only one I hated & returned. Not positive, I buy so many things online, but believe I got it directly from them, not Amazon and had to pay for return shipping.

I had to hold my arm in the iPad’s face to get data! Weird as hell! Fitbit App picks up stuff from all over the house, even the cheapie kiddie one on sale for $30.



happy-1 - Thursday Jan 20, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

Thursday January 20, 2021 6:27 am... 

8 more minutes till Garmin posts sleep stats, but I can tell I got REM. The urge to peel my skull off and massage my brain directly is gone. I don't feel suffocated. Fingers crossed.

If I got REM today I should go run, but if I do that I will lose my morning. I should probably do paperwork, then do cardio on the bike. Last as long as possible to build up sleep drive, burn off glucose.

6:33... look at that beautiful REM

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

Jacky82020 on 01/20/2022:
I seriously wonder if Garmin isn’t instantly getting those stats & is jerking users around with this delay so they think: wow! How valid! Marketing. It’s all about marketing.

happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
No it used to record rem live and post as it went… then correct it based on the next 24h of data. This is better. It still corrects a few hours later, but it’s only a 6-15 min change.


happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
10am. Garmin downgraded my rem after it was posted to 1:18 which is closer to how I feel and probably more accurate. I can feel that too-tight brain feeling of being tired.

All I have accomplished is waiting till my fasting window to eat, an on target breakfast, 2 walks, figuring out that the space heater I thought was broken works it was just on the wrong setting, logging here, and checking the challenge feed. Leaving comments. The questions are good and I will have lots to work with to improve it for the next round.


Jacky82020 on 01/20/2022:
Hope you saw my response to your questions re my spending habits before I deleted the last few weeks.

happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
No… and I did not mean any offense.

happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
Yours are better than mine.


bearcountrygg on 01/20/2022:
I fly by the seat of my pants....I would never be disciplined enough to live by electronics....I'm afraid I would just sit there all day trying to figure out what it all means........and wouldn't actually do anything. You have a lot of patience.

happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
I am trying to pull myself out of a nightmare and so far this is working. I look forward to not having to do this anymore.


bearcountrygg on 01/20/2022:
I've spent the last many hours trying to figure out this computer update that is not working very well.......and I'm ready to throw it out the window.


Jacky82020 on 01/20/2022:
I was fascinated by the sleep and REM stuff on Fitbit for a year and then it got old and boring. Figured nothing that needed changing (like sleep apnea, don’t have it) and couldn’t do much to control off days on REM, light or deep sleep or whatever it did. Just a novelty at first. No longer sleep with the thing on.

happy-1 on 01/20/2022:
Yeah, I will probably feel the same way when I start feeling better.


Maria7 on 01/20/2022:
Hope you are having a good day.


legcramps on 01/20/2022:
Uh, the visual with the "peel my skull off"... yeah. It's a visual. I can't imagine that type of pain. Hugs.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
And weirdly raising the head of my bed fixed it???


Donkey on 01/21/2022:
"Too-tight brain feeling" --- yes, this I can relate to :-(

I hope your day improved. (((hugs)))



happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 19, 2022
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Weight: 243.1

Wed Jan 19, 2022 9:53 am

Costco orders resulted in crazy high overnight sugar, even though I stuck to my fasting window. Oops. Not enough REM day 3. I want to peel my skull, and it is only 10am. I got 3 REM cycles but the 4th started and stopped, probably due to the fat content of the meal and delayed sugar spike. But still progress. 


 

Airsense and respiration, timing of earlier REM cycles suggest that the bed risers and blackout curtain helped. It will take a week with better blood sugar to tell.

I messed myself up yesterday by not getting daylight and a walk on time,  exercising on a new plan, not having real meals available, ordering Costco chicken, brussel sprouts, and almond milk (good) but also ordering keto cookies and crackers I normally buy at Aldi's since I am having problems getting out to the store. I had forgotten how good the ones at Costco are, went too many days on canned chilli and protein bars, wass tired, had burned too many calories... and over-indulged. It wasn't even good enough to be a real cheat meal.  Oh well. 

Recovery strategy today is to get back on track with schedule, walk after meals, still do cardio, and prioritize going to bed on time. Burn off blood sugar instead of taking Glipizide. Cross my fingers and pray. 
 

I'm so tired.

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
Inch by inch

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
11:30 - Went out to get the chicken and brussel sprout meal prep I made. I had the presence of mind to handle dad's requests correctly.

11:45 - Done eating. Going for a walk. Hope the keto bbq sauce doesn't jack up my sugar.

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
12:12. Back. Resting 1 h wmusic on a timer

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
1:30 - dad decided he doesn't want to take a Lyft with me... rescheduling his appointment

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
6:13pm Done for the day. All I accomplished was eating, walking, writing challenge articles. I should shower, but I'm too tired. Holding out for 7:30 to go to bed.

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
7:30 got ready for bed 8pm in bed 8:45 too hungry to sleep. Probably not enough calories. I have to total them to figure it out. Took a glipizide and ate a pickle, carrots, hummus, tzatiki, crackers


bearcountrygg on 01/19/2022:
Getting back on track is the key.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Inch by inch


jacky82020 on 01/19/2022:
I so miss Costco from when we lived in San Diego. Right on my way home from work too. None here, just a crappy Sam’s Club, a Walmart thing not worth joining.

I make my own chili in a crockpot with ground turkey. Fewer calories and a lot less sodium than canned. Don’t add any salt, but lots of other spices. Easy to make. Sometimes I cheat & buy a big can of cooked kidney beans, but often cook my own pinto beans.

Have to say the graphics on your devices puts my poor Fitbit ones to shame. Very bland & boring.

happy-1 on 01/19/2022:
Fitbit has graphs


Horn_of_plenty on 01/19/2022:
my exercise and sleep can use some help too!

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Said everyone everywhere!


Donkey on 01/20/2022:
I've heard marvelous things about Costco chicken - sounds so yummy! We don't have a Costco membership. The European deli near us used to have very good chickens but lately, we haven't had good luck with them.

I tried to apply the "sleep drive" concept you've been writing about, last night. It worked, but since I went to bed later, it was harder to wake up this morning. Ah, who knows, it might have been harder to get up even without staying up late....

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Lol… once I make the challenge public we can walk through concepts daily



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