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happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 18, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

I just ordered mine:
 
The Postal Service is delivering one shipment of 4 COVID tests per residential address. Enter your name, address and email at www.usps.com/covidtest

to request a shipment. It is live now. 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/18/2022:
Me too.


Jacky82020 on 01/18/2022:
Yeah, I got some as soon as everyone begin retweeting all the info on Twitter


Donkey on 01/18/2022:
Apparently, I was the only person not knowing this. Husband ordered his/ours this morning.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/18/2022:
yes, i ordered mine this evening!!



happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 18, 2022
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Weight: 243.1

Tuesday January 18, 2021 6:35 am:

Fell asleep on time last night. Awake on time this morning.

Pulse ox was fine last night. Head of bed raised definitely feels good. Should have done that years ago. 

BUT still not enough REM sleep. Augh. 35 min. 2:10 short of what i needed. I'm going to struggle even harder today. I did my job. I slept 8.5 hours. I don't get it. Unless knee pin required more deep sleep and it displaced REM sleep? Or high sugar overnight displaced REM sleep? I couldn't pull off taping myself last night, just got too tired... but pulse ox ws ok anyway.

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Pebble by pebble. I need coffee

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
7:42 am... I should have gotten daylight and a walk in already, but my tummy has't done it's thing yet... UGH.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
8:09 - Tidied. I'm in the not enough REM to focus and move forward trap.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Went for a 15 min walk, took out trash, weighed in.

9:30 - Need to push myself and eat something. 14h fast just ended.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Also I weighed in at 240 and 242... so what do I weigh today??? Did I lose or gain?

Eating a keto bar and water.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Also I weighed in at 240 and 242... so what do I weigh today??? Did I lose or gain?

Eating a keto bar and water.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
9:40... just remembered I need to eat more calories than that. Ugh.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
9:50 - 2 hard boiled eggs, tzatiki, carrots. Not even 10am and I am tired enough to go to bed. Then ran an errand, super tired. Went OK, but not my preference.

11 am - did 45 min cardio and then recovered.

12:30 - Caregiver support group

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
1:30 - sucked it up and tried to help my dad change internet plans. HA. So f-ing tired it was too confusing. I am wiped.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
2:30. Couldn’t pull it together on second try. Resting.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
2:46... Yeah, no cooking is happening. Netflix isn't making any sense. Found a tai chi class on ompractice, ordered Costco on Instacart so I can feed my dad. I still need to clean all the burned food out of pans from last week. Putting up a blackout curtain between now and when class starts.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
3pm, curtain up. Instacart in progress. I am so tired I could peel my skull like like an egg. The horrifying part is that I can only discern it as that I am tired because I’ve had a couple of days of feeling better.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Part of a tai chi class while instacart came and i launched into 4 chicken legs.

4:30pm - watching netflix. The cat finally has the lap she wanted all day

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
7:30… ordered keto crackers, cookies…. Porked out


Jacky82020 on 01/18/2022:
Glad the pulse ox is excellent. That’s an important one.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Right? Such a mystery


Maria7 on 01/18/2022:
I would think that you lost weight. Hope you are having a good day today.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Hugs, ty


horn_of_plenty on 01/18/2022:
at least you were able to be in bed, resting for awhile, despite not enough REM...you will get there! i think all of us struggle a little to get the best recommended sleep.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
I just want enough to be able to work


bearcountrygg on 01/18/2022:
Numbers look better today!

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Inch by inch.


Donkey on 01/18/2022:
(((hugs))) it's hard when you feel so tired to be productive. I think you've made a good go of it, despite the fatigue.

happy-1 on 01/18/2022:
Gotta build up sleep drive to be able to fall asleep tonight. It almost doesn’t matter what I do, as long as i do stuff to build up sleep drive.



happy-1 - Monday Jan 17, 2022
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Weight: 243.1

Mon 1/17/21 6:52am: 

Hard time falling asleep last night. 3 hours from putting my butt into bed (albeit I did skip wind down). Got up at 5 with alarm. Getting back on track inch by inch. Knew on wakeup I didn't get enough REM to be sharp. Bizarre because my CPAP says I did great. Respiration is a culprit here.

 
 

Searching the Internet and following up with pulmonologist.

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
Inch by inch.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
At 7:30, Garmin updated stats and showed I only got 25 min of REM last night. It fits how I feel. Decided to restart Garmin Coach and do a 10 min benchmark run for daylight. I'll do yoga after lunch.

8:00 - Called and dealt with health insurance stuff. Yay me. Now I just need to hold out till 9am to eat.

I'm so frustrated and hopeless. I was supposed to do all these errands and I shouldn't be driving today.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
8:20... Digestive system finally kicked in and I weighed myself... LOST MORE WEIGHT! 240.9

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
9am - meltdown on phone to therapist because no matter what I do, how many rules I follow, I can't make myself breathe better at night. I might actually be disabled, even though doctors just tell me that if I lose weight this will all get better.

9:30 - Got dad's Ralphs order for Instacart. Can't drive today.

10am - Ordered a neck brace on Amazon for sleep. Maybe it's my neck position while sleeping?

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
10:27 on Instacart order chat. Looking for ways to film myself sleeping tonight. New CGM sensor will be calibrated by then. I can raise the head of my bed today as the first variable to eliminate. It's MLK day... so no point in emailing doc today anyway.

I just want to cry.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
10:45 - I can swap the pillow on my bed for the one in the car. It might be less compressed.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
3:22... Have posted today's challenge article, raised the head of my bed, gotten dad groceries and dealt with a drama issue (I spent too much on groceries but there's nothing in the house), had a small lunch (and drama about said lunch... I had sausage and almost lost a hand). Received Instacart order, put away Instacart order. Rested on raised bed, doesn't feel high enough. Measured... Only raised it 5.5" not 6... but starting point for tonight.

I want to scream and cry, but I need to write another article and figure out how to take video of myself sleeping tonight... and every night until I find the source of the hypoxia.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
3:46 - Bought used 8" bed risers on Amazon. $12. If nothing else it will keep me from running creaming into the night to hang onto hope for a week.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
5:30 - Yoga done. I swear this cat loves being on camera. She just walked all around and over me and loved on me like a cat food commercial. I'm going to end up on YouTube.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
6:51... Showered on time for wind down. Amazon package may still arrive. Neighbors are jerks and keep my packages.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
Also, the cat has a clean box. I have a basic plan for video taping myself while asleep. The boardroom cam I use for yoga captures my entire bed. I can put my alarm next to my bed tonight for time code in the video. I will solve this. It's not every night anymore. It's 2x a week but that 2x a week sends me off schedule and messes me up wit bedtimes/wakeup times and exercise.


Jacky82020 on 01/17/2022:
The mask stats look good. I wish my fancy new bike had an app, but don’t think so.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
You can retrofit it to work with Garmin, just change the pedals


Maria7 on 01/17/2022:
Hope you have a good day.


Jacky82020 on 01/17/2022:
I tried calling LifeFitness today, but closed. I am entering the hard to earn burned calories into Fitbit as oz of water.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
? You can't log an activity to Fitbit?


bearcountrygg on 01/17/2022:
Do you have shortness of breath in the daytime? I once wore a heart monitor for a couple of days and nights for the cardiologist and he said that I breathe very slow and shallow at night.......years later an in hospital sleep study showed severe apnea..........I do have asthma (lifelong). I'm wondering if you are dealing with the same thing.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
I have asthma... who can tell?


bearcountrygg on 01/17/2022:
I sleep on 3 pillows....I just seem to breathe better that way....I put 1 down flat...then one halfway over that and then the third on top of both of them...actually I add a small 4th one on top too....it is a small one that I can kind of bunch up where I want it......I cannot sleep flat.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
Sounds like a good system. I saw special pillows for that... I have the neck injury and need to sleep flat... I even sleep on a board on top of my mattress. Only 1 pillow for my head, then I use a body pillow for my knees. So risers it is.

It does actually feel a little better raised.


Jacky82020 on 01/17/2022:
No problem with Fitbit. LifeFitness is the company that makes pro gym equipment


Jacky82020 on 01/17/2022:
Congrats on the weight loss

Hope a neck brace helps. Worth a try

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
$10. Beats throwing in the towel and trying to get disability.


Horn_of_plenty on 01/17/2022:
for the first time in a long time, i stayed up a bit more last night. was even on the phone with a friend at 10pm! hope you will have better sleep toinght!

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
OMG... I would love to have consistency like that.


Donkey on 01/18/2022:
Well, at least you do have the weight loss as a bright light.

I'd be interested to hear how the neck brace works for you. Keep in mind that some adjustment and time to adjust may be required. I have a sling-brace for my foot, for plantar fasciitis, and it took me a little trial and error to get it to work for me.

happy-1 on 01/23/2022:
Hugs, ty



happy-1 - Sunday Jan 16, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 243.1

 Sunday Jan 16, 2022 8am:

Phooey on staying up on friday to reset my sleep clock. I did get to bed on time last night. Too early by an hour but that's ok. I ended up sleeping almost 12 hours... and not getting up till 7. It must have been what my body needed though because my 7 day average is on point.

 

$5 says this is the day I start to sleep better. Today I had enough rem sleep and a good 7 day average at the same time.

Feels like a good day for a run.


 

 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/16/2022:
I really believe in doing what your body tells you to do....unless it involves too much sitting down...then I believe that it's time to get up and move around....I'm glad you got some needed sleep.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Lol… except my body tells me to stay up all night, be a couch potato, and order chinese food…


Donkey on 01/16/2022:
Well, maybe your reset was successful, perhaps. Do we sleep better when we're utterly exhausted?

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
We sleep earlier when we are utterly exhausted. The trick is not to nap, go to bed early, and the next day not lounge around from too much sleep inertia… you wipe yourself out on purpose to get to sleep again that night in your desired bedtime window.


Maria7 on 01/16/2022:
Glad you were able to get some extra sleep.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Hugs! Ty!


happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
9:38 am… so far I have accomplished making my bed and taking a shower. Had enough mental energy to color condition my hair, shave, and get calluses off my footsies. Overdue maintenance. Maybe that’s my theme for today.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
10:12 - there is an invisible force that keeps pulling my butt back to bed. All I did was get up, dress, brush teeth and comb hair.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
And the cat says she will give me my desk back if I buy her a cat tree with a little bed in it at the top that she can jump up into. I was thinking of just buying a second folding table that comes to waist height… it is a disagreement.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
10:42 - we both like this one, but we aren’t sure about the platform part being in the middle of the scratching post…

https://www.chewy.com/frisco-285-in-modern-cat-tree-condo/dp/204589?utm_source=google-product&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=hg&utm_content=Frisco&utm_term=&gclid=Cj0KCQiAoY-PBhCNARIsABcz770iHWboJ5hruCKFKCEvxyPDOtt07gf8YuzJmZpCbWE3qErfDDDv_Y8aAsz8EALw_wcB

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
11:19… well I ate something. That’s progress. IR stimulants are not as good as xr stimulants

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
12pm - have accomplished taking another IR, running out to buy a heat gun, de icing the freezer. Fended off dad requests. Heating up a heat pack for my knee and eating a keto bar

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
3:36pm - Used up my Instacart $15 promo on an order with a great sale on collagen creamer... that they didn't have. Bah. Waiting for the call from the ADHD coach. I gave her a window I was free, but she didn't pick a time, just said she would call me. Should have picked a time.

Making a meal plan and a grocery list. A little frustrated because Spoonacular has a bug in their Custom Foods feature so I can't add my bars and their cost. UGH!

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Worked on my grocery list and throwing away old coupons till about 4:30pm. Then I called the ADHD coach. I'll keep an open mind. She's cheap. I booked 2 sessions to start. We shall see.

5pm, I started dinner. Meatloaf and whipped sweet potatoes for dad, veggies for me. I ate with him. It was dismal. He called a friend back who texted me... I bailed when he started talking about how he can't get out. It's an issue and not much I can do tonight about it without stressing myself out, missing my bedtime and prolonging it another week.

6:45pm - Working on the challenge. Just going to sort the topics in order for tomorrow and then wake up early and do some writing. I've been too foggy all day to write and seeing people's answers makes everything I wrote a little irrelevant.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
7pm- I caught myself settling in to watch Netflix. Something I am trying to do in bed. I packed everything up for the night and am starting over tomorrow. Nothing is gained by staying up late. I didn’t do much today but hopefully with the IR meds and the earlier bedtime, I can make it happen.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
7:30 - in bed

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
9:19 - can’t sleep. Hungry. Bored. Tired

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
10:24 - still can’t sleep


Jacky82020 on 01/16/2022:
That link won’t open for me. But I’ve bought from Chewy for years


Maria7 on 01/16/2022:
Sometimes I use a fan on our freezer.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Yeah… I was using my expensive CHI hairdryer and it’s refreezing so fast I can’t keep up.


Donkey on 01/17/2022:
The Chewy link worked for me. I like it! It's not very tall. You could get a taller one for a little more money. However, perhaps the shorter one is more suited to your home/room. It has everything she needs: scratching posts, a perch to sit and reign over her kingdom, and a hidey hut.

happy-1 on 01/17/2022:
Right? She wants to be either under my chair (not that bright with a reclining folding chair) or lap-adjacent, able to view everything I am doing and occasionally lick my arm to indicate that she would like me to put aside my lap desk and pull a blanket over my lap so she can have a cuddle. Occasionally get a piece of anything I am eating. I do have a taller window-mounted one, but can't figure out how to mount that in my bedroom without giving up either the AC or my night stand. This one can be picked up and moved on top of my bed for yoga. It matches the taller one so they would be cool positioned adjacently in my next space.

I'm just not sure if the ledge in the middle of the post discourages scratching.



happy-1 - Saturday Jan 15, 2022
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Weight: 243.1

Saturday Jan 15, 2022 1pm -

Tried to stay up all night and go to bed at my regular time. Backfired. I couldn't make it past 3am, woke up at 7:30 am and now I am dead tired. So far today I have jumped my car battery, made an attempt to clean out the fridge, inflated my exercise ball. Mostly I am watching Netflix and taking breaks from the kitchen stuff... Everytime I go in there I end up crosswise with my dad.

Tired. I hope I go to bed on time tonight. 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/15/2022:
Inch by inch.


Jacky82020 on 01/15/2022:
Sometimes breaks & Netflix are the way to go! Have had Netflix off on & the on for years, off now. Have Sling, Hulu and Amazon Prime. When we first moved to the sticks in PA, I had Netflix DVDs coming in every other day or so. This was circa 2005, before streaming went big. Also a missed stock opportunity for me, a big one that got away. Could have bought in at $50 a share, but thought online DVDs getting old, everyone streaming & not the foggiest Netflix would make its fortune doing original programming.

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Omg… all the things we missed out on, right?


Horn_of_plenty on 01/15/2022:
so glad yo hear that you and your cat have bonded so well! i remember the day before the bond and when she was just in your bathroom / getting used to it all was hard! now, you both finally are in a good spot :)

will you need to get a new car battery? i am starting to worry about mine, but will wait until my next oil change in 3 months to ask about it. they have a test to measure how much juice is in it!

you give me an idea to clean the one stain i have in my living room carpet. the stain is the side of a grape, but is truly annoying to look at. perhaps i'll take care of it in a few more months...or not at all yet...

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Did you buy a warranty for the battery?


bearcountrygg on 01/15/2022:
I don't think I could stay away anywhere near 3 A.M. anymore.....I fall asleep at the computer at 8 P.M. sometimes...LOL

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Omg… teach me how to do that


Donkey on 01/16/2022:
I hope you were able to go to bed on time last night. Were you trying to reset something in yourself by staying up all night?

happy-1 on 01/16/2022:
Yeah, it’s called planned sleep deprivation. I was supposed to see the Exish this weekend but his brother has COVID so that whole place is in quarantine and so is he. With the unplanned time, I just figured I’d try resetting that way.



happy-1 - Friday Jan 14, 2022
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Weight: 243.1

Friday Jan 14, 2022, 3:12pm

The cat is in full love mode. Did you know I am the best human in the world? I was surprised to find out myself.

Bouncing back from yeserday. I slept wrong, gave myself a headache, woke up late, had a leak in the mask and didn't get enough rem sleep. I just kind of abandoned all plans and humped it through the shrink appt to get immediate release adhd meds. My theory is that my VO2 max isn't improving despite runs because my stimulant meds increase my recovery time. If I have IRs, I can run, wait for my Garmin stress levels to drop, then take them. They will kick in faster and have a shorter active cycle so I can skip afternoons when not out and about, possibly improving the effectiveness of resting between workouts and making it easier to get to sleep. I need to do something... The Moderna dropped my vo2 max 12 points. I'm weak as a kitten, worn out in 2 hours. It keeps me up. Stayed up too late watching Netflix in full on revenge bedtime procrastination mode. Possibly also stress. I braved casual time with my dad yesterday... twice. I am glad I did it, but it completely depleted me. I also made him a nice piece of salmon. 

Today I am still struggling to pull it together. Enough REM sleep but not enough total sleep. I skipped my morning walk because all my energy was pulling me to clean and / or write. Oops. I used my carpet cleaner to scrub out stains and increase the liklihood of yoga. Got so into writing (plan your challenge break to avoid revenge procrastination, why it's hard to identify food intolerances when you have adhd). Then I showered. Now I am lying here with a nice cat, writing to you, dear reader.

At least I've somehow lost 7lbs. 

Progress as of today: 73.9 lbs lost so far, only 83.1 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
Onwards and upwards.

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
4:51 - Tried to go get dad a subway sandwich and discovered that my car wouldn't start. I have a battery thing, but it's not charged.

Sitting down and rebooting my brain. Positive feedback on the challenge.

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
4:51 - Tried to go get dad a subway sandwich and discovered that my car wouldn't start. I have a battery thing, but it's not charged.

Sitting down and rebooting my brain. Positive feedback on the challenge.

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
6:53... I'm so tired and stressed and nothing is fun... I just have no juice left. Finishing my salad and going to bed.

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
7:02... Found an interesting post on stimulants and vo2 max. I'm not the only one.. https://www.reddit.com/r/fitbit/comments/nbxibc/how_to_improve_vo2_max/


Donkey on 01/15/2022:
It sounds like it was kind of a challenging day, trying to have enough energy and focus. Well, some days are just like that.

I hadn't considered the relationship between the Moderna vaccine and VO2. You might be on to something there.

happy-1 on 01/15/2022:
Found a starting point anyway... https://www.medrxiv.org/content/10.1101/2021.08.24.21262239v1.full.pdf


bearcountrygg on 01/15/2022:
How do you keep all of those stats straight........???? You my friend are a statistical champion......

happy-1 on 01/15/2022:
No idea. I think I get it from my dad.


Maria7 on 01/15/2022:
Hope you are having a good day today. Please give your little cat a pet for me. She is so cute. Take care. Hope your Dad is doing well, too.

happy-1 on 01/15/2022:
I told her "Maria says hi!" He is, actually :-)



happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 12, 2022
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Weight: 250.0

Wed Jan 12, 2022 945 am:

Was in bed at 9 last night, but it took 4h to fall asleep. Ugh. Watched supernatural on Netflix with my cpap on. It just takes a while to sleep with that. In 2 nights I fell out of the habit. I was so exhausted when I got into bed last night it was a pleasure and a treat to finally lie down. And torture to not fall asleep. I dunno if it was all the chores and the delayed recovery time alert... or the stress of dealing with my dad... or the walk in the afternoon...

Was up at 7 on my own before my alarm... but in the middle of a rem cycle. Still got 1:15 in 6.5 hours... so cpap must be working. I will find a way to integrate the my air report into my spreadsheet with the rules I saw last night.

Next step is to buy another sleep mask and eliminate blue light in the evenings... so I probably need to either stop using my computer after dark until I replace my monitor. And do something about the light from my air filter. Forgot to turn on the space heater and flamed out on my morning routine, but still got up and out for a walk in daylight. Resting for a minute. The cat has curled up next to me for warmth. I know I'm not supposed to be in bed during the day, but it's a rest break. And she's so soft.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
10am done writing. Doing my challenge

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
10:50 - looked up low spo2 levels and sleep on apnea. Have to connect with respiratory therapist, then pulmonologist?

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
12:51 - so far I have accomplished getting data from the cpap company to the pulmonologist to ask about respiration. I also emailed nutritionist to ask about spo2 and overnight sugar. I ate my next planned meal, then did another walk and drank 3/4 of a bottle of electrolyte water. Dad looks droopy which is scary. Waiting for my doc appt. Debating ordering groceries on instacart. I’m super tired, and there’s not much here my dad will like, even though there is food. I think my next step is to see if i have anything to turn into chicken salad after I update my nutrition logs.

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
1:26... did none of that... just waiting for the appt, trying to get my Brainin order, shuffling through and updating my to do list

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
UGH! Got the day wrong for my appt. At least I didn't waste the time.

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
2:15 - Returned a all. Why can't I ever get a todo list to work?

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
Spent the afternoon chasing down health insurance stuff. Who contracts with who changed and now I can't complete any of my scheduled health appointments. UGH.

Then I ate a snack and went for a walk.

5:40 - I dunno if I did the right thing... I am so frustrated with everything and everything is so hard, I took an old, not expired Metformin to keep my sugars down tonight to see if I can get a handle on the sleep thing.

So frustrated. I can't do enough in a day to be able to make an impact on the growing mountain.

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
8pm - finished cranking out tomorrow’s article on improving focus on a task by stimulating the vagus nerve. It works if you’ve had sleep.

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
8:30 - poked dad to say goodnight. Made him some chicken salad.

In bed about 9. Watched netflix. Can’t seem to give that up. Best part of my day.

10:15, cpap on. Hope I fall asleep

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
11pm - Negativity set in. Hope it’s the metformin not me


bearcountrygg on 01/12/2022:
You sure have a full day.

happy-1 on 01/12/2022:
Really? I mostly see it as empty and unproductive.


Maria7 on 01/13/2022:
Your kitty cat is so sweet. No, my Daughter didn't have her cat that is missing tagged nor chipped. She is still grieving over her.


Donkey on 01/13/2022:
I gonna have to agree with Bear on this. I see a lot of effort, at least. :-)

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
Effort vs outcome… sigh


legcramps on 01/14/2022:
Supernatural is such a good show - i'm working on getting through season 7!

happy-1 on 01/14/2022:
OMG... right? Everything "awesome" shoots in Vancouver.



happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 11, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 250.0

Tuesday Jan 11, 2022 5:24pm

OMG. What a day. I had dueling health stuff... OT and respiratory therapist for me. Caregiver support group for me

Nurse for dad was new and extra careful and thought my dad had scabies. The dermatologist saw him on the 22 and didn't say anything, the nurse manager said it's not scabies. OMG what a relief. I liked her. I'd rather have a scare than something go unaddressed, 100%. Nonetheless, it was an exhausting ordeal. She was here so long I got a chance to put books back into the book case (moved them out for the heater repair), wiped down the kitchen, got laundry on, trash out. I even washed the trash cans and swept the front steps.

Go me. Then I finally got a shower and then I cleaned my bathroom, and then I sat and had another talk with my dad about his 4 options for the grocery store.

Then I walked while it was still light out. Self-generate forward momentum. In the afternoon, but 5 hours before bedtime.

More laundry. Changed dad's bedding. More of him chewing on me to het him plastic buckets of ice cream. Finally I told him I'm not talking about it anymore you are wearing me out.

Dishes. Made myself a tortilla pizza. Dad asked me to make dinner, but today is cleanup day. We eat leftovers on cleanup day.

Wins: New CPAP... Overnighted. This one has a working modem. Respiratory therapist showed me how to compare the data in my Garmin with the data in Airsense to figure out if the mysterious REM dropouts are from the mask slipping off. We turned off smart start.

I didn't stop or get any rest today. Like a few minutes of sitting here and there, but I had to keep getting up to do the next thing. So tired I want to crawl into a hole. I still have to post an article for the challenge for tomorrow. I am wiped. I am bone dead tired. I did so many chores today I got a recovery time delayed alert on Garmin.

I still need to get up and do the next thing. There are two more loads of laundry. I need to empty out the fridge and defrost the freezer again. All the major appliances need to be replaced. I'm so tired.

But there's hope, and now I can bug the respiratory therapist about why my REM drops out.

 

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/11/2022:
And I did it all on IR stimulant meds at a low dose.

happy-1 on 01/11/2022:
5:45pm... Sitting down to write for tomorrow... I was overwhelmed and worn-out and ready to quit and give up, but I logged into the challenge anyway today and saw that one of the guys had logged in and posted... and that gave me a boost so I am sitting down to work on this.

happy-1 on 01/11/2022:
wait right after I do the next load of laundry...

happy-1 on 01/11/2022:
6pm... now I am starting

happy-1 on 01/11/2022:
8:30pm… article done. An entire essay on adhd, the connection to vo2 max, and the surprising link to cfs.


Donkey on 01/12/2022:
EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
Inch by *bleep* inch.


horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2022:
so glad your new cpap is doing it's just well. such a great benefit to you.

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
Ty!!!!

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
Ty!!!!


bearcountrygg on 01/12/2022:
OH laundry...one of my fave's

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
It cleanses my tainted soul… just a little bit.


Maria7 on 01/12/2022:
Glad you are doing well. Wishing you a happy day.

happy-1 on 01/13/2022:
Hugs.



happy-1 - Monday Jan 10, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 250.0

 Monday Jan 9, 2022 9:40 am:

Bear - Here is a really good example of how checking my sleep stats everyday on wakeup has helped me listen to my body and get better sleep. I did actually wake up a little at 5am, but I could tell that I was in rebound so I turned off the alarm and went back to sleep. I got 2:42 rem last night because of the two days of rest I gave myself to recover from the runs... even though my cpap broke last night and I didn't use it. The mornings where there is a 5th real rem cycle feel different... sleep has a hold of me and doesn't want to let go.
 

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
Lost 3lbs

9am - therapy. She says I am making progress and moving forward. I don’t see how.

940-950 dd entry

Pebble by pebble. Inch by inch

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
10:05 am - 20 min walk in the sunlight

10:30 am - Ate. Keto hot breakfast. water

11am - coworking. bunch of requests from dad interrupting. Dealt with them. Managed to make one thing happen - a chat with the cpap company to get them to overnight the cpap they are shipping today.

12pm - updating this log and translating my time from DD into a worksheet for the OT tomorrow. 12

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
12:30 ate - cottage cheese

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
Wrapped up coworking and setting up respiratory therapy and ot appointments for tomorrow.

1:30 pm - taking a break. Doing my challenge tasks. Why is it that everytime I read something I wrote, it reminds me what I need to do next?

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
2:10pm, I got up and washed all the dishes. Took out the trash. Was going to make food, but dad was asleep

3:20pm took a break

4:45 pm made dad dinner

5:40pm... Trying to write a challenge task for tomorrow, coming up blank. Just tooo dull witted without ADHD meds to write.

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
7:18pm... OMG... I did it... a full article on allostatic load, adult ADHD, how to measure it and manage it to handle chronic stress


bearcountrygg on 01/10/2022:
How rested did you feel after 2 3/4ths hours of REM? Was it more or less than usual?

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
More. I skipped my ADHD stimulant meds today because I slept so late. I'm a little scattered but able to sit and focus. Just takes a bunch of tries each time to do anything, but I do it.


Jacky82020 on 01/10/2022:
That’s great, Happy! Happy all that works for you. Never did nothing for me & now all I do is track steps on the Fitbit. Finally got new Charge 4 hooked up to new Gen 9 IPad. It made me suffer.


Donkey on 01/11/2022:
I agree with the therapist! And 7:18pm update is HUGE - huge victory - BRAVO!!!!



happy-1 - Sunday Jan 09, 2022
(FlrBkfstFdAgYlog,BpNs14h2doPln-25010cr10Kstp1G9bed)
Weight: 250.0

 Sunday Jan 9, 2022, 2:30pm

Argh. I don't understand why my sleep last night wsn't good enough quality. Again! Is it the coap? Is it exercise recovery? Decided on a short walk in daylight instead of a run this am. In theory, my REM should come up tonight.

Progress as of today: 67 lbs lost so far, only 90 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/09/2022:
Which of course will mean higher nighttime sugars

happy-1 on 01/09/2022:
Also, spent most of today writing 2 challenge topics for tomorrow. Oh what a difference sleep and hydration make. Not paying attention to food today

happy-1 on 01/09/2022:
4pm. Steadily working on my OT stuff. I just went into the kitchen to get some sad plain chicken and Brussel sprouts. Dad asked me if I want to go in on a dozen New York bagels he can order online and have here in 2 days. I said I was good without them, but he was free to do so. He deflated like I kicked a puppy. Why do I have to eat a bagel to make him happy?

happy-1 on 01/09/2022:
4:48pm. Garmin data in place. Time to crunch dd logs... What I couldn't pull off yesterday.

happy-1 on 01/09/2022:
4:54... or maybe I will just take a break.

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
8:30 in bed like a good girl.

10pm, cpap finally stopped working altogether… told Dad I’m going to have problems tomorrow. He was a pain in the ass about it.

10:30pm I can’t sleep


bearcountrygg on 01/09/2022:
When the electronics say your sleep wasn't good enough...how does that compare with how you feel you slept?

happy-1 on 01/09/2022:
About 95% match. It takes a couple of hours to post. I can guess after about 20 minutes what they will be in increments of 10 based on how spacey I feel.


Donkey on 01/10/2022:
Your CPAP machine stopped working altogether??? What??? That's not good!!!!

happy-1 on 01/10/2022:
Yeah, I'm pretty pissed about it.



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