Feeling tons better today. No headaches, pain, food poisoning, or anything. Slept a looooong time though and didn’t wake up till 10. Putting my brain together like a jigsaw puzzle. Waking up late always makes me kind of jumbled and disoriented. Glad I have DD for thinking out loud... and reading posts from others to “catch energy”.
Did not make it to yoga this morning. Slept straight through.
Can’t tell if this is my lizard brain trying to dictate what I should do... Debating canceling my PT session for Tuesday. I am dreading a three day headache after because I am really behind. I have been back on my feet for a month and between a head cold, post-pt 3 day headaches, food poisoning, and my birthday I have gotten absolutely NOTHING done. I also want to cancel the GP appointment and rebook for next week. I should just suck it up and go to both. I can fill the muscle relaxer prescription today and take that as soon as I get home on Tuesday. I should just suck it up and go to the GP appointment and do the labs my insurance gives me free 1x a year so I can tackle anything that is blocking me from being job ready, and have a full set of labs before I see a neurologist to rule out migraines. I am scared of finding out something like I am diabetic or have some weird parasite eating my spine or something. It is irrational but it’s there and makes me want to stay home and go to yoga instead.
Glad I have DD to put it out there and then come back and reread my insanity later, possibly with feedback from objective 3rd parties.
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Pulled two bags of clothes out of my “current” stuff in my closet. I feel like I have nothing to wear and that usually means I have too much clutter.
Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!
219.1 and down a pound... courtesy of food poisoning. Day 3 of anti-inflamatory diet and yoga. Have been out of yoga for 3 days. Feeling a lot better though. Trying a close class tomorrow.
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Got up and out today. Did errands and veggie run. Also stopped off at Ross and scored the perfect yoga coverup for $15. I am really happy about this because it isn't too hot, is nice and loose, and looks right over a black tank and leggings. Plus it is a nice bright/reflective color for a night walk with my dog. It will also be great for camping or the beach. I would probably like a different color better, but that would be $60.
This really picked me up because I was having a hard day and feeling kind of down. It was definitely a self hug. I miss talking to OOMLG.
Progress as of today: 97.9 lbs lost so far, only 13.1 lbs to go!
Hot pink and black are a great color combo.
Apparently, yoga is quite dangerous. Did you hear about that shooting at a yoga studio in Tallahassee? WTH?
I have friends who warn me about getting the flu or that I should throw away perfectly good lettuce because it *might* be contaminated. Why would I ever do that? An opportunity to drop 10 pounds and miss a week of work is how I look at it. I'll take my chances: Flu, food poisoning, whatever.
The coverup is awesome. This is my third attempt at a coverup. The oversized blue shirt from H and M is good for summer but wrinkles in my bag. The grey and black Fabletics Wrap skirt is good but makes me feel awkward about my tummy. This is perfect weight, no wrinkles, plenty of coverage, and good for all sports. It is a flattering color even if it wasn’t one I would normally pick.
No thanks on the food poisoning. You can wash suspicious veggies with that wash from Trader Joes or vinegar. Dry them with a salad spinner. Why are there no salad spinner machines?
I have no idea why my coleslaw with yogurt dressing I made went bad overnight in the fridge.
224.1... Back to where I was in May except I was able to run around in a bikini without any tummy overhang in the jacuzzi for my birthday! Loved the photos. That's a milestone. To like what I look like in photos.
Hopefully the 4.1lbs will go away just as fast as it arrived (and take a pound or two with it). I am also eating too much and not moving because I have a headache (not like "ooh I don't feel quite right"... like "I was hit in the neck with a cricket bat, then had a bag shoved over my head and twisted till my brain compresses in on itself".) I have to get up and out no matter what I feel like at the moment. It is all about consistency.
Day 3 of current headache. Thinking about changing PTs. I'll give it one more shot on Tuesday. I can't be out of commission for 3 days right now. GP is going to call in a muscle relaxer. She also offered me migraine stuff... but I don't think it's migraines. There's no sound or light sensitivity beyond that I already don't like sound and light. She recommended adding 400mg of riboflavin and another 400mg of magnesium. I'm going to add the Osteo-Biflex for the glucosamine choidrotan (and the alluring 7-day promise of effectivness).
I have my annual physical scheduled for Tuesday and I am super nervous about it. What if I have a bunch of physical problems and I could correct them with more diet and exercise but I get put on some meds and that never happens? It's this weird fear of being "caught and tracked"... that makes absolutely no logical sense whatsoever.. but there it is. Sitting in my lizard brain at the bottom of my skull, all coiled up and making emotional decisions that have nothing whatsoever to do with reality.
It's not feeling well + lizard brain thinking + detoxing from eating off plan + not setting clear goals that impacted my productivity this week. Might try to use the free PDF download from Panda Planner to put myself in order for the week.
I sent my bikini photo to UDG, so he is all happy to talk to me again. I said if he really wants to help me, keep me udated with current events... I am ashamed to say I haven't read the news for 2 years and I am playing catch up to the rest of the world.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
I hope this headache leaves you soon!
I wanna see your bikini photo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I take glucosamine choidrotan (whatever) too, to help me with my back -- as a preventative measure. I have to say, since doing this, I don't have nearly as much hip and knee pain either!
PS I found that it takes more like 4-6 weeks for noticeable improvement, but then again, I buy CVS generic. Just sayin', so that if you don't see instant relief or improvement, that you don't necessarily give up. I still think glucosamine is a very good thing.
Gained 5 lbs in one weekend celebrating my birthday. Picking up the pieces the last 2 days. overnight is too long to be away from my healthy habits... but I had fun. Molly knocked cooking out of the park. There are no restaurants as good as her kitchen. It was also nice to just hang out and have some company. Aw, good friends!
Screwed up my shoulder in yoga, and now one of the studios I was going to on Classpass isn’t fun anymore. My shoulder will heal, mostly I did not enjoy being stared at by the instructor or the receptionist while putting on my shoes (painfully) then having a long drive home to my foam roller... or getting charged an extra $20 because they said I could switch classes but classpass doesn’t work that way.
Starting my streak over due to modifications from PT to do an anti-inflammatory diet. So far it just sounds like more fish and no pasta/bread except once a week.
Setting my Bearcountry timer for 30 minutes and taking a break while I wait for Alleve to kick in, then I am getting up and out there, owning it.
Yoga for me tonight. Happy Halloween to everyone else!
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Update: Sucked it up and asked for a headache prescription because this one is not as bad as the last one but if each time I go to PT I get a 2-3 day headache I'm going to lose my mind.
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Didn’t make it to yoga tonight. Headache was bad enough I couldn’t drive... and thought about having my mom take me to the emergency room..
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
i agree if you don't like a studio / teachers / environment, it's best to find you you do like!
Streak day 5. Doing my best. PT was not what I expected. He basically rubbed a few spots on my back and then had me do some exercises on a foam roller. I got the distinct feeling that my injury is not exciting enough for him??? Maybe I’m just another fat chick? Or he doesn’t really think he can do anything for me? I dunno. Will do my best in the very perverse way that I absolutely do my best in front of someone I don’t jive well with so they can’t say anything bad about me. I also have a MASSIVE headache. Ugh. All I can think about is how badly I want to go to yoga.
Made parents dinner tonight. Greek chicken with babaghanoush, brown rice, veggies. A lot of dishes... Why do I seem to use so many dishes when I cook?
Also, meal prepped a bunch of oatmeal packets. Starting everyday
At least I can say I ate healthy, accomplished... something. A little hazy right now.
A little sad/bummed tonight and can’t shake it. Best thing to do is to go to bed and then get up early tomorrow. Try again and just keep trying.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
yummy babaghanoush ! i'm soooo jealous!
Sorry you are sad, but really nice job cooking a good meal!
220.9 today. Even though I am not moving much, the scale isn’t either. I don’t think my eating has been particularly controlled so it must be all the whole food nutritional changes keeping me steady. I don’t know how many days I am into my current graindart streak, (4?) but whatever it is, I am holding strong, my cough is almost gone, and I am headed to Yoga tonight. I am so desperate and eager to go, I want to drive over there right now and just wait in the parking lot for class to start... but it is only 11AM and class isn’t till 6PM and that probably isn’t the most productive use of my time today, lol. Plus eventually there would be a weird conversation about why I was in the parking lot so early with someone.
Went to PT yesterday. He says that I heal faster than most people and can expect to see a lot of progress very quickly. He did these tests where he manipulated my neck and spine and then tested my hand and says a little spacing yields big results so I not only heal fast I’m not that far gone. He wants me to see a neurologist to rule out migraines. Apparently if you have compressed nerves you can have migraines but not feel them???? Anyway this guy is a super buff and GQ Asian “dude”. I am sure he surfs, drives a rice burner, posts food and “look how cute my girlfriend is” pics to Instagram, has a million friends he goes on group trips with... the type of guy in real life I would try to avoid like the plague but in this case I am super grateful I got in the luck of the draw... because these guys are usually super focused and problem solvers... and now I am his problem to solve. Yes!
Listened to “The 4 Agreements” by Don Ruiz yesterday on Audible. Kind of mind-blowing. I have to think about it for a while before I post about it.
Molly is being amazing to me and having me over for my birthday. Love her.
Also discovered my dog loves blueberry bagels with cream cheese on a deeply spiritual level. This is now a diet staple for her... easy and she eats it immediately. I also might get her some blueberry cbd treats.
My birthday is really her birthday too.
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Late night update... As quickly as he entered my life OOMLG has disappeared. I think he made new friends and doesn’t need me anymore. No texts or calls tonight or last night. I am sad to see him go, but it wasn’t going to be a long term friendship. I also do not need the reminders of all the things I didn’t do in my life that would have made me a good catch for him.
Can’t undo what has already happened but I can still use every minute to turn things around today. I can honestly say I did my best today though, and as it says in the 4 agreements... if you do your best you cannot have any regrets. Some days your best will be better than others, but it will always be your best that day. Today I was productive even though I had a splitting headache and I ate healthy. I made it to yoga. I made it to church to see my friend off on her trip. I did one nice thing for my dad, my mom, and my dog each.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
good job overcoming your cold....they are such a nuissance but very important to get rid of so it doesn't turn into something worse!
I actually forgot the 4 agreements, but when you said one of them is to "Do your best"...doesn't it feel good, to say you did...now i'm remembering them....be sincere...
and ty Happy for reminding me of the 4.
221.4... also took resting blood pressure this am... 93/73. That’s way in the green zone! Pretty amazing since at my highest weight I was just on the border of the red zone... every minute is a chance to turn it all around and I must be doing more hard work than I have been giving myself credit for.
Feeling very inspired. Have been looking longingly at clothes on H and M because I really need a pair of tall size jeans... My body changed as I have been getting fit and I know that every pair of jeans in storage is going to fit with the crotch in the wrong spot and too short... they all just used to ride lower because I had a lot of lower abdominal fat... but not now that I do yoga every day! But before I buy anything other than smaller yoga pants, I am going to storage unit dive. It will be fun to see how far I have come. (Also depressing to see how much I spent on fat clothes.)
Also, booked another haircut for Nov 2 (when I stop coughing). I can finally get something done about the funky things he did to my bangs because he combed my hair wrong and I was too spacey to catch it. Have been running around with it for like 3 months because I don’t feel like driving 35 minutes to get it fixed and an hour plus back in traffic. Fundamentals of self care.
Today I need to get to the DMV as my highest priority... so off I go to shower and hair and go stand in line.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Super glad to have DD today. I love reading and commenting when I’m feeling in need of inspiration. On week 3 of my head cold and skipping yoga and church because I am still coughing... a lot. Dad caught the flu today (not from me, he’s got a stomach bug). Poor guy. I brought him home a small thing of chocolate ice cream and now it is all I can think about.
Took myself to a movie just to get out of the house. It was “cognitively taxing” and I came back afterwards to lay down. I did accomplish buying earrings for sensitive ears though and I got another bookcase up on foam blocks. 7 more pieces of furniture to go.
I am rebuilding everything in my life right now. It’s a lot of work but I can do this. It is ok to take a nap.
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Update: Took a bunch of breaks today. Did a lot of texting. Did some light cleaning in between. Not much but better than nothing and it all helps keep chaos at bay.
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ANOTHER phone call from OOMLG... How is it even possible that someone can be that hot, fun to talk to... and not into me? These Super Christian guys are so weird.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
Check out Simply Whispers for sensitive-ear earrings! I just made the mistake of Googling them to make sure they are still in business - and they are - and now my wishlist is about $200 long.
223.4=normal weight fluctuation.
Finished the CERT class and it feels like a minor victory. M's friend took a photo of me and I couldn't believe it when I saw it... No wonder my yoga instructors say I look like a completely different person... I look healthy! I'm standing in a line of people and I'm the same size as everyone else, no giant beer belly, sick/sweaty color, bags under my eyes, and no double chin. I still need to work on it. I'm thick around the waist, hips and butt... like the fat is literally burning from the top and bottom and eventually meeting in the middle at my waist. I'm wearing a cream sweater, my favorite Lucky Brand jeans... No bulges or anything. A few more pounds and I'll be hot again.
Ate whatever I wanted at the potluck and just went back to normal after. Also, I fell off last night and ate two pints of protein ice cream. They were within calories but nutritionist says no fake foods. Whole, unprocessed foods only. So Graindart streak Day 1 again.
Have a huge headache / neckache though. Chilling on M's couch and using her Internet to download stuff to my spare laptop so I can use it while my good one is repaired. Very kind of her.
Still coughing but not as bad. Yoga class is in my future. I want to go back so bad I think about it non-stop. I just want to listen to the nice ladies say soothing things while we stretch, burn calories and listen to music.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
congrats on fulfilling your goals so far! always reach.
221.0! Stoked to not be going completely off the rails while sick. Keep getting super hungry... and eating extra snacks, but all legal foods so day 2 of my graindart streak.
OOMLG has upgraded from texting at night to in-bed good night phone calls. If we hadn’t had the talk about how he doesn’t want to date me I’d think he was interested, but I think he’s just lonely and wants his ego stroked. It’s both thrilling to talk to him (soooo hot, gets math jokes, AND can one up me with them) and terribly depressing (doesn’t want to date me because I’m not wife material). I got him to confess he wears matching pajamas to bed. How very very LL Bean Boyfriend (http://yourllbeanboyfriend.tumblr.com).
Up since 6. Yay me. It is 9:30 and so far I have accomplished cleaning the microwave, dishes, laundry, picking up the living room, and finding index cards to make flash cards with. Feeling better so plan for today is to go to the DMV and study for my test on Saturday while in line. Goal is to get a third bookcase up on foam blocks tonight, and also make turkey meatball soup.
I feel badly that I stuck my dog in her crate this morning while I cleaned but I couldn’t take the screen door game one more minute... and it might be doggie dementia because she does it ALL DAY LONG!!!!! However, I am only going to dig myself out if I do not have to listen to the screen door banging today. I will walk her and do yoga at the park tonight. I am very proud of myself for doing a yoga track from start to finish at home yesterday. I focused, got it done, and my head felt better.
I can do this. Hug yourself and the furkid next to you.
Progress as of today: 97 lbs lost so far, only 14 lbs to go!
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I sure didn't want one...I had already had 2 saddle blocks for childbirth and about 20 years ago a dr told me a vertabre was crumbling...and as it turns out...it is at the exact spot that they had done the saddle blocks...I have a neck brace but haven't used it in years....those too can cause weak neck muscles...but you need to do what you think is best for you......
horn_of_plenty on 11/05/2018:
idk why but long sleep has me feeling so happy, i just feel so strange that so many others don't do htis!?
i had trouble staying asleep last night because i was sleeping so well on the weekend, but then i woke up around 2am, had a banana, relaxed and eventually just went back to sleep anyways!
same here, i have tons of clothes - just need to find them! def clutter on my end too!