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happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 07, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Noom Day 21

Still off track. Binge ate last night and stayed up too late. Overslept this morning. Diddled around tidying then slapped myself in the face, changed my attitude, and made progress on two critical action items... and limited dad to those two action items when he wanted to pile more on top of me. Then I slicked a clear polish over my nails. I even ordered cat pine litter for local pickup at the cheap rate. Planning my next move for the day...

Things I can look forward to...

  • Wed - Grief support group starts. 
  • Thurs - Haircut
  • Fri - Organizer
  • Sat - Farmers market and art walk with the ex-ish 

And also looking forward to getting knocked back on track by time with the ex-ish. Noom coach says that time with friends is good but also knocks me off track because even though I stick to my plans (bringing water, skipping boba, starting with soup, skipping cupcakes, getting home on time), because they do not make healthy choices for themselves the micro interactions between those choices contribute to overall self control / self discipline depletion and in my case actual burnout. It's not just me. It's an actual thing... Which makes me feel better a bit... I wouldn't kick myself for getting off track with a head cold, I would just give myself recovery time.


Realized today that Hulu Live has news channels... How did I not realize this before???? Omg... Back to the world.


Was about to do yoga at home for the first time since I finished setting up the studio space... and my mom's cat peed all over my purple mat with dragon flies on it I have had since college. I was getting him a scratchpad for that spot when he took a leak and I swatted him with the scratchpad, then chased him through the house.  The yoga mat is soaking in the tub with dish detergent.  The cat is locked in the small bathroom untill mommy calms down.

Maybe it's a good thing I didn't have kids. You can't lock your child in a bathroom till you calm down.

Breathe. It was an old mat. I have a super nice one in the car to take for studios... it was why I saved my old yoga mats... so that my dog could have walkways on slippery surfaces. 

Except Internet research shows that cats love to pee on yoga mats. Rubber emits some kind of smell that is close to their own urine... so they just whiz away on them and shred them up. 

Murder kitty, murder.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/08/2020:
Well.....true...you can't lock a kid in the bathroom....but you can lock your self in there......I have no idea how many times in my life during a high frustration level with a kid......i would say "I have to go to the bathroom..."....And NEVER did anyone say..".OH NO YOU DON'T"......so it diffused the situation. Also.......did you know that you should never clean a litter box out with any kind of soap or cleaner......just dump it...scrape it with a litter sifter......and dispose of the litter ( bagged of course)...in the trash.......if you scrub or spray or clean their litter box they are highly offended and treat it as if it should not be used? In fact when buying a new litter box take a little of the dirty litter from their old box and put it in the new one......show it to them...put them in it...it's okay if they jump right back out....but introduce them to it....also some cats are highly offended by a litter box that is not cleaned often and will refuse to use it. You can also take the cat to the litter box and sit it in there...and praise them...some are just confused and have some old bad habits.......we do that with puppies...and when potty training children....it can work with cats too.....good puck...it's never any fun finding "surprises".

happy-1 on 01/08/2020:
HA!!!! If I ever do pull off foster/adopting kids I will look for a house with small bedrooms and huge bathrooms.

When I clean his litter box, I just dislodge and wipe off any poop that hit the sides... He loves the pine litter.

I moved my camp chair off the vinyl flooring, put the yoga mat down, turned my back to get the camera tripod (to mount my phone at an angle I can see and the instructor can see me in the mirrors)... and in that minute I heard scratching, grabbed a scratch pad to move him to, and then saw him pee the mat. I swatted him because picking him up mid pee just creates a kitty fountain.

He's just being an ******.

bearcountrygg on 01/08/2020:
Forgot to mention that it isn't good to keep moving their litter box...if you do have to move it...then only move it a very few inches a day...so that it's barely noticeable......I will be moving Sampsons boxes this winter to a different part of the basement and it will take me a couple of weeks to get them to the new spots.......they are like us...they like to know where the bathrooms are.

happy-1 on 01/08/2020:
Good to know... I will do that if I ever need to move litter boxes again!

innerpeace on 01/08/2020:
I don't know about that! My mom locked one of her great grand kids in the room until she quit screaming. It was only about 5 minutes...but it can happen. LOL have a great day.

happy-1 on 01/08/2020:
If you are really on your last nerve and ancient... Might be the smart choice! I'm amazed she had the physical strength.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/08/2020:
Lately i'm binge eating in terms of too much volume...I need to have a little less soon.

happy-1 - Monday Jan 06, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 20 on Noom 

Last night, I was home on time to go to bed at 8 but had an earache and stayed up for some bizarre reason watching "Famously Single" and binge eating. Not proud. Missed 8AM yoga this morning and the scale is waaaaaay up again.

Why is it that doing something as simple as an activity and dinner with friends knocks me off track?

Turning this around.

8AM - Up

10AM - 100 calories: Coffee with nonfat milk powder and Lairds creamer

  • 5 min on the bike while checking Noom. Checking Noom took like an hour. Just tired and cranky.
  • Figured out how to use voice dictation for data entry
  • Dishes
  • Laundry
  • Shower
  • Reorganized closet

 1pm - Resting. Actual food. Added chips, cheese, and extra greens to be satisfying. 500 calories: 1/2 a black bean enchilada, soyrizo, cheese, chips, 2 eggs, 4 cups of power greens. Still hungry.

Pets are underfoot and super distracting. Dog keeps wandering around bedroom, spacey. 

Replanning my day. I think I just give up for today and focus on resetting... Do the things I would have done on Sunday to get ready for the week.

2:30pm - 600 calories Low sodium turkey slice, Trader Joe's Kale yogurt diip, pretzel thins 

3:30pm Still hungry. 300 cal Chocolate hummus, peanut butter, too many pretzels. Orange for not enough portion control.


Cleaned out fridge. 

Made pet food.

Attempted to rescue mushrooms and gound turkey... They didn't go bad exactly, but they definitely would have been better last week. Guess I will know in a couple of hours. Sigh.

Ground turkey, onion, capellini pasta, tomato sauce, spices, cheese. Orange for portion control and no green veggies.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/06/2020:
You are off to a good start, you can turn it around. You know how to make healthy choices and are much more experienced than when you started!

happy-1 on 01/06/2020:
Hugs! TY!

bearcountrygg on 01/06/2020:
Good for you getting out with friends!

happy-1 on 01/07/2020:
Thanks! I need to do it more.

legcramps on 01/07/2020:
You've got this. Great start!

happy-1 on 01/07/2020:
Thank you!!!!!

happy-1 - Sunday Jan 05, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 19 on Noom

Changed my weightloss speed on Noom to "turtle" because I can't meet the calorie budget. I took another look at my before photos I took yesterday... I don't feel so great about them.

Had a nice day out for a friend's birthday. We tried a Vietnamese head spa and then had sushi.

Oh too many calories and simple carbs in the white rice, but I had fun. Then I topped it off with tortilla chips.

At least I skipped the high sugar/caffeine boba tea and the birthday boozy cupcakes. We shall see what the scale has to say tomorrow.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/06/2020:
sounds like a very fun bday...lately i get my highs from iced coffees that i drink at home!

happy-1 on 01/07/2020:

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/06/2020:
i buy storebought iced coffee in the fridge section, sweeten with stevia, add almond milk :) so sweet, so tasty, and i can drink as little or as much as i want since i have the option to pour it and not drink more than i need :)

happy-1 on 01/06/2020:
I used to do that... I just do the one cup in the AM now so I just make my coffee up fresh... I have instant espresso powder I add to milk or protein powder when that's too much work.

happy-1 - Saturday Jan 04, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 18 on Noom

Responded to a group post on Noom by a woman who is struggling to get her husband to eat at home and not go out for meals because they both have a lot of weight to lose. I described how I'm getting my dad to not eat out as much and another woman responded that it sounds so incredibly hard. I was a little put out... She didn't say "That's a big challenge. Good strategy." Was kind of put out... But then I realized she was also talking about driving 2h to see her stepdad in care and she was thinking what her life would be like if she had to do this. OK. I feel you.

4 days of real sleep in a row. Life is possible. I woke up at 5:30am with the help of a bedtime feature on the iPhone that actually works. I had coffee (laird's creamer, powdered milk) and a healthy breakfast sandwich (whole grain english muffin, egg, turkey, 1/2 slice reduced fat swiss, tomato, spinach, mustard) I was at yoga by 8am. Then I dropped of hazmat and got some lunch... Whole Foods bbq bar meat and hot food bar veggies. Now I am home to recharge, shower, and put on real pants. Dad wants to go to the 99 cent store.

I had the yoga instructor help me take progress photos for Noom. It was awkward but she was nice about it. I still need to take measurements.

The cat has started coming into my room and paying attention to me again. Even after he has been fed. Aaaaw kitty. Ok... too much attention. I need to type.

Tall size Old Navy jeggings have arrived... OMG... The incredible comfort of tall size clothes. This must be what it feels like to be normal height... Never cold in the middle and pulling up your pants.

Dad wanted me to take him to the 99 cent store to buy batteries. I said ok... but you need to pack yourself a snack, your kit, and extra undies because we are doing it on the way to other errands and it will be a while. Suddenly he didn't want to go anymore. I don't feel bad. He got to go to Ralph's yesterday. I've been cleaning up his mess for months. It's saturday... I'm getting as many errands as I can done then getting a haircut. I don't have to cancel my plans on his whims even if they aren't real plans... They are my plans.


Managed to get to the bank and locksmith. Then got HANGRY and went to Ralphs because for $10 I obtained salmon sushi with brown rice and a side salad with an egg and a couple of pieces of lunch meat. Then I set my timer for 30 minutes and drank 27 oz of water. Then I went next door to Panera and had black tea with half n half and monkfruit sweetner. Then I had another. Tried to do work, but there was too much drama there. Tried to get my haircut but my stylist had left and they didn't tell me I was reassigned. Wasn't feeling it. Got dad batteries and went home.

When I got home, I fed the pets. The smell made me hungry so I blew my Noom calorie budget even further by having rye toast with butter, 1 slice of roast beef, and 1 cheese stick. Then I compounded it by having unsalted tortilla chips with shredded cheese and pico. Then because there was still pico left, I had more pico, chips and cheese.

7pm. Alexa alert went off to clean but I was eating cips and too lazy to stand up.

8pm. Alexa alert went off but I'm too tired to go to bed... Which means I should definitely go to bed.

Except that I feel like I didn't get enough done today. All I actually accomplished was getting keys copied.



10 30 pm RX bar because I was hungry.

1.2 a PBJ because I was hungry

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/04/2020:
Sounds like you got a lot done today and it also sounds like your Dad is calming down....you are making great headway!

happy-1 on 01/04/2020:
One foot in front of the other takes you a long way. One bite at a time and you eat the whole elephant.

Not giving in to dad's tantrums is settling him down, just like a toddler. It's horrifying.

happy-1 on 01/04/2020:
Horrifying because I would hate to have my kid turn around and treat me like a toddler, but I don't know what else to do... But feeding him and taking him places... so... guess that's all I can do.

bearcountrygg on 01/05/2020:
That does seem to be the way it goes....as my youngest son has always said..."we begin our lives wearing pampers and end them wearing grampers"...and that pretty well sums it up. I was definately feeling like I was caring for a 2 year old while caring for my Mom....She had no idea how to write a check, or fill her pill box.....once when she spilled 3 days worth of pills from the box she called me crying...I drove 45 minutes to fix that....when she lost her drivers license she drove her van up the driveway and backed it up and drove forward again over and over again becaue NO ONE was going to tell her she couldn't drive......she told me that if they caught her on the road she would just pay the $1,000 fine...but she stopped sneaking out when I read her the actual penalty which was $1,000 fine and/or jail....well...hearing the jail bit shook her into staying out of her van. I'm hearing my kids now asking how we are, being reminded that we are in our final years, etc....and I have to admit.....I'm noticing things myself that i'm not comfortable with in both D and I.........it's no fun getting old.

happy-1 on 01/05/2020:
Augh. I bet. You were amazing going and taking care of her for so long.

Donkey on 01/05/2020:
^ "Grampers" - ha ha ha ha!!!! Sorry, Happy, to hijack your entry, but Bear's comment was just too funny not to say something about that. Ha ha ha ha ha!

Happy, I really like how you are putting your food choices in green and orange (and red? Did I see that correctly?).

I would like someone to take pictures of me in yoga poses at the Yoga Studio, but I'm too embarrassed to ask anyone. I couldn't even get a selfie AFTER class.

happy-1 on 01/06/2020:
green and orange... I figure red is reserved for buying a sheet pan cake and eating the whole thing.

bearcountrygg on 01/05/2020:
In reference to my post again Happy....I wasn't always the nicest of people...we had our disagreements.....we didn't always see eye to eye...i tried to let her lead what our days would consist of and i regret that the last day i spent with her was not the nicest....we did butt heads that day and I admit that haunts me....she passed in her sleep overnight and I wish i had spent her last hours in a better mood......but it is what it is. Dealing with parents who are used to running the show but no longer capable of that is very trying. It's hard for them to give up that lifelong freedom and I can't blame them. But no...no where near amazing for me.....i tried to keep things calm and her content...but it was hard on both her and I.

happy-1 on 01/08/2020:
Hugs. It sounds like you were a warrior and fought the good fight.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2020:
yeah, the woman who said "it's hard," well, i think she meant it with kind intentions i think and not to put you down or hurt your feelings :) ...she must just be having her own issues...and struggling. but you do a great job with your dad :) xoxo

that bbq meat sounds good, not so unhealthy! :) sounds wonderful as is everything from Whole Foods! I was just at a Fairway, not sure if you have that grocery store by you...it was a fun trip of seeing what they had to offer and where i found my pb&j ice cream by Halo Top that i'm enjoying now!

I'm glad my entries make you hungry - i do enjoy a lot of good snacks and meals :) and i'm glad someone else finds them good, too!

Sometimes i get very snacky too...the only thing that helps me is that lately i have a good selection of low cal foods to mix with high cal ones. I just ate the entire PB&J halo top pint of ice cream, yum. 360 cals for the pint ...not bad!

happy-1 on 01/08/2020:
Yeah... I got a little defensive, but maybe I will breathe first next time. It's a weird app for group chat... there aren't a lot of features that you would expect there so it makes it hard to track conversations. I asked the goal specialist for tips on how to post so that I get a response. the threads are a little hard to pin down.

YUM. I love protein ice cream. Nutritionist says those are an "in moderation" treat as well because they are still highly processed. She says to take greek yogurt, flavor it, and freeze it.

happy-1 - Friday Jan 03, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 17 on Noom

Got a group today on Noom. I count 26 people. Seems like a lot to be in a group... Isn't there some kind of rule about group dynamics that a group that successfully moves to a goal together is usually only 5-9 people?

Pushing on the Goal Specialist to help me nail down the 2 devices for inner elephant and rider... F if I know. She is not helpful.

Today was another visit from the pro organizer. We're starting to catch up with all the stuff we pulled out and getting ready to tackle the middle bedroom. Today she helped my dad reorganize his drawers so he can find stuff. I should have been able to do that for him but I just can't listen/help him that long. She had the brilliant idea to put the oxygen tanks in his closet. Very smart. Made the room work a ton better.

We also unearthed the other microwave. So I now have a functional kitchen in my bedroom. I ordered a little immersion heater on Amazon that I can use to boil water for tea... But it doesn't get here till February.

Took dad to the post office and Ralph's today after the organizer left... which is always a "wear me out" trip. I actually started with a fairly high body battery level at 78 today... but it dropped down to 5 while in Ralphs. It was like pushing sand to get home.

This of course made me hungry enough to eat the cat... 

Alexa reminded dad at 6pm that it was last call for any requests from me. She will tell him in 6 minutes that I am in bed with the lights off and good night.

This means I absolutely cannot leave the bedroom under any circumstances. Even though there are dishes in the sink and a tray with cat food crumbs in it on the kitchen floor that is going to make me crazy. I added a reminder at 7PM that it is time to cleanup.

Trying to distract myself from eating... Too tired to keep cleaning. Drinking tea and watching "Famously Single" where reality TV celebrities go through a dating bootcamp. I am not proud. 

Other candidates for distraction...

  • Hot & Heavy... Mixed weight love.
  • My 600 lb life
  • Skin Tight... Skin removal post extreme weight loss
  • Love Lust or Run... Makeovers
  • Married by Mom and Dad

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/04/2020:
That group size is about where mine was to start...and the started dropping off very quickly...and my group got so small...they combined us with another group with the same problem...by the time the 3 months was done it was down to 2 or 3.....Sounds like some good rules are being made for you and your dad...the organizer has some very good ideas. Sometimes it takes someone else seeing the dynamics in a family to point out issues....she seems to be doing a good job.

happy-1 on 01/04/2020:
OMG... I'm so paralyzed by so many years of anger, I literally could not help him move simple things around in his room without direction... I can't believe it's been 5+ months and I am still working on basics here.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/04/2020:
It's been another successful day for you with lots of progress in moving forward. sounds like a great day, happy :)

happy-1 on 01/04/2020:
With support from you and all the others here, we all spiral up.

Donkey on 01/04/2020:
I agree with you on group size. Anything larger than 6 and I tend to become a quiet observer.

I like the Alexa reminder idea for dad. That's a really good idea! My husband got the Echo Dot for Christmas and I'm wondering if I could use that to help me at night, to get me into bed early enough.

Oh don't even get me started on Distraction TV. How ironic that you mention this, because I was just thinking this morning of all the lovely distraction shows (that's the kindest way I could put it) my lovely daughter has introduced me to lately. Please do yourself a favor and stay away from any Real Housewives series. It's like watching a train-wreck. You just can't stop watching. (PS I can't stop watching My 600 Pound Life)

happy-1 on 01/04/2020:
You could do that with routines prompted at a time (Alexa says"Hey Donkey, it's 8pm. time to go to bed. Go brush your teeth." then she waits 5 min and says "Hey Donkey, put out clothes for tomorrow", etc. Routines are only on the phone app. If you want to use the web app to manage the reminders, you just have to set a reminder for each time slot you want to be reminded at for each device you want to play a reminder. Like a reminder in the kitchen, vs a reminder in the bedroom.

happy-1 - Thursday Jan 02, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 16 on Noom

231.3 Still 15 lbs over plateau weight.

Note: trying logging my food here in colored text...

  • Green = Good food choice
  • Orange = Questionable food choice

Actionable assignments from Noom coach was to 1) Set an alexa reminder for my dad at 6pm to ask me for whatever he needs so I can get to bed on time, 2) be in bed with the door closed and the cat in the bathroom by 8pm. Having problems with the question "Choose two devices: One to help yout rider and one to keep your elephant happy"... The rider being the part of you that is in control and the elephant being the part of you that wants to eat everything in sight and not work out. Right now I am trying to drink hot tea at night but it doesn't really help. 

Getting started in the new year on the right foot. The biggest perk of my exish is that I always head out of any time spent with him ready to take on the world, and punch it in the nose if I have to. Got a full night of sleep and bounced out of bed ready to take on the world.

I had already unpacked and reset my bedroom last night so all I needed to do was have coffee (brewed coffee, Laird's creamer, nonfat milk powder), eat (healthy breakfast sandwich: whole wheat english muffin, egg, turkey, 1/2 slice reduced fat swiss, spinach, tomato), feed pets, put on laundry, and get out the door. I managed to pull it off just as dad's 8am wake up call went off. 

So far I have washed and vacuumed my car and dropped it off for tire repair and an oil change. Waiting next door at Starbucks. Had a second breakfast of a Chicken Tahini salad and water, but was still hungry and couldn't think so I had a ham and cheese croissant with a tall coffee and half and half. Now I can think so I cleaned out my purse and I am logging here to dump out my brain.



Got through tire repair, a store return, an attempt at getting new car remotes made (closed), and shoe repair when I was getting the "augh everything is too hard" feels. So I stopped at a mexican joint and had a chicken cheese quesedilla. It put me back together enough to go to Trader Joe's, do a return at Old Navy, do a return and purchase at Costco, and get my nails done... Something I haven't done in 9 months, roughly. The last time was when I was taking care of my mom.

Then I got home and was too hangry to keep going and put away groceries, so I put on some pet food and had some Trader Joes yogurt kale dip and pretzel thins, probably too much of both. The cat ate too fast and puked it up again. The dog tossed her bowl all over the floor. Dad stressed me out by throwing a curve ball about retirement planning...

It's 8pm and bedtime... but I still need to put away groceries, get the pets fed, and AAAAAAAAAAAAUGH WHAT HAPPENED TO MY FIRST REALLY GOOD BRAIN DAY IN MONTHS?????????

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/02/2020:
Looks like progress to me!

happy-1 on 01/02/2020:
First good brain day in months.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/02/2020:
lol your colored writing is making me chuckle, but i'm NOT laughing at you! not at all!

however, remember to be kind to yourself, that all foods can be "good foods!"

Then again, Orange is "questionable" and not "bad" so i guess that is good intentions...i'm picking on you here! sorry lol!

it's nice to enjoy hanging out with someone so much that you are left in a good mindset afterwards.

happy-1 on 01/02/2020:
I'm trying to track what my elephant is trying to get me to eat and why I ate it and why it was the best choice to make at that time... Because I really need to stop beating myself up so much if I want to get my life together.

Orange foods have simple carbs, too much salt or cholesterol, etc. Basically not the healthiest pick but satisfying.

We need our peeps... Especially super hot, affable, peeps with tattoos and muscles who want to make us happy. How can that not put you in a good mindset.

Maria7 on 01/02/2020:
I bet your car looks real nice inside and outside!

happy-1 on 01/02/2020:
Nooooo.... It looks like a ghetto mobile. Body damage, missing trim outside, two different colored mirrors, paint bubbling off it even though it's only a 2011 and hasn't been in extreme temps... Inside dog pee, a mold problem, scratches in the plastic, TONS of fur.

It needs some advanced TLC.

But one step at a time. Today, I vacuumed.

innerpeace on 01/03/2020:
Your life seems so hectic to me. I get overwhelmed just reading what you do in a day. Takes a very special person to do all you do. Even though you may not think it, it is commendable and I'm sure very appreciated.

happy-1 on 01/03/2020:
LOL. Your life seems overwhelming to me....

legcramps on 01/03/2020:

happy-1 on 01/03/2020:

happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 01, 2020
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 15 on Noom

Happy New Year everyone!

Time to get on those new years resolutions.

I had a very merry new year and my dog and I are both dog tired. She says no thank you to any more visits with hyper Belgian Malinois or huge puppies. She just wants to be home with her cat.

Exish has also taken to calling my ancient dog "puppy". He took her for a walk while I was passed out and now she pays attention to him.

New Year's resolutions... Working on the same good habits from last year... But with rededication because I fell off all of them. So time to get back up.


Step 1: Get to bed by 9pm. Check. Cat is out in living room with dad. My door is closed. The ancient puppy is I am using a space heater in my bedroom... If dad is getting "free" care from me, I can run a space heater so I can sleep.


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/01/2020:
Happy New Year! Keep at em!!!

happy-1 on 01/01/2020:
Grrrrr bear, get after it.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/02/2020:
Happy New Year, Happy! you are off to a positive start! <3

happy-1 on 01/02/2020:
Hugs! You are too. We all spiral up together.

happy-1 - Tuesday Dec 31, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 14 of Noom

Eyes popped open at 2 am again. Dog needed to go out, dad asked for help with eye drops and bam, awake and can't get back to sleep.

NYE date today... Augh... how will I pull this off?

Did at least get 5 min on the bike. It was a struggle to do 5 min.


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/31/2019:
Actually going to respond here to your post from yesterday......loved the cat feeder....funny how he doesn't want to work for it....But I can see my cat would probably not want to either...he is 8 yrs old and they do lose that desire to play by that age from what I have experienced....i loved the days when we had young cats that chased toys around the house, dogs too...but they lose that desire over time. Cats are night owls for sure, luckily they are usually quiet about it though. About noom.....been there and tried the free 2 weeks and then signed up and was relieved when it was over...the group thing was a sorry mess......I started with a group...that severely dropped off as far as participation went...and then suddenly the few of us who remained were mixed together with another failing group and were were not on the same day as far as lessons went and it was not only confusing but frustrating and more dropped out and by the time it was all over with there were 2 or 3 of us...and I was relieved to not have to deal with it anymore........I love psychology.....I was a psychology/sociology major....and I couldn't relate to it........I felt it was money wasted...but it might be a better fit for you....are you getting anything out of it ?

happy-1 on 12/31/2019:
This cat HAS to slow down on the food. He's gained another lb and now he actually looks uncomfortable. That's how I feel too. So fat I'm uncomfortable... Plus with the shoulder jumping thing I don't think I can handle it if he goes past 13 lbs. How big was his last owner????? Had to be an NFL linebacker to handle a pointy bowling ball landing on him.

Last night kitty woke me up for no apparent reason kneading me with sharp claws. I need him to wear himself out with walks and the slow cat feeder or he's going to end up living in the bathroom again.

I switched the Noom program to monthly for $19.99... I need to do something... I gained 3 more lbs today. It has made me more conscious of how many calories I am consuming at night because I can't sleep... So that helps. I'm having a hard time with the articles over the last few days... I had to ask the goal specialist for help... I got stuck at "Tame your inner elephant" I guess the elephant wants what it wants, and yesterday it wanted pizza, cookies, marble cake and nachos. OA definitely isn't it. If Noom doesn't help I will try Weight Watchers again... But I didn't like it the time I tried it because it always made me feel "less than" and I just don't like big groups like that. I don't end up talking to anyone and I just get stressed and anxious and don't go. I like Sierra Club, Meetups... But not anything where you have to sit and listen to a speaker.

bearcountrygg on 12/31/2019:
I do WW online only now because the nearest meeting is at night...45 minutes drive through state and federal forest...scary drive for me in the dark...and so desolate and no phone towers so If I had car trouble I would be in big trouble....do it's online for me now...I have gone to meetings in the past and a lot of people don't talk at them......but online and Dd and you tube videos are what I use now...along with a few ww facebook groups. I totally got lost with the Noom thing...I signed up for 3 months and was confused half of the time....yup..the elephant thing is our minds telling us to eat. Also if you need it.....you can ask to be set back in the lessons....also keep the lessons you want to revisit to your library so you can reread them if you want to. The group thing started okay and fell off fast.....and it's only for paid members and will most likely start for you in about 2 days if it hasn't already......hope it helps you.....I found it hard to follow but it may work out just fine for you.

happy-1 on 12/31/2019:
Hugs. Thank you... I can imagine that there is probably a 80-90% attrition rate after the first 3 days... they are probably going to lose about another 9% over the following week... So the third or fourth group is probably the stable one... So now I know what to expect.

Donkey on 12/31/2019:
I believe that Jenny Craig has one-on-one coaching, but you gotta also buy their food, which is kind of... well, to each their own. I only mention this because Queen Bee used JC for a little bit.

happy-1 on 01/01/2020:
Yeah... Gag. And processed... the total opposite of what I am trying to do... All whole foods from scratch, preferably organic and high anti-oxidant.

happy-1 on 01/01/2020:
If all packaged diet food was good for you, my dad would be the picture of health. All he eats are lean cuisines.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/02/2020:
did you have a good NYE date!?

happy-1 on 01/02/2020:
Sooooooooo good. He's the best company.

happy-1 - Monday Dec 30, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 13 of Noom

My 14 day Noom $10 trial ends tomorrow. I don't know what this thing is supposed to do for me... I think there is some kind of group chat that gets added. Not sure how that will help. I'm so fat my brain is stupid. I can't even think it through.

I did get more done today than I have in a while. I did two critical errands, grocery shopped, picked up prescriptions, and made up potluck stuff for NYE... and I even got my ears re-pierced. I ran out of energy after that and didn't get my nails done. I will have to do that at home tonight.

Getting ready for NYE with ex-ish... Taking a dog out for NYE is a LOT of work... What was I thinking? I have to pack for an old, completely incontinent dog like an enormous baby. I'd be worried his brother will think I'm nuts but I already met his dog... whic should be housebroken and capable of holding it but not so much.


Made my fat tomcat a slow feeder out of a water bottle, and he is going to town on it, and complaining about it at the same time. He knows how to get the kibble out of it, but is apalled that he has to put effort into getting food. At least I am entertained. I think if I make a couple more I can be gone overnight and he will have something to keep him busy.



Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/31/2019:
LOL on the cat feeder! I should make one for my Jack!

happy-1 on 01/01/2020:
Absolutely. If they aren't hungry enough to work for it, they are just bored.

happy-1 - Sunday Dec 29, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 12 of Noom

Eyes popped open at 3:30AM this morning. At least I am back on schedule for wakeup. Unfortunately it is on 2h sleep. It's going to be a long day. I have to pick tasks that don't require a lot of brain power. Weighed in at 232.4 today. I keep not sleeping and eating at night and it is really bad for me.

The new portable car fridge from my ex-ish is actually a fancy freezer. My jaw just dropped when I realized what it was. Those things are... Expensive. I feel a little cheap because all I got him for Christmas was a book and some candy! I'll have to do something nice for Valentine's Day...

In the meantime, planning for NYE. Trying to bring snacks that are healthier alternatives to what's being served in a potluck and don't require any prep in front of a big belgian malinois. I don't drink (carbs) so I'm thinking kombucha or something seltzer based for toasting the new year. Snacks like deviled eggs... mini turkey meatballs and toasts... quesadillas...

I can conquer the last 70+ lbs.


Update: Hanging out with ex-ish yesterday really helped get me unstuck a little. I have had mom's clothes in her car for months and haven't been able to get myself to take them to Goodwill. It felt like donating her clothes would be like throwing away my mom... But today I got them out of her car and into mine and to Goodwill.

I even went to storage and found my space heater, spare sneakers, and slumpy Ugg boots. It was looking at an Egyptian tomb... My soul is literally buried in there with my camping gear and sports equipment. Was I really the person that used all those things to go places, do things, and have fun adventures?

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/29/2019:
I remember not that long ago you'd go camping / on hikes and be packing up your car for those things!

you got a lot done today. i got into phases also where i want to do more rather than less.

kombucha sounds wonderful for a new years toast! yummmmmm! also, your snacks sound wonderful too.

Donkey on 12/30/2019:
I loved this entry.

And it inspired me to prepare deviled eggs, maybe, for NYE...

bearcountrygg on 12/30/2019:
You made a lot of headway.......letting go of things ...I've been there with parents clothes and possessions...and in the end it was a positive move. I am still surrounded by their things...and I'm not sure if it is a good or a bad thing.....I have a very good friend who got rid of everything from their parents except they each kept 1 memento from their Moms.....both chose a small figurine and they each have a place in their glassed in hutch in their living room...it works for them....I on the other had had donated and gave away a whole lot of their things...yet...I'm still surrounded..( i type this as I sit at my Dad's desk right now)and I am rather shocked at myself as I look around our small Den...that LITERALLY is filled with their furniture including pictures on the wall........it's just hard. I keep reminding myself that I would still have memories without having to live with these items......YOU DID GOOD!!!

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