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happy-1 - Monday Jan 29, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

W: 234.0, after a cup of coffee, wet hair, semi-dressed.

Up: 7, but so sore I didn't get moving till 9:20pm.

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I think God rewarded me for volunteering at the food bank today. As my mom started harrassing me with her research into online dating today and why I am single (she says they must not feel like I really understand and connect with them, my response they don't feel like I connect with them becase I hate them), I was already breakfasted/coffeed, dressed with makeup, nail polish, and hair. Poof! I was out the door and on my way to starbucks. I didn't even accidentally let my dog out who was desperate to come with me.

Can't catch me, I'm the gingerbread man.

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S: 7:30 coffee, half n half,

B: 9:30 seltzer 3 eggs, olive oil, hot link, spinach. should have had 1/3 cup beans according to diet plan, but wasn't that on the ball yet.

S: 11:30 Coffee, half n half, brownie

L: skipped

S: skipped

D: 2 slices of pizza, seltzer

S: diet punch, chicken verde, rice, beans, cheese... first time freezing an f-d up recipe has ever worked out for me. That was delicious.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/29/2018:
Good planning! I like it! Mmm, gingerbread - YUM... Did you do OK the rest of the day? (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 01/30/2018:
I did. I picked up an enormous hot black guy on Ok cupid and then got the number of the enormous hot black guy sitting behind me at Starbucks.

It's raining men! Hallelujah!


bearcountrygg on 01/30/2018:
Moms...gotta love em!



happy-1 - Sunday Jan 28, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Volunteered at that food bank yesterday. They are a little disorganized but good people. They have a yard sale every saturday from their bags and bags of donated clothes that I helped with. They weren't purging what they couldn't sell at the end of the day so they were constantly pulling things out and stuffing them back in again and again and had a storage container that had clothes and food mixed in. I got them to bag things thet wouldn't sell so it can go to Savers for sale by the pound, and separate out their donations into mens/womens/baby. I'll go pick up some smaller tarps at the dollar store this week and go back next saturday to help them set up again. Hopefully it will boost their sales. They make about $200-400 a sale and it covers gas and other fees that they have for collecting and distributing food.

It was a really good workout. 3,500 calories, 15,207 steps, 7.1 miles.

I dunno if the church group will come help. so far I am not impressed.

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Augh. Saw a mouse in the kitchen scurry under the floorboards. Have to put out traps.

Stress...

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Woke - 7, but I was in a lot of pain from yesterday so I went back to bed till 10. Spent the day picking up stuff in the living room and doing dishes. How do I keep making such a mess all the time?

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10am - coffee

1pm 3 eggs, 2 cups spinach, 1 hot link

4:30pm, chicken, rice beans, cheese, stevia soda.

5:30 - yogurt, berries, paleo granola

9pm - chocolate frozen yogurt

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/28/2018:
Sounds like a good time at the food bank! Thank you for helping :-) And you got in a great workout!

happy-1 on 01/28/2018:
Yeah I didn't see any potential buddies or dates there but I'll still go back next week and help their yard sale.


bearcountrygg on 01/29/2018:
Sounds like a good place to volunteer...I'm sure they appreciate all of your input and help.

happy-1 on 01/30/2018:
Meh, I might not be able to afford to volunteer there. Any changes to make them more effective will cost money. Like $20 this week for smaller tarps, bake sale supplies, and some trash bags.



happy-1 - Saturday Jan 27, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

3am. Can't sleep. All packed for camping. Food is kind of gross but it is in the bear barrel and ready to go. I however am not looking forward to the drive out. 2hrs to Palm Springs... and I need to be up early for that food bank thing.

And HUNGRY. Why do I crave top ramen in the middle of the night?

My dog is super freaked because I was packing. She's worried she will be left at home. Poor pup. She is coming with me though. Annoyed I haven't bought another foam mattress topper yet. Haven't found one with a cover that isn't cooling gel. I don't want cooling gel for camping!!!!!

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They moved the camping trip and with no sleep i'm not going to be worth anything to drive.

3am snack - part of a buttered roll I shared with my dog

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/27/2018:
Have fun....how is the temp there?

happy-1 on 01/27/2018:
Warm days, cool nights in LA. 30+ out there at night. They had to move the camping trip to pioneer town preserve b/c of flash flood warnings and will be camping in the parking lot of pioneer town. Not the trip I had in mind. All packed for the next one though. Wherever that may be.


bearcountrygg on 01/27/2018:
Bummer......Nah...camping in a parking lot is a bit different.....not quite the camping experience you wanted I'm sure.


Donkey on 01/27/2018:
Hopefully a proper camping trip can be rescheduled soon... I'm sorry it didn't work out :-/

happy-1 on 01/28/2018:
Thanks. I was bummed... but all packed for the next trip, lol.


Maria7 on 01/28/2018:
Hope you have a good camping trip.



happy-1 - Friday Jan 26, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

A little flat today. Tomorrow I go scout out a food bank that runs out of someone's garage for a volunteer opportunity. Tuesday I go check out a methodist church that runs a food bank and a soup kitchen that could use help with kitchen deep cleaning for health codes so that their regular volunteers can get a leg up and do some donor work. Still no word from the church group organizers. Lame.

Got to an agreement with a guy off Fiverr to do two homepage variants with accompanying style tiles for formatting of elements for $80. See how it goes and if it works I will give him more revisions and more pages. $10 a page, $5 a revision. This works because I already did all the information architecture and photo asset organization.

Took parents to Hometown buffet as organized and planned. It is nice to do something nice for them.

------ Up: 9am. B: hotlink, 3 eggs, 2 paleo pancakes, syrup D: 4pm - hometown buffet. Spinach salad, 2 small pieces steak, bite plate of mashed potatoes, mac n cheese, cornbread dressing, gravy, inside of pumpkin pie. Bite plate of desserts S: 6:30pm another buffet plate, mexican this time.... an enchilada, taco meat, cheese, sour cream. S: up too late packing had cheese and crackers

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/26/2018:
Sounds like a plan and happy to hear that you enjoyed some time with your parents too.

happy-1 on 01/27/2018:
Hugs



happy-1 - Thursday Jan 25, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Crap. 5am. I sat down to do a couple of things on pete's site before bed and completely forgot to go to bed. At least I got through the creative block and nailed down 2 key pages. I also floated a query to a guy on Fiverr in my time zone to see what he would charge me to polish up the pages. They look like I did them with my feet.

Sigh.

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1:30pm. Have been up for an hour and a half. Actually woke up on time at 8am, but taking Vyvanse when tired had the "opposite" effect and I literally passed out. I feel pretty calm and focused though. No "Maderall" crankiness.

This video is dead on how I feel about cleaning up my parent's place.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gcMm_aL3Cc&feature=youtu.be 

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Up:12

B: 1pm oatmeal, raisins, walnuts, protein powder, margerine

S: 6:30 pm - lentil pasta, turkey bolognese, veggies, mozzarella, parmesan

L: 9pm snack fest... tried to do a little bit of different things... mix it up to eat less. Felt "snacky", 1 paleo hotlink, seaweed, hummus, gluten free pretzels, raw almonds, 1 power cookie

S

D

S

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/25/2018:
Lucky you can sleep today!


horn_of_plenty on 01/25/2018:
so he's like a webdesigner? cool...too bad you aren't married to a webdesigner who'd do it free...lol...

lately i see some key good things about being married...but still enjoy by independence...i doubt i'll ever get bored of being independent

happy-1 on 01/25/2018:
Yeah there's a lot of different kinds of web designers. I do product management and will do the black and white mockups of what should go on the page but I just don't have an eye for color and layout. It is something I can buy for like $5-10 an hour in the phillipines, bolivia etc. If I'm picking skills for a husband, I'll take any ex-military and good with cars combo I can get


horn_of_plenty on 01/26/2018:
he should pay you to work on his site.

happy-1 on 01/26/2018:
I am doing this to have a portfolio site and to put the pieces I have learned over time together as a cohesive picture of my skillset. He has content and traffic. I'd have to develop all the content and generate all the traffic. I don't get the feeling that he makes enough to pay for a site like this. A digital agency would charge $500k + maintenance fees and maybe deliver half of what he was promised to do what I am doing.


bearcountrygg on 01/26/2018:
You mean you aren't getting paid to work for Pete?????

happy-1 on 01/26/2018:
No. I haven't done this before. I've done parts around it but not the whole of it. I have no idea if I can actually do it. Plus it's not like I am delivering on a schedule.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jan 24, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Up on my feet, more or less. My poor old pup peed the bed this morning. No more letting her sleep in. 3x this month now.

Back on the healthy eating. Hope I feel better tomorrow and can go to bootcamp. At least I was up on time today.

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Bummed because hot guy on dating site said "I'm not looking for anything serious but...". It's really too bad I can't actually punch someone through the computer. It's basically "I'm not looking for anything serious...  with you. Here, hold still." He was offended that I was offended. He was like... well not if you're not into it. I was like... why would any woman be into it after you say that? You've basically just said that you are just screwing them till you find someone you actually like. It sounds like the sex would be terrible anyway. Finally I was just like gotta go, ttyl. Augh.

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AAAAAND... trying to go through the church group and help out. But they are like slow as molasses. Tried to do a conference call to get direction etc. AND NO ONE SHOWED.

Why? Because they picked a drop date of Feb 10. Working backwards from that date I realized they need to get marketing support from the church by eod Friday and donation buckets decorated by EOD tuesday to get through the publication cycle for next weekend's services.

....And they haven't caught on to all of the realities of needing to partner with another group and be covered with liability insurance. And that if you are going to show up at another church, you need to do a donation drive first... nothing huge but something.

....And that the church's community is mostly following online via Instagram/Snapchat (even though most attendees live within a 7 mile radius according to traffic stats) and showing up intermittently so you have to plan your social media posts and trail to get people to make donations either online or in person at the church.

PLUS... the group is all chicks. The discussion is inane. They could totally use this opportunity to market a new 40+ christian singles group and pull in new blood.

I think this is why I don't go to church. 

I have $100 that says the teen lifegroup will get something stupid to trend on Snapchat or Whatsapp that they spent 2 seconds on and our group will look lame.

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BUT... Today I got a call from Molly and she is feeling better. She is trying occupational therapy to help with her RA.

I have $100 that says they tell her to try a Fitbit to help with her f-ing circulation.

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AND

For no apparent reason my parents continued their recent streak of behaving like semi-normal human beings by bringing home 3 fish tacos for me. They are nowhere near healthy... fried, tortillas, cream sauce... and blew my calorie plan for the day... 

BUT OMG THEY WERE FROM THE REALLY GREAT FISH TACO PLACE AND THEY WERE STILL HOT AND A TOTAL SURPRISE AND THEY WERE SO GOOD!!!!!

And I love my dog. She is the best.

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Up: 7am

S: coffee, half n half, a scoop of chai mix (85 cal + 40 cal)

B: oatmeal with protein powder, seeds, dried apples (350 cal)

S: orange (90 cal)

L: 3 fish tacos (1,113 calories)

S: brownie at starbucks (380 cal)

D: 1 cauliflower pizza (760 cal) + 15 pepperoni (140 cal) + sprinkle of parm (100 cal)

S: 

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Total: 3,058... OMFG. No wonder I am fat. Got to get back on the horse and the 7-8 cups of vegetables a day

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/24/2018:
good eating so far...

sorry about your bed, that literally STINKS!

happy-1 on 01/24/2018:
Yeah but she's my baby and I love her. Boiling up a pot of chicken thighs now and about to go for a walk.


bearcountrygg on 01/24/2018:
Our last house dog did the same thing...the carpet cleaner was in daily use for 2 years.....she felt bad when it happened too.

happy-1 on 01/24/2018:
aaaaaw


Maria7 on 01/24/2018:
Hope you are having a good day.

happy-1 on 01/24/2018:
One step at a time I will get it right. TY for your kind words.


Donkey on 01/24/2018:
I continue to send healing thoughts your way. I hope each day, you feel better.

happy-1 on 01/24/2018:
It must be working! I DO feel better. :-)



happy-1 - Tuesday Jan 23, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Up on my feet. Washing bedding. Not ready to drive anywhere. Tomorrow probably.

I still am not sure what I ate today.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/24/2018:
Glad you are starting to feel better.

happy-1 on 01/24/2018:
Hugs! Thank you



happy-1 - Monday Jan 22, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Another lost day, Monday. I feel better a little though. Should be functional tomorrow.

Ate tons and no idea how much seltzer I drank.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/23/2018:
Must be needing liquids and possibly salt, dehydration is a thing....keep drinking...hope today gets better.


horn_of_plenty on 01/23/2018:
good job on having seltzer and not other types of drinks with tons of additives


Donkey on 01/23/2018:
(((hugs))) Be kind and patient with yourself while you're sick. There will be time to get back on track when you're feeling better.



happy-1 - Monday Jan 22, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

236

Sunday was kind of a lost day. Woke up at 4am sick as a dog and had to cancel my plans. Spent most of the day looking for meds I bought last year in bulk for cheap I need to use up. Mom was mad at me for being sick, which is weird . Dog and dad were extra nice to me which was nice.

No idea what I ate but it was probably 2 or 3 times what I should have. I don't know why I get so hungry when I have a fever. I just ate too much.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 01/22/2018:
There is so many things going around this winter.....it seems like everyone is sick....Hope you feel better today!


horn_of_plenty on 01/22/2018:
feel better...the worst for me has been eating "old" food even veggies and being a little sick after that.

speaking of which, i've got old veggies with me today lol. and i didn't even cook them, my friend did...and i have no idea when he did!


Donkey on 01/22/2018:
I hope you feel better soon...



happy-1 - Saturday Jan 20, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Pms is finally over. I feel so much better.... augh. Also might be finally refilling my vyvanse prescription. I just feel so much better even though cramp monster is eating me alive. I woke up this morning, took meds, made coffee, ate breakfast and then tackled a present my dog left last night. second time this month. I also tackled attempts at repairing the spotbot, a miracle for old dog owners. I also took a pass at the screen door for the kitchen but may not have the right materials.

The thing about vyvanse is when I haven't taken it for a while and I take it I suddenly start cleaning and repairing things. I don't know if I just don't notice stuff is dirty and broken or I notice but skip it because whatever elses is going on steals my attention and I don't do the little stuff to clean/mend/fix and keep things in order.

Also, while Adderall helps me keep it together I wonder if the delivery system for me is really "madderall" because it gives some people rage issues but might just make me cranky. Logging everyday this month and maybe next will help me figure that out.

Glad I stuck close to home today. Lots of errands to run. Plumbing stuff, a slip for my nice dress, parts for the scrren door, bins to organize, some drug store odds. Also a good opportunity to go to sat night services again. Glad I dyed my hair and did my nails.

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More messages from friends worried about Helena. I think she's going through something and not telling people about it.

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Horrified to find my mom ate a ton of protein cookies. OMG. 450 cal, 2 servings of protein each.

She just said "no wonder my sugar's so high"

OMG

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Woke: 9:30
S: missed
B: misssd
S: coffee, half n half, lean cuisine extra mozzarella
L: 2 Paleo breakfast cookies
S: leftover turkey meatloaf, gravy, spinach, and potatoes.
D: lentil soup, cauliflower cheese pizza, sweet potato flaxseed
S: 2 hot links

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!


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