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happy-1 - Wednesday Feb 14, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 232.2

Happy Valentine's Day! Got a happy Valentine's text from my ex. That was nice. I sent him a card that has two chihuahuas sharing snacks. Just mailed it Monday but it might take a couple of days. I celebrated on my own by getting a bang trim and lunch at my fav burrito place.

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Woke up late... 9 am. Dad nuked tinfoil at 3am. Took me a long time to get back to sleep so I must have just kept hitting snooze.

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Freebirds is delicious but I get very little done here. And it is a huge amount of calories... Decent afternoon alternative to starbucks for sure... but maybe not such a good idea.

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Ooops... Not sure how I lost 1.2 lbs... in spite of myself apparently. I used MyFitness Pal to setup some recipes for the week... and came up with over 4000 calories for one day! Obviuosly not doing this tomorrow... but oops!!!!

MP: Power Oatmeal, 1 serving(s) 689 100 23 27 364 18
MP: Coffee and Half and Half, 1 serving(s) 81 3 7 2 30 0
MP: Kellogg's Quiche, Broccoli, Sweet Potato + Smart Balance + Drink Mix, 1 serving(s) 593 72 19 37 458 12
MP: Deli Lettuce Wrap + Veg + Dressing + Cheese Stick + Sweet Potato Crackers, 1 serving(s) 722 17 48 53 3,249 8
MP: Hummus, Veggies, Crackers, Cheese, 1 serving(s) 462 40 28 16 562 11
MP: Yogurt, berries, paleo granola, 1 serving(s) 1,208 88 87 28 488 57
MP: 2 Roasted Chicken Thighs + Veg + Smart Balance, 1 serving(s) 541 15 38 43 315 4
  4,296 335 250 206 5,466 110

 

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9am S: oatmeal and coffee, double serving on accident. Extra calories from half n half and maple syrup. Think there's something wrong with the cinnamon I used.

B: skipped

L: also skipped. Was dyeing my hair and was kind of full.

1:30pm - s: carne asada burrito bowl at freebirds, all the fixings.

4pm - extra snack... freebirds brownie

D: omg... post track workout I devoured a double bacon cheeseburger in a lettuce wrap from five guys

S:5 chicken wings and a mini pizza because **** it... i ran till i peed myself and then had to keep running. I deserve pizza.

Progress as of today: 75.8 lbs lost so far, only 52.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/14/2018:
I nuked something with a tiny amt of metal once....BIG FLAMES!!!!

happy-1 on 02/14/2018:
yeah... it was drama... and my microwave... glad to still be here!


graindart on 02/15/2018:
A few years back on the 4th of July, my dad (in his mid-60's) and 17 year old nephew thought it would be funny to throw a brick of firecrackers in the outside vent from the microwave. Destroyed the microwave. Entire family and some friends were over at our house for the holiday (25+ people). I was instantly furious, but able to keep control of my external emotions. I didn't blow up or start yelling, but I'm sure my face was probably bright red with eyes shooting daggers. My dad's only late-60's now, but his sense of judgement appears to be on the decline over the past few years.

happy-1 on 02/15/2018:
Lol!!! That sounds like something from Dukes of Hazard!!!!

Judgement or increased willingness to take risks before there are no more to take?


horn_of_plenty on 02/15/2018:
yep 4000 cal is def too much per day lol.

glad you had a nice Valentines - me too - i spent it happy at the gym!

happy-1 on 02/15/2018:
Good for your heart!!!



happy-1 - Tuesday Feb 13, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 232.2

Up: 7:50 Vyvanse took 2h to kick in... augh. Brain felt like a slug despite extra coffee. Slept really well though. It was nice to fall asleep to rain. We get so little here. It rarely rains, but when it does, its whenI left a half done project out that shouldn't have gotten wet.

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Omg... I made the best burrito bowls. The mexican coleslaw was what put it over the top... shredded carrots, red peppers, red onions, jalapeño, red cabbage, and jicama. Lime juice, garlic, honey, olive oil dressing. Omg!!!! How have I never thought to do that before ????

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Note to self: Making lunch instead of dinner kills all productivity for today. Only other thing accomplished today was purchase of a pair of slip on canvas shoes, grey shorts, and a pink tank top for summer. Last year I waited too long to buy summer stuff an the only stuff available in my size was hideous or poor quality. I don't need much but I'd like what I buy to look good.

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Did not make it to bootcamp. Teeth in back on left side hurt like the dickens all of a sudden. Glad I paid dental insurance but it doesn't kick in till July. Augh.

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8am S: coffee and half and half, oatmeal

B: skipped

S: skipped

12pm L: turkey burrito bowl with a lot of veggies.

2pm S: round 2 of burrito bowl, since I skipped 2 meals and have bootcamp tonight.

D: trader joes pizza and 5 pumpkin oreos because painkillers. Ow

Progress as of today: 75.8 lbs lost so far, only 52.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/13/2018:
glad you got good sleep...i sleep well every night these days...i can knock out, without help of any drugs at all, 10hrs easy at a clip!

happy-1 on 02/19/2018:
***burns***


bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
We are usually in bed by 10...and up by 5.....for us keeping that routine works.....and P.S.......I LOVE RAIN...especially when it is BEATING ON THE ROOF!!!!


bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
The burrito bowl sounds really good....never had one of those.

happy-1 on 02/13/2018:
LOL. They are a staple here. It's a way to limit your "hard" calories and still feel full. Just a little bit of meat, beans, spanish (cauliflower) rice, and cheese... Then load it up the rest of the way with veggies, herbs and cabbage shreds... Feels like you ate this HUGE meal for very few calories.


bearcountrygg on 02/14/2018:
Sounds really good.......the west coast and the Midwest have such different foods......I believe I have already said that about the east coast too...LOL Well I could say that about the south too! Viva le Difference! That does sound good.......It sounds light and tasty. I think here we are still into the warming comfort foods...and they are so heavy...but for our cold climate we do go to the heavy stuff....chili, lasagna, stew.....so...BIG Question...do you just put it all into a regular bowl? Or..........do you use a tortilla on the bottom?

happy-1 on 02/14/2018:
No tortilla. Going grain free... thus the bowl... Think burrito filling on the bottom.. beans, cheese, meat, then a salad and salsa and avocado on top.


horn_of_plenty on 02/14/2018:
turkey burrito bowl sounds AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!


Maria7 on 02/14/2018:
Hope you are feeling better today. :-)



happy-1 - Monday Feb 12, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 232.2

Ex found the spare key in the cup holder of his car. So I didn't lose it after all. Feel kind of bad that I went home last night instead of staying till this morning but I missed my dog and I was eating a lot of delicious simple carbs. Back on track today though.

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Up: 8am - a lot of neck pain so I stuck around the house longer than I should have cleaning and doing laundry . Got sucked into taking my dad out. Bought him lunch because he agreed to go to diner instead of mcdonalds. Then we went to the 99cent store where I lost him, freaked, then found him out by my car.

2:25pm... laying down for an hour to calm down. My heart is just pounding in my chest.

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Got a recruiter call for a job that was way over my head, but a good company. B of A. It required someone who was good at Blueprint process orchestration and getting everyone in the company to agree on stuff... That's usually what my boss does... But they only wanted to pay in my range, lol.

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Didn't realize till I posted my dinnertime snack that I forgot to log my weight today! I lost 1.2 lbs hanging out with my ex this weekend despite all the junk food I consumed Sat night and Sun lunch.

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S: oatmeal, coffee, half and half

B: kellog crustless quiche, broccoli

S: 2 cheese sticks and some crackers, I think. A little fuzzy on what I ate today

L: cheese burger in a lettuce wrap. Split an order of sweet potato fries with my dad. Ranch dressing side.

S: A whole bag of Popped sweet potato chips. So freaking addictive. Ate out of frustration when I got home when my dad interrupted my nap because he was so excited about our lunchtime conversation.

D: two servings of turkey meat sauce and spaghetti. I dunno if I was hungry or frustrated.

S: a valentine's cake pop at starbucks, posting homework and burning off aggravation with mom.

Ms: 10:30 pm- top ramen because it's raining and I am starving

Progress as of today: 75.8 lbs lost so far, only 52.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/12/2018:
It is scary when you lose sight of them...been there...done that too. I'm happy to see you spent some time with your Dad though.

happy-1 on 02/12/2018:
I aged 10 years. My heart is still pounding in my chest.


bearcountrygg on 02/12/2018:
When they start acting like 3 year olds you really have to treat them like they are....It's like taking a three year old shopping and having them too big to fit into the seat In the cart....they wander off and unlike kids...no one else in the store thinks there is a problem with them going out the door....if he had been a 3 year old someone would probably have noticed.

happy-1 on 02/12/2018:
I think maybe 12 right now? The thing is he can't see very well so he follows people who look like me except I used to be fatter so he follows orher women thinking they are me.


bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
oh.....it's so sad dealing with parents as they literally become childlike. If your dad can't see well that says a lot....he must have been so confused standing at the car waiting.....My father in law actually walked behind D's sister as she mowed the grass, my Mom danced in her driveway and totally freaked the neighbors out...sad....I'm at the age too...and I am really working on keeping my mind active with puzzles etc.....because I definately see D taking after his dad and I need to be able to take care of him.....My FIL was diagnosed with dementia...my mom had basically been goofy my whole life..

happy-1 on 02/13/2018:
More like obstinate. He knew he was supposed to wait for me at checkout. He's there mentally so far. He's not rhat old, It's related to diabetes so it is something he could have controlled if he had stepped away from the mcdonalds and gone for walks


horn_of_plenty on 02/13/2018:
congrats on your weight loss..keep up the good work on job hunting & searching - that requires so much effort & patience.

happy-1 on 02/13/2018:
Thank you!!!! One step at a time.


bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
I guess I should say that my Mom had 1 head injury before I was born...and than another head injury in a car accident when I was 10.


bearcountrygg on 02/13/2018:
Yes...diabetes does affect the brain....I'm seeing it in D now......and other relatives. He may also be in a battle to control with you too...

happy-1 on 02/13/2018:
Yeah. He's what do you call it... oppositional defiant? like if someone in "power" or an authority tells him he should do something, he tells them to stuff it. So ergo, nothing I can do.



happy-1 - Sunday Feb 11, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Kind of off diet track Fri - Sun. Went down to SD to see ex and had a very nice time. Stuck around an extra day and got my brain back together. Am currently in his comfy chair tackling scary tasks and applying for jobs... Something that I've been kind of spacing out on.

He was even very nice when I lost his house key. Sigh.

It's just so good to get hugs and hang with a friend to relax.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/12/2018:
i spaced out a bit this weekend too....it's such like you described...a paralyzing feeling :(...

took me thru lots of eating just to do laundry...glad it's all done, though...

happy-1 on 02/12/2018:
Hugs, I'm listening to American Gods on Audible. Super relaxing.


bearcountrygg on 02/12/2018:
You flew to S.D.? I'm glad to hear you had a good time.....applying for jobs in S.D?

happy-1 on 02/12/2018:
Drove down. Just 2hrs. Just went down to hang out for the day to hang out with my ex and came back up last night. He'll come up next time. He's on a cycle of half days off till they can do another hire.



happy-1 - Friday Feb 09, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Was up at 7 but spent till 10 in a kind of paralysis and not tackling the chores I need to do. Realized that it's because I am supposed to drive down to SD tomorrow to see my ex and I am in a paralysis from all the mean texts he sent. I just keep flashing through them and even though I deleted them from my phone as soon as they came in I remember the horrible sick feeling from the onslaught and freeze up.

---- Up - 7 S: 7- mp coffee oatmeal, late taking vyvanse at 8 B: mp - kellogs quiche, broccoli, more oatmeal S: mp - two no added nitrite turkey lettuce rolls with ranch. L: mp - apple slices, pb, paleo cookie S: mp - sweet potato fries, southwest dressing, extra was trail mix D: mp - cabbage salad, beans, rice, veg, bean burger, diet coke

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/09/2018:
Hugs...


Donkey on 02/10/2018:
Maybe pass on driving down to see the Ex. Food-wise looks like you had a good day.



happy-1 - Thursday Feb 08, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

There is nothing that puts me as full of hope as making a new female friend with her act together. K is a super cool lady I met at that meetup superbowl party and hit it off with. We got together for breakfast this morning and it was fun to sit and talk to her for a while. Have been really lonely with Molly not feeling hot and it was good just to sit and talk to someone with similar interests. She has a startup idea for dog owners that includes a social networking site and offered to pay me to do it for her... I winced at the "newbie" move but she's getting her international doctorate in business and knows how to do market research studies so I said I'd help her refine her idea if she helped me with my meal planning idea and we can just hang out and help each other.

She invited me to two things this weekend, lol. Except I am on my way down to see my ex this weekend and see if we can make another go of it. Happy Valentine's weekend to me!

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Went on a terrible OKcupid date last night that made my ex down in SD look good.

He deliberately avoided any personal questions on the phone and just wanted to meet in person... But I was just happy to meet him for coffee at Starbucks... It might have been a bad day for him and he was worn out, or it might have been the terrible choice of Starbucks (poorly managed location that was disgustng and uncomfortable), or it might be that he is more confused about picking a partner than I am... But it was really aggravating to go through. He is a 46yo British ex pat who is a religous Muslim, doesn't drink, smoke, or do drugs, and doesn't like living with pets and expects his partner to give up their dog or cat in order to live with him because he is allergic... or leave them at home to come to his place. He also doesn't like camping or doing anything that breaks a sweat outdoors. When asked why he isn't trying to find a nice lady in his group of friends, he answered that those women all want financial security (doctor, lawyer, engineer) and that he can't offer them that. But western women are more business minded and just want love and loyalty... and that he can do. He clearly pre-qualified me as not drinking, smoking, doing drugs, which left "dog owner" as his last obstacle. He positioned it as that if I held out for a guy that likes dogs, I would have to compromise and put up with cheating. When asked what he likes to do he said "I love to laugh and I am really funny." But nothing he said was funny... So I tried plling his chain with a fish story and he didn't call me out on it... And I let it stand because I suddenly felt awkward. So I ended up leaving and feeling bad because I inadvertently lied when I was trying to tease him with a preposterous fish story.

Never mind that on my profile my list of dealbreakers he hit like 5. 

UGH. HUMAN SPAM.

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Back on the horse for a new 60 day challenge. I want to do all the "homework" the strength training daily challenges this round. I always struggle with habit consistency so this will be a big challenge. I bought an 8x10 tarp I can spread out in fronnt of my house and put a yoga mat on to do the homework.

From the challenge summary:

  • Each day you will be asked to perform either a Cardio or an Interval Training Workout
  • Each day you will be asked to perform Homework--a prescribed number of non-timed movements.
  • Each day you will be asked to adhere to the Nutrition Plan provided in the Guides section of the app. Pro Tip: Pack up your food in small containers, so that it is readily available throughout the day.
  • Each day you will be asked to eat an appropriate amount of vegetables.
  • Each day you will be asked to avoid simple carbs.
  • Each day you will be asked to get between 7 and 8 hours of sleep.
  • Each day you will be asked a simple, open-ended question about a topic relevant to the challenge. This will be shared with other participants on the challenge feed.
  • Each day you will be asked to read a brief article on fitness or nutrition.
  • Each day you will be reminded of a healthy habit and maybe asked to give it some consideration.
  • Each day you should be able to get through all of the challenge tasks within 60 minutes. 

 

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Up: 8:30AM

S: Oatmeal, Coffee, half and half

B: Noah's Bagels eggwhite power sandwich, iced tea, 

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D:

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Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/08/2018:
Well....you did a lot of learning there.....Sounds like that bad date clarified a lot of things.

happy-1 on 02/08/2018:
Omg... right???

I started making a list of deal breakers by "gate" like what I need to know after 3dates, 10 dates, 3 months, etc


Donkey on 02/08/2018:
Your new friend sounds so exciting! I hope that your friendship continues to grow :-)

happy-1 on 02/08/2018:
Right??? That would be amazing.



happy-1 - Tuesday Feb 06, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

In bed at 10 and up on time at 7. Already ate so no weigh in.

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B: oatmeal walnuts raisin protein powder margerine

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2018:
yep. i like to weigh in empty too!


horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2018:
laughing at your response back to me ;)


horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2018:
breakfast sounds tasty...lately i carb load my breakfasts...on the weekend i have one of the lighter cereals, still tastes good (with onyxorgum) and dried cranberries and almond milk..so tasty. but it doesn't stick with me - i'm hungry in two hours!

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
That's why I like oatmeal. Sticks to your ribs, especially with a flax meal and chia meal boost. Rock solid in my tummy.


bearcountrygg on 02/06/2018:
I've been into the walnuts lately too...and weigh ins before eating are a lot more enjoyable.



happy-1 - Monday Feb 05, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Still in the running to get a red hat certification paid for by the state. Gotta turn in my packet tomorrow

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Had a nice phone chat with guy from croatia that left me useless for the rest of my day. If there is anything close to sin on a stick it is that man. That much sex appeal should be illegal.

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Took mom to see the shape of water and dinner. AWESOME movie.

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B: oatmeal, coffee, half and half, mocha mix. S: diet pepsi, quesadilla, taco L: turkey roll up, mandms D: chicken pho, 2 egg rolls S: diet pepsi

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/06/2018:
What is Red Hat?......Happy you had some fun with your Mom......and Croatian guy???????

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
It's a computer certification for being a linux sys admin. If I can get level 1 paid for, i'll have the cash to get the level 2


horn_of_plenty on 02/06/2018:
he sounds luscious.

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
You have no idea. I'm surprised he isn't afraid to walk down the street for fear of random women flinging themselves on him like an old spice commercial.



happy-1 - Sunday Feb 04, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Superbowl sunday... found a party off meetup in my area that I will check out. Passing on a jacuzzi with the croatia dude. I will be unlikely to keep my hands to myself. But super glad to know that part of me isn't dead and buried.

Plus I feel a uti coming on and just don't want to be messed with or go further than local Starbucks. Have been yelled at for two days straight, everything hurts from the food bank yesterday and I just want to go back to bed but that will make stress worse. Starting with washing sheets so that I can't just go nap. Still need to do my hair. Should probably shave my legs too. Bleh.

Starving this morning. Ate two enormous bowls of oatmeal.

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/04/2018:
Hope your day gets better

happy-1 on 02/04/2018:
Ty!


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
Why would it be bad to keep your hands to yourself...

but with a UTI, i could understand...be careful and lay off the yeast? or does extra yeast help?

also, lay off the sugar...i know that hurts.

happy-1 on 02/06/2018:
Because I don't want a broken heart when he goes back to croatia. He's from Chicago but works in software training in croatia. He's also not really a relationship guy. He's more of a go with the flow guy. So delicious but does not fit with my life plan. What fits is someone nearby and available regularly, and likes to go camping.


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
i mean, i know the sugar can cause a UTI...it causes inflammation in general...my face is SO inflamed due to hormones and my sh*tty eating as of late also.


horn_of_plenty on 02/05/2018:
not sure about you, but today i'm realizing i cannot be so stressed at work anymore...stressed that work is slow and i have no work, i'm just gonna read the textbook and relax before i blow up from the stress lol...


Donkey on 02/05/2018:
I hope today was a better day for you, friend!



happy-1 - Saturday Feb 03, 2018
(Paleo + beans + oatmeal + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 233.4

Having an "end of my rope" day. This is an illusion because everything is fixable... I just need to wake up tomorrow and try again. ---- Volunteered at the food bank again today. Weirdly stress and anxiety reducing.., but also daunting at the volume of cleanup for the yard sale. I kept sitting down to take breaks and having to pee. Think maybe my uti might be coming back.

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Have to remember to have a huge dinner available after the food bank so i don't binge on junk food.

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When you can't make anything go better... go to bed.

-- B: oatmeal, coffee, half and half L: mp- spinach salad S: mp-hummus and ceg S: mp-yogurt berries and granola D exhaution meal - lean cuisine spaghetti, 6 meatballs and a minni pizza extra cheese, brownie

Progress as of today: 74.6 lbs lost so far, only 53.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 02/04/2018:
Cranberry juice is the thing for uti's......low or no sugar if possible......hope you feel better


Donkey on 02/04/2018:
Yogurt with live cultures is supposed to help too. I hope it's not a UTI. Usually I can catch these early. I hope you can too.

Is tonight date night with Mr. Croatia?

That's very wise advice there about going to bed when the day is bad.



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