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happy-1 - Saturday Dec 28, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 11 of Noom

Had the best day out with my ex-ish. He gave me a Christmas gift... a fancy car fridge to replace the little one I bought that doesn't stay on. Aaaaaaaaaaaaw.  Then we went to a nature center and did the trails. 

I got to meet his little brother's dog, a high-energy belgian malnois. I really like that dog... It would be so much fun to try her on agility tricks. It was super weird though that their yard doesn't have a play set or any ramps or anything for a jumper breed. Also, she only had her crate in the family area, no separate bed to go for a time out without a cage. She also has an electric collar. There was no greeting ritual for strangers either. I kind of felt stressed out for her and wanted to change their house around to be better suited for her. Not my place though...

I topped 10,000 steps and did ok with eating today. I had too many chocolate covered pistachios. Also I should really be in bed already.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/29/2019:
Sounds like you had a nice holiday!

Donkey on 12/30/2019:
Sounds like a lovely date!

happy-1 - Friday Dec 27, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Day 10 of Noom

Assignment from Noom coach is to identify why I am having such a hard time getting to bed on time. I am tracking that this week to come up with it. Last night's bedtime was 11:30ish.

Took the pets for a walk yesterday and got to find out what my cat does when approached by an off-leash dog... A 6' vertical leap to my shoulder. It was a surprise. 

Getting ready for the new year with a vengeance... I have a usable yoga space and bike on a trainer. The cat has a perch/scratching post all to himself. The kitchen is clean. I am working on having healthier alternatives to dad's meal picks in the freezer... like homemade whole food black bean or turkey burgers to balance out his bottomless desire for beef burgers. I have to get my weight and cholesterol down.

Pics soon.

Tomorrow I see my ex-ish. We also said we'd do NYE... just Chinese and watch the ball drop. Put an impossibly hard year behind us. I am looking forward to two fun outings in a week. I think I had zero fun outings since the beginning of August except for the last two with him.

I can shake off this productivity slump.


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/28/2019:
Love to see so many planning on New Years resolutions/plans......we can keep that momentum up all year and have a super result from it...!!! Glad you are having some fun.

happy-1 on 12/29/2019:
I'm really trying to pull myself up and rejoin the world.

Donkey on 12/28/2019:
I'm picturing your cat's reaction to the loose dog - LOL! (smart kitty!)

I like your New Year's motivation! It's catching :)

That's nice that you'll be doing something for NYE. I'll probably nod off to sleep around 9pm... *sigh*

happy-1 on 12/28/2019:
He bounced up and down a few times first so I had to drop his leash. Then he did the shoulder jump. If it surprised me it shocked the dog owner.

happy-1 - Wednesday Dec 25, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Merry Christmas!

My resolution for 2020 is to make stronger and better choices every day.

Pets and I stayed quiet and tucked away in my bedroom. 

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/26/2019:
Merry Christmas to you too, sounds like you relaxed on Christmas <3

Your resolution is strong and powerful, comforting to hear and it motivates me to soon begin thinking of my own resolutions :)

Enjoy your day!

happy-1 on 12/28/2019:

Donkey on 12/26/2019:
Merry Christmas! My Christmas was rather quiet too which is fine with me.

happy-1 on 12/28/2019:
Merry Christmas

happy-1 - Monday Dec 23, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Extra post, which I deserve for not committing fat kitty murder.

Day 6? of Noom... So tired I have no idea. 

Cat kept me up till 4am. I binge ate in ways I am not proud of.

I was useless today. Took care of one critical business item for my dad and realized I was so tired I was punch drunk so I just came home.

I couldn't take looking at any of the unfinished projects in my bedroom anymore... Just endless procrastination perpetuating depression. So I pulled all the unfinished projects out into the living room and started putting them all together back in there. I actually got one of the mirrored screens fully attached to the wall and the vinyl floor rolled out like an area rug.

Going to continue to push on all my projects until I just can't keep going anymore and go to bed. 

One foot in front of the other.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/24/2019:
When things feel like they are mostly under control then relief comes. I also get overwhelmed and stop sometimes.....I'm making myself do things that used to stop me me more now...and I'm feeling a sense of relief from that. So often it only takes a few minutes to complete something that I had wasted hours or even days putting off before.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/24/2019:
feel better happy, seems you need some rest :)

Donkey on 12/24/2019:
Well, sounds like you accomplished at least one thing - and I'm guessing it was many things - so you did great in my book.

happy-1 - Monday Dec 23, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Big, fat, bored tom cat kept me up till 4am by scratching on the mirrored screens and put murder in my heart. So I finally decided on this cat tree... Beats kitticide. I am being trained by my cat. I am a little resentful that the cat is all plush, feeling better... and I took apart the harness so I can't keep control of him when I sleep.


PetFusion Ultimate CAT Window Climbing Perch 45&quot; Tall (Tree Sisal Scratching Posts, Modern Window Mounted Cat Furniture. Easy to Assemble) 1 Year Warranty for Manufacturer Defects 

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/23/2019:
Cat tree looks great, i hope your cat will love it!

bearcountrygg on 12/23/2019:
I'm sure he will love the new perch....ours has been sitting on the window sills watching birds and swatting the windows...LOL

Donkey on 12/24/2019:
My cats love their cat tree. I think it's a good investment.

happy-1 on 12/28/2019:
He's ignoring it completely :(

happy-1 - Sunday Dec 22, 2019
(60D on Noom and making every day count)
Weight: 216.3

Abandoning the 60 days of riding my bike every day. It just wasn't happening on any level. If I thought that was starting small, I need to start smaller. So... Switching course. Trying Noom for 60 days, and doing one thing every day to make it count.


Day 5 of 60 on Noom, Days that I managed to make count: 3 of 5

Noom's daily weigh in was up a pound. Today it's assignment was to identify cravings and social triggers.

I crave everything.

I have a hard time with negaitve social triggers:

  • Going out with folks from church or visiting them in their homes and there is always unhealthy food
  • Dad wants simple carbs and foods heavy in cholesterol and sodium and I can't resist treats when I am tired and they are in front of my face
  • I feel worn out and exhausted and I just feel like I need more energy to feel better.

For example, I actually made it to church tonight but they were having a dessert thing so I bailed out right away. Then I ended up at Coffee Bean but needed to feel better and so I had a slice of gingerbread loaf.


Had a date night with the ex yesterday. Had it's ups and downs but overall I think it was a win. Ate a couple of splurges. Yum. We met up for lunch at Veggie Grill and accidentally ran into a bunch of his friends from his martial arts studio. 3 big brawly tattooed tough guys and their adorable girlfriends. I had no idea what they were talking about... Something about training in Australia, kids in classes, different belt colors, and ice baths. Then we just hung out and ended up at mini golf, pastrami sandwiches, and a nice goodnight. I gave him his christmas present but told him not to open it till Christmas. Nothing major. Just a book I like and some candy he likes. Blink by Malcolm Gladwell. He'd never heard of the idea of 10,000 hours for mastery, so I figured it's a good holiday read. I forgot how good his company is. Just warm, kind, and solid.

Much like my big, fat tomcat. I had to take his harness apart yesterday so I can cut up the matching leash to add a couple of inches. I don't like the leash he has... too short. I don't see any leashes on the market that are appropriate for walking a dog and a cat at the same time... and I need a better tether for him in a car. He is lighter than a dog and really needs 2 connection points to not slide into the sides of the car on a turn.

Dad wanted me to take him to the grocery store again, but I said I needed today to reset for the upcoming week and stood my ground. He backed off.

 A couple of decent recipe ideas I came up with:

  • 1 pot veggie pasta... boil any frozen veggies in the freezer in a couple of cans of tomato sauce. Take angel hair pasta and break it down to smaller pieces. Scatter and stir into boilindg sauce and veggies... so that it can't clump up. Turn off heat and let it sit, stirring occasionally till pasta is soft and ready to eat. Portion out to single servings. Add baked turkey meatballs and top with parmesan.
  • Everything but the egg breakfast sandwches... Slice open a package of low sodium whle wheat breakfast sandwiches and portion out a slice of turkey, half a slice of low fat swiss as sandwiches, stick back in the bag and freeze. When you want a breakfast sandwich, take out a sandwich, toast the muffin, put the turkey, cheese, and egg in a bowl in the microwave. Reassemble. Solves the problem of someone eating all your cheese, meat, or muffins so that you can't make a breakfast sandwich in the AM... Aargh. Egg tastes better and is more satisfying. Whole wheat muffins are great with mustard, spinach, tomato and onion.

Making today count by getting ready for the week... Might be a good theme for Sundays:

  1. Meal prep... Black beans, breakfast sandwiches, broiled chicken, veggie pasta... Next up is black bean burgers.
  2. Cleaned out freezer
  3. Laundry
  4. Vacuumed
  5. Church
  6. An actual break at Coffee Bean
  7. Grocery run
  8. Packed up meals to single servings


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/22/2019:
Oh my that one-pot vegetable pasta dish sounds so yummy! And easy, too!

The "pre-assembled" breakfast sandwiches are a GOOD IDEA! (And they don't have to be just for breakfast, either.)

I'm glad your date went well :-)

happy-1 on 12/22/2019:
It is super yummy. Actually got some of it into dad tonight. He's never met a vegetable he likes... but if I drown it in tomato sauce...

happy-1 on 12/22/2019:
I have to say that I actually liked the breakfast sandwiches better with the whole wheat english muffins.

bearcountrygg on 12/22/2019:
I love that you are finding alternative ways to handle things...problem solving at it's best....always a winner.

happy-1 on 12/22/2019:
Like water on stone... Carving new paths.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/23/2019:
The social good times with your guy and his friends sound so nice. That's some really thoughtful gifts you got him - the book and his candy...it sounds very personal!

regarding going to friend's homes with no good food - maybe you can bring veggies? unless you aren't in the mood for veggies...then maybe grapes or fruit!? or seltzer?

happy-1 - Friday Dec 20, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Dog woke me up at 2am to go out to pee and I can't get back to sleep. Aaaaaack. Organizer comes at 10am. 4am and just have to get up and face the day.

One foot in front of the other.

--- PM update

Have to say that if it is 3am and I am all alone and missing my mom and miserable and all I want is a hug, it is a big blessing to reach over to a big mellow tom cat asleep on the pillow next to my head and pull him over for a cuddly sonambulatory purr fest. He is always just a few inches away and DTC... Down to Cuddle...  He misses her too and doesn't care that she was bat**** crazy either.She was just mom and a blinding source of love and everything is darker without her.

At least the load is getting lighter. All things in life should be as easy as pointing someone else at a giant pile of paper inbox trays and saying "That, do that". With the help of a professional organizer, 2 rooms of floor to ceiling paper were reduced to a table worth of plastic dollar store letterbox trays and then reduced again to 2 boxes of actual files that have tab dividers and I can pick up and take to a table and flip through to find what I need.

2 rooms > 2 boxes.

Still 2 rooms to go.

I think tonight I will use the last of the cheese to make pizza.

So far this week while toiling away on forensic paperwork, I have watched The Magicians, Lucifer, and am starting The Witcher. Spin up those suggestions!

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/20/2019:
You can do it...help is on the way!!! GO YOU!!!

happy-1 on 12/20/2019:
Thank you!!!!!

A nice plump tom cat is a big comfort... He was 8.3lbs when i got him, and he's about 12lbs now. Solid and strong tomcat.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/20/2019:
Your day sounds like it is going to improve as the day moves on!

happy-1 on 12/20/2019:
I got everything I could do done today. I did my best. Tomorrow I will rise and do it again... Hopefully with more sleep.

Donkey on 12/21/2019:
When we invited black Jack to come live with us (because his owner could not take him with her when they moved), I forgot how nice it is to have a solid tomcat to pet and hug. Not that I don't love my girls, but they are more petite and different. Jack is so nice, even if he has a bit of the Dark Side in him.

happy-1 on 12/22/2019:
Just a big, solid, living teddy bear to hug when I miss mom.

Donkey on 12/21/2019:
I so applaud your progress with the organizer. That is wonderful...

happy-1 on 12/28/2019:
TY. Trying. Every day. Some days I don't do much though.

happy-1 - Friday Dec 20, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Signed up for Noom yesterday. I feel the need for infrastructure in my weightloss efforts to get me motivated and keep to goals... Weight Watchers always seemed like too much work with the points system... It's easier to think in calories, fiber, etc. But there is something wrong with how Noom calculates calories. I like that they synch with Garmin, but then they don't take into account calories burned and then calculate your deficit. Garmin says I burned about 3,500+ calories doing chores then lugging my dad to the doctor, bank, grocery store, and home. I ate 2161 calories... for a -1300 calorie deficit. Noom says I am over by 861 calories. WTF?????

I did like the idea of an SOS Motivation plan that they introduced... See page 33 of this PDF


Basically you look for what habits you do as part of your plan and then track them and not doing something for 3 days in a row (for example) is a sign that you are falling off track and need a rescue.

I have a habit tracker app that I use that helps me track what key activities I did that day. So a bunch of red lights... Falling off course although I didn't think of it that way.

Today I fell off track. I ate on plan (except for 3 mints at the bank because I had breath like a horse's butt) until I got home. I started with 3 cups cauliflower rice, 2 cups spinach, 1/4 cup shredded mexican chicken, 1/2 cup beans. 1/4 cup brown rice, and tooooo much guac... But then I dove into my dad's ice cream. And 2 of his kaiser rolls with waaaaaay too much butter.


Pro organizer tomorrow. Then... a nap?

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2019:
so i guess it's garmin or noom....sorry they don't coincide...does it mean you should stop using Garmin for the calorie portion of it?

maybe next time have a little snack before you get home...this is what i used to have to do more, so that i wasn't as ravenous when i got home. the snack can be an hour to 30min before getting home...it can be anything small, like chocolate and seltzer or just a few sucking candies. something to get some carbs or even a few almonds into your system so you don't feel as hungry. this is what helps me tons.

Donkey on 12/20/2019:
Right there with you in the struggle with saying. I don't know what's gotten into me but it's not good.

We'll do better today, together, right?

happy-1 on 12/21/2019:
Augh... Yes we will.

bearcountrygg on 12/20/2019:
I did try Noom.....and had difficulty with it but I hope that you enjoy it.....I'm not a big online person with my phone and I might have enjoyed it more if I could have used the computer with it.......but You need to see how it goes and I don't want to say anymore until you see how it works for you.....I know some have really found it helpful........I hope it's like that for you.

Donkey on 12/21/2019:
I like the SOS system! I'm not sure how I feel about the eating plan. I 100% get the high volume foods and agree with that, but I also think that healthy fats and proteins help keep us fuller for longer. So for me, it would be like a big salad with a little bit of cheese and some dressing. Otherwise, I do not feel satiated nor satisfied.

But NOOM has the right idea.

happy-1 - Wednesday Dec 18, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Better. So much better. And horrified at the state of the house. I did not do much cleaning while I was sick. Will have to take my paperwork out to do it somewhere else. If I stay here, all I will do is clean and I can do that tonight.

In the self-defeating but not self destructive category of behavior, I followed the nutritionist’s guidance of caving to a craving but finding whatever is really satisfying to really kill the urge. Sams Club pizza was calling my name, but wouldn’t satisfy the craving so I went to my college pizza place on the way home and picked up a sausage and mushroom pizza. It was a lot bigger than I remembered so next time I will get a small one! I ate 5 slices over 3 meals yesterday. I feel bloated and too full today. Guess that’s a lesson learned!

Goals for today are to do any 3 items on my to do list and a walk to build up sleep drive.

Today is the last day I need to stay up till 2 to take my antibiotics so tomorrow I need to get back on schedule. I was actually up till 3:30 am last night because I couldn’t sleep. 

Trying to figure out a good yoga coverup and spotted this on Amazon... But I can't figure out what color. My yoga pants are charcoal, black, or teal. My yoga tops are black, grey, olive, or teal. Black could work... But I'm so tired of black.


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/18/2019:
HAPPY...HOW do you make an addy clickable...it won't let me!!!!!

happy-1 on 12/18/2019:
Might be browser differences? I'm on Chrome.

bearcountrygg on 12/18/2019:
I think you know what you want and how to get there.....I also get into my own way sometimes ...it's tough when we sabotage ourselves and I have to wonder why we do it.

happy-1 on 12/18/2019:
It's the getting there that's the hard part. It takes a lot of discipline.

bearcountrygg on 12/18/2019:
I LOVE the dress!!!

happy-1 on 12/18/2019:
Right? Thinking teal. Oatmeal would work (with grey/black/teal/olive) but it would show dirt.

Donkey on 12/19/2019:
I caved into cravings last night and I am really regretting it this morning, too.

So glad to hear you're feeling better!!

happy-1 on 12/20/2019:
So we give ourselves hugs and get back on track. The hug feels good.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/19/2019:
once in a while, i overeat sweets like a big slice of pie and i remind myself why having a small amount is just the same ...and better.

happy-1 on 12/20/2019:
And if I could stop... I'd be better off.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/19/2019:
once in a while, i overeat sweets like a big slice of pie and i remind myself why having a small amount is just the same ...and better.

happy-1 - Tuesday Dec 17, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day X of 60

Human. OMG. Stayed up till 2 am last night so I could get 2 doses of new antibiotics 12h apart... Feels weird to not wake up till 10:30AM... always throws me off... but so worth it. Not clammy/sweaty/tender/desperate to pee, just exhausted. I can deal with exhausted. 

Felt better enough to make dad breakfast and coffee.

Kitty is getting restless. Started running around and scratching the rug. Pulled out most of the fur on his tail. He's suddenly almost too fat for the harness I got him, so time to start walking him again. I slacked off when he started having his teeth go south, but it is time. My dog agrees I need to do something about that damn cat. She does not enjoy his random insanity disruptions. 

Tomorrow. Double sized coffee this morning. The milk powder and the mct powder in the shaker are so good I actually prefer mine to Starbucks now. I loved flat whites in Australia.

Goals for today:

  • post office
  • key copies
  • bank
  • 3 phone calls for personal business
  • sams club (again)

Doc sent me high dose Vitamin D prescription... Apparently low Vitamin D levels can cause fatigue, muscle weakness, depression etc. Today is the free day at the botanical gardens. I would really like to go but I think it might be too much for me. Maybe the Vitamin D supplement will make that sound like less of a marathon. Might manage $5 movie tuedays.


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 12/17/2019:
Seems everyone is doing the same thing lately - I also made copies of my keys last night so R can feed my pets when I am not home :)

Let us know what comes from taking the high dose of vitamin D. $5 movie is a great deal and good reason to go out :)

happy-1 on 12/18/2019:
Can’t beat that

Donkey on 12/17/2019:
You should start feeling some improvement from the vitamin D after a couple of weeks. My husband really noticed a difference. My levels were just out of range ... and I was dreaming with anemia, so I did feel better but it was more likely because of the extra iron.

Still, I call it sunshine in a pill...

happy-1 on 12/18/2019:
I’m not anemic, but avoiding daylight because everything seems too bright which is not my normal. I just don’t feel like being outside and I love being outside. I need to just start getting out 2h a day, with some skin exposed for vitamin d and sleep drive.

Donkey on 12/17/2019:
Go see a movie! I need more movies in my life, except they are so expensive.

happy-1 on 12/18/2019:
The theaters by me are $5 on Tuesdays, except I can never seem to get there on a tuesday

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