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happy-1 - Monday Dec 16, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day X of 60

Not feeling well, missed yoga. Couldn't get out of bed when my dog woke me up at 5 AM, felt cold, achey, and exhausted. Too hot and sweaty and it's like 65F right now. Picking up antibiotics today.

Partially missed yoga because I got bummed out last night. It's happening every Sunday night lately and I need to break that pattern.

Showered, dressed, and made the bed. Took forever. Just need to get up, eat something, go get antibiotics, and I can come home and go back to bed.


Home. Tomorrow (or more likely Wednesday) will be a better day.


No longer purple... But dye is still in my pores so I just look like I really, really need a bath.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/17/2019:
Ugh I hope you feel better soon! Get those antibiotics! I let a UTI go untreated, thinking it was a yeast infection (what the hell do I know?), and ended up in the hospital with 105 degree temperature!

Sundays have always been an issue with me. Evenings are the worst. (((hugs)))

happy-1 on 12/17/2019:
OMG. That sounds terrible.

I think I need to start wearing myself out on Sunday mornings to build up sleep drive. I can't spiral if I'm asleep.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/17/2019:
I'm glad you got that dye off your face. When i get to dying mine, would it help if i were to put vaseline or something on my hairline to avoid dying my skin???

also, i hope you feel better soon. you've been doing really, really well lately and so have your PETS! so i hope you get well soon to continue with your Happy Streak!

happy-1 on 12/17/2019:
It really adhered to the spots where I use metronid for rosacea. The magic thing for getting it off was a face scrubbing brush from the 99 cent store that uses batteries to make the brush head go round and round.

Vaseline sounds like genius. I don't know why I didn't think of that!!!!! The lash dyeing kit says to use that for dying eyebrows and lashes... I'd probably rub it into my hands, cuticles, neck and shoulders too.

If you dye at home, make sure you have extra gloves for dying the ends of your hair and for washing it out, and Comet cleanser for scrubbing your sink and tub.

happy-1 - Sunday Dec 15, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day x of 60

Pets gave me the morning off. Slept in till 8. Kitty has had enough hots and cots that he looks like a big plush toy (instead of a scraggly survivor), makes a big thud when he jumps to the floor, and is starting to play.

Was too tired when I dyed my hair last night and accidentally dyed my face... Hair is ok, face is dark purple. It'll shed in a couple of days or the hairdresser will have color remover.

UTI is back. New antibiotics tomorrow but no workouts today. I think I've lost almost 8 weeks of fitness to being sick or tired.


  1. Daily Coffee: Coffee, MCT powder, nonfat milk
  2. PBJ
  3. 3 breaded fish fillets, tartar sauce 1 tbsp, mustard, 2 cups veg.
  4. 1/2 serving mexican chicken bowl (chicken, beans, rice) + 2 cups veg, guac salsa, hot sauce
  5. Broiled chicken thigh, 1/2 cup brown rice
  6. Anxiety-based pig out on danish (4 pieces) because I don't want to stick out going to Chilis and be with people
  7. Angel hair pasta, pasta sauce, cheese. Emotional eating.

Watching "Married at First Sight" for background noise.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/15/2019:
sorry about uti (this has happened to me) and face dying (didn't happen to me yet...)

your kitty is so cute and so are you to feed him so well! :) how long have you had kitty that it's now getting more used to you?

happy-1 on 12/15/2019:
End of June? So 6 months. It was a battle to be sure but now I have a great little pack.

happy-1 on 12/15/2019:
Kitty doesn't care that I am purple.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/16/2019:
I hope you can get back on track soon...Tomorrow can be a better day :)

happy-1 on 12/16/2019:
Hugs, TY. The best is yet to come.

Donkey on 12/16/2019:
I don't envy you the UTI. No thanks!

Some days, it just really do be like that. I admit the alfredo sounds so good right now. Move forward from this.

happy-1 on 12/17/2019:
UTIs just suck. I haven't had one in years so I guess I got a bad one this time.

I wish I had bought shrimp!!!! No shrimp for me though... Cholesterol.

My go to pasta method is a can of tomato sauce, spices, mushrooms, and a cup of water in a pot brought to a boil. Add angel hair pasta to cook in the sauce. When cooked, fill pot to top with spinach, toss and cover. Becomes mostly veggies with a little white pasta so you feel like you had a lot of pasta but you really had mostly veggies.

Donkey on 12/16/2019:
Hey Happy - so funny that comment about your cat not caring if you're purple! Ha ha ha!

Try rubbing alcohol to get the stain out? It may be too late. I know if you rub the dye off your skin with rubbing alcohol after rinsing the dye out of your hair, it comes out...

happy-1 on 12/17/2019:
Kitty has his perks. The dye freaked my dog out.

The alcohol is a good tip. I will try that next time.

legcramps on 12/16/2019:
Oh well, a little color in ones' life never hurt anyone anyways...<3

happy-1 on 12/16/2019:
I'll remember that next time I tailgate for a football game??? Or do a color run!

happy-1 - Saturday Dec 14, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 16 of 60 

Actually feeling better. 

The pets are doing their best to get me on track. Dog woke me up at 5:45. I let her out and back in again then went back to bed. The cat walked up and down my body to make sure I stayed awake. I was shocked to get basic chores out of the way and to yoga on time... then topped it off with a grocery run, meal prep session, and more chores. Not even 12:00 yet. I feel like I just did a 5k.

Go pets... Good team. We'll be back to work and on our own again in no time if this keeps up.

Accomplishments so far:

  • Yoga
  • Meal prep
  • Endless chores
  • Dyed hair

Remaining goals:

  • Get a few things ready to mail on monday
  • Make a holiday list and get it done tomorrow
  • Dye my hair

Meals so far:

  1. Daily coffee + powdered milk + MCT powder
  2. 1 egg, unsalted butter, english muffin, 1/2 serving of danish
  3. Leftover mexican chicken, rice, beans, cheese. 2 cups veg
  4. 2 leftover scraps of diy low sodium pizza
  5. Orange


Annual physical shows high cholesterol, high sugar, high triglycerides, and an alarming Vitamin D deficiency.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/15/2019:
Sounds like this was a good day!

My slim daughter had high cholesterol at her last exam, too. Both my husband and I have vitamin D deficiencies - my husband was way, way low. I'm surprised though, since you live in a sunny state.

I think I'd be most alarmed by the high sugar levels!

Did your doctor give you a plan to handle these issues?

happy-1 on 12/15/2019:
I slacked off on taking my vitamin stack since mom passed, so the supplements were making a big difference across the board.

Sun... I don't leave the house much... Incrementally the dad issues and not having anyone to take a break with has discouraged me from leaving the house. I need to get a life again to get some daylight.

I emailed her back on the plan since most of her recommendations I am already doing.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/15/2019:
your meals sound delicious and healthy! great job. i sooo have to dye my hair soon...not too many grays yet, so that's the reason why i'm not too motivated to do it.

happy-1 on 12/15/2019:
You could totally do a tint instead of a dye... cover the greys and it washes out instead of dye.

happy-1 - Saturday Dec 14, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day x of 60... Not sure

Continued energy from yesterday... Got a traveling notary to come to the house to help dad with papers.  It was an all-morning project that thouroughly wore me out. I am just depleted. But I am digging myself out. I even got all the things I need to work on set up and ready to knock out.

Too many meals today with a late night eating episode of a pbj.

No bike ride. Starting to feel better. Less sweaty at least.


Ex texted. Wants to know when I want to get together. I said next Saturday. I want a real date on a date night.

And I'll be damned he said OK. 

I said "Can't wait to see what you have planned."

Oh... How much does he hate this?  Soooooo much.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/14/2019:
Each step accomplished is one step forward.

I was amused by the Ex. Well, let's see what he has planned. Could be interesting!

This reminds me of my husband and I. We go back and forth, "What do you want to do?" "I don't know, what do you want to do?" "Oh whatever you want to do..."

Repeat that a million times...

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
Yeah... The division on this is that he was super stressed and overwhelmed and couldn't pull it together to do anything fun and never on a Saturday. Now that he changed jobs and isn't living where he works, let's see what he's like.

horn_of_plenty on 12/14/2019:
Good job with ex - I guess stick to your guns and get what you want from him and then at least you’ll have some satisfaction for getting together with him.

It’s always good to be less sweaty lol I was on the train overhearing someone telling their friend to shower bc if you sweat you will smell lol. It’s funny to me bc most people know this without being told I guess

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
He's pretty great... but he is someone I have to push for what I want with. Probably the difference between being an only child and expecting to be able to ask for what I want and receive it because everyone around me is an adult... And having a *ton* of *enormous* brothers and not bothering to listen to any of them unless you got thunked on the head or there is an outcome you want.

happy-1 - Thursday Dec 12, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 14 of 60

Not feeling so great still. Pro organizer is back today...

Ex texted me good morning again. No word from the ex on whether he wants to get together for a real Saturday night date this weekend or next. It's not about a fancy evening out... it's about getting to go out when there are fun things to do that are out of the ordinary.

Not holding my breath. It would mean not seeing one of his friends for coffee at Starbucks... every Saturday night... to which I have never been invited. What I don't get is why this friend isn't seeing his own girlfriend on Saturday nights?

If I'm going another round with him, I want a Saturday night date at least once a month. Ex is awesome... just some tweaks here and there.




We're through the last of mom's "current" papers... We have a system... We each take a box, open them up... I have hysterical crying fits and sob about how much I miss my mom while I make rough piles out of things and then she makes them make sense.

Today the organizer and I went through piles of papers that we had put in the vague "important" stack and turned them into "grab and go" financial and health binders for my dad.  Not finished by any means, but at least something I can pick up and use on a daily basis to handle affairs... Financial statements are sorted into letter trays from the Dollar store, ready to be turned into files and put in the giant filing cabinets mom bought and was going to use "someday".

The linen cabinet is cleared out and ready to receive all the home health care stuff I shoved into my closet while I sorted out everything else... So that a stranger can easily access basics like kleenex, vaseline, hot water bottles and heating pads.

The kitchen is cleared out and everything is easy for a stranger to find something to make a decent meal for a sad old man. The pest problems have been resolved... for now. 

The dining room and table are completely clear of clutter and junk... You can just go in there, sit down, setup a placemat and eat dinner.

The living room has clear paths and trip-free walkways. You can sit on the couch, recliner or armchair without having to make space first. The broken window has been replaced.

Not at bottom yet... but I can see it. Hope is everything.

I even tried new recipes from sratch tonight... Chicken tinga, refried beans, cauliflower rice, pico de gallo....

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2019:
Pro organizer sounds like an amazing thing to have. Is she expensive!?

Yeah, i don't think you should push ex for what you want. honestly, if he wants more, let him show you without you asking. he should know, well, mostly know anyways. if you have to teach him too much, maybe it's not worth it.? my personal opinion only.

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
I look at her fees as cheaper than opportunity cost. Anything that gets me closer to going back to work and having an income has to be cheaper than staying here and spinning my wheels, desperately unhappy. How much more of my life does their chaos get to suck up?

I'm not pushing for what I want. I'm stating what I want, then waiting. I have plenty to do to get my life back to being my own. I'd like a Saturday night date. If he wants that to be with him... great. If not, I can use the time to get to bed early and get an extra yoga class in on Sunday mornings. If I go to enough yoga classes, get my stuff done, and keep on trucking... someday maybe I will have someone to go on a date with on Saturday nights.

BearCountryGG on 12/12/2019:
The organizer is really arriving frequently......I went through that when we downsized to sell the previous house and again when I had to clear out my parents house......in order to get through it...I was determined to touch things only twice....the first was to pick an item up and put it in 1 of 3 boxes, ( box 1 was keep, box 2 was donate or give to someone else and bag 3 was trash......that went to the garage.....the donate stuff went to the car immediatly and the give away was put in various boxes for others...the keep box got taped up and labeled for the movers)........as it was it took me almost 3 months to clear out my parents and finalize all of their paperwork and calls. I admit to taking a day off here and there but it was intense.

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
Augh... that sounds like a lot... I can't imagine.

The organizer is coming so much because I just can't face opening the boxes on my own. It's not the crazy collections of plastic bags and food wrappers that get me... it's all the flyers and clippings of places she wanted to go and things she wanted to do that she never got to try.

At least I got her one more cat to cuddle before the very end.

Donkey on 12/13/2019:
I thank you for writing about the organizer. I find this process to be interesting and so relatable. I'm so stuck in neutral, that I cannot even go through the smallest purge goal. I can completely understand how having a third party person to help you through this is so helpful.

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
I've just been so overwhelmed I've been frozen.

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
I could toss and clean stuff before she died, but can't do it alone after. It's a continuous replay of screaming childhood dramas over every washcloth or pen that couldn't be found. She knew I was more important than things... but she couldn't ever remember it in the moment. If I was trapped in a block of ice nobody would say "go get some boxes and label them... you can do this"

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
I am totally capable... after her first 911 call and hospitalization I went through her bedroom... a 15x15 room piled to the ceiling with recyclables and trash and mail... and somehow I cleaned it all out in one night. I just tore through it like I was possessed and got it out of there. I even threw out her bed and put mine in there. The motivation was that if she had been in there when her sugar fell, nobody would have noticed and she would have died. I didn't want her to be able to burrow in again where I couldn't see her.

legcramps on 12/13/2019:
I also love to hear your updates with the pro organizer...I would love to be able to do this in my house. Even though I live with very little material things, there is still a build up of junk that I can never seem to keep up with. I need a system!

It really sounds like you are having a good week; glad to hear it.

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
I would love to have a home that has space for people instead of things. Sounds like a good way to be.

You probably need a class in carpentry or wood working or something. I feel like you have a lot of gear but not a lot of junk... all of which is hard to store and access.

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
Like this must be your hall closet...


happy-1 - Wednesday Dec 11, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 13 of 60  

Feeling better enough that I think I will be back on the bike tomorrow and in yoga by friday. Had a dermatology appointment today. Apparenly he does not re-pierce ears.

Pro-organizer helped me get through the last of mom's "recent" boxes yesterday. I am so glad it was her going through the boxes instead of me... I had one that must have been repacked into a newer box... and found a few copies of dad's porn from the 60's and 70's. Horrifying on so many levels... and some were Playboys possibly worth selling... I had her stuff it in another box and refused to look at it or deal with it. She tried to get me to deal with it or toss it. I just wanted it buried again...

Like if you opened a box of Cheerios and found a thumb, screamed, closed it, and put it back on the shelf in front of someone else.

Trying to stay on track with eating today. So far

  1. Daily coffee: Laird's creamer, nonfat milk powder, coffee
  2. Greenlight PBJ: No sugar peanut butter, reduced sugar raspberry jam, whole wheat bread
  3. Deli counter best pick: Baked chicken, kale slaw, plain iced tea
  4. 1/2 caffeine-free diet coke, part of a 1 pot pasta meal: Tomato sauce, white pasta, mushrooms, frozen spinach, shredded cheese
  5. 4 breaded cod fillets, ketchup and tartar sauce
  6. Seltzer
  7. Greenlight PBJ: No sugar peanut butter, reduced sugar raspberry jam, whole wheat bread


Cat is suddenly pulling out his fur all over my bed. a) gross, b) scary, c) worried he's sick again. 


Ex wants to hang out again. I said how about a real date, any saturday night? Like archery or something holiday.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/12/2019:
Oh my, how shocking that must have been for you!

Good for you for requesting a real date. Proud of you!

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
The horror... the horror... Nobody wants to know what makes mom and dad tick on that level.

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
LOL I put it out there, but he didn't say "Great, let's go!"

BearCountryGG on 12/12/2019:
Going through other peoples possessions can be unnerving....Poor cat sounds like he is very nervous. If starting over with ex is in the picture it is a good time to change some rules. Good job!

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
It's weird what I am finding, but it's an unbelievable amount of junk. I can't believed they prioritized hanging onto all this junk over having fun, friends, and family in their lives.

I think the cat got stressed because I was out of the house for a while yesterday.

I adore my ex, missed him terribly, but if I want to be happy to see him all the time, I need a few tweaks.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2019:
I also was at the dermatologist yesterday, what a coincidence!

PB&J is always tasty, nice you can make it a little bit lighter. i'd like it with a seltzer or something on the side to fill me up, like coffee or tea.

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
Skin and teeth are what really show age, right?

PBJs are divine nectar of the gods... they can only be topped by... peanut butter and honey sandwiches!

happy-1 - Tuesday Dec 10, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 12 of 60 

Second day of antiboitics. Supposed to feel better tomorrow or the day after.

Feeling better enough that I don't want to keep spiraling in the downward trend of enslavement of taking care of dad, who has always confused parenting with child labor.His definition of what I should be doing is whatever he wants me to do whenever he wants me to do it. My definition of what I should be doing is making sure he has 3 hots and a cot, meds, medical/dental needs taken care of, and one excursion a week if there are no doctor visits.

Pro organizer is coming today. Diverting her time today from digging out that spare room to work on my papers. Unfinished paperwork is partly what is keeping me in slavery and poor self/health care. 

So let's get that knocked out. If I can't ride my bike with a UTI, I need to make today count a different way.


Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/10/2019:
How did today go?

You def have a good plan in store. My apt is def cluttered. I feel like i want to throw 50% of my stuff out LOL. I will def have to work on cleaning up, myself :)

happy-1 on 12/11/2019:
Space feels amazing.

Donkey on 12/11/2019:
You're making progress with the organizer!

happy-1 on 12/11/2019:

happy-1 - Monday Dec 09, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 11 of 60

Stayed up till 4am last night for no particular reason other than I wasn't feeling well, didn't look at the clock, kept watching tv, and didn't do the things I needed to do to go to bed. Cat was trying to tell me I was up too late but I wasn't paying enough attention. Woke up just in time to get stuff done for the day that absolutely had to get done. Resetting. Cleaning a little, took a shower, making a to do list.


Got my antibiotics and a restock of groceries from Sams Club.

Felt bad about short shifting dad the last few days whle I was sick (again). Caved on the heart-healthy diet options and got dad the Dominos pizza he has been going on and on about, but it wasn't hot, and he thinks he had better pizza when he picked up there with my mom. Not even anything I could do anything about... He had a meltdown and I went to bed early... like 6:30pm.

Am I being trained to not do anything he wants? Or trained to slavishly give in to whatever he wants?

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/09/2019:
Our cat also is a creature of habit...he does definately sense when our routines change...he will race back and fourth up and down the hallway and up and down the stairs...then ends up in a scratching post frenzy. This is the first cat that we have ever had that was so tuned in...he also appears to be the smartest cat we have ever had...

happy-1 on 12/10/2019:
Aaaaaaaaaaw love that.

This cat is definitely also smart. And I think he understands what you say to him perfectly.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/10/2019:
are you taking naps during the day since you are up so late these couple nights?

sounds like you are sleeping in ;)

happy-1 on 12/10/2019:
No. I don't ever nap unless I have a fever. I'm just not wired that way. Just try to go to bed earlier that night and keep doing it till I am back on routine. Last night I went to bed at 6:30pm and slept till 8am. I'll be back at 4am this week or next.

Donkey on 12/11/2019:
Wait, are you talking about being trained by your dad or your cat?

happy-1 on 12/12/2019:
My dad... But you know, it also describes the cat.

happy-1 - Sunday Dec 08, 2019
(60D: Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 10 of 60

Stayed up too late last night because I was tired????  Makes no sense.

Also was just mentally overwhelmed by all the unfinished projects in my room and the visual chaos that keeps pulling my attention. I need everything to be "out of sight, out of mind" or at least "in the spot it belongs" for a space to be productive.

I'm not getting the things done I need to get done, so I might as well tackle the attention glitches.


All I accomplished today was parts of little crafts... I don't know that it was an effective use of my time... 

  1. Bleached/vinegared part of a wall
  2. Fixed a towel rod
  3. Started making a ceiling light shade out of paper
  4. Changed the cat blanket to match my bedding

Also made dad dinner and did a small run to get supplies from the dollar store.

A little tired/sad today. Hopefully it is just a UTI and not full scale depression. 

Bottomless pit lonely today. I miss my ex + can't see a second round working out. Had two invites out, but not feeling well enough to go anywhere.

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
Mirrored screens with earth quake straps for yoga......never heard of those.

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
They are big room divider screens with mirrors on one side. My parents used them to hide boxes in the living room when I was a kid and they only had a 50 or so boxes, lol. I am putting them kiddie corner to each other so that I can put up a camera for online yoga instructors to check my positioning so that I do it right. There's only so much they can do if they can't see you or you can't see yourself.

Earthquake straps hold things up against the wall so they don't fall over. Since the screens will be flat they have no way to stand up.

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
Okay...I think I get it now. Thanks for explaining that!

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
I will post photos when it is finished! Right now it is a pile of junk.

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
I didn't know that there are online yoga instructors that did that.

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
They are actually pretty good. At least they create the momentum to do things at home. Inertia is my biggest battle.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
I understand the mirrored screens better. For some reason, I was picturing mirrors on a canvas, rather than a screen. Screen = window? Not sure what I was thinking, because I have a screen that I use to block off the litter box area in the basement. (It's not mirrored.)

I completely get staying awake because you are too tired. Been there.

You're doing a LOT every day, just taking care of your dad, even if it feels that you are doing nothing. Perhaps you did not go out because you were too tired. Caregiving is an exhausting endeavor.

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
I just need to attach them to the wall. Need to find my stud finder... Then figure out how to use it. Oh for a boyfriend that knows how to do this stuff... but I can learn to do this stuff.

Just spaced completely.

I have no idea where my time goes. It just is an endless energy suck.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/10/2019:
the yoga i used to do, like 10 yrs ago, was very time consuming and energy expending. i think if i did any, i could do it at home with my smart tv that Ricky got me! :)

Those are VERY interesting crafts that you started on! do you have to be careful to bleach the wall like that?

happy-1 on 12/14/2019:
You can probably do live online yoga classes with a smart tv.

I was shocked how well the bleach actually worked. It really took the mildew stains off.

It seems a little odd to work on crafts with so many more important things to do... but it is a huge stress reliever.

happy-1 - Saturday Dec 07, 2019
(Ride trainer for at least 20 min a day)
Weight: 216.3

Day 9 of 60

Got up at 5 (dog woke me up and then pooped on her bed while she was trying to wake me up).

Got to yoga at 8. Amazing class. I might be 2" taller.

Did errands.

Made dad lunch.

Tired in my bones. Super sore. Extra coffee not helping. So much to do. No bike ride today. Pushing sand.

Having an attack of the lonelies. I enjoyed seeing my ex, but I think I mostly just missed getting out of the house.

Making dad dinner.

Try again tomorrow.

More yoga?

Progress as of today: 100.7 lbs lost so far, only 56.3 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
Sounds like yoga is a positive thing!

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
Yoga is awesome. I felt so much better and more part of the world afterwards.

Donkey on 12/08/2019:
"Pushing sand" - some days are like that. Like Bear said, at least there was yoga. I hope you can make it to class again soon...

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
Mondays and Saturdays for sure!!! Working on figuring out more.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2019:
yes, those yoga classes are def amazing in terms of posture and how your body feels. i used to do yoga and still do a few stretches, they always make me feel taller and more upright!

yea, i agree about the ex.

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
Yoga is awesome. This instructor is particularly awesome. I felt one whole side of my spine snap, crackle and pop... I don't have a weird tilted feeling anymore. Why don't you go to yoga anymore?

He's awesome... I miss him a lot... there's just a lot that would have to change and I'd have to set and enforce a lot of boundaries... and it's just not where I want my energy to go to right now... I need to dig myself out and get back to work... But also it is hard to be totally isolated and not have anyone.

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